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Yoga was hard this morning…as it is most mornings. I do not wake up and put on Lululemon, stretch, strike a singing bowl, light incense, and then have an Açaí bowl with lavender tea afterwards. Yoga doesn’t look that way for me. As much as I have tried to “clear” my mind, my practice is when I become the most introspective. I breathe through some of the complexities in my mind and massage the knotted rope that is my brain before coiling it back up, only to have it become tangled up again.

I often ask myself why I’m so open and why I’m so vulnerable…why I choose to share my deepest most intimate thoughts on social media. “Why not put it in a book and get paid to share your experiences?” Right. Monetize my thoughts, feelings, and emotions…bank on my trauma and package it to hopefully “help” others while profiting from their trauma as well. Wrong.

I’ve been thinking about my life and how my decisions impact others. I’ve been thinking about my safety and how I protect others to protect myself. My safety…How can I possess something that I’ve never had? I have never felt safe. Maybe once…I felt safe once…I guess twice. I sat with my father in our living room…in the middle of the floor on this brown shag carpet during a thunderstorm…because the lights had gone out. As I’ve gotten older, I don’t know that it was ever an actual thunderstorm or just a warring in my mind as a kid, but what I did know was that our electricity was out for whatever reason.

My father held me during that storm.

The other time was on a Sunday after church. I went into Mama Let’s other living room and fell asleep. I woke up just enough to hear her telling one of my parents to let me sleep…preventing them from walking in and disturbing a good nap. I went back to sleep in the cool, dark room where framed faces on the wall would keep watch over me.

Otherwise, I have never felt safe. I have never felt protected. I do not feel safe. I do not feel protected.

I protect and preserve the emotions of others, the egos of others, the sanity of others by denying my own protection.

I have always considered the thoughts, emotions, feelings, and actions of others before I even so much as exhale.

Not in charity or for a pat on the back, but protection of others looks like: Not cussing out or confronting a racist or a homophobe or bigot so as not to make it uncomfortable for others.

I fear the loss of family and friends by being authentically me because in truth, people do not want you to be authentically you as it may or may not reflect them.

People do not want you to be honest if it exposes their dishonesty.

I have found safer moments in a community of my own thoughts, ideas, and identities than among a community of people.

This is for people who don’t feel safe and are coping.

This is not a cry for help, but it is an opportunity to think about the people you are charged to protect. Do you protect them from what you think you know they need protection from, or do you protect them from what they tell you they need protection from?

Do you love them because of who you want them to become or because of who you don’t want them to become, or do you love them for who they are becoming?

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Flow with me.

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MOVE. #bendyboy #posesmalone

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The strength to pick yourself up off the ground comes from realizing that you can...shaking off the doubt, and breathing through the pain or uncertainty. #yoga #yogadudes #bendyboy #posesmalone

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What I love about yoga...you can always come back to CENTER...your body remembers the bends...your personal practice is what you make it...mine is centered on forgiveness for now...forgiveness of self...Because oftentimes, the parts of my body that are locked, are locked because of my mind telling me, "You can't do this anymore...You've been gone too long..." Shut up and BEND. You gon be alright. #yoga #yogadudes #bendyboy #posesmalone

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GRATEFUL for this morning. #yoga #yogadudes #bendyboy #posesmalone #yogateachertraining

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G O O D F R I D A Y. #yoga #yogadudes #bendyboy #posesmalone

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There's pain in practice...there's beauty in that shit, too. #yoga #yogadudes #bendyboy #posesmalone

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Plan Of Attack: ATTACK! 🐼😏 #animalflow #bendyboy #yogadudes #posesmalone #panda

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#yoga #posesmalone #bendyboy #yogamenofcolor #yogadudes

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Back to me. #yoga #yogamenofcolor #bendyboy #posesmalone #yoga

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"I'ma READ, I'ma READ, I'ma READ...It's gon' be cohesive. It's gon' be my thesis. I'ma take that ----- to COLLEGE. I'ma give that ----- some KNOWLEDGE..." -Zebra Katz and Njena Reddd Foxxx #yoga #posesmalone #bendyboy #yogamenofcolor #yogadudes

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You can't always build a bridge to get over things...somethings you have to put things into practice and decide..."I'm over it." This pose represents where I was and where I am...To cower and bend before men in defeat...TO CHANGE DIRECTION, FEET FIRMLY PLANTED...and lift my HEART to THE DIVINE...and let that shit go. I AM the bridge. Thank you @leo_risingyoga for being a teacher, brother, friend. 💚❤️ #yoga #yogamen #yogadudes #yogamenofcolor #bendyboy #posesmalone

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Meditation get longer...I dropped the mental weights...I guess my conscience getting stronger. Grinding for that diploma...I do my Sun B's in stoked tees with myrrh aromas... #yoga #yogamen #yogadudes #yogamenofcolor #bendyboy #flexx #posesmalone

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Grateful for mobility and a forgiving body when I've been off for a few months. Full speed ahead...well...3/4 speed ahead. Lol #spiritualgangster #fitness #athletics #bendyboy #posesmalone #erossport

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Make a commitment to be the best YOU that you can be today. Love. #yoga #yogamen #yogadudes #yogamenofcolor #bendyboy #posesmalone #jirodlovesyoga