#poor insecure ian

[ohkate]

When you know, you know.

[viamia]

How would the boys from sunny day jack (and more games) be in jealous behavior, who would be more jealous and how would they behave?

Saludos desde MEXICO 😁

Thanks for the request buddy! I hope you like it

How snaccpopstudio guys act when jealous

Tw:jealous or envious behavior, mild sexual themes, but mostly wholesome fluff.

Jack:Alright, so we all know how jack is that of manipulative. I feel like if he were jealous of someone, he'd mostly like try to use manipulation tactics to make you only love him, similar to ian. He's not one to get that obvi possessive jealous, more like the subtle easy to miss type.

Ian: Lil pouty insecure baby. Poor guy thinks you leave him like that. He knows you love him, but he's just a nervous bean. For example, let's say a guy came up to talk to you, Ian's senses would immediately be goin off. When yall get home, you cuddle and console him that you won't leave him.

Nick: Now for nick, he'd probably show said flirty who you belong too. For example, man would give u Lil nibbles and love bites on your neck. After that he just takes you home, and yall just chill on the couch and play with his pomeranians.

Shaun: Grouchy baby. Mam would hug u from behind and look like a big baby. Man's wants his hugs and he wants u all to himself to hug and give smooches too. Man would probably pick u up cause he like that, take u home, and yeet u onto the bed and watch movies and eat snacks with you while moonpie vibes with yall.

Bo:mf ain't hesitating for shit to let the person know your his. Man Will glare them down like he'll tear them to shreds at the mere second they even gets a inch closer to you. The moment they get close he just picks u up and walks away, keeping u all to himself. He does some, certain things to you when yall get home as a reminder of who u belong too *wink wink ;3*

Taylor: Poor Lil nerd baby. You immediately notice his pouting face and reassure him everything is fine. You take him home and watch ghost movies together and binge eating snacks. Pls give him reassurance otherwise he'll be a mess. He loves your attention and care.

Elias:So when elias gets jealous, you'll clearly see his upset/pouty expression. He'd be kinda questioning about it but when you explain that your not interested in said person, he Calms down. When you return to the mansion (I'm going off by ending A for the truth if I'm right so) he bakes you some goodies and yall read and have tea together.

This took, WAY TO LONG TO DO. Srry for the immense delay and I hope u like it

[ilions-end]

ayyy euripides' electra time (ian johnston transl.)

i really feel i approached the three electra plays in the perfect order. the libation bearers to get me hooked, sophocles to make me frustrated and want more, and now euripides to fullfill all my secret fantasies

that is to say WOW what an initiative electra!! like in aeschylus, her path is so much clearer to her than orestes' is to him, she carries all her hate and resentment on the outside, but while aeschylus only lets her put the plot in motion and then retreat into the shadows, THIS TIME SHE PARTICIPATES. this time HER HAND IS ON THE SWORD!!! oooh delicious

i think this one also balances the weight of both murders (clytemnestra and aegisthus) more evenly than the others. personally i really like how aeschylus underlines how insignificant aegisthus is even as he dies, but now this is kinda my second favourite portioning of revenge

i DON'T MEAN TO COMPARE THE PLAYS SO MUCH, it's just i'm starting to develop LAYERS OF UNDERSTANDING here. whoops

also euripides MAKING FUN of aeschylus' electra comparing her footprint to orestes', by making her go "pshh obviously his footprint would be a different size to mine"?? i want to go back in time and tell euripides "did you think when they said their footprints were alike they were talking about SIZE? bro. omg." i am so annoyed by an ancient playwright misinterpreting another's play it's actually embarrassing.

i did enjoy euripides throwing in "hey, this might be crazy but uhh have we considered that maybe poor people can be noble and rich people can be morally corrupt" every other scene though. i bet that blew the mind of the upper class athenian audience

electra going "you dare imply that my brother would SNEAK into argos and our father's burial place like a COWARD? like a fucking LOSER with NO GUTS?". priceless

WAIT WHAT, that one-line reference to castor once trying to seduce electra. that took me by surprise. EW EW EW THAT'S YOUR SISTER'S DAUGHTER, DUDE. i'm not usually surprised at incest in greek mythology but i want to bap his nose with a rolled-up newspaper. YOU'RE A DIOSCURI, ACT LIKE IT.

yesss we love a despicable aegisthus. the vicious insecurity, the effeminate coding. myrtle flowers in his hair. electra saying whenever he gets drunk he goes to agamemnon's grave to throw stones and kick and shout abuse. oh little man you feel your own inadequacies so strongly, don't you.

but also mmmmm how this version makes the most of out of orestes' abuse of the laws of xenia. he is invited in as a friend! he's honoured with sacrifice, and turns around and commits murder with the sacrifical tools! he does the honourable thing in the most perverted way, OH it's so crunchy

i'm so emotional about electra speaking her grievances, both directly to her mother, and also how orestes encourages her to vocalize all her anger at aegisthus' corpse.

she yells at dead aegisthus what a fucking IDIOT he was to think he could seduce a married woman, marry her, and expect her to be faithful to him. it's so true it's so true

clytemnestra continues to have a point about everyone making a big to-do about her infidelity, when her husband brought back cassandra and was just gonna be like "yeah i'll have two wives (one a mad, enslaved priestess) it's fine it's normal why are you judging me".

augh how electra and clytemnestra's big confrontation made me nauseous, it's so realistically a portrait of an abusive mother who CARES about her daughter, as if that excuses the way she treats her. as if all the abuse is the fault of the child. "Why do you let your husband be cruel to me?" "That's how he is. And you have a stubborn nature." MAKING ME ILL!!!

ELECTRA'S HAND ON THE SWORD. FINALLY SHE'S ALLOWED TO HOLD THE WEAPON, TO KILL HER MOTHER.

and then OF COURSE comes the well of emotion, of bitterness, of sadness, of affection. "There. With this cloak i'm covering up one who was loved and yet not loved." AUGH AUGH AUGH IT HURTS SO GOOD

[taegularities]

My rant about CMI 13🥰

Hiii Rid, I just finished catching up with CMI and pls I loved it so much. Reading the 2 chapters gave me so much comfort. I really needed it so I am very grateful for you and your writing. I am happy I found you! The whole hometown arc was AMAZING! I think this chapter was my favorite of all time. I loved how jk‘s mom and his brother were so welcoming and nice. 😭 Ria is such a sweetheart I loved her! And it was so interesting to see how the jealousy slowly grew from the beginning of the chapter and later exploded at the wedding. I personally loved the bicycle + strawberry plucking scene and the fountain +gift scene the most! It was so heartwarming and so fluffy. Their love is so pure and innocent like it makes you wonder if a love like this truly exists and if it does how lucky they are to have it.🥹 I wrote many things down for this chapter so I am having troubles typing it down LMAO. But the whole NARA situation goddamn it was so good, like I am a sucker for drama so it was chefs kiss. Oc‘s overthinking and her insecurities were portrayed so well, I could feel everything she felt and this shows how great of a writer you are! I am happy Nara spoke to Oc at the end and that they both cleared the air. I also felt a little sad for Nara cuz it’s hard growing up with your first love and yk growing apart and breaking up with the one you thought was the one for you… but tbh I am glad the Nara plot ends here cuz I love my girlie Oc. THO I must say I am interested in Nara‘s life like what she does and who she will meet and fall in love with. She deserves all the happiness cuz she seems like a nice and kind person. LET‘S GET TO THE MAIN TOPIC THO! HIS FATHER! He is such a freaking jerk! Jk didn’t deserve this at all like no one does… poor guy… The fight between jk and his father was soooo damn intense. I stopped breathing while reading. I am happy tho that he realized his mistakes and will work to better himself. It was DAMN late but at least better late than never. But it will understandably take jk a long time to process this and (maybe) forgive him. He deserves so much better… I LOVED how Oc supported and him while he broke down and confronted the jerk of a father. She is really an Angel. You did our boy Christian dirty tho LMAO (The smut was amazing as always🤭) BUT YK WHAT BROKE ME ? THIS:

“But even though you colour in all the spots in his room—

You think that in turn, he colours in every patch of your soul.“

This owned my heart right there and made me tear up. Thank you for your hard work! Sorry that this got so long.💜

NAWH and i'm happy you found me and have become my friend, too <3 oh gosh, your fav chapter ever?? that's a huge thing for me – i'd been planning it for so long and genuinely loved writing it, so this means a lot, love. with the jealousy as its key part and then things resolving, i was so curious what y'all would say lmao and the reactions to cmi13 were just what i wanted and needed.

i bet a love like this exists somewhere… things might seem hopeless at times, but we deserve this, too, so let's keep hoping and manifest the words i write into reality. also, i am so happy you could view the nara situation from all perspectives. like yeah, the whole thing was intense, but honestly, i feel a bit sorry for her, too? after all, jk wasn't just her boyfriend in the past, he was her friend as well. so to lose all that, even though she's moved on, must sting at least a bit. hmmm, maybe i'll elaborate on nara's life someday!! good point hehe.

NAWH THE FIGHT THO… i was holding my breath writing it, and idc if it's my characters, i was very happy jk flipped like this :') oc will always be there for him. let's hope that the only way's up. jksfnksf i know i did christian so fkn dirty, but i had no choice 🤣 maybe i should write original ian fic someday and give him the affection he deserves lmao

the last line… yeah– that's all i'll say. just yeah :') sigh. thank you for always reading bby <3 i will always wait for you, so don't stress yourself about getting to a chapter at all. i'm just so thankful for this msg <3

[yukidragon]

Ian was saying that more complex toppings were more ‘mature’ (as opposed to plain cheese pizza which admittedly is popular with children) plus cashews are expensive/fancy/healthy. Is he trying to project a more sophisticated image or something?

Is poor Sunshine the familiar, reliable but boring childhood comfort food he’s leaving behind to try something (or someone) more adventurous and glamorous?

Does he at one point start to see himself as outgrowing them? (In the opening of the game Sunshine expresses the opposite, implying Ian is the one childhood thing they’re nostalgic for. Ouch.)

He seems to talk about cheese pizza like they always get it, like it’s the safe fallback option… hmmm…

Googling brings up stuff about cashews being offered as a pizza topping in some places in the Northwest, others say it originated from some place in California called Dave’s Gay 90s. Can’t speak to the truth of that and don’t know why a young man living in Texas wants it, but perhaps it reflects his aspirations.

California is apparently home to a number of actors that have made it big and perhaps that’s where his acting school is?

So the cheese pizza is his safe childish past with Sunshine and the Californian cashew pizza topping is symbolic of the acting success he’s hoping his adult future will be?

I don’t know, I’m not American

Your analysis is very insightful. I think you did a great job with it. I really like the idea of the pizza being a metaphor for MC and Ian's relationship.

It would sadly make a lot of sense that part of why Ian cheated was because he outgrew the relationship and MC. It/they didn't satisfy him anymore. He wanted new, exciting, more mature things. MC was safe, nostalgic... a piece of Ian's childhood.

It makes sense too why after Ian cheated, MC recklessly abandons anything nostalgic. They're trying to move on from those feelings that Ian took for granted after the cheating tainted them.

It also makes sense why Ian is so desperate to get MC back, as new things, however exciting, are scarier than something safe and familiar.

Sometimes I've heard stories about couples that were together for years since they were teenagers who clicked just right and seemed perfect for one another... only to end abruptly when one partner suddenly starts wanting more. They want to explore independence, other relationships, and everything the world has to offer. They could even regard their partner as perfect even while their feelings have cooled, lamenting that if only they met later in life when they were ready to settle down in a serious relationship... then everything would feel perfect. They wouldn't be feeling this restlessness. The relationship would actually feel satisfying to them.

Then those same restless exes, after cheating, breaking up, whatever, and losing their former partner... They discover that they miss their ex despite being the one to break their former lover's heart when seeking freedom. The other relationships, though exciting, aren't as fulfilling as the childhood sweetheart they dumped. If they can at least stay friends then there's a chance of getting back together, but if not... then it becomes terrifying as their safety net is gone.

Speaking of the fallback option, there's this one picture that isn't necessarily canon where Ian talked about MC as if they were his fallback option if acting didn't work out.

Credit, as always, goes to the awesome Sauce. Sorry about the cropping, but tumblr will not accept what's to the left of this image. You can check the full NSFW version out here if you want to see Ian and MC going at it.

BTW consider checking out the SnaccPop Studios Patreon. It's got a lot of other nice and spicy things. Just don't repost anything posted there.

Ian might be showing his insecurity here, but consider the timeline. If acting worked out, he leaves MC to go to his fancy acting school. There, he seems to have made it as a model and actor... and it's (presumably) where he cheated. He got what he wanted, all the excitement and fame of the life of an actor... including an exciting tryst... then he realized that he betrayed all his ideals, everything he said before about only loving and wanting MC, and his relationship with MC all for one moment of excitement.

MC was the comfortable option, the nostalgic option, the safe option... but sometimes a person just wants to take risks, to "grow up" and be adventurous... and sometimes that leads to reckless decisions, like what happened with Ian.

We might not know for sure exactly what led Ian to cheat, but he knows he messed up, as he admits to himself in the demo. He knows he wrecked a good thing... and that's why he's so desperate to get his safe nostalgia back.

Guess cashew pizza wasn't all that it was cracked up to be, was it, Ian?

@channydraws @earthgirlaesthetic @sai-of-the-7-stars @cheriihoney @illary-kore @okamiliqueur

[lovelytayforce]

THANK YOU for the Oogway defense!!! Villains are fun, especially sympathetic ones, but acting like they’re some poor misunderstood sadbois ironically just takes the fun away from them. It’s really people not wanting to admit they like villains, which is ironic because they claim otherwise. The need for stans to villainize benevolent figures that correctly called out their faves as immaturely evil just comes across as insecure.

Np, I tend to be the dude always saying what needs to be said. I think villain stans here in kfp just want their hcs to be true so badly which is where the insecurity comes from, I can't tell you how many times Tai fans I've spoken to outright forget his animosty toward others and his own damn Father who we watched him do the following; - Throw him against a STONE COLLUMN - Punched him through the roof - Asked him to commit fraud regardless of Oogway's passing - Choked him out and probably would have killed him had Po not arrived. He's just a terrible person and I wasn't shocked Ian (Hia VA) realized that guy was never gonna change, he's like his dad; always thinks he's right but unlike Shifu he never opens his eyes. It's why I love him, he's a loser and an idiot who could be perfect for being a loser like villain no one takes seriously anymore if he was ever revived cause its been years. But everyone wants that Prison Break Tai Lung, overestimating how smart and cool he is, ignoring how he fell apart at the end of the film. So, his fans emulate him in a way, an insecure child who always wants to proclaim they are right and everyone else did them wrong despite the evidence showing otherwise. Which is why they dislike Oogway so much and "distrust" him because he told the truth, there was darkness in Tai lung's heart and he had so much time to change that but never did. And they can't handle the latter part, I mean just look at all the Tai redemption arc fan media we have out here and how many VIEWS they get its wild, No hate cause I read Traces of Spring as purely fan content. It's a funny and sad reality we live in. And don't get me started on the Shen fans, at least the Kai fans are funny and don't make weird art about genocide survivors deaths. But that's a story for another day.

[skaruresonic]

Not trying to choose sides but blocking isn't a bad thing and nothing really anyone should lose sleep over, I block idw sonic fans and I block nsfw Sonic artist, sorry, makes me uncomfortable. I also block Prime sonic fans because those fans get triggered as soon as you point out how bad it is too. XD

I'm in the fandom on my free time, I don't want to deal with negativity or annoyance and I don't want to argue hours on hours about why I like or don't like this one Sonic thing. It's a waste of all of our time. Gotte focus on the games we love right?

I'm lucky so far I have not once been bothered by Satam fans whenever I call the show a pos. :P

Again, I don't mind blocking for curation's sake. I mind when people make a big moral issue out of it, especially when A.) blocking anyone even tangentially associated with us suggests someone out there may be keeping tabs on us, and B.) they still complain that we owe them a "conversation" even after being blocked. I know they're not being good faith, they just want an excuse to lecture and stonewall you forever.

No offense, as I know you didn't mean this, but even chronic discoursers have hobbies and concerns other than discourse; just because all you see is what a person posts online doesn't mean that's the only thing they do.

Personally, I've been straying more into VN work. Spent all day yesterday creating a few ambient sounds with SoundTrap.

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I'm lucky so far I have not once been bothered by Satam fans whenever I call the show a pos. :P

Yeah idk what it is, but some SatAM fans (note I'm not saying all of them) are the most insecure fans I've ever seen. The show's been off the air for decades, and yet if you speak about it in an even mildly negative manner, someone will roll up to your post like "SatAM gave us GREAT TELEVISION and they did their best with the crumbs the games gave them." It's weird too because Omens devs the occasional outlier notwithstanding, you don't see Sonic X fans behaving as though X was still relevant to the series. Not only is "poor SatAM creators had nothing to work with" laughably untrue given the evidence we have at this point, (evidence which includes Ben Hurst's own words btw, but somehow they're just as allergic to his words as they are toward Ian's whenever he says something that doesn't fit their narrative), I like their assumption that the game purists ought to appreciate, or at least overlook, the implication that the games are less deep and fleshed-out than the TV show.

And then they pull surprised Pikachu faces when you're like "hey could you not shittalk the core series in order to elevate your dead, obsolete, and largely niche continuity? pls and thank"

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

My weekly roundup CW 12

Well, I watch a lot during the week, as you all might know. I really want to write a little bit more about the stuff I watch, but time and work kind of get in my creative way. So I try to write down my thoughts after watching stuff to create a little weekly ranking on my, most of the times, quiet sundays (and because I love lists and this is a good excuse for me to create a new OneNote journal!).

Jack o'Frost was on hiatus this week, so it didn't make it on this week's list.

↑ 1. Our Dating Sim (Episode 5+6)

Oh my God! What a development! Now they are a couple and I am in seventh heaven with them. Eddy takes every opportunity to show Ian that he really really likes him and at the end of the 5th episode he is rewarded and so are we, with one of the best k-bl kisses there is. And the sixth episode has been pure fluff, right up to the last minute. I enjoyed every second of it, Eddy trying to ask Ian out, playful Ian liking to torture Eddy a bit, them both holding hands, that incredibly sweet scene where Eddy teases Ian that he knows very well that Ian has been watching him all along when he had his eyes closed then tells him I'll close my eyes now, do what you want and Ian just kisses him, jealous Eddy and that cute scene on the roof…. All except that darn text message…I'm dreading the next episode. But incredibly strong two episodes this week. It was definitely my favorite watch this week!

↑ 2. Unintentional Love Story (Episodes 3+4)

Won Young, you are cute, but sometimes you can't get a hint! Tae Joon tries to tell you that he likes you, and as we've already seen, he's a bit… socially cool and distant, and then you sit there and don't understand that he's talking about you, whom he likes. But at least you're cute and make Tae Joon smile. The show is so good. And you can tell that Won Young is starting to doubt if what he's doing is really right, because he's also starting to develop feelings. Please clear that up in a good way. I'm so scared of the drama yet to come. It's going to break my heart to see Tae Joon rebuild his wall that he's been clinging to for so long and in which he built a small passage for Won Young. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. I hope for a happy ending, but I'm really afraid that it will be a hard road until then.

↓ 3. Chains Of Heart (Episode 6)

Mr. Lue's dream. The wish that Ken touches him, that he accepts him as he is, that he loves him and holds him tight…I think that was one of the best scenes of the series so far. Especially the tears in his eyes at the end. And Mr. Lue's attempt to convince Ken to give him a chance, to allow him to protect and love Ken. My poor Mr. Lue heart really had to suffer this week. The most disturbing scene for me was our one-eyed man and how he danced with the woman…I just find him unsettling. And I was most confused after the scene between Mr. Lue and Don. It felt like the two knew each other or Don knew more than others. As always a wonderful series, great settings and atmosphere and I'm looking forward to next week.

↓ 4. A Shoulder To Cry On (Episode 3+4)

Okay, the "I like you" scene in the gym was a bit too much for me, but I can understand Dayeol so well. I would have been super embarrassed by this whole scene and in such cases you just sometimes react headless, muddle your thoughts and then it just comes out something like that. That he avoided Taehyun afterwards, I can also fully understand, but it was nice to see that he does not avoid him, but continues to seek his presence. And in the end we just see pure self-protection. We see an insecure Dayeol, who tries to push the other away by hurting, redirecting his own pain, so to speak. Heartbreaking start to the fourth episode. Those familiar with the webcomic knew what to expect. The backstory is indeed not pretty. It is cruel and sad and a little bit you can understand why Taehuyn shut down his emotions. The trauma is strong in him. So it makes me all the more happy that the two are getting closer and Taehyun is actually learning to open up and talk about his past. And Dayeaol, a sweetheart as he is, is probably the first person ever to tell him that it's not his fault and that plus the look on Taehyun's face broke my heart. Good episode!

→ 5. The Promise (Episode 5)

Somehow the feeling didn't quite come this week. Phu's approach was a bit too daring for someone who left his best friend behind because he was in love with him and didn't know how to deal with the feelings. The fight at the end was also a bit too contrived. Before, Nan was totally happy that Phu was back and didn't question anything and then because of that one lie, he turns up and throws things around like I never want to see you again. He's hurt, no question, but those were extreme emotional leaps. Especially considering the beginning of the episode and how touchy Nan was there. And no, I wasn't yelling at my screen that they should just kiss already. Not three times at least…just two.

→ 6. Bed Friend (Episode 6)

Aw King…I feel a little sorry for him. He tries to show Uea that he likes him a bit more than just FWB, and then he goes to the arranged match. I mean, I almost understand. King needs some confirmation too. Uea's wall makes it hard for himself to show King that he's looking forward to the trip, that he's also already investing more emotion than just FWB. And of course he builds up his walls again afterwards. Because he just realized that King can hurt him, that he's developed feelings and that's something he doesn't want to do. Because if he's vulnerable, then people will hurt him, that's his experience. So he pulls back again. He would just have to open his mouth and tell King that he wants him and King would be the happiest man on the planet and carry Uea through life on his hands. And Krit…that nasty m*therf*cker! I can't stand him and hope he just disappears along with Uea's mother. And the outlook for the next episode looks exhilarating...damn.

→ 7. A Boss And A Babe (Episode 4)

Cher is jealous and I love it! We get to know part of his backstory and understand why he doesn't like going back to his hometown. The ignorance of some people is terrible and I feel sorry for Cher that he had to lose his best friend/first unrequited love that way. He seems all the more confused that he is slowly but surely developing such feelings for Gun. I'm curious to see what happens next when Cher is no longer employed there as an intern. For my taste there was too little ThiZo this week, I hope that changes again next week.

↑ 8. Tin Tem Jai (Episode 4)

I have no idea how old Tin is supposed to be. He's looking for his major in college, but quite often behaves like a stubborn little kid. And Park knows exactly which switches to flip to get what he wants. I don't like that so much. And there's the sweet boy again, who is quite enraptured by our Tin, and of course is all the more delighted that fate has brought them together again. And of course, he's a senior at the university and flirts wildly. And Tin seems to like it. Kana is a sweetheart. He could have hugged Pao a little longer, but his "I'm always here for you" line could have been spared.

↑ 9. PastSenger (Episode 3)

It was clear that Baiwan would fall in love with Kiao and it was also clear that Frong would not leave her alone. There were very sweet moments between Bamee and Kiao. The fact that Baiwan can tell Bamee so openly about her crush on Kiao and Bamee suffers silently hurt a bit. At least the episode was better than the previous ones, but I'm not quite convinced yet.

↓ 10. All The Liquors (Episode 7+8/Final)

Yeah, I don't know, the series really didn't excite me. Even the last episodes couldn't help. The start was good, I liked the first episodes and just thought it goes in a slightly different direction. In the end, however, Han Ji Yu has not necessarily become happy without alcohol, but has converted the previously abstinent chef to alcohol and I sit here and ask myself what the message of this series should be. Should we all drink more alcohol to be sociable? Can we only be sociable and outgoing if we also drink alcohol? I manage to be sociable without alcohol with people I know and like, despite my shyness. So yeah, I didn't think it was particularly good, and the kisses were numerous for a Korean series, but they could have easily just been left out. No one wants to see two dead fish kiss...

[texanbutcherdutton]

Please welcome Ian Dutton (HE/HIM/HIS) to Huntsville, WV. They are a 26-year-old VISITOR who lives in TOWN. You may see them around working as a BUTCHER/TRADER. Poor unfortunate soul. We’ll see if they survive.

quick facts

Name: Ian Mark Dutton Nickname: Thing 1 (DJ only) Age: 26 Faceclaim: Nico Greetham Pronouns: He/Him/His Sexuality: Pansexual Moral Alignment: Neutral Good Occupation: Butcher/Trader Role: Hunter

[+] passionate, high energy, empathetic, disciplined [-] insecure, self-sabotaging, know-it-all, passive

background

Ian doesn't remember much about his parents, all he knows is they weren't good. At some point some nice lady came, then he and his twin brother were sent to live with their grandmother, the only family member willing to take them on. That was when he met his step-cousin Zel and his cousin DJ, though DJ would leave a few years later for the Coast Guard.

Life on a ranch wasn't bad, his brother was the hot headed one with a chip on his shoulder. Ian was more content to get lost in busy work or reading, the quietest of the Dutton boys, even more so when DJ was around. DJ was the closest thing Ian had to a father, like Zel and his brother they clung onto him. When DJ announced his family was moving, it was the first time Ian felt actually bitter and lost. Even more so when they fully went missing along with Dahlia's sister years later.

Folding in on himself, he threw himself into school, and like the older boys even enlisted in the Coast Guard. At that point it felt like the only way to be close to DJ. He hated seeing Zel run themselves ragged trying to keep it together for everyone but there wasn't much he could do. When Zel had his breakdown, Ian did his best to help pick up the pieces, offering to go with him for closure. Mostly cause after talking to his twin, they agreed that Ian was better suited for it. Now in Huntsville he's back into the habit of closing in on himself, unsure of how to feel about being trapped away from home.

misc

Ian was diagnosed with OCD, autism and adhd in high school. His OCD worsened when DJ and his family went missing. Knowing how close they came to death doesn't help any.

Has two hunting dogs, a beagle whose name is Sarge and an American Foxhound named Tiny. They were named by the twins, Maya and Alexa before the family went missing.

[stefankarlfanblog]

One plus one equals 15

Article written by Sigurður G. Valgeirsson for Morgunblaðið on the 18th of September 2012: https://timarit.is/page/6028253#page/n29/mode/2up

Brilliant "Hilmir Snær and Stefán shine in this show, exactly as they did at the end of the year 2000 and all the characters are memorable" says, among others. in a review of the play Stones in his Pockets

Stones in his Pockets by Marie Jones. Actors: Hilmir Snær Guðnason and Stefán Karl Stefánsson. Design and costumes: Elín Edda Árnadóttir, Lighting: Halldór Örn Óskarsson, Translation: Guðni Kolbeinsson. Director: Ian McElhinney, Assistant Director: Selma Björnsdóttir. Premiere on the big stage of the National Theater on 15th of September 2012.

It is a good example of how active our imaginations are, despite everything, that two actors, who hardly change their clothes and have no special props to help them, can playfully keep a large hall captivated for over two hours.

In order for this to be successful, however, you need both a good story and excellent actors, and that applies in this case. Stones in his Pockets takes place in a village in Ireland where a big movie is being filmed and many of the townspeople have a job as extras in it. The work is actually turning a Hollywood film on its head, showing what really happens to the supporting actors between the time the glossy film is created. The opposite is the plot of the blockbuster, its stars, director, assistant director and security guard - people who live in some kind of artificial world.

The work paints a picture of the poor employment situation and limited opportunities of the villagers, weak hopes and broken dreams. The main characters are Jake Quinn, played by Stefán Karl Stefánsson, and Charlie Conlon, played by Hilmir Snær Guðnason. In addition, the partners act as thirteen characters, so it can be said that this is a show with many people.

Jake Quinn was born and raised locally. He has tried his luck in the United States but came home again with his tail between his legs. Charile Conlon has been laid off and suffered trauma. The former is extremely heavy-handed and full of accusations against himself and others for everything that goes wrong, the other is a bit of a clown who tries to make fun of most things. Underneath, however, there is a difficult experience.

Hilmir Snær and Stefán shine in this show, exactly as they did at the end of 2000, and all the characters are memorable. I especially mention Mickey, an old and experienced supporting actor played by Stefán Karl, and Jack Campbell, Caroline's security guard, which Hilmir Snær fills in well. Hilmir Snær also plays Finn, who is insecure and has a slight stammer, with great genius so that you instantly recognize the character.

It's especially nice to see how those companies manage to portray women. Hilmir Snær treated the movie star Caroline Giovanni so well that there was a real electric atmosphere between her and Jake Quinn. Stefán Karl was also very entertaining as the ambitious Aisling. She is the third assistant director, but she is aiming higher.

The show is all very well executed and the transitions flow perfectly. We can thank Ian McElhinney, the experienced director of the work, who has directed it in many places with a good reputation, including when it was shown in Iceland last time.

One of the things that made this show especially fun was how the band played to the audience and how the audience was drawn into the piece. Among other things, one of the spectators was forced to become a willing participant to the considerable joy of those present. Then the dance act of those partners is fantastically elegant and fun. In short, it was a memorable evening with good work and even better actors.

[koronkowy]

Summary

🌐 Introduction to Kubernetes Security:

Ian Coldwater discusses Kubernetes security challenges, highlighting its complexity and the risks of insecure defaults.

The session covers the evolution from virtual machines to containers and Kubernetes, emphasizing how these innovations brought scalability but also new vulnerabilities.

🛠️ Common Kubernetes Security Issues:

Insecure Defaults: Early Kubernetes versions left many ports and APIs open by default, making them easy targets for hackers.

Configuration Variability: Different configurations based on cloud providers, user installations, and plugins create inconsistencies and make hardening difficult.

Notable Hacks: Examples like Tesla and Weight Watchers being hacked due to poor Kubernetes configurations demonstrate the risks of insecure setups.

🔒 Threat Modeling for Kubernetes:

Understand the adversaries' motivations, whether financial, ideological, or opportunistic.

Targeted attackers exploit open ports, exposed credentials, and outdated versions with known vulnerabilities.

Threat models should consider external attackers, compromised containers, and insider threats.

🔧 Practical Security Measures:

Harden APIs: Use TLS for secure communications and limit access to APIs.

Update Regularly: Keep Kubernetes updated to leverage newer, more secure versions.

Monitor Logs: Maintain audit logs and monitor activities outside the cluster to prevent tampering.

Apply Principles of Least Privilege: Limit access permissions to prevent lateral movement within clusters.

🚀 Defensive Strategies:

Use tools like static code analysis and Clair by CoreOS to identify vulnerabilities.

Periodically test containers and applications to ensure no new vulnerabilities arise.

Reduce attack surfaces by restricting communication and locking down networking.

[sonic-wildfire]

SONIC FRONTIERS REVIEW, 11/15/2022

WARNING: This review may contain spoilers for the game.

Sonic the Hedgehog has had a rough transition int--

Actually, you know what? Nah. Fuck all that noise.

Sonic Frontiers, the much-anticipated latest outing from Sonic Team and company, has finally hit the market on everybody's favorite day (hint: not Election Day). Although previous games have tended to streak -- that is to say, many consecutive mainline titles released within only a few years of one another -- Frontiers is the first major outing for the blue hedgehog since 2017's Forces, which polarized critics and users alike.

But gone are the days of Twitter arguments over whether the "original character" gimmick had gone too far. Gone are the days of hearty debates over whether Infinite was a legitimately formidable villain or a poor excuse for one. Gone are the days of the Sonic franchise being content on settling for simple mediocrity or spirit-crushing averageness.

Frontiers' arguably marquee selling point is its stylistic shift from past installments. Rather than rehashing the platforming route that has yielded out-of-step results more often than not, Sonic Team took a bold risk by steering the game into a semi-open world direction. It's here where players first begin to recognize that this Sonic game is going to be different. It's the breath of fresh air that the franchise sorely needed in one way or another after over a decade of relatively lackluster efforts. But fret not, platforming enthusiasts; platforming levels, called Cyberspace levels in the game, are integrated into the game's story to ease you into what Frontiers has to offer.

Speaking of the story, it takes a darker but much more genuine direction. After ten years of Ken Pontac and Warren Graff writing inoffensive and frankly awful storylines, renowned Sonic comics writer Ian Flynn takes the helm for Frontiers. In short, Dr. Eggman creates an AI named Sage for his new plans of world domination. After the software goes awry, Sonic and his friends are suddenly forced to deal with a new problem: they have been trapped on the Starfall Islands, with Amy, Tails & Knuckles becoming trapped between the physical world and a digital dimension. Sonic must race against the clock to save his friends from being corrupted by cyber energy, but he too has a nasty run-in with the unexplained power and jeopardizes his own life as a result.

Unlike the serious tone Forces had attempted (and failed at miserably), Frontiers comes damn near close to shooting a bullseye on this go-around. The game takes a deep dive into the characters in a way that hasn't been explored in a Sonic title since the Adventure era. Whether showcasing Amy's gradual transformation from just being a self-proclaimed love interest of Sonic to a valued de facto fourth member of Team Sonic, Tails' growth from being confined to Sonic's shadow to being formidable as a hero in his own right while maintaining his brotherly bond, or Knuckles' wisdom and insight into his role as guardian of the Master Emerald and his own insecurities and jealousies, Frontiers fleshes out the characters and gives them new life. Even Sonic, who looked to be little more than a one-trick pony in the 2010s, has found his groove again as the confident-yet-caring hero he was always meant to be. There are loads of character development within this game, and it is an absolute delight to witness. But what this game perhaps best accomplishes is the ability to make the player feel a wide range of emotions that appear all over the spectrum, from glimmering hope to crushing pity. This story has the majority of everything you'd want in a Sonic story.

The voice acting in this game ages the characters a tad bit. Although it didn't work out for Cindy Robinson's rendition of Amy, it played out fine for the rest. Roger Craig Smith's outing as Sonic might not be his very best, but is certainly solid. Colleen O'Shaughnessy continues to prove herself as the definitive Tails voice while Dave Mitchell sounds to have found his niche playing Knuckles. Mike Pollock continues his Eggman dominance as per usual, and newcomer Sage is given a fittingly artificial but humanoid-sounding set of pipes by voice actress Ryan Bartley, perhaps best known for her role as Hanako Kamado / Makomo in Demon Slayer.

Gameplay also takes a step forward into the limelight. As part of Frontiers' step back from platforming, a new combat system fortifies Sonic's skill set. Players will encounter countless enemies that will take more than a simple homing attack to take care of. Sonic is provided a myriad of moves and combos, with certain skills only becoming available after progressing through certain parts of the story. Stats can be upgraded by collecting special seeds for power and defense, and by finding lost creatures called Koco for speed and ring capacity. Pulling off crazy combos and mowing down enemies is super satisfying here, especially as Sonic levels up and becomes stronger. As the player progresses through the five main islands of the game, Sonic can complete puzzles to map different parts of the island and discover portals, mini-bosses and story collectibles called "Memory Tokens" as a result. Combined with the semi-open world environment that encourages and even rewards players for being curious and exploring their surroundings, the gameplay is a total blast that will almost certainly satisfy those with a taste for exploration.

As for the Cyberspace levels, they remained consistent to the feel of Sonic's earlier platforming titles but utilizes a somewhat stale and repetitive level design by constantly having the player revisit Green Hill, Chemical Plant, and Sky Sanctuary, to name a few. Nonetheless, these stages can sometimes be pretty fun to play through (given you aren't grinding out attempts to complete some of these levels in S-rank time like I needed to). Thankfully, there's also Big's fishing minigame that's very simple and soothing. It's arguably even better than some of the Cyberspace levels.

The music has always been one of the Sonic franchise's strongest suits and it keeps up with the trend here. Buoyed by a handful of pummeling metalcore numbers courtesy of Sleeping With Sirens' Kellin Quinn, Merry Kirk-Holmes' cinematic "I'm Here" serving as the main theme, and the buzz of One OK Rock's "Vandalize" as the credits closer, Frontiers embraces the abrasive and turns in a spectacular soundtrack as a result.

The environments, particularly the five main islands, are visually stunning and are perhaps the best-looking lands Sonic has seen in years. Although colorful and vibrant, Frontiers simultaneously manages to capture the bleakness associated with stumbling upon massive ruins of a once-great civilization that fell abruptly to some larger foe. There are signs of former life all over the Starfall Islands and the game lets you know it upfront.

In all, Frontiers is a chief calling card for Sonic's renaissance. Though a bit rough around the edges, it's a valiant first attempt at a new direction for the blue blur that manages to hit many of its spots and take its players on a journey that they won't soon forget.

Final Score: 9.5/10

[mostlysignssomeportents]

India's 'toxic' ed-tech giant

Byju’s is a titan of the Indian ed-tech market, and its flagship program, The Learning App, has 40m users and 2.8m paid subscribers; its valuation is about to climb to $21b; it’s been on a spending spree, buying up competitors in Asia and the USA.

But as Akanksha Singh writes for Rest of World, the company’s sales culture is rotten from top to bottom, with sales staff hustling poor parents to take out predatory loans so that they can hit their sales targets.

https://restofworld.org/2021/inside-india-edtech-byjus/

The article quotes an anonymous former sales person who says he sold a Learning App subscription to a driver with only $9 to his name, whose fees were directly deducted from his paycheck and whose wife pledged to work 24/7 to make up the difference.

And it quotes ed-tech activist Pradeep Poonia — a former ed-tech worker — who describes a host of deceptive tactics rooted in the fact that “Edtech is trying to solve problems that don’t exist.”

He describes a sales pitch that plays on poor parents’ insecurity about their children’s future, that gets them to buy into expensive gadgets and programs that have little relationship to providing a solid educational foundation for their kids.

Singh’s sources include “7 current and former employees at Byju’s,” who describe the company’s pivot from emphasizing private tutors for wealthy families to subscriptions for poor parents who can’t afford them, coupled with predatory loans.

Singh cites an investigation by The Ken, which found that a majority of consumer complaints were from customers who “were unaware they were being signed up for loans when they signed up for subscriptions.”

https://the-ken.com/story/the-loan-crisis-at-byjus/

The app’s ToS allows Byju’s to mine subscribers’ sensitive personal information, which, in turn, feed its sales pipeline, and former sales associates describe how this is used to prey on illiterate parents, with kids being asked trick questions to make them look ill-educated.

One former sales associate summarized the pitch: “Your son can be nothing in life if he doesn’t go with Byju’s — and if you, as a parent, can’t [secure] your kid’s happiness and future … you might as well have not had kids.”

Byju’s sales funnel starts with a “free” 15-day trial, but the internet is full of complaints from customers who found that after the trial, they couldn’t opt out of an ongoing subscription, or get a refund.

There’s a common thread between Byju’s and predatory ed-tech companies in the US, like Proctorio. Proctorio has made a practice of threatening and suing its critics, like Ian Linkletter.

https://pluralistic.net/2020/10/17/proctorio-v-linkletter/#proctorio

Byju’s also sued a critic, launching a $2.7m defamation suit against Poonia in retaliation for a Youtube video in which he mocked its Whitehat Jr subsidiary (Byju’s eventually withdrew the case).

https://www.businesstoday.in/latest/corporate/story/whitehat-jr-drops-rs-20-cr-defamation-suit-against-critic-pradeep-poonia-294974-2021-05-04

Poonia has also documented the hard-sell culture inside Byju’s, posting a video of a sales manager abusing an associate, and in the comments, other Byju’s staff say this is a common occurance.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9Mhky5v-Wk

Parents everywhere worry about their kids’ education and life-chances, something that’s only been inflamed by the lockdown and rising inequality.

There’s a palpable sense of panic, as if the world was a game of musical chairs and your kid’s chances of getting a seat were anything but assured. In that environment, it’s terrifyingly easy to convince parents that they need to take on debt to protect their kids’ future.

The irony, of course, is that indebtedness only increases precarity and robs families of the security that is the foundation of a good education and a resilient mindset.

[ianenjoyer]

here by unpopular demand: why Ian and Mickey are narrative foils 

For reference, the definition of a narrative foil is a character who contrasts with another character (usually the protagonist) to highlight qualities of the other character. 

1. introduction to the show

Mickey is introduced to the show as an antagonist and somebody out to get Ian who, at this point, is the ‘protagonist’. He’s presented as the direct opposite of Ian: dirty, obviously not well taken care of, crass, homophobic, etc. As the show goes on we learn that most, if not all, of these things are a defense mechanism and not actually indicative of who he is but before 1x07 these are the only things we know about him. Basically, he’s introduced as a stereotypical neighborhood thug contrasted against sweet, hardworking, ambitious Ian.

2. family

The Milkoviches and Gallaghers are narrative foils, too, and in better world the show would have explored this even further but I digress. They’re similar in the way that they’re both poor Southside families trying to make money to stay afloat but the comparisons pretty much end there. The biggest difference is that the Gallagher children always had somebody looking out for them, while the Milkovich children didn’t. Talking about Ian and Mickey, it’s not to say that Ian didn’t have his fair share of having to fend for himself or that he had it easy, but at the very least his family really loved and cared about him and it’s shown really early on that Mickey didn’t have that. In fact, he lived in perpetual fear of his father and was loyal to him because of this, as opposed to Ian who hated Frank and avoided even associating with him most of the time. Ian and Mickey in the early seasons explicitly show what difference growing up knowing you’re loved and thinking you have a chance in life makes and how much that affects your personality and general worldview.

3. driving character arcs

This boils down to Mickey’s main obstacles being external and physical while Ian’s are internal and psychological. Neither one is worse or more important than the other but it does mean a lot in terms of who they are as characters and the things they had to overcome.

     3a. Mickey’s sexuality

     Ian has always been shown to be comfortable in his sexuality and, even though he wasn’t out for all of the early seasons, it was never shown to be a source of contention for him. Mickey on the other hand, doesn’t get comfortable in his sexuality until season 5 (and even then he’s shown to revert to having sex with women when he’s stressed). In this regard, Ian operates as Mickeys foil, serving to highlight how different Mickey’s experience with his sexuality was compared to Ian’s, as shown in 2x08 when you see Mickey terrified of being outed while Ian looks on really not understanding what he’s so afraid of. As Mickey said, they lived in different worlds, and moments like 2x08 or all of season 3b serve as proof of this.

     3b. Ian’s bipolar

    Ian’s return in season 4 marks a real turning point for his character. Even though his main traits never falter he seems to be, in many ways, a completely different person. As time goes on you learn why this is and, especially after Ian’s diagnosis, you see Ian and Mickey once again living in different worlds. Mickey operates as his foil here because Ian sees the diagnosis as a death sentence and has a hard time coming to terms with it. After what he saw with Monica, it seems impossible that he would see it any other way, which is made worse by the way his family talks about it. Mickey, however, has none of these pre-existing connotations or stigma about it. To him, it just means Ian’s sick and needs help, not that he’s broken or different or that there’s anything wrong with him at all. Once he gets over the initial hurt and confusion it really doesn’t change how he sees Ian at all, which juxtaposes Ian’s warped perception of himself, which goes so deep that he breaks up with Mickey after spending time with Monica and seeing the future he thinks he’s doomed to end up in.

4. relationship

All throughout the show, their storylines are inverses of each other (I’ve made a couple gifsets about that here) and the relationship itself serves to highlight different parts of each character at different points throughout the show.

    4a. seasons 1-5

In seasons 1-3, Ian is shown to be the steady one in the relationship, he has the luxury of not being terrified of being outed and having a support system, so he’s able to pursue Mickey in this way. Then, enter seasons 4 and 5, and all the stability and surety that has defined Ian for his whole life is ripped away from him. This completely flips their dynamic on it’s head and forces Mickey to both pursue Ian, and become the stable one in the relationship, in seasons 4 and 5, respectively. 

     4b. seasons 6-7

In season 6, Mickey is a reminder of Ian’s ‘past life’ and everything he was desperate to move on from. It’s not that Mickey did anything to deserve this, but the fact is Ian associated him with everything from the past year or so that had completely destroyed his life and his perception of himself. 

In season 7, Ian had gotten himself to a place where he was able separate Mickey from that and come to terms with his feelings for him. Mickey was his foil here in the sense that he represented love and passion as opposed to the precarious stability Ian had worked really hard to carve out for himself. The situation forced Ian to make a choice between the two and revealed just how much Ian values his mental health and safety, highlighting how much he’d grown from seasons 4 and 5.

     4c. season 10

In season 10 their relationship had finally reached a point where they can just be together, which opened the door for the insecurities that they both still harbored to come out of the shadows. Mickey’s feelings of abandonment and his need for Ian to prove that he’s committed go up against Ian’s commitment issues brought on by his bipolar and the connotations that marriage held for him. To Ian, getting married meant Mickey tying himself to him forever, and he couldn’t imagine why he would want to do that; to Mickey, it just meant them committing to being together forever. They were essentially looking at the same picture but seeing different things which highlighted really key parts of their personalities and the way they operate in a relationship.

tldr: Ian and Mickey’s relationship is incredibly complex, but the main thing that remained consistent through it all is that they constantly challenge each other and bring out both the good and the bad in each other and that they fiercely love each other.

[dreamylyfe-x]

what is your unpopular 11.06 opinion we want to hear more 😎

Ahhhh. I really don’t know how this one is going to go over. Part of the problem in conveying it is that I know my reaction is deeply rooted in my own childhood. Which was not standard. And the people who disagree with me might have their own non-standard childhoods which feed their opinion. So no one’s not valid, but... I haven’t seen anyone say this, so here goes. 

Regarding this exchange in 11x06:

Mickey: Well, Frank wasn’t a homophobic psychopath who tortured you for years. 

Ian: No, he’s just an emotionally abusive alcoholic who stole my money for drugs, broke my nose, tried to profit off my mania... 

Mickey: I guess we both had shit dads. Let’s get the fuck out of here. 

I’ve seen people say Ian shouldn’t have said this -- like very angry that he did -- because Frank doesn’t compare to Terry and I guess it minimizes Mickey’s experience for him to point out the ways that Frank sucks. And the pushback I’ve seen is that Ian can absolutely say that because Frank and Terry both suck. 

I get that. But I also don’t think that's what Ian is doing and I don’t think that’s how Mickey hears it. 

I think I need something like the Vicky Mendoza Diagonal to explain what I mean here, so for that sake and that sake only -- let’s say there are only two kinds of families. There are families where the parenting is acceptable-to-great, and then there are families where the parenting is poor-to-terrible. Basically you have your “authorities won’t get involved” families and your “authorities SHOULD get involved” families. Ian and Mickey are both in Group B. 

But. Everyone who watches the show knows this. What has stuck out for me about the conversation about this particular exchange is that I haven’t seen much talk about how profoundly alienating can be to be from Group B. First you have the fun stuff that accompanies a traumatic childhood: instability, anxiety, depression, PTSD, complex PTSD, compromised coping strategies, a lack of support, a general uncertainty about what is and isn’t “normal” for most people... the list goes on. 

But you ALSO have to deal with how Group A interacts with your more public trauma. And, armed with that information, the way they act can be bizarre. And I realize I’m getting personal here, but I feel like if you DON’T have a publicly known trauma you might honestly never experience having people say things to you like “You help me remember how lucky I am.” 

(I have honestly heard that so many times. I truly do not know why people say this to me. It is not helpful. I am not helping them remember that they are lucky on purpose. I am just having weird/bad things happen to me within their view.) 

So. Here is Mickey have a very emotional moment on the street in front of the house and three whole Gallaghers. The one with tact and a Terry-Milkovich-fathered-ex ducks behind the ambulance to give Mickey some privacy. And Ian, his husband, reaches out. He touches his shoulder and Mickey is like iron. He asks him if he’s ok and Mickey doesn’t tell him to fuck off. Instead Mickey, who never talks about this father, says it’s “weird” to see Terry like that. And then lists various acts of revenge he could visit on Terry while nearly vibrating with suppressed emotion. There’s a lot of anger, but there’s something else there, too. It could be a lot of things. I read grief. There is some kind of loss for Mickey in what’s happened to Terry. Not because of anything Terry ever gave him -- maybe because of things Terry never gave him that now definitively never will -- but whatever it is, Mickey’s feelings surrounding Terry in that moment are complicated. 

And who is going to understand those feelings? Or help Mickey make sense of them? None of these other Milkoviches are Terry’s son. Mickey is the only person from that immediate family left in Southside. He is really going through this moment alone. 

But. He has Ian. Who knows more than almost anyone what Terry is like. Who has witnessed some of the worst things Terry has done. Who knows Mickey doesn’t like to talk about his father and respects it. And who, in this moment, validates Mickey’s grief -- the far less comprehensible emotion to Mickey -- over his anger. And then, when Mickey pushes back with the reason he has to be angry at Terry in a way that isolates himself from Ian, Ian responds by pointing out what they have in common. Terry’s worse, but they both are from the Brotherhood of Men With Bad Dads. Ian doesn’t share Mickey’s trauma but he knows the shape of it. He knows how to interact with Mickey about it better than anyone. Ian understand insecurity and scarcity and violence in the home, and in that moment Mickey understanding what he and Ian share is more important than focusing on what no one can share with Mickey.

Not everyone is going to feel that way in Mickey’s shoes. But we have pretty heavy indications that this is how Mickey feels, because of how the rest of the episode unfolds. Mickey never loses it with Ian. Ian lets Mickey decide what they are going to do, and only intervenes -- gently -- when he thinks Mickey is going to suffer for his actions. This provides the space where Mickey gets to work through his feelings -- mostly silently -- and eventually make his choice about how he’s going to deal with it.  

There is our trauma, and there is our shame about our trauma and then there is the weight of people who will judge both those things with no real context for them. Those three things together are exhausting. In that moment, I think there was real value for Mickey in having his experience normalized just that little bit. Just that whatever else he was dealing with in that moment, he was not standing next to someone who didn’t understand hating your father. I think Mickey wants this to be a thing he and Ian have in common. It’s part of why they can belong to each other so totally. Ian isn’t here to tell Mickey what makes him a freak. He’s here to give him space to feel however he needs to feel. And I truly do get why people don’t see that moment that way. I do. But I see more value for Mickey in what Ian did rather than what he didn’t do. 

[gallavictorious]

#this scene destroys me#mickey is so SO happy at the idea that he gets to wake up with ian and go out with ian and just BE with ian#without his fear hanging over his head anymore because they're out and people know#and maybe he's still a little nervous but terry's out of the picture at least for a while and no one else really matters#especially when he gets to be with ian#and then the moment—the very first moment—when they get to finally be a couple and be happy and out and together and carefree#it all comes crashing down and mickey can't even process what's happening#he's just faced his biggest fear for ian—to be with ian—and all of a sudden ian's not okay#and it must bring up so many insecurities for mickey because he doesn't know yet at this moment what's going on#he just knows that something's wrong and ian's suddenly not responding at a moment when they should both be so so happy#and it just really hurts (fiona-fififi)

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