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flooffybits · 4 years ago

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Stay A While

Idol: Ha Sooyoung, Jung Jinsoul (Loona)

Anon: Yay. Okay so how about one with LOONA’s 13th member? Yvesoul are in a happy relationship and the 13th member who is especially close with them has feelings for both. She doesn’t say anything though, worried about making things awkward or interfering in what is already a happy relationship. So instead, she starts distancing herself to hide the symptoms. She doesn’t want to get surgery cause she can’t imagine not feeling the way she does but she also refuses to tell anyone so she starts getting worse and worse. Heejin, Lip and Chuu find out at some point by accident. The 13th member is really stubborn. Lots of angst and hurt feelings and protective members please. And a happy ending please (I was going for only angst but I’m too weak 😂) thank you so much in advance.

A/n: well since you asked so nicely 😂 i really tried to think of a way with making this interesting so i hope you enjoy! it’s really hard making this a happy ending but please ignore the crappy ending if you wish

Warning: blood, near death experience (sorta), heavy angst

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You were known to be Loona's biggest fan, aside from Jiwoo, and your members and fans knew just how much you'd practically do anything for all of them.

It was what made you so likeable and the fans loved it when you would also try to hype them up whenever you get the chance to see them, making them feel as though you were the one who came to see them instead.

Your selflessness was one of your greatest strengths, but as time passed, it began to serve as your greatest weakness.

A little after Sooyoung and Jinsoul had officially informed all of you about how they were dating, you were beginning to feel a bit off whenever you saw them. It made your chest tighten and your throat itches as though something was stuck in there.

But you were extremely supportive of the pair even before they had gotten together. While they tended to act like cat and mouse, you were always there to make sure neither girls went too far or simply became the subject of their teasing when they wanted, claiming that you were the maknae of your unofficial subunit.

It took you time to understand what was happening to you. While you didn't think about it at first, you were actually very fond of the pair, enjoying their company and the way they took care of you. While they did love to annoy you, Sooyoung and Jinsoul did their best to take care of you and look after you whether or not you were aware of it.

When the first petal came falling on the palm of your hand right as the pair informed you how they were going out for a date, you brushed it off, confused as to where the yellow petal had come from. But a couple hours after that, you find yourself lightheaded and weak as your coughing begins to worsen.

Haseul was quick in giving you some cough medicines and ordered that you get some rest even as you assured her you would be fine.

"Stop being so stubborn and get some rest. I bet you were staying up with Jinsoul and Yves again." The mention of the pair caused another itching sensation in your throat but you had done your best to suppress it, at least until your leader had left you alone in your room.

As soon as she was gone, you quickly covered your mouth as you entered another coughing fit, one that made you feel even worse than you already were.

But as soon as you pulled your hand away, you stared, horrified at the blood stained petals that stared back up at you.

When everyone had gotten home, you made sure to stay in bed, pretending to sleep whenever someone came into the room, but no matter how much you tried, there was no ridding you of the thoughts that swam through your mind, all centered around the petals you had flushed down the toilet and the blood you had to wash from your hands.

You knew what the disease was, what caused it. But all this time, you had merely thought it was a myth, nothing but a made up fable.

And yet you were a living proof that the disease did exist and that it was slowly eating away inside of you.

You didn't dare tell any of your members about it because you know that they would fall into panic. And with Haseul having only just recovered, you didn't want to make her go through another difficult event, especially not one that involved you possibly dying if you didn't find a way to rid yourself of disease.

"Hey, is everything alright?" Sooyoung came up to you once when you were eating lunch, alone, and you honestly weren't too sure if you were in the mood to talk. "You've been awfully quiet lately and we were wondering if there was something bothering you." She explains while you poked your food and avoided her inquisitive gaze. "Yeah, just a little tired."

That had been your answer most days. And while that was true, you couldn't exactly tell her the whole truth.

Her expression becomes pensive without you looking because there was clearly much more that you weren't saying. "Y/n, if you need help, we're always going to be here for you. Jinsoul and I might be dating and everything, but that doesn't mean we don't have time for you anymore." She says while reaching out to touch your arm and you do your best not to recoil and tear your arm away.

Instead, you slap on a smile, one that doesn't quite reach your eyes, before nodding your head. "I know, Yves unnie. Don't worry."

Sooyoung stares at you for a moment, clearly saddened by your reply because, one, she knows that you were lying. It was clear as day. And, two, you had stopped calling her Yves two months after you had debuted and got to know all of them, unless it was during interviews and filming.

She mutters a quiet okay before watching you exit the dining area and head to the bathroom.

While Sooyoung left to find her girlfriend, you grip at the sink as your body shakes violently, yellow and red quickly filling your vision when more of the flowers come falling from your mouth and you desperately try to wash them away, getting rid of any and all traces of your suffering, before you sit on the cold floor, back against the door as you bury your face into your hands to muffle the sobs that replaced the petals that left your lips.

It had been nearly two months since you found out you were suffering from the disease. Nothing you tried was able to ease the pain nor was anything enough to help you get rid of it. Each day was only making you feel worse and weak that it was a surprise how none of your members had caught on yet.

Maybe it was because you kept your time away from your members, reading and searching about any known cures until you decided that asking a professional would be where you would get the best possible answer.

They were surprised when you revealed to them the truth. While they knew that it was a very rare disease, finding out that you, a young idol, was suffering from it had them all trying their best to help you in whatever help they could offer until the doctor you had consulted explained to you the complications of getting the surgery.

The surgery, you had no problem doing. You were more than willing to go through with it, but when he told you that you would grow numb toward the person, or in your case people, along with the potential of forgetting those who were the root of your unrequited love, the idea was quickly thrown out the window.

Even when you tried to deny the fact that maybe you were feeling much more love for Sooyoung and Jinsoul than you were supposed to, you couldn’t push through with it. To be numb and risk forgetting two of the most precious people to you? That would not only be too much for you, but it would be heartbreaking for everyone else around you. And in the event you do forget your members, that would cause much confusion to everyone else.

You quickly declined after that and simply settled with painkillers just so it wouldn’t affect you as badly whenever you had a coughing fit.

You avoided the couple as much as possible because, to you, the less you saw them, the slower the petals would fill your lungs. It also meant avoiding the rest of your members as much as possible because you weren’t so keen with anyone finding out.

But once during practice, the sound of Jiwoo’s voice calling your attention had nearly caused your heart to drop in your stomach. “Yah! I told you to stop picking at your lips!” You flinched at both her words and the volume of her voice before a hand pulled yours away from your lips when you quickly went to wipe away the bit of blood after another couple of petals decided to present themselves to you.

Whenever you were around others, you always opted to dress in either black or darker clothing in the event the blood tried to stain them, making it easier to avoid suspicions.

You blink owlishly toward the older girl and rubbed the back of your head. “Sorry, force of habit.” You apologize before Jungeun was grabbing a towel to wipe it away. Heejin was already shaking her head as the ‘99 liners started to lecture you about the stupid habit you’ve actually gotten rid of. “What’s wrong though? I know that you only do that when you’re anxious about something.” She asks while peering at your face, only to see that there was no wound present on your lip after Jungeun pulled her hand away.

She had to take a closer look and you felt yourself begin to feel nervous with how close she was being, your heart thudding against your ribs while Jungeun made a sound of surprise by the younger girl’s sudden bold move.

“Yah! What are you doing?” The blonde questioned as she shook your roommate’s arm, but Heejin was adamant to find out what was going on as she took your arm gently, concern now all over her face as she looked at you properly, ignoring the weird stares sent her way.

But her attention is solely on you when she doesn’t budge. “What’s going on?”

You aren’t sure what to tell her. Aside from being your roommate, Heejin was the next person you were closest to aside from Sooyoung and Jinsoul. When you weren’t with the pair, you were with her and Hyunjin or Jiwoo, thus the reason fans shipped you so much.

Majority of the time you don’t spend with either Jinsoul and Sooyoung, you spend with Heejin and you basically tell her everything. The first time you met, Heejin decided to take care of you the best she could, and the longer time she spent with you, the more that feeling grew because she saw you so much like a sister.

"Are you really okay? What's going on?" She asked quietly and you don't know what to tell her. Even if you did lie, it was easy for them to detect it and they would pry the answer out of you no matter what. You try looking around in hopes of distracting them, but when you find none, you know that there was no escape.

However when you notice Jinsoul about to come over, you squeezed Heejin's wrist before shaking your head. "Not here, please." You plead, and the three girls look even more worried with your panicked state, seeing that Jinsoul was getting closer, her eyes narrowed on you and Heejin.

Reluctantly, the latter accepted your request and Jiwoo pouted at you. "Y/n, you better be okay." She tells you. "I don't want anything happening to you." She adds and you smile weakly, because you know this would absolutely break her heart once she finds out.

"I'll explain everything, later." Unless they forget, you know that it was inevitable at this point.

When Jinsoul is close enough, she takes a quick look at you and you offer her a small smile. "Hey, is everything alright?" She asks curiously and Heejin wraps her arms around you with a smile. "Yep! We were just playing around like usual." She replies when she sees the slight panic in your eyes. Knowing your relationship with both Jinsoul and Sooyoung, the potential of you being in trouble was something Heejin knew you wanted to avoid bringing up with the two older girls.

But with the protectiveness Heejin was showing had only agitated the older girl as she stared at you and Jungeun cut her off quickly by stepping in front of you. “Unnie, come on. Let’s get back to practice. I think our break is almost done.” With one more look at you, you sent the blonde a thankful smile as she pulled Jinsoul away.

Jiwoo stared at you for a while before pulling you into a hug. “I’ll wait until you’re ready to talk about it.” She mumbled against your shoulder and you gave her a smile as well when she pulled away and squeezed her hands.

With Heejin left with you, her concern was still visible in her eyes, but she decided it was best to let you explain when you’ve collected yourself and that you were in a less crowded space.

Haseul quietly stared at you with her brows pinched together in worry. When she didn’t see you with the rest of the group, she quickly went to wake you up, thinking that you may have overslept, only to find you curled up in bed, shivering with a high fever.

“I think we should call our manager.” Kahei’s quiet voice broke through the silence and the leader nodded absentmindedly as she reached to fix the blanket around you. “She hasn’t been feeling well this whole week. Has she been skipping meals or anything?” But the older girl merely shook her head. “I don’t think so. She’s been spending a lot of time with Heejin, but I doubt she has.”

There’s a light knock on the door and Yeojin soon comes in with a basin filled with water and a towel. Chaewon and Yerim were quick to follow before they settled on the other beds inside the room.

“Thank you.” Haseul took the basin and placed it on your nightstand, wringing the towel before she was wiping your face and forehead, dipping it back in the water and repeating her earlier action before placing it on your forehead to hopefully bring down your fever.

“What about our schedules later?” Chaewon asked softly and Haseul let out a sigh. “I don’t think unnie is capable of even getting out of bed. She’s too sick.” Yerim whispered as she watched you from the side and Yeojin nodded her head. “But I don’t want to leave unnie alone, either.” The maknae voiced out before Kahei gently patted her head. “We’ll think of something, don’t worry. We’ll even get her some medicine and food on the way back.”

A little before your schedule, Haseul has already contacted your manager to inform them about your condition and they agreed to let you rest after being informed of how badly you were feeling. And while everyone was busy getting ready, Heejin sat next to your bed, taking the seat Haseul occupied that morning and stared sadly at you.

“We need to tell them, Y/n. This isn’t going to do anything but make you worse.” She whimpered while gripping your hand and you crack a small smile. “You know I can’t do that. And even if I did, it’s not going to change anything. I’d rather go through with this without making anyone feel bad about me dying.”

But your words had managed to force tears in her eyes as she shook her head. “Don’t say that. Please.” She pleaded while trying to keep her voice from cracking and you squeeze her hand the best you could. “I can’t lie about this, Heejin. You, Chuu unnie, and Lip unnie know that I refuse to get the surgery and that it’s probably too late already.”

“But what if there’s another way. There has to be another way.” She wasn’t sure who she was trying to convince; you or herself. Heejin has known you since for a good two years, but those two years has already cemented you into her life and she has never imagined losing you so soon, especially not like this.

You try to say something, but once again, a cough interrupts and Heejin tightens her hold on your hand when the other is colored with the blood stained petals of yellow Carnations. She tries not to look at them, bringing the trash bin closer after handing you some tissues to conceal the petals, and then wiping her cheeks from the tears that had trailed down her skin.

She grabs another towel to wipe your hand before she sets it down next to the basin with a heavy sigh.

The door quietly opens behind her and Jinsoul peers inside, surprised when she sees the girl before she offers a small smile while stepping in, her girlfriend following close behind with a frown on her face. “How is she feeling?”

Heejin looked over her shoulder and she tried to keep her composure when she spoke. “She’s okay, just really tired.” She replies when she turns back to you, watching the gentle rise and fall of your chest after finally calming down from your wheezing.

Sooyoung stays standing while Jinsoul sits down to look at you closer. There’s a pang in their chest when they see you looking so small and fragile. Your face lacked color - life. It was like staring at a corpse, minus the breathing and it was terrifying to imagine, yet they didn’t know better.

Not the way Heejin did.

And seeing the way the younger girl held your hand and looked incredibly distraught by your condition had caused the pair to be even more suspicious than they already were.

“She’s going to be alright, Heejin.” Jinsoul says quietly, the smile still present on her features while Sooyoung purses her lips and Heejin bites her tongue to stop herself from saying anything.

No matter how badly she wanted to tell them, the faint squeeze to her hand reminded her that this was your decision to make. She was merely there to be your support system when no one else could.

But to see both Sooyoung and Jinsoul be so clueless yet speak so optimistically about you getting better made her nearly forget that she had promised not to tell anyone about your illness.

So instead of saying anything, Heejiin merely kept her mouth shut while she waited for the rest to call the three of them or for the two to leave her alone with you. But it seemed like they had other plans.

“Is there… anything going on between you and Y/n?” Sooyoung suddenly questioned after a few seconds of silence and the girl seemed a bit taken aback by her question before Jinsoul quickly intervened. “We’re not trying to be nosy! We just noticed how you’ve been so close recently and wondered if, maybe, you were…”

Heejin seemed dumbfounded by the assumption. In other circumstances, she would have laughed because, while she did love you to bits, that love was merely platonic.

“No. Y/n and I are pretty much like sisters so I doubt we’d ever be anything more.” She answered and the couple looked a bit tense now that she properly assessed them. “I know that a lot of people think and assume that we might be together, but that’s really not the case.” She explains with a shake of her head before she noticed you shifting in bed.

The movement catches the couple’s attention and they immediately look at you when your quiet voice cuts in on their conversation. “Heejin, I’m cold.” Sooyoung’s frown deepens before she was already heading to your closet and grabbing the thickest jacket that you had, which was something Jinsoul had given you on your first birthday with all of them.

“Do you want something to drink?” Heejin asked while brushing your hair from your face, replacing the towel on your forehead with a new one and Jinsoul shifted closer to gently touch your arm. “It’s okay, you’re going to be okay.” She murmured softly when she saw the grimace on your face and Sooyoung came back to gently put your jacket around you without moving you too much.

Heejin makes sure the heater is working, and when it’s time for them to go, she’s hesitant to leave your side in fear of losing you when she’s away.

“Come on, we have to go.” Hyunjin called after her, but when she saw the way her friend couldn’t seem to move from her place, she could feel just what the other did. So, she quietly walked over and rubbed her arm in assurance. “Don’t worry, when we come back, we don’t have to leave her alone again.”

The promise, though having good intentions, was obviously empty for Heejin. In the event that your illness took you away, there was no guarantee that you would be staying for long.

Jungeun and Jiwoo came in with frowns on their faces as they saw you, but they quickly masked their worries upon seeing Hyunjin in the room with you. “Hey, we have to get going or else we’ll be late.” Jungeun informs them and Hyunjin nodded before she gave her friend another pat on the shoulder. “Let’s go.”

“We’ll be back before you know it.”

Jiwoo glanced beside her and Jungeun kept her phone in her hand as Heejin anxiously stared out the window. They were finally heading home after five hours and the three were quietly hoping to arrive back to the dorm sooner.

And amidst the chattering of everyone around them, the three have been oddly quiet, talking between themselves. “You should really stop worrying, Y/n unnie will be fine.” Hyejoo spoke up with an encouraging smile. “It’s just a fever, she’s stronger than that.”

It was no secret that the young girl looked up to you so much. She’d been intrigued by you since the first time they met you in Canada, and her fascination only grew the longer you spent together. Hyejoo always found herself learning things from you and she appreciated it every time. Whatever secret or worry she had, you were always one of the people she would first approach.

“Olivia is right. I’m sure she’s feeling much better by the time we get home. We even have her favorite soup and medicines to help her feel better just in case.” Yerim stated happily while Heejin pursed her lips.

Jiwoo squeezed Heejin’s hand and nodded her head, making the younger girl slowly lean back and sigh, forcing her worries down as she shut her eyes and prayed that you were alright.

“Heejin looks really worried about Y/n.” Sooyoung muttered from her place and Jinsoul shook her head. “Y/n doesn’t usually get sick, so I can understand.” But her girlfriend merely huffed and crossed her arms. “I know that, but don’t you think that maybe there’s more to it? We don’t even worry as much as she does.” Jinsoul frowned at Sooyoung and took her hand. “Whatever is going on between Heejin and Y/n is none of our business. If they aren’t ready to tell us, then let them. We didn’t tell Y/n as soon as we started dating, either.”

Grunting, Sooyoung accepted her defeat because what Jinsoul said was true. It wouldn’t be fair if she demanded answers on whether or not you and Heejin were dating when they kept their own relationship a secret, but she just didn’t like the feeling that crept up in her chest when she sees or even thinks of you together.

By the time they all arrived at the dorm, the three were the first ones out, forgetting the food and medicine they bought for you in their haste at getting to you as fast as they could. The rest of the members looked worried and followed after them.

Heejin quietly opened the door to your shared room, peeking inside to see if you were awake, but as soon as her eyes landed on your figure when she flicked the lights on, her heart dropped before she was running inside. “Y/n!”

Jungeun ran to your other side when Heejin tried to help you up from the floor and they gasped upon seeing the various bloodstained petals on the floor and the blood on your own hands. “Stop manager oppa! Tell him we need to go to the hospital!”

Sooyoung stopped dead in her tracks when she saw what was happening. She felt her blood running cold and she wouldn't have been able to move if Jiwoo hadn't ran past her, bumping into her by accident in her haste to call your manager and stop him from leaving.

Jinsoul pushed past everyone and ran to you, taking your face into her hands and shaking her own head as tears welled in her eyes as yours refused to open. "Y/n! Wake up, come on this isn't funny!"

She held a hand close to your mouth and nose before she pressed her head to your chest just to hear your heartbeat.

"Unnie, you have to move." Yerim said urgently while tugging at her friend's arm when your manager came running into the dorm. Haseul was doing her best to keep calm as she gripped Yeojin's hand in her own when they watched your manager pick you up from the floor.

He looked at all of them. "I'm not going to bother asking you if you'll be coming along, I just need you all to follow my instructions until we get help." They all nodded immediately and followed the man back down and to the van with Heejin insisting to hold you as your manager drove.

The poor girl was silently crying as she held your fragile form as close to her as humanly possible, Hyejoo holding your hand when she sat beside Heejin, willing back tears as the first girl wiped the blood from your mouth.

The ride to the hospital was the longest and tense one they've all ever experienced, but as soon as they arrived, your manager quickly parked the van and went back to retrieve you from the girls before running inside with all twelve girls running after him.

"Y/n L/n." The man said quickly and the receptionist seemed surprised as she typed in your name, only to quickly rise to her feet, calling for the same doctor you had consulted with before nurses soon came over to get you and relieve your manager.

Seeing how quickly people were reacting with your appearance, all of your members looked on with confusion except for the three girls aware of your actual condition.

"What's going on?" Chaewon was the first to ask and all eyes turned to their manager, who looked just as troubled as Heejin, Jiwoo, and Jungeun. "What's happening to Y/n? What was that?" Sooyoung demanded, her voice growing more and more adamant as Jinsoul held her back.

"You know something and you aren't telling us. Y/n said it was just a fever." Haseul tried to keep her voice steady. "A fever doesn't make you cough out blood." The maknae said shakily, terrified of what she had seen.

All four of them exchanged glances before Jungeun let out a sigh. "Y/n is sick, but it isn't a fever or a flu." She crossed her arms to keep her hands from shaking. "She's suffering from Hanahaki. It's a rare disease that makes you cough up petals because of an unrequited love."

"Unrequited love?" Jinsoul muttered, her brows pinching together before she looked to Heejin. "Aren't you together? This isn't making any sense."

"Y/n isn't in love with Heejin!" Jiwoo cut in while hugging the said girl. "But we can't tell you who she's in love with either because she made us promise not to." She added with a grimace. "Y/n is dying in there! Whoever this person is needs to know and do something!" Sooyoung retorted and Heejin snapped to look at her.

"It doesn't matter if the person she's in love with knows! They're happy and in a relationship. Y/n never wanted to ruin what they had so she kept her feelings under wraps no matter how much it was killing her! She didn't want to get the surgery because she didn't want to forget either of you!"

Jiwoo quickly took the younger girl by the shoulders when she had accidentally slipped up due to her emotions, but there was no stopping now as Sooyoung and Jinsoul went quiet after the sudden outburst.

“Forget us?” Jinsoul slowly released her girlfriend as she took a step forward and Hyunjin went to her best friend’s side to calm her down while Jungeun and Jiwoo decided to clear the situation up the best they could with their manager’s help. “We discovered Y/n’s condition a while back. And while it was the wise decision to pull through with the surgery, she declined for various reasons, the main one being that there was a risk of forgetting the person she has such strong feelings for.”

“She refused to do it, and it seemed like that there was no convincing her otherwise. It would also cause some trouble if she ever does forget both of you because that would be a major shift in your relationship and it won’t take long before people find out.”

“But what’s going to happen to unnie now? Are they going to operate on her?” Hyejoo questioned while the man shook his head. “I’m not too sure. We have to wait for her doctor to come back.”

The male paused, looking grim as he observed each girl, hesitating before finally breathing out. “In the event that this is the worst case scenario, I need all of you to be ready.”

They hated that he had opened up the idea of possibly losing you. While they all knew what this disease would entail, they just couldn’t accept the fact that they could permanently be losing you.

Led outside your room, the girls each waited anxiously for your doctor to come back and tell them what was the condition you were in. The overwhelming fear and anxiety bubbled in all of them and Haseul bit her lip as she did her best to keep a calm face whilst Kahei held her hand, running her thumb across her knuckles.

What seemed like years was only an hour and a half before the door slowly opened and your doctor came with a grim expression across his face. "How is she?" Your manager questioned and the man shook his head while glancing over his shoulder. "She's stable for now. It looks like she was choking on her own blood along with the fully bloomed flowers." He winced before letting a regretful sigh pass his lips.

"I highly advise that she get the surgery as soon as possible because at the rate we're going, there won't be much time left for Y/n." He informed them and Heejin slowly shook her head. "We can't… she doesn't want that."

No matter how much Heejin wanted you to get it, your wish was above her own in wanting to save you. And if she ever allowed it to happen without your consent, it would be in her conscience forever and she wouldn't be able to properly look at you, knowing that she had gone against your wishes.

"But what are we going to do?" Hyunjin questioned seriously. "Y/n is dying. If we don't go through with it-"

"We know that, but this is Y/n's decision." Jiwoo cut in, a serious look on her usually cheerful face. "I want to help her. We all do. But Y/n made her decision clear ever since she found out. She doesn't want to be numb or to forget about Yves unnie and Jinsoul unnie and we can only respect that decision."

"Chuu is right. We tried to talk her out of it, but Y/n said she would rather die than forget the people she cares about. It isn't fair to you, but it isn't fair to her, either. She knows the risks and she knows the consequences but she chose to take her feelings to the grave rather than burden Jinsoul unnie and Sooyoung unnie with what she felt for them." Jungeun sighed while anxiously running her fingers through her hair.

"... Can we see her?"

The question was from Sooyoung as she stood stiffly next to her girlfriend, eyes trained to the door that separated you and them whilst your doctor nodded his head. "I recommend going in groups, just so she isn't disturbed or stressed out." He advised before excusing himself and giving the girls the time that they needed.

They didn’t need to discuss who would go first because the couple were already in front of your door as soon as they could and Jinsoul sucked in a deep breath before she slowly pushed it open and stepped inside.

Once there, they immediately spot your body laying on the hospital bed with various wires attached to your fragile form that it makes their own hearts ache at the sight.

Sooyoung quickly came to your side and instinctively reached to brush your hair, only to stop when she hears Heejin’s voice echoing in her head. Jinsoul looked worried before she placed her own over her girlfriend’s and gave it a squeeze. “We’ll be okay.” She whispered before pressing a kiss to her temple and then turning back to you.

Your face was peaceful, minus the lack of color and life in it. It was as though this was the first proper sleep you’ve had in how long and it pained them to know that you were enduring all of this for their sake.

“You’re such an idiot, I swear.” Sooyoung finally muttered as she let her hands fall to the sheets. “Stupid, stupid, stupid. Why couldn’t you have told us?” She tried to hold back a sob, but when you didn’t respond to her with your usual banter, it was getting harder for her to keep her composure. “You were pulling away from us because you didn’t want us to worry, now look at us.” Jinsoul sniffled as she wiped her cheeks.

“We could have avoided all of this.” She whimpered quietly while reaching for your hand, your usually warm skin now cold to the touch as she laced her fingers with yours. “Please, we’ll make it better. We’ll take the pain away, just please… please stay with us.”

“Don’t go, Y/n. We need you.” Sooyoung begged as she buried her face to your neck, clutching at the front of your hospital gown while Jinsoul placed her other hand on her back.

The clock was ticking and they knew that the other girls were wanting to see you as desperately as they did, Heejin most especially. So, forcing themselves to part from you, they held each other tight as they headed for the exit.

“... unnie.”

The pair stopped in their tracks as the weak rasp of your voice called out. Turning back, they saw that your eyes were still closed, but the small movement from your hands was all it took for them to know you were awake.

Running to your side, Jinsoul took your outstretched hand and pressed her face against your palm as her watery eyes watched you. “You’re okay.” Sooyoung breathed out as she stood behind her girlfriend.

You struggle to open your eyes, but as soon as you do, you immediately see them watching you with worry swimming in their own tear filled gazes. “Why are you-” You’re cut off by a cough and Jinsoul squeezes your hand when a bit of blood dribbles down your chin before Sooyoung wiped it away.

”Why are you crying?” You forced out, a frown on your features. But the question throws them off and Jinsoul can’t help but cry more. “What do you mean why are we crying? We found you nearly dead in the dorm, do you expect us to be fine?” Sooyoung snapped at you and you blink slowly while trying to properly decipher her words.

Their voices sounded so faint yet they were right there. Your vision was blurry and you had a great struggle with understanding everything they were saying. The only thing you could tell was they were crying, and you didn’t want that.

“I’m scared.” The words were hushed as they fell from your lips and Sooyoung squeezed her eyes tight just so she wouldn’t cry anymore than she already has. “D-Don’t be scared. You’re going to be fine. We’re right here.”

“We love you so much and it hurts that you’re going through this.” Jinsoul muttered against your palm, pressing a light kiss against it. “You should have told us, but we should have told you, too. We were just so scared of how you would think of us and-”

“Unnie…” Your breathing was growing weaker from all the flowers that have bloomed in your lungs. “It’s okay.”

It’s not your fault.

You don’t have to say it.

It isn’t your responsibility.

“Y/n, we love you, okay? We love you, too, just as much as you love us.” Sooyoung told you, desperate to make you believe that what they were saying was true. But the yellow carnations fell from your lips once more and she’s forced to wipe them away before Jinsoul stood properly to look at you.

They were desperate and time was running out. Either you believed them or they lose you forever. So, with a final resolve, Jinsoul leaned down, pressing her forehead against yours as her lips slotted perfectly against yours in a slow and tender kiss, one hand holding your cheek as you felt the wind knocked out of you.

She doesn’t give you time to respond because Sooyoung was quick to replace her, a little more aggressive, yet still gentle enough to not hurt you before she pulled away to kiss your forehead and the weight on your chest gradually began to fade away.

When they both give you enough space, your hand shoots to your mouth before your body is wracked by a violent coughing fit. Alarmed, the girls pressed the button on the wall to call for your doctor when blood slipped past your fingers and fell on the white sheets of the bed.

Everything happens fast as they’re basically thrown out of the room and your doctor hurries to check on you as the door closes. There are various things that they hear through the door but it dies down after a while, leaving a tense silence outside as the girls looked at the couple. “What happened? What did you do?” Heejin asked, terrified. But neither of them said anything as the door opened with your doctor looking perplexed but relieved.

“It would appear that Y/n will... no longer be needing the surgery.” He stated and Haseul’s shoulders tensed up as she came closer. “Why? Is she okay? What happened?” Your leader demanded and the male nodded his head before stepping aside.

“She’s coughed up quite a lot of the flowers, one of them containing the roots.” They were surprised by this as a nurse walked out of the room with the flowers in a plastic bag. “We’ll need an xray, but judging from that alone, it would appear that Y/n might be alright.”

Hearing that made Heejin’s knees buckle and she leaned on Jiwoo’s side for support whilst Hyejoo felt a lump forming in her throat when she gripped both Yerim’s and Chaewon’s arms and Kahei hugged Yeojin tightly as Junguen comforted her friends the best she could.

“We’ve taken off some of the machines and wires. She’s looking a bit better, just a bit more rest and food and I think she’ll be able to fully recover.” He informed them before turning to your manager, who smiled, feeling just as relieved from this whole ordeal.

All twelve girls entered your room when given the okay and you greet them all with a meek smile and a small wave of your hand. The color was back on your face and it looked like you have enough energy now compared to when they found you in the dorm.

Jinsoul and Sooyoung approached you with smiles on their faces. “You believe us now?” Sooyoung asked lightly and you blush, the red spreading to the tips of your ears as you slowly nodded your head. “I’m sorry you had to go through all of that. If we hadn’t been such cowards and assumed, this wouldn’t have happened.”

“To be fair, everyone else assumed we were dating.” Heejin piped up when she approached the bed to wrap her arms around you in a hug, kissing your cheek as she did, before Sooyoung gave her a warning glare as Jinsoul lightly pushed her.

Noticing the stare, your best friend laughed before she shook her head. “I mean, we do look good together. What do you say, Y/n? Will you date me instead?” You chuckled at your friend’s joke before giggling when you see the puppy eyes Jinsoul sent you and the slight huff that came from a pouting Sooyoung.

“I love you, Heejin, but you and I know that would be weird.” You give her a kiss as an apology, but she happily accepts it before turning to the other two. “Take care of her or else I’m really going to date her instead.”

“Yah!”

Sooyoung rolled her eyes in good nature before she took your hand. “We’re not letting go of her, you can bet on that.” Jinsoul nodded in agreement, smiling softly at you before she pressed a kiss to your cheek and you were finally able to smile a real one, one that showed the spark in your eyes and emanated the life that flowed through your veins.

And with a promise like Sooyoung’s and Jinsoul’s, you know that you wouldn’t have to hide your feelings or worry about the petals blooming in your lungs.

You were saved and they make sure to remind you that your love for each other was always going to be unconditional.

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Oh My God

Idol: Ha Sooyoung & Jeong Jinsol (Loona)

@babieviseul: Hello😊 how are you doing? Is everything okay? I was wondering if I could request a Loona scenario for Lipsoul where the female reader is the seventh member of Gidle and is in a poly relationship with lipsoul. so, I was wondering how would lipsoul react to their girlfriend performing Oh My God with her members right in front of them on stage. If you're too busy to reply to this request or if you don't like it then please delete it. Please, don't feel obligated to respond to me. And by the way keep up the amazing work❤️❤️❤️

>>> hi, I'm the one that requested for that gidle 7th member with lipsoul. i was wondering if I could change lipsoul to yvesoul, if you're too busy to do so. you don't have to, thanks.

Word count: 3.1k

A/n: i don’t remember if they had overlapped during the promotions of omg so i may have tweaked the dates a little

Warning: few suggestive comments

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This comeback wasn't exactly too surprising for you, to say the least. Though, it was most definitely… bold.

Soyeon was a fantastic writer and producer, aside from being a singer and rapper, and you honestly had high respect for your member with all the hard work she's always putting into providing music for your group.

So, of course, you didn't want to disappoint and helped make the choreography match the song's vibe and lyrics.

No matter how questionable it might be.

"Soojin unnie really gets to touch Y/n, I don't know who to be jealous of." Yuqi teased you when you were busy finalizing your makeup, shooting your friend a light glare. “Stop making it weird.” You grumbled, but it looked like they were insistent in teasing you today. "If both of them didn't know how to control their expressions, Soojin won't be able to do it, and I'm pretty sure that Y/n will laugh while performing." Miyeon added with a laugh, poking her fellow unnie line member.

Shuhua still held that against you, you could all tell by the way she would send you a glare. But you're also aware that she means no harm and just enjoys messing with you.

"Your girlfriends haven't seen the choreography, have they?" Soyeon opens up the opportunity and Nicha had to cover her mouth when she snickered at the question.

Groaning, you shake your head before stilling yourself. "In my defense, I'm not allowed to show them anything." You retort and Nicha raises a brow. "Have you at least told them what it was like?"

Your silence was enough of an answer for them that it made all six girls burst out laughing. "You're going to be in trouble! This is what you get for trying to steal Soojin unnie away from me!" Shuhua playfully jabs at you whilst Sujin offers a small smile. "Hey, my role is to seduce all the women, so who knows? Maybe they won't mind." Miyeon burst at her comment because it's honestly rare for Sujin to suddenly crack a joke where she won't end up shrinking into herself out of embarrassment.

Because right now, you were the target of their teasing.

"You guys are jerks."

"And we love you, too."

"Someone's excited."

"And if we are?"

"I never said it was you."

Jinsol rolled her eyes at her friend and girlfriend's antics, grinning as she watched the various people coming on and off stage. "Oh, leave her alone, Jungie." But Jungeun merely raised her hands in defense, the same playful look creeping over her features.

"I was just making an observation. Yves isn't typically this fidgety." She states, gesturing to the girl who shot her a glare, one that doesn't really do much to intimidate the latter. "Well, Y/n and her group made a comeback that's caught quite the attention of many."

"She wants to know what it's like, live. Y/n won't give us a clue, so we only have their video to go by." Sooyoung lightly smacked her girlfriend's arm, huffing. "That's not true! I'm just trying to be a supportive girlfriend." She defends and Jinsol rolls her eyes again before nodding her head, acting as though the latter was very much convincing.

She wasn't.

And it was enough for Jungeun to crack before she's poking fun at her fellow leader, which pretty much draws the attention of the other members who weren't busy because Sooyoung was known for being the one teasing everyone instead of receiving it.

"Oh, (G)I-dle is going to start promoting today. Have you seen Y/n unnie yet?" Heejin asked, curiosity filling her eyes as she cocked her head, and the pair shook their heads in unison. "I think they're still getting ready."

"We'll be performing before them, so you'll have plenty of time to watch after." Kahei informs when she takes a seat, and it doesn't really lessen the anxiousness of getting to see you again. Cube had you all working really hard so they didn’t have that much time to see you except for the occasional video calls and pictures.

Getting to see you during a live performance, however, was a completely other thing that they were looking forward to. They’ve seen videos, but this would be the first time your schedules would actually overlap with one another, so they were both very eager to see you on stage.

And the music video may or may not have caught their attention and had them even more on the edge of their seats.

You’d sent them a quick picture of your outfit for today and Sooyoung felt her throat dry up whilst Jinsol did not stop sending you texts, telling you how much she was loving the outfit, before she’d start gushing about you to the other members and nearly shoving her phone in their faces just to show you off.

“So, miss heartbreaker, nothing to say?” Hyeju teased the older girl and Sooyoung shot her a playful glare. “First of all, it isn’t my fault people love me.” She says with a flip of her hair that has the latter rolling her eyes. “Second, I have an extremely attractive girlfriend who I need to see because this isn’t right.”

Yerim scoffed playfully at her unnie and raised a brow. “What isn’t right?” She questioned and Jinsol giggled while Sooyoung looked almost offended by her question. “Making her girlfriends wait of course! Who does she think she is?” She scoffed, brows coming together and arms crossed over her chest.

It just wasn’t fair, she believes.

“You’re being dramatic over nothing, it’s cute.” Sooyoung had to suppress a blush at Jinsol’s comment, swatting her arm as a reply before she turned back around to try and catch a glimpse of you or any of your members.

But there’s too many people, and for some reason, the person that does spot you is Jiwoo. Her squealing catches a majority of the girls’ attention. “I see her! She looks so pretty!” She gushed and Jinsol perked up before following where the latter was pointing, soon finding you with Miyeon and Soyeon as they helped with hooking your mic on you.

It was more of Soyeon helping you though since Miyeon decided it would be funny to start tickling you when she said that she was going to help.

“Oh wow, that harness looks cool.” Sooyoung already saw the pictures you sent them. She didn’t need the teasing nudge from Chaewon, but the way her throat dried up at the sight of you was inevitable and she swallowed thickly. As much as she was attempting to keep a straight face, a handful of the girls could see that she was panicking. “I have such a pretty girlfriend, wow.” She hears Jinsol in awe, but before either of them could walk over to greet you, Heejin was waving at everyone to catch their attention, stating that they had to be on stage soon.

She sent the pair an apologetic smile, but they had to perform before anything else.

So, using the stage as an opportunity to cool herself off, Sooyoung gave her all in her performance, knowing that you were also watching her backstage, and that spurred her on. Every wink, every smirk she sent in the camera’s direction, she was thinking of you, and if she would manage, she’d send Jinsol a playful wink, one the latter would happily accept and reciprocate.

Chaewon mentally rolled her eyes at the pair in amusement. Her members could be ridiculous when they wanted, and this wasn’t the worst she’s seen them. Even Yeojin had to hold in her laugh at some point when she noticed, too. A chuckle did manage to slip as Hyunjin gave her an odd look, but she said nothing before getting into formation.

“Good job, girls!” Jungeun praises as she takes her mic off. “I saw you back there, Lippie.” Kahei teases, making the latter squeak as heat pooled her cheeks. She had momentarily forgotten the choreography after her solo part, but she was able to recover and was mentally thankful that the camera had moved on to Yeojin as she took center.

“So, flirting with Y/n unnie through the camera?” Chaewon asks playfully and Sooyoung shrugs nonchalantly. “I’m in charge of making fans fall for me, Gowon. It’s my job.” She answers with the same amount of humor, but she was not, however, expecting you to pass by with a grin on your face after hearing her words.

“And here I thought I was special.” You tease, smiling lightly when Jinsol squeals before giving you a tight hug. “You did great.” You had whispered in her ear before letting go, and she had to restrain herself from giving you a kiss right then and there due to the risk of her lipstick. But you do give her one on the cheek, knowing that she would be able to take care of it off camera, and that was enough to last her a few minutes while you were gone.

Sooyoung, however, looked a little starstruck despite the fact that you were already dating. She knows she’s gonna be teased for looking like a lovesick puppy but she just needed a moment to take you in.

“Close your mouth, Youngie. You might catch flies.” She hears you giggle and her mouth does just that in response. But before she could say anything, your group’s leader came to fetch you. “Y/n, come on, we have to go.” Soyeon cut in and you were quick to nod your head and waved to your friends and girlfriends.

And seeing the whole exchange, Heejin snickered when Sooyoung’s eyes followed you out to the stage and greeted the staff. She had it bad, there was no denying.

“Y/n unnie looks really pretty. I can’t believe we’re going to see her a lot in this comeback.” She comments and Jinsol is practically bouncing in her place. “My baby is about to perform!” She cheers and the girls are led back to their room, Sooyoung taking a seat right in front of the television so she could see you.

She let the others take care of their makeup first, and it didn't take long for Jinsol to join her on the couch, practically taking her lap as her seat as your performance began. “Oh, oh! It’s starting!” Jiwoo joined the pair, and a handful of the girls were soon watching.

Throughout the performance, the girls were cheering and screaming, even more so whenever it came to your parts, but the whole room grew even louder the moment Sujin sang her verse and her hand crept up your chest. People who were passing by outside had to pause and check to see if everything was alright, only to see the group fangirling in front of the screen.

But your girlfriends were rooted in place, both stiff as a board. Even Jinsol wasn’t saying anything, but the way her eyes widened was enough of an indication that she was surprised, too. Sooyoung’s grip around her waist had tightened, but the latter was too focused on your performance to even notice. At some point, Yerim had to snap them out of the trance they were both in and Yeojin could see how flustered the pair had become after your performance.

It didn’t help that the camera panned to you for the ending and the way you stared back at it. If Sooyoung and Jinsol were both trying to tease you earlier, they would assume that you were doing the same. Because as soon as you were given the signal that the recording was done, your entire expression shifted in the blink of an eye as you stood up and beamed at the camera before bowing in thanks to the staff.

You were sneaky with that duality.

“Unnie is so adorable, I want to squish her cheeks.” Heejin laughed, pinching her own as though to show how much she wanted it. “They look so soft!” Kahei agreed with a nod and Hyeju had to nudge their two statue-like members before laughing. “Are you both okay?” She asked and Chaewon looked out the door to see if you were passing by.

“If you don’t move, you’re gonna miss her.” She states, and that was enough for Jinsol to hop to her feet, taking Sooyoung’s hand and then practically dragging the other girl outside, with her. “Sol, hold on!”

“What do you mean hold on? You can’t expect me to sit still after that tease!” Jinsol retorted when she spun around to meet her girlfriend’s eyes. “You were sitting still until Gowon said something.” The latter quipped playfully, enough to calm her racing heart before Jinsol pouted. “That was mean, you have to admit.”

Oh, she was going to get you back for that. It was an amazing performance, but Sooyoung wouldn’t rest until she was sure to show you that your attention belonged to her and Jinsol only.

“What was mean?” You sure loved popping out from thin air and scaring the living daylights out of the people you sneaking up on. No wonder you had so many videos of it online.

But the moment the pair’s eyes landed on your innocent looking face, they were quick to pull you into a vacant room, your members laughing as the door shut. “Good luck, Y/n!” You hear Yuqi’s muffled voice before you find yourself locked in the room with your two girlfriends.

It was quiet for a moment and you shifted nervously in place before offering a shaky smile. “So… how was the performance?” You say with a nervous laugh, and the mention reminded Sooyoung of that one bit of the choreography before she was narrowing her eyes at your face, causing you to gulp.

“Usually, I’d be boasting about my girlfriend being so pretty and talented, but I think there’s something we need to address.” The dancer hums, finger tapping lightly against her bicep and Jinsol just rolls her eyes before she takes a step closer and takes you into her arms before her lips are latching onto yours, your muscles automatically relaxing as you reciprocate the action. She has your back planted against the door and your arms lock behind her neck while Sooyoung just stood back in disbelief.

“Are we forgetting about the fact that another woman had her hands on our girlfriend?” She sputtered out before Jinsol pulled back a little, though she was still close enough for you to feel her breath fanning against your skin. “I’m just taking what’s mine.” She replies with a smirk, winking down at you before she begins to pepper kisses along your jaw, humming when you squirm at the action.

Sooyoung scoffs in disbelief before she stares back at you. You were already looking, a small smile on your face before one of your hands gestures for her to join you. “I missed you, too, even if you are being a little jealous.” You giggle when Jinsol cups your cheek before pressing a big smooch against the other and grinning.

“The girls were right, your cheeks are soft.” She hums, making you laugh and Sooyoung to pout a little because of how your girlfriend was stealing all of your attention. “Stop pouting and come over here already.” You tell her and Sooyoung huffs before you rolled your eyes, tapping Jinsol’s arm for her to let go, which she begrudgingly does so.

You walk over to your sulking girlfriend before enveloping her into a warm hug, your chin resting snug against her shoulder before you pressed a light kiss against her neck, effectively making her knees buckle when she held you flush against her. “You were amazing.” She whispered quietly, and Jinsol had to hold back a laugh before she walked over, trapping you between them and pressing a kiss to the side of the other’s temple.

“And so were you.” You reply before pecking her lips, but she refused to let it end too soon and chased after you, one hand coming to rest on the back of your head and you let out a sigh of content while Jinsol nuzzled the side of your neck.

The three of you stayed in the room for a little while before someone came knocking on the door. “Y/n-ah, we have to get going soon.” Miyeon called for you and you looked up to see your two girlfriends already smiling at you. “It’s okay. We’ll see you later.” Sooyoung was much calmer now and you reciprocated her smile before giving them both a quick kiss and standing up.

You adjusted your shirt a little before someone was tugging at your harness, your balance faltering before you found yourself in Jinsol’s arms again. “I didn’t tell Yves, but I really hope you’re thinking of at least one of us when you’re on stage.” She whispers, followed by a kiss against your ear, before she pulls back, smirking when she sees your blushing expression.

Sooyoung glances at the two of you, but there’s another knock, this time it was Jungeun coming to collect her members. So, you open the door to find both girls staring at the three of you with wide smiles. And with how red your face looked, Miyeon had to bite back a laugh before she was hooking her arm with yours.

“I’m sorry but I have to steal her away for now.” But she looks nowhere near apologetic and you could feel the teasing a mile away. “Don’t worry, we’ll take care of her.” She promises and Sooyoung shakes her head before grinning. “I don’t doubt it.”

“We have to get going, too. Hyeju is hungry.” Jungeun announces and you can’t help but giggle before waving a hand. “Tell the girls I said hi.” You tell her, and the brunette nods her head. “Of course.” She replies before Miyeon begins leading you away when she gets a text from one of the girls stating that your manager was looking for you. “I’ll see you guys later. Bye!”

Jinsol and Sooyoung watch you go, seeing Miyeon had already started to poke some fun at you while you pouted at the older girl before swatting her hand when she tried to poke your cheek before Jungeun smirked at her friends.

“So… are you done sulking?” She muses and Sooyoung shot her a glare before she began walking back, hand clutching Jinsol’s while the latter couldn’t wipe the grin off her face. “Very far from sulking.” She confirms and Sooyoung only huffed while the pair giggled.

Sooyoung was sure Jinsol would never let her live it down, but she can brush away being jealous when she knows you’ll be coming home to both of them.

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