#police investigation baby!!!!! that betrayal uuuuuuuuhhh STICKS WITH YA

[totopopopo]

K quick vent post bc I’m feelin it,, it really fucking sucks that I have trauma surrounding like. Friendship. Like. When I start becoming really good friends with someone to the point where we’re hanging out one on one pretty frequently and have inside jokes and can watch shitty movies with them,, I can’t DO that anymore without having literal fucking FLASHBACKS to. Like. To the last time I had that. To the last time I felt that way about someone. It wasn’t even the last time because I’ve had friends since then but. But that relationship ended in such a deeply traumatic and cruel way that I literally can’t. Cant do it anymore with other people. And that’s so fucking unfair. Like that feeling of love itself is the thing that’s been associated with the trauma. How am I supposed to deal with that.