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bubblybloob · 2 months ago
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Hero: Mate, you’re the tallest one here, what are you on about?
Broken comic! I originally wanted to make this a bit more grand but this was the best I could do.
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buildarocketboys · 5 months ago
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peterick prompt if youre up for taking ideas/prompts
dumbass!pete and traumatized!patrick
so just some unspecified trauma unless you wags get creative
but anyway pete starts messing with pat(pisses him off ofc) and they end up wrestling and pete has patrick pinned under him which makes pat freak out and have a panic attack and ofc pete doesnt notice until he sees patricks breathing speed up, his eyes dart around, he stops responding, etc
just a little thing tho, id love if youd write smt, if not thats cool^^
Tagging @puppyboymikeyway since you've already revealed yourself as the sender :3 Also using this to fill the hurt/comfort bingo prompt "I can't breathe." to Gentle touch for @sweetspicybingo because I'm a maverick like that.
Post-hiatus and unspecified trauma for Patrick (!) Enjoy!
Crossposted to AO3 here
It's good to be back in the studio with Patrick. It's where they belong.
It's always been their natural habitat, the place where their friendship makes the most sense. 
Sure, they've had plenty of fights, verbal and physical, in the studio in the past, but that's all part of the process. 
OK, sure, it had probably gotten a bit too toxic for a while there, but it's still the place they find it easiest to communicate with each other.
Joe and Andy are gonna be in next week, but Patrick had wanted to get in the studio before that, just the two of them, and Pete certainly has no objections.
Plus, he gets the feeling Patrick is kinda nervous to see the others. Apparently it took four hours on the phone to persuade Joe to give the band another go. Patrick's not even sure Joe will agree to work on another album. But he's agreed to try.
Pete knows it'll all work out. He's in one of his optimistic moods, spurred on by his renewed friendship with Patrick and the prospect of getting his band back together.
He and Patrick have been tentatively reaching out to each other for the past few months, the best way they know how - by writing songs.
This is one of the first times they've seen each other in person for ages, though. They had hugged when they arrived, but it had felt kind of awkward. Patrick had been tense, unresponsive to Pete's arms around him.
Pete had let go pretty quickly.
They're just not used to it anymore, he tells himself. Of course, the way Pete wants to deal with that is by throwing himself into Patrick's arms, but he can hardly blame Patrick for being hesitant. Pete's always been the more physically affectionate of the two of them.
They just need something to get them back on track. Maybe if he takes Patrick by surprise, he'll just sink into it without questioning it. Chronic overthinker, that one.
So when he comes back into the studio after using the bathroom to find Patrick standing with his back to him, he takes his chance. He launches himself at Patrick, tackling him to the ground, wrestling him on the floor.
They used to do this a lot - sometimes they were actually fighting, but most of the time it was just horseplay. Boys will be boys.
So it takes him a minute to realize that Patrick isn't fighting back.
In fact, he's not moving at all. His hands are covering his face, and he's frozen, breathing sharp and fast.
"Patrick?" he asks cautiously, still straddling his waist. He tries to remove Patrick's hands from his face but Patrick resists. "You OK, buddy?"
Patrick's breathing kicks up a notch, and Pete feels his heart rate jump in tandem. "I- can't- breathe-" Patrick pants. His face is going purple and- fuck, is he having a panic attack?
Pete finally comes to his senses and carefully climbs off Patrick.
"Patrick," he says tentatively. "You with me, buddy?"
Patrick's removed his arms from his face now and his eyes are darting everywhere, as if searching for an attacker. His breath is still coming out in gasps.
"Patrick," Pete says, firmly and clearly. He wants to ground Patrick, but he doesn't want to touch him and freak him out further. "You're here. With me. With Pete. You're OK." Why wouldn't he be OK?, Pete thinks, his imagination running wild. What the fuck had happened to him to make him react like this?
He tells himself fiercely to calm down. The last thing Patrick needs is for him to have a panic attack too. Patrick will tell him when he's ready.
Or maybe he won't.
Patrick's breaths are slowing now, getting deeper, calmer.
"Pete?" he croaks, his eyes finding Pete's above him.
"Yeah, yeah, it's me, Patrick," he says softly, offering Patrick a hand, which he takes, hauling himself up into a sitting position.
Patrick rests his face on his knees for a minute, just breathing. Then he starts laughing hysterically into his knees. 
Eventually he looks up at Pete, who's watching him anxiously. "Why did you have to do that?" he asks. Before Pete can answer, he shakes his head. "Of course, you're Pete Wentz. You do what you want." He sighs tiredly.
"No, Patrick, that's not-" Fuck. He had sworn it wouldn't be like this, not this time - him all over Patrick, whether Patrick likes it or not. The fact that he's pretty sure Patrick had always liked it is besides the point. "I'm sorry," he tells Patrick, and he means it. "I won't, I won't touch you again." He doesn't know if it's a promise he can keep, but he's damn well going to try.
Patrick raises his eyebrow. "You can touch me," he tells Pete. "Just...a little warning, might be nice."
Pete nods. "Noted." He reaches out for Patrick and waits for him to nod before he puts a hand on Patrick's back, rubbing gently. Patrick leans into his touch, and Pete breathes a sigh of relief.
"What happened, man?" he asks after a few minutes, because clearly something had happened. The Patrick he knew in 2009 wouldn't have reacted like that to Pete wrestling him, even at his most neurotic.
Patrick lets out a humorless laugh. "What didn't happen?" he says hollowly.
Pete waits, staring at Patrick, silently begging him to tell him, but equally desperate not to know.
Patrick sighs and shakes his head. "I'll tell you someday," he says. "Maybe. When I've figured it out myself. It's still all just so fucked up in my head, and I- I can't really talk about it, right now." He looks up pleadingly at Pete. "Is that OK?"
"Yeah, buddy, of course it is," Pete says after just a beat too long. 
Patrick looks at him slyly. "I'd tell you if I could, Pete. And it's not your fault, by the way. Before you start blaming yourself."
Pete can't help but feel a little relieved when Patrick says that. He sighs and lays his head on Patrick's shoulder. "Yeah, I know." Still, he can't help but worry. 
But Patrick seems calm now, his breathing getting deeper and slower with every circle Pete rubs into his back.
For now, he guesses, it's the best he can do.
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mrsshabana · 2 years ago
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What happened after you gave Gyutaro his special birthday present?
♥ AN: This is of course, taking place in the Against All Odds universe. I had originally written this to be a part of Chapter 16, but I don't think it fits well. So instead of scrapping it completely, I hope you can enjoy it. (*^▽^*)
♥ CW: Mentions of oral sex.
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Gyutaro lays on his back, staring up at the ceiling. Trying not to have a fucking panic attack.
Fuck I can’t believe that just happened. MY DICK WAS IN Y/N’S MOUTH. AND SHE FUCKING SWALLOWED TOO. Why would she do that? God, she’s fucking insane… She’s probably in the bathroom throwing up right now. Is she going to break up with me when she comes back? There’s no way she doesn’t… I’m so fucking pathetic, man. I couldn't even last two goddamn minutes.
Gyutaro groans as he drags his hands down his face. On the verge of a panic attack, he feels like he actually might start crying.
You had left the room so you could change into some of Gyutaro’s pajamas, since you didn’t bring any and he offered to let you spend the night. He’s since changed as well, and is anxiously waiting for you to come back. These few minutes without your loving presence is sending him into a downward spiral of negative thoughts.
Walking back into the room, you see your boyfriend covering his face, curled in on himself.
“Gyu? Are you alright?” you lower yourself to sit beside him on the bed.
“Oh y-yeah I’m perfect, babe,” he laughs nervously. He may say he’s fine, but you can tell that something’s wrong.
You can’t help but think that maybe you had made him upset, starting to feel insecure in yourself. “Did I do ok?”
“What?” he quirks his brow in confusion.
“I just wanted you to have a good birthday… I’m sorry if the blowjob wasn’t good.” you try to hide the embarrassment in your voice. You really did have no other intention than to make your boyfriend feel good on his birthday, and it seems like you couldn’t even do that.
“No no no baby it was perfect!” he quickly wraps his arms around you and kisses your forehead, “Please don’t think that. I’ve never felt so good in my entire fucking life, I promise. You did so fucking good babe, there’s nothing to worry about at all.”
“R-really?” you look up at him and he nods with a sad smile, “But then why do you look so upset?”
Gyutaro looks away in embarrassment as he begins scratching at his neck, “I just thought that maybe you wouldn’t like me anymore… I’m sure I didn’t do very well, plus my body is pretty gross so-”
You press a finger to his lips before he can continue, “Hush! That’s not true at all! I enjoyed it very much so don’t worry. Your only job was to relax and enjoy it, and you did just that. You were even helpful and held up my hair for me,” you smile sweetly at him.
“Well that’s the least I could have done,” he chuckles, “But my body… my dick to be exact is disgusting plus I don't know why you did that thing at the end either… I’m dirty.”
“Gyutaro,” you coo and cup his cheek, “You aren’t dirty, I know that it’s hard for you to realize that I adore every part of you so I’m just going to straight up tell you.” You say a matter of fact, Gyutaro just nods shyly, staring at you with wide eyes. “I love your dick. It is so sexy and there isn’t a single thing that I’d change about it. And I… I swallowed because I wanted to. You tasted good… I-I liked tasting you.”
The two of you are blushing profusely, quickly looking away from each other. Too embarrassed to look in each other’s eyes. 
Gyutaro finally returns his gaze back to you and hugs you tightly. He can’t believe that you just said that to him. That you had just accepted him as he is, accepted the most vile part of his body. And you even enjoyed the taste of him…
“Th-thank you,” he smiles shyly, unsure of what to say next or how to not make things awkward.
You decide to bring something up that you’re sure will lighten the mood, “I want to learn more about the fish that we saw at the aquarium. Is there a documentary you’d recommend?”
Gyutaro’s face instantly light up, “Yeah! I know a lot of good ones!” he enthusiastically reaches over you to grab the playstation controller.
He puts on one of his favorite documentaries and everytime a new animal comes on screen he pauses it and tells you cool facts that the documentary doesn’t mention.
“Have you ever thought of changing your major to marine biology?” you say after he finishes telling you facts about a rare starfish species.
“No… wouldn’t that be weird? A guy like me studying marine animals,” he laughs nervously.
“Not at all! It’s something that you enjoy so I think that makes it worth it, right? You’d be the best marine biologist ever. I’m sure you’d make lots of friends too,” you kiss his cheek.
“Maybe. I’ll look into it,” the corners of his lips curl slightly. Gyutaro fears that if he had a job where he has to work with humans then he’d probably get fired pretty quickly if ever even hired at all. But being around you so much is starting to raise his confidence, so he’ll consider it.
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soft-bellied-tannies · 1 year ago
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The Final Performance
Read here or on AO3!
While he would never say they were a co-dependent couple, Yoongi hated that he was rolling up to his parent’s house without Jimin. They tried to make the schedule work out, but Jimin was in a busy season at work and Yoongi could not talk his way out of their 30th-anniversary dinner. He may not be super close with his family, but he still wanted to celebrate important things with them. 
Jimin sent him off with all the kisses and hugs he could handle plus a very eventful date night before he left that involved a homecooked meal, a quart of ice cream, a can of whipped cream, and a blowjob. No wonder Yoongi woke up bloated with Jimin wrapped around him like an octopus.
Yoongi braced himself for the incoming comments from his family, expecting awkwardness from his parents and teasing from his brother. They knew he had gained a bit when they saw him a few Christmases ago, back when it was barely fifteen pounds from genuine relationship weight.
Since he had last been home, Yoongi and Jimin had discovered a few things about each other - mainly that Jimin was very good at keeping Yoongi well-fed. Two years and eighty pounds later, Yoongi was carrying around a lot more of himself and his relationship with Jimin had never been stronger. 
After letting himself into the house, Yoongi waited anxiously for someone to make an appearance until he was startled by his mother’s arms around him. He tried not to flinch at the sudden touch and turned to properly hug her, waiting for some kind of comment. 
“I can’t believe you are really here; I feel like I haven’t seen you in ages, dear,” his mother said, sounding slightly choked up in a way Yoongi was not expecting. 
“It’s good to see you, Mom. Happy Anniversary,” he responded, still holding the embrace. 
As she pulled away, his mother kept her hands on his shoulders and looked him up and down in that motherly way, surprising him with a nod of approval. “I see our Jimin is taking care of you well.” 
Yoongi felt his cheeks warm, not expecting an underlying compliment from her even as she addressed his new size. “Um, yeah, he really is.” 
Before she could add any further comment, his father entered the room and to Yoongi’s surprise, had the same kind of reaction. Hugging him in an affectionate way that was very unlike his typically stoic father with a similar comment in regard to Jimin. 
“Well, I guess that Jimin must be a good cook, huh?” 
He stared for a moment while trying to not get flustered and nodded with a quiet hum. His father just laughed and patted his shoulder while telling him that he could take his stuff upstairs to get settled. 
The walk across the house was quiet aside from the creaking floorboards that were much more used to the lithe weight of teenage Yoongi rather than the heavier steps he carried now. Sometimes, it was the little things that made the weight even more satisfying.
Yoongi ascended the stairs of his childhood home, something he had done countless times in his life, and yet, for the first time, he felt winded once he reached the top. Even though his parents were far enough down the hall not to hear a thing, Yoongi tried to minimize his breathing until he reached his own room. 
Once the door closed behind him, he let out a long breath and sat heavily on his old desk chair. Yoongi stared down at his watch and tracked the few minutes it took for him to 'catch' his breath. 
There were only two thoughts on his mind. 
Shit, I'm getting fat and I can't wait to tell Jimin. 
Just as he grabbed his phone to send a quick text, he heard footsteps quickly approaching his door. Yoongi stood from his chair and instinctively adjusted his sweatshirt, smoothing it down slightly so it didn’t make him look as big as he was. A weird sense of insecurity suddenly hit knowing that his brother was about to see him. 
Without even a small warning of his presence, Yoongi’s bedroom door swung open revealing his brother who paused and looked at him before smirking. “Damn, have you eaten every lamb skewer in Seoul or what?” 
“Yah, respect your hyung,” Yoongi replied, tone light as he pulled his brother in for a hug and tried to hide the embarrassment that he had been expecting all along. He stepped back with a little yelp when his brother pinched his plump side above his waistband. 
“Putting the big in big brother, hyung,” he quipped, jumping away before Yoongi could get his hands on him. 
Yoongi knew his face was on fire now as he stared down his brother. The tone of his voice was helping though, not sounding judgmental, just brotherly cajoling. Jimin was always telling him to give their family and friends more credit, but Yoongi couldn’t help that little spike of anxiety sometimes.
The teasing grin on his brother’s face certainly did help quell that lingering bit of panic though. He tried his best to let it go and simply lean into the brotherly banter, hoping that a positive report will earn him a few rewards from Jimin.
“Shut up, you brat.” 
“Back at ya, chubs,” his brother cut back, winking as he backed out of the room. He was laughing, a sign for Yoongi that it was all in good faith. “I hope you save some dinner for me.”
Shaking his head, Yoongi focused on unpacking his bag as he tried to calm his racing heart. A small part of him had been freaking out to come home, expecting looks of disapproval and hints about diets and workout routines. He certainly wasn’t mad about his family being oddly supportive, but now he felt bad for all those nights he spent complaining to Jimin. 
Thinking about Jimin brought Yoongi back to a thought that had crossed his mind on the trip down - remembering the things he had left behind at his parent’s house including a closet full of clothes that didn’t make the cut for his college move. 
Yoongi filed through the hangers in this closet and found an old button-down he used to wear for piano recitals, one that Jimin had commented on before when they went through old photos. His partner had always joked about how much of a miracle it would be if he could button that shirt now.
After announcing to his family that he was going to jump in the shower and closing his bedroom door, Yoongi stripped off his oversized hoodie and grabbed the suddenly tiny-looking shirt. He went into his attached bathroom, closing that door behind as well to have two barriers between him and his family milling around the house. 
Yoongi knew his partner wouldn't be opposed to witnessing the likely final performance for his dress clothes. He set up his phone on the counter and hit record before starting to pull the shirt on without even giving the video an intro. Jimin didn’t need commentary to enjoy his little show.
The shirt already felt tight just going up his arms, squeezing his soft skin in the fabric. Yoongi heard a quiet creak in the threads as it pulled across his shoulders, feeling as though it was ready to snap even before he attempted the buttons. 
Yoongi let out a terse sigh as he rolled his shoulders and felt the tight seams constrict his movement. The shirt was hanging open, looking like buttoning it would be impossible as his round gut hung out the front. 
Suddenly, he remembered that the rest of this suit should be hanging in his closet as well. He looked into the camera with a little smirk and said, “I’ll be right back, love.” 
Ambling out of frame, Yoongi rifled through his clothes until he found the matching pants that he had worn many times throughout performances at his arts high school. The pants looked laughably small and he was very much looking forward to seeing just how small they were. The suit jacket seemed to be missing from its place next to the rest of his outfit, but Yoongi had remembered bringing it with him up to Seoul and slowly moving it to Jimin's side of the closet once the weight started to pack on.
Stepping back into the bathroom and closing the door behind him, Yoongi immediately bent to pull the pants on and heard another protest from the shirt around his shoulders. He knew the instant he started to bring the waistband up his legs that the pants were never going to fit. His legs looked like they were wrapped in sausage casing instead of a cotton blend. 
Yoongi took a firm grip on the waistband and pulled a few times, bringing them closer to where they should properly sit. He went up on his toes, hefting his weight in an impromptu jump because he didn’t want to make too much noise. 
With little success in that move, he started to shimmy back and forth and inched the pants slightly higher with each attempt. Yoongi felt his body warming up from the exertion, a bit of sweat building up on his upper lip and brow. 
Deciding he needed a little more force, Yoongi finally jumped a little landing on his toes to reduce the sound of him landing after each little attempt. He let out a quiet ‘oof’ when the heavy weight of his stomach bounced back down with gravity’s push. 
On the final jump, the sound of fabric ripping filled the room as Yoongi ripped the two belt loops he had been firmly grasping from where they were connected. He stumbled a bit as he lost his grip on the pants, a muffled ‘shit’ coming from his mouth as he turned side to side inspecting the damage. 
Yoongi didn’t realize how heavy his breathing was until he came to a stop, needing to actually catch his breath for the second time since he came upstairs. He placed his hands on his hips and stared right at the camera, knowing well that his clothes looked comedically small on his body. 
“Fuck, Min, I am out of shape,” Yoongi admitted before wiping his forehead and returning to his efforts. 
Finally pulling his pants over his ass, Yoongi took one look at the button in the mirror and gave up on even the thought of buttoning them. The open v of his waistband was already straining against his wide hips and thighs, the button stretched inches away from the clasp. 
He brought his focus back to his shirt, pulling each side forward a bit at a time until there was no more give around his shoulders. Giving it a testing tug, Yoongi brought the middle button toward the corresponding hole and found that it was about two inches away from closing. 
Yoongi cleared all the air from his lungs and took a deep breath, sucking in as much of his soft middle as physically possible. He pulled both sides of the fabric with all his strength and moved as fast as he could to close three of the buttons in one breath. 
His fingers fumbled around as there was still resistance, but after the third button went through into its hold, Yoongi had to relax. The muscles in his abdomen revolted from trying to hold in the weight of his belly. 
Exhaling in one long breath and allowing his stomach to surge forward had exactly the effect Yoongi was going for as the button at the widest crest of his belly held on for just moments before the thread ripped away and shot the little piece of plastic straight at his phone. 
The heavy breathing returned for a much different reason this time around. He looked at the camera for a brief moment, giving his partner a wink before picking it up and strategically giving Jimin the perfect angle of his belly peaking through the ripped fabric as he turned the recording off. 
With no hesitation, Yoongi sent the video to Jimin and turned on the water to warm the shower. He fought his way out of the tight clothing and instantly had to get his hands on himself while thinking of Jimin’s reaction to his little gift. 
The pants were just as much of a problem coming off as they were getting on. Yoongi was huffing and puffing as he had to eventually sit down to yank the fabric off his legs. Getting the shirt off was a reprieve on his shoulders and arms which were likely losing circulation at that point.
He barely had time to compose himself because as Yoongi was stepping into the shower and thinking about how his partner would react if he were here, Jimin’s face lit up the screen of his phone. 
Not caring that his hands were wet and that his chest was still heaving for even breaths, Yoongi answered and was pleased to hear that it had the same effect on Jimin when he heard the state of his voice. 
“Baby…”
The husky tone of Jimin’s voice sent a shiver down Yoongi’s spine as he listened to his partner give all of his thoughts about the video. Jimin demanded he brought more clothes home for a live show and whispered all the things he had planned as he talked him through their shared climaxes. 
All Yoongi could hope was that his family didn’t hear his pre-dinner activities. And if they did, maybe a little pre-shower workout would be a logical excuse because obviously, he had a few extra calories to burn.
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glazemeda · 2 years ago
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summary; your lover and affection, plus when he's needy. characters; diluc, venti, thoma, shikanoin heizou. tags/warnings; pure fluff, hugs and kisses.
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DILUC usually leaves the affection to you, only initiating himself when one of you is really tired, there's some kind of danger or if you need it to cheer up. He simply doesn't feel the need to be always touching you.
But, sometimes, he can't help but yearn for your touch. It isn't a secret that he loves your hugs and the kisses you leave on his cheek each morning before work, as a smile would always appear on his face.
When he's needy, he can't focus on his work. Diluc leaves the documents he was trying to read with a sigh, getting up from the chair to go to where you are.
Once he finds you, it won't take long for you to know what he wants. He offers his hand to you, kissing your skin when your hand rests on his, and forgets about working for a while.
Diluc wouldn't do that at first, too awkward in the beginning of the relationship, but he'll eventually open up and search for you for something as simple as a peck on the lips.
He's quiet with his need for affection, and always in private. If you're in public, don't doubt that the moment you get back home his arms will wrap around your body, his own relaxing now that he can finally hug you.
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HEIZOU doesn't really hesitate when he wants to kiss you, unless you prefer to avoid certain actions in public. He will respect your boundaries, even if he really, really wants to kiss you!
This detective likes to hold your hand more than anything, and even plays with your hand when he's deep in thought. He doesn't care much about PDA, although he does prefer to keep the longer kisses for when you're alone.
When he's needy, he lets you now almost immediately. Why should he be shy when he wants his partner's attention? Unless you're in the middle of something important or in front of people (he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable), Heizou will hug you from behind.
"Got you!" He laughs, arms firm enough around you to stop you from escaping. "Hm? Want me to let you go? Well, maybe in exchange of a kiss."
Yes, he won't let you go until you give him a kiss. Don't worry, if you're shy he'll accept a quick peck on his cheek, only to kiss you in the lips right before he lets you go.
Heizou is straightforward about what he wants, especially with you. If you're at home, he will take your hand and drag you to the couch, asking for cuddles with a smile he knows you can't say no to.
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THOMA likes to hold your hand and kiss your cheek when he can, but prefers to keep the other types of affection for when you're alone or with close friends.
He won't say no if you ask him for a hug, how could he when you're so cute? You have him wrapped around your finger, and everyone knows, no matter how little they know about him.
When he's needy, he will wait until you are in private before doing anything. The last thing he wants to do is make you uncomfortable or overstep your boundaries, even if it's an accident, so he keeps his hands to himself until then.
Thoma loves to cuddle with you, and will most likely ask you to cuddle with him as soon as you get home, before he starts making dinner.
Please, hug him from behind while he cooks, he will melt without a single doubt. Domestic moments like those never fail to turn his cheeks pink. He will turn back and return the hug once he finishes with the cooking.
"Love, can we cuddle after dinner, too?" Thoma asks with a soft smile, one hand caressing your cheek before he kisses your head.
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VENTI can't keep his hands to himself, no matter if you're in public or in private. Unless you talk about boundaries with him, he's going to keep a hand on you at all times.
He likes to hold your hand while you walk around Mondstadt, rest his head on your shoulder when you're sitting, and even sit on your lap with your arms around his waist, sometimes.
If he's needy, he will be even more touchy until you return his affections. He'll leave kisses on your skin, fingers tracing forms on the back of your hand...
But if you're more reserved while in public, he'll try to stop himself, although it's obvious with how much he's fidgeting. He might even find a way to get home sooner, just so he can throw himself into your arms.
"Flower, please!" Venti whines, both hands grabbing onto one of your arms as you use the other to open the door of your home. "I will die if I don't get a kiss soon!"
Dramatic when you're alone, not really a surprise. As soon as you're inside, he'll drag you to your bed to cuddle and kiss you. I hope you didn't have anything important to do, he won't let you go anytime soon.
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theteasetwrites · 3 years ago
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The Beginning Is the End Is the Beginning
Chapter 32: Some Sunny Day
❧ Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader ❧ Era: Season 5 ❧ Pronouns: she/her ❧ Warnings: mild swearing, scary situation, blood and gore ❧ Word Count: 6.6k
❧ In This Chapter: Your long-lost brother invites your group to his settlement, but Rick and Daryl are skeptical of him, needing to meet his community on their terms.
❧ A/N: *deep breath* You guys... it's finally happening. We're officially going to be introduced to Reader's brother! Congrats if you guessed correctly (also no worries if you didn't, I was trying to give as little detail about him as possible). At first, I was considering making Negan her brother, but I just couldn't see it. However, I can definitely see Aaron and her being brother and sister based on their personalities. Plus, I love Aaron and Daryl's dynamic in the show, and now that they're gonna be connected in this way, it makes it even better. I mean, this gif says it all, am I right?
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Aaron beamed at you, tears welling up in his eyes.
“(Y/N),” he said.
When he said your name, you knew for sure it was really him, and you sprinted to him without hesitation. You threw your arms around him and nearly knocked him over onto Daryl, who stood behind him, watching his every move.
He flinched when he saw you running to him, but it happened so fast there wasn’t anything he could do.
This was the Aaron you had told him so much about, the older brother who represented to you something so different from what his older brother did. To you, Aaron was a friend, a shoulder to cry on, a comforting presence in your life.
Merle was nothing like that. If Daryl cried in front of him, he’d call him a pussy. He could never really be himself around Merle, and he never really felt safe with him. It took Daryl a long time after his death to realize, but he never needed Merle. Merle needed him. Needed him to fuel his ego, to be his punching bag, to make him feel important.
When he saw the way you hugged Aaron, your eyes shut tight and your arms interlocked around his neck, he knew your relationship to your older brother was much different than his. It was… fair. Healthy. Stable.
Still, he didn’t trust him. Daryl couldn’t afford to trust anyone outside of your group anymore.
No one else trusted him besides you. At least, not at the outset. The man hadn’t said a word to your group except to you, Sasha, and Maggie. Now, the others were waiting for an explanation for why he was here.
Moreover, waiting for you to stop crying. “Oh God!” you cried. “You’re alive!”
You pulled back and took his face in your hands, studying it with bewildered eyes. He looked largely the same as he had the last time you saw him, bright blue eyes and a cheerful smile that could light up a dark winter sky. The light brown curls sprouting from his head were kept neat and tidy, certainly much neater and tidier than your hair, or anyone else’s hair for that matter. His clothes were clean, too, and overall he looked like the world never ended.
“It’s really you.”
He laughed. “It’s really me.”
You laughed, too. “I—I can’t believe it.”
Your eyes never left his face. They searched every nook and cranny for a crack to pull back the mask and reveal a totally different person, one more rugged and hardened by the fallen world, but it was him. It was the same Aaron.
“Ahem.” You heard Rick clearing his throat from behind you.
Turning to face him, you moved aside and allowed Aaron to introduce himself. You understood that they must have been a little confused. You were too.
He took a deep breath, then held his hands up a bit when he realized he had several guns pointed at him. “Hi.”
There were a few moments of awkward silence as Aaron looked at Rick, aware that he was your group’s leader. Though he would have liked to catch up with you, it seemed he had a reason for being there other than you being his sister.
“It’s nice to meet you.” He stepped forward to outstretch his hand, but a few more guns cocked at him, and Daryl stepped forward to grab him if he didn’t stop in his tracks. “Um…” He turned to look at you. “I’m… (Y/N)’s brother.” He swallowed hard when they continued pointing at him. “Unfortunately I don’t have the birth certificate to prove it.”
Rick was silent, and you were still too dumbstruck to say much of anything.
“There something you need?” he asked seriously.
“He has a camp nearby,” said Sasha. “He wants us to ‘audition’ for membership.”
“I wish there was another word,” Aaron said. “‘Audition’ makes it sound like we’re some kind of a dance troupe,” he laughed nervously. “That’s only Friday nights.”
When no one laughed, or eased up on him, he shook his head to disregard his blunder.
The family curse—social awkwardness. Saying the wrong things at the wrong time. He was definitely your brother, no birth certificate needed.
“Um, and it’s not a camp,” he continued. “It’s a community. I think you all would make valuable additions.” He looked over to you. “And… not just because of (Y/N).”
You smiled at him, still sniffling at his appearance in front of you.
“But, it’s not my call,” he said, turning serious again. “My job is to convince you all to follow me back home.”
You looked to Rick to see if you could read his face. It was hard with the large, untamed beard he had been growing.
When you couldn’t read his stone cold face, you turned to Daryl. His eyes were already on you, skeptical of the whole situation. You silently begged him to ease up on your brother. Either he didn’t register it, or he ignored it.
Of course, Daryl believed you—Aaron was your brother. There was no doubt about it, the resemblance just in the eyes alone was evident. The problem was that he couldn’t trust him, even if he was your family. The situation seemed odd to him, the idea of someone recruiting others to join their community… it couldn’t be.
“I know,” said Aaron. “If I were you I wouldn’t go either. Not until I knew exactly what I was getting into.” He turned to Sasha. “Sasha, can you hand Rick my pack?”
She hesitantly did so, and Rick set it down to begin opening it. “Front pack,” he continued, “there’s an envelope. There’s no way I could convince you to come with me just by talking about our community.”
You could tell Aaron was putting on his most professional demeanor. You watched him practice for several school presentations back in the day, and that was always how he spoke. He could be very charismatic when he wasn’t being awkward. That was something you, on the other hand, were still working on.
Rick pulled out the faded envelope and began to open it.
“That’s why I brought those.” He nudged his head towards the photos. “I apologize in advance for the picture quality,” he laughed nervously. “Uh, we just found an old camera store last—”
“Nobody gives a shit,” Daryl growled at him.
Aaron turned to face him for the first time, and you narrowed your eyes at him, warning him not to harass your brother lest he face your wrath later.
He didn’t even look at you, just kept glaring at Aaron, who nodded at him in acknowledgment.
Aaron swallowed hard, slightly terrified of the man behind him. He was shorter than Aaron, but a hell of lot stronger and meaner looking. Moreover, Aaron had been watching your group for a few days, and Daryl seemed the least friendly, despite his evident care for you. He was, in a sense, like a guard dog—territorial and defensive with strangers, but fiercely loyal and devoted to his people.
“You’re absolutely, one-hundred percent right.” He took a breath and turned back to Rick as he thumbed through the blurry black and white photos. “That’s the first picture I wanted to show you because nothing I say about our community will matter unless you know you’ll be safe.”
The photograph was of a sturdy metal wall propped up with large beams at a forty-five degree angle.
“If you join us,” he continued, “you will be.”
The others were silent again. Aaron kept talking, and you were starting to see that he should probably shut up.
“Each panel in that wall,” he went on to continue, “is a fifteen foot tall, twelve foot wide slab of solid steel, framed by cold-rolled steel beams and square tubing.”
You would have thought he was a car salesman in a past life with the way he was speaking. “Nothing alive or dead gets through that without our say-so.”
Rick stood up and exchanged a look with you. You weren’t crying anymore, but you were silently telling him that you weren’t going anywhere without your brother, or Daryl, yet the looks Daryl was giving Aaron were discouraging you.
“Like I said,” Aaron continued, “security is obviously important. In fact, there’s only one resource more critical to our community’s survival.” He turned to give you a heartfelt smile. “The people.”
He looked back at Rick, who still wasn’t impressed. If anything, he seemed a bit peeved. “Together, we’re strong,” Aaron said.
Aaron, I think it’s time to shut up.
“You can make us even stronger.”
Rick looked down at the photos again. “The next picture, you’ll see inside the gates.”
Aaron. Shut. Up.
Rick was still looking down as he strutted towards your brother. “Our community was first construc—”
Rick socked him square in the face before he could finish his sentence.
You covered your mouth with your hands, then knelt down by his unconscious body. “What the hell did you do that for?!” you yelled at Rick with a furious quiver in your voice.
Daryl leaned down beside you to make sure he was unconscious.
“We gotta secure him,” Rick said to you, looking at you callously. “Dump his pack, let’s see who this guy really is,” he instructed Carl. You scoffed, cradling your brother’s head in your lap. He was very out.
“He’s my brother!” you said. “He’s a good person. What, you think he’s gonna try to cook us for Sunday brunch?”
Well, that did almost happen the last time you tried to trust someone. Still, this was Aaron you were talking about. The guy couldn’t hurt a fly. Literally—he always tried to catch and release them when you were kids.
Rick narrowed his eyes on you. “Doesn’t matter who he is, he could be a threat.” He looked around at the others. “We need eyes in every direction. They’re coming for us. We don’t know how or when, but they’re comin’.”
Your eyes widened and you turned to Daryl, who was busy tying up his hands and feet. “Daryl?” you asked quietly. “Daryl?” He didn’t look at you. You huffed and took off your jean jacket to bundle it up and tuck it gently under Aaron’s head.
“This is bullshit,” you said to Rick, standing up to face him. “You’re getting worked up for no reason. He’s trying to help us. I bet he’s the one who left us that water, for Christ’s sake!”
Maggie stood by your side. “Me and Sasha, we didn’t see him. If he had wanted to hurt us, he could’ve.”
You loved Maggie. She always had your back, believed in you.
“Anybody see anything?” he ignored you both.
“Just a lot of places to hide,” replied Glenn as he looked out the barn door.
“All right, keep looking.”
You palmed your forehead and rested your other hand on your hip, all the while sighing in frustration. You knew Maggie had your back, but you were sure Rick and Daryl didn’t. As things so often turned out, the “alpha males” of the group were in charge.
Bonobos are matriarchal, you thought. Maybe we should be more like them.
You shook your head of your intrusive thoughts and knelt back down to check on Aaron. You noticed he was sweaty, so you aggressively yanked Daryl’s red rag from his back pocket as he was walking by and used it to dab Aaron’s forehead.
Daryl flinched at your sneak attack, and you glared up at him before noticing Aaron was coming to.
His eyes fluttered then met with yours. He smiled deliriously. “That’s a hell of a right cross there, Rick.”
“Sit him up,” Rick said to you.
Maggie knelt down next to you. “I think it’s better if he—”
“It’s okay,” Aaron said.
“He’s fine, sit him up,” commanded Rick.
You glared at him, too. You had more than enough glares reserved for him and Daryl today.
He groaned as you and Maggie pulled him up so he sat upright on the barn floor. “You’re being cautious,” he said. “I completely understand.”
“How many of your people are out there?” asked Rick.
Aaron shook his head. “No matter what I say, you’re not going to trust me.”
“Well, it’s hard to trust anyone who smiles after getting punched in the face,” Rick replied.
“How about a guy who leaves bottles of water for you in the road?” he asked.
Daryl looked at you sternly, then stepped forwards. “How long have you people been followin’ us?”
“Long enough to see that you practically ignore a pack of roamers on your trail. Long enough to see that despite a lack of food and water, you never turned on each other… and when I saw (Y/N) was with you, I had to reach out.” He looked over at you. “You’re survivors,” he said to you. “And you’re people. Like I said, and I hope you won’t punch me for saying it again, that is the most important resource in the world.”
The air was thick with silence again. Aaron sighed. “What would it take to convince you that I’m telling the truth?”
A lot.
Aaron had told you all there was only one other person out there with him. The rest were at his community.
Michonne, Maggie, Abraham, Rosita, and Glenn agreed to scope out the area where Aaron said the cars were parked. Aaron had thought the whole thing through—they came in separate cars so there’d be room for all 16 of you to come back with them.
Back at the barn, Rick had the rest of you patrol the area in case of an attack, and he questioned Aaron.
You pleaded with him to let you stay with your brother, but he refused.
When you were finally alone with Daryl on patrol, you gave him the scolding that had been burning up inside you since he first pointed his crossbow at your brother.
“You think he’s dangerous, too?” you asked him pointedly.
“He could be.”
You scoffed. “You don’t think I know my own brother? He wouldn’t do anything to hurt us!”
Daryl huffed. “You ain’t seen him in almost two years. You got no idea what he’s done or who he’s hung with and you wanna just drop everythin’ and follow him to fantasyland?”
“Even if he weren’t my brother, I’d still give him a chance. This place, it could be our last shot at a real home. Someplace permanent. Look around, Daryl!” You gestured to the woods surrounding you. “There’s nowhere to go. We can’t stay out here any longer. It won’t go well.”
He shook his head and inched closer to you. “It could be a trap, (Y/N).” He spoke softer now, trying to take into consideration how sensitive you were. “Just ‘cause he’s blood don’t mean you can trust him.”
Your eyes widened. “You gave us all a hard time for not trusting Merle, and you followed him blindly based on the same logic—he’s your brother. How is this any different? If anything, Aaron hasn’t shown any signs of working with someone like the Governor or tried to harass any of us. This time, we actually have a good incentive to trust him. He could save us!”
Daryl was quiet again for a while. “Ain’t sayin’ he’s like Merle, just sayin’ we can’t trust anyone these days.”
You shook your head. “Just give him a chance. I did with you, bringing you back to my camp. It was a risk, but it worked out for the better. Can’t you take one chance on him?”
When he remained quiet, you stepped closer to him and gave him those doe eyes again as you cupped his cheek. “Please, Daryl. Can you be with me on this? It’s the right thing, following him. I know it.”
He was caught between a rock and a hard place.
Of course he wanted you to be happy, to be safe. If Aaron was telling the truth about this “community” he had, you wouldn’t have to run around anymore. He saw the photos; it was secure. It could be made even more secure. Daryl would do anything for you, if he had to get his hands dirty to keep you safe he would.
On the other hand, Aaron could be lying. The world changed people. In two years, your brother could have become a completely different person. You yourself had changed a great deal since the beginning, though you were the same person at your core, just a little more acclimated to your surroundings. Still, he could be lying.
He laid his hand over yours as it rested on his cheek, the stubble tickling your soft palm. “Can’t promise anythin’,” he said.
You tilted your head. “Can you try? Try to trust him?”
Daryl was silent again for a while, chewing on the inside of his lip as he searched your face for the answer. Of course, he found it there.
“Mhm,” he mumbled. “I’ll try.”
When the others came back, they came in the two vehicles Aaron had said were nearby: a small sedan and a motor home, the latter of which had a stash of canned food, further proving that Aaron had a community in which they could hold that much food.
They brought the stash inside the barn for Rick and the rest of you to see for yourselves. Turning to Aaron, where you were knelt beside him, Rick held up one of the cans. “This is ours now,” he said.
Aaron sighed. “There’s more than enough.”
He was always so agreeable. If you knew anything about Aaron, it was that he hated conflict. If he had it his way, everyone in the world would jump rope on rainbows and make a daisy chain that stretched around the globe twice over. Though he was older than you, he seemed younger than you in a lot of ways. You both believed there was good in the world, even after the turn, but Aaron always wanted to change the world.
“It’s ours,” Rick reiterated. “Whether or not we go to your camp.”
You closed your eyes and let out a sharp sigh. What else did he need? Aaron was telling the truth about the cars, you could all see that now as you stood together in the barn.
“What do you mean?” Carl stepped up to ask his father. “Why wouldn’t we go?”
“If he were lying,” Michonne added, “or if he wanted to hurt us… but he isn’t, and he doesn’t. We need this. So we’re going, all of us.”
There were your tears welling up again in your eyes. You smiled at Aaron and rested your hand on his shoulder. He looked at you with all the brotherly love and pride in his eyes he had throughout your life. When you learned to ride a bike, when you finally aced a math exam, when you passed your driver’s test on the first try, when you graduated college… seeing his face again, so genuinely loving and full of joy, it gave you another reason to live.
“Somebody say something if they feel differently,” Michonne’s voice brought your attention back to the others. You looked around nervously, hoping Rick wouldn’t keep protesting what everyone else in the group seemed to want.
You gulped when your eyes landed on Daryl, sitting across the barn from you. There was no way you weren’t going back with your brother, and there was absolutely no way you were going anywhere without Daryl or the rest of your family. If he protested, you weren’t sure you could handle it.
Daryl looked at you when he felt your familiar gaze, so soft and appreciative of what he had to say. You always thought he was an important member of your group, and that his word was just as strong as Rick’s. To you, the person who loved him more than anyone else in the world, his word was like a dictation from a god.
His face was muddy and his eyes were tired. He chewed the inside of his bottom lip as he studied Aaron, then slowly turned to you. “I don’t know, man,” he finally said, moving his gaze back down to his feet.
Your heart dropped into your stomach as you were sure he’d say it was a bad idea, that Aaron couldn’t be trusted.
He looked back up at you. “This barn smells like horse shit.”
You closed your eyes in relief and squeezed Aaron’s shoulder.
Now, Rick had to make the final verdict. If Daryl was okay with going, Rick would have to be. “Yeah,” he said. “We’re goin’.”
You pressed your head against Aaron’s forehead and the two of you shared a joyous laughter.
“So where are we going?” asked Rick. “Where’s your camp?”
Aaron cleared his throat to maintain his professionalism. “Every time I’ve done this, I’ve been behind the wheel driving recruits back.” He looked back at you worriedly. “I believe you’re good people, I bet my life on it. I’m just… not ready to bet my friends’ lives on it just yet.”
You nodded your head in understanding.
“You’re not driving,” said Michonne. “So if you want to get home, you’ll have to tell us how.”
There was some argument about the time and route the group would take to get there. Aaron insisted upon taking Route 16, a route which his people had cleared. Rick, however, was settled on Route 23.
Rick also thought it would be a good idea to leave at sundown. Of course, no one really liked that idea. Rick insisted that arriving at the community under the cover of night would better allow your group to leave if they thought something wasn’t right.
Aaron insisted, again, that no one was going to hurt you or your people. Still, Rick wasn’t taking any chances.
You admired that Rick was trying to protect your group, but he was putting you all in danger by taking a route that hadn’t been cleared and doing it at night. You tried to see his point of view, but you were clouded by your emotions. Your brother was trustworthy, you knew that, but the others didn’t. It was an odd position to be in, torn between your biological family and your found family. You supposed you knew how Daryl felt now when he had to choose between you and Merle back at the prison.
The difference was, you weren’t going to make that decision—you were going to have both of them somehow, and you’d fight tooth and nail to get them to get along.
Passing the North 23 highway marker, you sat in between Aaron and Michonne in the backseat of the sedan, with the motor home closely behind you.
In the front seat, Rick sat in the passenger side while Glenn drove with Aaron’s directions. He refused to give your group the exact location before you hit the road, so he agreed to point you there as you went along.
When Rick curiously opened the dash, he pulled out a pile of license plates, all from different states. Massachusetts… Texas… Michigan…
You peered over to see what he was looking at. When your eyes hit the license plates, you nudged Aaron to get his attention.
“Oh,” he said, noticing that Rick had found his little collection. “I’m trying to collect all fifty states. Put them all on a wall in my house.” You laughed a little. Aaron always loved collecting things, anything he could get his hands on.
He went through phases. For a while, he collected baseball cards. Then, it was postage stamps and coins. When he got really into Star Trek, he collected all the comic books (and threw a tantrum when you removed them from their vacuum-sealed plastic to read them). When the two of you and a few of his friends took a road trip around the country, he collected Christmas ornaments from each state to hang on the tree in his apartment during the holidays.
You collected, too, but he was almost obsessive about it. With you, it was antique tea cups, books, postcards, and, of course, clothing and lingerie. When Aaron got his driver’s license, he would take you to your local antique shop almost every weekend to scavenge for treasures together. You usually came out with a bunch of junk no one else wanted, but you two saw the beauty in them when no one else did.
“You have your own house?” Michonne asked, the phrase seemingly foreign to her.
You were so lost in your memories that you forgot Aaron had mentioned his home. You looked at him curiously. “It’s… an actual house?”
He smiled at you. “See for yourself.” He nudged his head down towards the envelope peeking out of his pack near your feet.
You bent over and opened it up to look at the photos the first time for yourself, allowing Michonne to see as well.
The photos, indeed, were blurry and overexposed, but you could make out a porch with a railing, and a solar panel in the background. Flipping to the next photo, you saw the house from the front. It was a two-story home with side paneling and manicured shrubs lining the path to its entrance. You could tell it was built not too long ago since the style was contemporary, yet had a charming suburban feel to it.
It was nicer than your childhood home back in Tuckahoe, at least in terms of newness and size. There was no comparison to your studio apartment back in Athens, which was about a quarter of the size. Those were the only homes you had ever known before the turn, and after that, your homes were more or less bunkers. Though you had a special place in your heart for every place you had stayed, even if it was just for a night, you couldn’t deny that a home of your own sounded like a dream come true.
You beamed up at Aaron, and he was smiling too. “I knew you’d like that one.”
You handed Michonne the other half of the pictures, and suddenly she seemed disturbed. “Why don’t you have any pictures of your people?” she asked.
Aaron’s smile faded and he gave her a confused look. “Oh, I took a picture of the whole group, but I didn’t get the exposure right.”
You turned to Michonne with a concerned look on your face.
Don’t change your mind now.
“When I tried to develop it later, it just—”
“Did you ask him the questions?” Michonne asked Rick.
Ah, yes. The questions.
Rick had developed a three-question system when interrogating potential new members of your group. It became an unspoken rule amongst your group that it was a requirement for admission.
“No,” Rick replied.
Michonne turned back to Aaron with a serious visage. “How many walkers have you killed?”
You never really understood that one. It was either zero or too many to count, but you guessed it was good to know how experienced they were.
Aaron furrowed his brow. “I’m sorry, what?”
“How many?” she repeated.
You gulped. You could cut the tension in that car with a knife.
“I don’t know, a lot,” he said.
“How many people?” Michonne continued.
Aaron was silent for a moment. “Two.”
You closed your eyes. Please don’t turn on him.
“Why?”
“Because they tried to kill me,” he told Michonne seriously.
A splatter of blood hit the windshield as Glenn plowed through a herd of walkers. Within seconds, you were going through a tunnel of bodies that darkened the front window until nothing could be seen past the blood and gore.
Burning rubber, Glenn abruptly halted the vehicle. You tried to turn and see if the motor home was still behind you, but it was too dark to see anything. At least, that’s what you told yourself.
Hopping out of the car with the others, Aaron still inside on account of him being tied up, you knew now that they really weren’t there. “I don’t seem ‘em,” said Rick.
“No, they’re gone. They got away,” you said, hoping it to be true.
Rick nodded to you, then looked over at Glenn. “All right, we’ll circle back and find them. Let’s go.”
“They’re okay?” Aaron asked frantically.
“Yeah,” you assured him.
Glenn wiped off as much blood as he could before struggling to start the sputtering engine.
“Come on, come on,” he muttered.
You could see the blurry red tableau of walkers stumbling towards your car, so many of them that it was the only sight for miles.
“We gotta get out of here,” said Aaron.
No shit.
“Let me see what I can see.” Michonne got out and began removing the accumulation of walker limbs from the hood.
“They’re coming right for us!” Aaron yelled.
“We know,” retorted Rick.
“We need to leave, now!” he continued.
“Calm down,” you reassured him. “We’re going to get out of this.” It wasn’t often you had to be the calm one. That was usually his role.
“Hold on,” said Glenn, noticing the bright ball of red light streaming into the black sky from a distance.
“Is that a flare?” you asked.
“Shit,” muttered Aaron, his eyes widened and his lips quivering in fear.
“Aaron,” you asked, now sharing in his fear. You didn’t know where the rest of your people were, where Daryl was, and you didn’t know if Aaron really was hiding something now. The herd of walkers surrounding you was just the icing on the shit cake. “What’s going on?”
“Who did that?” Rick asked.
Aaron looked at you. “I need to leave.” Your eyes widened in fear.
“No,” you said. You weren’t ready to lose him when you had barely even spoken to him yet.
“Let me out,” he said to Rick. “I need to get outta here, it’s over.”
“What’s going on?” Rick asked.
“Let me out!” Aaron bellowed. You had never seen him so worried in your life.
Michonne was standing by Aaron’s door when he managed to kick the door open and push her to the ground in the process. You quickly got out the other side and called after him. “Aaron!”
You and Michonne started running to follow him into the woods. “(Y/N), Michonne, leave him!” Rick yelled.
Michonne turned to face Rick while you kept running after your brother. “We need to find our people,” she said. “They saw that flare, they’ll think we shot it. It’s how we find ‘em!”
Rick, Michonne, and Glenn caught up with you, and Aaron was running not too far up ahead, just enough for you to be able to follow him.
Raising your handgun, you began shooting at the walkers from the herd that surrounded your group.
In the chaos, you and Glenn were separated from Rick and Michonne. You were both backed into a dense woody grove as you fired relentlessly at the incoming walkers. With so much going on around you, you didn’t hear the walker behind the two of you. It grabbed onto Glenn and pushed him to the ground. Before it could take a bite out of him, you shot it point blank, then lifted him up to his feet. “Come on!” you yelled, trying to follow Aaron’s tracks, which would surely lead you to the flare and the rest of your group.
Continuing on with Glenn, you heard grunts coming from nearby. “Get off!” the voice yelled. Aaron.
You didn’t say a word as you barreled towards his voice. “(Y/N)!” Glenn yelled out to you.
When you found him, his hands were still tied as he leaned up against a tree and kicked at the walker that was hounding him. You were out of bullets now, so you raised your axe and hurdled towards him without hesitation, taking the walker out in one fell swoop.
You looped your axe around your belt and pulled your knife out to cut Aaron’s binds. Glenn caught up with you then. “Let’s go!” he yelled to you.
Your eyes bored into Aaron. “You’re coming with us, wherever we go.”
He nodded. “We’re going to Alexandria.”
Figuring that was the name of his community, you agreed and pulled him by the hand to begin running with you and Glenn, searching desperately for your people.
When you caught up again with Rick and Michonne, they were in trouble, as was wont to happen.
The herd of walkers had split off into smaller groups, and one of them was now hounding them. Approaching the two of them from the back, Glenn handed you and Aaron his spare guns and you began shooting at the walkers, taking them all out with impressive speed.
Rick and Michonne turned to the three of you bewildered. Aaron raised his hands and laid the gun on the ground. “If you really want to tie me up again that’s fine, but hurry up.”
Rick picked up the gun. “There’s no time,” he said. “We’re goin’ that way.
Approaching the water tower where you were sure the flare came from, Rick whistled a short tune to signal your group in case they were there. Sure enough, you heard the response whistle ring out as you rounded the corner.
You saw Daryl’s muscular frame step out into the alley. He held his crossbow in one hand and waved his other arm to signal you closer as he whistled.
He quickly ran back to bang on the door and alert the others, then you both ran to each other and embraced tightly. “I was worried sick,” you sighed.
“Me too,” he said, caressing your head with his free hand.
Soon, the others ran out, Maggie and Carl leading the way to hug Glenn and Rick, respectively.
Drenched in sweet relief, you hugged Maggie, Carol, and Carl as they were the ones you were particularly close to.
“Eric?” Aaron called out. “Eric?” He looked around frantically as you pulled away from Maggie’s embrace in confusion. She looked at you knowingly.
When a faint voice from inside the building called out, “I’m here!”
Aaron bolted towards it. You were about to follow him, but Daryl grabbed your arm. “You all right?” he asked.
You nodded and smiled at him. “I am now that I know you’re all right.”
He brushed his thumb up and down against your face. It was tired and covered in blood. “Everythin’ go okay?”
You sighed. “About as okay as it can get nowadays. We lost the car.” You peered over Daryl’s shoulder to look at the door Aaron had gone through. “I’m gonna go see what’s going on.” You planted a kiss on his lips before jogging into the building.
When you found Aaron, he was kissing another man.
He didn’t even notice you standing in the doorway. “Aaron?”
He separated his lips from the other man, whose ankle appeared to be injured. He must have been the one to set off the flare.
“(Y/N),” he stood up from where he was kneeling beside the sitting man. “Uh, this is Eric.” He gestured to him. It wasn’t the ideal introduction to his partner, he thought, but it would have to do.
He smiled at you, and gave you a small wave. “Hi.”
You looked back to Aaron with wide eyes.
You knew Aaron was gay. You were the only person he came out to, shortly after your father passed away. You knew he was interested in men before that, though. In fact, you knew since you were a teenager.
Still, it was a surprise to know he had found someone in the apocalypse just as you did.
You broke out into a joyous smile. “Nice to meet you.”
He laughed, his friendly face the perfect match for Aaron’s, you thought. “We’ve kind of already met. Aaron and I have been following you for a few days now.”
You turned to Aaron, Eric’s statement reminding you of a question you wanted to ask him. “Why did it take you so long to show yourself to us?”
Aaron shrugged. “Well, your group isn’t exactly the most… open. I thought it would be best to get just a few of you to take me in. Guess it worked.”
You nodded. “Guess it did.”
You all decided to stay there overnight and start fresh in the morning to travel the rest of the way to Alexandria.
In the morning, you wasted no time getting on the road. You spent most of the ride in the front of the motor home with Daryl and the others, while Aaron stayed beside Eric as he rested in the bedroom portion.
“Knock, knock,” you said, slowly pushing the door open as the motor home rattled back and forth. “Mind if I join you?”
Taking one look at Eric, you could tell he was out. He had been given lots of pain meds that must have made him drowsy. Aaron nodded. “Not at all.”
You sat yourself down on the other twin bed Aaron was perched on as he watched Eric sleep soundly in the other.
“How did you meet him?” you asked, sure to keep your voice down so not to wake him.
Aaron smiled. “We have a lot of catching up to do, don’t we?”
You laughed. “Yeah, we do.”
“Well,” he sighed, thinking back in his memories. “We met in Alexandria. Not too long after the turn.”
You collected your thoughts in silence for a few moments. “I, uh… I tried to get into contact with you. When things were going bad,” you said.
Aaron looked at you solemnly.
You tucked a stray strand of hair behind your ear. “I was on my way to Atlanta, on the 85.” You stared intently at a speck on the wall of the motor home, remembering that night. “We were locked down at the library. When it wasn’t safe there anymore, I packed up my things and went to find you. I kept trying and trying, leaving messages on your machine, then I called Mom. She didn’t answer either.” You took a deep breath.
“I called you too,” he said. “Soon as things went bad, I called your apartment. When I got there…” he trailed off. “When I got there, the place was overrun. Roamers everywhere. I thought you were…”
You nodded, knowing what he thought. “I thought you were too.”
He sighed, then spoke again. “I just kept going, up to Virginia.” He laughed. “I guess I just didn’t know where else to go. When I got there, I found Alexandria. They took me in, welcomed me. I’m telling you, (Y/N), it’s like this place was completely untouched by the dead. It’s like a dream.”
You smiled at the thought. “And then you met Eric?”
“Yeah,” he said, looking at you with so much joy at the memory. “It was love at first sight.” He looked up at the ceiling and raised his hands with exaggeration as he uttered the cliché.
You laughed. “I’m glad you found someone. He seems like a good guy.”
You hardly knew him, but any friend of Aaron was a friend of yours, and Eric was even more than a friend. He was the love of his life.
Aaron gave you a mischievous smile, the kind of smile only an older brother could give his little sister. “What about Daryl?”
You raised your eyebrow. “What about him?”
He laughed. “Come on, (Y/N). I’ve been following you around enough to know that you two are together.”
Your cheeks reddened as you looked away shyly. “We’ve been… together for a while. We met at the beginning too.” You shrugged. “I guess it was also love at first sight.”
He shook his head and smiled. “Never thought you’d be with a guy like that.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Like what?”
“You know… I mean, he just seems kind of… different from the other guys.”
“Is that a good thing?” you asked.
If Aaron and Daryl didn’t get along, you’d probably tear your hair out in frustration. The two most important people in the world to you simply needed to get along.
You knew it would be a process. Aaron was an extrovert, Daryl was an extreme introvert. They certainly had some things in common, including a love of nature, but their personalities were just so different, and Daryl was already skeptical of him from the get-go.
“Yeah,” he said, much to your relief. “For one thing, he seems to actually care about you.”
You smiled. “So, you like him then?”
Aaron sighed. “I do. He’s…” He tilted his head back and forth as he tried to search for the words to describe the dirty, crossbow-wielding redneck his little sister had been shacking up with. “He’s a little… grumpy, and…”
You rolled your eyes. “Standoffish? Harsh? Ornery? Mean?”
Aaron laughed. “Yeah, a little, but I’ve seen how he is with you and your group.”
You nodded. “He’s a good guy,” you assured him. “Once you get to know him, he’ll be lot nicer. He’s just got this… this shield, you know? He doesn’t know if he can trust you yet. He’s like that with everyone at first.”
“As long as he’s good to you,” Aaron said, “that’s all that matters.”
You felt him wrap his arm around you and bring him in for a side hug, to which you snuggled into his shoulder and smiled.
“He’s one of the best men in the world,” you said. “He’s saved my life more times than I can count, and I’ve seen him put so many people before himself. You’re going to like him, I know it.”
Aaron nodded. “I will, and you’re going to like Alexandria.”
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stripper-patrick · 3 years ago
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Next Lifetime 💫Michael B. Jordan pt 1.
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Warnings: smut, fluff, kids, sneaky link turned into family, angst, crying, 18+, NSFW gifs, series
Tags: @rebellious-desires @mrsbanreswillseeyou @eclecticblkgirl @designerwriterchic @bvssmob
Relationship: Michael B. Jordan x black plus sized reader (Azina/Z)
<4 years ago>
I’m throwing my ass back to the music just enjoying myself during this time. I’ve had at least 4 shots and I’m feeling all of them.
I feel someone press up behind me and it’s my best friend Michael whose clearly off the Henny just as much as I am. He grinds against me and as I’m working my hips I feel his dick stiffen. A boldness surged through me, or maybe that’s the liquor, and I stand up turning to him sealing a kiss. I’ve always wanted him no doubt I just never knew how to tell him. I guess being drunk is the best way. His hands grab at my waist then snake to my ass. His sweet Hennessy flavored lips are getting me even more drunk but with lust this time. The glisten of his plump lips being out the diamonds in his grill set plastered perfectly on his teeth.
“Let’s go to my house” I nod agreeing with his request and he grabs my hand leading me outside. He hails down a cab and opens the door letting me get on first. He smacks my butt on the way in and I giggle.
“322 Barron Street please” it’s about a 15 minute ride from here.
The driver begins his route and Michael starts kissing my neck and his hand slips down my shorts. My panties are beyond soaked and now he’s rubbing my clit making me whine.
His hand wraps around my throat whispering on my ear “stay quiet ma” he rubs again and as soon as the driver turns the corner into Michael’s loft I’m bussing all over his fingers biting the bottom of my lip trying to stay quiet.
He wraps his hand around my mouth flicking my clit faster making me shake harder. He pulls out his coated fingers placing them in my mouth. I suck off my own sweet juices and he grabs my by the throat kissing me tasting myself off my tongue. The driver clears his throat and we stop giggling and getting out. He tips the driver and walks past me opening the door. As soon as he gets the door open my pants are already unbuckled and halfway off.
“Damn hold on mamas” he slurs. We finally make it up to his nicely decorated bedroom and I’m pushed backwards flying back first on the bed. Michael comes on top of me and I flip us over grinding down on his already rock hard dick. He grabs a handful of behind moaning in my mouth. I move down to his neck where I kiss it sloppily. We stop kissing for a moment and I remove my shirt while he does the same. I move down pulling down his boxers and pants in one motion wasting no time swirling my tongue on the tip of his leaking dick. A low moan fills the room and I wrap my lips around the entire tip and push my head down letting it hit the back of my throat. I let it get wet then go back up to sucking on the tip while my right hand jerks the base and my left hand cups his balls. I come off with a string of saliva and I use my palm to rub on the top directly allowing the slick saliva to give him pleasure. His stomach caves and a loud moan erupts from Michael as he looks down holding vicious eye contact with me.
“Fuck Z” I continue going to town until he grabs me by the throat pulling me up to his mouth. Michael’s tongue roams my mouth fighting for dominance as he pulls me on top of him. I grab his throbbing dick pushing it inside of my aching pussy feeling him expand my walls gracefully. He leans back laying his head on the pillow as I gasp sinking down on him until our hips meet. I place my hands on his chest and sit on my feet rocking my hips along his shaft. His eyes flutter shut as I work my magic swirling my hips in a sloppy drunken circle. He bites his lip while one hand grabs the back of my head pulling my sweaty forehead to his. The other hand grabs a handful of my ass pulling me down. His dick fills my pussy completely making me gasp. Without missing a second Keith grabs both sides of my head keeping deadly eye contact with me and thrusts his hips beating my pussy from below. I let out a mewl holding his biceps while digging my acrylics into them. I bite my lip as he obliterates hot spots I didn’t even know were there.
My entire body feels like it’s on fire as after he thrusts he gives it aches and caves for more. “You like that? You like being daddy’s lil bitch” he moans pounding me out. Michael moves his hands wrapping his hand around my throat pulling me further and growling in my ear. I try to push away as the pleasure is starting to overwhelm me and he holds me by my hips keeping me right where he wants me. The only that can be heard in the room is the slushing sound of my wetness, the clapping of my ass and his balls slapping against my ass. My legs shake already as he continues. My pussy soaks everything underneath me as I let out a struggled moan cumming harder than I’ve ever came with any other man before. Michael pulls out pushing me up onto his face while jerking himself off in the process. He wraps his hands around my hips tasting the beautiful mess he made. My body jerks and my hand instinctively moves to his head as I roll my body on his tongue. He moans at my taste sucking and lapping on my clit. I smile getting off his face and back on his dick bucking my hips wildly. Michael guides my hips keeping himself as deep as possible. He begins thrusting up again at a fast pace making my eyes roll to the back of my head. He growls again giving me a fair warning that he’s about to cum. Without thinking I scream “cum inside this pussy daddy”
I’m aching from his blows. I sit up and keep bouncing at the same pace as he holds my hips tensing up. His seed spills inside of me and I watch his arch his back when I clench my pussy creating a suction. He moans pressing into my hips more.
Michael sits up kissing me and giving me a hard spank to my right ass cheek. His dick throbs inside of me as our mixtures leaks out dripping past his balls and onto the sheets. Drunkenly I lay on top of him giving him lazy kisses. Time and liquor consumes us and before I know it we’re both asleep in each other’s arms.
I wake up with a headache the size of the room. I feel like if I move too fast I’ll throw up. I feel someone warmth next to me and I pause. Who did I go home with last night? What happened? I’m aching between my legs but my conscience tells me not to be scared. I look behind me seeing Michael fast asleep. I sigh in comfort knowing I’m safe. He stirs in his sleep opening his eyes and he sees me. “Morning”
“Morning” I move my legs and notice they’re weak. I pull back the covers and we’re both completely naked. Oh shit. I jump up to the best of my ability and he sits up too
“Mike what did we do last night”
“Well using my context clues we had sex” he says rubbing his eyes
“Michael do you not see an issue with that? You have a girlfriend”
“I know but I mean if I’m being honest I’ve always had feelings for you Z and clearly you feel the same way” he states. I grab my underwear shaking my head.
“Mike that’s not the point you knew we shouldn’t have acted on it especially since you’re in a relationship. This could absolutely ruin our friendship. Lemme ask you this what if we go get together and break up then what you know I’m not friends with my exes. If you can be cool with your ex y’all were never in love or still are in love. There’s no in between” he looks at me with his head hanging low. He knows exactly where I’m coming from. “I’m not tryna lose you as a person in general” Mike goes in the bathroom brushing his teeth and peeing.
I collect my clothes putting them back on and Mike throws on some basketball shorts and a t-shirt he grabs some slides and his car keys . Luckily my car is already at home since Michael and his girl Lori picked me up.
“Z I’m sorry. I know things went too far but I’m glad we at least know how we feel about each other” he says “and I don’t regret what happened last night” I nod and get in his car. He gets in the drivers seat taking off and taking me home.
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Lori decided to have a pool party today to celebrate Mike for his birthday. Of course he invited me and being his best friend I wouldn’t miss it for the world. Plus it’s at his new house and I’ve never seen it before. Granite we haven’t talked much or seen each other at all since our ordeal a couple weeks ago. In fact this is the first time I’ve actually seen him since that day.
I walk through their beautiful house with a bottle of champagne in my hand. I see Lori in the kitchen. Honestly me and her have never really been that close. I never really cared for her but I was always cordial with her. “Hey Lori I brought this for y’all” she looks at me taking the champagne without even saying thank you. Bougie bitch. Don’t get me wrong I’m bougie too but best believe I’m as humble and as thankful as they come. I guess that’s why me and Mike are best friends. We’re the same.
I roll my eyes and my heels click outside where I see a bunch of people lounging in the pool and on the sides with drinks in their hand. My other best friend Lamia greets me with open arms. Her perfume makes me nauseous and dizzy “Hey girl” she smiles
“Hey” I say trying to hold my breakfast down.
“Mike is over there. Have you and him talked since then?” As soon as I got home that day I got ready for work and told Lamia what happened. I shrug my shoulders as an answer.
“Only small talk and I’ve low key been trying to avoid him just so the awkward tension doesn’t arise” I say
“Makes sense” Michael begins walking over and I stride a little further away until he catches me.
“Hey ladies” he hugs lamia and I’m next. I smell his cologne and melt. “you want a drink Z” I shake my head
“I don’t feel too hot right now so I’ll stick with water for the day” he nods eyes lingering on me for longer than a second. Lori comes out running his bare back and our contact is broken. While Lori begins talking to him I slip away downing the rest of my water. The nausea is finally gone and I sit on the lounge chair going on my phone. I put on my sunglasses shielding my eyes.
While I’m relaxing in the sun I notice Michael keeps staring at me. I see the small bulge in his shorts and I can’t help but bite my lip, mouth water at the taste of his dick down my throat.
A mid-height dark skin man starts walking my way and I see he has a pearly white smile similar to Michael’s. I get a better glimpse of his face. His name is Jayson. I’ve heard about him before. I heard he’s a player and he sleeps with anything that moves.
He sits next to my feet flashing his smile at me. I sit up with a small smile on my face. “Hey I’m Jayson Mikes friend”
“Yea I know. I’m Z”
“What’s that short for”
“Azina” he smiles scooting closer. I glance up seeing Mikes eyes never leaving me.
“That’s beautiful. Fitting for a beautiful woman” he bites his lip. I take a deep breath and take my sunglasses off. I stare directly into Michael’s eyes and he’s fuming. Dimples are prominent in his cheeks, nose flared, biceps flexed from how tense he is. Jayson moves even closer and that’s when Michael comes over.
“Hey Jay what y’all talking about?” He interjects with his nose held high. A small rage burns in my stomach at how he completely ruined my chance at something. Even if I was just playing Jaysons game right back at him.
“Her name. It’s pretty”
“Oh yea the two ‘A’s in her name stands for aggravated assault. She’s crazy man she beat niggas” he laughs. He’s not fully wrong “but she’s my kinda crazy. Speaking of Azina can I speak to you privately please? Jay you don’t mind right? Course not be right back” before I even have a chance to protest he grabs my wrist and my panties are soaked by the time we enter the glass double doors of his house that Lori happens to be staying in. Just hearing him call my name rather than my nickname has me wanting to be on my knees on this cold marble floor.
“What the hell is your issue?” I ask yanking my arm away. He grabs me again taking me upstairs through the neatly decorated white hallway. We get into his gold coated marble bathroom where he locks the door. I lean against the counter and he folds his arms “why have you been avoiding me”
“I-“
“And don’t lie to me” he asserts his dominance making my clit throb. Silence and heavy thick sexual tension fill the air and I look down at my long pink acrylic nails. He steps closer sealing any space between me and him. His large hand wraps around my throat making me bite my lip “you like seeing me get all jealous? Shit makes you wet mama?”
“Yes” I whimper. And just like that I’m putty in his hands. He pulls me up to his plump lips placing a wet kiss on them. Michael pulls off my duster of a swimsuit coverup. His large hands play with my breasts and my hand moved to his hard on. He’s rock solid now. His hand moves from my breast to my bikini bottoms rubbing my clit. My hips hunk and my hands move to his bicep as his plump lips kiss my neck. My body jerks as his thick fingers slide into my hole with ease. He begins pressing my g-spot like a button making me lose my breath. Michael moves up to my ear whispering “you’re mine”
He pulls his fingers out and sucks them dry turning me around some I’m facing the huge mirror above the sink. I grab the ledge bracing myself as he rolls my bottoms down spanking me in the process. I spread my cheeks feel his warm hard dick press inside of me. He fills me up and holds my hips bouncing me back to meet his thrusts. His breaths become heavy and ragged and my mouth drops open but nothing comes out.
Michael is pressing right on my g-spot making me lose my breath. “Daddy” I whimper.
“That’s my girl take all this shit. You wanna flirt with other niggas ima show you who you belong to” he wraps his hand around my throat quickening his pace. My eyes squeeze shut and my moans get louder. The sounds of our moans and my ass clapping fills the room but we have to keep it quiet so no one comes up here and finds us.
“You like when daddy fill you up bitch?”
“Yes I love it so much” my legs begin shaking as my orgasm approaches fast like a train. He gets close to my ear still pounding me out against the marble counter.
“Look at me when I make you cum” I bite my lip and his grip tightens on my neck. I open my eyes to the best of my ability as my entire body seizes in front of him. My body is on fire and he chuckles biting his lip “you look so fucking pretty taking all this dick like a good little whore”
I whimper jerking around and he pulls out watching my body tense up and convulse. He smacks my already shaking ass. Michael turns me around again putting me on the counter and he gets on one knee licking my pussy. He slurps you the mess he made moaning at the taste. I watch as he pulls my pussy lips back making sure to get as much of my clit as possible. My body writhes from still being sensitive and I grab the back of his head pushing him further in me. I pull off my bikini top rubbing my nipples while grinding on his face. My head falls back and he gives small licks making me even crazier than before. Michael comes up kissing my lips. I can taste myself on his tongue. He taps his dick on my clit before inserting himself again. I wrap my arms around his shoulders as he wastes no time taking me to Poundtown.
His short nails claw down my back and he buries his head in my neck. “That’s it daddy right there” my nails take through his short waves as his hips ripple through me. My moans uncontrollably get louder and he covers my mouth pounding me harder “can’t scream now can you baby?” I whimper eyes rolling to the back of my head as I squirt on his dick “that’s what I want fuck I’m bout to cum” his growls get louder and he kisses me moaning. His body shakes when he leaks inside of me. My nails scrape down his back and he empties his load inside of me.
He stays inside of me staring deep into my eyes. I can’t help this feeling anymore but I need to for the sake of our friendship. Michael’s catches me in a kiss and for a split second I ignore my feelings and kiss him back. As if he were really mine. That thought stops me from going any further “I’m sorry for avoiding you”
“I understand mamas” he kisses me again and pull out grabbing a towel he wipes off my pussy and leans down placing a kiss on my clit making me gasp. I chuckle getting off the counter with his help. My legs shake and I laugh. I grab my clothes putting them back on and making sure I look like I did before I came up here.
“Mike” I hear Lori call from downstairs. To the best of my ability I walk to the door but before I open it Michael grabs my arm kissing me again. This one was more passion than lust. I smile pulling away and open the door. To see Lori coming in. I turn around and turn him around quickly “so this is the master bathroom?” I look at him
“Yea it’s marble counters and the gold trim it’s my favorite and there’s the waterfall shower in there” we walk towards the shower acting like he was explaining me the layout of the bathroom the whole time. I hear loris heels click in the bathroom “baby the boys are looking for you at the pool” he turns around nodding
“Ard come on Z” We walk past Lori and her eyes linger on us.
Me and Mike walk outside and he can’t stop staring at me. He stands at the front of the bar with a microphone “I wanna thank every one for coming out. I wanna thank Lori for putting this together couldn’t have done this without you babe” that word ‘babe’ leaves a stinging mark on my heart as Lori steps up beside her man. She kisses him and then looks at me. I walk backwards dipping out from the crowd. I go inside and grab the champagne I brought. This bottle wasn’t cheap so if they won’t drink it I will. I pour myself a glass and start sipping it. Michael comes in and once again it’s just us alone.
“I’m sorry”
“Don’t be sorry. Look Michael as much as we both want it us being together might never happen simply because you and Lori are a thing and y’all are basically destined for marriage”
“Now you know I’ve been about you and only you for a while”
“I can’t tell cause I’m still single and you’re in a relationship” I sigh “I’m leaving this house is beautiful but you need to figure out what you really want” I extend my arms and give him a hug. He plants a kiss on my neck Mumbling the words I’m sorry again.
I grab my champagne and leave the house with a heavy heart and a cloudy mind. That nauseous feeling is back.
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chilumi-shipper · 4 years ago
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Sweet Almost Goodbye
Xiao x Fem!Reader
Tags: Angst to Fluff
Sumary: Xiao had no plans to ever have a family of his own. Finding out that you are pregnant with his baby set him on edge, unsure. He's not ready.
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How are you suppose to tell him?
The news brought shock and surprise to you, it made you a bit excited and nervous.
What would Xiao think?
How will he take the news?
The thought of what his reaction may be formed a pit in your stomach. There you were, going up by the elevator of Wangshu Inn, as the sun was setting.
The closer you get to your destination, the uneasiness grew. What would happen if he lashes out? What would happen if he asked you to leave?
With a sigh, you walked up the stair that would lead to where your lover usually stays.
As you looked upon the view that the balcony provided, you saw that the sun was no longer visible, the stars starting to show up.
"You've arrived." Your heart swell at the voice of your lover, a smile forming on your face. Looking back at him, he eagerly walked up to you and greeted you with a gentle hug.
The first few weeks of your relationship was quite awkward, back then he could not even hold your hand without being as stiff as a board.
"Can I hug you?"
"I don't think that's necessary."
"But... I really want to."
"I am... not familiar with mortal rituals. I would not be the best for those kind of activities."
"Pfft... It's just a hug, Xiao. Plus you do these 'mortal rituals' with people you love. Now come here, silly Yaksha."
And surely enough, your first hug was not very comfortable, but it was a moment you would never forget.
Pulling away from the hug, you sighed heavily. Xiao did of course noticed the change in your attitude.
Where is that bubbly, cheerful, all smiles Y/N that he has grown to love?
Something must be off.
You looked down, how do you start off?
The silence filled the atmosphere with tension. Your hands started to shake.
"You seem like you're not yourself today." Xiao had broken the silence, something he usually doesn't do.
Looking up into his eyes, you grabbed both his hands in yours. "There's this very important thing that I need to tell you." Your grip on him tightened, hoping for him not to disappear.
His face showed confusion and somewhat worry, the look on your face told him that the matter was serious.
"You know how lovers would slowly grow? How they would be faced with many things and challenges in life together?" You started, not knowing exactly what to say. Through his confusion, he nodded.
"Well.... we may be going through one of those things." You whispered in a hushed tone. He didn't get it.
Was something wrong?
Has something happened that would affect your relationship?
"Xiao..." You silently called out his name.
"I'm... well..." You felt his hand squeeze yours, silently telling you to just say it.
"I'm pregnant."
He let go of your hands immediately, and your heart ached at his action.
Oh no...
He let out a chuckle. Slightly backing away, looking at you with an expression that had your eyes swelling with unshed tears.
"S-surely this has to be a joke." Xiao said in a quiet voice.
'What was that supposed to mean?' His words sent needles to your heart.
"We're gonna have a baby, Xiao." You said stepping closer to him, but he raised his hand, telling you to stop.
You held your hands to your chest, your heart pounding so fast. "It means that our love has blossomed."
"No." Xiao turned his back on you. "I didn't.... I didn't want this."
"X-xiao?" You stuttered, he surely didn't mean that right? He loves you, you loves him. Sure it wasn't expected, but you promised yourself to welcome your baby with open arms, teach them, show them the good in the world, love them with all your heart.
"I never wanted to start a family." He looked back at you, frustration in his eyes. "I thought that it would just be you and me. I didn't want a... a burden!" His words shocked you, a mix of emotion swirled inside you, pain, frustration, dissapointment.... anger.
How dare he say that about your baby?!
"Xiao, this is your child your talking about!" Tears started to fall from your eyes, staining your cheeks. "Why would you say that?!"
No, it doesn't matter how much you love him, he doesn't get to say those things about your baby. You believed that your baby is special, and you're not going to stand for the bastard you love to tell you that they are nothing but a burden.
"How could you?!" You stomped closer to him, your hands balled into a fist. "Here I thought that you are so amazing. That you're not the murderer that you claimed yourself to be."
You let put a sob.
"But no!"
You punched his chest.
"You don't deserve to be loved!"
Punch.
"You don't deserve to be happy!"
Punch
"You don't deserve a family that will love you."
You throw a weak puch at his chest, letting more of your tears fall as you sobbed.
He held you wrists pushing you back a bit to look up at him with your glossy eyes. What hurt even more is that he seemed unfazed, unaffected.
"I don't need you to tell me what I don't deserve. You're right, I don't deserve those things." He calmly said, letting go of your wrists. "And I... would feel at ease if you just leave." Before you could even respond, he vanished, leaving you to break down onto the floor, covering your mouth to silence your sobs.
He left you with tears and a broken heart.
2 Months Later
Your mother has been very helpful in taking care of you and your baby. Giving you tips and advice for a healthy pregnancy. You now stayed your parents' house in Qingce Village, a more quieter place than the Harbour.
You had told her of what happened between you and your 'previous lover' two months ago, crying into her arms as she saw you on your heartbroken state. Your father was not at all happy with Xiao's wrong doings towards you.
But you reassured your parents that it no longer matters, what matters now is your baby being well taken care of. And with that, you must take care of yourself as well. So no thinking about that Adeptus bastard.
In Wangshu Inn however, Xiao has felt that your departure has left a hole in his heart, everyday, every night alone on the balcony of the Inn, the place that you two once shared as a place to openly be together and express your love towards each other.
He would sometimes look at the guests of the Inn at the ground floor. He would see families spending time together, all smiles and happiness. Is that what it's like to have a family?
Sure, family comes with it's problems and such. But... it's family, people that will be your home and happiness.
Verr Goldet has noticed that you no longer go to the Inn and the Adeptus has grown more melancholic than usual. Something was definitely wrong between that two of you, she would think.
Xiao would look at the view provided by the balcony. He admits that he was looking for you from there, maybe you would come back to him. But he caught no sight of you.
Every time he would go out, he told himself that its to "scare off evil and cleanse the land", but he just used that as an excuse to look for you.
He found you, of course, since you aren't really hiding from him. But, even then, what would he say? Of course he should apologize, but how? He doesn't know any of that stuff.
But he has to make a decision....
"Alright, Y/N. Why don't you have a little rest while your father and I go to the village square?" You just nodded as they exit the house. Some alone time would be nice.
You were standing in front of a full body mirror in your room, shirt rolled up to show your baby bump. You were thinking about names for your baby just earlier. Even though it's gonna be a few months till they're ready, you just find naming them makes you smile.
"How about, if your a girl, I'll name you... Crystal? Or maybe Rose? Or Amethyst!" You laughed a little, seemingly having a conversation with your unborn baby. " But if your a boy... Hmmm...." You caressed your baby bump.
"I haven't thought about anything yet, but I'll tell you when I do, baby." You whispered with a smile.
Then, suddenly a green and black smoke appeared and revealed a person that made your smile drop.
"Y/N" Xiao quietly called out your name, looking at your eyes through the mirror. Sighing, you pulled down your shirt and turned back to face him.
He looked down at your stomach, his heart swelling at imagining that a baby is inside you, your and his baby is inside you.
"Didn't think I'd see you again." You let out a bitter laugh, making the man in front of you wince a little. "What are you doing here?" You asked with a rather harsh tone.
"I mean no harm." He started looking at you with a sense of nervousness within him, your unexpressive gaze made him feel crushed.
"I just want to apologize. And see how you and our baby are doing." He seemed to be hesitant in reaching out to hold you. But you, you were seething, did he just say 'our'?
He acted so childish, so cold and now he came back to apologize and immediately think that all will be fixed.
"Y/N..." You were pulled out of your thoughts by his call, you looked back at him with a glare. "I... love you. So so much." He stepped closer but this time, you raised your hand up and stopped him. "I wasn't ready, I was scared of what's gonna happen." Xiao added.
"I was scared too." Your eyes started to become glossy. "But I thought that you would be there." You looked up to him with your teary eyes, showing him your vulnerability once again. "I was wrong." You shook you head, his features softened and you notice the tears start to form in his eyes as well. "I shouldn't have expected too much. It's for the better we split up rather than stay in a relationship that will no longer contain love."
"If you're here for closure, Xiao. I can assure you that me and my baby will be just fine." You smiled despite the tear that managed to fall out of your eye.
He shook his head, quickly taking a hold of your hands and kneeling onto the floor. "Xiao, what are yo-"
"Please..." He brought your hands to his lips kissing them gently, you felt a few of his tears fall onto your hands. "Please forgive me. I'm truly sorry, my love." He was full on crying. You tried to take your hand back, but he didn't let you.
Still, the thought of you wanting to pull away from him made his heart ache. He didn't wanna let go of your hands. "I'm sorry about everything I said about our baby. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He kept repeating over and over. "I'm so stupid! I can just never treasure things that are important to me!" He felt frustrated of himself.
"Xiao, stop!" You demanded, pulling him back up to his feet. Once he looked at you, your heart clenched at the sight of his tear covered face, his hair messier than usual, his eyes held pain and regret.
"W-what exactly do you want?" You stuttered, rubbing your thumb along his knuckles. "D-do you want me to just forgive you... and then you'd walk away?"
He shook his head. "I-i want you." He whispered, coming closer, he hugged you, resting his chin on your shoulder.
"I want our baby." He pulled away, kissing you forehead.
"I want my happiness." Then his kissed your nose.
"I want my family, my everything." He then kissed your lips, the feeling of his soft lips on yours felt refreshing, something you didn't know you missed due to all the other emotions inside you. You both pulled away to catch your breath.
"Please, let me have my family."
"Oh, Xiao..." You caressed his cheek, feeling the wet tears that had fallen from his amber eyes. "We're here, we're your family." You both looked down at your baby bump, both of you smilling.
One Hour Later
As you and Xiao cuddled on the couch together and silently whispered sweet words to one another, the door opened, your parents walking in and were shocked to see the Adeptus and you snuggling.
"Aha! I see that you're the one who broke my babygirl's heart!" Your father exclaimed, much to your surprise.
"Xiao was it. Now I don't care if you two already made up. I'm still gonna talk to you about how to properly treat my baby." You laughed when Xiao let go of you and sat up straight.
You were surprised that he didn't pull the 'no respect for the Adepti' card.
"Papaaaaa." You whined as your father led Xiao into the kitchen to talk.
Your mother sat beside you and looked at your face. "I see that you two have been crying." She caressed your cheek.
"I'm just really happy right now."
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beomglocks · 3 years ago
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what taehyun is like as a boyfriend
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warnings & other : no warnings, this was a draft, i haven’t posted in a while so here this is, ive been whipped for taehyun lately, i really have been wanting to do one of these for him, so here it is
w/c : 1k~
oh brother
taehyun is either ur devil or your angel
when you first meet him he has this face
. ___ .
idk how to describe it
hes got this one face where
he's neither smiling nor frowning
but it looks like he's staring into the void
ur like
"is this boy ok?"
probably ignores you at first
or just smiles warmly but says nothing
he doesn’t hate you or anything
he just isn’t sure what to say
you have to initiate conversation with him
alternatively: if he initiates the conversation it’s probably some random fact off the top of his head
if not the other members will try to force him to talk to you
and they wont do that bc they dont wanna get hurt
no really
he seems like the type to act out if his friends spill his crush
beomgyu: hey y/n did you know taehyun has a crush on y-
*taehyun jumps him*
i feel like if you go up to him he's screaming internally but with a straight face on
the first conversation with him is so fucking awkward
he's the type to like you and not tell you
like he wants you to just know
after the formalities, he'll still have his guard up but jokes around a bit
god forbid he gets comfortable
once yall start dating your body is free real estate
for body slams
PLAY FIGHTS
you literally are afraid to enter the dorms sometimes bc you never know when you'll be slammed into the couch
but he loves you
its his twisted way of flirting
plus he always asks if you're ok
can be very serious
you'll probably want to play around and he's like
sternly : "not now"
you pout
sometimes his maturity can be a flaw in the relationship
will probably lead to arguments
he always chooses to stay quiet during these
alternatively : tells you you're being ridiculous
after you distance yourself he reflects on himself
and comforts you :(
"sorry for being a dickhead"
but he's not always stony
he's still young and wild and free as they say
he can be immature with you and be a fun bf!
only acts cute for you
a literal sucker for you
if you ask him to do something cute he will do it
if no ones around tho
stop you take so many off guard pictures of him
he fights you to delete them
he's an android user so haha jokes on him it's still in your recently deleted!
absolutely no pda
ok some hand holding is acceptable but nothing further
atleast not in public ;)
ok but very clingy
has to be touching you in some way shape or form
even if it’s as simple as slinging his arms around your shoulder
the first stages of the relationship he’s hesitant to touch you
but soon enough it’s becomes a task of trying to pry him off of you
hopeless romantic
does the whole petals on the floor thing
candle lit dinners
the whole shabang
straight out a comic book
cares for you so deeply
but also uses you to his advantage
he knows his hyungs like you so he brings you around the dorms often
to get what he wants
a smart kid he is
his hair :(
play with it plz
wait wait wait
SUCH A MF TSUNDERE
like by now it’s common knowledge that he’s a tsundere
like ok ok he likes when you play with his hair
but plays hard to get
“i don’t really like when you play with my hair you always mess it up”
2 seconds later is giving you hints that he wants his hair played with
probably will even place your hand directly on his head without saying another word
don’t even try to give him kisses
he will evade them
but then turn around and smother your face with them with a devilish grin
he knows what he’s doing
he cuddles up to you when you play with his hair btw and dozes off after a busy day
his hugs are unmatched
so warm
so warm they feel like home :(((
if you're shorter than him his ego skyrockets
finally has someone to call "shortie"
i mean tbh he’s pretty tall compared to the average person
he just looks small around txt >:(
bringing you around the members is hell for him
they will tease him but it doesn’t come without consequences
them : "taehyun finally found someone who's shorter than him!"
he's behind you
glaring at them
black eerie smoke radiating from his body
and you're unaware like (*^▽^*)
you : "you guys are really funny!"
them : *regretting everything* hahah yeah...
no bc the members love when you’re around
because taehyun does not hurt them when you’re around
you’re their saving grace
jealousy is strong
he's not a vocal jealous
he's a silent jealous
if someone's clearly flirting with you he just stands back
smiling in their face
tbh they probably don’t know he’s your bf
probably waits for it to get to an unbearable level before speaking or doing anything
doesn’t say anything abt it until y’all are alone
“that made me uncomfortable:((“
ik i said his maturity can be a flaw but
normal conversations with him get deep and personal
you can tell him everything and he makes you feel so validated
tells you abt his problems and insecurities
and vise versa
i just feel like he’s the best person to talk to when it comes to things like that
not only does he give advice but he really listens
ugh idk y’all just know how to communicate so well
its nice
you won’t ever feel jealousy in the relationship
bc he doesn’t give anyone else the time of day
but he’s so goddamn handsome sometimes ur just like
“are you sure you actually like me lol”
says something like “if i didn’t i wouldn’t be with you rn get real”
gym buddy!
you hate it.
he’s glad someone other than yeonjun can accompany him to his workouts
which mainly consist of you thirsting over him watching him, spotting him, and handing him water every so often.
him: “aren’t you gonna work out?”
you scrolling on your phone at the corner of the gym: 🤨
overall man you guys got something good going on here
he loves you soooo much
like really he’s not ashamed to show you off
says some cheesy shit like “you’re the best i bet so many people are jealous of me having you”
you’re like flattered but it ain’t that serious
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chaeryybomb · 3 years ago
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TRAITOR
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pairings: female reader x lee heeseung
summary: you thought lee heeseung was the best boyfriend you could ever wished for. but they did warn you about long distanced relationships. at first, you convinced yourself that it was just your insecurities taking over. but your gut feeling has never been wrong
genre: college au, lovers to exes, fluff, angst, sad ending
featuring: kang hyewon, shin ryujin, lee chaeryeong, lee daehwii, yang jeongin & zhong chenle
word count: 10.4k
warnings: breaking up, mentions of insecurity and cheating, arguments, strong language
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Setting down the final box on the ground, you released a sigh of relief and stretched your arms upwards. The satisfying sounds of your joints popping gave you a sense of relief as you stretched. Then you felt a pair of arms snake around your waist. You smiled as you took in his familiar scent. You reached up to touch his neck as Heeseung pressed a kiss to the side of your head.
"Thank you for your help, lovely," he mumbled in your hair.
You turned around in his arms and clasped your hands behind his neck, toying with the back of his hair. Lee Heeseung was looking at you with pure love in his eyes and you couldn't be more happy. "I can't believe we're both finally in university," he said, squeezing your waist.
"Hmm yeah, finally out of high school," you hummed. "It's sad that we didn't get into the same university though," you cupped his left cheek, rubbing his cheek lovingly with your thumb.
Heeseung nuzzled into your hand, slowly drawing you closer. "I can always drive to your dorm, it's just a three hour drive from here."
"Or I can drive to you," you replied.
He scoffed, "Yeah if you get your driver's license," he teased.
You rolled your eyes and softly punched him on the chest before pushing yourself away from his embrace. "Listen, not all of us can miraculously pass on their first try okay," you defended yourself but Heeseung just laughed at you.
Although you tried to act like you were mad at his joke, you couldn't wipe the smile off your face as you sat down on his bed. Currently, the two of you were in Heeseung's dorm. You wanted to help him move in before you had to leave. Heeseung and you were high school sweethearts, the school's loveliest couple. And you've been together ever since then. Today marked a new milestone for the both of you as you had finally graduated from high school and now both of you were accepted into different universities.
The both of you had decided to do what's best for each other and went to different schools. It was for the sake of your future, you didn't want to cause a commotion just because you guys were three hours apart. Plus, it was just three hours. Heeseung could always come visit you and video calls were a thing. You're friends were scared that the both of you wouldn't survive a long distance relationship but you had faith in each other. And that was enough.
Heeseung was lucky to have a room all for himself, whereas you had to share a dorm with two other girls. His room was small but big enough for one person. You knew Heeseung was a simple man, if it had a bed and a table, that would be enough for him. A knock on the door caught your attention, you suddenly remembered that you guys had left the door open when you were moving boxes.
Outside the door stood a pretty girl with long blonde hair. She was really pretty, you noted. She looked so natural as a blonde as well, you couldn't help but thought. The pretty girl sent both of you an awkward smile and waved. You stood up and walked to her, somewhat excited to make a new friend.
"Hi!" You greeted her with a smile, you felt Heeseung behind you.
"Hi," she mirrored your smile. "I'm Hyewon, I'm from the room next door," she pointed out.
"Oh! I'm Heeseung," the taller boy introduced himself. "And this is my girlfriend, Y/N," he smiled at you.
"It's nice to meet you, are you both music majors too?" Hyewon asked. It was common for Hyewon to ask that, considering the university Heeseung applied for is known for their music stream. Heeseung was extremely talented, being blessed with a heavenly voice and all. It was his dream to pursue a music career. Thanks to you, he found the courage to do so,
"Oh no, just him. I don't actually go here," you immediately told her. "I actually go to George University instead."
"Oh! So you're a theatre major then," Hyewon said, surprising you a bit. You nodded in return and Hyewon's smile seemed to grow wider. The university you applied to was quite well known for its theatre arts course. "That's so cool, I'm a theatre major too!"
Your eyes lit up in excitement and you stepped closer to the blonde, eager to learn more about her. But before you could ask her anything, your phone chimed. You gave her an apologetic look before checking your phone. "It's my mom, she's asking when I'll be home. I still have to pack up," you said disappointed. You really wanted to talk more with Hyewon so the both of you could geek out. (And spend a bit more time with Heeseung.) Hyewon looked disappointed too that you couldn't stay longer.
"Let me drive you home," Heeseung started to move to get his keys but you placed your hand on his arm to stop him.
"Nah, it's fine," you shook your head. "I can take the bus home."
"Then I'll walk you to the bus stop," Heeseung said with determination. He was gonna make use of whatever time he had to spend it with you, even if it was for five seconds.
You realised that there was no way of rejecting him, so you just chuckled and said, "Alright, let me grab my bag then." But Heeseung was already one step ahead of you as he had already gone to get it for you. You sent another smile to Hyewon. "It was really great to meet you, Hyewon. I hope we can talk again soon," you told her.
"Likewise Y/N, have a safe trip home," she bid you goodbye before returning to her room.
Heeseung appeared behind you once again, sneakily slipped his fingers through yours and pulled you out of the room. He locked the door with your bag on his shoulder, he looked like he had the intention of not letting you hold it.
"C'mon," he tugged your hand and you giggled, falling into step with him.
The walk to the bus stop felt quicker than it should be, much to your dismay. The bus stop was empty besides the both of you. As the two of you stood under it, you mindlessly swung your intertwined hands back and forth. Heeseung laughed at your action. He released your hand and you looked up curious on why he did it. Heeseung moved so he was standing behind you and wrapped his arms around you, effectively back hugging you.
Your lips tugged upward at the position you were and you held onto his arms. Slowly, he started to rock you back and forth. "I'm gonna miss you," he suddenly said.
You couldn't help but let your smile falter. You were gonna miss him too, you're gonna miss him so much. "This is the first time where we'll be so far apart, I think I might die without you," he rubbed his face into your hair as you laughed at his words.
"I'll call you everyday, Hee. I promised," you assured him with a pat on his arm. The taller boy only hummed in reply but you felt him move his arms to your middle so he could bury his face in the crook of your neck. You giggled when you felt him peppered small kisses up around your neck.
"I love you," he mumbled before pressing a loving kiss to the top of your head.
"Love you too," you leaned back into him.
Just in time you saw the bus in the distance, which meant your time with Heeseung was ending. As the bus slowed down in front of you, your boyfriend finally reluctantly let you go from his slip. "I'll see you soon, okay?" you promised him. He nodded and leaned down to give you one more kiss before you entered the bus.
Sitting down, you waved from the window and he gave you a smile. Oh god, you already missed him. Heeseung watched as your bus left the station. You sighed, leaning back into the seat. This was the beginning of a new chapter of your relationship, and you have faith that the both of you will be okay.
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"Thank you," you said to the barista as she handed you your coffee. With your free hand, you pushed the front door open. The November breeze welcomed you once you stepped outside, your coffee warming your fingertips. Your phone then started to ring in your pocket. You fished your phone out and a smile crept onto your face when you saw the contact name.
"Hello, love," Heeseung greeted as soon as you picked up. You smiled at him, holding your phone in front of your face.
"Good morning, Hee. I just got my coffee," you showed him your coffee like it was a little trinket. Heeseung laughed at your child-like action. The second semester was almost ending and your relationship was still going strong. The both of you were consistent with the video calls and text messages. You'd be calling him at the end of every day and the two of you would talk about your day till one of you fell asleep. (Spoiler: It was usually you.)
And now your second semester as a couple is ending, the both of you had decided to retreat back to your hometown during the break like you did during your first break. So you could bask in each other's presence and visit some old friends. It was slowly starting to become a tradition and you couldn't ask for anything more.
"So, how was your audition?" Heeseung asked as you walked past a group of band kids, sending them a smile as they waved at you.
At the mention of the audition, your smile turned into a pout. "Rejected, as usual," you sighed. You have auditioned for almost every play in your school but you were always rejected or chosen as a background character if you were lucky. You knew that there were a lot of talented students in your school, but you felt dejected each time.
"Sorry, love. I'm sure you'll have better luck next time," Heeseung told you with a sad smile. "I wish I could hold you right now."
You looked at him with a sad gaze, "Me too, Hee." You couldn't lie that long distance relationships were hard, everyday was spent through a screen and you yearned to be next with him physically. During the first few weeks, you told yourself that you would get used to it after a while. Spoiler alert, you still haven't gotten used to it. "But enough of that!" You said, waving away the depressed aura and taking a long sip from your coffee before letting out a sigh. "Our break is coming up and I can't wait to see you."
At the mention of the break, you noticed how Heeseung visibly flinched. His eyes suddenly weren't looking at you anymore, averting his gaze to the side instead. "We are going to be seeing each other, right?" You inquired. But you were met with silence, you stopped in your tracks when Heeseung didn't say anything. "Hee?"
"Actually, Y/N," he started to say and you felt your heart sink already. He didn't call you "love". Some may say you were being dramatic, but Heeseung only used your name whenever something was serious. You're not going to be able to see him during break, your mind told you. You knew it was the most possible outcome, but you hoped that you were wrong.
"I'm not going back during break."
And there it was, what possibly could have been the worse news for you. "Oh," was all you could say, your fingers tightened slightly around the plastic cup before you plastered on a fake smile. "Well, there's always next semester," you assured him, but it felt more like you were reassuring yourself. This was going to be your first winter break without Heeseung.
Heeseung smiled at your reply, a twinge of sadness in him but he brushed it off. "The reason is cause a senior from the film department asked me for help," he explained. "You see, there's a music video competition and he asked me if I could write a song for it."
Your eyes lit up in excitement. "No way! So they're gonna shoot a music video for your song?"
Heeseung nodded with a big smile. "Yup! It's such a big project, like they're bringing in some of the theatre kids as the actors and we're gonna start filming, like next month."
"I'm so happy for you, love," you told him truthfully. Internally, you were scolding yourself for feeling sad that he wouldn't be free during the break when he has something big going on in his life. Stop being so selfish, your mind scolded. Of course you felt a bit blue but this was a big opportunity for Heeseung, imagine if they won the competition. He would finally get some recognition for his music. And the fact that the senior chose him to write the song meant that people were already starting to appreciate his songs and his voice. You were being selfish, like a child.
As Heeseung continued to tell you about the project, you resumed your walk back to your dorms. You listened to him intensively, capturing every small detail in your heart. It was rare for you to see him speak so passionate. Music was his passion, his safe place. You knew that and you wanted him to live a life where he could make his dream a reality. A singer on the bright stage with thousands, no, millions of fans to appreciate his vocals.
You managed to reach your dorm just as Heeseung was being called for off screen. A feminine voice was calling from him and you easily recognised it. "Is that Hyewon?" You asked.
A few seconds passed and a familiar looking pretty blonde came into view. "Y/N? Y/N, hi!" The blonde waved at you enthusiastically, Heeseung was slowly being pushed out of the frame. You could tell he was scooting over to make space for Hyewon. An uneasy feeling slowly sprouted in you when you saw how Hyewon and Heeseung were sitting too close, but you shoved it down when the blonde girl grinned at you.
"Y/N!"
"Hyewon!" You responded with the same enthusiasm, which made the two of you burst into a fit of giggles.
"I'm so sorry for disturbing your time but Chan is looking for you," she apologised, the last part directed to your boyfriend.
"Ah, it's okay, I understand," you said.
"I'll talk to you later, okay? Love you," Heeseung said once Hyewon was out of frame.
"Love you too," you replied and your phone screen turned black, your reflection staring right back at you. You were frowning. With a sigh, you stuffed your phone back into your phone pocket to unlock your front door. Your coffee was now cold in your hands and the uneasy feeling from before was slowly creeping back in. You did not like it one bit.
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Chaeryeong and Ryujin thought you were being dramatic, they were right in a way. But you were too busy missing Heeseung to be bothered. You missed his warmth, his voice, the way his hands perfectly fit yours when he held them. you missed the way you laid your head on his chest when he sat behind you, you could always hear his steady heartbeat. It always lulled you to sleep in seconds.
You let out a long and loud sigh as you flipped onto your back on your childhood bed. You had returned to your hometown one week ago, which also meant another week without Heeseung. Your best friend and roommate, Chaeryeong, was the one who drove you both home. The last time you saw her was when she dropped you off at your parents home. And you've been dwelling in your Heeseung-less days ever since.
Reaching over to retrieve your phone, you moved to open your chat with Heeseung. The last text message from him was from this morning. It was just a simple "good morning" text, and you replied with the same message except you added a heart emoticon at the end. And the message was on delivered. Not even on read. You don't know which one was worse.
Your phone suddenly dinged and you immediately sat up straight, thinking it was Heeseung. But your shoulders sagged in disappointment when you saw it was just a message from Jeongin. If Ryujin had seen you right now, the short hair girl would have called you a "lovesick fool". She was right, of course but still.
[2:42 pm] jeongin: guess what
[2:44 pm] chenle: what
[2:44 pm] jeongin: guess
[2:45 pm] chenle: no
[2:45 pm] chenle: just tell us
[2:46 pm] jeongin: g u e s s
[2:46 pm] chenle: n o
[2:46 pm] jeongin: guess goddammit
[2:48 pm] ryujin: jeongin i stg
[2:48 pm] ryujin: i will break ur kneecaps just tell us
[2:49 pm] jeongin: ugh fine theres a amusement park and i wanna go
[2:50 pm] chenle: its winter
[2:50 pm] jeongin: yeah and
[2:50 pm] jeongin: is there snow? no
[2:51 pm] jeongin: so therefore, amusement park
[2:51 pm] ryujin: i-
[2:52 pm] chaeryeong: where is it
[2:52 pm] jeongin: its like a 2 hours away from here
[2:54 pm] ryujin: and who tf would be driving us genius
[2:55 pm] jeongin: y/n bc she loves us
[2:56 pm] y/n: since when
[2:56 pm] chaeryeong: and shes alive, great job jeongin
[2:57 pm] chaeryeong: u pulled her out from her depression
i[2:58 pm] y/n: hey im not depressed >:(
[2:59 pm] ryujin: hm sure
[2:59 pm] y/n: >:(
[3:00 pm] y/n: also i dont have my drivers license yet dumbass
[3:01 pm] jeongin: ah right i also forgot y/n cant drive
[3:01 pm] jeongin: ryujin it is
[3:02 pm] ryujin: whAT I DID NOT AGREE TO THIS
[3:03 pm] chaeryeong: lets meet up at jeongin's place then
[3:03 pm] chenle: cool with me
[3:05 pm] ryujin: HEY DONT IGNORE ME
[3:04 pm] y/n: sure!
You stifled a laugh as you read Ryujin's message. Then, you switched to check your chat between Heeseung and you. It was still on delivered. Maybe he's just busy with filming and recording. Yeah, he's probably busy. Stop being so selfish, Y/N.
Yang Jeongin just had to choose the coldest day of the year to go to the amusement park, didn't he. You silently thanked yourself for dressing up in an extra layer, unlike Chenle who looked like he was about to die from frostbite. Whereas Jeongin had a huge grin plastered on his face as he looked at the Ferris Wheel ahead. You rubbed your hands together, bringing it to your mouth to blow hot air at it. You heard the car door slam shut behind you and Ryujin walked next to you.
Families lined up at the ticket booth, laughter and chatter filled the atmosphere. You spot some couples around the area as well, the sight of them tugged at your heartstrings. You wished Heeseung was here with you, he would've wanted to go on the Ferris Wheel with you.
Chaeryeong linked arms with you and Ryujin, leading the two of you to the entrance. The boys already beat you guys to it, you realised. Once Chenle handed you your ticket, you were immediately dragged to the first ride that caught Jeongin's eye.
After a couple of hours, you found yourself resting on the bench with a cup of hot chocolate at your side. Your social battery was empty and you didn't know where the rest of your friends had gone. Ryujin may have mentioned going to the restroom, you're not sure, you were too tired to keep up. So here you were, on the bench next to the Teacups Ride.
You watched as the visitors walked past you. Some were students with their friends laughing as if it was their last day on earth, children giggling as their parents lifted them up in the air and couples sharing a loving look. You fiddle with your phone, debating whether you wanted to text Heeseung or not.
The both of you had called each other last night. You couldn't see him but his voice sounded tired. You felt bad for calling him. Maybe it was for the best if you didn't. You picked up your hot chocolate, the warmth spreading through your fingers as you blew on it. Your body relaxed once you took a sip, enjoying as the warmth spread through your body. Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed a very familiar looking coat.
You saw a couple walking together, he was wearing a coat that looked identical to the one you gifted Heeseung last year during Christmas. It was almost as if that was Heeseung, well his back kinda looked like his and Heeseung was about that height as well. But it couldn't be him, his school was almost three hours away from here. Plus the girl beside him was blonde, she kinda looked like Hyewon.
What are the odds of those two being here, you laughed. But when those two stopped in their tracks to look at the Ferris Wheel, your entire body froze right there and then. That was Heeseung and Hyewon together. What were they doing here?
Your body reacted immediately by standing up. Heart beating rapidly, you were about to walk towards them when you saw Heeseung laughing at something the blonde said. A gnawing feeling grew in you, he was laughing with her. He was at the amusement park with her. Not you. Her.
And he never mentioned anything about going to the amusement park, let alone the same one you were going to. Your feet stayed glued to the ground as you watched them get into one of the carts. Why was he here? Why didn't he tell you? Why was he with her? Why? Why? Why?
You saw Hyewon stopped from getting into the cart and she stretched her hand out while she looked up in the sky, Heeseung following her. It was snowing. It was the first snow. And Heeseung spent it with Hyewon, while you watched from the sidelines. They looked like an actual couple. Snow started to fall, your hot chocolate was losing its warmth and jealousy filled up instead. The noise drilled out of your ear so all you heard was a low buzz, your gaze burning on the two. You didn't notice Ryujin walking towards you.
"Jesus, the line was so long that I-" Ryujin stopped mid sentence, her eyes following the direction of your gaze. "Y/N?"
You walked past her without saying anything, chucking the drink into a trashcan.
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Your phone felt heavy in your hands as you paced around your room. You knew your eyes weren't wrong. It was Heeseung and Hyewon at the amusement park, you could tell it was him from a mile away. After that incident, you went to find your friends and told them you wanted to go home because you weren't feeling well. It was partially a lie anyway, you didn't feel comfortable. You don't know what you would do if you had stumbled upon them.
Thousands of questions echoed through your mind. And you couldn't bear to ask Heeseung. You knew you had questions but you didn't know what to ask. Why didn't you tell me? Why were you with Hyewon? Why wouldn't you tell me?
Your phone suddenly rang, causing you to jolt in surprise. The phone screen lit up with his name in bold. He was calling you. Without thinking, you accepted the call.
"Hey, love," Heeseung's smooth voice greeted you.
"Hey," you replied, making sure your tone was steady. You were silently grateful that it wasn't a video-call so he couldn't see the nervousness in your eyes.
"How was the amusement park?" He asked.
You bit your thumb, hesitant to answer. Should you tell him that you saw him today? "It was fun, a lot of people thought," you hummed, moving over to sit on your bed.
"You know, funny story. Today we actually went to an amusement park too," he suddenly said and you froze on the spot. "They decided to film there so we went there in the afternoon, it started snowing too!"
You felt a weight was lifted from your heart. So it was just a pure coincidence. Heeseung never planned to go to the amusement park, he just went with what they said. "It would've been funny if we bumped into each other, don't you think, love?" He laughed but you couldn't find the energy to laugh along.
"Yeah," you mumbled, leaning back into your pillows. He was there to film for the music video. He's busy with the music video. It's always for the music video. You trust Heeseung, don't you?
Winter break went by like the cold breeze and now cherry pink flowers occupied the empty branches. Flowers were blooming from the left and right, the cold winter was now in the past and you welcomed (the still cold) spring into your arms. Which meant you left whatever uneasy feeling and doubts in the past.
You were currently in Heeseung's dorm. Today was a big day, it's the day where they were gonna upload the music video and Heeseung wanted you to be there to watch it with him. Heeseung picked you up from the bus stop and then took you out for lunch. Thankfully it was the weekend so you could stay for the night.
Heeseung was at his desk, his thumbs typing away as he laughed silently at his phone. You wondered who he was texting. Maybe he's texting Hyewon, your mind taunted. You shook your head to drive the thoughts away, you were not going to be paranoid. You already left the bitter feelings in winter, you agreed with yourself that you'll leave it behind. You trust Heeseung.
"Who are you texting?" Yet the question slipped out of you either way.
"Huh?" Heeseung looked up, like a deer caught in headlights. "Oh, uh no one," he quickly said, turning off his phone and placing it on his desk. "I think the music video is uploaded," he added before you could question him more.
He moved to his bed, where you were sitting. You scooted over to make space for him as he sat next to you with his laptop propped on his lap. He clicked into his senior's channel, Jeong Yunho, you took note. And there it was, the music video, uploaded forty five seconds ago. You let out an excited noise once you saw it.
"Not for sale," you read the title out loud. Heeseung had a proud look on.
The music video started off with a frame of Heeseung and Hyewon facing each other, then he handed her a note with the words "Not For Sale" on it. The camera then panned out to film the sky where the title appeared again in bold, and the song started to play. The song had a bubbly beat to it and Heeseung's angelic voice accompanied it. The music video was filled with pastels and some scenes were filmed at the amusement park. Specifically, at the carousel. There weren't any scenes of the Ferris Wheel though, you noted.
The video ended with Heeseung and Hyewon holding hands as they face the sunset, while the camera slowly zooms away from them and into the sky. The last scene was a black screen with all the credits listed out. When you saw Heeseung's name being credited for writing the song, you felt a sense of pride inside of you. Your boyfriend wrote this song, of course you're going to be proud.
Once the video ended, you threw your arms around Heeseung. Heeseung laughed as he wrapped an arm around your middle and the other holding onto his laptop. You planted a big fat kiss on his cheek and he tightened his hold on you.
"The song was so good, Hee! I'm so proud of you, babe," you complimented him, one hand reaching up to ruffle his hair while the other cupped his cheek.
Heeseung smiled and leaned into your touch. "Thank you so much, lovely. This song means a lot to me," he kissed your nose. "I actually thought of you when I wrote this song," he confessed.
You blinked at him, your heart beating faster as you processed his words. You were kneeling on his bed as he looked up at you, pink dusted on his cheeks. Instead of saying anything, you threw yourself onto him, tightly wrapping your arms around his torso to buried your head in his neck. Heeseung let out an "oof" when you knocked him back onto his bed, his laptop on the edge of his bed.
"I love you," you mumbled.
"I love you, too," he said. His hand reached up to stroke your head as the both of you laid there in each other's embrace.
A few minutes passed and Heeseung tapped on your head to get your attention. "Hm?" you hummed in reply.
"I need to go pee, love."
"No," you said stubbornly, tightening your arms around him.
"Please, love. I'll be back fast, I promise," Heeseung told you, looking down on you.
You lifted your head to rest your chin on his chest as you narrowed your eyes at him. "Hng, fine," you pouted before you rolled off him.
"Thank you, lovely," he pecked your lips before pushing himself off his bed, not before moving his laptop to his desk.
You watched as Heeseung left his dorm to go to the restroom. You stretched your arms upwards, making grabby hands in the air before sitting up. You reached over to his desk, which was next to the bed, to get your phone when you saw Heeseung's phone lit up. You knew you shouldn't have looked but when her name was in bold white, you couldn't look away.
[4:47 pm] hyewon: can't wait to do it again hee!
"Can't wait to do it again?" You read the message out loud. Can't wait to do what again? And since when did Hyewon called him "Hee"? That was your nickname for him. The bitter feelings from winter crept back into you like the cold seeping in through the crack of your window. Why did you feel so uneasy whenever Hyewon was alone with Heeseung? Was there something going on?
No, they're just friends, Y/N, you reminded yourself. Just friends.
The door opened and your eyes snapped up to see Heeseung returning from the restroom. Suddenly, you wanted to get out of here. You don't know why, but that text message from her just rubbed you the wrong way and you wanted to get out of there before you say something you regret.
"Ryujin just texted me that she needs my help," you lied. You stood up to grab your coat and bag from the chair.
"Woah, woah, what's with the hurry?" Heeseung took a hold of your wrist as he looked at you. But your eyes didn't meet his.
"Ryujin has an emergency, she needs my help," you said again, this time firmly.
"Oh," his grip on you loosened and you pulled your hand back to you. "I'll drive you back-"
"No, it's fine," you cut him off. "I-I'll take the bus home. I'll call you tonight," the words rushed out of your lips and soon enough you were out of his door.
You did not call him that night.
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You ignored Ryujin's questions when you reached your dorm, she didn't press on. Now it was Sunday morning and Ryujin had left for breakfast. You felt bad for leaving Heeseung like that and ignoring Ryujin when she just wanted to help you. And you knew you should've talked it out instead of walking out. Sighing, you curled deeper into your blanket.
After a few minutes, you threw your covers off and sat up. Maybe some warm breakfast would make you feel better. So you went down to the cafeteria to see your friends all huddled up at the corner.
"Y/N, just in time!" Jeongin called out. Curious, you walked towards them and saw that they were watching Heeseung's music video.
"The song is so sweet," Chaeryeong cooed, leaning onto you.
You let out an awkward laugh, not quite sure what to feel because of the act you pulled yesterday.
"It has almost two thousand views. I bet you must feel so proud, huh," Chaeryeong said.
You bit the inside of your cheek as you nodded. Now you feel even more bad, Heeseung wrote this song for you and you should've stayed at his dorm to celebrate with him. Instead, you left because you saw one text message without context. You were being a bad girlfriend, you should apologise to him.
"Who's the other girl? She's really pretty," Jeongin suddenly asked.
"Ah, that's Hyewon. She's his neighbour," you explained.
"Hyewon? As in Kang Hyewon?" Daehwii suddenly said. He was passing by when he heard you say her name and pulled a chair across Jeongin. You nodded. "Oh, I know her," he casually said.
You tilted your head to the side. "You do?" Jeongin leaned forward. You heard Ryujin mumble "simp" under her breath, and you bit back a laugh.
"Mhmm," Daehwii nodded and pulled out his phone. A few seconds later, he showed his phone screen and it was Hyewon's Instagram. "I went to the same high school with her, she was really popular. All the teachers said she had the face of an actress. There was a rumour that she even got scouted by an entertainment company."
Ryujin reached over to grab his phone to scroll through her account. "Woah, she has like two hundred thousand followers," she said in amazement. You leaned closer to Ryujin to check, Hyewon sure was popular.
"Yeah, she's a free-lance model and I think she models for smaller brands," Daehwii added.
You couldn't help but feel very small next to her. She was beautiful and she had somewhat of a reputation in the entertainment industry, a rising model. Imagine what kind of connections she could get for Heeseung…
"I bet Heeseung wrote this song for you," Ryujin suddenly said, smoothly switching the topic back to the song.
You felt your cheeks to warm up at her words. Sheepishly, you nodded. Your friends immediately reacted with a chorus of "ooh"s and Chaeryeong playfully nudged your shoulder. "Fuck Romeo and Juliet, I want what these bitches have," Jeongin quoted and the rest of you fell into laughter.
After breakfast, you and Ryujin strolled back to your rooms with your arms linked together. She was telling you about what happened when you weren't here yesterday. "And then he said and I quote "sometimes bullying is okay" just as a family was walking by, the mom was literally glaring at us," you laughed as she told you. "And then- oh," she stopped, and you stopped as well. She was looking ahead of you so you followed her gaze.
"Heeseung?" His name left your lips before you could even process the whole situation.
Heeseung waved awkwardly at you, internally wincing when you used his full name. You and Ryujin exchanged a look before Ryujin pushed you towards him. You stumbled right into his arms but you took a step out of his arms, you rubbed your forearms instead.
"What are you doing here?" You asked him.
"Ah," he rubbed the back of his neck, "I wanted to surprise you since you left early yesterday. I hope you were able to solve Ryujin's problem."
At the mention of Ryujin's "emergency", you stiffened because you didn't mention that you had used her in a lie. You could feel her eyes on you and mentally hope that she got the message.
"Uh, yeah. It was solved," Ryujin replied with an awkward chuckle. "Actually, I forgot I had to meet up with Chaeryeong so it was great seeing you, Heeseung." You turned around and mouthed a "thank you" at her and she gave you a look as if to say "we are going to talk about this later".
And then the two of you were left alone in the empty hallway. Was it always this awkward?
Heeseung stood awkwardly in your room. This was the first time he looked so out of place. Usually, you were the one at his dorm. He doesn't come over to yours that often since he was more busy than you. So it truly was a surprise when you saw him outside your door.
"So, uh, how are you?" He asked.
You hummed in reply. "I'm doing fine," as you sat down on your bed.
"Great! That's great," he coughed while he played with his fingers.
And then the awkward silence returns. You knew it was your fault for walking out yesterday, you probably made him think he did something wrong. When really it was just you refusing to communicate. You gripped your sheets, your mind running laps on what to say. But he beat you to it.
"Did I do something wrong?"
Your eyes snapped up to finally meet his eyes, he was looking at you with brown innocent eyes. Your heart broke a bit at the sight. "It's not you," you assured him. "It's…it's just me," you told him truthfully.
Heeseung looked at you with confusion, he didn't understand what was wrong. He wanted to help but he didn't know how. So instead, he slowly moved to sit next to you. When you did not move away, he took it as a sign of permission. So he took your hands into his, slowly rubbing circles on top of your hand.
"I'm sorry," you whispered.
"Love, what are you even sorry about?" He softly asked.
"I saw you at the amusement park that day," you confessed.
Heeseung's fingers stopped moving. "Oh," was all he could say. You bit the inside of your cheek, the atmosphere shifted but you can't read him at all.
"I'm sorry," you whispered again because you didn't know what to say. "Ever since that day, I've been feeling weird whenever I see you with Hyewon and I don't like it."
"Love," he softly cupped your cheek to make you look at him, "are you perhaps jealous?" he asked with a teasing tone. You shifted your gaze to the side, you were jealous but you were reluctant to admit it. But your avoiding eyes already sold you out. Heeseung chuckled and brought you into his embrace. "There's nothing to be jealous of. Hyewon and I are just friends," he assured you.
His voice was genuine when he told you and you felt a sense of relief hearing him say those words. You fell forward to hug him and Heeseung immediately accepted you. He planted a kiss on the top of your head and sighed. "Next time we're gonna be honest with each other, okay?"
"Okay."
Heeseung was right, honesty was the key to maintaining a healthy relationship, Heeseung has been nothing but truthful to you since the start, and you allowed yourself to be overwhelmed by your insecurities instead of talking it out. This reminded you of when Heeseung once shut you out because he didn't want to burden you.
He hid his passion for music from you because he thought you would react like his parents, against him. He refused to tell you the truth which left you confused and hurt. Did I do something wrong? The question was constantly in your head. It wasn't until you forced it out of him, and it was the first time you saw his composed figure break down in tears. You embraced him and assured him with comforting words, you loved him at his worst.
And you told him the exact same words: "Next time we're gonna be honest with each other, okay?"
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Exam season was the most painful time of your life. Everyday was the same routine: wake up, eat, study, sleep and repeat. You're starting to spend more time in the library than in the comfort of the dorm. Heeseung was just as busy as you, the both of you rarely have enough time to check up on each other. But you tried and so did he.
You plucked out your earphones and let it fall into your lap as you stretched your arms upwards. Chaeryeong and Ryujin were scattered around your shared room, with the latter laying face down on her bed. The three of you had spent your entire morning studying for your own examinations. You had sent Heeseung a quick good morning text before telling him that your phone will be on silent mode until you were done.
That was six hours ago. You pushed your laptop away from you as you reached over for your phone. You smiled when you saw your first notification was from your boyfriend.
[8:15 am] hee <3: okay remember to stay hydrated love! and take some breaks in between!!!
"Look at her, smiling all lovey dovey and shit," Ryujin sneered at you in disgust as she lifted herself onto her elbows.
You stuck your tongue out at her before typing a reply.
[3:52 pm] y/n: guess who's done studying?? 
While waiting for his reply, you decided to scroll through Instagram. Tapping through people's stories, you stumbled upon Hyewon's one. (She had followed you a few weeks ago.) Your thumb pressed down on your phone screen as your breath hitched. It was a photo of Heeseung, it looked like he was in the library and he was reading a book. The words "with mr. hardworking" positioned above his head. You tapped through to the next slide and it was a candid of Heeseung looking up at her with a smile, his hand outreached to grab her phone. This time the words "oops, got caught" were written on the side. You checked and saw it was posted ten minutes okay.
You frowned at the two photos. You knew Heeseung said they were just friends, but you couldn't shake that uneasy feeling away. Your mind was telling you that they weren't but your heart was with Heeseung.
"Who's that?" Chaeryeong suddenly asked.
You jump, startled. Since when was she behind you? Chaeryeong ignored your expression and leaned towards your phone. "Isn't that Heeseung? Who's he with?" She asked.
"Hyewon," you answered.
Ryujin crawled over to plop down next to you, her curious eyes peering up at your phone. "The same girl we saw at the amusement park?" The short-haired girl asked.
You looked down at her, shocked. You never told her about what you saw last winter. Ryujin understood your expression and rolled her eyes. "I'm not dumb, Y/N," she said.
Chaeryeong looked between the two of you with confusion. "Did something happen when we were at the amusement park?"
"Y/N saw Heeseung and Hyewon getting on the Ferris Wheel together."
"Ryujin!"
"What?" She shrugged at you. "We did see them there and it was the reason you were upset," she stated with her arms crossed, now sitting crossed legged next to you.
Chaeryeong gasped beside you and placed her hands in front of her mouth. "Do you think he's cheating on you?"
"Chaeryeong!" Ryujin hissed at the other girl. "Heeseung isn't the kind to do that," she defended him despite what she said before, "right, Y/N?" Ryujin nudged your elbow.
You opened your mouth to defend your boyfriend but no words were said. You bit your lips, Heeseung wouldn't be the kind to cheat, right? Then why were you hesitating? You wanted to agree with Ryujin and say that Heeseung would never cheat on you. So why were you doubting him?
"I'm just saying, long distance relationships never work out. Like Yeji and Soobin, they broke up like six months later," Chaeryeong shrugged innocently and leaned back on her hands as she spoke.
"But that was different, Yeji never really liked him anyways!" Ryujin countered.
"Vivi and Haseul! Everyone thought they were gonna last but they broke up the moment Vivi went home, and they were together for four years. Four years, Ryujin!" The younger girl exclaimed. "Point is, long distance relationships rarely work out."
Before Ryujin could retort, your phone lit up and all three of you looked down. It was a notification from Heeseung.
[4:01 pm] hee <3: hey sorry i was with taehyun
The three of you blinked at the message, Ryujin and Chaeryeong exchanged a look. While you just stared at the notification, refusing to tap into the chat. Did Heeseung just lie to you?
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Something shifted in your relationship, you could tell. Calls with Heeseung were now cut short and text messages got short. At first, you blamed it on the upcoming exams and you told yourself that Heeseung was equally busy as you. Sometimes you were too tired to send a text because all you wanted was to sleep but when you tried to give him a call, he always brushed you off with a "I'm busy" text.
Text messages now never got past the "how was your day" before he said that he was going to sleep. Ever since that day with Ryujin and Chaeryeong, you turned a blind eye to the text message. Maybe he really was with Taehyun, you wouldn't actually know.
But that's the thing, isn't it? You would never know what really happens because you're not there with him, your mind taunted you. You shook away the thoughts and tried to be positive. Exams had ended a few days ago and Chaeryeong suggested that you should surprise him with a visit.
So here you were, on the bus to Heeseung's university. You could barely contain your smile, it's been so long since you last saw him and you just missed him so much. You could imagine how happy he would be to see you. An hour later, the bus came to a stop and you thanked the bus driver before boarding off.
Tightening your coat around you, you looked at the road ahead of you with a determined look. You were gonna surprise Heeseung today. And nothing was going to stop you from doing so. You reached the entrance of the school and sent a friendly smile to the security guards.
You made your way towards Heeseung's dorm, your feet have walked this path multiple times. You were familiar with these hallways. Soon enough you reached his door, you patted your clothes and fixed your hair before raising your fist. Your hand hovered in front of the wooden door, Heeseung was one door away from you.  Knocking precisely three times on the door, you took a step back and clasped your hands behind you. You couldn't wait to see his smile when he sees you.
"Surprise!" You said, doing jazz hands the moment the door opened.
"Y/N? What are you doing here?" Heeseung asked you.
You blinked, slightly lowering your hands. Heeseung wasn't smiling at you like you thought he would be, instead he was looking down on you with furrowed eyebrows. His hair was dishevelled, like he ran his fingers through it multiple times and he wasn't opening the door fully, like he was blocking something.
"I was going to surprise you, since exams are over and all-"
"Why didn't you text me beforehand?" He cut you off.
You narrowed your eyes at him and crossed your arms, annoyed that he was questioning you instead of being happy to see you. "Because it was a surprise, Hee, that's the whole point. I wasn't supposed to tell you, surprises don't work like that."
Heeseung opened his mouth but cut himself off with a sigh, he turned his head around to look inside then back at you. "I didn't mean it that way, I just wished you would've told me before," he repeated with a softer tone this time.
You frowned and dropped your arms, you shouldn't have listened to Chaeryeong. Maybe you should leave, the next bus would be in two hours. Heeseung was still leaning against his door, you couldn't see past him. "Whatever, I'll leave then," you mumbled and waved him off, turning on your heel to walk away.
"Y/N! Wait!" Heeseung called after you but you ignored his calls and just continued forward. The taller boy caught up with you and grabbed your wrist.
You tried to shake him off but his hold on you was strong. "Let me go," you said through gritted teeth.
"No, you're mad," he said.
"Of course, I am! I wanted to surprise my boyfriend after not seeing him for weeks but he doesn't even look happy to see me!" You sneered at him, still trying to shake his hand off your wrist.
Heeseung's hands moved to hold your shoulders instead to keep you in place, forcing you to look at him. "Hey, I didn't say I wasn't happy to see you. I am happy to see you, okay? It's just that today's a busy day, love," he explained to you softly.
You stopped squirming and sighed. "Sorry, I just…I just really missed you okay," you told him. You overreacted and got mad at him without letting him explain himself. "Sorry," you said again.
Heeseung smiled warmly at you and pulled you into a hug. "It's okay, love," he planted a kiss on top of your head. You rested your chin on his shoulder and returned the hug.
Then, you watched as a certain blonde walked out of Heeseung's room. Hyewon stepped out of his room and waved at you with a smile. Was Heeseung hiding her? You slightly pushed Heeseung away and he took a step back in confusion. He turned around to see Hyewon and then back at you.
"Hyewon and I were working on a project," he quickly explained.
"Yeah," the other girl nodded in agreement. "If I had known you were coming today, I wouldn't have bothered Heeseung," she said.
"Ah, no. I'm sorry for interrupting the two of you," you apologised, slightly ducking your head. You're not sure if you meant the apology. Should you be sorry that you interrupted them? But Heeseung was your boyfriend.
"Well, I'll leave you two be," Hyewon smiled at the both of you before walking away.
You watched as Heeseung smiled at her and how his eyes followed her figure until she disappeared down the stairs. You bit your lower lip and clenched your fist together, feeling uneasy in your chest once again. Your hand reached to tug on his sleeve and he finally looked at you, like he forgot you were there in the first place.
He moved to hold your hand and lead you into his room, not before smiling softly at you. Instead of the usual feeling of butterflies in your stomach whenever he smiled at you, there was a sinking feeling. Because he smiled at Hyewon the same way. Your lips raised a small smile for him but it didn't reach your eyes. He doesn't seem to notice.
The door closed behind the two of you and you swung your arms before clasping your hands behind you. "So, what was Hyewon doing here?" You tried to ask naturally.
Heeseung wasn't looking at you when he replied, "She was here for a project," he hummed.
"What project?" You continued to ask more.
"For school," he simply replied, taking a seat on his bed.
You leaned against his desk while nodding your head. "Ah, so you're helping her?"
"Uh huh."
"Ah, didn't know you guys were this close…"
"Well, we are neighbours so it's just natural that we grew close, you know," he shrugged.
"Close enough to get on the Ferris Wheel with," you muttered under your breath. You thought Heeseung wasn't able to pick up what you said but his eyes snapped to look at you. You gulped, knowing you were caught.
"Love, I already said that we were there for the music video shooting," he told you with a tired sigh.
"I know, I know but I can't help feeling jealous, Hee," you explained yourself.
Your boyfriend sighed exasperatedly as he ran his fingers through his hair. "I already told you that we're just friends, there's nothing to be jealous of."
"Well, you would be jealous too if your boyfriend didn't mention that he was going to the amusement park with you and you found him hanging with another girl!" You scoffed sarcastically.
"I already told you it wasn't planned, Y/N. Why don't you trust me?" His voice was slightly raised when he spoke the last sentence, his expression was begging you to drop the topic.
But your stubborn self refused to let it go and stood up straighter. "Because you're making it really hard to trust you."
"What?" He looked at you in disbelief as he stood up as well. "How am I the one being hard right now? You're just being paranoid and you're letting your insecurities get the better of you!"
"Can you blame me?!" You raised your voice at him. Anger clouded your eyes as you begged him to understand your point of view. "We're so far apart and we rarely get to talk to each other and you're always brushing me off! It's almost like you're cheating on me with Hyewon!"
Heeseung groaned in frustration and dragged his fingers across his face. "How many times do I have to tell you that we're just friends, Y/N? Hyewon literally has nothing to do with this! I don't get why you hate her."
"Cause you talk to her while we're together," you knew that sounded childish and selfish but you were blurting whatever that came to mind.
"Oh, so now I'm not allowed to talk to other girls?" He curled an eyebrow at you while crossing his arms.
Your words were caught in your throat. "I didn't mean it like that-"
"Then what do you mean, Y/N? You never acted like this before," Heeseung rubbed his temples.
"Because!" You threw your hands out in frustration, trying to convey your words out, "I don't know what's happening in your life because we're not in the same school and I'm scared that you're cheating on me with Hyewon!"
Heeseung knitted his eyebrows at you, you don't know if it was from confusion or annoyance, maybe both. "Cheating? No, you just don't trust me! Never once did I doubt your relationship with Jeongin, so why are you doing this to me?"
"Don't bring Jeongin into this," you sneered at him, "you knew Jeongin since we were in high school. Hyewon is a completely different story. You…you look at her like…you're in love," your voice slowly died at the end, it was the final hit on the nail. You looked up at Heeseung, his eyes widened at your words.
They said the eyes are the window to your soul. Brown guilty eyes just stared at you, because you were right. Heeseung couldn't figure out his feelings and you just did it for him. Your boyfriend was falling out of love with you and he was falling for someone new. And you watched as he realised it right in front of you. You swore you heard your heart crack.
He held his head and took a step back from you, silence fell upon the both of you. "I-I think you should go," he managed to say.
"Yeah," you croaked out, your throat was swelling up. You walked past Heeseung in hurried steps and out the door to the stairs. You never saw how Heeseung dropped to his bed with his head in his head as guilty tears slowly rolled down his cheeks.
God, you wished he had thought this through before you went and fell in love with him.
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You haven't talked to Heeseung since that day, you knew that your relationship was over but your heart refused to believe it until those words came from Heeseung himself. A dark cloud hung over you and your friends didn't dare to ask. You felt betrayed by him.
You loved him at his worst, but that didn't matter. He gave you his word, but that didn't matter too. You were bitter, angry, devastated, heartbroken. But you couldn't cry, your heart was full of tears yet nothing came out. A single piece of tape holding back your fragile heart. A small sign of hope that you were wrong and Heeseung still loved you.
In the middle of a cold winter day, you were nestled between your warm sheets. Chaeryeong and Ryujin had left for lunch, not before promising to get you something. In the midst of your dark covers, your phone screen lit up and caught your attention.
[2:23 pm ] hee <3: We need to talk, I'm outside your door right now.
What? Your head snapped up to look at your front door. There's no way he was standing outside right now. Gulping, you pushed yourself up and walked to the door. Your hand hesitated, hovering right in front of the silver door knob. You already knew what was coming. Taking a deep breath, you opened the door.
The same brown guilty eyes looked at you, and the little white lies from before all came crashing down at once. You stepped to the side to let him in and closed the door. Your back was facing him, you refused to look at him. Your hope was wavering, you don't know if you accepted it or not.
"I'm sorry," he was the first to break the silence. you still refused to turn around. "I didn't mean to hurt you."
Lies, lies, lies. You shut your eyes closed, your hand was still on the door knob, holding it tightly.
He inhaled a deep breath before saying his next words, "This is the end."
The words pierced your heart and it started to fall apart. This doesn't feel like a break up, it was the end of your story. It was him telling you that he was removing himself from your life. Falling out of love hurts, but losing a friend is the worst.
"Do you still love me?"
"What?"
"Do you still love me?" You finally turned around, your glossy eyes looking right at him.
Without a heartbeat, he said, "No."
And when you were alone again in your room, your heart finally shattered and the tears poured out like a waterfall. You fell to your knees with your hands clutching your heart, ugly sobs escaped from your lips. You were crying out the pain as big fat tears dropped onto the wooden floor,
Chaeryeong and Ryujin nearly dropped the food when they found you broken on the tear stained floor.
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Two weeks later (after being forced to get out of bed by Ryujin), you found your friends huddled at the same place of the cafeteria like when the music video was released. They were surrounding Daehwii with their heads ducked, whispering to each other.
"What are you guys doing?" Ryujin's voice caught their attention and their heads lifted to see the both of you, eyes widening at the sight of you.
Everyone exchanged nervous glances whereas you and Ryujin were left confused. You tilted your head to the sign to show that you were confused while Ryujin raised an eyebrow as if  demanding an explanation. Chaeryeong shoved Daehwii's shoulder and gave him a look, silently telling him to break the news.
Daehwii nervously looked between you and his phone before sighing, his shoulders dropping. Instead of saying anything, he showed you his phone. Ryujin reached over to take the device from him before you could see anything and squinted her eyes. The short haired girl inhaled a sharp breath and looked at your friends, finally understanding what was happening. She then looked at you, deciding whether she should tell you or not.
"What?" You asked her, your eyebrows furrowed as your patience was running thin. What were they not telling you?
But instead of telling you, she showed you. The phone screen displayed an Instagram post with a person holding hands with someone else. The caption was a simple "with him". At first you were confused on what it had to do with you, then Ryujin tapped on the post to show you the person tagged in the post. Heeseung's username appeared, your eyes travelled up to the owner of the post and it read Hyewon's name.
"Oh," was all you could say.
Your gaze averted down and you don't see how your friends exchange worried glances. "Y/N..." Chaeryeong softly called out to you while she walked towards you. She angled her head to look at your face with her arms around you.
Your mind was a mess, it took him two weeks to find someone new. No, not someone new. It took him two weeks to go off and date her. He talked to her when you were together. And you knew if he truly loved you, there was no damn way he could fall in love with somebody that quickly. Ryujin and Chaeryeong embraced you but you felt numb. He betrayed you. And you knew that he'll never feel sorry for the way you hurt.
"He cheated on you," you heard Jeongin say, but you shook your head as you tried to rub the tears away.
"Guess he didn't cheat but he's still a traitor," Jeongin rephrased.
The girls hugged you tighter when you let out a choked sob. Jeongin was right, he didn't cheat but he was a traitor. You played dumb but you always knew that he'd talk to her, maybe did even worse but you kept quiet so you could keep him.
God you wished that he had thought it through, before you went and fell in love with him.
© chaeryybomb 2021
a/n: this took so long to write and i wrote more than i expected. thank you for waiting and reading this, see y'all in "drivers license"!
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imagineaworld · 4 years ago
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jealous | b.b
pairing : bucky barnes x reader, steve rogers x reader (platonic)
summary : bucky gets jealous of steve
word count : 1.5k
warnings : angst n fluff
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Bucky watched from across the gym as Steve was training Y/N. He watched the way Steve put his hands on her body, guiding her movements. He watched the way they laughed together, each laugh felt like it was directed at him.
Not able to bear the sight of them together any longer, he abruptly got up and made a swift exit from the gym.
Bucky hated feeling this way. But he and Y/N were close, and perhaps his feelings had gone beyond just friendly. Clearly, though, Y/N and Steve liked each other. Bucky thought he was no competition for Captain America, as much as it pained him to see Y/N with Steve, at least she seemed happy.
After a shower and a change of clothes, Bucky was feeling better and headed to the kitchen for a cup of coffee. Y/N was sat at the island, munching on some toast as she scrolled through her phone.
“Hiya, Buck,” she beamed, happy to see him.
“Hey, doll,” he said back, glad to have some time alone with her.
He poured himself a cup of hot coffee, offering to pour Y/N one.
“Ooh, yes please.”
He poured her a cup, using her favourite mug with a photo of a boyband along the side. He slid the cup across the island to her before taking a seat next to her.
“Oh, the One Direction mug!” She laughed. “You’re the best, thank you.”
His heart fluttered as her soft laugh rang through him.
For a while, he had thought about telling her about his feelings. But he worried that she wouldn’t feel the same and that he would ruin their friendship by making things awkward. He was reminded of the main reason he wouldn’t tell Y/N about his feelings when Steve walked into the kitchen.
“Hey, Bucky, Y/N,” Steve greeted. “Great session today Y/N.”
“Yeah,” she smiled. “I’m getting better, no?”
Steve laughed. “You’re doing great.”
Bucky’s mood had changed. He shot glares at the back of Steve’s head as he poured a glass of orange juice. Please leave, don’t sit down, Bucky willed.
Y/N nudged Bucky with her arm. He stopped shooting daggers at Steve’s head, looking down at the phone screen Y/N had tilted towards him. On the screen was a picture of a cat, all black apart from its left arm, which was white.
“It’s you as a cat,” Y/N grinned.
Bucky couldn’t help but laugh, forgetting all about Steve’s presence across from them.
“Let’s see,” Steve piped up. Y/N held her phone up to show him. “It looks just like you, Buck,” he laughed.
Suddenly the cat wasn’t funny anymore. Bucky drained his coffee and got up. Dumping his mug in the sink, he stalked out of the kitchen. His and Y/N’s inside joke had been imposed on by Steve, again. He did it before when Y/N had tried to play Bucky a song by that boyband she likes, and Steve had come in and started talking over the song about how he knew the words.
Bucky just wanted to punch something (well, someone, but that would get him in trouble). He wasn’t entirely sure why he was so angry. Perhaps he was angry that Steve had interrupted them. Or maybe he was angry that Y/N was close with Steve. Deep down, he was angry at himself for thinking anyone would choose him over Steve.
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Things only got worse. In an attempt to cast out his jealous feelings, he distanced himself from Y/N and Steve. The only problem was, the more he pushed Y/N away, the closer he pushed her to Steve. 
"Hey, you," Y/N sauntered into the lounge one afternoon, where Bucky was sat reading. "Wanna go for a walk?"
The sun beamed down outside, hot and bright. Even the open windows Bucky sat beside couldn't cool him down. A walk sounded perfect, but he couldn't bear to be around her for that long.
Instead, he waved his book in the air, not even looking up at her. "Wanna finish this today, sorry." 
"That's alright, I'll ask Steve then," Y/N said, seeming a little disappointed. "When you finish it, I can lend you one of my favourites, if you're interested."
"Maybe," Bucky said through gritted teeth. Of course, she would ask Steve. And of course, Bucky was interested in her favourite book, but he couldn't put himself through that.
He finally looked up to see Y/N heading off to find Steve, desperately wishing he'd said yes but too stubborn to change his mind.
That evening, Bucky avoided everyone at dinner, opting to stay in his room in peace. A knock on his door disturbed that peace, but he answered the door nonetheless.
"Hey, Buck," Steve said, hands in the pockets of his jeans. "Can we talk?"
Bucky shrugged, stepping aside to let Steve in, who sat down on the bed. Bucky sat beside him. "What's up?"
"That's what I was gonna ask you," Steve said. "You've been acting...different. And not just with me, Y/N mentioned you've been different to her too."
His attempts to distance himself truly had driven Y/N closer to Steve. If she was confiding in him, talking to him about her problems instead of Bucky... He really had dug his own grave.
"Didn't know you and Y/N were so close," Bucky said impassively.
"We're friends, Buck. And you're my best friend. She just wanted to know if she'd done anything to upset you."
Bucky shook his head. "Nope."
"What about me?" Steve asked.
"Not a thing."
Steve sighed, as though he could tell Bucky was lying. "Okay, buddy, I'll leave you be. Just... talk to Y/N, alright? She thinks you're upset with her."
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Bucky took a deep breath as he knocked on Y/N's door. 
Her eyes lit up when she answered the door to Bucky. "Hey," she smiled.
"I finished my book, and thought I'd take you up on your offer," he said.
Y/N raised her eyebrows. "You didn't seem keen earlier. It's fine, I won't be offended if you're not interested."
"I am," Bucky blurted. "Very interested."
"Come in," Y/N stepped aside, closing the door behind Bucky.
Her room was tidy, scattered with house plants and photos. On her little coffee table by her sofa, next to a pile of books that obviously couldn't fit on her full shelves, was a picture frame. Bucky picked it up, observing the photo of him and Y/N, smiling at the camera on the beach. It had been taken a few months ago when everyone went on a day trip.
"I didn't know you had this," Bucky said, smiling to himself as Y/N searched her bookshelves for the novel.
"Oh," she said. "Yeah, I really like that picture. Never seen you so happy."
It was true that Bucky had never been as happy and carefree as he was that day at the beach. He and Y/N had played frisbee and built sandcastles. Y/N had even convinced him to go in the sea, though he only went to his waist. Y/N however had gone all the way, swimming under waves and splashing Bucky when he wouldn't go any further.
Bucky put the picture down as Y/N handed him a book he had heard of before, but never read.
"It's one of my favourites, plus it's not too long so," Y/N said. "I'm sorry if I upset you, by the way."
Bucky shook his head. "You didn't, I've just... not been doing well lately."
"I get it, I just wanted to apologise in case. I'm always here for you, you know? If you wanna talk."
Hearing Y/N say that made Bucky feel exhilarated. It also made him realise, no matter how hard to tries to repress his feelings for her, they wouldn't go away.
"Thank you," Bucky said softly. "I'm here for you too."
Y/N looked deep in thought for a moment, as if debating saying something. "These past few weeks made me realise how much I enjoy spending time with you. And thinking I had upset you made me feel... horrible. You really mean a lot to me."
Without thinking too much, Bucky pulled Y/N into his arms, wrapping them around her body. She wrapped hers around his neck, pushing up onto her toes so she could reach. The scent of her shampoo filled his nose as he took a deep breath.
"It's my fault," Bucky said, still hugging Y/N. "I pushed you away because I'm jealous and I don't think I'm good enough."
"Good enough for what?" She asked gently.
"You."
Y/N pulled away, holding Bucky's shoulders as his hands rested on her waist. "Are you kidding?" She demanded. "Don't ever say that. Why would you even think that?"
"I'm not Steve," Bucky said, eyes cast downward, unable to look her in the eye.
"You're jealous of Steve? I don't want Steve," she said. "I want you, Bucky. Just the way you are. All the good and all the bad. That's what it means to love someone: knowing they aren't perfect, but loving them anyway."
"You want me?" He asked, bewildered. 
Y/N nodded. She pushed up on her toes again, this time to connect their lips. She kissed softly and gently, and Bucky couldn't help but smile as she pulled away.
"Now, go read my book," Y/N laughed.
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uwuwriting · 4 years ago
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Boyfriend w/ Megumi, Itadori and Gojo
Request: hii I just read your jujutsu nightmares piece and oh my god I am indeed a very simple simp and your writing just makes my heart go uwu so may I maybe req a very soft, fluffy s/o for Megumi, Itadori Sato and maybe Sukuna if you write for him? I hope it's not too much, thank uu <3 - anonymous
I can’t get enough of the JJK content, I love them so much my heart can’t take it. Sadly I don’t write for Sukuna *I think I mention it in my rules but I’m not sure*, he pissed me off big time in the manga so yeah sorry about that. Really all the curses have kinda pissed me off but that’s a story for another day lmao. Love ya.💖💖💖
masterlist II rules
warnings: boyfriend things lol, fluff, maybe some angst sprinkled on top but not a lot. 
Fushiguro Megumi 
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-Megumi reminds me of Suna from Haikyuu. 
-Like a lot. 
-He will put effort in the relationship of course but he won’t flaunt it around in everybody’s faces. 
-Yes he has a s/o and yes he is in love but in his book that should be mostly kept in between you two, no one else has to know. 
-So at first your relationship isn’t really acknowledged by the others. 
-It’s so subtle at casual that everyone around you thinks that you’re merely best friends and close to each other. 
-Only Makki knows that you two are a thing since she sees how you worry and take care of him after he has been injured. 
-It’s different from platonic concern and she knows what’s going on. 
-Plus she saw you steal a kiss one time and that sealed the deal. 
-Eventually the others figure it out and they are losing their shit, for completely different reasons though. 
-Nobara can’t believe Megumi got a s/o before she did. 
-Gojo is hurt because neither of you said anything and he has been trying to hook you up for the past two years now. 
-Itadori is just confused because he thought that you were like that to everyone. 
-Now PDA is non-existent with this one. 
-He doesn’t feel comfortable touching you in public even if it’s a small peck. 
-He prefers showing his love behind closed doors or through acts of service. 
-So expect to find multiple bentos waiting for you in the kitchen each morning or a hot bath on the ready when you come back from a long mission. 
-You are okay with the no PDA rule, your only request is that he at least hold your pinkie when you need it. 
-It grounds you and who is he to say no to that?
-During missions he doesn’t underestimate your strength and let’s you do your thing. 
-He only interferes when you ask for help or when he notices that you’re extremely overwhelmed. 
-He doesn’t smother you and you are eternally grateful for that. 
-Training sessions between the both of you are brutal. 
-Neither holds back and you're left a panting, sweating mess at the end, crawling to your respective rooms to change before you settle for a movie later that afternoon.
-If either of you gets injured it’s mama bear time. 
-You need to change your bandages? Megumi has already taken out the kit and all the essentials. 
-He needs to take some meds to calm the pain in his ribcage? You have the pills in hand. 
-He is a shy boy so even in private he hesitates to touch you. 
-Don’t get him wrong he loves holding you and feeling you close to him but he is also afraid he will make you uncomfortable or overstep. 
-So you will be the one initiating cuddle session during the first months of your relationship. 
-After a while he will simply pick you up and carry you to his bed for cuddles if he needs them without uttering a word the whole time. 
-Good morning/Goodnight kisses are a must. 
-It’s a ground rule that he follows religiously since day one. 
-It doesn’t matter if it’s a simple peck on his lips or a passionate kiss, he just wants to get a kiss before starting/ending the day. 
-Sleeps on his stomach with an arm always draped over your waist. 
-Isn’t really into the whole sleeping on each other thing but he won’t say no to being the big spoon or even better the little spoon. 
-He gets flustered when you kiss his knuckles or trace patterns on his palms. 
-He knows his hands are rough from all the training but after your touch they feel tender and gentle. 
-Prefers indoor dates rather than outdoor ones. 
-His favorite  is cooking dinner together and then cuddling on the couch *in hopes you won’t get interrupted by Gojo*.
-The only thing he dislikes about the whole relationship thing is the teasing he receives from Gojo. 
-He is ready to rip his ears off. 
-Boy has murder on his mind 24/7 and it is all directed to his mentor.
-Gojo noticed that Megumi had you as his wallpaper ONCE and now it’s game over for your boyfriend. 
-The thing is that you don’t get teased as much and he is *salty*. 
Itadori Yuuji
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-He is such a lovable boy, how could you NOT fall in love with him?
-Your relationship is naturally effortless. 
-Everything flows so naturally and without even trying you two have formed such an unbreakable bond that not even Sukuna himself can tether even if he tried. 
-Many MANY spontaneous trips to the nearest convenience store at 3 am.
-Oh you are craving some popcorn? Well go on, get your shoes, we are going grocery shopping. 
-Won’t hesitate to do anything for you and when I say anything I mean it. 
-He ditched Gojo once because you had bad period pains and said you needed cuddles. 
-What cruel creature would he be if he denied his beautiful girlfriend her cuddles??? 
-Sukuna has cockblocked you two and has ruined your cuddles on multiple occasions. 
-From weird noises to rude comments to interrupting Yuuji’s thoughts with random shit. 
-Real party crasher. 
-Yuuji’s love language is touch mainly so expect a shit load of hugs and kisses. 
-Won’t let go of your hand while you are out in public. 
-If he can’t hold your hand he will place his palm in the small of your back or wrap his arm around your shoulders/waist. 
-It’s a physical need. 
-He has to be touching you at all times because that reminds him that you are truly here beside him and that you are okay. 
-The sorcerer's life has already taken a toll on his mentality and he hates leaving you alone so most of the time you go on conjoined missions. 
-Unlike Megumi he tries to protect you during fights by all means. 
-He doesn’t do it because he sees you as weak and in need of protection it’s just an instinct that he can’t control at all. 
-He will put himself in immense danger, taking all the blows just so you can leave the scene unscathed. 
-You have scolded him on his complete disregard of his own life and the tears that pooled in his eyes as he explained that his body moves on its own when he sees anything darting towards you, breaks your heart. 
-If you kiss the little marks under his eyes all his worries fly out the nearest window. 
-He forgets about everything around him, about the looming threat of his imminent execution, the only thing on his mind are your lips on his cheekbones and your thumbs rubbing circles on his cheeks. 
-If you pepper him in too many kisses he will begin his own assault by first tackling you to the floor or the bed and capturing you in a hug before the smooches begin. 
-He has a tendency to leave hickies on your neck which you struggle to cover each morning and you are always real close to glaring at him when he beams like the sun itself at you in the morning but your mild anger fades the moment his lips meet yours. 
-You have your suspicions that he knows what he is doing with that, he knows his kisses make you weak so he uses them to his advantage. 
-Will never admit it but it always places a small smirk on his lips every time you clutch his shirt for balance or rest your forehead on his shoulder to regain your composure. 
-An I love you a day is required for good vibes. 
-Won’t hesitate to shout it even in front of others, he just has no filter and no shame. 
-Makes you turn tomato red and he snickers. 
-Fuck him, literally. 
Gojo Satoru
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-This fucking tease. 
-He has no chill!!!!!!
-How are you with him?!?!?!?!!
-My man fine af and he drinks his respect for y/n and y/n alone juice every morning. 
-That doesn’t mean though he won’t try to fluster you throughout the day. 
-It’s his main goal really. 
-Full blown make out sessions in the hallways of the school, ass smacks in front of others and trying to leave hickies on your neck during your lunch break. 
-It simultaneously pisses you off and turns you on so you can’t decide if you should smack him or jump his bones. 
-It’s a never ending debate and his chances of getting the quawk quawk 5000 are 50/50. 
-He respects your boundaries when you give him a sign that you really don’t want him to be like that on certain days. 
-He is a very observant individual in general so it’s not hard for him to take note of the signs of pure discomfort or awkwardness. 
-True he loves flustering you but the moment things get out of hand and you don’t feel okay with how he is acting, he is throwing his attitude out the window and becomes respectful Gojo in a flash. 
-Likes having his arm draped over your shoulder. 
-He is super tall so chances are he towers over you. 
-He has used you like an armrest several times which resulted to a trip to Shoko for a dislocated wrist/shoulder. 
-You make him bentos almost everyday and he waits for them like a lost puppy. 
-No matter the time, he doesn’t care if he is late, he will wait for you to make him a little bento to take with him. 
-Curses can wait, he needs to receive his first dose of y/n love of the day. 
-Brags to his student about you and to Nanami, much to the blonde’s dismay. 
-Talks everyone’s ear off. 
-He becomes super protective when an elder shows up or at the mere mention of them. 
-He will grasp your hand, keeping a firm grip as those pretentious fucks stare down at you. 
-They really don’t care about Sato’s happiness and they will never show you a fiber of respect despite being chosen by the strongest sorcerer. 
-You are not part of one of the three clans so you are worth nothing in their eyes. 
-Gojo hates them for that. 
-Deep rooted hatred that could turn into a mass murder if one of them call you a distraction or a slut one more time. 
-You are really grateful for him in those moments. 
-You are grateful in general but during those times when you are being bombared left and right with rude comments, he will remind everyone in the room that he doesn’t give a flying fuck about what they believe. 
-He fell in love with you because you are your beautiful self and not because you are a powerful sorcerer. 
-He wants to imagine your kids as a sign of your love and not as an item of power, as a weapon like many of these people see him. 
-He has ditched the elder meetings on many occasions just because he wasn’t in the mood of listening to their bullshit so he came home to you and spent the rest of his night cuddled up under the large comforter, watching a movie while peppering your shoulders with kisses. 
-Adores seeing you in his clothes. 
-They are so big on you that you wear them as dresses around the house. 
-He especially loves the sight of your bare legs peeking from underneath his black t-shirt. 
-99% of the time this ends up in you getting your guts rearranged. 
-Surprisingly remembers all the important dates and he makes it to as many dates as he can. 
-Being a sorcerer is difficult man, give him a break curses he has a date at 8 and he needs to get his formal glasses. 
-All in all he loves you to the moon and back and would do anything to keep you safe and next to him. 
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cloudybarnes · 4 years ago
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the reveal
Pairing: peter parker x bestfriend!reader
Summary: after years of being friends, y/n wants to tell peter just how she feels. the night she decides to tell him, she walks in on him in his spider-man suit and suddenly second guesses if it’s the right time
Word Count: 2.7k+
Warnings: one curse word 
A/N: added in some platonic interactions with ned and y/n cause why not :)
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“I think I just failed our math test.” You huffed as you dropped your lunch tray onto the table. 
Peter and Ned left an open spot between them for you to squeeze into. 
“Honestly, I don’t see how you could have failed this test, (Y/N).” Peter chuckled.
“Yeah,” Ned agreed, “if you think you failed this test, then I don’t even want to know what I got.”
That made you laugh. “Okay, maybe not failed, but definitely not my best. I feel like I know what we’re learning, but it’s hard to do on paper, you know?”
Peter nodded his head. 
“Whatever,” you chuckled, “let’s talk about something else. What are we doing after school?”
Peter whipped his head to you, “we had after school plans?”
“Well not exactly, but it’s Friday so I thought we could do something fun.”
Ned agreed, “Yeah, plus we haven’t all hung out in a while.”
Peter sighed, “Guys, I have that Stark thing tonight remember? I can’t just abandon my internship.”
You pout and poke Peter’s arm, “but all you ever do now is go to your internship. It’s like Ned and I don’t even see you anymore, Pete.”
“She’s right. You were so busy last weekend, (Y/N) and I had to go to the opening of her sister’s dance recital all by ourselves.”
“I mean, I understand why he didn’t want to go to that one. It was a nightmare.” You chuckled. 
Peter sighed, “Listen, I’m really sorry I’ve missed a lot. I’ll make it up to you guys, I promise.”
“So... tonight?” You asked hopefully. “I swear, we will make it worth the time of the all mighty Peter Parker.” You teased as you bumped your shoulder with Peter’s.
He nervously chuckled, “Y-yeah! Okay, um, yeah, tonight.”
You giggled, noticing a new warmth to his cheeks. “So, what time do you get done?”
“Get done?” He repeated.
“You know, your internship.” Ned reminded him.
Peter gasped, “Oh, right! Right, my internship. Um, actually it might be late, are you sure you want to do it tonight?”
You shrugged, “It’s the weekend, I’m sure my parents won’t mind. Please Peter, we haven’t hung out in forever! The internship is eating up your social life!” You chuckled.
Ned gasped, “oh my god, we should totally have a sleepover at Peter’s tonight! I can bring some comics and movies for us.”
You cheered, “Yes! That would be so fun!” You noticed Peter looked a little awkward from the conversation. “Unless, you just don’t want to hang out, which is totally okay! Ned and I could always ju-”
“No!” Peter yelled.
He looked around the cafeteria, embarrassed. He cleared his throat. “I-I mean, no, I do want to hang out with you guys tonight. I think I should be getting back around ten, so you guys can come to my place.”
Ned gasped, “Peter, you work that late and you’re not even getting paid?”
He chuckled nervously, “well, yeah. I just really like working for Mr. Stark, so I don’t mind it.” Peter wiggled around awkwardly, almost like he didn’t know what to do with himself.
Peter’s hand rested on his leg, and you placed yours on top of his. He looked up at you, eyes wide and lips slightly parted. 
You gave his hand a squeeze. “Peter, you’re my best friend. I can see how you’re acting right now. If you don’t want to hang out tonight, that’s totally understandable. We get how important this is to you, and we wouldn’t want to get in the way of your opportunity.”
Peter’s face softened into one with a smile. He squeezed your hand back, “thanks (Y/N), that means a lot. I do want to hang out with you guys, though. We’re going to have a sleepover at my place tonight, and it’ll be fun. I promise.”
Peter cleared his throat, and stood up. “I’ll be right back, I’m just going to use the bathroom real quick.”
Once Peter left, Ned started to chuckle. 
You turned to him and smiled, “what’s so funny?”
“What’s funny is how obvious it is that you have a thing for Peter.”
You giggled, “come on Ned, no I don’t.”
Ned shook his head and grinned at you, “I know you do; I just know these things. The way the two of you look at each other is like you’re in some rom com.”
You groan, “okay fine, I do like Peter. And I’m only telling you this because your my best friend, not because I want you to tell him!”
Ned scoffed, “please, of course I’m not going to tell Peter. You should be the one to do it.”
You smiled and lightly pushed his shoulder with your own. “Thanks, Ned. Also, don’t make anything awkward now that you know, okay? Peter will definitely know something is up.”
Ned made an ‘x’ over his chest. “Cross my heart!”
You look away from Ned just in time to see Peter walking back into the cafeteria. He takes his seat next to you and gives you a smile.
“Oh Peter!” Ned said, “I forgot that I have plans tonight already. My mom wanted me to try out this new yoga video with her. She thinks it’ll be a nice way to relax and release tension.”
“Oh, that’s okay.” Peter nodded, “we can always hang out some other time.”
“Oh!” Ned gasped, “Well, (Y/N)’s still free tonight. The two of you can have that sleepover still. I’ll lend you my comics.”
“Yeah! That-that sounds cool.” Peter looked at you and smiled, “I’m down if you are.”
You grinned, “Totally! I’ll never turn down the chance to hang out with you.”
Peter blushed at that. 
You smiled at Ned, “Sorry you can’t come! We’ll miss you tonight.” You winked.
Ned chuckled a little, “It’s okay, there’s always next time.”
The bell that signaled lunch was over rang. The three of you stood up.
“Okay, well I’ll talk to you guys later!” You smiled. “See you tonight, Peter.”
He shyly smiled, “yeah, see you tonight.”
✰  ✰  ✰
“I think I’m going to do it tonight.”
School had finished without any excitement other than yours for tonight. You had already eaten dinner, and as the time drew closer to ten, you grew anxious.
You were dramatically sprawled out on your bed, with your phone on FaceTime with Ned. 
His eyes got wide, “Oh. My. God. You’re crazy.”
You quickly sat up, worried now. “Is that actually crazy? Cause I don’t have to; I mean, it might make things weird.”
Ned chuckled. “No, I meant like, crazy as in you’re a bad-ass. I think tonight is the perfect opportunity to tell Peter you like him; and I’m not just saying that because I gave up spending time with you guys so this could happen.”
You rolled your eyes and stood up, walking over to your closet. “I think I’m just going to wear some sweatpants and a comfy top since it’s supposed to be a sleepover. Or do you think I should wear something nicer since I’m going to be telling him I like him?”
Ned shakes his head. “Definitely the sweatpants. If he doesn’t like you in your comfy look, he doesn’t deserve you in your dazzling look.”
You giggled, “you’re right, thanks Ned.”
“I’m here to help. Let me know how things go between you two. I think things will work out like you want.”
You smiled, “I’ll call you tomorrow! Bye, Ned.”
“See ya.”
You hung up the phone, and put your comfortable clothes on. Your bag was already packed with your overnight gear all ready to go.
You picked it up, and slung the bag over your shoulder.
“Mom, dad! I’m headed out to Peter’s now, love you!”
You parents said their goodbye’s, and you were on your way to Peter’s.
The trip was very short; Peter and you lived only a short distance from one another.
Once you were at his front door, you knocked and were greeted by his Aunt May.
“(Y/N)! Oh my gosh, it’s been too long since you’ve been over!” She grinned, pulling you into a tight hug.
Since you and Peter were always so close, May thought of you as a daughter.
“Hi May! It’s great to see you again. Is Peter back from his internship yet? I know I’m a few minutes early.”
She ushered you inside and shut the door. “No, I don’t think Peter’s back yet. I just got out of the shower so he may have snuck in while I was in there. You can wait in his room if you’d like, Peter won’t mind.”
You smiled, “Okay, thank you May.”
You started to walk down the hall into Peter’s room before May stopped you.”Oh, and (Y/N)?”
You turned around, “yeah?”
May softly smiled at you, “don’t be nervous, dear. I’m sure things will work out.”
You lightly laughed, “how did you know?”
She just shrugged with a playful smile.
You grinned, “I’ll try my best, May. Wish me luck!”
You turned back, and headed for Peter’s room.
In your mind, you were trying to plan out exactly what you were going to say to him, and when. You were thinking about waiting a little bit before dumping all of your emotions onto him. Or you’d do it as soon as you saw him just to get it off your chest once and for all.
As you pushed Peter’s bedroom door open, you saw something you never thought you’d witness. Peter was standing, back towards you in the Spider-Man suit. 
When he heard his door creak open, Peter rapidly spun around. His eyes were wide, and his mouth agape. He looked scared and extremely caught off guard that you had just seen him in his outfit.
“Oh, my god.” Is all you could manage.
You stared at Peter with the widest eyes he’d ever seen. Your mouth gobbled open and shut like a fish out of water; you couldn’t find any words to say to him.
He rushed over and pulled you into his room, frantically shutting the door behind you.
“(Y/N)! I didn’t expect you to be here so early.” Peter’s heart was racing. “It’s not what it looks like, I promise.”
You lightly shook your head, “I think it’s exactly what it looks like.” 
You walked around him in a circle like a vulture stalking its prey. “You’re Spider-Man, aren’t you?”
Peter’s mouth opened, then shut as soon as it did, trying to come up with a response to you. When he couldn’t think of anything, he sighed. “Yeah, I’m Spider-Man.”
You gasped. Peter honestly could have told you he was just playing dress up as Spider-Man and you would have believed him, but here he is admitting to being the superhero that had been around the city.
“That is so crazy, Peter!” You grinned. “Oh, my god, I’m friends with Spider-Man!” 
Your face fell, “oh, my god, I’m friends with Spider-Man.” Oh, no. Why did Peter have to reveal himself as Spider-Man tonight of all nights! 
You were freaking out, now. You didn’t want Peter to think you only liked him now that you knew he was Spider-Man! You wanted him to know you liked him for himself, as Peter.
“(Y/N)? Are you alright? I know this can be a lot to take in, but I need you to listen to me.” His eyes were desperate as he tried to talk to you.
You nodded your head and gave him your full attention. “Yeah, I’m okay. Sorry, this just caught me off guard is all.”
He nodded his head, and placed a hand on your shoulder. “I’m sorry, I didn’t want to tell anyone, especially not like this.”
“So I’m the only one that knows?”
“Well, Mr. Stark knows cause he’s the one that gave me this upgraded suit, but yeah. You’re the only other one.”
“Oh, man. This is crazy.”
“You can’t tell anyone, (Y/N), please. If people find out, things will change for me, and I like my life how it is. I didn’t want to tell anyone because the more people that know, the more people there are that could be in danger.”
You nodded your head, and smiled at him, “Don’t worry, Pete, your secret is safe with me.”
Peter let out a relieved sigh, “I knew I could trust you. Sorry you had to find out this way, though.”
Peter presses a button on his chest that released his suit, leaving him in only his boxers.
You face heated up as you scanned you eyes over his toned chest. “Oh my god.” You quickly spun around to not face him once you realized what you were doing.”
Peter’s cheeks were hot as well. “Sorry, I wasn’t thinking when I did that.”
You heard some shuffling around as Peter got changed. 
“You can turn around now.”
You do, and see that Peter is in sweatpants and a sweatshirt with his suit hung up in his closet.
He sat on his bed, and motioned you to sit as well.
You do so, and play with your fingers a little bit, now uncertain if it’s a good time to tell him how you feel. 
“Hey,” Peter said as he grabbed you hand, stopping your nervous fiddling, “talk to me. I don’t know what’s going on in your head, and it’s freaking me out a little.” He nervously chuckled.
You gently smiled and started to mess with his fingers. “I think it’s really cool what you’re doing for the city. I think you’re really brave for all of this.”
Peter smiled at you, “yeah?”
“Yeah. I’m just worried that you could get hurt from this. You know I care about you, right?” You nervously added.
Peter nodded his head with a smile, “I know you care. I promise, I’m being careful out there, don’t worry.”
You lightly smiled, and looked down at your interlocked fingers.
“So, Ned told me something earlier.”
Your head quickly perked up at that. “Oh, did he?”
Peter rubbed the back of his neck, “yeah, he told me to make sure you tell me the thing you were going to tell me.” He sounded confused. “I don’t really know what he means by that, but he wanted me to make sure you don’t chicken out of it.”
You sighed. “Well, I was going to tell you something, but I don’t know if it’s the right time because of your whole... reveal.” 
“Oh, well I’ll still care about what you have to say. Just because you know I’m Spider-Man, doesn’t mean I’m not still Peter.”
You looked up at him and smiled. “Yeah, you’re still Peter.”
He chuckled, and you took in a breath, trying to calm yourself down.
“Well, I’ve been wanting to tell you this for a while now, and I didn’t really know when a good time would be since you’re always at your internship or we’re hanging out with Ned as well. Not that I don’t like hanging out with Ned! I do, it’s just-”
Peter cut off your rambling by grabbing your face and pressing his lips to yours. You were stunned, to say the least. Peter’s lips were soft and gentle against yours. He made no move to escalate things; it was like all he wanted to do was feel your lips against his.
You finally kissed him back, and brought one of your hands to the side of his face. You rubbed your thumb along his cheek as you kissed, loving the feeling of being so close to him.
When you couldn’t take anymore, you pulled back and took a breath of air. 
Looking at Peter like this was something you had only dreamed of. His lips were red and puffy from your kiss, and his eyes gleamed with excitement. You could only imagine how you looked.
“Was that what you were trying to tell me?” He cheekily remarked.
You giggled, “that was exactly what I was trying to tell you.” 
“Good,” he grinned, “because I really like you, (Y/N), I have for a while now.”
You let out a chuckle, “it’s a good thing I’ve liked you for some time as well.”
Peter bit his lip to try to stop himself from smiling so much. He grabbed your hand and laced your fingers together.
“So, does that mean you’d want to go out with me sometime?” Peter asked, hopefully.
You pretended to think for a minute, then giggled. “Yeah, I’d love to go out with you sometime, but right now I just want to spend our night together like we planned.”
You leaned in closer to Peter, gently pulling him in by the collar of his shirt. 
“I like the sound of that.” Peter gently said, right before you placed your lips on his. 
You have so much to tell Ned tomorrow.
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angelsdevils · 3 years ago
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Spiderweb: Chapter 4 - Your Answer
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After you got home, you invited Yamazaki over again, which he gladly agreed to. He didn't mention anything about you being a manager, not wanting to overwhelm you. You were thankful for him being there and not saying anything, but something still plagued your mind. His feelings for you, you had never thought about him in such a light before now. Yamazaki wrapped an arm around you, but he felt you stiffen beside him. He turned his attention to you, and he could tell what you were thinking. He let out a small sigh which caught your attention.
"(N/N), what is wrong?"
"It's nothing...."
"Well, that is a load of BS. Is it becoming the manager? Or, is it that you know about my feelings? If it's the last option, ignore it. Okay? I don't want anything to be awkward between us, okay?"
"Zaki~I-"
"Shh..." He placed his finger to your lips with a soft smile; it was almost contagious.
"Don't say anything, okay?"
"But, why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't want what we have going on to be ruined. I intended to confess, just when the time was right. When I knew your feelings more."
You couldn't help but look down, and he moved his fingers before tilting your head up to meet his eyes.
"Don't look like that (Y/N), don't look so sad."
"Okay, I will try."
He smiled and leaned in and pressed his lips to your forehead. You felt your cheeks heat up and smiled before going back to cuddling with him. He wrapped his arms around your waist and held you tightly to him.
"I came up with a decision," you suddenly said. He glanced down at you, and you looked up at him.
"Really?"
"I will become the manager."
"Really? What made you change your mind?"
"Multiple reasons, I can finally be part of a club. You want me to be the manager, and it's not often Hanamiya seeks out another person to help out. Plus, I feel like he won't accept no, even if I didn't want to."
"You aren't wrong there; he would probably corner you in a classroom again and make you say yes."
"Yeah, I don't want to be left alone with him again. He scares me a bit."
"You have me; I will protect you," he said. Yamazaki ran his hands through your hair, and you couldn't help but smile widely.
"I know; I think you are the only one I can trust right now. I don't know the others that well yet."
"I have a feeling they will make it their mission for you to get to know them more. They may even try to steal you away to hang out with them instead," he said. He felt a slight tinge of jealousy at the thought, and you noticed the tone change. You cupped his face and smiled softly.
"They can't, not by myself without you there. As I said before, they kinda scare me, so you are going to be with me the entire time except when you are on the court playing."
"I am good with that," he said. You smiled softly, and he pulled you close to his chest. You were glad that nothing changed between the two of you and that he was a patient person for the most part.
Yamazaki buried his face into your hair, and he couldn't help but sigh softly. This was one of his favorite things he enjoyed doing with you. He glanced down at you and noticed that your eyes were closed. He could tell that you were slowly falling asleep, so he covered the both of you up. He made sure not to move around too much, so you wouldn't wake up.
Once Yamazaki made sure you both were comfortable, he stroked your hair slightly. He glanced at his phone when it lit up and slowly grabbed it. He read the group messages and smirked softly to himself. He took a cute photo of you sleeping innocently and him hugging you.
To: The group From: Yamazaki "Jealous?"
After sending the messages, he turned his notifications off, knowing the group chat was about to blow up. He closed his eyes and slowly began to fall asleep himself.
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haik-choo · 4 years ago
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how the haikyuu boys confess to you (on valentines day)
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tsukishima:
For once, Tsukishima cares. He cares about your reaction, your words, your expression, your feelings (about him) -- just this once. It’s because of he pressure of your actions weighing down on his heart like an elephant on an orange that he plans. He made sure he got your favorite flowers, he has the specific type of desert that you like, he’s wearing the shirt he got when he thrifted with you for the first time -- the one that you said “makes him look really hot”-- and he’s at your door. He almost laughs at his reflection in windows of the shops he passed coming here, how pathetically in love he is, how hopelessly enraptured he is by you, a dork who bought him a mug with your face printed on it (”so you can see me every morning in college when you’re grumpy and won’t admit you miss me”). He rings the doorbell and knocks softly, hesitant, at the door. He hears a response come from inside the house and rapid foot steps approaching: He looks up while he’s waiting, pondering about if he’s really going to do this. He could always throw the bouquet of fragrant flowers and sweets down the railing and pretend he was bored and wanted to hang out; but when you fling open the door in your heart-pajamas, hair frizzy and sticking out everywhere, your face slack in shock at what he’s carrying, cheeks aflame and eyes glassy with a sheen of hope.... he decides it maybe isn’t such a bad idea to be so stupidly in love that he bought a bouquet the size of an elephants head.
“Do you wanna be my valentine, dumbass? If you say no this’ll be really fucking awkward. Please say yes.” 
atsumu:
He never planned on saying it. Hell, he never even wanted to hang out with you on valentines, afraid that the words he kept hidden within the trenches of his heart would surface, bubbling and tumbling clumsily out of his mouth. But your text at 9pm on february 14th ended with a little smiley face and he decided to throw his new year’s resolution of stopping hanging out with you everyday out the window. Your smile was too addicting. He knew what he was getting himself into: it was late at night and you were both laughing down the empty streets, the moon hidden and instead a sky freckled with stars hung above. It was too perfect. You were too perfect. All it took was a dumb joke (on his behalf) and your dumb, squawk-like laughter to cause his heart to freeze. He’d never experienced this feeling before, the feeling of his eyes catching onto one image, the image of your face contorted with happiness, his whole body stopping, arms loose by his side, pupils dilated so wide. The words never would have left his lips had he not been drunk on your laugh, for his sober conscious was much too afraid of the possibility of rejection, the fear that your eyes would flit uncomfortably to the side with stuttered words of a pathetic-apology filling the air, his ears, and his heart. But god, his stupid one-track-mind brain couldn’t stop his mouth from moving. He was too far gone, lost in you, that his stupid mouth just couldn’t keep still. 
“I love you, so much.”
sakusa: 
The countertops are littered with bowls of icing and leftover batter, to which sakusa scrunches his nose at. He forces you to clean them, and “clean them properly” while he finishes preparing the cookies to go into the oven. Sakusa feels content despite your loud voice and strange taste in music: for a long while he wondered why your presence both simultaneously calmed him down while sending his heart into a frenzy, but now he knows it’s because he’s caught in the web your love. He doesn’t really mind, honestly, in fact, it makes his heart warm and full. The amount of time he spends with you is shocking, and he does things with you that he does with no one else -- he thought his feelings were more than obvious. But when you glance at his cookie-shaping from your spot at the sink and laugh, saying “Sakusa! you’re really good at baking! your future lover is gonna be so happy” Sakusa can’t help but let his movements stop and eyes stare at you in disbelief. He doesn’t even bother to verbally reply, instead opting to reach over and flick your forehead and go back to putting the cookies in the oven. Your whine doesn’t go unnoticed (”what was that for?!”) but it goes unanswered. After the dishes are washed, and the cookies are living their last few moments in warmth, you and Sakusa lean against the counter, staring at the timer tick closer to 0:00. Out of the blue, your voice softly finds its way to his ears, “I’m so happy. I know you’re picky at who you let into your apartment -- i still don’t know why you let me in -- but, really, I’m so happy. Thanks for tolerating me!” Sakusa just stares. At your face, the curve of your eyelashes, the batter in your hair, the sad smile playing your lips -- and the words flow out effortlessly. Your head whips over to him, and he laughs. “You’re so hopeless, you know that?” and with that, the timer beeps.
“You know it’s you I’m in love with, right? Why else would I let you make a mess in my kitchen?”
sugawara:
He had made up his mind. It was a week before the day of love, and Sugawara had made up his mind. No longer could he pretend that what he was feeling was just friendship, no longer could he hide how he truly, genuinely felt. It makes him laugh, thinking about how he thought he could ignore his feelings and that ,miraculously, one day, they’d disappear into thin air. But now he’s at the rooftop on the school, a pink letter gripped tightly by his clammy hands, and he’s ready. Ready for your rejection, for your acceptance, for your tears, for anything. When he made up his mind a week ago about confessing, he’d also accepted all the possible outcomes. If loving you -- and telling you that he loved you -- meant that everything you two had would crumble right before his very eyes, then so be it. He couldn’t hold his heart back anymore. Every second of every minute of every hour of every day he spent wishing that you were his, and he was yours. Love was messy. Love could hurt. But the worst outcome of love is when you keep silent. Plus, if you shared his feelings, then he might just be the happiest man alive. So, when the heavy metal door of the rooftop opens, exposing your confused expression, and when the wind suddenly starts back up, flipping your hair all around like a dramatic scene from a romance film, Sugawara has his mind made up. Determinedly, swiftly, he stands up. His eyes are glazed with passion and confidence. Calmly, he sticks his hand out, the pink letter with drawn-on hearts and cursive handwriting filling the envelope. When you gently take the letter from him, realizing what this all means, and look back up at him, face flushed, his mouth opens. Sugawara had made up his mind.
“I can’t hide it anymore. I'm so in love with you, I think my heart might explode -- will you accept my feelings?” 
bokuto: 
Bokuto won’t lie -- it took him a while to understand what he was feeling was not normal. ‘Normal’ for friends is spending time together, laughing together, going over to one another’s house and drinking until late. It’s hugging each other sometimes (or a lot, if you’re Kuroo), it’s hoping you always have them by your side. But what he feels for you? it took Akaashi smacking him upside the head and explaining to him what his feelings meant for Bokuto to realize. What he felt for you, was not friendship. He wanted to wake up next to you, he wanted to be the only one who you went out on ‘friend-dates’ with, he wanted to feel your lips on his shoulder, cheeks, lips. He wanted to see you at the other end of an aisle someday, but he didn’t want to be the guest at the wedding. He wanted to protect you, even though you didn’t need protecting; he wanted to hold you, to  indulge in your warmth, to be the only one you held in his arms. He wanted to be buried next to you. “You’re in love with her, you dense idiot. God -- that’s not normal. I mean, do you want to kiss my cheek, be buried next to me?” Akaashi sighed out, Bokuto shook his head, no. “But you want to kiss them? Watch them grow old?” Bokuto shook his head, yes, but slowly. “Well, there’s your answer. Bokuto, you love them.” And that’s when everything clicked. That’s when the lightbulb flickered on, when his eyes widened. God, how dumb was he? And he’s letting you spend Valentine’s day alone? Without thinking, his hand reached for his phone, tapped on your contact (you were on speed-dial), and waited for your voice to ring through the speaker. “Yeah, what’s up, Ko?” He blurted out his words, almost insensitively, not realizing their true weight. The truth made his body feel light, and he couldn’t stop the bubbles of laughter that erupted from his throat -- he felt so stupid. How could he not have figured it out sooner? He didn’t even wait for your response before he started talking again (Akaashi nearly slammed his head on the table), which caused a small smile to break out on your face. Bokuto was so, so stupid. 
“I just realized i love you. Like, really, really, love you. Hold up -- is there a place we can meet up so I can tell you this face-to-face? Wait, where are you? I’ll meet you there! Oh, happy Valentine’s day, by the way!” 
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bakubub · 3 years ago
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In which Racer!Kuroo is your roommate and you finally learn more about him...
Warnings: Mentions of loss of loved one, disregard for own life, swearing, innuendos and implied nsfw (but sfw overall), fem!reader with she/her pronouns.
A/N: Idek what this is. Its literally a 4.6 k mixture of fluff, angst and comfort... I rewrote this like 4 times :,) being a perfectionist is so,,, tiring.
This takes part shortly after this, you can definitely read this without reading the 'part 1' if you will, since they don't depend on one another.
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Art belongs to @aikk00 ,, and yes I am still in love with it :D
I stumble out of the lecture hall, my eyes so heavy I bump into about 3 other students and mumble my apologies until I fully wake up and snap out of my daze.
Walking down the stairs and making my way to the bus stop, I watch in horror as the bus I was supposed to be in drives off, going fast for once in its damn life as if mocking me.
Inhaling sharply through my nose, I manage to keep my composure and sit down at the bus stop, telling myself the next bus will be here in a bit.
It's fine. It's fine. I slept through the lecture, and I still have to catch up on 4 subjects and make dinner, but at least the house is clean and I'm caught up in that one subject I picked up for this exact reason.
It's fine. It's going to be just fi-
The rumble of a loud engine breaks my shitty but somewhat effective self-reassurance motto and I open my eyes to see a black and red sports car going 60 km/h in a 30 zone, effectively getting mine and everyone else's attention.
I watched in horror for the second time today as this time it stopped right in front of the bus stop. No, no, no, no.
No.
Please no.
He rolls down the passenger window with that ridiculous hair and a shit-eating grin, as he nods towards the seat, revving his engine.
I look away, pretending he's not looking directly at me and that I don't live with the guy, which I immediately regretted when he beeped the fucking horn.
What did I do to deserve this humiliation?
I hastily put my head down as he beeped it again, giving up and rushing towards his insufferable car, getting into the passenger seat and slumping in my seat to keep my head down low.
"What is wrong with you? What are you even doing here?" I hiss, my glaring up at him from my awkward, folded position.
He laughs, and when I hear the sound of a photo being taken in the split second I looked away to readjust my bag, I sit up straight, watching him continue speeding as he stuffs his phone into his pocket.
"Are. You. Trying. To. Kill. Me?!" I ask, my voice little less than a screech as I slap his arm with each word.
"Ow, ow, I just came to pick my roomie up! I sensed you needed a ride, and this is the thanks I get?" he asks, that smirk I have come to hate returning to grace his features.
I glare at him, but a small, sleep-deprived part of my brain is distracted by his appearance. A tight black tee adorning his built figure, his biceps are on display as he drives with one hand, the other resting on the gear shift. The air from his rolled down window is ruffling his hair this way and that, and I find myself wanting to run my hands through the raven strands, just as I had when I washed his hair that one time...
"Wait- how the fuck did you know I didn't have a ride?" I ask incredulously, my reaction time clearly delayed but here nonetheless.
I narrow my eyes as he hesitates before he answers, "I just knew, ok? It's not like it’s astrodynamics, not that I can't figure that out too."
"Kuroo, what the hell is astrodynamics? Are you like, spying on me or something?" I ask, pretending to look out the window so as to not get distracted by his appearance once more.
"What do you common folk call it? Rocket science?" He says, once again exceeding the speed limit.
"If I'm a commoner, does that make you a peasant? Also, stop going so fast, I feel sick and I do not feel like dying today."
He rolls his eyes in response as he slows down by a smidgen, the speed meter barely even moving. "Seriously, you may have no consideration for yourself, but I still have a lot of things to achieve with my damn life so slow the fuck down." My words finally reach the rational part in him and he slows down considerably, now going within the speed limit.
Taking a deep breath, I rest my elbow on my door and look out the window, my mind flooding with thoughts about Kuroo's reckless driving and how it can all go sour with one delayed reaction.
Before I know it, we're rolling up to our apartment building, driving into his private garage only the penthouse owners get to use.
"I'm sorry," he mutters, filling the silence in the car.
"It's ok. I just... I want you to be safe. I know its hard, but... just try," I say quietly, unable to look at him.
"That's what he said," he says hastily before rushing out of the car before I can hit him.
Getting out of the vehicle myself, I send a murderous look his way and run after his retreating form.
A small part of me is grateful that he's acting like his usual unbearable self again, but the rest of me is just mad at his relentless sex jokes.
He hits the elevator button before I can get there and I watch the doors close, his smirk practically shining through the crack of the closing doors. I jam my foot in the middle at the last possible second, and smile victoriously as I get into the metal box and slap his arm once again.
"Ooh, do it harder," he practically moans, and my eyes just about pop out of their sockets in embarrassment as my face flushes a deep red.
"Oh shut up," I mutter, turning around and waiting patiently for the doors to open on the top floor. I hear him snicker and then the sound of a photo being taken, turning around sharply. I yell in defiance and throw my bag on the floor as I jump onto him in an attempt to grab his phone out of his hand and delete the probably unflattering photo.
I straddle his back and reach for the phone he easily holds out of my reach. Leaning across his shoulder in a feeble attempt to reach it, my feet are hooked around his chest and my other hand is using his shoulder as a brace. He's laughing hard at this point, and I'm screaming at him to give me the damn phone. Neither of us notice the elevator doors opening nor the small woman standing at the threshold staring at us in shock and amusement.
"Kuroo Tetsuro! You let that poor girl down this instant, young man!"
We both froze at the authoritative voice, slowly turning to look at a small dark haired woman with a straight shoulder length cut and narrow gold eyes that were glaring at the man under me.
"MUM!" He exclaims, setting me down and running to hug and kiss the woman, his mum apparently. "What are you doing here?" I hear him ask as I straighten myself out, fixing my jumper and tucking my hair behind my ears, picking up my bag off the floor and quickly following them out of the elevator.
"What, a mother needs an excuse to come visit her boys? Where's Kenma?" She asks, looking in the elevator again as if to check if she missed him.
"Oh, he's at his own place. Apparently he has a booked in session with this famous gamer today. Did he say he'd be here?" Kuroo asks, letting go of the woman and leaning on the wall.
"No, I didn't tell anyone I was coming to visit. Never mind that, who's this pretty young lady here, hmm?" She asks, raising a perfectly shaped brow as she walks towards me, the click of her heels echoing in the lobby of the penthouse.
I smiled down at her, since she was considerably shorter than even me, and introduced myself. "It's very nice to meet you, Mrs. Kuroo." I say, bowing.
"Oh no, no, none of that. You can call me mum too, hmm?" She says, gesturing me up from my bow and pulling me down for a tight hug.
"Oh, um, actually, me and Kuroo aren't-"
"We’ll talk more comfortably inside, no? Tetsuro, is your plan to let me stand here all day?” She asks, letting me go and turning around to look at Kuroo.
Kuroo leaps into action, taking his mum's bag and unlocking the door, helping her out of her heels and leading her into the spotless penthouse.
It was all I could do to nod in response, closing the door behind us and walking down into the kitchen to prepare a meal.
It’s crazy how much I don’t know about this guy. He’d never mentioned his mother before, and briefly mentioned that he has a sister, whether older or younger I have no idea. Kenma, however, I know well. The guy was here all the time when I first started living here, but recently I've seen him less and less. Which is a shame, considering we actually got along quite well, with sharing eye rolls and bonding over our mutual love of Minecraft.
I don't notice silent footsteps following me until Kuroo's Mother says "now, why's a beautiful girl like yourself slaving away in the kitchen? Does that boy make u do all the cooking and cleaning like some mid-century housewife?"
I poke my head out of the fridge, smiling at her fair assumptions, "no, no, it's not like that at all. I actually-"
"Uh, mum! You know I'm incompetent with this stuff. This place would be a mess if she wasn't here to run things! Plus, she loves to cook and finds cleaning therapeutic. Hey, her words not mine," Kuroo quickly jumps in, putting his hands up defensively when she looks at him with a raised brow.
Looks like he doesn't want his mother to know of our little arrangement.
"Right. He's just so hopeless, I can't trust him to do anything," I add on, sending her a smile as I prepare the fish he likes.
"You're making grilled mackerel for dinner?! Oh that's gonna hit the fu- the fun spot," he says, saving himself at the last second.
I hold back a snort as I take out a pan, "open the window, fish boy. It's about to stink here and I can't be bothered with Mrs. Suzuki coming all the way upstairs just to complain about the fish smell, and then complaining that she had to come up here in the first place. God, I hope she isn't sitting on the balcony today," I ramble, trying to see her balcony from outside the window, but fail because of the private location.
Damn these amazing architects.
I hear his mum chuckle at my rambling as she begins to take out ingredients for a salad. "Oh, you don't have to help, please sit and make yourself comfortable," I say, moving towards her to take the lettuce out of her hands.
"No, no, I'd like to pitch in. Now what kind of mother-in-law would I be to let you do everything yourself?" She asks, holding the lettuce away from me and walking over to the sink.
I stare at the back of her head, a flush creeping up my neck, "m-mother-in-law?!" I ask incredulously, glancing over at Kuroo who looked suspiciously... Smug. I look away quickly when he meets my eyes, and I hastily hyper-focus on the fish in front of me, placing it on the heated pan, causing sizzling and popping to fill the awkward silence.
"I'm sorry darling, I don't mean to be overbearing. Tetsuro introduced you as his girlfriend, so I thought things were getting serious since he actually allowed us to meet one another. You see, he’s never introduced me to a girl before, so you can imagine my excitement. I can stop if you're uncomfortable-"
I cut her off, feeling even more embarrassed as I realise the role I am to play in Kuroo's life when his mother is around. I mean, it makes sense, he can't exactly just admit he took a random girl into his house.
"I, um, no really it's fine, I understand" I say, my voice small as I flip the fish.
She lets out a delighted laugh and pulls me down into a hug once more. The smile on my face is genuine as my embarrassment melts away, the bright smile of this woman comforting me.
"So, how did you guys meet?" She asks, chopping up the ingredients for her salad on the bench while I'm at the stove, Kuroo leaning on his elbows on the bench.
"At uni," I answer at the same time as Kuroo states, "at a party."
We both look at each other with wide eyes, and I clear my throat to clarify, "at a uni party. A classmate of ours hosted one and we met each other there."
"I see, so the old boozed up one night stand turned into quite a domestic relationship hmm?" she suggests, wiggling her eyebrows at Kuroo.
"What? No, no, I would never! A one night stand? Booze? Please, what kind of man do you take me for?" Kuroo complains, looking offended.
I turn around towards the stove and roll my eyes. I've heard the rumours around campus, practically every girl in my lecture hall can testify to at least making out with the man. He really puts up a façade for his mum.
I hear the doorbell ring, and quickly take the fish off the stove to go answer it as Kuroo bickers with his mother about how innocent he really is.
"Hello? Who is it?" I ask, pressing the buzzer.
"Uh, hello? Is this Tetsu's place?" A deep voice answers. I look at the camera, seeing Kenma and a bunch of men about Kuroo's age looking confused. The one who answered is a guy with a blond mohawk and piercings adorning both ears.
"Yes, just give me a second," I reply. "Kuroo, I think Kenma and the rest of your friends are here? Should I let 'em up?" I shout out.
"Yeah let 'em in," he calls back. I press another button, letting them into the lobby.
I need to make more food.
Quickly taking out my frozen dumplings I stocked up for emergency dinners for days I couldn't be bothered to make anything better, I whip up a quick sauce, thinking I could split the fish and put it in the middle of the table so everyone can take their share.
"I do apologise darling, I let my Kenma know that I came to visit and he must have told the boys. I think they've all come to see me," Kuroo's mum confesses.
"You must be a very loved woman if they came all this way to see you. And it's no worries really, I'm always prepared for guests," I say, putting her at ease.
She beams at me as the door is banged loudly.
Kuroo mutters something about “rude assholes'' as he goes to open the door, a group of tall men making their way through the threshold.
"Hiya cap'ain," the mohawk guy says, patting Kuroo on the back. A tall, light brown haired man was next to greet him, then proceeded to exclaim "MUMMA KOZUME!!" and practically jumped onto the poor woman.
Wait, did he just say Kozume? Isn't Kenma's surname Kozume?
"Hey mum," Kenma greets, kneeling down to hug Kuroo's mum.
Who's mum is this lady?! I swear to god I'm going to go crazy.
"Hello hello everyone," A massive grey haired guy says, kissing Kuroo's mum on the cheek and hugging Kuroo.
The last guy to greet them is a tan guy with a buzz cut, and he does the same as his friend before.
"So Kuroo, when di'ja get yourself a girl, huh?" The grey haired guy asks, looking offended that he didn't know before now.
I raise my eyebrows as Kuroo just smiles guiltily. He introduces me to his friends and I wave hello, as they all begin to introduce themselves.
The grey haired guy says his name is Lev and that he's half Russian. A weird detail to include but interesting I guess.
The light brown haired man introduces himself as Yaku, and says that he was Kuroo's senpai back in high school.
"Yeah a demon senpai," Kuroo mutters in reply. My smile quickly turns into a grimace as Yaku jumps on him and they both start brawling on the floor, making a loud ruckus. A loud thumping can be heard from downstairs as Mrs. Suzuki starts to lose her mind and continues to bang the handle of her broom to her ceiling.
"Ugh, you morons upset Mrs. Suzuki! She's going to talk my ear off next time I see her..." I complain, grabbing a cushion and throwing it at the boys.
They flinch at my anger and quickly get up, muttering a quick apology. My glare softens as mohawk introduces himself as Yamamoto, and the tan guy says his name is Kai whilst vigorously shaking my hand.
"It's very nice meeting all of you. Dinner will be ready in a bit so please just make yourselves comfortable," I announce, making my way back into the kitchen.
The boys, all sporting grins, make their way to the living room and sit on the couches, man-spreading and slouching all over the place, one person taking up the usual spot for two.
I sigh, focusing on the dumplings in front of me.
I stiffen as I feel large hands on my waist, and a presence behind me. Visibly relaxing once I realise it's Kuroo, I turn around, his hands still resting on my hips, and his face nestled in the crook of my neck.
"Please just go along with it. We have to act like a couple if they're going to believe us," he mutters, his hot breath causing shivers to run up my spine.
I simply nod, instinctively placing my arms around his neck and running my fingers through his hair, something I've wanted to do since that day.
He groans into my neck, and I find myself holding my breath as I continue my hand movements.
"OI LOVEBIRDS! MUM SAYS THE DUMPLINGS ARE GONNA FUCKIN' STICK! Ow! Oh, sorry," I snatched my hands back from Kuroo, pushing his chest, my cheeks flushing in embarrassment.
What the fuck am I doing?!
I turn around back to the stove, mixing the dumplings in the boiling water as my thoughts race.
That felt too real, too much like a real relationship.
And way too addicting, apparently, since I already miss his close proximity.
The warmth on my waist disappears as I hear Kuroo running back into the living room.
"SHUT UP YOU MORON, THE DUMPLINGS ARE FINE!" I hear him scream, and then a loud thud as he presumably tackles whoever yelled at us to the ground.
I sigh as I hear Mrs. Suzuki's muffled thuds from downstairs in record time.
"You know I'm going to have to make Mrs. Suzuki some kind of apology cake because you boys can't sit down and act like adults," I complained, my arms crossed and an unimpressed expression on my face.
Lev and Yamamoto are on the floor playing some kind of Connect 4 game I've never seen before, while Kai looks to be having a deep conversation with Kuroo's mum, who is perched on the single arm chair like the queen she is.
Kenma is hogging the tv playing some kind of video game on Kuroo's ps5 (which I've hogged on more than one occasion), and Kuroo on the other hand has Yaku in a headlock.
He immediately lets go and apologises, and so does Yaku, who even bows in his regret.
I roll my eyes and shake my head at his mum, who just laughs, and I make my way back into the kitchen, setting food on the table and calling them in to eat.
After dinner, I find myself showered in compliments and not a bite of dinner leftover for tomorrow's lunch. Damn I'm good.
I served up cake I had already prepared from earlier along with fruits I washed and set on plates, and watched as that was eaten and finished before I even sat down. Kuroo's mum scolded the boys for poor manners, and they all apologised. Well, all except Kuroo, who just wiggled his pierced brows and winked at me.
I sit down on the floor next to the couch, since it was all occupied, and hear a dissatisfied sound coming from Kuroo's mum.
"Now, now, sweetheart. You don't have to be shy around me, just go on and take your usual seat next to Tetsuro," she says, nudging her head in Kuroo's direction, where the only vacant spot was literally his lap.
I look at her with wide eyes, even Kuroo seems taken aback by her suggestion, and all the boys are immaturely ‘oohing’ loudly as they laugh and make fun of us.
Kuroo makes a gesture for me to come next to him, so I hold back my heavy sigh, try my best to hide the flush on my face, and walk towards him, awkwardly perching on his knee.
He chuckles as he grabs my waist and pulls me flush towards his chest, my butt in the corner of the couch and my legs resting diagonally over his, so that my head is directly in the crook of his neck.
I hate to say it, but this is actually really damn comfortable.
Conversation has started up again, but it becomes secondary to the beat of his heart right under my ear, and my eyes start to get heavy as his scent and warmth lull me to a comfort that is beyond being awake and alert.
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Kuroo's POV
"What a cute girl she is, Tetsu. I'm so glad you've found her. And now that you've got her, you better. Not. Let. Go." She says, slapping me on the arm with each word of her last sentence.
What is it with women and slapping me?
"Ok, ok, I know mum, I won't stuff this up. I promise," I respond, smiling at her.
"Ok, well, I'm staying over at Kenma's house. Ah, no objections. You've already got your hands full, and I don't want to be in the way of young love. Plus, I'd rather listen to Kenma's midnight streams than you two in the middle of the night," she says, not accepting my objections and giving me a knowing look. My face warms to what she's insinuating, and I mutter a quick, "it's not like that," as I duck my head into Y/n's shoulder.
By this time the boys have all left, Kenma's downstairs waiting in his car for his mum to come, but she insisted on staying back for a few minutes to talk to me.
Y/n fell asleep a while ago now, still nestled on my lap, her head on my shoulder and her figure keeping me warm.
"I know exactly how it is, my darling. I've seen how you two act, pretending to be in a relationship just so we don't ask any uncomfortable questions. I won't meddle in your life, I never did, Tetsuro. But I will give you advice I expect you to consider. Don't let her go. Neither of you were pretending about your feelings towards each other, let me tell you that much." She says, knowingly looking at me.
I look up in alarm, which quickly morphs into a nervous laugh. She's good, I'll give her that much.
But, can Y/n really mirror my feelings?
"Ok darling, better not leave Kenma waiting any longer. I'll visit again tomorrow, or you can come over to Kenma's, whichever you prefer as long as she comes along too. I want to get to know my future daughter-in-law better!!"
With that, the woman who took me in and treated me like her own left my home.
I look down at my roommate, taking in the way her lashes are long enough to brush against her face, the way her brows are just a tad bit asymmetrical, the stroke of her nose and the bend of her cupid's bow.
I can't help but bring my hand up to caress the side of her face, content to stay here forever.
Mum would've loved her.
This thought broke the dam that held back my tears since middle school, and as they fell down my face I couldn't help but think of my own mother, coming in and hugging her, making her famous pie that I can't remember the taste of anymore. A sob racks my figure and I all of a sudden find a pair of e/c eyes staring up at me, my tears having dampened some parts of her face.
Wordlessly, she straightens herself and wraps her arms around my neck, running her fingers through the back of my head, stroking down towards my nape and up again. I cry into her shoulder, tears that I've bottled up, emotions I've ignored because I've had my dad, my grandparents and the Kozume's. Later, I even had the team, and they all followed me to the racing gig, a place where I can express my emotions through the reckless driving that could claim my life any second. I should have been grateful. Instead, the pain of her absence never ceased.
I clutch the back of her sweatshirt as I cry and cry and cry, eventually tiring myself out and running out of tears.
With dry sobs still racking my body every few minutes, she finally leans back, cupping my face in her gentle hands.
"What's the matter, Kuroo?" She whispers, looking up at me with tears shining in her own eyes. "You can tell me anything, or you can say nothing at all. Either way, I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you," she says, touching her forehead to mine and closing her eyes. She stays here for a moment before moving to get up and drag me up too.
"Come on, let's get you into your pjs and into bed. It's getting late."
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Your POV
Now in his usual shorts and singlet, I drag him to his massive bed, opening the neatly made bed and gently sit him down.
His hazel eyes follow me as I go to close the curtains, his lashes still wet from the countless tears he shed, his body still hiccupping with dry sobs.
Once I've put his blankets around him, I go to leave, muttering a goodnight as I leave.
"Y/n," I hear before I close the door. I peek my head in, "please stay."
Without a pause to think about his request, and already in my own pyjamas, I go next to him and crawl into his open arm as if I've been doing it every night, snuggling into his shoulder once more and wrapping my arm around his chest.
After a few moments of silence, he begins to speak in a raspy tone, "she's not my real mum. She's Kenma's mum, and I've... I've called her mum since I was around 7," he takes a deep breath before continuing. "I moved in with my dad and grandparents next door to the Kozumes when I was 6. I was nervous and shy back then. You wouldn't even recognise me because of the 180 turn my personality's taken. Kenma was even more social than I was. He was my first friend, and when I got him into volleyball and we met Coach Nekomata. That man inspired me to be the man I am today, and was the main reason why I joined the volleyball team in high school, and made friends with the guys. He did what my mum should've, supported me and gave me the confidence to live my life," he says, his voice cracking with the last word. I hug him tighter, knowing not to say anything as of yet.
"I just wish... I wish she didn't go. I wish she could've met you, Y/n. She would've loved you even more than Kenma's mum does," he confesses with a chuckle, sniffling and turning towards me to look me in the eyes.
"She would've seen the way I was around you. The different man I become. You make me a better person, Y/n. I find myself wanting to be better for you. I could never thank you enough for that. Please, never leave. Just stay with me, and I'll always be here for you," he says, repeating the same words I said to him earlier.
I can't help the smile from taking over my features and I lean in to kiss his nose, his eyes, his cheeks and finally I press my lips against his, something I have been wanting to do for a very long time.
"I will, Kuroo Tetsuro. I'll always stay with you."
A/n: So, I don't actually know if his mum passed away or if she left them, so I kind of just,, did both ?
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