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anti-gravity-insanity · 5 years ago

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Hgggggg can’t go to sleep cause I’ve got anxiety about being sick, but if I don’t get enough sleep I probably won’t get better so that will make things worse :/

#me coughing (one) 1 time #oh crap guess i have pneumonia again #thats not how it works but u wont get better if u dont sleep but i cant sleep cause im scared imma die #health anxiety #gotta love that #plus i thought id be better before school statyed and tomorrow if im sick and need to be in school i will scream #but every minute i spend on my phone or anxious and not able to sleep is a minite off of sleep not recovering #ahdlandkankskaba bl fk #i hate health anxietu #and i hate that i know its irrational cause even when people tell me oh ur not going to die like that foesnt do anything to assuage my fears #like #and i hate that i know its itrational causepeopple are like oh ur not going to die #and im like i know im not going to die but im still Fear #i dont even know what would help my anxiety?#getting not sick anymore?#or like having a medixal professional tell me id be fine?#in this situation it owuld probably be having skmeone lisyen to my lungs to make sure i dont have pneumonia but like i know i dont have #that and it would be stupid to go to the health center just to assuage my anxiety #and i couldnt tell them that im there cause im anxious about being sick cause then they wouldnt take any actual sickness i have seripusly #i think having pneumonia as a sophomore really fucked me up in hindsight #it was the only time i was like Really sick as a kid/teen and at the time i was too tired to be anxipis #bit looking back it made me a bit paranoid of how easily being sick can turn into being very sick #and like i had health anxiety before that but like when im sleeping in the same dorm room like a year and a bit later #and its the same cough post nasal drip thing #my brain whigs out against rationality and i get Anxiety #and then i cant tell what symptoms are anxiety ad what is just sickness #and now i cant sleep and maybe ill get pneumonia and die because i was making this tumblr post #insetad of getting better but like i cant sleep cause wjat if i die but what if i die cause i cant sleep #i will just scream #gravical

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