#pls don’t argue w me abt my headcanons they’re MINE and i do with them as i please

[beyondbitchboy]

Beyond Birthday HeadCanons I would like to post on the internet:

sourced directly from my notes app, here are some headcanons i think about a lot. to see them more fleshed out go read my fanfic on ao3!

- B’s mother was obsessed with him in a very unhealthy way because of his “gift” - she believed he was a demi-god and hoped to profit off of it somehow. She was the one to tell Beyond what the eyes are and how to calculate the numbers. Her relationship to shinigami is unclear but it appeared she spiraled into psychosis with talks of death gods, lifespans and her prophetic son.

- B’s real name is unknown. I’m torn about this one because of the HC i have about his mom; ofc she would call him Beyond Birthday, but canonically it’s also possible he had a different name, hence the line from LABB stating he made the name for himself (maybe i’ll edit this and add the quote later idk).

- B has always taken up appearances to please people; good son, good student, successor, L, best criminal, etc. He’s burdened by the fact that despite his efforts, he contradicts the thing he desires to be so badly. he embraces this to mock L during LABB, but after his arrest he has to take on the role of spiteful and dangerous criminal to protect his broken identity.

- B’s intentions are unclear, even to him. He doesn’t see a future with his bleak outlook on himself and hopes that kira offs him with a painless heart attack.

- Beyond secretly regrets the murders. He isn’t a violent person, but at the time it felt like the only way to achieve status as L’s equal.

- B was physically disabled after his arrest. While he refuses to use a cane (because he’s a prideful bastard) he has a terrible limp and struggles with mobility.

- Burn victims often have trouble with temperature regulation, circulation, immune system, etc. Beyond is on a hearty dose of blood thinners, antibiotics, etc. at all times.

- He notices that the prisoners serving their sentences with him share unusual lifespans that suggest a massacre, a pandemic or some other third thing. (This is the plot line for my fanfic lol)

- B has very complex feelings about L that range from best friend to worst enemy which culminates in their interactions being very black and white depending on how B is feeling.

- His romantic feelings toward L come from a place of idolization and fantasies about being admired by L. He rationalizes it as “taking his power back”.

- B has no idea what L is thinking and that scares him and excites him. His actions are at times predictable but B truly has no clue how L perceives him or thinks of him, and he doesn’t really want to know.

- B has intentionally only ever experienced love (friendship, partners) with people who are due to die soon because the end of the relationship is more predictable that way. He steers clear of getting too close to people who have full lives to live.