#pizza mindrambles

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Hi lovelies 🦋 I just wanted to update that I am working on something atm. its a long overdue milestone and I can see why because I’m going in circles with it lmfao. but I’m excited, it’s angsty, fluffy and heartbreaking for a friends to lovers fic with Mattheo but will have a happy ending 🤍 it’s not finished yet and I probably won’t post till after the holiday week, if you want me to tag you, let me know!

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It's more about "please engage with me so that I can experience your joy secondhand and foster a connection with you"

But just consider that the only reason you were able to enjoy a fic or fanart is because someone else shared it.

you have said this beautiful and so kindly! It’s really not about forcing people to engage but encouraging a community to grow within the fandom they love! I know for myself interacting with writers and fics is what got me to where I am today in this fandom!

Never would have started writing or meet some of my best friends if not for taking that sweet leap.

just nice to consider your reblog could make someone’s day as well as sharing a piece of content that could be the push to get someone to join a fandom or feel themselves seen in someone’s work! I love when I see something written I’ve dreamt a million times come to life 🤍

In conclusion also participate in @amiableness celebration to uplift and encourage kindness!!!

I think there's something that needs to be said about encouraging readers to leave feedback.

For me it's not about "tell me my writing is amazing and stroke my ego"

It's more about "please engage with me so that I can experience your joy secondhand and foster a connection with you"

I understand that not everyone wants this in their reading experience, some people are shy and a million other reasons why maybe someone wouldn't want to engage and that's perfectly fine!

But what I'm trying to steer away from is being a passive content creator with passive consumers. What I want to steer toward is fostering a community that is essential to fandom. I want to see your reactions because it makes me feel like I'm a part of something.

On encouraging reblogs —

I understand that not everyone is comfortable reblogging, especially explicit content. This is ok!

But just consider that the only reason you were able to enjoy a fic or fanart is because someone else shared it, and by not sharing it yourself you are potentially robbing someone else of the opportunity to enjoy it as much as you did.

As OPs our reach only goes so far and this website relies on reblogs in order for anything to truly get seen by a wider audience.

So that's really it! That's why I encourage these two things at the end of every story I post. Not because I'm trying to be demanding and "make people feel bad" if they don't do it.

I know most other social media sites encourage mindless content consumption and that's just the way of the world nowadays, but I am from a time when community was at the heart of fandom and I just don't want to lose that.

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because Mattheo and Patrick are one in the same!!!!

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just let me lay my head in his lap on a spring day while he strokes my hair and smokes a cigarette

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I just found this in my notes and I’m giggling lmfao sometimes my ideas are so random.. gn chat!! ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

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please please please let me get what I want November

please please please let me get what i want september

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Gentle lover - MR nsfw

I can’t stop thinking about gentle Mattheo. Who after a nightmare craves your love and attention, wanting not only to nestle into the comfort of your arms but your pussy. He wants nothing more than to be as close to you as possible. His heart swells when you agree knowing it will give him the distraction he needs; and you’d do anything to make him feel better. Even when it’s the middle of the night, you’re half asleep and aching from the orgasms he bought you early in the day, your willingness warms him.

Tender kisses, soft caresses he’s sure to be the gentlest of gentle with your tired body, restraining himself from fucking you into the abiss. He’s so grateful for you in times like these, when he needs you the most. The love and warmth he feels when he slides into you, body hovering over you. His eyes watching the way your eyes remain closed, small tired pants of breath exhaling. His lips brush against yours with a tenderness you’re not used to, releasing deep sighs from your throat.

The relief and clarity he feels from gently fucking into you, seeing the pleasure rise up in you, as your hold tightens. Louder whimpers leaving you as he nestles his forehead in the crook of your neck, lips kissing, marking your skin. “So good for me”….. “I just needed to feel you Angel”….. “so much better when I’m buried in you.” It’s a contrast from his usual manner, but it just makes you fall more in love, seeing the depth of his two sides. He’s quick to fall apart, continuing to be the sweetest of lovers as his hands grip your hips with a gentle touch.

And with a glowing heart he moves once again back into his fetal potion, arms encapsulating around you. Pulling you tightly towards his chest, he’s lulled back to sleep by your shallow breathing and warmth. The last thing you recall is being fed a sweet whisper of love and devotion. A man who loved you with everything that made him, deeply, truly and utterly.

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The feminine urge to be degraded by Mattheo, laying underneath him a desperate whiney, whimpering mess telling him you can’t take it anymore as tears threaten to spill, only to be meet with “you poor fucking thing” and a beautiful sadistic smirk plastered on his cocky face

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the song ideas I think of that are so complex and deep I wissh I could figure out how to write about 😭

every writer knows the pain of having an idea that’s “too good” to write because you know you can’t do it justice

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Mattheo seeking advice from Theo, venting with frustration, and always walks away feeling calmer and with all the answers without Theo even having to say a word.

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Merry Christmas lovelies!!!! - to those who celebrate and already a day ahead like moi, best believe that better be me later!! love and appreciate you all 🤍😭

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this SHOULD be us 💔

born to be a sitcom roommate duo forced to be tumblr mutuals

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Me at 11:50 pm: brainstorming dialogue as I’m about to fall asleep. I’ll remember it this time, I’m not moving to write it down. I’ll remember!

Me at 8 am: shit I forgot again

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where is the clone of me so that I can write 10 fics at once 🤔💭

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if your not calling your friends pookies what are you doing with your life 🤨

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I could really use that motivation rock thrown at me again ☹️