#pinkpain

[goldgaze]

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@pinkpain ( baek seju )

[redemptioninterlude]

@pinkpain - seju ( gets a new follower starter / new editor friendly ) !

After everything that's happened... she thinks going home isn't enough of an option. She's seen and experienced too many strange things not to think that a trip home is an option for her, a place she hasn't been since she fights with her father and runs off with her brother. When they think themselves FOREVER THE MASTERS of their own destiny, too young and foolish to think themselves as anything but capable. It escapes them, the fact that they might not know all the secrets of the world. Maybe being alone like this is exactly what she needs, casting herself out and telling herself that the island might be nice, the idle decisions made by someone who's heart has never settled.

The resort's the kind of place that sends someone to pick you up, and she's there with her things slung over her shoulder, her guitar the only thing of ACTUAL MEANING that she brings along with her. Checking into her room with that carelessness behind her, awkward as she trips on her own mother tongue, there's so much that she has to reacquaint herself with. But what needs no introduction is the bar, Marceline settling there with a slump of her shoulders, a finger twitching as she orders a drink - but there, too, is a woman with her gaze down-slant, the corners of her mouth pulling into a half smile. "Make it two, one for her, if you could."

- @pinkpain

[goldgaze]

a nod, followed by another slow drink of the sugary sweet liquid. sungji could appreciate the bluntness of the question, leaving no room for confusion. refreshing, even, after a long day of supposeds and possibilities with far too much room for all the unanswered questions left between the unread lines. although, perhaps a bit misdirected.

❛ the position was open. i applied. ❜  she returns the gaze without hesitation. simply, directly. without any of the fluff, pomp, or circumstance of any uneasy social interaction or convoluted business matter. as casually as discussing the weather. the second question feels a bit more personal, targeted. something sungji should have guessed, or did if she allowed herself to be honest with where she thought this conversation was going. what was it they say about people who assume?

a simple shake of the head. the conversation has ventured into territory that is inappropriate for the workplace, but seju is not only her boss, but someone who has been entangled in her life through her lover ex-lover. she deserved an answer as much as anyone. unfortunately, sungji didn't have them- sumin hadn't given her many for herself let alone anyone else. more questions than answers were left in her wake. 

❛  your guess is as good as mine. ❜  better, even. baek seju and sung sumin shared something sungji could never truly understand: history. the ceo knew the brunette far better than anyone else, the blonde included. despite her best efforts, there were many things that sungji could not overcome for their relationship. the space between them grew to be insurmountable.

❛ we broke up and she left. i haven't heard from her since. ❜

red cherry lips purse firmly, almost as though holding back a smirk but not quite and the potential for such gesture gets lost in the president’s thoughtfulness as she takes a moment to consider how to approach the topic. ju sungji is not stupid, surely she has an inkling of where the conversation is going.

seju sees the blonde’s negative response for what it is: cautious…. as she should be. seju couldn’t blame her for that. sungji wasn’t without reasons to be cautious of seju, after all. even though after all this time, seju no longer has any interest in competing with sungji. there was nothing of value to be gained anymore, nothing more valuable than the freedom and peace she has gained anyways. way too much progress has been done that seju would not trade for getting back together with her first love.

she lifts the cup of coffee from the table and brings it to her lips so she can take a brief sip. without doubt, at this point curiosity is all that is left.

“ i want to know why i came back to the leader team manager position being replaced. ”   she asks bluntly, making direct eye contact. the question is far from professional, it is all personal business now. her company being involved is simply a convenient justification for her intrusive question. there’s not a single cell in seju’s body that thinks sungji will give up any intimate details of whatever transpired between her and her lover, and seju is fine with that.

she doesn’t need to know, she wants to — of course. but she doesn’t need to.

“ where is sumin? i thought you two would get your happy ending once i’d go away. ”  

[pessimisticsarc]

smash or pass: danny devito

"Maybe in his prime."

"Wait—I have to be honest in these... In that case, pass."

SMASH OR PASS? HONEST ANSWERS ONLY

[thiirdboy]

【 ⊳ 碇 】；

❝ I’m home... ❞ It’s clear from the weight in his voice that he’s exhausted — but it’s nothing he can’t shake off after some good food and a night of rest. In a world that doesn’t need EVA anymore, it’s so much easier to do that...

And, in a world where his family can exist.

❝ Mother? ❞

@pinkpain​ || Here you go mom <3

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[moonaeraa]

@pinkpain

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[stringimi-allora]

[goldgaze]

casually pinches sungji's cheekies

cue the confused fox face staring blankly like ( ○｀3´○)

[khaloymes-a]

Johnnie's smile drops as soon as hers does, mostly out of shock that it was just that, a facade.

"O-oh," he stumbles over his words, gaze drifting over her shoulder instead as he finds it awkward to look straight at her anymore. His hands are now busy ringing each other as he flounders around looking for words. "Right," he agrees without thinking, "I'm not very good at lying, though. I've been told that my whole life."

He did try to use the killing with kindness method often, unless it is an extreme case where he cannot bring himself to pretend to like the person. Unfortunately, however, he was usually quick to cut people out and burn bridges if something goes sour. Hanging on and pretending to like everyone seemed exhausting!

"I-I like closure, though...makes me worry less. Do you not get a little anxious?"

it is a little unsettling to her how cheerful the man seems to be. how kind-hearted and gentle he appears to be. seju cannot relate at all. how does one function without having one's guards up all the time? being somewhat deceitful comes in naturally for those who must learn to self preserve.

it surely doesn't help it is hard for her to like people at all. the smile on her face drops, almost as though pointing out how easy it is to put up and down the facade.

“ trauma, mostly. ”   she responds harsh but honestly.   “ people feel the need to pester you for closure or whatever if they know you don't like them... so just lie about it. ”

[pinkpain]

pinkpain: exploring themes of abandonment issues, being the villain, betrayal and the art of letting go, featuring baek seju from the gl manhwa wdtfs: 『 狐狸在说什么？』by team gaji. indie, private and selective. very crossover and au friendly. minors and personals dni. mature themes will be present. written by cherry (she/her, 1993) ♡

this blog uses beta + xkit rewritten ony !!

affiliated with @goldgaze 

carrd.    headcanons.    starter calls.    prompts.    playlist.

[goldgaze]

independent & selective  𝒋𝒖 𝒔𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒋𝒊  from the team gaji’s  𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝘅 𝘀𝗮𝘆 ? warning: triggering themes.  headcanon heavy, crossover & oc friendly. 

revered by 𝐰𝐨𝐥𝐟. affiliated with @pinkpain ( baek seju )

carrd.

[roshale]

     ROSE WISHES she were impossible to marry . it sounded vain , and she knew how self - centered it seemed , but she was too beautiful to be considered unworthy of marriage . in fact , she was the opposite ; men desired to have her as a wife -- her fiancé was lucky to have her , and he made that fact known by parading her around town and sending flowers to her home on the daily . rosalie felt bad that she felt nothing .      at first , she assumed it was normal , and that most girls did not truly love their husbands , fiancés , or boyfriends as much as they let on . but the way that vera looked at her husband made her second guess that thought ; love did not grow over time , but existed from the start .      ❛ un-marriageable ?  ❜ rosalie did not know seju very well . they were , for lack of a better word , very surface level friends . the two of them got along well enough , but she knew little of her past . ❛ i can't see why . you're very pretty .  ❜      she feels her face turn a light shade of pink , in response to which she turns it away ever so slightly . seju was quite beautiful , and anyone with an eye for a simple aesthetic could see that .      ❛ besides , it's me who will soon be living a married life .  ❜ there were aspects of marriage that excited her . having a family , a house , and the social status that came with that all -- but there was much less of an emotional connection . ❛ sorry , i didn't mean to damper the mood .  ❜

seju regretted her words as soon as they left her lips. in her naive need to know everything about rosalie she'd spoken too much, too soon, too recklessly. what was she even thinking asking such thing? she is curious, but never meant to come off as insensitive or nosy. even worse, she wouldn't want rosalie to feel pressured to share. the kind of friendship she speaks of, however, sounds all too familiar to seju. the kind of friendship that is too big for be considered just friends and that is not allowed to exist. she could justify her own heartbreak as deserved, however painful it was. but what did rose ever do to deserve that? seju can't help but feel a little resentful of this vera woman. it's not fair or rational, she is aware of that so she keeps the thought to herself.

“ i see... ”  she responds quietly, almost coy.   “ i had a friend like that too when i was in school. she and i... well, we lost contact. ”   the reality is much more complicated than that, but all said is true. the longing for simpler times of youth is understandable, yet seju would not want to go back in time now that the devastation feels distant enough in the past. no longer a fresh wound but a dull ache that bothers her sometimes. perhaps in time rosalie's heart will no longer hurt freshly at the thought of her friend, seju can only hope. she reaches out to rose, her small hand gently touching the blonde's in reassuring fashion.   “ but ⸺ ! you have me here now, and i am un-marriageable. ” 

[deathleadsarc]

―    🜛    ―    "  In-deeeeeeed!  "        so  comes  the  sing-song  tune  of  a  woman  thoroughly  enjoying  herself!  Battle  between  precious  siblings,  expressions    through  equivalent  exchange    ―    just  the  sort  of  thing  that  This  Alchemist  stand  to  listen  to  for  hours  upon  hours!      "  Oh  my  oh  myyyy  what  a  horrible  thing  to  befall  your  family!  "          there  is  no  apologetic  warmth  behind  her  words.        "  How  utterly  exciting,  miss.  "

“ where were you when i needed to get rid of my brothers? too bad i already killed the worst one ⸺ allegedly, of course. it was only fair since he tried to have me killed as well. ”

[redemptioninterlude]

There's a pause that comes in the aftermath of that statement ; how Seju's expression HARDLY EVEN FLICKERS tells her more than anything else. She's seen what it looks like in families where the money runs deep, as does the obligation - and she herself is a runaway victim of it all, leaving her father and her twin brother behind to chase after her own dreams, but...

She understands the UNSPOKEN WEIGHT of what she says, her fingers curling along her cheek, trying to think of the right response. "... I'm going to just assume he deserved it, and skip to the, did it feel the way you thought it would question."

- @pinkpain

@redemptioninterlude liked.

“ i feel i was particularly graceful the morning i had my brother killed. ”   however brutal her words may be, seju's arms remain crossed over her chest  and her expression stays unaffected, so flawlessly poised. the contrast with the previously friendly front is unsettling even to herself. she didn't regret anything she'd done, she had her reasons. marceline would be free to question those reasons, if she chose to ⸺ but she deserved to know the truth.

[tenderlove]

@tenderlove

“ people don’t get what they deserve. they just get what they get. it’s not fair and there’s nothing any of us can do about it. ”

                ❛  i'm  familiar  with  this  concept,  yes ...  ❜  seungyeol  forces  an  uncomfortable  smile  befoer  sighing. ❛  it's  okay ,  we  don't  have  to  talk  about  my  ex  wife .  ❜ says ,  hoping  they  will  be  able  to  drop  the  subject .