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simpsons creatures moodboard

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something something connection to bugs in the parallel of "scary" mental health symptoms and searching online how to care for them coming up with "how to deal with this ugly shit that I don't want near me".

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maybe we're not so different after all. how different really is "how to put your EVIL friend/other/lover in their place when they have (stigmatized mental illness)" and "top 10 tricks to make an utterly harmless and even useful bug for your garden die RIGHT NOW!!!!"

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anyway MY ART BASED RESOLUTIONS FOR THIS YEAR:

make a decent chunk of an rpgmaker2003 game

make INSOMNIA comics

update my portfolio/projects site

post art maybe once a week or so

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my new years revelation (not resolution) was that. im not she/her. like in any capacity. i dont think???? its really confusing. i thought i was genderfluid for maybe like half of last year. but i dont think something that sometimes feels yeah ok sure but can cause THIS much dysphoria on other days is a genderfluid thing. i might be wrong. i think im just a guy lol. im also kind of scared that I was conceding bc people in my life understood "sometimes i'm your (female family member) but other times i feel quite masculine". but im worried they "understood" it as a tomboy phase. i dont want to do things because it makes it easier for other people so. i think im just a transmasc Thing (he/it). yea. ive been more comfortable thinking myself as a guy way longer than she/her has ever fit and again, im starting to wonder if it never fit and it was just tolerable. and also realising it only was tolerable when it was more me being like. an effeminate guy. hhhhuuuwuhedfrdesja. hi. any trans people reading this wanna weigh in on this LOL

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the only TMWSL panels that matter. to me

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i can make any character transgender

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i keep calling it tmwss cus i thought it was smiling it qas laughing. mandela effect (he misremembered)

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im guessing this is supposed to be like. krusty?????? but they gave him bug alien antennae and no muzzle beard and also green hair and no red nose. so maybe it isn't. who is this. what is this merch for

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I'm definitely fluid w/ my identity I know that now. I was thinking for a bit that I was just a girl with extra steps but nah its more like. sometimes I'm just A Gal and sometimes I'm just Some Guy. and as a treat sometimes I am

^me :3

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^ a true example of WOKENESS in minecraft:

ENDERMAN short for TRANSGENDER MAN

no eye contact --> AUTISM

purple eyes --> NOT NORMAL !

not even mentioning that the game ITSELF calls it a "MOB"...."WOKE MOB" ? very telling. please delete the "enderman" from your game

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I thought I was so sure of my identity and then I started playing disco elysium again

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transition goals

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whats funniest to me about the graggle simpson joke/meme is that you don't even need to make up a guy like that. you really just need to look in the background of any early s1 episode and you WILL find a graggle

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i missed bi visibility day but I swear i pretty much knew I liked women since i was like. 7. and then when i got older it was like "yeah idgaf i guess that person's cute". i don't think I ever was hetero or comphet

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trying to learn godot and by trying to learn i mean taking lines from the tutorial i did and throwing myself off a cliff if there is an inexplicable error

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inevitably whenever you make a funny animal world the question "so what do they eat? how do they make cheese etc" comes up and my answer options I'm debating are 1)the funny animals are a completely different evolutionary path and all of our creatures exist 2) they are all adapted to only eat plants (no beastars type stuff going down here) (although there IS organ selling) 3) they're just standins for human characters, that's all (my answer is 3)