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deerdeardarling · 2 years ago

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Thinking about Milo's and Leon's friendship. About how Milo was probably one of the first to know that something wasn't (emotionally) right with Leon and Rose. How maybe one day when both Milo and Leon were still pretty young ( 2 or 3 years after Leon's been champ, and Milo had only just became a trainer in his mother's gym) Leon came to Milo sobbing about how Rose wouldnt let Leon go home. Or talk to certain ppl. Or just something not right. And Milo saying they could tell his parents but then Leon vehemently tells him not to tell anyone, that leon still needs to be champion to support his family. So Milo comforts and reassure Leon that they're friends and Leon can always come to him for help. But after that Leon kinda realizes that a good friend doesn't only use someone for comfort. So they drift apart. And it isn't till their adults, and after Leon and Piers get into a verbal argument, that Milo realizes (and a few others discover) that Leon isn't in the best mental health, and after getting a splash of deja-vu from seeing leon sob and falling to knees to hug and comfort, and now that their adults. Milo might just start speaking up.

#pokemon sword and shield #pokemon leon #pokemon milo #for context. I hc Milo and Leon being childhood friends. like known each other since diapers since their fams were farmers #But they weren't as attached at the hip as Leon and Sonia were. But still friends #But then Leon became champ. And got isolated. from litteraly everyone.#and then had to keep up that happy phisade 24/7/365 #But yeah I think about them from time to time.#and after leon loses his title Milo is the first he visits after staying in postwick.

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ourletterstogod · 6 years ago

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Dear God, please help me to get over my regrets. I regret making a commitment to my kid's father. He didnt have what it takes to live up to his promises, I'll never understand why he'd stay with me knowing that he couldn't. He never made enough money to fulfill his families needs.i feel really bad about this but his looks and height were problematic for me. While I worked a full time job at Smith Barney in Newport Beach, he was iut of work and went to rral estate classes with a buddy of his. Not only did he not study enough or pass the test and get his real estate license but he played around fishing and throwing a football around in the street. I was so snowed by him, everyone tried to convince me that his job as a merchandiser was a great job.Not! $25,000.00 per year, a company van and a few company spiffs and having over $6,000.00 in debts that be brought into my life was not what I signed up for.

After we committed and my family spent thousands on our wedding, I found out the truth. Immediately upon finding out, I felt like I was in a hell hole and mistrusted him with finances.

He was 5.5 years older then me and was supposed to be the man. He failed me completely. That's not what I signed up for. I believed that I could trust him with managing our finances. I needed to divorce him then because we always had an unhappy financial life together, the whole 9 married years.

Typically, I wouldn't let it anger me for so long but the lies and backstabbing have me feeling fed up. He was horrible at finances perhaps partly because of his drinking, always willing to flip the bill and a drunken moment even if we didn't even have enough money for rent. I never trusted him with finances.

After his sisters bachelorette party, I saw him spooning his cousin John in bed, heard that they all got so drunk that they ripped seats out of the bus that they had rented with beer flowing back and forth on the floor of the bus. I wanted to be done. I could see how much worse the relationship would become with his new buddies and his brother in law Johm. I packed up everything in my 🚗 and knew that I needed to leave. Like a sucker, I fell for his crying tears.So sorry that I did.

Sadly, I stayed with him and at that point we moved out of his mom's to Seal Beach. I regret staying with him. At this point $7,000.00 was spent on the wedding, my car became a gift and my Grandma sent me $5,800.00. I would have rather invested it in myself. What a waste for my family and I.

I didn't enjoy living with him in Seal Beach. We have few decent memories. Many times when he left before me, early in the morning, he left the door wide open, not only unlocked but wide open. Look at the omen there. He woke me on the middle of the night, many times over-passive aggressive is what the psychologist office called his behavior.

In Seal Beach, I became pregnant. Never imagined anything but having the baby which we did.

We found a 2 bedroom amd moved. We painted, put nice carpet in and I bought customized blinds for all of the windows. His family wallpapered the babies room for us. I even had the baby shower there. I nested, I nested and I nested.

Then, before the baby was born, Ed and his mom moved us to a fixer upper house with payments far above our heads. For more then five years, before becomming pregnant, I stressed that I wanted to stay home with the babies for I hated when my own mother had to leave me to work.

I was not there when Ed picked out the house. Everything moved so fast, we didn't even take the time to sleep on it before they made the offer. I hated the area and the house. I tried to keep a positive attitude because of the baby!

Everyone that saw the house made suggestions on what to improve. Ed didn't habe a good job the entire 5 years thst I lived there. Before buying the house, he said that all the improvements would be done within a year. That is what I signed up for but that's not what I got. It was such a stupid investment amd in bad timing that I will always resent he and his mother. I feel guilty for letting my Gramdma buy us all new appliances at that cruddy house. A nice home is really important for family and for entertaining and we liked to do both but the house and location were awful. I tried to make the best of it because I hated the idea of having a broken family but with so much resentment towards Ed and his mom for their impulsive decision that effected my life and the kid's lives, I had to divorce Ed. I'm so sorry that he and I ever hooked up.

It's amazing that the love thatI had for the boys could help me to keep it together for as long as I could, complete some very helpful classes at Orange Coast College and land a job selling freight services, bulding my business in less the a year and moving out less then a year from my start date selling freight. Unfortunately, it wasn't love between Ed and I but we both loved the boys! Miracles do happen and it only makes sense that things fell into place to move on.

Sadly, Ed still didn't have a decent job and still wasn't making good money. I did not receive child support. They took me off the deed leaving my name on the loan. Forgive me father but I hate their guts. They really took my family and I for a ride. All the signs were there the 1st year of marriage, I'm so sorry that I didn't leave him.

My boys should have had a much better life without living in a home that needed so much work. I resented having to live like rhat and finally reached my breaking point.

When the oldest was old enough for Kindergarten, I moved to a better location in the kid's school district and within a month, I was reaping the rewards of seeds planted, thousands more. Praise God!!! I believe that the move to a better zip code did hel to make a differemce overall.

I really don't want to hear about all the work that was done on the fixer upper house because I was cohearsed into living there in the 1st place. I wanted to stay where we moved, fixed up the babies room and whete I nested. I hate Ed and his mom for taking advantage of me and including me in their bad decisions that I didn't want to be a part of. And I hate his sisters misconceptions, lies, backstabbing and controlling nature. She is one of the biggest hypocrites that I have ever met and I'm not impressed by her phisad that she puts on for everyone. She and who she is makes me sick to my stomach. I hate her selfish ways.

I never want these jerks in my life again. To be honest with you, I don't even like them in my son's lives.

I don't like these spoiled and selfish people near me or my kids. I really wish that they would just fall off the face of the 🌎!!!

I hope that they lose their voice boxes after all their darn lies.

They were nothing more then self centered spoiled bratts and a total waste of my time and my families money. They didn't deserve anything from us and aren't even smart enough to grasp this.

God, they completely wronged me. Please help me to improve my life without their darn lies. My life is no longer their business.Amen

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