#pharma & sunstorm r both vessels for my... Thing. about immortality. number 1 characters to use for vent art babey

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every night i think abt the art i wanna make for my whole “pharma comes back frm the dead n becomes a vessel for adaptus or whatever, something something the horror of the infinite, the feeling of being a stripped down version of you, with something new that’s ancient and divine and with machinations that reach far beyond your radius taking a hold of your trajectory. looking at your face and seeing that it’s just a little bit off, because you don’t remember it exactly. and then it and your hands start to melt when you’re distressed, or really when the semi-evil god inhabiting you just Decides to take your face away. or turns it into one that looks like a medical droid, just to mock you. but you have Some agency in your life. you make your own choices. don’t you? you’ve certainly Made Some Choices.

and you can transform your hands into Anything. your face! into Anything! the infinity of choice is something a god is used to, but not you. not even Before you had him live rent-free inside your head. you stick to your metaphorical guns. medical tools is familiar enough. a chainsaw, cathartic enough. when did a Chainsaw of all things become that for you? whose fault was this? you literally can’t remember the details the way you used to remember the details. you recall someone-who-must-not-be-named but was very pretentious and obsessed with transformation talking at you about the ship of theseus. why is it that when You change, you change for the worse? why is the ship sinking?

anyway this other doctor is here and he used to be roommates w/ your ex in med school but like you Liiitcherallly never noticed him bcos you thought he was beneath you back then?? interesting. he is very big. and kind to you, despite everything.

you feel like you’re going to get your license revoked the moment you step foot onto your home planet. what do you do? [insert CYOA game prompt here]”

uhhh anyway. i have a lot of trouble making anything concrete for this story i wonder why.