#personally i want august to have it bc i dislike her less than the other rose ladies

[seawitchkaraoke]

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jhöjkhf lmao okay since you asked let me talk about uhhhh *spins wheel* October Daye and uhhhh Pokemon!

Let’s talk about what partner pokemons our gang would have!

Toby: I think a Pawniard is perfect, they’re literally made out of blades, what more could she want? Also according to some of the pokedex entries they ignore their injuries while fighting which..... is very Toby not gonna lie

May: I was thinking about a few options here, like Absol (bc death omen) or Mimikyu (for obvious reasons) but honestly, those are more general fetch things than they are May specifically. The pokemon with the most May vibes is Swirlix. I mean it’s literally cotton candy, I think May would vibe with that

Quentin: Aegislash. I was first considering this for Toby, but it’s a sword rather than knives which Quentin is a lot better with, plus his magic smells of steel. But also. Listen to this pokedex entry for it: “Apparently, it can detect the innate qualities of leadership. According to legend, whoever it recognizes is destined to become king”, which is just too good to pass up. I was gonna give him one of it’s preevolutions first, bc he’s still baby, but honestly he’s become really competent lately and he doesn’t do things by halves, his partner would definitely be fully evolved already.

Tybalt: Zoroark. Tybalt is such a theater nerd he’d definitely love an illusion pokemon. Obviously I considered giving him a cat, but if every Cait Sidhe only has cat pokemon it’s gonna get boring quick. Plus: “Bonds between these Pokémon are very strong. It protects the safety of its pack by tricking its opponents.” just screams Tybalt to me

Raj: Charmeleon. Bc I feel like Raj would really vibe with a dragon, and Charmeleon is “hot-headed” and “tough fights could exite this pokemon” which is a very Raj vibe not gonna lie. He doesn’t get a Charizard bc he’s still baby. It’ll probably evolve when he becomes king

The Luidaeg: Skrelp. Because let’s be real, she doesn’t need a super strong pokemon she’s the mf seawitch and she’d vibe with a cute looking kelp seahorse. Especially one that has this description: “It drifts in the ocean, blending in with floating seaweed. When other Pokémon come to feast on the seaweed, Skrelp feasts on them instead. “

Raysel: Banette. Because, look, all it’s pokedex entries say it’s an angry doll that got abandondend by the child who owned it. I feel like Raysel with her anger at everyone around her could really vibe with that.

Acacia: I don’t think she’d be that strongly into pokemon training tbh and I’m only really mentioning her bc uh. The pokedex entry for Phantump: “ According to old tales, these Pokémon are stumps possessed by the spirits of children who died while lost in the forest.” So basically her forest is probably filled with them and she absolutely loves and takes care of all of them.

Dianda: Crabrawler. Need I really explain why?

[anger----issues]

i’m actually really nervous writing about this, but i want to get it off my chest because i feel so bad about it. I would have made it into some vent art but that would make it just a very long comic  but this is just kinda the story of me and a person i used to be friends with, and the people i’ve hurt while in that friendship.

so here goes 

about 3 years ago, i went to boarding school, i had a pretty nice group of friends that i could hang out with and do homework with. One day i pushed a girl from the group though, because she was bothering me during a science project, didn’t push her hard or anything but i got excluded from the group. That’s not what i feel bad about though, i know she overreacted. 

but after that incident i was very alone and i didn’t have any friends to hang with anymore, until i started chatting up this girl(let’s call her M). We met for the first time at this intro day at the boarding school, before the summer vacation. If you didn’t know, then i’m kinda a big anime nerd, but i’m also pretty chill about it.  but i see this girl, in a gothic style dress, hair cut exactly like Yuuno from Mirai Nikki, cat ears, and a chain with an Eren figure from Attack on Titan. i was a little scared she would be a weaboo, but i tend not to judge a book by it’s cover, so i comment on her necklace. The girl legit screamed, in a room filled with a billion people we didn’t know who were gonna be our schoolmates in a few months. 

i decided not to talk to her after that, or well that was until the incident... i began talking to her and we slowly became good friends, but she had this habit of talking badly about a lot of people. At that time i had never ever trash talked anyone in my life, if i didn’t like something about someone, i kept it to myself. But after some time i jumped on it too, it was kinda satisfying to complain about the people you didn’t like. It got worse and worse though, and i was talking badly about my first friend at the school, and literally everybody else.  We were also both in the cosplay community, which meant that we actually had a lot of mutual friends, and some mutually disliked people. And as always we would talk shit about the people we didn’t like. 

She had really influenced me badly, so bad that one day i just found a picture of a cosplayer(let’s call him A), one of my friends were dating, and i just began “wow doesn’t he look like a total loser? wow i can’t believe she’s dating such a guy hahah” While my first thought was actually “oh my god he’s the first cosplayer from my country i’ve seen cosplaying this character, i love it!”  I can’t remember how she responded to it, but around august this year, my good friend(we’re gonna call her P) comes over to me, and says “I just talked with A, and he says that you don’t like him?” i was just as confused as her, because i had never ever talked to this guy, i was just like “A?? who’s that?? why would i dislike someone i don’t even know???”, P says “yeah it didn’t sound like you, he said someone named M had told him”. It had been a little less than a year since me and M had talked, and i had gotten better and was no longer talking badly about innocent people. 

and so i met A for reals here in November, we talked for a bit, he was a really cool dude. He confronted me about the issue, and i lied, i told him i didn’t remember ever saying something like that. 

Here’s a thing about M tho, she’s always been super two-faced, she had told me about this classmate she once had, that she hated so so much, then we met said classmate on a station, she hugged her and acted as if they were best friends. As we walked away i asked her, “wasn’t that the girl you really didn’t like?” and with the most bitchy laugh in history, she all proudly said “Yes!”. I realized that day how fake she can be, but i didn’t ever imagine that she would be like that to me. I was wrong.

I met the girl who was M’s ex-classmate, we’re gonna call her E, we met at a party and we were talking really well together. The party was slowly calming down and we were having some deep conversation outside about life or something, when she says, “wow you’re really not annoying like M told me you were” and i was just like “what? she said that?” then i also told E everything bad that M had said about her.  these kinds of things began happening to me a lot, people saying “you’re not as annoying as M makes you out to be”

so me and A both agreed that she was a two-faced bitch, and he told me everything bad M had ever told him about me. I was honestly so mad, we were best friends and i thought i could trust her, turns out everyone could become her victim no matter what. 

now i’m thinking about coming clean to A, and confronting M. I don’t want A to find out that i’ve actually talked badly about him from her, and i want M to stop spreading bullshit about me and everyone else.  I’m not sure how to do it though, i don’t want to hurt A and ruin our brand new friendship. But i also don’t want to confront M and then have her bring up the fact that i’ve also talked badly about others. 

i honestly just don’t feel good about myself, knowing i’ve been such a bad person and said so much bad stuff about other people, and i want to apologize to everyone i’ve ever said anything bad about. 

i’m sorry this is so long but i wanted to tell this story bc it’s been bugging me a lot

[tenpercentsugar]

1-100 boo

1. How long have you had a Tumblr?since 2012

2. Describe your first kiss, who was it with, what was it like, where was it etc?hard pass see ya

3. What’s your biggest regret? I know we all say we don’t regret things but obviously it’s how we learn, from our mistakes. So what’s something from your past you wished you could have changed?i don’t know what my biggest regret would be but i do regret taking acid last august cuz i went to hell and i think it permanently changed me

5. Favorite Songs at the moment?well my april playlist consists of chanel x frank ocean, overtime x bryson tiller, for however long x bryson tiller, reminder x the weeknd, deathgrip x fit for a king which are all songs i’ve been loving nonstop

5. What is the craziest thing that you have ever done?idk if this is crazy but once i took three klonopin then did coke

6. What’s the most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you?probably all of 2016 if i could remember it

7. Do you have any scars and if so, how did you get them?they’re all self-harm scars

8. Where would you like to be in 10 years?somewhere warm and rainy with a big dog and a family working at a job i love making decent money

9. What are your views on drugs and alcohol?don’t use them as a source of comfort. that’s a huuuge trap. recreationally they’re fun tho

10. What are your views on religion?i wish i could believe it! i really wish i could cuz it would be nice to have moments of crisis and feel comfort in knowing an otherworldly force is going to take care of me thru it

11. Have you ever thought about ending your own life? If so, why?yeah of course. i guess i just knew that all i did was hurt people and i had to get rid of that energy from the earth. i feel better now tho

12. Write 5 facts people might not know about you.i can never do these things bc there’s not much that people don’t know abt me. my life is an open book for allll to see

13. last really important text you got?i don’t think i’ve been texted abt anything super important recently. usually my texts are j “wyd”

14. Can you let go?for the most part!! i don’t like holding grudges

15. Discuss your first love.i’ve never had a first love and i am sooo coo on that

16. Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up. Explain why each song is on there.i don’t have an ipod i use anymore which is sad

17. Name somewhere you’d like to move or visit.i’d LOVE to visit greece but i’ll totally move to oregon

19. What are your views on mainstream music?no hate, i find shit i like in mainstream music all the time. tbh i have no clue what’s playing on the radio rn tho. if you turned it on i would not recognize like any songs which is weird asf

18. Are you currently missing someone?meg and allison for sure

19. At what age do you think people should have sex?prolly high school idk im no expert

20. What are your highs and lows of this past year?highs - got to meet so many amazing people (most notably, jake hazen), saw the story so far FINALLY, got closer w daniella, reconnected w taylor, got a job i love, etclows - lost two friends to tragedy, got addicted to klonopin/benzos, got hospitalized, completely lost all sense of self

21. What are your strongest beliefs?i believe that waterfalls are the prettiest part of nature and sunshowers are the coolest thing ever. if i were a weather phenomena i’d wanna be a sunshower

22. Who are you closest to in your family?probably my mom, kind of my brother

23. How important do you think education is?extremely!!! education opens doors for a person and i’m not even speaking on higher education i just mean in general. taking care of your intellect is really important to me!! i wish i was still learning!!

24. What’s one of your favorite shows?that 70s show is damn near my favorite show of all time

25. How have you changed in the past 2 years?ohhh boyyyy immensely i don’t think i’m even half the person i used to be but i’m okay

26. Name 5 people who are famous who you find attractive.zayn malik, frank ocean, asap rocky, tyler the creator, fucking david beckham

27. Name your favorite movie and what it’s about.tarzan bitcchhhh its abt a lil dude whose parents shipwrecked by a jungle, made a treehouse, then died and he survived and was taken in by a sympathetic gorilla whose husband is like the leader of the pack and rejects tarzan from the jump then these ppl from england come and one of them has a dark agenda that they don’t know abt. it’s lit

28. Who is someone who fascinates you and why?this is a weirdo thing but @sunsets-n–graveyards cuz she is the human embodiment of the word cool and i don’t know if i would believe any negative thing anybody had to say abt her

29. What kind of person attracts you?like who am i attracted to? or what kind of friends do i attract? im attracted to dudes w neck tattoos and nice hands or dudes that assume a kind of powerful vibe. i attract friends who are cool and funny and beautiful

30. What’s a problem that you have recently had or are currently having?i only had a little bit of bud left and i smoked it all yesserday so im gonna need to re-up

31. Name something that you miss.warped tour

32. Share 5 goals you want completed in the next 30 days.- quit smoking- work out details of the house we potentially getting- buy a dab pen and a puck- clean my fucking roooommmm- get an oil change lmao

33. What’s been the highlight of your month and the lowest point? this month has gone right past me i don’t even know if it was important enough to have highs and lows

34. What’s something that you’ve done in the past that you would never do again?take an adderall and three ritalin at night time

35. What is you’re biggest insecurity & why?my hands cuz they ugly

36. What were the last 3 songs you listened to and what did they mean to you?i have nooo clue what they were i don’t even remember what playlist i was in

37. Do you have a toy that’s really special to you and if so what is it, how did you get it etc?not anymore but i had a doll that i got when i was a wee lad and i used to care for that bitch more than i’ve ever cared for anything

38. Have you lost anyone close to you to death? not that close but close enough

39. What is your purpose in life?to improve. to improve myself, to improve the lives of others, to improve the world around me

40. When was the last time you cried and what was it over?i could not tell you the last time i cried. it was probably over sister wives

41. If you got to spend an entire day with your favourite celebrity what would you guys do? smoke down, stare into each other’s eyes, get married

42. If you could only listen to one artist for the rest of your life, who would you choose and why?either tame impala or frank ocean. both beautiful vibes. frank has incredible imagery in his music and it always takes me to a place that i’d much rather be

43. What are 3 traits that you like about yourself and what are three that you dislike about yourself? Personality wise.i like that i’m funny as fuck, generally pretty compassionate abt my friends like i try hard to reach out when i can, and how little i care abt how i look cuz that takes so much effort. i dislike that i’m selfish, obsessive, and dissociative at the worst times

44. Can you cook? If so what are your favorite dishes to make? uhhhh nope

45. What was the last decision you regretted making?couldn’t tell you i’m pretty sound in my decisions

46. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?nope i’ve seen people make that mistake then never again. it doesn’t always speak on the character of the person but if it were to happen to me i would definitely be wary moving forward

47. Do you ever wish you were famous?only when i wanna tweet some dumb shit and get helllllaaaa interactions

48. What’s the nastiest thing anyone has ever said to YOU? Or something that’s hurt you above anything else and why?no one’s been mean to me in a long long time so i have no clue

50. What mark would you want to leave on this world after you are gone?i just wanna be a light source in somebody’s life. like i just wanna be remembered as a light

51. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?only lipo and not for very long

52. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?nope that sounds like a bad idea

53. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?yeah in third grade i believe cuz i thought being tough like that was cool

54. What’s the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?one time dani copped me sounds good feels good which was so romantic

55. What is one of your favorite memories?going to taylor’s w ash and smoking blunts on the roof and going to a cute little ice cream shop and the grocery store and buying hella beer then going to dan’s and smoking down more then going back to taylor’s, smoking another blunt, then passing out watching monster’s inc. perfect fucking day

58. What’s the nicest present you’ve ever received?a painting that says “keep calm and beckah on” from taylor. that was so fucking nice

59. Have you ever had your heart broken?not romantically, but yeah

60. Have you ever wanted to change anything about your life? If so, what?definitely i’d like to change the numbers in my back account and the car i drive and the state in which i live. i’m trying to be rich, driving a new car, living in michigan

61. What is something you feel like you are really good at? steering wheel drumming

62. What are your top 5 favourite all time songs by your favourite artist?the moment, reality in motion, runway houses city clouds, the less i know the better, disciples

65. What’s one thing someone has done for you that was really small but made a huge impact?dylan has pumped my gas many many times when i was too high

66. What do you do when you can’t sleep?cry a lot, toss and turn til i’m sweaty, cry some more

68. If you could change 3 things within your government, what would they be and why?this is a question for someone else

69. What’s your favourite holiday and why?fourth of july mf it’s a beautiful holiday. fireworks, cooking out, warm weather, like come on bro it’s fire

70. What’s the kindest thing a stranger has ever done for you? Even if it’s TINY like holding a door open for you, something that you remember even though they were a complete stranger.idk a couple days ago a gurl yelled hey at me from her car and that was nice i suppose

71. Who’s your favorite cartoon character?mordecai from regular show

72. What’s the first song that comes to your mind while reading this and why?reality in motion x tame impala is stuck in my head bc of that previous question

74. What would you like to be the first dance song at your wedding?i have no clue i’ve genuinely been thinking abt this question allllll day and can’t figure it out

75. Have you ever been told you look like a famous person, if so, who?amy schumer 🙄

76. What’s one thing you can not live without?idk bro probably your mom?

77. What is the most selfless thing you have ever done for someone?i have no idea someone else would have to tell me

78. Are you a girly girl?no hahahaha this is funny

79. What color is your bed?uhhh my mattress is white if thats what youre asking

80. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?i have no real hair preference hahaha

81. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?hellllll no i have no time for that

82. Do you have a best friend?three! shouts out dani, ash, and t-dizzle

82. What song makes you cry the most?perth x bon iver or only time x enya hahahaha

83. What’s the funniest film you’ve ever seen?good burger obviously

84. What’s something crazy that you’ve always wanted to do?i have no crazy ambitions i am a very scared cautious person

85. Has anything ever happened to you that you just can’t forgive?i don’t think so. i’ve lived a fairly above average life as far as i remember

86. Ever been really drunk?yeah it sucked i hate being drunk

87. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?hahahahahahahahahaha no

89. Have you ever felt ashamed about something? If so what was it & why? my whole life is just huge waves of guilt and shame

90. Do you keep a journal? If so what mostly goes in it? Random thoughts, feelings, stories?
when i do journal i write abt my day and then it turns into a life update filled w random thoughts and feelings

91. Do you like somebody?not romantically but i do have huge platonic crushes on a lot of people

92. Craziest shit ever done?ion do crazy shit!!! my memoir is going to be so lame!!!

93. What’s the saddest story/one that’s touched you the most that you’ve ever heard on the news?sandy hook fucked me up for a little bit when i heard abt it

94. If you were told you were going to have 3 daughters, what would you want to name them?navy, hazel, and alexis

95. Do you have a middle name and if so, what is it?i do and it’s jill but i used to tell people it was jeezus and that my parents were weirdo hippies

96. Are you in a relationship?yes its been seven years and im so in love

97. Do you enjoy drama?i love watching it but i’d rather die than be a part of it

98. Are you a virgin?yeah boiiii aint nobody touchin me

99. Are you short or tall?i’m average

100. Do you have siblings? If so, what are their names and how old are they? i’ve got a brother named maxwell and he’s 18 and going further in life than i can even imagine

thanks kind stranger see u at ur house later im gonna beat you up