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My day could not have been more perfect today.

This morning I woke up early. I do not normally do this very well though I wish I did because I could get a lot more done in a day if I did not sleep them away.

But sleep is so nice and peaceful. 

Anyways I woke up early to head off with my friends to all sorts of yard sales, garage sales and antique shops all around where we live.

So many antiques to admire. Treasures to beheld.

Places to explore and kind people to meet. 

( These photos were taken by charmlesspsychopath ( charmlesspsychopath.tumblr.com)

I really wish I could have taken photos. I would have taken a million but recently my smart android phone went kuputnik and since then I have not been able to take nice pictures of everywhere I go. Its very difficult because there were so many beautiful things I would have liked to share and reflect on. But, alas I will just have to rely on the images imprinted in my brain.

For my treasures I got a two little teaspoons, a tea canister ( that I will re-purpose as a planter) a really beautiful antique photograph, dried hydrangeas and lavender. 

I also helped my friend find a wheelchair which we are going to bring new life to and make it her ( EA esque computer chair) 

It couldn't have been a more perfect day for me. 

P.S. Soon I will have pictures of a finished shadowbox I made! 

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This is how i feel right now.

Bright, tasty, full of potential cupcake..... dropped right on its face.

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My Life in Recent Weeks 

May I have this little chat with you? 

Spring has finally sprung where I live. In the evenings it has a tendency to rain giving the irises and hyacinths that have started to bloom around my house a chance to drink. Each day I seem to see more grow and I cheer them on to keep on going. 

That is what I have to tell myself too. I have to cheer myself on to keep going. To keep being positive. These past months I have been mildly successful with this. I try and find happiness in all the small things. I have found it in black tea, I have found it by listening to the birds, I have found it by looking at the flowers, I have found it by seeking vintage and antique shops on my own and with others and discover all sorts of treasures. I have found it within learning art history. Even feeling influenced to buy books related to subject matter I have been learning. I also have been exercising mostly regularly and have been loosing a bit of weight which has been a long time goal that I am finally sticking to. 

My parents will be leaving soon. Leaving me and my older sister to care for the house. This has been a routine in the past years. It is always hard seeing my parents gone for that long. Even missing my birthday. I usually tend to leave my bedroom and sleep in theirs for some sort of childlike comfort. I always adjust though and sometimes enjoy the solitude. 

I get stressed out easily but I have not in a while. It feels weird not being stressed out I used to get stressed all the time about everything!.

It almost feels like the stress is hiding like a house cat that is about to pounce. I feel it there. Telling me quietly to feel stressed about the upcoming semester and not ever having a job and not knowing what I want to do in my life and another whole boatload full of stuff.

Whenever someone else talks to me about these things though, I always have the same answer which is : "I like to keep my mind focused relatively in the present. The future is meant to be unknown for a reason."

I have been enjoying the weather. I have been pretty okay. I try very hard to not let the stress and any self hate sneak it's way into my tender little life. 

I just wanted to have a little chat with you. Over some tea. I hope that is alright with you. It feels good to remind myself that things are okay.

I hope you are all well and have a nice week.

- Morbidcupcakes

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La vie en rose 

~Face of the Day~

My mom plopped a red beret on my head this morning as I sat at my vanity applying makeup. I love wearing it. Plus, I also sported this pearl and crystal encrusted peter pan collar, all the gems like to fall off but, I wear it anyways :p because it's super pretty.

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It has been an amazing couple of days..

So many adventures with the loves of my life <3 some new and old. 

First I became what I call a Vaudevillian Carnie, we ventured in a "clown car" filled with lace, dripping pearls and vast amounts of fabric plus squished bodies close together. We dressed in an most unusual place with very chilly weather that made my hands look withered. 

What was our destination you may ask?

Well it was Emilie Autumn of course. 

I have been constructing this outfit for months and is has never escaped out of the asylum that is my mind. The show left me breathless to say the least. I cannot wait till I return and meet some of my personal hero's once again on stage and sing along with them and once again feel that we are all one. 

The day ended in a long train ride and red velvet cheesecake.

The next day felt surreal after this giant adventure we had. I had never been so comfortable with traveling before and it was odd being back home from such an experience. Though this next day was not spent doing just nothing! of course not why stop there! 

I tied my hair with bun and trailing braids, once again channeling my inner vaudevillian. We went to a famous Portland restaurant called : Duck Phat with their famous fries dipped with duck fat ( yes, it sounds gross but, trust me please, they are voted one of the best fries on the planet for a reason.) Oh it was so good. 

Promptly after we went to my college campus for a walk on the beach nearby. Since my cousin brought her german shepard we played Chuck it with her and she became a very happy puppy. Splashing happily in the freezing ocean water. I also got to share my favorite cliffside with my best friend. It even smelled like chimney smoke just like the last time I discovered it. 

Today was a very short adventure but a well spent one. charmlesspsychopath and I visited one of our local flea markets for me to get this item that I am modeling in one of the above photographs. 

It is the back of a ribcage with the spine attached and it was made from a vintage anatomical model. I think it is a wonderful conversation piece and I love it to pieces. I joke and say because I am such an unbrave soul I need to grow an extra spine! 

That is it for my adventures my friends I feel very lucky and very happy. None of this grey weather will get me too down with all of these happy memories. <3 

Well I am off to juggle new opportunities I hope you are all doing well and lovely <3 blogging should go back to it's normal schedule.

TTFN

- Morbidcupcakes 

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