#people who get pushy about fic updates are so dull to me BECAUSE I’ve had so many and been doing this so long

[hella1975]

are you doing good? Are you making sure that you're not burning out because people are pressuring you to write? I always worry about big fanfiction writers- I love your work to death but please take care of yourself first

hi. blushes. hello. looking at u with big wet eyes like this 🥺🥺🥺 im okay thank you love xx

[girlbetweenryosuke]

“The Break Up?”

[[here’s another yamcham fic for u bbs bcccc idk i felt like it HHAHHAHA i quite like the plot of this one so i hope y’all enjoy this boii]]

Week 1: Friday

“Goooood morning!”

I chirped a greeting to my really sleepy band members in the green room. “Morning.”, they replied one-by-one. I noticed that the aura in the room was a bit... dull. “What’s wrong?”, I brushed off the dark aura and lightly asked them as I dropped my pouch on the table and slumped on the sofa chair, spreading my legs and laying my arms on both arms lazily. Hikaru looked at Yabu and then Yabu quickly shook his head and then Hikaru rolled his eyes and then looked at Yuto who then covered his face. “Seriously I’m witnessing some new language up in here, what’s happening?”, I nervously laughed. Chinen then cleared his throat and sat up straight. “Ryosuke, I don’t want you to freak out or anything because I know you know more about the situation more than anyone.”, he calmly said and avoided my eyes. “...What’s wrong...”, I anxiously said. “There are a few articles on well-known and trusted magazines stating that...”, Chinen paused and opened a magazine up to me showing an edited picture of Y/N and I in a heart split into two.

“Y/N is intending on breaking up with you.”

“WHAT?!”

I stood up feeling confusion flood into my brain. “I haven’t heard about this, I never heard about this. As far as I know, I’ve been a decent boyfriend, why would she break up with me.”, words rapidly spilled out of my mouth as I held my head in confusion. “See, I knew he would freak out.”, Chinen sat back on the couch. I slumped back on the couch trying to rearrange my thoughts and think that maybe I’m overreacting, these are magazines, not books, there’s no proof. 

“What did the articles say?”, I asked them and Yuto opened the magazine, reading the headline, “Y/N intends to break up with Hey! Say! JUMP center, Yamada Ryosuke for some... space?!”. “Keep reading.”, I said and he did, “On August 4, 2017 while shooting for the movie ‘Blue Eyes Can Kill’ in Beijing, China, a staff member reportedly overheard Y/N’s conversation with her co-star, Ishihara Satomi, stating ‘I’m getting tired of him clinging on to me all the time... We... just need some space... you know?’. What is the meaning of this, Y/N?! Are you really going to break up with the Sparkling Prince Yamada Ryosuke? Will our favorite couple split soon?!”, Yuto read with feelings and I was dumbfounded. 

“Sooooo, we have here Yamada Ryosuke who had just found out that his girlfriend is breaking up with him, how do you feel, Sir Ryosuke?”, Chinen hopped in front of me with the magazine rolled up like a microphone holding it in front of my face. “I feel like absolute shit.”, I stared blankly ahead and Chinen hummed and went back to his seat. “But you know that she has no intention right?”, Takaki asked and I shook my head slowly, still astonished. “I need to confirm this.”, I said and pulled out my phone from my pocket. I opened up out chat box and I suddenly stopped realizing something. 

She hasn’t even messaged me once since she left for China...

Which was a week ago. The day they said she said all those things. 

Suspicion started to stir in my head and I tried to push them all away and trust her that she’s not breaking up with me... But I’m a boyfriend you know, that’s what I can’t do so easily. I quickly copied a link from an online article with the same topic, pasted it on the box and sent it. I tried to be calm, I really did.

Yachi: WHAT IS THIS www.aruhmuhjapan.com/celeb-news/article/Y/N-breaks-up-with-Sparkling-Prince-Yamada-Ryosuke-?!.html 

Yachi: I’M FREAKING OUT

Yachi: OH MY GOD IS THIS TRUE

Yachi: I HOPE YOU REPLY SOON

Yachi: I’M GOING TO CRY

Yachi: I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT AND I’M SORRY FOR BEING CLINGY I WILL STAY AWAY AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE AND STILL LOVE YOU

“I can hear how fast you’re typing in your messages, Ryosuke, I hope you’re not rampaging there. You know she’s busy too so she needs to remain calm.”, Yuto commented and then laughed and I looked at him with wide eyes, “You already rampaged didn’t you?”. I nodded and the 8 of them simultaneously slapped their foreheads. 

Week 2: Monday

I dragged my feet on my way to the recording studio and the moment I opened the door, Daiki already shouted at me. “YO, YAMADA! YOUR RECORDING FOR OUR NEW BALLAD LAST FRIDAY WAS NICE, YOU REALLY SOUNDED--”, he stopped in his tracks about to give me a high-five when he noticed the obvious bags under my eyes and pale face. “...broken.”, he continued. “What happened to you?”, Keito asked me in a worried tone and stood up from his seat to help me get to mine. “I stayed up all night looking for updates on what’s happening during her shooting. I even found a rumor that she’s planning on staying in the country alone.”, I slumped on the couch, exhausted. “I even had to google translate all the chinese and english articles just to find some kind of flaw in what they were reporting.” I said, “But all of them seemed realistic.”, I sighed. 

“Has she replied to your messages?”, Daiki asked. “No.”, I replied and slumped back even further into the couch and covered my eyes with my forearms. “RYOSUKE!”, the door swung open and Chinen came in with his phone in his hand. “What?”, I sat up. “Look!”, he showed me his phone which I took and read the article on it.

Y/N is ready to replace boyfriend, Yamada Ryosuke, with hot co-actor?!

On August 7, 2017, first thing in the morning for the shoot of “Blue Eyes can Kill” in Beijing, China, Y/N was reportedly spotted with co-actor, Suda Masaki, in a restaurant. They were seated on a table for three but it doesn’t seem like there was anyone coming for the third seat! They were laughing a lot and also exchanged soft glares as the witness stated. What is going on, Y/N?! Are you over him THAT quickly?!

I instantly closed the phone and handed it back to Chinen. “I don’t need this.”, I said and he took the phone from me and I crossed my arms and huffed. “I trust that she doesn’t like him.”, I confidently said. “That’s good.”, Daiki commented. I do trust Y/N. I know that I am above any other potential boyfriend out there. I know she loves me... but why isn’t she answering me... I’ve messaged her so many times during the weekend and she hasn’t replied ONCE. Something seemed fishy. I even tried contacting Ishihara but I could only remember her old account since it’s been so long since we’ve worked together. I then quickly opened Masaki’s chat box and I typed in a message.

Ryosuke: hey i was just wondering how is Y/N

It took a while for him to reply. Approximately 3 hours, 34 minutes and 2 seconds of be staring at our box, anxiously waiting for a reply.

Masaki: she’s fine  :>

Ryosuke: why isn’t she replying to me

And that was it. He didn’t reply whatsoever. I felt broken, I had to admit. I couldn’t put myself up to say that everything was okay and that I could trust her to not stop loving me. I mean, how could I when I literally can’t confirm that because I can’t talk to her at all. I slowly opened our chat box and typed in a small message, just because I felt like she needed a reminder somehow.

Yachi: I love you.

Week 3: Saturday

Today, Y/N is coming home from shooting. I am ready to confirm all facts and brush off all bluffs. I didn’t open any other articles last night since I only needed to confirm these 3 things;

Is she really going to leave and stay in China?

Is she cheating on me with Masaki?

Is she really breaking up with me?

I came to work that day only to be surprised by Chinen who brought me another article about Y/N. “I don’t need that.”, I brushed it off and played cool. I really didn’t; I didn’t want any more suspicions to pile up and break out relationship. “Y/N DOESN’T WANT TO STAY IN CHINA!!”, he shout and put the phone right in my face. “Y/N clarified today that she does think that China is a beautiful country, but she never said that she would leave her home, Japan, for it.”, I read. “CONGRATS, YOU’RE NOT GONNA HAVE TO MOVE TO CHINA WITH HER!”, he joked and I sighed in relief. One suspicion down, two more to go.

I arrived at the airport that night ready to face her at the gate to really confirm these facts. I found people with cameras ready to snap a juicy shot and I felt like maybe this place is too public for confrontation. But that thought was too late when I found Masaki leave the gate first. I immediately ran up to him and he met me with a smile. Sweet, but not working if Y/N’s cheating on me with you. “Why didn’t you reply to my message?”, I asked him, a little bit pushy but I had to get an answer before Y/N came. “What message?”, Masaki tilted his head confused as to what I was talking about. “I asked why she wasn’t replying to my messages.”, I said and he had his eureka moment. 

“That’s because there was no wifi in the hotel we were all staying in! I could only message like twice a day if I was lucky.”, he explained and I myself had my own realization. “Oh well, what about that restaurant thing, huh?”, I asked him and he tilted his head once again. “People saw you in a restaurant together laughing and enjoying each other’s company.”, I said. “The director was late...”, he awkwardly said. “And we were laughing about the dog shitting outside the window...”, he scratched his nape and I wanted to slap myself for jumping into conclusions so quickly. “Did you think that she was cheating on you with me?”, he asked, laughing and I nodded. “Damn that would be an honor to be chosen over you, Prince Ryosuke.”, he joked and pat my shoulder then left. So... that’s supposed to raise my confidence right? Two suspicions down, one to go.

“Wait, where’s Y/N?”, I realized that I’ve been focused on Masaki for so long that Y/N might have passed by already. I ran out to the middle of the airport, trying to spot Y/N and earning glances from other people and camera flashes on me. “Ryosuke!”, a voice called out to me. I turned my back only to see Y/N waving at me with a broad grin on her face. That one thing made me feel like all suspicions on me were blown away. “Y/N!”, I ran to her and she opened her arms, ready to accept me. I embraced her, holding her close and then lifting her off her feet. 

“How were you, I missed you so much”, she mumbled into my neck. My eyes opened wide and I realized that I still had to settle one thing. “Y/N...”, I let her down and I looked her in the eyes, still holding her close and tucking a strand of hair off her face and behind her ear. “Hm?”, she hummed. “Are you... breaking up with me?”, I gently asked her and her eyes started to grow wide. “Where did you get that idea?!”, she burst into laughter and I was dumbfounded. “But... didn’t you say that to Ishihara? That you wanted to break up with me because you thought I was clingy?”, I sheepishly asked and she smiled, “Ryosuke, where the hell did you hear that?”, she laughed and moved a strand of my hair off my face. 

“I read it in an article that that was during a break from shooting.”, I explained and she burst out into more laughter. “THAT WAS PART OF THE SCRIPT. WE WERE PRACTICING!!”, she laughed and I... felt like a dumbass. Three suspicions down, and I feel like a fucking idiot. “Ryosuke, you know that I love you right? That I chose you. So why would I be a stupid person and throw away a wonderful boyfriend like you?”, she moved my forehead down to her lips and kissed it lightly. “Y/N, Y/N! YAMADA, YAMADA!”, the paparazzi called out to us, cameras flashing everywhere. “How about the break up?!”, one called out and Y/N chuckled. 

She rolled her eyes and smiled to me. “Hmm, how should I reply.”, she thought and then she suddenly landed her lips on mine leaving me shocked but then I eventually melted into the kiss leaving the paparazzi shook and the amount camera flashes increase. 

The break up? What break up? Break up, my ass.