#pei shouyi/yu zhenxuan

[thisautistic]

I can't connect emotionally with anyone...

Any kind of emotion or feeling is just a word to me...

Me @ Pei Shouyi:

MERRY CRIMBLESSSS MORGAAAAAAAN

@zhaozi my best bestieeee. <3 this is for youuuuu

[akkrosu]

Thank you, @recentadultburnout, for tagging me and asking for my nine favorite TV shows! I might have gone a little overboard because I haven’t been tagged a lot before, but please indulge me.

This is going to be limited to QLs, if only because I couldn’t think of a single piece of Western (or straight) media I love and/or remember well enough to be able to put on this list. The ones I have chosen are below, in no particular order.

1. The Untamed

This one belongs here both for being a fantastic story and for being the reason I even discovered any of the other series on this list. My entire “obsessed with Asian queer media” thing started all because a friend once told me, “Let me show you what I’ve been watching recently.” What can I say, drunk Lan Zhan got to me.

2. Moonlight Chicken

One of the most beautiful, thought-provoking and mature series I’ve ever seen, QL or otherwise. P’Aof is a genius and I would have to hide in shame if I didn’t have at least one of his works on this list. He created a narrative of six real people trying to figure out life and how to be happy and there is so much strength in every single one of them.

3. Not Me

With at least three watchthroughs one of my most-watched BLs. I mean, OffGun and the social commentary and political action and the queerness of it all and the characters. Ugh, I love this show. Plus, the music and musical editing were phenomenal.

4. Where Your Eyes Linger

Probably my favorite Korean BL ever? Also the KBL to really get me into KBLs, so it already deserves a medal for that (I was missing out on so much). I’m a sucker for good yearning and forbidden relationships, and this series gave me everything I wanted. And, again, the soundtrack. The instrumental of See U playing as Kang Gook storms Tae Joo’s dad’s house lives rent-free in my mind.

5. HIStory 3: Make Our Days Count

Yes, it’s the other HIStory 3, the one everyone ignores because ‘he went out to buy salt’. Look, don’t judge me, I own up to my love for this series. It’s not the show’s fault all anyone ever remembers is the tragic ending. It’s also such a beautiful story about a total dork falling in love with a lonely nerd and defying all odds to be with him. Plus, the best sibling relationship ever. And (spoiler) said dork dying doesn’t invalidate everything else the series tells us. Yes, it was sad, but I can deal with the sadness. And sometimes, the sadness is as much part of a show as it is of life.

6. The Eclipse

This series haunts me to this day. I was obsessed with it, and I still am. Akk is one of my favorite characters ever written, and First portrayed him beautifully. So did Khaotung with Ayan. The sheer existence of P’Golf baffles my mind to this day. These 12 episodes gave me everything I’ve ever wanted.

7. The Eighth Sense

I take back what I said about Where Your Eyes Linger. This is my favorite KBL. I’m not even sure I can explain why. It’s just so honest. And so, so queer. It made me cry so many times, and the storytelling was magnificent. Plus, it’s one of the few full-length KBLs we have.

8. We Best Love

The cups in my profile picture are the ones Yu Zhenxuan and Pei Shouyi drink out of in the flashbacks of the second season, so... yeah.

This was my very first QL that wasn’t a bromance, and so I’m very biased. I’m almost mad at myself for making this my first one, because sometimes it feels like nothing else could ever live up to it. I admit to having a special love for season 1, even though season 2 seems to be the one people talk about a lot more. It’s just perfect, everything about it. Especially Gao Shide’s mom.

9. My School President

What a phenomenal show. I remember how much I was looking forward to Fridays during the time this was airing, and each week it gave me everything I wanted. Gemini and Fourth are fantastic actors, the friend groups made me cry all the time, it’s one of the cutest things I’ve ever seen, and there are some absolute bangers in there, musically speaking. Gun and Tinn will always have a special place in my heart.

Some honorable mentions because it’s really hard to pin down exactly nine:

Never Let Me Go – I spent a lot of time debating whether to put this or MSP in this list because I love them both equally. And because they aired around the same time, they are sort of irrevocably tied together in my mind.

Big Dragon – I loved this significantly more than I ever expected to, and I can’t be impartial about Yai to this day, because I love him with all my heart. This was such a messy, weird, chaotic show, and yet it somehow gave us such beauty and sappy people in love.

Step by Step – It doesn’t get to be on the list because it hasn’t finished airing yet, and so it could still fuck up, but if it keeps going like this, it is definitely going to become one of my favorites. (Same with Be My Favorite, honestly.)

I don’t know many people around here, and certainly not many I wouldn’t feel awkward tagging, but I’ll just be awkward anyway and kindly ask @ellaspore and @biochemjess if they feel up for it. I wanna know! (No pressure, though.)

[ao3feed-wbl]

We Best Love No.2 Fighting Mr 2nd | ENG TRANS |

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/ZfqLGYm by CelineBailah It has been five years since Zhou Shu Yi and Gao Shi De last met, and both have moved on with their lives without hearing from each other. That is until the two suddenly meet for work, and all the feelings - and resentments - of the past come back to the surface. Between hidden truths and never dormant emotions, will the two be able to overcome their differences and be happy together again? Author: Yu Chen Huan The novel consists of 6 chapters + 2 specials Words: 15129, Chapters: 3/?, Language: English Series: Part 2 of We Best Love Fandoms: 永遠的第一名 | We Best Love (TV), 永遠的第一名 | We Best Love (TV) RPF Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Characters: Gao Shide, Zhou Shuyi (We Best Love), Pei Shouyi, Yu Zhenxuan Relationships: Gao Shide/Zhou Shuyi, Pei Shouyi/Yu Zhenxuan read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/ZfqLGYm

[zhaozi]

#bestofbl2021: [1/5] favourite couples - pei shouyi x yu zhenxuan (we best love: fighting mr 2nd)

12 years is a long time to wait for someone. is it worth it? yes, yes, a thousand times yes.

[sensiblekitty]

An insight about ShouYi

So, after episode 4 and Pei Shou Yi’s awful words to Yu Zhen Xuan, I’ve seen some hate towards the former doctor and I get people’s point on it. He was an as*hole and called Zhen Xuan crazy. I got pissed off as well, but after a while, I’ve been trying to understand the reasons behind such a cold attitude.

Tl;dr text after the cut.

First of all, Shou Yi is far from being my favorite character; on the contrary, I didn’t like him at the beginning. He had such an arrogant vibe with that mr. know-it-all attiude. However, since season one, the show made it clear that ShouYi has a mental disorder that prevents him from having feelings, although its name wasn’t mentioned (it could be alexithymia, not a MO, but a personal construct, or PTSD, but we probably won’t find out, unless the show tells his backstory). When I watched for the first time, I didn’t realize it, so it took me a few rewatches to “see” it on Shou Yi’s actions. Since he has an emotional numbness, he can’t recognize emotions, despite having a wide scientific knowledge about them, (even the neurotransmitter names), so he is unable to fall in love or to reciprocate someone else’s love. Even so, when flashbacks of ZhenXuan first appeared on S1E3, we came to know that that broken mug and the boy are connected, and both hold special meaning to him. My guess is that watching ShiDe’s persistence towards ShuYi made ShouYi remember about ZhenXuan and the fact that he chose to left him years ago. That is, he was envious of DeYi because it’s something that would never happen in his life.

Now, let’s think from ShouYi’s perspective. You know everything about the science of emotions, but when it comes to experience yourself, you can’t explain them, so the only thing you know is that when a certain student shows up, he “bothers” you. You also notice that the “troublesome boy” keeps coming to you, until one day he confesses to you (based on the reencounter scene, I assume ZhenXuan did confessed to ShouYi before). As you know it’s impossible to love someone, you dump him, quit your job at the school and go far away. Years pass by, but that boy still comes into your mind, especially when you see young couples. You envy them, because they look happy whilst all you have is an emptiness inside, except for an annoyance that comes back whenever you look at an oldish broken object that you refuse to throw away because it reminds you of a certain troublesome person. Then, after being a doctor taking care of students for so long, you decide to change careers, so that you can stop reminiscing about the past. Another five years pass by, and one day, that boy reappears into your life, now as a grown-up man, but claiming to still love you and saying that he will never give up on you. What do you do? You decide to be harsher on him, because that’s the only way to make him give up.

So, that’s how I depict Pei Shou Yi’s mind, though I have no idea on what’s canonically planned for him. Though I do think that ShouYi isn’t even aware that he loves ZhenXuan and he’s like, 100% sure that he can’t let the younger man keep chasing after him, so he will do everything to push him away for good, even if it hurts that person and himself, who knows. After all, he might not admit, but he cares so much for that person that he wishes him to be happy, but not by his side, since happiness is something that he is unable to feel and give. Is it wrong? From our point of view, yes, it’s a very distorted way of dealing with the situation. Besides, there’s no need to be that cruel to ZhenXuan. From the point of view of someone who has been emotionally numb for a very long time? It’s the only solution.

Anyway, let’s watch the last two episodes from Fighting Mr 2nd and wait for more sad moments involving these two. :’( Personally, I don’t expect a happy ending for them, I don’t even ship them tbh...But I want precious bb Zhen Xuan to find happiness on (a possible) Season 3. :’)

[peachpeonies]

I'm so interested in finding out more about Pei Shouyi's and Yu Zhenxuan's relationship and how it will develop now that Zhenxuan found him. I know Shouyi will try to back off and keep the distance but how long will that last?

We know he's jealous of Shide and probably doesn't even know Shouyi and Shide are related just like Shuyi.

We also know at some point he tells Zhenxuan he doesn't want him (probably to protect Zhenxuan from himself and the fact that he doesn't understands his own feeling and doesn't know what they are) cause in the trailer we get the "if you don't want me then leave me alone" but in that same scene we have Shouyi hauling him like a sack of potatoes out of the police station so he does want him.

I'm just so curious bout them.

There's many questions

[noona96n]

(1/?) hello nona! chinese names anon here to answer your call for more names :) u’re enabling me to dive eeeeven further into this fandom lol. however, i had to go through all the episodes again to find out where they are called by their names, so u better appreciate the effort.. just kidding, it was very fun actually looking at their name’s meanings, i never paid attention to it much before, until the “yes” to shuyis father unlocked curiousness in me as for shide’s name ^^

i’d like to take this moment to say chinese is not my mother tongue, however i study it in university for a while now. also, chinese characters can sometimes have lots of different meanings, given how u use them (verb/adjective etc.)

so just take what i say with a grain of salt, i’m just going off of what i learn in my classes and how i experience the characters in use. but i tried my best :)

so here’s what i got. some fit more, some less imo. but that makes sense, names are just names sometimes and maybe i interpret too much story meaning into them haha. PLEASE feel free to copy paste my ask into shorter pieces/leave stuff out!! i realise it is veeery long, i just wanted to be thorough and also explain since you asked :)

高士德 Gao Shide

高 high/tall/high up (no. 1, always on top)

仕 official, work in office (can also mean ‘bodyguard’ when in chess context, the two pieces protecting the king…omfg!!

德 ethics, moral, virtue (fun fact: also part of the chinese word for germany, 德國 lol)

周書逸 zhou shu yi

周 attentive, thoughtful

書 book/letter/write/calligraphy… um… the eMAiLs?? and his notebook scribbles? me is now dead..

逸 (unhurried/calm, can also mean avoid/escape.. b y e omg these writers)

政文 zhengwen

政 politics

文 culture, language, writing, gentle (文 can mean a few things, not sure what they intended with him)

聿欣 yuxin

聿 yu (this is interesting, yu is an introductory particle, at the begininng of a sentence, meaning like ‘and then’)

欣 happy.. so basically they tell us right away she’s there at the beginning and gets a happy ending for her story? lol

哲宇 zheyu

哲 philosophical, wise (L O L.. sorry hun, but.. lol)

宇 room, universe

(fun fact: i think i read somewhere his last name is a charcater that is pronounced ‘shi’, don’t know which one tho. while talking about the ‘i’m not inexperienced’ with shide, shuyi asks: 是哲宇嗎？(shi zheyu ma?) = is it shi zheyu? (the one he has experience with), however i always thought he asked “shi zheyu?” since, as with gao shide before, ‘shi’ can mean different things depending on which character that sounds like ‘shi’. what was used here is “shi” 是 = ‘is (it)’ and then the name. i always thought they meant just his last name here. i mean it both works and means the same mostly: “is it zheyu” vs. “shi zheyu?”. but chinese homophones man, so fun ^^)

秉瑋bingwei

秉 bing can just be a surname, or also grasp/hold/maintain

瑋 big/great, strong/robust

裴守一 pei shouyi

裴 pei again can just be a surname, or also flowing (as in a flowing cloth/garment) …lol

守 guard/defend, watch over, observe (T H I S tho!!)

一 the number “one”, first, entire, whole (this can mean a lot again)

餘真軒 yu zhenxuan

餘 odd, extra, beyond, remaining (hmmm not that’s interesting given his storyline isn’t it?)

真 true, real, genuine

軒 surname ‘xuan’, or high/lofty, pavilion/windows/veranda (often used with RESTAURANTS, or teahouses)

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chinese names anon here! 🇨🇳 i hope the names all got to you and you enjoy having more insight into them now :) chinese sure is interesting, right? please excuse the length of the asks 🙈you don't have to post all or even any of it, i'm just glad to give more insight :) i love your blog, please continue what you do!

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firstly, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING THE TIME TO EXPLAIN THEIR NAME TO ME!!! i appreciate ur effort, so thank you, thank you, thank you! 

secondly, a lot of my posts are enabled by my mutuals and anon asks! ofc im gonna enable u! i always want to learn new things and read other people’s insights! feel free to come and rant at me anytime!

thirdly, the length is no problem at all! thank you for explaining everything so thoroughly!! and ofc im posting everything! this is a gem! everyone should read it!!

i just want to say that i give so much meaning to names so i really like learning what people’s names mean! our first names are gifts from our parents and the names we and other people give to us are also gits to us! names are such an intimate and integral part of our identity! 

i seriously love u so much for answering my question! thank you thank you thank you! 

im glad u enjoy the content i put out!

[ghoststookournightmares]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 永遠的第一名 | We Best Love (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Pei Shouyi/Yu Zhenxuan Characters: Pei Shouyi, Yu Zhenxuan Additional Tags: Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt, Boys In Love, Boys Kissing, misunderstanding of a suicide note

[thisautistic]

No words necessary

for @zhaozi (first of many merry xmas bb)

[noona96n]

hi beautiful! do you have any thoughts about the dynamics in pei shou yi x yu zhen xuan's relationship? in my head shouyi has a little basket that he keeps stocked with zhenxuan's favour drink/snack/blanket for when ex has meltdowns so that post meltdown he can support ex without touching him or providing too much sensory input. (totally not based on my partner who has a similar box for my autistic meltdowns)

hello! im not knowledgeable at all when it cones to comforting an autistic person so i apologize in advance if i offend anyone!

from how i perceive Shou Yi as a character, he wants Zhen Xuan to be his own person, understand his own needs, build a life w/o Shou Yi there to be his constant... i think he'd approach comforting Zhen Xuan's autistic meltdown the same way!

i think, Shou Yi's the type who silently make Zhen Xuan his favorite ramen (the ramen is such a staple of their relationship lol) & sth to drink (in the cup they share hehe) and then he just... leaves Zhen Xuan alone and goes back to doing his stuff (bcs he's Shou Yi)

then, when Zhen Xuan is okay again, Zhen Xuan will go and give Shou Yi a great big hug and Shou Yi hugs him back

[thisautistic]

Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: เกียร์สีขาวกับกาวน์สีฝุ่น | My Gear And Your Gown (TV), 永遠的第一名 | We Best Love (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Folk Rattapoom Jintamanat/Pure, Pei Shouyi/Yu Zhenxuan Additional Tags: Bottom Folk, Top Pure, Anal Sex, Canon Autistic Character, Sensory Overload, Autistic meltdowns, Good boyfriend Pei Shou Yi Summary:

This will be my place for all of the rarepairs I can't get out of my head. All Asian BL is fair Game. I will add tags as I go. chapters will be different ratings which I will note in the chapters. Don't like, don't read. That's all I ask.