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nylenol · 6 years ago

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Real talk: it takes a hell of a lot of confidence and toughness to post art publicly. You’re really putting yourself out there opening yourself to all sorts of criticism and ugliness, which is scary AF. Yet despite that scariness you still do it that’s confidence, that’s toughness.

yeah i was thinking abt that earlier actually? like . is that something ppl do ? at my age? ofc they DO. but like is that impressive to the Majority of other people. is that impressive to RISD ????????????????? most importantly bc thats where i wanna go

im happy u take it as a show of confidence/toughness ^ i want 2 b more like that on a personal level as much as i am on a public level

#like a place where id like to apply that type of aura is like... when i talk to strangers... or like when i have 2 deal w things involving #past trauma or like family problems or gungie shit like that #im getting better at it! bc club makes me talk 2 strangers all the time #but as for the family matters stuff its like. im gonna come out to my mom this month #next month * i mean #and im gonna confront someone abt some toxic shit they did to me way back when #and then when it comes to my d*d i either like. be Tuff and succ it up and spend time w him or be Scary and say adios amigo.................#like either way its not what i WANT #thats the type of person i want to be! the type of person that can suck stuff up and deal w it #but im already Not going to be a doctor and im Not conforming to my familys expectations and i already Dont do hw even tho it doesnt take #that long and when it comes to properly learning art i Dont do it bc im lazy #(i have fun when im ACTUALLY doing it tho like once i get started)#like thats so gungie! if i could just take a fat SUCC and deal w/ everything on my plate i could live a lot better later on but im not and #hm.#sorry this turned into a long vent i should put this in my vent doc but hello? hello? its 7:26 pm and a bitch out here #dont feel the need 2 like. respond to stuff if you dont want to btw #i know this isnt where it belongs and also im really disassociated from everything i just listed rn so heeheehoohoo it bothers me but only a #little bit in the back of my head

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