#passive suicide

[wintersnails]

BEST things you can say during a job interview:

1) i am fully qualified for this position

2) i have a lot of experience in the field and am eager to apply my problem-solving skills to new challenges

3) i feel like i’m choking on her ghost

[jinxedshapeshifter]

can you imagine this being the first thing your roommate says after you say good morning. and because he can't play his "violin" properly

[gaywarcriminals]

Cyberpunk AU where SJ tries to gaslight cybernetically enhanced YQY into thinking he’s an android that has to obey SJ.

Yue Qi volunteered for an experimental cybernetics treat program in an effort to become strong enough to save Shen Jiu, only for it to go horribly wrong. After enduring years of excruciating pain where the majority of his body was broken, replaced, and altered time and again, Yue Qingyuan comes out the other side a living weapon. His first action upon being declared stabilized is to run from the underground lab back into the light of day, rushing towards the compound he knows holds his Xiao Jiu, but all his newfound power is useless when he’s met with only the blackened steel skeletons of burned-out buildings. 

There is nothing for Yue Qingyuan to do but return to his… benefactor. He submits himself to his handler’s whims, but without Shen Jiu, there is no life left for Yue Qi, and less for Yue Qingyuan; while he is undeniably successful at his new job, Yue Qingyuan does not try terribly hard to preserve his own life. Eventually, that catches up with him. 

Shen Jiu and Wu Yanzi Yue Qingyuan bleeding out in an alley, even the most cutting edge technology unable to pump oxygens into Yue Qingyuan’s brain when he’s riddled with this many holes. Wu Yanzi is intent on striping Yue Qingyuan for ports, but Shen Jiu has a dozen different overwhelming emotions that he shoves into a little box, because whether out of spite of a desperate love, he knows he wants Yue Qi alive. He kills Wu Yanzi the moment his back is turned. 

Shen Jiu, himself full of jailbroken and fickle homemade cybernetics courtesy of his own shitty mentor, drags Yue Qingyuan back to his current make-shift lab and does his best to repair Yue Qingyuan with the eclectic and outdated parts he has on hand. He keeps Yue Qingyuan’s heart beating, but Shen Jiu is sure Yue Qingyuan sustained major brain damage from the prolonged lack of oxygen. When Yue Qingyuan comes to dazed and confused, Shen Jiu assumes he lost his memories and grabs the opportunity, telling Yue Qingyuan that he’s Shen Jiu’s android assistant, confined to the house (Shen Jiu for sure added some kind of digital electric fence/ankle bracelet that makes it so Yue Qingyuan can’t leave lol) and designed only to do Shen Jiu’s chores and fetch him tools or components. Yue Qingyuan doesn’t understand what’s going on and isn’t quite convinced this is real, but he isn’t going to question Shen Jiu. He’s happy to exist as an object following Shen Jiu’s orders 🥰

[fish-condition]

Something that’s very important to me, is that Wu Zetian is chubby. Canonically!!!! She’s canonically chubby and disabled! And she’s still seen as: attractive, dangerous, intelligent, etc. Because someone who can’t walk well! Would be heavier! Source: I’m a fat bitch with serious physical disabilities that keep me from standing for very long, even with a cane.

Also (SPOILERS FOR HEAVENLY TYRANT) even after everything, while she can walk now, I still imagine she probably needs to use mobility aids. Since her disabling injuries happened so young, all her muscles/joints/ligaments/all that stuff probably grew or developed very abnormally. ESPECIALLY her hips and knees I imagine, having to adjust to a very unnatural gait and stance. Also her legs are DEFINITELY not going to be very capable of regular walking right off the bat, realistically she needs a lot of PT lol. Her carrying the scythe around all the time strikes me as just “oh this is her new cane now”

All that to say, having a visibly bigger and disabled AND QUEER main character in a book is fucking amazing. God I love women

[rhiandoesfandom]

What if Tilla wasn't physically sick, she was just really depressed and had suicidal ideations. That's why Blitz knows how to take care of someone in that state.

That's why he still continuously checks in with Barbie even though she continues to push him away. Cause maybe without being on the drugs she was taking or keeping busy, she is actively suicidal. What then.

[solaris-the-star]

rewatching buck begins and i would just like to state that buck is passively suicidal

and he’s been like that

and he’s probably going to stay like that

and i feel like that needs to be talked about more

[anime-to-the-t]

[eunuchboy]

why should i fear dying?

[2uet]

[rottenhellion]

The shitty thing is I LIKE living. There's a lot of things about life that I enjoy and I have a good support system that don't want to lose me. My brain just will. Not. Let me believe that I deserve to.