#part 2 is gonna be posted tomorrow and this whole interlude is so important to me

[inkdemonapologist]

Without much warning, he wrapped his free arm around Susie’s waist and pulled her closer, leaning into her ever so slightly and continuing to look at them in the reflection. She let him, even leaning into him a bit in turn. Yes, they didn’t look as perfect as they had when they’d left their room, but they looked good together. Was this what it was like, to be… normal? To just have a girl beside you and be just like every other guy he shook hands with in the room that night? Could he and Susie… be normal? … would he even want that?

(writing by @inkyvendingmachine) Art from the most recent Cthulhu rp chapter!! THIS WHOLE BIT JUST PUNCHED ME IN THE GUTS and I couldn't stop thinking about this scene so I, uh, got very carried away drawing it........

[scrvivorisms]

Desiderium

An ardent desire or longing, especially a feeling of loss or grief for something lost.

 A music Playlist about a dead girl and her broken hearted other half searching desperately and fruitlessly for her missing lover.

Creator’s Explanation:

 I just wanted to explore how it would have felt from Chloe’s perspective the very emotions she would be cycling through while looking for Rachel Amber. All the way from remembering promises and exact memories down to regretting and questioning the legitimacy of their whole relationship. But feel free to experience this dumpster fire called Amberprice.

FULL PLAYLIST

1) Yellow by Coldplay

Your skin

Oh yeah, your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

You know

You know I love you so

You know I love you so

2) Feeling Whitney by Post Malone

And I've been looking for someone to put up with my bullshit

I can't even leave my bedroom so I keep pouring

And I ain't seen a light of day since, well, that's not important

It's been long

3) How by Daughter

How long must I wait for you

Undone in the evening?

How long must I wait for you

To become what I need?

4) YEAH RIGHT by Joji

Yeah, right, yeah, right

Yeah, I bet you won't cry

Yeah, I bet you won't try

But you know I don't mind

But you know I don't mind

5) Mr Loverman by Ricky Montgomery

The ways in which you talk to me

Have me wishin' I were gone

The ways that you say my name

Have me runnin' on and on

6) No Below by Speedy Oritz

And though I was sad, I was better off just being dead

Better off just being dead, without my old friend

True, I once said, I was better off just being dead

But I didn't know you yet

7) Forget Her by Girl in Red

I spend all my days

Trying to forget her face

She's so hard to erase

I don't think she can be replaced

She stole my heart and ran away

Left me with some things to say

I don't understand

8) We Might Be Dead By Tomorrow by Soko

And I can tell

That you didn't had

To face your mother

Losing her lover

Without saying goodbye, Without saying goodbye,

'Cause she didn't had time.

9) Saturn by Sleeping At Last

I couldn't help but ask

For you to say it all again

I tried to write it down

But I could never find a pen

I'd give anything to hear

You say it one more time

That the universe was made

Just to be seen by my eyes

10) Otherside by Perfume Genius

Why can't you miss me

From the Otherside?

11) Worldstar Money (Interlude) by Joji

I looked at you and said, oh-oh-oh

Don't hate me, am I crazy?

So tenderly you watch me burn, you watch me burn, oh

So tell me, am I crazy?

12) The End by Daughter

You wait to find that I'm still here

And you've been waiting for the light to shine

Wake up, wake up, wake up

I'll be the answer to the question

I can't answer, it's a question

13) Amber by Koethe

Home a distant time

Smoke ore clearer skies

Everybody lies

I know I know

14) Mountains by Message To Bears

And we could run away

Before the light of day

You know we always could

The mountains say, the mountains say

15) Nothings Gonna Hurt You Baby by Cigarettes After Sex

Nothing's gonna hurt you baby

As long as you're with me, you'll be just fine

Nothing's gonna hurt you baby

Nothing's gonna take you from my side

16) She by Dodie

And she smells like lemongrass and sleep

She tastes like apple juice and peach

Oh, you would find her in a polaroid picture

And she means everything to me

17) Bare by WILDES

Throw me down

I'll steal the moon

I'll tear the night

Keep it from you

18) My Tears Are Becoming a Sea by M83

I'm slowly drifting to you

The stars and the planets

Are calling me

19) I'll Still Have Me by Cyn

Maybe in another life

Everything worked out alright

And things that made this harder passed us by

But there's no bad dream to wake up from

Know I got it bad when it's the morning

And you're all that's on my mind

20) Butterflys Repose by Zabawa

The sun's already set, now

Won't you go to sleep, now?

I'll see you in your dreams

'Cause I'm right here

Darlin', I'm right here

21) Dead-Bird by McCafferty

And I know just what it means

It means she's just like her mom

She'll end up lonely and sad

She'll end up alone with rings

With rings in her mouth

With guns in her house

With holes in her heart

22) Moving Pictures Silent Films by Great Lake Swimmers

Where have you been?

And what have you done?

I've been under the ground

Reading prayers from this old book I found

Under the ground

Saving it up

And spending it all

On moving pictures

Silent films

23) Juliet by Royal Wood

You can be my one if you wanna go

You can be my Juliet then

And we can drift asleep in a lover's pose

But never go away

No poison here, we're safe

24) Let My Love Weigh You Down by Early Winters

I dreamed that we had awakened

By a clear pool of still water

Nothing of ours had been taken in flight

I dreamed our bodies unbroken

Mended upon the still waters

Drifting upon what is spoken at night

25) You Broke My Heart Again by Teqkoi, Aiko

I think you broke my heart again

Please don't leave, and take my hand

Drowning inside these walls of fear

Take my hand, and stay with me my dear

26) I'm Closing My Eyes by Potsu

I know you so well

I know you

I mean, I can do anything that he can

Without you

27) The Thing About Things by Amanda Palmer

The thing about things is that they can start meaning things

Nobody actually said

And if he couldn't make something mean something for me

I had to make up what it meant

28) Where's My Love SYML

Cold sheets, oh, where's my love?

I am searching high, I'm searching low in the night

Ooh, does she know that we bleed the same?

Ooh, don't wanna cry but I break that way

29) I Love You by Billie Eilish

It's not true

Tell me I've been lied to

Cryin' isn't like you

What the hell did I do?

Never been the type to

Let someone see right through

30) Discoloration by Dawn Golden

I saw your face reflected on the resonant screen

And I watched your mouth moving like a tired machine

Trying to plead with me

Trying to swallow me whole.

31) Haze by Amber Run

My friends have all left me,

Away on the breeze.

There's a crushing silence where love's a disease.

Like a fever it grips me,

Like a lover it holds.

Scared of getting older,

Scared of dying alone.

I'm in a blue haze.

A blue haze.

32) ilomilo by Billie Eilish

I tried not to upset you

Let you rescue me the day I met you

I just wanted to protect you

But now I'll never get to

33) Mice by Billie Marten

Watch me as I go and separate the ones that I am made to love and hate

And slowly counting down my body weight

I'm tired

I'm tired

34) Lighthouse by Patrick Watson

Cause I know

I've seen you before

Won't you shine

A little light

On us now

35) 9th of October by Tove Lo

9th of October, I always remember

No bad things had happened then

Honestly, you never thought you'd fall for me

But somehow you got pulled in

Livin' so fast, makin' memories last

'Til our hearts couldn't hold no more

Hear you explodin' while I am implodin'

Now, how did we let this go?

36) Small Hands by Keaton Henson

Miss you terribly already,

Miss the space between your eyelids,

Where I'd stare through awkward sentences

And avoid through awkward silence

Miss your teeth when they chatter,

When we smoked out in my garden

When we couldn't sleep for all the heat,

Soft talk began to harden.

37) You by Keaton Henson

If you must leave,

Leave as though fire burns under your feet

If you must speak,

Speak every word as though it were unique

If you must die, sweetheart

Die knowing your life was my life's best part

If you must die,

Remember your life

37) Milk Teeth by Keaton Henson

Don't think of me like that

Just picture me leaving and not coming back

I'm sat where we sat

Just picking the labels

And lighting a match

38) If I'm To Die by Keaton Henson

If I'm to die,

Before I reach you,

Please know I meant to love you,

Till I did.