#paired with one of my favorite Nietzsche quotes

[nefertitisfjordd]

[honestandsincere]

when the party’s over

“Oh my god, Grayson! That’s so funny!” the painfully high-pitched squeal permeates the thin wall between their bedrooms. “Uh, yeah I guess it is, Lindsey.” she can hear him laugh almost uncomfortably. “You’re so funny!” “I’m glad you think so, have you-” Y/n can’t stick any more, throwing her measly pillow over her head and burying her face into the bedsheets. This has become the norm; listening to Grayson attempt to coax some form of conversation out of the girls he’d bring home from frat parties, cringing at their lack of response and praying to every mentally conceivable diety that they would just shut up.

Grayson Dolan knows these walls are thin. He’d stood in his room with the door closed and managed to have a lengthy discussion with y/n about that week’s weather predictions through the pathetic plasterwork on the day they’d moved in. He knows she can hear him. Part of her wants to think that maybe Grayson’s assuming that she’s a heavy sleeper, that she dozed off halfway through reading Anna Karenina because he knows how much she despises Tolstoy’s seemingly interminable passages about agriculture. But this is Grayson and y/n knows that she’s the last thing on his blatantly preoccupied mind. He’s got Lindsey all up in his business and that’s far more of a priority than y/n’s eight hours of rest. She understands this now.

It’s not even that late. She had been surprised when she’d heard the key turn in the lock and the reverberations of drunken stumbles that traveled into his room. Grayson usually stays out late on Saturdays. He revels in the sweaty closeness of fraternity dancefloors and is resident Keg King of Delta Beta Gamma and therefore has no reason to want to come home until the despondent early hours of the morning. Lindsey must have changed his mind. Y/n had tried to put a face to her voice, but it was indistinguishable. She couldn’t determine whether that made things better or worse. Y/n thinks that she has blonde hair, just because she sounds like she does, and maybe blue eyes. Lindsey’s probably really pretty because Grayson is also really pretty and pretty people have a tendency to attract pretty people. Y/n doesn’t understand why she’s making herself feel sick. This happens every week, you’d think maybe she’d consider investing in earplugs. But with each Saturday that rolls around y/n has to stamp on the embers of hope that maybe Grayson won’t bring home a girl this time. Their voices have become inaudible murmurs, but Lindsey’s squeaks are still definable. Y/n screws her eyes shut, willing sleep to overtake her queasy body before she starts crying. But not over Grayson. Y/n’s determined to never let Grayson Dolan be the source of her tears. They’re friends, have been seen Orientation Week and will continue to be provided that nothing catastrophic intervenes. He’d asked her to move into an apartment with Ethan, his brother, and Cassie one of their close friends during the second year. Y/n assumed that living with Grayson would be relatively easy, considering they’d been so close for the first year. But closeness sometimes transpires into an intense feeling of attachment, or maybe something that stretches beyond that. Y/n is certain she has no feelings that could be deemed romantic for Grayson. This is mostly because he is Grayson; the boy that projectile vomited onto her brand new converse at his first college party. He’d apologized profusely and y/n had forgiven him almost instantaneously having watched him be coerced into taking far too many shots that night. Grayson just wanted to fit in.

Grayson is no more than an annoyingly attractive, overly sentimental best friend. He loves a lot and is loved just as much, if not more. Y/n thinks this is a curse wrapped neatly in blessing-covered wrapping paper. He’s too lovable and people sometimes decide to monopolize on this. She wants to protect him from those that want to be near him for the sake of saying they’d been near him, from the girls that’ll string a web of perfect lies to end up in his bed. Y/n can see right through. She can also hear right through, being able to decipher every Saturday night or Sunday morning conversation he has. Y/n knows that Grayson wants more than sex, she can hear him beg for some kind of interesting debate or a conversation that surpasses the trivialities he’s given in reply. She forces herself to sleep before she hears any more, dreading to think what hearing him actually doing it would make her feel.

Y/n doesn’t want Grayson, but thinking about him being with someone else is almost agonizing. She assumes it’s just a jealous fad because he’s her best friend and she wants to be his best friend too. Yet introspectively, y/n understands that Grayson is far more than a friend. He’s never really been a friend. He eclipsed the point at which friendship seems an appropriate term to label their relationship. They’d met at Orientation Week, stumbling into one another as they drifted from stall to stall that had been set up in the Student Union. Grayson wanted to speak to the lacrosse team and y/n had wanted to ask a question - which looking back seemed incredibly inconsequential - to the student finance team when they collided. A string of apologies and a few snide comments about the state of their timetables later, they’d become friends. Things stayed that way for a while until fraternity parties suddenly existed and the need to get blackout inebriated transcended every academic priority. Grayson had spotted y/n across the living room of some frat house Ethan knew the name of one night. He’d staggered over to her with his vision swimming and a gratifying numbness weighing down his limbs.

“Y/n!” he slurred, catching himself on one of the damp walls as he tripped over his own feet, “Didn’t expect to see you here.” “Hi, Grayson,” she laughed at his sudden ability to look perfectly composed, “You having fun?” “Nah, not really,” he lied, “Just been looking for you all night.” “Oh really?” y/n wasn’t stupid. “Yeah, so happy you’re here, y/n. Makin’ my dreams come true!” “Whatever you say.” “Not even joking! Not even a little! You’re the funniest person here, except for Ethan and I’m funny too sometimes! But you’re witty, y/n. I like witty people.” “That’s cool.” He threw a ridiculously muscular arm over her shoulders and pulled her into his chest, placing a kiss to the crown of her head, “You’re so precious, y/n.”

Y/n quickly became Grayson’s favorite person to accidentally run into at parties, he’d always get up onto his tiptoes and scan the room in search for her. She’d always wear the prettiest dresses or the cutest little tops with her favorite pair of jeans. He’d always wear dress pants stolen from Ethan or khakis and really soft t-shirts that she’d always have her face pressed into when he’d greet her. That was their thing, being around each other when they were drunk. Sometimes he was worse than she was, stumbling falteringly around the place with her arm wrapped around his waist to keep him from toppling over. Other times she’d be stood in front of him, his arms wrapped around her middle and her head lolling back onto his shoulder as they stood outside watching their friends of friends puff little rings of smoke into the night air.

“I think it’s always gonna be me and you, y’know?” he mumbled one night after they’d escaped the third playing of Rack City to join the stoners in the garden of some random senior’s house. “Yeah?” she’d hiccupped in reply. “Yep, always gravitate towards you and you towards me. I don’t ever see us not being...” then he stopped speaking. He knew what he was about to say but he didn’t want to say it. Y/n was far too intoxicated to understand the situation, “Besties?” “Yeah, that’s it. Besties.” Every night had ended the same. Grayson would lead her to her group of friends, whispering a joke or sarcastic comment into her ear. “Call me when you’re back safe, yeah?” he’d always ask. 

Until he didn’t.

Y/n isn’t too sure at what point Grayson changed. Drunken giggles have deteriorated into friendly acknowledgments when they run into each other in fraternity kitchens. She’s still his best friend, they laugh together at Ethan’s pathetic attempts at DIY. They go out for breakfast at the cafe at the end of their street every Friday morning. She proofreads his essays and he quizzes her with flashcards. It’s this unspoken yet mutually recognized affair that festers under the surface of every sentence they speak to one another. Ethan and Cassie have noticed it too. Y/n and Grayson are close but not close enough. From the outside, everything looks normal; they could be snuggled under a blanket on the couch watching a travel documentary one evening but as soon as y/n leaves Grayson visibly tenses. When he’s doing the dishes and y/n walks into the kitchen for a bottle of water, she lifts up her hands as if to hug him from behind, hesitates, and leaves. Y/n doesn't know it but things shifted about a month into their second year of college. It was a Tuesday, which is usually uneventful compared to most days of the week. Grayson was sprawled out on the couch playing solitaire when the front door had opened. Y/n had sauntered into the living room followed by a rather tall lanky looking boy with tousled brown hair and glasses that made him look like he could quote Nietzsche verbatim. "Gray, this is Nat." she declared excitedly, her red tea dress flowing about her thighs with the soft blows of the fan he'd set up, "He's helping me with that Lit module I was telling you about." Grayson looked up from his virtual card game and grimaced, lifting his hand into an understated wave, "Hey, man." "Hi," Nat had said with what Grayson liked to think was a disgustingly patronizing smirk, "This is a nice place you've got." "Thanks-" "Nat's a senior, Gray." y/n had interrupted breathlessly, turning to look at the older boy with a grin Grayson wished he had caused, "He's majoring in Literature and Philosophy. Joint honors!" "That's dope." Grayson nodded along, not being able to comprehend why y/n was so enthralled. "Thank you, y/n here is quite the enthusiast." Nat chuckled, wrapping his arm around y/n's shoulders and pulling her to his side. That was Grayson's thing. "I can't help it! We're gonna go work now, see you later!" she'd taken the senior by his arm and lead him out of the living room. "Enjoy solitaire!" Nat had called over his shoulder.

This was a feeling Grayson wasn't that accustomed to. This was a new burning sensation that pulsed through his veins. He felt his jaw clench and his thumbs ran over the white of his knuckles. This epiphany had struck Grayson in waves, the first being anger. He couldn't understand why his best friend was enraptured with Nietzsche 2.0 and didn't want to analyze him even further to try and it out. It was in this moment that Grayson understood that y/n wasn't really his, nor was he y/n's. Of course, they were best friends and would always have an affinity for one another. That was a given at this point, wherever she was is where he wanted to be. But, in being friends they were offered the option of mixing with other people, having other people.

The concept of being with a girl hadn't crossed Grayson's mind all year until y/n had waltzed in with Nat. Subconsciously he must have assumed that he and y/n would eventually see sense and become romantically exclusive because he's certain there's nobody else that will ever eclipse her. Grayson now made the conscious decision to let y/n breathe, because clearly, that's what she wanted to do. So Grayson Dolan distanced himself from his best friend, calculating his every gesture or word towards her or every thought about her, making them strictly platonic. He figured this was best for them, to avoid him being hurt by y/n making new connections and taking his anger out on their friendship. Because that's all this was; a friendship. Regardless of the way she looked at him when her eyes were glazed over with drunkenness or the way she'd laugh at one of his cheesy jokes he'd read off a pack of cookies or the way he constantly wanted to be around her, they were friends. Y/n didn't notice these changes at first. She was so absorbed in her schoolwork and papers that days merged into weeks and fitting in hours of sleep became a challenge. Grayson was still part of her life, as were Ethan and Cassie, so things felt blissfully normal. Until she got invited to a party at one of the fraternities the twins knew relatively well. Ethan and Grayson had arrived earlier than her and Cass, so she was expecting to find her lumbering, tipsy mess of a best friend when she got there. However, Grayson was nowhere to be found. He wasn't on the dancefloor begging whoever was in charge of the aux chord to just play one Kid Cudi song, even if it was Day 'n' Nite. She couldn't find him in the kitchen handing out water bottles to the freshmen boys that looked worse for wear. Y/n even searched upstairs, walking in on many an intimate encounter. "E! Where is he?" She'd yelled over the pounding EDM music when she'd spotted his twin. "He's gone home," Ethan had winced before he disclosed the last morsel of information, "He's taken a girl home." Y/n was in shock. Grayson didn't take girls home. He stayed until the party was over then stumbled into her bedroom with a glass of water at five in the morning, begging for a cuddle. Y/n had forgotten that Gray wanted other girls. It is impossible to disregard the fact other girls want Grayson. Their eyes follow him wherever he goes, watching his every effortless move with sheer awe. He’s gorgeous and funny and kind and she knows that’s what makes him so undeniably attractive to everyone around him. But never once did it occur to her that maybe Grayson wanted other people as much as they want him.

That was the first night y/n heard almost every word that was shared next door to her when she’d returned home after throwing up in the seedy bathroom of the fraternity. She’d put on her earphones and forced herself not to think about what was occurring on the other side of the plaster. Y/n hadn’t cried that night, she is still strangely proud of it. Little does she know that the last thing Grayson Dolan wants to do with the girls he brings home is to sleep with them. He wants to want to. He wants to stop comparing their every detail to y/n’s because she’s unattainable and too good to be his. Grayson feels sick every time a girl tried to initiate anything with him, apologizing profusely and explaining that it’s not her, it’s him. He feels like a dick. Yet every Saturday night without fail, the girl he brought home leaves quietly through the front door after he calls her a cab and tells her that she’ll find Mr. Right eventually.

“Lindsey,” he says after a while of awkward silence, “I’m not in the mood for anything tonight.” “I kinda guessed,” the brunette girl sat beside him on his bed laughs softly. “I’m so sorry-” “Jesus, Grayson don’t apologize!” He turns to look at her, his eyes filled with exhaustion, “Thank you for understanding it’s just I-” “I know.” “Sorry?” “You like someone else, it’s obvious. It’s ok, I get it.” Grayson doesn’t have the energy to argue, he’s tired of pretending. “I’ll call a cab.” Lindsey smiles, elbowing him gently in the ribs. “No, I’ll get you an Uber.” he reaches for his phone. “Thanks, Grayson.” “No worries.”

There’s an awkward silence as he fiddles with the brightness of his screen because it’s making his eyes sore. “She loves you too,” Lindsey says, “Everyone can see it.” “Huh?” “Don’t play dumb. The way she looks at you says it all.” “Things are a bit too complicated right now.”

“Only when you get in your own way.”

Ok! So this was a little random lovechild of mine that sort of spawned from songs that kinda make me a bit emo. It definitely feels like a part one of something to me. Hope you enjoyed it! Exam season is just around the corner and if any of you are from the UK, you’ll be aware of the insufferable pain that is A-Level induced. I’m going to try and balance writing and studying though, just because it’s so rewarding seeing all your support and getting lovely little messages from you all! So thank you so much! Lots of love - K x

[iseulcwu]

TASK 1-1 : THE MISSING FILES

BASICS

name: kwon iseul ( iseul meaning “dew” in korean )

dob: july 28th, 1999

nicknames: seul

western zodiac sign: LEO SUN ( there's an unmistakably regal air to solar leos. these are dignified — even noble — folk. leos have a reputation for being conceited, ), CAPRICORN MOON ( because they generally keep their emotions under check, moon in capricorn people come across as competent people. however turbulent their emotions may be under the surface, lunar capricorns keep cool-headed--and they come across as steady and reliable people ) and LEO RISING ( leo rising people cannot help but be noticed. they radiate a special energy and magnetism that gets others' attention. sometimes it's due to a regal manner that simply demands interest from others )!!

lunar zodiac sign: rabbit ( quiet, elegant, kind, responsible...pfft )

blood type: ab+ ( these people are complicated and can have dual personalities like they can be shy like A type as well as outgoing like B type. they try to keep their true personalities from strangers, thereby making most believe that they are a mixed personality. it is hard to decode these people until you know them thoroughly )

eyesight: nearsighted, but predominantly wears contacts, glasses are reserved to the comfort of her dorm room — her prescription is - 2.50 L and - 2.00 R. 

piercings: both ear loves ( three times ), a helix and forward helix on the left ear, a surface tragus and daith on the right.

tattoos: on her upper arm ( the right one ) she has a few flowers, tied together by rope. these flowers are a gladiolus ( meaning strength ), a wax flower ( for lasting love ) a ranunclus ( for radiant charm ), and a protea ( for courage ). on her left side ( over her ribs ) is her name iseul going down vertically, and horizontally ( one letter from her name coinciding with a letter from each of these ), she has a few lines of words from philosophers, the first being a quote by ralph waldo emerson, which reads “the infinitude of the private man” one by friedrich nietzsche which reads “there are no facts, only interpretations” one by jean-paul sartre that reads “condemned to be free,” and the last line is one from socrates which reads, “i know that i know nothing”. 

what type of clothes do they wear: out of uniform, iseul covers herself in color ( if the bright orange hair is any indication; an infraction she refuses to correct ). she likes to experiment with the clothes she wears, melding comfort and art together into a style that is iseul’s and hers alone. silk tops paired with mom jeans or tailored sweats, oversized button-ups, tucked into black skirts. the girl knows how to dress her body and is not afraid of trying things that others may be afraid of.

religion: deist ( belief in a ‘clockmaker god’ — that is to say, iseul believes there is a higher power, but is unsure if this higher power has a form )

allergies: pollen and cashews

PERSONALITY

are they introverted or extroverted? an ambivert — iseul is something of a chameleon, and shines in the company of others, but she doesn’t mind being alone, and sometimes she just needs to get away from others. there are so many fake people who still surround her, and it just gets to be too much.

what are their bad habits? ignoring people whenever she sees the need. it may not be for any reason other than iseul doesn’t feel like talking to you anymore; incessantly tapping her pencil on her desk; if she’s bored ( be it in conversation, or class, or whatever else ) she’ll just open a book and zone out.

what do they like to do in their free time? cultum has a gym ( thank all the gods ) and iseul has been using it for solo baseball practices; she doesn’t play for a team anymore, but she still loves the sport. if she’s not doing that, she studying ( i know, it defeats the purpose of ‘free time’, but she’s a double major ). and if she’s not studying, or reading some book about socrates or hume, then she’s doing other things to pass the time ( if her roommate is gone for a few hours ).

what is their greatest fear? allowing herself to feel once more; it’s a complicated situation, but she has maintained this dull version of her emotions for so long and is scared of the true weight of both happiness and sadness as well as everything in between.

any guilty pleasures? you’d think it were sex, but no. it’s me-days; an empty dorm, a bubble bath, some american jazz and a few candles ( maybe even her trusty buddy ), paired with the cheesiest most romantic movies netflix or hulu have to offer. oh and let’s not forget plushy toys — her bed has about five at the moment

pet peeves: chewing loudly, and people who have no concept of boundaries or personal space ( in reality this may be just about anyone who tries to get a little clo.se to iseul, but she’d rather not ).

what is their favorite song and why? treat me bad, k. will and hwasa — she feels as if the song speaks to her, and the lyrics “please trample on my heart and any small hope so i can stop wanting you,” are very representative of who iseul is as a person.

who would be the first person they’d call if they were in trouble? in theory, it would be seungcheol, the gentler and much older man she had first slept with. the man was dependable, if not much else. in practice...her dad, honestly. even though their relationship is very strained, he is the one man she’d turn to. 

EDUCATION

where did they attend before cultum university? inchang high school, one of the oldest private high schools in seoul.

what were after school activities they did back in high school? iseul has been taking violin class since she was very young; on mondays, wednesdays and fridays, she could be found in the music room, practicing for a concerto. tuesdays and thursdays were for basketball practice. in addition, iseul was one of the few students to have an added class before the start of school that focused on college preparation.

what is the most impressive award/merit they received? second place in the isang yun competition for violinists — was critiqued heavily for a perceived reservation in her performance; although it was operationally a perfect performance, there was a lack of emotion and as such the music felt lifeless and robotic.

what is their current favorite class? her philosophy of mind class; the course description is: materialism, rather than solving the problem of mind, consciousness and intentionality, has spawned numerous philosophical perplexities. this course will examine a variety of philosophical problems associated with contemporary models of the mind ( mind/body dualism; mind/brain identity theories; behaviorism; functionalism and artificial intelligence; eliminative naturalism and folk psychology; biological naturalism ). the course will also look at contemporary philosophical accounts of personhood and personal identity, particularly narrative accounts of the self.

aside from their current club, what is another they’d like to join? the violin club if there was one...or some club about debating different philosophies.   

what kind of job are they hoping for once they graduate? she would love to go into something along the lines of environmental ethics ( or continue her education ), but it’s most likely that she’ll become the new president/CEO of her father’s company, hence the economics double major and business management minor ( her father told her, she could virtually study anything so long as she also studied what he wanted her to; and this is also a way to keep her busy and from indulging in bad habits ).

name three items that were confiscated from them at the beginning of the school year: her cellphone ( at her father’s request, she is only allowed supervised access to a phone twice a week, and she may only call family or close friends within her age-range ), a limited-edition copy of vladimir nabokov’s the annotated lolita ( this was deemed profanity by the cultum administration ), and finally one of those fill-in books called burn after writing, which comes with a pack of matches stapled to the front ( not that she was going to do so, but any flammable items are frowned upon ).  items that were almost confiscated include her laptop ( although she has limited internet access ), a glass water bottle, and a blank journal. items that went unnoticed but would have been confiscated include the vibrator and bottle of lube in her violin case, and a copy of anne rice’s belinda with a faded cover.

FAMILY

do they have any relatives that are alumni? both her paternal aunts ( twins ) are cultum alumna, and it seems that attending the college was able to set them on a path that iseul’s grandparents deemed appropriate.

do they have any siblings? are they close to them? nope, she’s an only child. 

what is their role in their family? iseul floats in limbo; she is neither child nor parent...more of an acquaintance to her parents. her father is as fatherly as time allows, but she was mostly cared for by the help; many dinners were had alone, and the house was lacking in life.

[thekamilac]

Vous avez été bon, 2017

Already four days deep into 2018 and I’m finally giving 2017 the goodbye it well deserved. True, this year was eventful. And true, it enjoyed tumbling my life into a complete upside down by halving itself into the best and the worst.

Starting the year right by completing my major internship in the hospital and spending my holidays with old and new friends. The year Course Audit commenced which is also the defining moment of all graduating students. The Baccalaureate Mass that took place on May and the grand fireworks display paired with Coldplay music. Of course the Pharmacy Board Review for more than a month and dealing again with Pharmacology like I never learned it at the university in the first place. The year I entered my dream Med School and becoming a licensed pharmacist after making a lot of alay quizzes and exams.

You know, I might have said a couple of times during the earlier half of the year that things have been going great. And as an avid reader of horoscopes, may it be solely for humor purposes or not, I can confidently say they have not prepared a Sag properly for the latter half of 2017 (At least for me - because I’m my own kind of Sag ha ha). The transition between July to August was a breach of the non-existent contract offering a (1) challenging (2) but not too rocky life, (3) the type which I could easily brush off (4) and remedied by rom com movies (5) and wake up in the morning without puffy eyes reminding me of what had happened in the last few nights. True to its word, life became challenging. But it got to a point wherein I could barely manage life’s jabs for me. In the hopes of gaining a permanent companion to a place I barely knew, I have only built insecurities and looked down upon myself. I began to doubt people’s intentions and hated them for all reasons. I ran myself down by always taking into account of what would people think of me now that I confessed I wasn’t as strong as I claim to be, and I hated myself for that too. And the rest of the year was kindred to the aforementioned logjam.

Once upon a time, it was 2017 and I was lost. But as I was filled with apprehensions and mistaken intentions, I also began to learn turning the other cheek. The universe supplied me enough with goodwill to survive the rest of the year: Courage to confront what is not making me happy anymore and people to remind me I was never alone. I learned who was really there and who was just there to tell me “I told you so’s” while I cry myself to sleep. I learned that I didn’t need more to feel happier. I learned to be more accepting to trials. And I learned that the most important ones are already with me.

You’ve been fairly good, 2017. And I was ready for a long time to let you go. Happy transforming yourself into a more kind and peaceful year.  Carrying over my favorite quote I have learned in 2015, “To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.” -  Friedrich Nietzsche

[missmisanthropic]

Good luck with your finals and thank you for accepting this. As this comes a bit late, you’ll get 7 questions for this first ask (no deadline so you can reply at your earliest convenience). Name (and elaborate why if you wish to) your top: 1 book-to-film/tv show adaptation, 2 celebrity crushes, 3 movies/tv shows, 4 male characters, 5 female characters, 6 relationships/pairings, 7 quotes/dialogues.

Hi Advent Calendar Anon!

Aww, thank you. I truly appreciate your well wishes and am honored to participate. Thank /you/ for doing this! :-) 

1.The Harry Potter series! The books and films were like a second companion to me through my childhood. While I do agree the earlier films had a better showing than the later adaptions (in terms of honoring the books), it was cool to kind of grow up with the characters. Also, I’m partial to books/show that involve magic (and basilisks ).

2.Oh, these change quite frequently. I’m currently rather taken with Adelaide Kane and um, Daisy Ridley. (Lowkey breaking the rules, but  Emilia Clarke would be a contender among others…)

3.Lilo and Stitch, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, and Frozen.

 4.Oh, well let’s see here…: Harry Potter (more so because I went through the journey with him. He’s alright.) , Clark Kent (in general, but Smallville comes to mind. Gentleman ftw.), Eric from the Little Mermaid (he was my favorite prince, as a kid, when asked to pick one. He’s Extra), and um, Gatsby from the Great Gatsby (his determination, which some may call obsession, was inspiring and kind of sad to read about).

5. This will be hard, haha. I love so many: Princess Leia (she’s a badass), Hermione Granger (I enjoyed reading how studious she was–I feel she’s a good role model.), Morgana Pendragon (long live Morgana! Her personal story arc can be relatable for some people. It’s probably why she’s one of my faves.), 

Leliana from Dragon Age (she’s really great with bow and arrow, knives, and…probably could make most things into a weapon. Assassin prowess aside, she goes through a lot of personal growth [well, in my MC’s play through] and can give hope to people about righting past wrongs.), and um, Xena the Warrior Princess (I saw the reruns as a kid. Eventually won my parents over enough to track down the box sets long after production of them. Xena was probably the first character I got /really/ attached to and wanted to emulate. I’ve not seen the series in ages, but remember literally mourning her [drew a sword + grave stone with ‘RIP Xena’ on a sticky note with blue flowers, which was pointedly placed on my parents’ door.] when my parents said I was too young to continue the series.) >.>

6. Hmm, I’ll do a bit of a throwback: Faberry (probs my first ship? Didn’t know Ao3 existed back then, but they were the reason why I used fanfiction.net), Quinntana (Fayana (so much potential. I will not get started on a rant though), Warden/Leliana (one of the best video game romances. I liked the depth…wish more games took notes from DA:O), Morgana + Aithusa (yes, obviously as a friendship. >.> This may seem obscure, but Morgana went through /so/ much and the fact the dragon stood by her and she by the dragon was touching to me. I admire it. If someone just gave Morgana some of their time and a chance…ugh.), and um, Lilo + Stitch (again, friendship or actually they became family. It’s sweet! Family isn’t always dictated by blood or uh, planet…or species).

7. Yay! I love quotes so much:

“She was like the moon—part of her was always hidden away.” ― Dia Reeves, Bleeding Violet

“It’s all too much and not enough at the same time”.— Jack Kerouac (via quotemadness)“They call you heartless; but you have a heart and I love you for being ashamed to show it”.— Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra (via books-n-quotes)“You’re so calm and quiet, you never say. But there are things inside you. I see them sometimes, hiding in your eyes.”— Tracy Chevalier (via quotemadness)“People talk sometimes of a bestial cruelty, but that’s a great injustice and insult to the beasts; a beast can never be so cruel as a man, so artistically cruel.”— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov (via books-n-quotes)“This is the secret of the stars, I tell myself. In the end, we are alone. No matter how close you seem, no one else can touch you.”— Beth Revis, Across the Universe “Her eyes are pure stars, and her fingers, if they touch you, freeze you to the bone.”— Virginia Woolf, Orlando: A Biography

Hope you have a lovely day/night! 

[thebee2man]

1-100 >:)

oh boy, here we go

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? No.

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? Nobody has really “hurt” me, but I probably would.

3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” A cat! :3

4: What’s something you really want right now? My dad back. (Too real, sorry)

5: Are you afraid of falling in love? Nope!

6: Do you like the beach? Eh. I don’t like the sand, but I like the water.

7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? Nope!

8: What’s the background on your cell? Well, the background on my iPad is a nice lil picture of Sollux.

9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? Probably just my own :/

10: Do you like your phone? I don’t have one.

11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Hell no.

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? I don’t have any,,, recent contacts :’)

13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? Rottweiler!

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional, definitely. 

15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? Zoo!

16: Are you tired? Nope!

17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? Well, I don’t have a phone. Rip

18: Are they a relative? No???

19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? I’ve never been in a relationship.

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? I’ve never,,, kissed anyone.

21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? Eh, probably not.

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? See 20

23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? None.

24: Is there a certain quote you live by? Not really.

25: What’s on your mind? Nietzsche and his awful mustache.

26: Do you have any tattoos? Nope.

27: What is your favorite color? Probably purple.

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? I don’t know???

29: Who are you texting? My friend Alex!

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? :’)

31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? No, not really.

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Hell yeah!

33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Hell no!

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? No.

35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? HA

36: Were you single on Valentines Day? Yup.

37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed? :’’)

38: What do your friends call you? Sollux/Curtis usually.

39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? No? My mom, I guess.

40: Have you ever cried over a text? Nope.

41: Where’s your last bruise located? I don’t have any

42: What is it from? I DON’T HAVE ONE

43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Umm. Never?

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? My friend Emma.

45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? Nope.

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? No.

47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Hell no.

48: Do you make supper for your family? Nope.

49: Does your bedroom have a door? Um, yes.

50: Top 3 web-pages? Mspafanventures, AO3, and Troll Me. It’s useful for Sollux’s quirk :’)

51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? No.

52: Does anything on your body hurt? Nope

53: Are goodbyes hard for you? No?

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? I have no fuckin clue

55: How is your hair? Um, like, fine?

56: What do you usually do first in the morning? Eat. Just, eat.

57: Do you think two people can last forever? Sure!

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? Yep.

59: Green or purple grapes? Purple!

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? Anytime anyone wants one!

61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? No.

62: When will be the next time you text someone? Probably in like 10 mins.

63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? Probably asleep.

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. Probably still asleep.

65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Yeah, and the person was no one.

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yeah! All of my friends.

67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? I hugged my friend! :D

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably “I’m not going to get any sleep”

69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? No?

70: How many windows are open on your computer? 5 tabs on Google Chrome.

71: How many fingers do you have? 10.

72: What is your ringtone? Don’t have a cellphone.

73: How old will you be in 5 months? 14 still.

74: Where is your Mum right now? In her house.

75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? Because I’m an extremely unlovable person :’)

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? No.

77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? No.

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? Yeah!

79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? Nope.

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Nah

81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? 1

82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Um, no?

83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Probably.

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? Probably my friends Emma and Alex.

85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? Yeah!

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? Nothing, really.

87: Who was your last received call from? My friend Emma.

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? Yeah, because they don’t have feelings 

89: What is something you wish you had more of? Money.

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? Nah

91: Do you sleep with your window open? Yep!

92: Do you get along with girls? Hell yeah!

93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? Nope!

94: Does sex mean love? No.

95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? Locked alone with myself.

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? :’)

97: Did you sleep alone this week? :’’’’’)

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? Yes!

99: Do you believe in love at first sight? It can happen.

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? I don’t even remember

[clmcl]

HEy! could u rec me some good dramione blogs? (and fics please im starving)

 Yes! I don’t know a lot of dramione blogs, but I really like these:

Columbrina: It’s not specific for dramione, but she posts a lot of aesthetis and moodbords. Ah! And the most important: she’s a wonderful writter and somentimes you can find stuff like that.

Hermione Fanfics: I’ve just discovered this blog. You can find some good fanfics pairing Hermione and Draco.

Incorrect Dramione Quotes: A lot of funny and romantic quotes (you can stalk and be happy)

Harry potter shit: good dramione AU here.

The Tale of the Ferret and the Otter: quotes from dramione fanfics (the last update was 2 years ago, but you can stalk)

I Dream of Dramione: a lovely blog with lovely stuff.

I will put some fanfics here, but if you think it’s not enough, you can ask me again or go here or here.

How To Marry A Malfoy: It’s funny, smut and romantic.  “One egregious mistake and she never wanted to hear his name ever again, but the Fates force them together eight months later. How will she cope without surrendering to or strangling him? Will she be able to?” COMPLETE (Chapters: 17 - Words: 132,634)

Inverse: “Dumbledore asks Hermione to carry out a secret mission before the start of her fourth year. “Keep the Time Turner, Miss Granger. I want you to use it to help Mr. Malfoy reevaluate his beliefs. He is now depending on you.” This one is soooo good! It’s not complete, but the last update was inDec 29, 2016 . (Chapters: 29 - Words: 168,733)

In Reverse: “Your hair,” he says, without looking at her. “It’s enormous, you know.” A few, silent seconds pass, before Hermione makes a happy sort of sob. “Your chin is too sharp,” she whispers. “We grew into them.” “We certainly did.” Suddenly, her perfect mouth is on his, and he realizes that maybe he hasn’t ruined anything after all. (Words: 9,566)

The Letters From Everyone: “A collection of short letters and notes sent to and from various characters throughout a year of their lives.” fluffy and funny

Knowing You: Post-Hogwarts/War, forced marriage law. This one is really good. COMPLETE ( Chapters: 30 - Words: 256,588)

Educating Draco: funny and smut. COMPLETE (Chapters: 2 - Words: 15,288)

Graveyard Valentine: sad and beautiful. COMPLETE (Words: 9,193)

Turncoat: Switching sides. “I have only one condition, and I trust it won’t be hard for you to meet. I want Granger.” It’s one of my favorites. COMPLETE (Chapters: 101 - Words: 256,732)

Commentating: smut and funny. COMPLETE (Words: 1,723)

Physically Impossible: funny and smut. COMPLETE (Words: 5,299)

What the Room Requieres: “Hermione is the one who finds Draco weeping in the bathroom. He flees. She chases him into the Room of Requirement, and the room forces them to face their greatest fears together in order to find the door.” beautiful, a little bit sad and sweet. COMPLETE (Chapters: 26 - Words: 111,821)

Lock The Door: funny and smut. COMPLETE (Words: 4,934)

The Nietzsche Classes: “The Ministry takes action against the remaining prejudice in the wizarding society and asks Hermione for help. “What do you want? Money? Power? Name your price, Granger. I’m not about to let pride get in my way when an Azkaban sentence is on the line.”  COMPLETE (Chapters: 15 - Words: 45,807)

Twelfth Use Of Dragon’s Blood: “Draco and Hermione do not have a conversation in the library. No, really.” This one is very cute! COMPLETE  (Words: 686)

Olivie Blake (ff.net/tumblr) (I didn���t read all of her fanfics, so take a look in her profile. I’m sure it’s amazing)

Ride or Die: “The Death Eaters are an outlaw motorcycle club run by Tom Riddle, a notoriously ruthless leader who gradually works the brotherhood into high stakes criminal activity after the death of their previous president. Draco Malfoy is heir to the throne, but his life abruptly changes when fate lands him in the hands of a young doctor who is about to get in way over her head.” An amazing AU fanfic. It’s not complete, but she posts regularly.

Nightmares and Nocturnes: “A story per night to save her life. Dramione, dystopian post-war AU” This one is sooo good! I love it. It’s not complete, but she posts regularly.

Columbrina (ff.net/tumblr) (same for her. Amazing)

Like Brothers: “Minerva McGonagall steps in on the awful night the Potter are killed and arranges to have Harry Potter raised by Sirius Black and his somewhat cousins, the Malfoys. Draco and Harry grow up as almost brothers and everything - everything - is different. Gryffindor!Draco. Dramione. AU.” Hiatus (sad but true) (Chapters: 41 - Words: 97,690)

If I’m Gonna Fall in Love: “Draco had made a list of everything he needed to fall in love. She had to be beautiful, and deferential, and from a good family. She had to be someone his parents would like, someone his friends would approve of. But how was he supposed to meet the perfect girl if he kept getting caught up in arguments with Potter’s bushy-haired sidekick?” A lovely one-shot (Words: 6,785 )

No One Minds: fluffy and funny AU (Chapters: 5 - Words: 21,678 COMPLETE)

Madness in Love: With the Order of the Phoenix recast in popular opinion as dangerous, a law is put into effect to have them work off their debt to society via what is termed ‘good, honest labor’ and it leaves Hermione Granger sitting in Draco Malfoy’s parlor as a smirking Ministry official condemns her to be her former enemy’s slave. COMPLETE. (Chapters: 5 - Words: 14,201)

The History Project: Draco Malfoy finds a way to magically write notes in History of Magic but the only person the spell will work with is Hermione Granger, or so he claims. (Chapters: 19 - Words: 15,937)

Fairy Stone: Draco is sentenced to one year in Azkaban, release contingent upon someone willing to vouch for his good behavior. Hermione does. “Oh, I want you,” he said. “You, just you, always you. You forever and you for always and you until the bloody sun explodes.” COMPLETE. (Chapters: 4 - Words: 13,827)

The Green Girl: Hermione is sorted into Slytherin; how will things play out differently when the brains of the Golden Trio has different friends? COMPLETE (Chapters: 22 - Words: 150,508)

Veela fanfictions:

Veela And The Perils Of Losing Control: smut and funny. “When Snape stops administering the control potion for Draco’s veela instincts thanks to a little meddling from Blaise, Ron and Harry, all hell breaks loose and trouble abounds. Especially for poor unsuspecting Hermione.” COMPLETE (Words: 5,468)

Silver Eyes: “I’m so sorry.” The familiar voice spoke again. This was enough to wake Hermione’s brain from her trance. Enough to open her eyes, and see two magnificently silver eyes dissaparate in the dark”. COMPLETE (Chapters: 29 - Words: 84,108)

Internal Yearning: “As if becoming a Veela wasn’t bad enough, he had to go and find out his mate was one Hermione Granger. Merlin, he was in for a rough year at Hogwarts.” (Chapters: 28 - Words: 73,691)

Well.. I hope this can help you. Have a nice year! XOXO Feel free to ask me again :)

[marcusssanderson]

50 Friedrich Nietzsche quotes on life and love

Our latest collection of Friedrich Nietzsche quotes on Everyday Power Blog.

Friedrich Nietzsche was a German philosopher, essayist, and cultural critic whose writings had a major influence on Western philosophy and intellectual history. His body of work covered a wide variety of topics, including religion, history, arts, culture, science, and philology.

Born on October 15, 1844, Nietzsche began his career as a classical philologist before turning to philosophy. In his works, he attempted to unmask the motives that underlie traditional Western religion, morality, and philosophy. His ideas had a profound impact on generations of philosophers, psychologists, poets, theologians, playwrights, and novelists.

Most of Nietzsche’s life was plagued by health problems and he suffered a complete loss of his mental faculties in 1889 at age 44. He died in 1900.

Although his name was later invoked by fascists to advance their own German nationalist ideologies, Nietzsche was opposed to antisemitism and nationalism.

Below are some thought-provoking Friedrich Nietzsche quotes that will inspire you to think like the greats and tap into your Everyday Power.

Friedrich Nietzsche quotes on life and love

1.) “It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

2.) “To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

3.) “We love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving.”  – Friedrich Nietzsche

4.) “Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

5.) “A pair of powerful spectacles has sometimes sufficed to cure a person in love.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

6.) “The demand to be loved is the greatest of all arrogant presumptions.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

7.) “Whatever is done for love always occurs beyond good and evil.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

8.) “Art is the proper task of life.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

9.) “I know of no better life purpose than to perish in attempting the great and the impossible.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

10.) “Life is that which must overcome itself again and again.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

Friedrich Nietzsche quotes about happiness and truth

11.) “And we should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once. And we should call every truth false which was not accompanied by at least one laugh.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

12.) “How little it takes to make us happy! The sound of a bagpipe. Without music life would be a mistake. The German even imagines God as singing songs.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

13.) “In every real man a child is hidden that wants to play.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

14.) “The most common lie is that which one lies to himself; lying to others is relatively an exception.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

15.) “What is great in man is that he is a bridge and not a goal. ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

16.) “The surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

17.) “Underneath this reality in which we live and have our being, another and altogether different reality lies concealed.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

18.) “People are always angry at anyone who chooses very individual standards for his life; because of the extraordinary treatment which that man grants to himself, they feel degraded, like ordinary beings.” ” – Friedrich Nietzsche

19.) “I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

20.) “It is hard enough to remember my opinions, without also remembering my reasons for them!” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

Thought-provoking Friedrich Nietzsche quotes

21.) “. . . It seems to me that a human being with the very best of intentions can do immeasurable harm, if he is immodest enough to wish to profit those whose spirit and will are concealed from him. . . .” – Friedrich Nietzsche

22.) “That which does not kill us makes us stronger.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

23.) “All truly great thoughts are conceived by walking.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

24.) “You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

25.) “In heaven, all the interesting people are missing.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

26.) “The man of knowledge must be able not only to love his enemies but also to hate his friends.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

27.) “When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

28.) “Every deep thinker is more afraid of being understood than of being misunderstood.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

29.) “One ought to hold on to one’s heart; for if one lets it go, one soon loses control of the head too.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

30.) “A matter that becomes clear ceases to concern us.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

Friedrich Nietzsche quotes that will change your thinking

31.) “Here the ways of men divide. If you wish to strive for peace of soul and happiness, then believe; if you wish to be a disciple of truth, then inquire.”– Friedrich Nietzsche

32.) “Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings — always darker, emptier and simpler.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

33.) “Be careful, lest in casting out your demon you exorcise the best thing in you.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

34.) “One repays a teacher badly if one always remains nothing but a pupil.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

35.) “The higher we soar, the smaller we appear to those who cannot fly.”– Friedrich Nietzsche

36.) “One must give value to their existence by behaving as if ones very existence were a work of art.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

37.) “He who climbs upon the highest mountains laughs at all tragedies, real or imaginary.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

38.) “A thought comes when it will, not when I will.”– Friedrich Nietzsche

39.) “A politician divides mankind into two classes: tools and enemies.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

40.) “There will always be rocks in the road ahead of us. They will be stumbling blocks or stepping stones; it all depends on how you use them.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

More Friedrich Nietzsche quotes that will challenge you to think differently

41.) “No one can construct for you the bridge upon which precisely you must cross the stream of life, no one but you yourself alone.”― Friedrich Nietzsche

42.) “You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist.”― Friedrich Nietzsche

43.) “A good writer possesses not only his own spirit but also the spirit of his friends.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

44.) “A thought, even a possibility, can shatter and transform us.”― Friedrich Nietzsche

45.) “There are no facts, only interpretations.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

46.) “If you know the why, you can live any how.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

47.) “The author must keep his mouth shut when his work starts to speak.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

48.) “There is an old illusion. It is called good and evil.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

49.) “In the mountains of truth, you never climb in vain.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

50.) “Anyone who has declared someone else to be an idiot, a bad apple, is annoyed when it turns out in the end that he isn’t. ” ― Friedrich Neitzsche

Which Friedrich Nietzsche quotes were your favorite?

Although most of Friendrich Nietzsche’s life was plagued by health problems, he managed to leave a lasting impact on generations of philosophers, novelists, and psychologists.

His words can help us reflect on our past and present lives, as well as the person we want to be in the future.

Hopefully, these Friedrich Nietzsche quotes have inspired you to think differently about life and love.

Did you enjoy these Friedrich Nietzsche quotes? Which of the quotes was your favorite? Tell us in the comment section below. We would love to hear al about it.

The post 50 Friedrich Nietzsche quotes on life and love appeared first on Everyday Power Blog.