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[tamarajare]

Lemon and flowers, still life, oil on canvas #art #painting #oilpainting #canvas #paintings #paintersofinstagram #paintersoninstagram #painterstoday #paintingtoday #artistsofinstagram #artistsofig #artgalleries #artwork #figurativepainting #figurativeartist #artconsultation #arttoday #artadvisor #artblog #artconsultant #fineart #visualart #tamarajare #newcontemporaryfigurative #contemporarypainting #newcontemporaryart #stilllifepainting #naturemorte #modernpainting (at Ljubljana, Slovenia) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6_hb93FcM4/?igshid=oih7537i29y8

[matlakas]

"Hypnotic visions of society imposed" 2021 112x98cm acrylic on canvas #art #painting #contemporaryart #brainwhash #artistsoninstagram #instaart #instafresh #bnw #monochrome #blackandwhitepainting #acrylic #design #acryliconcanvas #artistswork #paintingforyou #painter #paintingongoing #painterstoday #contmporaryart #essenceofart #matlakas #artstudio #fineart #frieze #canvas #paintingoncanvas #technology #control #society #brainless (at London, Unιted Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVOSd6_ssxz/?utm_medium=tumblr

[sommer-rain]

I haven’t been at least three days on the computer. Some days you just gotta do something else wether you’re still in your apartment or not. Just gotta take a short break sometimes.

And yesterday i was all sick so i only was in bed.

On saturday e went on an exhibition at Tikanoja’s home of art museum. I think it was a rather good one.

Was back at the Evening painterstoday, first time of the term and it was nice and all that. I hoped i really would have had some inspiration but fuck..it’s just..it just seams fucking dead and i really did try. I know i easily try too hard but whatever i tried it just failed anyway. I hate this shit. I want to paint so badly i really can’t find any inspiration. I really have tried - for long now. It makes me so upset and angry at myself!

Aand tomorrow is work at Tb and since last week, the only thing i can think of working at Tb is what happened then and i will never forget that! It feelt heavy and burdens me, makes me draw those long heavy sighs that i only do when something is majory difficult. Mentally or not (but mor mentally i think).   -What am i suppose to do? If i stop working at Tb, it feelt like i betraying a workplace that does need my work but it feels like shit even thinking of the work there before i’ve even arrived there in the morning..or even any day before i’m going there.

And i’m still afraid whatever it is, will make me soon go into a next depression, whether it’s work related or not, wether it’s tb or not. I’ve been through so many depressions it’s so easily for me to get one nowdays since the two last years. It scares ansd worried me. It doesn’t need to be a big thing, it cold be a fucking random rather small thing being a trigger of depression anyway, and depressions are always so fucking tricky and sneaky.

Great, thinking of all that just made me in bad mood.

[tamarajare]

Arboretum #arboretum #arboretumvolčjipotok #arboretumvolcjipotok #nature #tree #trees #photomood # #painterlife #paintersofinstagram #paintersoninstagram #paintersdaily #paintersoninsta #painterstoday #instapic #pic #mood #photography #tamarajare #tamarajareart #slovenija #slovenia (at Arboretum Volčji Potok) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2n9oPMFgQs/?igshid=14qgnrzlrbk5f