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[becwinger]

Dear Morgan...

Throughout the last months I have been more than happy to see you beside me, to be able to talk to you and hear your opinion on all those things that worry me. For those things are plentiful and they keep me awake every night. I am were I wished to be. I found a place where I am excepted and respected, a place where my life means something, but now that I gained freedom for myself and those like me I find my poor heart conflicted with even bigger problems, with mistakes, and with fears that are more than I can handle. The kingdoms are working against us, something is moving in the shadows, you said as much yourself. I feel as if I cannot trust anyone, but... I may never speak these words to you in person, know though that even if I claim something else, I deeply trust you. You may be dangerous, you may work towards your own ends, but I have never seen you being cruel. You are dangerous when you need to be, you are violent when you need to be, and you stand beside me when I need you to be you. Ever since those early days of rebellion when we met in a kingdom slowly decending into chaos, I knew that you were out there somewhere, that you were surviving. And even if it may sound strange, knowing just that gave me hope. You are such a powerful being, so strong in the face of destiny... You show me that it is possible to survive in a world like ours and you are always honest. You speak the truth to me, you call me out on my mistakes, you are the only advisor I truly know. I realise such ostentatious profundities of feelings are not what you desire, I cannot help but write these lines to you. I cannot help and tell you how thankful I am for knowing you. And I do it in a self serving way, knowing that writing this down makes me understand what power you have over me, and therefore over my people. I will not turn away from you, I am not afraid of you any longer, for your taught me to be strong, you taught me to fight with the weapons fate gave to me and now I am determined to use them. Maybe not for good, but for the survival of my kind. Thank you for helping me become who I am now. And please, I beg of you, never turn away from me for I would despise myself were I ever forced to turn against you. You are more than an ally to me, you are one of the few friends I still have, maybe the only one. I survive much now, you took care of that, but I could not survive being alone again. I am not as strong as you are. So please, whatever the next months may bring towards us, stay save, stay strong, stay you.

Brynja

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