#our lord and savior Greta Gerwig

[tallmadgeandtea]

Life in Occupied Philadelphia it’s fantastic!

[thelasttime]

okay so the TL;DR is I’m thinking about buying Eras Tour London tickets for me and my… situationship (for lack of a better term)

full background: he has been my best friend for the last five years and we go through phases where the boundaries of our friendship are… blurry. I’m hopelessly in love with him but I’ve never really known how he feels about me, and it’s also complicated by the fact that even though I can’t shake my attachment to him, I know that even if he declared his love for me, it wouldn’t work because we don’t want the same things in a life partner, in our future, etc. fast forward to last month when my grandma dies and I find out she left me a surprisingly large sum of money. I’m going to be smart and use the VAST majority of it to pay off my student loans, make good investments, etc. but tbh I’ve had a really hard summer and feel like I deserve to treat myself a little and I’ve really wanted to go to London and while I was lucky enough to see Eras (in Nashville!) I had obstructed view nosebleeds and would love to see the show again with a better view. however, I don’t really want to go alone, and this male friend of mine was really sad he couldn’t get Eras tickets the first time around. BUT if I wanted to bring him with me to the London show, I would definitely have to pay his way.

major pro: he is definitely the biggest Swiftie in my life, and I want to go with someone who would bring the same Feral Swiftie energy as me (even my friends that I went with in Nash don’t love Taylor like he does). So I know we would have a really good time. And blurry boundaries aside, he’s been a really good and steadfast friend to me, and I would love to do something really nice for him to thank him for putting up with all of my grad school menty bs that I’ve had in the last two years.

obvious con: this is such fucking SIMP BEHAVIOR I feel like our Lord and Savior Greta Gerwig did not give us the Barbie movie just so I could spend my INHERITANCE on some MAN who doesn’t even have the balls to tell me how he really feels about me. when my friends find out what I’ve done they will CLOWN ME and I will DESERVE IT.

anyways sorry this was so long but would love your thoughts on whether or not I should do it aldjfkladjfdsa;paekr

oh lawrd 😭😭😭 gut is telling me no to be honest bestie ……….. note that i am incredibly jaded about situationships and having unrequited crushes on people who don’t deserve my love, but i can foresee a future where things Could Get Weird if anything happens and then you have this memory of eras tour with him in it … just my two cents but that’s also because i would rather bring a platonic bestie so we can plan our outfits and dance together wildly