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[wassupmygays]

every day i think about ponyboy figuring out that he is queer, and being so scared, and being so adamant that he cannot ever tell darry. because darry is tough and hes always going by the rules and even after the events of the book i know it took a long time to get over how he felt about his older brother.

meanwhile darry is just watching his little brother flounder and start to pull away again, and at first hes not sure why but slowly he starts to connect the dots. and god does it hurt to realize that his little brother is going through the exact same journey darry went through all those years ago, and pony doesn't even feel safe enough to talk to darry about it. but also, its not like darry ever talked to anyone about him being gay either, because you just cant trust anyone with that in 1960s oklahoma. so he knows what pony is struggling with but he can't go bring himself to help pony, not when he clearly doesn't want darry to know. and just

ough. queer curtis brothers hurt me so bad and i think about them all the time