#ough. being in this scene and in the emotions. *aough*

[landfilloftrash]

is there anything so undoing as a daughter ?

[domokunrainbowkinz]

ITS BEEN A WHILE BUT I AM BACK...WITH MY READS.....

one take (manhwa / novel)

sugar trap (18+, manhwa/novel)

you get me going (18+, manhwa)

the vessel of a transparent love (manga)

lovesick dog (18+, manhwa)

perle (18+, manhwa/novel)

mouth to mouse (manga, oneshot)

my secret stalker (18+, manga)

I want to be killed by your beautiful self (manga)

one take: this was an interesting one. I read the manhwa so idk how well it adapted the original novel, but I found the underlying theme of lies vs reality interesting, and when you add in the background setting of all the characters being actors working on a tv show, it makes for some interesting discussions. I personally read it more for the mystery and less for the romance, the rship between the MC and ML is a strange one that i was like "damn ok i guess LOL". the ML is written as someone who doesn't understand or know how to express love and affection, all his attempts are basically him faking it and lying, bc he literally cannot feel these things. a lot of times you read about yandere characters who are "emotionless" but they are portrayed as just someone who's deeply repressed, but this guy really is written as someone with no emotions or empathy. I'm honestly not sure how to feel about this one, bc while I found it unique with interesting themes and ideas, my emotional rxn was more "huh that was an interesting read...anyways-" and I am a person who judges my likes / dislikes of media primarily by how it made me feel lol. I would say this one tickled my brain, but not so much my heart.

sugar trap (18+): look. sometimes I just want to read something super unhinged and freaky, and by GOD did this one deliver. only 28 chapters out so far and they only Just fucked for what I assume is probably the first out of many many MANY times and I am not above admitting that I am SAT. I got my POPCORN out. diabolical levels of misunderstanding that is more funny than frustrating, like the ML is concocting a delusional fantasy of insane proportions out of the MC who is literally Just A Guy trying his fucking hardest to stay in the closet, even going so far as making up a fake spouse and wearing a ring at work so ppl dont ask questions. definitely a guilty pleasure read for me, sometimes u just wanna turn your brain off and read about a guy bouncing on it freaky style while the other guy is begging to be choked and degraded. I don't think I'm gonna read the novel for this lol.

you get me going (18+): ooooh this one was cute!!! fun office romance with an annoyances to lovers couple. I really liked how open they were with each other and also how down bad they were LOL esp the ML my man was down stupid bad near the end. fun read if you're looking for a low-stakes fluffy story.

the vessel of a transparent love: AOUGH....ough this one made me tear up at multiple points, what do they put in short yaois that make intimate scenes so tender like that shit HURTED!!!! a melancholic story about a lonely guy with miserable luck who meets a supernatural being that lives off the negative emotions of humans, this is ASKING to be tragedy and it does veer into that territory for a good chunk but they have a happy ending!!!! overall very good short aough.....

lovesick dog (18+): I really liked the character writing in this one, the convos and interactions between the 2 leads are so intimate and warm. the art style is also gorgeous, I looooove how the artist draws faces and expressions augh!!! my one gripe is that the shit with the brother at the end felt very unnecessary?? I mean I can see why it happened but like at the same time I was kinda eh.....I would say the main strength of this one is seeing how the 2 main characters take care of each other and how they learn to grow and start thinking of a future truly for themselves. and like even tho the brother is a little freak, he was written in a way where you're like "yeah....I can see why you turned out this way..." it does hit a lot of BL manhwa cliches (chaebols, debt, controlling parents etc) but I thought it was a decent read. warning for dubcon / noncon near the end (when the shit with the brother happens lol)

perle (18+): man this shit??? HURTED. fairly plot-heavy story about a french revolution-esque scenario, featuring a duke who is leading the revolution and the imperial crown prince, symbol of the monarchy. right off the bat i will warn everyone this is a TRAGEDY. like this did not have a happy ending so if you don't like tragedies i highly advise you stay away. the entire story is told from the duke's POV, so we have no insight into what the crown prince's motives or thoughts are, and we can only interpret them through the eyes of the duke and what people tell him. besides leading the revolution, the duke is also looking to save his benefactor, who he calls "little pearl", because they're the person who freed him from his servitude as a catamite of the old duke and allowed him to rise to where he is now. the problem is, he has no idea who this person is, with the only hints being the various jewels and letters he was given over the years.

mouth to mouse: this shit???? ALSO HURTED. once again wtf do they put in short yaois that make the artwork and overall atmosphere so soft and melancholy....this ones a short story about a guy stuck in limbo after dying, and it slowly reveals the circumstances that led up to his death, and is ultimately a story about moving on. huge warning for suicide, it's essentially the main theme of this one.

my secret stalker (18+): sometimes you just want something short and sweet with a touch of creepy and this one delivered!! I also love that artstyle :)

I want to be killed by your beautiful self: ofc I knew about this from the fujimoto rec and yeah. this sounds like something he'd recommend and so far I am into this!!! psychological manipulation with a touch of supernatural elements, I'm curious to see how the rship between the 2 leads develops...I hope it's extremely toxic :)