#otp: ein fehler in der matrix

[haljathefangirlcat]

they're selfcest. to me.

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the way Adam tries to kill his own son and Eva ensures he’s born over and over again but really they’re just the same the way Adam sees him only as something to destroy and Eva probably thinks she cares about him but really he’s just a nameless tool to her an instrument of manipulation and death the way Adam is mindless hopeless annihilation drunk on despair and seeking to do away with everything forever and not even trying to put anything better in its place and Eva is mindless cruel creation and recreation trapping everyone in a terrifying labyrinth of eternal suffering and then turning around and talking about love and neither of them even care about the people they’re hurting even when those people are their loved ones and their own selves the way they may be darkness and light death and life but mostly they’re just two equally awesomely terrible frightening sides of the same tragic ruined coin the way they truly are a perfect match always and in all possible senses no matter who or what they’ve ever become the way they’re both monstrous parents in their own respective ways and of course they’re the darkest possible vesions of the two characters who will put an end to this endless story of parental and filial agony of course

[haljathefangirlcat]

still thinking about them (all the possible parallels between Theseus/Jonas and Ariadne/Martha)

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The central theme is, in my view, that even if the minotaur is killed, because there could be the possibility of a real battle with it/him, the first thing you have to do is to recognize it/him; from this you can start the real descent into the underworld and so the battle, that is the descent into yourself and the battle within. Professor Ranzato, founder of this magazine, explained the symbol of the Minotaur as the representation of the bestial force of the unconscious, unseen by the unaware man.

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Karl Kerenyi and Robert Graves theorized that Ariadne [...] was a Great Goddess of Crete [...]. Kerenyi  [...] claimed that she was originally the "Mistress of the Labyrinth". [...] Professor Barry Powell suggested that she was the Snake Goddess of Minoan Crete. 

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The serpent is often symbolically associated with the renewal of life because it sheds its skin periodically. [...] However, Martin P. Nilsson noticed that in the Minoan religion the snake was the protector of the house, as it later appears also in Greek religion. Within the Greek Dionysiac cult it signified wisdom and was the symbol of fertility.

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Oh Ariadne, I was coming, but I failed you in this labyrinth of my past Oh Ariadne, let me sing you and we'll make each other last Oh Ariadne, I have failed you in this labyrinth of my past Oh Ariadne, let me sing you and we'll make each other last

[haljathefangirlcat]

DARK FINALE SPOILERS

what she says: I'm fine

what she means: ... and another thing! you know how I didn't ship jonas and martha in season one because I didn't feel like she was there for anything in particular besides adding some spicy surprise incest romantic drama and showing us that even with the child murders and timetravel shenaningans, everyone was still just people and even the dumb teen who'd just met himself was still just a dumb teen getting in a scuffle with his ex-best friend over some girl? and how in season two I thought they had some very touching moments but still didn't ship them because I thought it was just about jonas desperately clinging to something as simple and pure as a school crush as his life kept crushing and burning and going to hell before his eyes no matter what he did, and oh, of course she died and became ever purer and more perfect in his mind through the years until it became some sort of obsession for his lost, fridged love... and THEN alt!martha appeared out of nowhere and I had no fucking idea what to think anymore??? and then in season three it was her and her world and her problems and her feelings and her building, spiraling trauma and Eva and her capacity for selfishness and evil while calling them the right thing and the solution - and at the beginning I didn't think I'd feel for her as I'd always felt for jonas, but I did - and I thought I finally understood what the point of them together was, because they were this epic tragic fated "there is a LITERAL red string in here" love story of mirrors and shadows and crossroads and circles, right? theseus as the minotaur and ariadne as the snake goddess, the eternal struggle and love between death/life and dark/light but they were both doomed whether they held out hands or slapped them away, whether they became saviors or destroyers, right? and i liked THAT, i liked it a lot but I still didn't ship them because I wanted more and that still felt classic, still felt expected, still didn't give me the hope I needed and I somehow trusted the writers to give me - because they were still the chosen, fated child-heroes, even when scarred and darkened after venturing into the forest and going through the cave to a new land and facing their wolves, and that didn't feel right for this story... and in the end, it wasn't. It wasn't a story about fate and what was right according to it. It was a story about two mistakes, about glitches in the matrix, about things that were a perfectly matched pair (don't ever believe otherwise) because they were both wrong, they were both false. and it couldn't be anything else. because how could fate REALLY choose to dump its whole weight on the shoulders of two kids and hurt them over and over again like that, and NOT expect them to become THAT? How could that be fair or even just right?? Of course worlds running on that kind of logic couldn't be saved. of course the one person who could look past the addicting epic tragic binaries would be someone who didn't have the best childhood and teen years but at least got to reach adulthood and develop some measure of maturity/common sense/bullshit-radar without anyone just dumping a heap of prophecies and death and light and darkness and hell and paradise on her head before things started to go to shit on her side of the story. and yet....... there's a tragic, cruel irony in jonas & martha being the crux and fulcrum of all that's wrong in their worlds - the worst and most unnatural things to ever exist in worlds filled with child murderers and murderers/identity thieves and abusive parents/spouses and rapists and cheaters and Hannah "Don't mind me, I'm just here to blackmail Aleksander into ruining people" Kahnwald and god knows what else. Like... my boy Jonas, who just wanted to save his dad and the girl he loved. My girl Martha, who just wanted to save her family and the boy she loved. and yet. In the end they see it. And they accept it. And while still holding onto each other, while finally reaching out and truly honestly meeting again as Adam and Eva (as old Jonas and old Martha, stripped of destiny and all pretense), they finally let go. And they become stardust as the space-time continuum heals its wounds and ulcers, as all the broken homes repair themselves because the first is whole again (because this story was always about parents and children and the ghosts they haunt each other with), as all they ever did is forgotten and forgiven like in that paradise that wasn't even supposed to be real. and it's scary and it's sad but they love each other and they go together, perfect pair that they are, and they are at peace. and it works, and they make things right like they kept making things wrong. and of course - NOW I love them, and it's far too late. but the world is whole and healed now, and it may never be perfect (would it really BE Winden, after all, if no one ever had any reason to wish for the apocalypse? ... could it REALLY be perfect, with all the unnatural, corrupted people that loved and were loved and don't and can't exist anymore but maybe are still missed anyway?) but maybe it will be kinder. fairer. grateful in its own way. less tragic but maybe still just a tiny little bit epic or fairytale-like. so until baran and jantje come up and explain that last "jonas" as just nostalgia for a lost world, as the only possible tribute and reward and consolation like it's probably meant to be... and maybe even after that... I'll hope they'll meet again one day. And that day, maybe it will be right...

what she does: *trying her best not to cry as she watches the cat eat because sometimes he just likes some company while he munches away, y'know?*