#otherwise she might be less daring djfjg

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𖧷 @caemthe asked: 🕯️ / for jiyan!

◜General Jiyan?◞ Porcelain-like features narrow in pensiveness, her fragile hand rises to prop her chin in silent consideration and to put in order her thoughts about him. It takes Jīnhsī a couple of minutes to organize them before her eyes meet her interlocutor's. ◜Deceiving as his short age may be, it shouldn't fool anyone. For he counts with an ample experience in fields others would not, even less when they were in their early teens. He puts his heart and soul into the protection of his soldiers and the people of Jinzhou, always keeping in mind to take the most adequate course of action to provoke the least amount of losses possible.◞

A conflicted expression makes its way thereafter, argent eyes dropping in quiescent thought. Being exposed to danger in a daily basis is bound to bring losses, she knows this well. However... how acceptant is the General on this matter, and how much does he blame himself whenever it happens? Jīnhsī inhales deeply as albescent lashes flutter close, the field of emortia flowers present in her mind.

◜But this... means that he is carrying a great burden on his shoulders, too.◞ Fair brows knit in a frown, her dainty hand close to her chest in a weak fist. ◜Because of Jinzhou's origins and nature of surviving disaster after disaster, its population has great expectations to those who lead various aspects of the province, one way or another. General Jiyan fills this criteria, there is no doubt about it. Nevertheless... he, too, is a man. There is sadness, sorrow and fear that I perceive in him that I cannot help but resonate with. Just because it manifests silently doesn't mean it doesn't exist.◞ If only I could reach out to him someday, somehow— to assuage these feelings so he may rest peacefully even for one night.

◜He's a strong man... Jiyan. For him to be able to push forward with everything he must shoulder, that deserves recognition, too. I trust his judgement and support every decision he makes, as I'm cognizant that he does it with the best interest of Jinzhou in mind.◞ Her fist tightens a tad as she looks at Jué, roseate lips curling in a smile. ◜One day I will build the courage to address these topics with him in a heart-to-heart conversation.◞ To penetrate his dreams even if to bring a small spark of light... just like you have always done with me since I was young. This time, subtle crinkles emerge at the corners of her eyes as her smile widens. ◜There is time, after all.◞

Because we share the same dream... you and I.