#other people actually do things. youre not tired. youre just fucking narcicistic and lazy
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Why is it all so hard.
#just#being a person and talking with people and being normal and allowing ourselves to be ourselves#why is it easy to talk in one format and impossible in another. its the same people on the other side. youre being stupid.#why cant we just enjoy things we should enjoy. why do we always have to sit and overthink everything after the fact which doesnt help anyon#why do we always want to run away. we just want to run away. so sick and tired of having to be a person i just want to run away#im sick of the fucking migraines every goddamn day im sick of having to muster the courage to fucking exist at all why does living have to#be so fucking painful. physically and emotionally its too much and yet. and yet. Even when trying to take a break we cant take a break#even when we try to find home we still end up feeling lost due to no one's fault but our own#it feels like even saying we are tired is something we arent allowed. like other people have it worse#other people actually do things. youre not tired. youre just fucking narcicistic and lazy#everyone says they enjoy spending time with us. how can i believe it.#when we walk around like a gun waiting to go off is it any surprise that we are held at arm's length#when someone shows us genuine affection we freeze up and have a panic attack#and now i dont. i dont know how to fix things. nothing is wrong but we cant put it back together.#no one is upset no one hates you and yet. we cant help but feel we should be alone.#im so sick of being alive for the sake of others and yet i can never find a reason to live for myself#if art is worth the pain does that make my suffering for the experience of art worthwhile?#will i ever make anything i can truly be proud of? or will it always just. be little incomplete pieces.#mastering skills so slowly that every attempt is like taking a towel to a fountain in an attempt to keep the statues dry.#vent
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