#orym of the air ashari kin

[blue-box-man-10]

Having some big kin feels after tonight's episode. I hate this. I don't know what's going to happen and I hate it. Why can't I just remember what happened. It's so frustrating. I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry.

[blue-box-man-10]

You know what, why not? Don't know if this actually interests people but I'll put it here anyway.

Ask Game: Fictionkin, Fictives, and Other Fiction-based Identities

this post is safe for folks with any fictional source and for endogenic systems! please don't reblog if your blog is not

🎨 How do you feel about fanart?

📝 How do you feel about fanfiction?

✅ What does the fandom usually get right?

❌ What does the fandom usually get wrong?

🗺️ What do you miss about your world?

💔 Who are you missing right now?

🚫 Is there anyone you hope to never see again?

🔀 How canon-divergent vs. canon-compliant are you?

⚧ What were your gender and orientation in your timeline; was your identity canon?

💗 What helps you feel closer to your source (in a positive way)?

🖊️ Do you use your name from your source?

👬 How do you feel about doubles?

⭐ Is your fiction-based identity spiritual, psychological, or something else?

🎙️ What's the biggest difference between you and your canon self?

💞 What's the biggest similarity between you and your canon self?

❓ Do you prefer when people are familiar or unfamiliar with your source when they meet you?

👍 What's your favorite thing about your source?

👎 What's your least favorite thing about your source?

💸 Do you own any merch of your source?

🌸 Do you feel comfortable in your fiction-based identity?

🌻 Who are you open with about your fiction-based identity?

[kincalling]

hey! this might be a long shot, but i'll try anyway.

i'm an Orym of the Air Ashari fictive, my source is Critical Role, and i'm looking specifically for the rest of the Bells Hells or Will if you're out there and would like to talk. i'm not especially looking for canonmates (though we could talk about that if you'd like), sourcemates in general are okay! but i'd prefer you be 18+ as the body is turning 19 in 3 or so weeks.

i'd prefer to talk to other fictives too for my personal comfort. you could like this and i'll get back to you from our main blog or you could @ragdollrolo. thank you. :-)

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[fourthwingingit]

Fourthwingingit kin list (this is in no way serious and 100% lighthearted fun)

Laios Touden (this is it. This is him. This is me. Laios is the Most relatable character ever in my eyes. There has never been another like him. I will be making his armor and cosplaying him at first financial opportunity)

Barney Guttman

Norma khan (for the sheer autism and my Frankenstein making me feel things ive never felt before she gets the 3rd spot dispite not being someone who i think i could be like)

Gepard Landau but it's mostly gender envy and sibling loyalty

Orym of the air ashari

(this is where "hes just like me fr fr" starts to break down)

Ashton Greymoore gemder

Percy Jackson bc little me got some "maybe im traumatized And a boy" thoughts from him. Nothing but respect for My demigod

Anyways i think my soul is a paladin but like a messy one yknow?

[scriptmyworld]

i feel like talking about lilliana’s potential redemption arc in front of keyleth after she just said she’s gonna tear down their entire organization is uhhh not the best idea! and neither is telling her that imogen’s related to her!!!!!

[fictionkinfessions]

Just wanted to talk real quick about the guilt I feel because I've confessed a bit about one of my kins, and almost not at all about my other one. Haven't even confessed with said kin using my custom tag, and now I'm almost scared to do so, y'know? It almost feels like I'm doing that part of my identity a disservice. I already feel a lot of guilt as it is, because of what's happened in my canons and this just adds onto it. Idk, just wanted to vent that. Hesitant to tag this but I will, cause then I can have both of my kins associated with the tag and maybe I won't feel quite as guilty anymore.

-Orym of the Air Ashari + The Tenth Doctor (#💙💙🌙)

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[verdantstorms]

Just getting into Critical Role here!

The content I have consumed so far is

Campaign 3 (so far)

I’m almost finished with EXU

And I have read Kith and Kin.

But I just have a lot of thoughts and feelings, so welcome to my dumping ground.

[blue-box-man-10]

When you're kinsidering the sad and gay little moon widower man: ... am I just a little guy???

[blue-box-man-10]

Asexuality, Aromanticism and Fictionkinnity

Oh boy, here we go. I have yet to see anyone in the community talk about this and the best advice I have seen since being around the fictionkin community is "if no one is talking about your experiences, now is the opportunity for you to talk about them." (Also, as a preface for this, when referring to my canons, I will be using past tense as they are things that have happened to me. However, I do not label my fictionkinnity. I have a hard time distinguishing my experiences and I don't know whether these are past lives or not. All I know is that past tense feels right so that's what I'm gonna use.) Alright, here we go.

For those of you who don't know, I am The 10th Doctor from Doctor Who and Orym of the Air Ashari from Critical Role. If you know these characters, you would know that they undoubtedly experience romantic attraction. Their sexual orientation is arguable, but I'll get into that later. But, as I am know, I experience neither sexual nor romantic attraction. Except...

Okay, so, it's a bit more complicated than "I used to experience this but I don't anymore". I'm going to go over my experiences of both my kintypes separately. (And, as a note, my memory is incredibly fuzzy and most of this is based on my instincts and noemata) We'll start with Orym because... That's easier lol.

As Orym, I am a widower. My husband was killed by assasins who were trying to get to the leader of my people, whom my husband and I were guards of. I was a gay cis man, and I'm like 85% sure I was also ace-spec, but I haven't confirmed it, it's just a hunch. I loved my husband very much, and I still do. But it's in a different way than it was. I'm unsure if I still experience romantic attraction towards him (since I don't know what that feels like) I just feel... Different. It's really hard to describe. It's like "I still love you with all my heart, but now it is coming from a different place"? I guess the best way to describe it is "romantic adjacent", like it's romantic but also not quite. I think I feel this same way about both Dorian and also Ashton, but I'm still figuring that out so I won't talk more on that, sorry lol.

My experiences with my Doctor kintype is basically the same, but also more complicated because I just fell in love more. But it's the same feelings of "romance adjacent". However, sometimes it was, obviously, stronger than others. For example, the attraction towards Rose was (and still is) stronger than, say, Madame De Pompadour, however I still felt romantic attraction towards her, Rose and I's relationship was simply longer and more developed. And, of course, I was asexual. I think that's pretty obvious. Unless it isn't, and if that's the case, all the power to ya. (Huh, I guess this explanation was shorter... Whatever)

So! What does this all mean for me now? Well, good reader, it means that I am still aroace. Mostly. But the thing is, I haven't had any real, proper conversations with any of those people I mentioned (nor those I didnt), so I simply do not know what would happen.

I suspect that if I were to properly talk to them and indeed felt some sort of attraction, it would be similar to queerplatonic attraction, in that it is platonic but also more than that. Or, I could experience romantic attraction, who knows?! Not me. I've never experienced romantic attraction in this life, so I really don't know what it feels like, not what to expect.

This turned into mostly a rant, perhaps I could have planned out my thoughts better, but I just wanted to get out what I was thinking, to document it (or something). But in conclusion, identity is tricky and not always black and white and fictionkin don't always identify the same way as their kintypes. I hope someone who relates will see this, maybe even share their experiences. And if you are fictionkin and knew me (or a version of me) in your canon, asks and dms are always open for sharing, conversing. Okay, bye.

[blue-box-man-10]

I miss being athletic. I miss being able to run everywhere. I miss being able to jump around like it was nothing. Now I'm stuck in a human body with a heart condition who can barely run 20 metres without becoming out of breath. I miss being a time lord who runs everywhere. I miss being a spry halfling who could perform great acrobatic feats.