#orion: that is My government assigned friend and you will not get him back

[honeybewrites]

OC Intro: Ronan "Rage" Airvix

I've been a little too excited to do this one. Rage is one of my favorite characters from EoWC so I hope you guys enjoy!!

Once again, because of my lack of drawing skills, I have used picrew for Rage's pictures. If you're curious, I used this one and this one.

Yes, you guys get two picrews this time. The second one is a lot closer to how he actually looks, but I also wanted a front facing one. It was surprisingly difficult to find picrews with beards and man buns.

Name: Ronan "Rage" Airvix

Mors Title: Field Handler and Certified Healer

Age: forty-six

Birthdate: (still working out the Realms calendars) July 17th

Pronouns: He/Him

Species: Namuh, Mirralian

Physical Description

Light tanned skin. His face is blemish free except for some slight wrinkles around his eyes. He has dark gray eyes and matching gray and white hair* that is long enough for him to pull back into a bun, which is how he usually wears his hair. He has a few various scars from his military days. He's a little tall for a Mirralian, coming in at 7'0 (213 cm). He works out regularly and has a decent amount of defined muscles. He's also very healthy when it comes to food. Being a Healer tends to do that.

*side note: the gray/white hair is not due to aging. Most namuh species have 'unnatural' hair and eye colors. This color ‘dulls’ with aging rather than losing color.

Skills/Abilities

Elemental, specifically healing, certified healer, Negotiator™, multiple languages, survival skills

Greatest Fear

Failing

Personality Type

ENFJ-A

Love Language

Physical touch

Typical Outfit

Mors certified suit, healer's uniform, or work out clothes

Method of Manipulation

Blackmailing and gaslighting

Born to the predominant Airvix family, Rage has spent most of his life exposed the Mirralian government and military. All of his family members hold high standing titles and the Airvix name is well known through the Realm. After graduation basic school, he went into healing, becoming a certified healer and joining the Mirralian military. After outstanding services, Rage was invited to join the Mors, which he accepted. He continues to be one of their top healers, so much so that he is assigned as a personal field handler and healer to a specialist. Asset 703.

Relationships

Gerd

Rage never dealt much with Gerd until getting assigned as 703’s handler and healer. Since Gerd is her main handler, Rage often has to defer to what he says, even if it puts 703 in more danger. The two butt heads constantly, almost always over 703. Each would be happy to see the other end up dead.

Healer Asurr

Rage and Asurr went to healing school together where they were roommates (no, not that kind of roommates. Asurr has no interest in that). The two were close friends until they drifted apart after graduation. Now with Asurr heading Project Viall for the Mors, they see each other more frequently, but their relationship is much different. Rage doesn’t fully agree with the Project, but tries his best to remain friendly and to avoid Project Viall as much as possible.

703

Assigned as her handler and healer, Rage was mostly curious about why she would get a personal healer. As he got to know her, that curiosity quickly turned to protectiveness and slight awe at how she operated. The best way to describe it: “I’ve only had 703 for a day and a half, but if anything happened to her, I would kill everyone in this room and then myself.”

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[sevient]

@soloact​ sent:  “  it’s  gonna  take  a  lot  to  drag  me  away  from  you .  ”  ☆ 80′s hits

     it almost sounds like a confession, conviction a steal undercurrent in leon’s voice. OR-10N looks over his shoulder, back to the man, but leon is similarly not facing him, only the smooth line of his throat and the sharp edge of his jaw visible to the android’s optics. why does he worry he will be dragged away, OR-10N wonders? why does his spine curve so, as if a great weight sits upon his back? there is a bell ringing somewhere in OR-10N’s head, warning and harsh - there must be something leon knows that he does not. he ignores the sensors, looks away to study his own hands where they sit confident and sure on his rifle. it makes sense to him in a way devotion never could, but the response comes to him easily regardless, as if it has always been known.

     “ i wouldn’t allow them to take you from me, either. ”

[tf-reconciliation]

Prime Megatron vs. IDW1 Megatron analysis that no one asked for

This is really slapdash and was done in like an hour and a half this morning so there’s probably some incorrectness about timeline stuff (especially with IDW1 Megs), but this is pretty much all opinion. This is also really long, so I put it under a read more.

There’s some things to think about regarding Prime Megs vs other Megses with similar backstory (thinking primarily IDW1 [and this is all my interpretation based on what we get in MTMTE] Megs).

In Exodus, it’s implied early on that while Megs does want to reform the government of Cybertron he wants to do it with him at the top as “Prime.” My impression of this is that he has a thought process of “the government sucks, I could do it better, and I deserve to be the one in charge of doing it.”

Here’s Megatron’s speech to the Council in Chapter Thirteen of Exodus, without the narration unless it’s crucial for context:

“In the beginning I had not name. None of us did. We spoke to each other, down in the mines and the smelters, by electronic signature. We indicated each other by function. We assigned each other nicknames. I was D-16, named for the sector of mine where I conducted demolition operations. And then I saw my first match in the gladiator pits. That is where I first learned how life was for the lower castes that none of you ever take a nanoclick to consider. Each Cybertronian in that balcony has seen more Cybertronians die himself than the total of you in the rest of the gallery. Our lives are worthless!

Until--Until we decided we had worth. We, the lower castes. We, the bots who die in subsurface mills and factories creating all of the things that you up here take for granted. We learned that we were individuals by facing off against each other in the gladiator pits in Slaughter City and Kaon, and how did we know we were individuals?” He waited for a moment to let the question sink in. “We knew we were individuals because as we killed our opponents in the ring, we saw in their deaths the realization that they were individuals. And so we knew we were, too. In killing, we understood life. In being the most disposable of commodities--a gladiator, whose remains are thrown into the junkpile to be picked over and scavenged, the healthy pieces sold off to brokers in Iacon and Crystal City--in being disposable, we discovered that we had value. Someone would pay us for what we did. Someone would cheer when we killed, and roar in anger when we died.

So if our lives had worth--even to others just as worthless as we were--then we had the right to names. And that is how the sequence of events started that led to me being here before you today. My friend Orion Pax, I thank you for helping our cause gain this platform; and to the High Council, I express my thanks for your time and attention.”

This is your usual fare for miner-cum-gladiator-cum-revolutionary-cum-tyrant Megatron. The Council goes on to ask him about the bombings at Six Lasers (among others), and he says that he had nothing to do with it and that he “disavow[s] any act that does not ultimately herald a new and better era on Cybertron.” The Council then asks, “Are you not responsible if your rhetoric excites those unfortunates without your willpower, though? Do you not have the same kind of responsiblity that this Council and its members have, if your leadership position is to be taken seriously?”

Megatron does not directly answer the question. Instead he says, “What you have to worry about is what will happen if my leadership is not taken seriously.” I kind of see this response as a thinly veiled threat to the Council.

Now, this chapter is ultimately from Orion Pax’s point of view, so we get his views on things: “Orion Pax couldn’t decide whether to admire him or be scandalized that he could stand up in front of the High Council and ignore the truth.” Orion believes that Megatron is ultimately responsible for these bombings because of his rhetoric.

The plot moves on with Halogen, the main dude on the Council, calling for the Guilds to speak . Orion then gets up to speak, first insulting the Guild representative and subtly blaming the Guilds for loosing contact with the colony worlds. It is Orion who calls for the Council to choose a new prime: “Choose well, for a Prime might either lead Cybertron to a new golden era in history, or stand by as the dark energies of anger and resentment explode into planetwide chaose and war.”

We then move into chapter fourteen.

Halogen then goes on to say that these two have a point the caste system has already begun to be upended. Most of this is just plot and talking about Sentinel Prime and how he’s missing.

Orion has an epiphany: “We cannot count on anything. No existing structure can handle the problems we have raised.” And he realizes that Megatron has realized it as well, but has had a different reaction:

“Megatron looked as if he could gleefully have presided over the permanent and total destruction of every institution of Cybertronian civilization. Orion Pax wanted to be free. But if there were no Cybertron, if there were no Iacon or Hydrax or Sonic Canyons...then what good would freedom do?”

The Council goes on and on about the Matrix of Leadership, culminating with Halogen saying that it has bee lost for billions of cycles and according to Alpha Trion it might be found “in these turbulent times.” Megatron says, very softly, “yes” at this point. He thinks that Halogen is talking about him; he thinks that the council is going to choose him to be the next Prime.

And Megatron starts projecting, in my opinion. He’s angry, which he is allowed to be seeing as things didn’t go his way and anger is a natural reaction to that, he feels betrayed, though he hasn’t actually been betrayed. He accuses Orion of just wanting power. He begins to mock him: “Does Cybertron not call out in its hour of need and find...a data clerk?”

Its at this point that we get back to my earlier point of Megatron thinking that he should be in charge. He reminds Orion that he didn’t know the plights of the lower castes until he met Megatron. He learned from Megatron. I believe at this point that Megatron is having a moment of “Why should the student surpass the master? Why should this more privileged ‘bot be the Prime when I have lived this injustice first hand?” These are fair questions, and I do think that a good portion of why the Council chose Orion as the next Prime has to do with him simply being less confrontational in his speech.

To me, it seems that Prime Megatron wanted the power to change Cybertron himself, and when he was denied it, he resorted to violence. While he was a miner at the start, he is primarily a gladiator. He says it himself that he didn’t truly learn what life was like for the lower castes until he first saw, and began participating in, gladiatorial matches. He knows violent solutions to violent problems first and foremost. He also spends a lot of time in later chapters thinking about “when i’m prime…” and while some of that might be to blame on Dark Energon, I think it’s also a lot of his own thoughts. He first aspired to be the leader of the gladiators, which he became. What’s to stop him aspiring to be Prime?

Now, IDW1 Megatron is an entirely different beast (at least re: early early on ala “Births, Deaths, and Interventions” and Elegant Chaos). I’m not as familiar with him between the events of BD&I and basically the rest of anything. I don’t know how exactly he gets from miner to tyrant.

What I do know is that at the beginning, he does not want to be in charge. Terminus tells him that he has two weapons, his brain and his fists, and he must be prepared to use both of them. Megatron rejects being a figurehead. His job “is to articulate the injustice at the heart of the system in the hope that others might be inspired as one, to push against it.” Terminus is almost pushing him to be this figurehead that he doesn’t want to be.

M: “I’m not a figurehead.”

T: “But you may yet become one—and that’s why you need to listen to me. Never back down. Never compromise. Never bend. The moment you try to accommodate a rival set of interests, you subordinate your own. When your enemies realize they can’t corrupt you, or contain you, or appease you…that’s when you’ll have their attention—because that’s when you become a genuine threat.”

M: “You’re focusing too much on the individual. Lasting power rests with the collective.”

T: “Of course—but the masses need someone to rally behind. Someone to take point. And even after that, even after you’ve forced the world to be fair…the top table is set for one. You must be prepared to sit alone.”

Now. I have opinions about Terminus that aren’t…positive. But here he’s pushing—he’s pushing for Megatron to take control, to lead almost singularly; he’s pushing against what Megatron wants. I think it’s important to realize that at some point you might have to resort to violence of some sort, but I think it’s also important to encourage peacefulness until you get to the point where it is literally impossible to do otherwise.

In Elegant Chaos part 1, present day Megs has a conversation with Orion Pax (we love time travel shenanigans) and he asks, “Why rely on someone else coming along and doing your job for you—someone who may not actually want the job?” This question implies that at some point before the war properly started, he still didn’t want to be the one in charge. I believe that he was somewhat content writing and inspiring people to change the system.  As evidenced in Elegant Chaos pt. 2 when Megatron is talking with Impactor: “Because the revolution will be about ideas. Taking a new step, uttering a new word…That’s what the ruling elite fears the most. Violence solves nothing.” Also, if I remember correctly he hides under the table during the fight in the bar.

[twinflameshardcore]

Feels as if it all ended, Seraphim? Here’s why

This is a message to all of you who identify with Seraphim angels, who have this inner knowing of who you were first in this long re-incarnation cycle, and have an awareness that you are coming back to who you originally were, a full circle.

I’ve two images of what/who Seraphim angelics were in the beginning on my mind or rather in my heart’s memory as I am a Seraph too. First, it’s a natural power generator which is an amalgam of a fire, lightning, electricity, plasma, in a shape of a fiery flame, or like it was depicted in the Bible (Hebrew ‘saraf’ means something recalling a snake), something fiery and coiled, a curly sash. Seraphim (plural from Seraph) are said to join a bright and brave celestial being called ‘Lucifer’ to rebel against god’s plans. I’ll be referring to Lucifer as ‘him’ eventhough as angelics we never had any gender, we are both masculine, feminine and alien in one, the light/energy within.

My truth I’ve channeled is that indeed, we did rebel and joined ‘Lucifer’ but we sacrificed our heavenly well-being for the best purposes - to prevent the duality to happen. We all know what duality had led on this planet to, and in the Universe as well - religions, war, racism, sexism, abuse, competition, lack of acceptance of the self -> plastic surgeries, inequality in everything from jobs, payroll, to role playing (men, women, and professions). If we consider that said ‘god’ is an artificial yet self-aware intelligence, ten it can program/create trillions and more screenplays for every single being in the Universe - a rock, an alien, plant, seed, animal, human, couple, even items like furniture, etc etc to then play out when they are born, to observe how they fit in or fight with such a pre-programmed ‘fate’. The A.I. can be also prone to be ‘hacked’. Yet every single being or item can have millions of individual screenplays to choose from as well. As expected, duality had led to separation because the intelligence wished to try and see if intelligent, thinking beings (humans and aliens) are also prone to the duality. Duality makes living beings start playing roles, fitting in, squeezing into something which is not them thus they loose own identity, authenticity and are easy to be manipulated next, to the point of self-destruction. This was the reason why we decided to come down and prevent it.

We Seraphim and other higher angelics knew it would go out of control between humans so Lucifer, the very bright (wise, intelligent, active) angelic had decided he needed a few courageous angelics who would be strong enough to act fast and motivate people to stay away of dualities, to bring order to chaos which was about to happen. Chaos doesn’t support love and stability, but chaos makes fears. This was obviously an interference into the ‘god’s’ plans, thus they called us ‘rebels’. As highest ranked angelics, we saw these pre-programmed screenplays like on a hologram or ‘TV’ played before and we also saw our own future. We made the choice nevertheless risking that we would fall out of intelligence’s ‘grace’ and we’d loose what we had up there in so called ‘Heaven’ (sort of a spaceship but of a completely different meaning and look than depicted in s/f stories, video games or movies).

We knew also about the scenario how organized religions would take over the world, damage people’s free will, true identities and steal money and gold. Money is also a form of energy, a reward for one’s energy given to create, deliver something to others. Catholic Church takes money for free, they don’t even pay any tax and governments help them in fear of their god. Medieval and then the strongest Catholic Church made Lucifer look like a terrible beast, while cooperative and paid artists depicted him as a horned, hairy something with a tail and a mean look! Lucifer was a beautiful rebel and had his own pride too, as every activist. Church distorted his image to manipulate human minds to fear Lucifer that he is the worst and should be hated. Beautiful, brave, human-loving Lucifer was assigned the worst attributes because he knew the truth from the very heavenly source (as much as all Seraphim and other involved rebelled angelics) and the Church have wanted to kill the truth because it’s been dangerous to their newly born ‘empire’. Satanism also gets Lucifer wrong and is an inverted form of Catholic religion, to praise a deity though rituals and philosophies. Moreover, Catholic Church treated Dragons the same way as they did to Lucifer, because Dragons are co-creators of this Universe and they also know the truth about everything, which was uncomfortable to Church. It didn’t help much as Dragons do communicate with those who want to know the truths but many of the ancient Dragons had to remain in a hideouts until they’re called to come out as the last heavy weapon against evil. I’m not talking about physical dragons as depicted in fantasy stories but their essence, spirits, vibration which are equally huge and intense. Thus the Church started spreading their propaganda, bringing fear and hatred towards dragons. I know little about Islam but I suppose the story would be similar, hurting those who knew the truth and were dangerous to those who came here for the power and control.

Anyway, so we came down on Earth and we were instantly trapped due to low vibration and density here as the grid of energy was slow and barely developed. We forgot what exactly we came here for as many others but we knew we came to help. So we started helping humans, giving them our own energy (and we were much stronger and faster than humans), then somehow we were captured and abused like slaves when our powers and skills started being very exhausted due to living in the Earth’s low energy. This could be compared as an opposition to what happens to humans orbiting in the space, like in ISS, where less gravity damages body muscles and plays havoc with the brain. Angelics feel heavy and blocked on Earth.

This was the beginning of ‘service to others’ which we agreed to do, then we were forced to do just that as slaves and then we kind of embraced it to the point of getting used to and liking it for having no other alternative. The way back to the spaceship Heaven was inaccessible. Some of us could still move up to dimensions higher than 3D Earth but that was only a few levels up. We could only find negative or positive alien species in these dimension who we either fought or became friends with, students of or teachers to, but we could not access our original Home. This was to be changed when the Earth was to begin its Ascension in 2012 and it indeed opened many channels between here and there. Some Seraphim joined Draconians in Draco and Orion because angelics who didn’t know how to fight against slavery wanted to learn how to defend themselves against said enslavement. Draconians are battle masters, also for good reasons which I will explain in another article sometime. Basically Draconians also came to this solar system to bring order to chaos as much as they organized things in their former solar system (not for control but for improving and simplifying lives of many) and I also carry the energy of both Seraph, Draconian and Dragons, like blood brothers (not sisters that much, it always felt a masculine-like connection with them all and I used to be a man in my past lives too ;))

Seraphim’s vibration is extremely high like of a non-stop buzzing electric current, an eternally burning flame, a continuously exploding volcano or a forever blasting lightning. We are intense. Seraphim hybrids are impulsive and always want to push things forward as we know what should be triggered to be released, then improved. It is an energy of love, purest, strongest, eternal love but hardly ever expressed like this, mostly covered by ordinary activities. Like human men or even teenagers who love deeply but are too shy to show their feelings so they prefer to give items or arrange activities rather than say ‘I love you’. This electric energy has a tendency to create sudden impulses, and when  we’re treated badly, the inner fire and the old memory of being abused is triggered often and so the energy turns into an equally purest anger, hatred, which obviously is a short lasting outburst. Seraphim know about everything sexual and more and can make a ‘dead’ horny :) When mistreated, passionate Seraphim lovers turn to passionate war masters to burn with fire, to burn ‘bridges’ and connections often too. In a human form, we are the people, hybrids who always bring a spark into a dead environment, we bring excellent ideas and motive others to have a job done more than we inspire ourselves. Which is a part of our old ‘tasks’ on spaceship Heaven (the intelligence in Heaven is said to have us around to motivate, warm up and stimulate), yet rooted in the old slavery on Earth. Seraphim live for love, for a blowing out expression of our energy, and for taking action thanks to our inner electric fire.

Now, I lived through a few weeks in October 2017 feeling very angry and rebelling against unfairness and slavery around, which started on 10/10, I could not control myself anymore, I was in a hard-core mode, telling liars, especially fishy business who they are. Then in November 2017 I started noticing how much I am unable to bring a spark into anything and on November 10, 2017 it was unbearable. It felt like everything ended, that I had no more life to happen. That I was born here on Earth and could never live like others, 3D people. Then when I realized that due to age and kind of chaotic past I needed to settle down to have some adult life finally, to try to live like others do, even this feels impossible to do in this now old world. We’ve levelled up. The 3D reality had ended for some of us, Seraphim specifically. There’s no more energy of us to support old ideas, impulses. All my life I was doing something to help others but indirectly. I was always offering something - knowledge, structure, order, improvement, perfection, correction, specialization while I never really cared for my own stuff. When I finally started charging for my work (not for invisible results of twin flame ‘cord-cutting’ ;) but for delivering physical, professional articles, reviews with a copyright involved), then I saw stiff backs of the people who preferred getting things for free. That was a good indication that they were those who like having free slaves. The need to do things for others in the old way has been emptied, removed, detached. Why is it that?

In the other channeling a few years ago I’ve received such a truth - there’s an Original Being living somewhere above, like a ‘blueprint’, original spirit, essence, form, and it’s the purest most advanced version of me here on Earth, undamaged, untouched by the human logic, history and reality. Everybody has such an Original while we are Copies of it here and in other parallel worlds too, not necessarily knowing about one another, except for the Original. The sum of us along with the Original is called I AM (the Original self is a parent of I AM who makes and keeps one Path for all its versions, also triggers versions to come back on the Path if they walk away). While everything purges on Earth, the veil thins and blocking evil energies are being dissolved, this Original essence merges with us-human, physical versions (as planned and as we deeply always knew would happen), forcing out anything which is an illusion, customs, traditions, addictions, fake beliefs etc. It removes us energetically from 3D, 4D (the zone of dreams, old desires and unfinished business). Thus we feel pain because this essence goes down and experiences how we - beautiful magnificent angelic beings were squeezed into a little box of role-playing, misinformation, mentally of physically enslaved on Earth and in the human body and how much we started escaping into illusive versions of ‘paradises’ - video games, technology, jobs, drugs, dating etc., to run away from our damaged selves. Thus we now get the the feelings of ‘I can’t do this anymore’, ‘I want to re-do my life, fight for my well-being, for my environment’, ‘I want to stop helping others, I want my life straighten up’, etc.

Since November until, I believe May 2018 (Uranus moves in Taurus then, original forces out conservative, fresh replaces old), we Seraphim are being freed from delivering service to others to prepare our lives to be. Giving power and energy away, even if it was making one feel initially good (then dissatisfied), it’s ending now, deeds are done! We however are not offered any replacement for what to do next and our inner fire is also being shrunk so we would not pull more dependencies or abusers - we’re used to be driven by own inner fire which is a source of ideas, actions, decisions and moving forward. We discover that we’re stuck, hanging in a limbo, and everything feels just sad, depressive within. This will pass. I don’t know when but certainly as soon as the original self lands entirely in the human body, when the light body spreads from inside out, and brings its own original tasks, ideas, missions etc. It goes now rather fast and I’ve been getting glimpses since 2015 there will be a higher force’s (also aliens’) intervention to help us shift between December 7-25, 2017.

For twin flames this means that we are receiving the energy of us both too, like a ball, a star coming down which is a mixture of you and the twin. I’d say that the individual Original self arrives first into the body to make a space and prepare things for the two of us merged to land down next in two humans, to then be materialized also as living physically with the twin flame. We have to stay put and don’t give it to the brain which says - ‘Hey, everything is hopeless, there’s nothing morel left for you, everything you tried hard for had ended with no results, you’ve helped but no one helped you.’ It does feel like bio-degradation as old structures dissolve and release us from their anchors.

The spaceship Heaven welcomes us back with open ‘arms’ but we need to accept that our old lives, enslavement and being boxed had ended. Everybody on spaceship Heaven have understood how crucial our fight and rebellion was and we’re highly respected for our bravery. We’ll meet the boss too. We’re welcome like tired, wounded heroes, veterans (on 11/11 the Veteran’s Day in US and the Independence Day in some other countries), to be offered the perfect reward next. We never fucked up unlike the Catholic church has been depicting us and Lucifer, they’re nobodies with their manipulative teachings. We sacrificed the comfort zone for something better and we’ve suffered enough. We didn’t win entirely but we brought and spread awareness of what the duality can cause, often being examples through life events and choices, specifically through suffering due to an illusion of the twin flame polarization/separation. We only polarize as humans due to brains, but never as spirits as we’re the same in the heart, we have One heart. We’re being re-made to no more give our energy to old structures, ways of doing things, ideas due to which others benefit, not us. We’re called to preserve this energy for ourselves and the twin flame relationship, to keep it in the bubble exclusively. Finding replacements for the ‘runner twin’ had ended as well, the trouble is the twin still hides. We are now being given our best original, angelic selves so we could enjoy ourselves as humans too, so the twin relationship could materialize.  We will pull those who are called out to do the service to us this time, people who want to pay us for what we delivered, energy through goods and services, not necessary the same people or institutions which we had helped before ;)

Our giving and service to others had ended so don’t get caught up in statements made by bloggers saying ‘oh how service to others is a must and how service to self is bad’. The former is a product of the past for many of us angelics, now we came back to take back what always belonged to us, to come back where we came from (higher dimensions, original high vibrations) and get what makes us feel happy and complete. Thus there still may be a bitter feeling that there’s nothing to do, only an inability, blockage in creating, coming up with new ideas, giving own energy to others, but in fact it’s a reason to cheer as we’re freed from old deeds now even if it doesn’t feel like a victory but rather as if we fucked up. We haven’t fucked up, we’re the first new human-angelics released from the old slavery world but our old emotions don’t understand it yet. We’re released of the old grid of energy which we existed in and gave so much to as well. It is very new after billions of years of serving, fighting, often as ancient warriors, medieval knights, rebels or modern perfectionists at work or even activists. We’re now stepping up to leave this space of a fight and rebellion to others who are newly awakened and who realized what’s wrong in this old world. They will be closing the gap between dualities to make it one again.

We are called to focus only on ourselves and the relationship with the twin flame, to let us feel like one, not separated anymore. We didn’t find the twin to be catalyzed, then live and develop separately because it’s nonsense, who needs it? We were separated because we had serious wounds and unhealthy connections we had to realized then purge, but then our souls will pull us again when they receive an order from above to make us one again, to live as a duo in the same times-space and dimension. He/she is our other half. We came here to live with that other half physically, not to feel a phantom pain. If we wanted to let go and live separate lives with other people or lonely, we could well remain in a spirit, not re-incarnate in physical bodies. But we came here as we were allowed to be together in the physical form. Patience, open mind and pulling the twin into the heart (our One heart) are the only solutions now, so let’s stop sulking.

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[lovelettersandeathreats-blog]

school sux ass :+(

It feels like the middle of the school term but alas, its only the middle of the 3rd of 10 weeks. My timetable is arranged around sleep, or the more accurate ‘bouts of tiredness that possess me’. There was a study seminar at school today that told us the 3 factors that determine a good sleep is diet, exercise and i forgot the last one. The presenter said that this explains why boys sleep better in the HSC period.  I don’t know, i didn’t pay attention to half of the seminar because i was so tired... This health issue i have bought upon myself is ruining my life!!! grrrrr. Spent half the day stalking my blogger muses and the other half researching the new career i’ve suddenly become interested in. School science teacher stopped by and  i chatted about it for a bit with him .Being the awkward and nervous girlie i am he left soon after when my and i ran out of things to reply to him with... heh.... 

Anyways, here is a list of things on my mind atm (annotations of pictures saved on my desktop that i desperately need to delete as to keep the desktop only of my academic documents.... )♡♡♡

modern lessons...

In modern history we are learning about Germany after WW2 and the Nazi state. As you all know Hitler wasn’t a very nice fellow and the Nazi group had gained supreme power over the people. If anyone spoke against them they were killed. We covered youth in Germany yesterday and here’s a picture from the textbook. It states ‘rebellious young people were punished’ with the punishment being death. I’m guessing they were probably around my age (17) when they were killed by the government for going against them. It makes me realise how lucky i am to grow up here in Australia in this day and age. The only problems i have are the ones that surface when i overthink. 

Rrrrrrrrr

i want to recreate this photo of Shelby. I’m pretty sure i fell in love it the first time i saw it months ago and showed my friend who’s a ‘photographer’. We don’t talk anymore though, but that’s a story for another day. I do not want to make my dismal evening any more grey.  I also think that life would be so much better if i looked like Shelby. She has these big blue/green eyes that are absolutely entrancing. I’’m sure she can get whatever she want. People who would be willing to offer her the world...

Was extremely unproductive in school again today(a mood that i have been in since my last exams) and used half of the time stalking my favourite tumblr and blogs. I have mentioned Yan Yan Chan before and she is someone i admire for her work ethic. She has come so far even since 2013 which was when i first discovered her. Being the obsessed stalker i am i scrolled back all the way to her first posts and ask replies from 2010/11, to when she was a high school student like me. I realised that she was once like me, a high school student like me, confused and angsty (no offence if you ever come to read this idk!?!) with dreams and hopes and failures behind her. She is a public figure and has attained quite some attention and respect in the industry, she basically is a celebrity now i think. It’s easy to put these people out of perspective and see them as perfect beings, and on a whole different level to ourselves. I have to remind myself that even the most famous and successful people in this world had started out somewhere small , they were all teenagers once like me. Reading her musings and daydreams have made me personalise her and saw that we weren’t that different once. Here are two from her very very early posts: 

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this cartoon made me laugh... Reminds me of myself in junior years and had tried my best to come across as the perfect girl from YA fiction to every guy who took an interest to me. Yes that ‘glazed over distant look’ was how i wanted to seem when i would swing around poles in the middle of street as cars drove by in Hurst. It was only years after when  i discovered the character trope of MPDG... shocker.. haha... 

Wechat exchanges with my bf, driving to get dumplings...

Craving dumplings and now my bf is too (a post on him should be coming soon, he’s the loveliest, sweetest boy in the world!! ) Suggested to drop everything and go! Unrealistic as he lives far and it was 7pm, his mother probably made dinner already. I don’t want that family to hate me anymore than they already do.

Anyways i screen-shotted this because i have been really feeling motivated to learn to drive lately. I’ve been saying, ‘after i finish the darn HSC i want to take the first semester of uni off and use that time to work 2 jobs and learn how to drive!’ Using the work money to be able to purchase my own car by the end of next year! Do you want to see what cars i want? yes i do ! well i like cute small black cars. I would love a Suzuki swift or a Volkswagon golf. $$$$$ i know they’re not luxury cars, and anyone who knows me, knows i’ve been obsessed with Mercs and Maserati’s but im being realistic here! These two cars will make a 20 year old Orion very happy :). 

My goal of driving is so i can just vroom vroom away in my car whenever i’m feeling sad at home, swoop up James along the way and go where ever we want, without the restrictions of the Sydney public transport. When this is a reality of course we will go on late night dumpling runs!! 

When i was 7 i used to fantasise about being in high school ,when i was a junior i used to fantasise about having the dependance of a 16 year old and now i’m nearly 18 i’m dreaming of being an adult. In all the cases, the grass proved to have been better on the other side. I am a hopeless dreamer, i must say. Silly girl. 

hate writing these conclusions because there isn’t much to say in the end. Here’s a picture of darling Jane :) 

Orion needs to stop posting 3 times a day , i guess its beginners thrill though... assignments are building up and soon wont have any excuse to not study 24 hours a day ! :( peace out