#orin is hard to say how i feel about cus she doesn’t really have that

[feniksido]

If i think about Zenith and the whole dark urge thing in general for too long i start going crazy

To me Zenith is not redeemable, he learns about everything he’s done and he thinks “i was brilliant. That man was brilliant” he is never ashamed of who he is or what he did but i like to think about those moments where he’s too human for his own liking. He gave someone some coin while on a walk! He cares for his cultists in the temple in his own way, recovering family artifacts and feeding his following

He’s evil. He’s horrific. A manipulator, a serial killer, a cannibal, and a just all around horrendous person. He’s not redeemable. But he’s a person and something about irredeemable people acting human makes it better for me.

I love it when an evil person can stand there, committing horrible crimes against humanity and society as a whole and yet still be genuine in his admiration and respect for another person. Doesn’t change the fact that they’re evil. Doesn’t mean they can be redeemed. It just means they’re alive. And contradictory. And that they have always had the capability to be “good” but have actively chosen not to be. Makes them worse people honestly. Cus if you had no choice then one can hardly blame you for just being the only thing you can be. But you’re worse cus you chose this