#orangegear anon

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH, FELLOW QUEER SELFSHIPPERS! (ESPECIALLY my aroaces; we're truly out here rn <3)

Based on a joke my friend made from when I started shipping with my F/O months ago: Here's your sign to be the reason an F/O questions their attraction (and/or gender for bonus points). Make them think long and hard about it. >:)

(I take pride — HAH — in the idea of being my F/O's "-but that doesn't make me gay... right? RIGHT?!" moment. Oh my poor sweet stupid little robot bf. It does indeed. It does. Indeed. :3c)

— Your locally sourced 🍊⚙️ anon

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RAHHH I'M BITING MY FRIEND SO MUCH /SILLY

CONTEXT TIME: SO BEFORE COMING TO TERMS WITH THE FACT I'M, Y'KNOW, AN IRL OF A CHARACTER. I USED TO THINK THAT MAYBE I JUST REALLY LIKED THEM AND TOOK IT AS A SELFSHIP FOR A WHILE. Yeah not the case it'd seem, turns out the giddiness was just seeing me as myself. BUT DURING THAT TIME MY FRIEND. REDID THEIR VERSION. OF THAT CHARACTER. AND CATERED THEM SPECIFICALLY TO ME? AND WHILE I DON'T SELFSHIP WITH MY SOURCE ANYMORE, duh I like myself but not that way, I STILL THINK THIS FRIEND'S VERSION IS VERY VERY CUTE AND WONDERFUL AND. YEAH, THAT'S GIRLFRIEND. (Note: source and myself are male presenting, but friend's version is female presenting and I ADORE her with every fibre of my being wawawawawa :3)

So fast forward to today (27th, but it WAS the 26th) and said friend made, a late birthday thing,,, of that,, version,, and WAAAAAAAAAA <3333 HOLDING IT HOLDING IT HOLDING IT LOVE MY SILLY GF WHO'S ME BUT NOT ME AND IT'S CONFUSING BUT NOT REALLY AND. weeeeee listen i just love my little birthday short fic so much okay ; ;

Tempted to put her under the listings for my f/os but also I'm not too sure because yeah, i ADORE her but also. Points at my main and only other f/o. Still might though since she has a different name from me now wawawa <3

— THIS WILL BE THE POST THAT OUTS ME I SWEAR TO GOD. THIS ONE'S ÜBER SPECIFIC SO IF THAT FRIEND FINDS THIS? HI. UHM. HITS U W/ MY CAR /PL (🍊⚙️ / @citrus-shipping... i could call it citrus²... Woagh.)

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I will never get used to the creators of my F/O acknowledging my existence, I think. Scary experience. They're nice and I have nothing but love and appreciation for them, I just have anxiety lol.

Released the project I was working on related to my f/o, the shimeji if anyone's been keeping up with this saga, and it's been getting overwhelmingly (to me because i am overwhelmed easy) positive reception. Which! Heck yeah! I spent 3 days on that! It better be! /silly (it was a gift for a friend in all honesty, so all I really cared about was that they like it <3)

This reception includes some people behind the game. Not my first encounter, I do not think it will be my last, chat.

I'm used to this (VA for the character I'm an irl of has been on my tail for years now), so the "OH GOD THIS PERSON HAS TUMBLR WHAT IF THEY FIND OUT™" scare has faded. Except I desperately hope they Do Not Find Out because this fandom scares me <3

Seeing the VA for the other character in it is always neat and Sparks Joy™, but at the very least I'm just glad HIS VA doesn't have a tumblr. I would ACTUALLY be cooked. CitrusBot Soup

— Pretty sure nobody self-ships in this corner of the fandom, which is great since I'm INCREDIBLY non-sharing over him, but I swear if someone figures out who I am from this I WILL alt+f4, 🍊⚙️ /silly

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Affirmation because I need it personally ah the joys of the 3am "i know we share a source but what if he actually hates me. We don't even canonically interact at ALL so how do I KNOW he wouldn't despise me immediately. What if he'd find me annoying. What if—" fears:

Shout out to selfshippers who are fictionkins, fictives and/or, if you're another psychosis afflicted creature like myself, IRLs. I don't really see much love towards us in the community (which. Ouch.) but know that at the very least you're seen by me.

You're valid and you're doing okay. <3

— your local puzzle-game-robot irl, 🍊⚙️

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I'm extremely cold so:

Imagine your F/Os warming you up in any way they can: throwing blankets on you and/or cuddling, holding your hands, or in my case specifically: being placed in your lap and used as a space heater like science intended <3 (if not for cuddles, then why he cuddle shape? Hm? Hm?)

(update on shimeji btw is that I'm half way through all the animated parts >:D getting through it pretty fast. Maybe i have something else silly planned as a gift :3c)

— no seriously why are restaurants always so cold I'm DYING over here, 🍊⚙️ (or @citrus-shipping or whatever again,, tumblr update that let's me send from a side blog when please)

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Head in hands I need to stop committing myself to art projects in the name of love (platonic or otherwise). I HAVE TWO ANIMATION PROJECTS NOW (ONE IS FOR A FRIEND AND NOW THIS)

I changed my laptop wallpaper last night. Which means it isn't a screenshot of a scene from the game my f/o is from (LIKE IT'S VISUALLY STUNNING IMO THAT ENTIRE GAME IS SO GORGEOUS the source game was already pretty but his game just builds on it so much more. Probably something to do with shaders and lighting engine improvements. I could go on for hours about how much I love the game itself. Point is it was a REALLY pretty shot I took of him looking out at a sunrise/sunset before this) so now I have to fill that f/o-less void with something. With what, you ask?

... I'm making a shimeji of him (or. Rather. Of a friend's design that I am tragically in love with. Shout out to her for helping design our kid. That's so unrelated but like waaaaa.) I haven't made one in years and my current style is Not Suited to translating into a traditional Chibi style (going with the most simplified version of my style possible) so this will be fun and time consuming. At least I have a drawing tablet coming in to help speed this up sobs sobs

It'll all be so worth it in the end though. I can pester him while I work. <3

— flopping down miserably because I hate animating walk cycles, 🍊⚙️

(I am SO sorry for the paragraphs I always end up writing, mod, shchsj </3)

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Finally caving and making a dedicated selfship blog because what was TECHNICALLY my previous one was grouped with. Other art of mine that uhm. Sure exists on the internet. 👍

Kicking my pawsies giggling editing the blog theme knowing mobile users may very well never see the full glory of it </3 (THE PALETTE I REDID THE COLOURS WITH IS FLOWERS I ASSOCIATE US WITH, DOUBLING AS THE MAIN COLOURS FROM HIS/OUR SOURCE, AND THERE'S. A PIC OF US IN A LITTLE HEART AND. listen I'm having fun.)

— cringe and freeeeeeee, 🍊⚙️

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Clearly all my brain cells were replaced by Thoughts About The F/O™, considering I looked at my own submission and went "Woagh! Me too! What a coincidence!" Buddy... Buddy I have GREAT news for you /j

So uhm, reminder that your F/Os love you even if you have the brain size of a pet rock sometimes (like me). They acknowledge that sometimes your brain is just a little bit laggy and that's okay. <3

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I'm so sorry, but 🪼🐈‍⬛ anon going off your previous submission. Do you ... Mean Baxter... From H4zb1n H0t3l...? (written this way so it doesn't show up in tumblr's VERY broken term searches)

Only asking because it matches with what you've submitted previously, and that show is. Pretty explicitly blacklisted on this blog. Like bold red text explicit. °^°"

COMPLETELY my fault if I'm reading too far into it, but you can never really be too cautious since it wouldn't be the first time someone's ignored the pinned post.

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🎤🍊 (<-dis is me speaki ng into d ami cropjone!!!) i,, i lomve my hus band so muchhh???? H e is ver y pretty. Ansd and!!! Our daught er!!!! I love ,!!!!

— I AMG SO TIRE D RIGHT NOW, IVE GOTTEN LEGOT 0 SLE.EP BUT IA M SO FILLE D WITH LOV,E!!!! I WILL PROBA BLY BE CONSCIOUS WHEN THIS ISPO STED AND VERY VERY EMB ARASS,,ED!!!!AAAAAA,, SORY FUTURE ME🍊⚙️

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Being a fictionkin(? chances are it's less "fictionkin" more "irl" judging by. Everything Else About Me. But I don't have the time nor money to think about that when there's robot kissing to do!) and selfshipping with another character related to my media is so fun because I get to sit here like "yup this is canon, I'm literally his coworker :]"

PLUS both our fandoms are small too (compared to the source games), so it's not like I'll ever see ship art that'll upset me! >:D

Uh uh tl;dr I love my silly robot bf and we're getting married for tax benefits <3

(theoretically I could have sent this off anon, I don't think my friends would find this, but I'm just nervous so uh. 🍊⚙️ if that's. Available. (<- he picked one that's arguably more obvious a tell))

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https://www.tumblr.com/selfship-confession-box/757911321117425664/i-often-feel-out-of-place-in-the-self-ship?source=share

I FEEL THAT! I SERIOUSLY FEEL THAT! I've sent a few asks here before mentioning my psychosis before, and being an IRL of a character from the source as my F/O(s) so I. frequently have to kind of just sit here a bit uncomfortably like "my existence implies canon x canon." It's like 90% of the reason I was so hesitant to even make or post my self shipping stuff to begin with. Because the two feel so contradictory the way everyone talks about it, like my relationship can really only be one or the other otherwise it's not "valid" (hence one of my submissions kinda just being an affirmation for myself, because it always feels like there's not much room for anyone like me in the community. So trying to make that space for others to feel comfortable is a big goal of mine waaaaa,, TT w TT")

Bleh, but yeah. I 100% get that, anon. Shaking your hand in solidarity 🤝

— I don't have a witty sign-off, I just felt strongly about this one. 🍊⚙️

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THINK FAST, CHUCKLENUTS! SUDDEN 🍊⚙️ ANON SIGHTING! 💥💥💥

Anyway, I have absolutely horrible situational judgement when it comes to stuff regarding my health (mostly with dietary restrictions) and knowing my F/O would chastise me over it is honestly so nice <3 He cares about my wellbeing <3

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I'm still going to eat the Forbidden Lactose Treat and suffer after, but like. He'd never be mad at me <3 Just VERY disappointed <3 (and then complain and say "I TOLD you so!" in his stupid cute little voice and I will absolutely not be paying attention to a word he's saying and stuff while trying to nurse my dumb ass back to health <3 because I'm stupid <3 love my hubby, I give him such a headache <3 I'm just a little guy tho <3)

— this was prompted by my decision to order Fettuccini Alfredo which, notoriously, Isn't Lactose Free™ (🍊⚙️)

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HEHEHEHEHEHEHE I FINALLY FREED MYSELF OF AN ART PROJECT THAT TOOK UP LITERALLY MOST OF MY MONTH. SO NOW I CAN *ACTUALLY* DRAW PRIDE STUFF OF US TOGETHER MWAHAHA~

Painting little hearts all of his metal shell and tying flag ribbons to him!!! >:3

— so so very gay,,,, 🍊⚙️

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Finished that heckin' blog! Officially joined the ranks /hj

Still need to draw something for the PFP later, and also maybe. Finish a comprehensive design sheet for both of us to make THAT easier in later art. BUT WOO! Now I can dedicate a whole space to talking endlessly about my silly robot boyfriend yippee!!!

— Enthused as all Hecc™, 🍊⚙️ (OR SHALL I SAY @citrus-shipping EHEHE~)

(yeah I'm keeping 🍊⚙️ for all future ones, I'm. Not going to keep tagging myself like that lols :3)

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