#oral histories i'm sad will be lost to the aegis of the internet

[metanoianmayhem]

Random Thoughts

I miss internet forums.

Not just the anonymity of it - before FB or FB being less popular so you had smaller microcosms even there and less of real life

I miss being in spaces with older queers telling stories of their triads. Of their predilections - stories of their lives.

I still have little flashes of memories from it. "Lost my virginity in the back of a van going 60 miles per hours, the condom was watermelon" "I love sex, but my partner has no interest at all." "We all love each other, so there's no reason to be just one." I remember talking about comics, about books.

About things as they were now for us - of how they were.

I spent a lot of time on forums and little slices of other peoples lives that didn't entitle you to all of them - but they held little pieces of you, too.

I miss the way communities formed then. We have them now, but as the enshittification of the internet trudges onward, it seems that the edges get shaved off.

Don't get me wrong - I enjoy parts of discord life, but it's always something to track thru. And I just don't treat them the same way.

I dunno. Feeling nostalgic for something that I don't think will be again. What a waste. But sometimes I think (know) the point is disenfranchisement of communities. After all, being able to compare notes and ask questions is the death of authority a lot of the time.