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solomon-tozer · 1 year ago

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I wonder if Stanley ever blames Goodsir for what happens.

I wonder if he ever blames himself.

He, the more experienced surgeon, wouldn't intervene to operate on Silna's father. He watched as Goodsir did his best. Maybe he watched in a detached, clinical way that saw the actions alone and tallied up all the things Goodsir was doing wrong, or that he, Stanley, could do better. When the man died, that was just a fact, really. Inevitable, perhaps, given the time since he was shot and Goodsir's skill.

I wonder if some part of him looked back at that incident in a different light later on. If he'd helped to save the man, how much of this could have been avoided?

And if Goodsir was a better surgeon and saved Silna's father, would things have been different?

#hindsight being a wonderful thing and all that #his flat-out refusal to touch silna's father... did it make any difference to the outcome in the end?#there's no way to really know so let's just think our little thoughts as we rotate characters beneath a microscope #obviously goodsir's skill level is neither here nor there but stanley does seem to look down on him #and stanley we KNOW is good at bullet stuff - he operated on jfj #he's more experienced in naval medicine and gunshot wounds #goodsir is freshly hatched after carefully studying some already dead people and maybe one or two other little things #ofc racism is rife in this show no excuses being made here for that shit #but on top of that stanley is traumatised as fuck - he probably wanted to go to the arctic to get AWAY from gunshot wounds and the like #and it's not like he's refusing to operate on one of the crew so no one bats an eye at it #but in hindsight does he regret that? does he see that it's one of the points at which things could have been changed?#i also think if he ever had these thoughts he only had them very very quietly #and in a very tiny part of his mind he carefully ignored by reading the next line of his book #or snipping off next toe from some poor sailor while a louder voice said goodsir should have done better #(but he's the senior surgeon #shouldn't he have...?)#this man is so fucked up and traumatised yooooo #stephen stanley #my stuff #terror meta #i'll try to stop having thoughts now

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