#or s.hoko did

[soulsballad]

there was something quite sweet about his curiosity, something very childlike about his interest. he is much older than her, yet has not experienced quite as much as she has. but that is to be expected, given what he was, given what he was born for. it's quite sad to think about, but he seems to have set himself on a path he is happy with. the gratitude and praise reach her ears, words spoken as a thank you for saving another life. shoko momentarily turns away from choso and nods to the individual, watching as they wander off, leaving her and the death painting alone. she's not concerned, she isn't afraid of him.

now, that she's able to give him her full undivided attention, she does. the medic turns fully, leaning against the table to her side. shoko allows herself some time to ponder his question, pulling out a cigarette and lighter in the meantime. once she lights up her cigarette and takes a draw, she exhales the smoke in the form of a dreamy sigh. ❝ i think so, yeah, ❞ the brunette begins, watching the being before her with a warm smile. ❝ but i also think we, as beings that get to experience such heavy emotion, tend to confuse 'love' for things such as 'obsession'. and you have to be careful about who you give your love to because there are people out there who like to exploit such vulnerable feelings. ❞

her smile remains prominent across her features, barely managing to reach tired and droopy eyes. ❝ i don't have any siblings, but i know it's not the same kind of love you'd have for your brothers. romantic love, sexual love- it's far more intense. but, if you find the right person who loves you just as much as you love them, it can change your life entirely. ❞

much like her , blood drives no kind of control over him , it ' s only a familiarity anymore . where sweat & * tears fold and peel away into the metallic substance thanks to his abilities as a death painting . the sound of her voice has his attention easily , her answer causing him to nod as an affirmation to his listening . STILL , it stumps him a little [ ... ] the gojo satoru he ' s heard so much about , revered as ' 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙎𝙏𝙍𝙊𝙉𝙂𝙀𝙎𝙏 ' by everybody he ' s come in contact with thus far , a part of him insists that his strength alone proves to be attractive right ? don ' t women like powerful men ?

𝑝𝑒𝑟𝘩𝑎𝑝𝑠 𝑡𝘩𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝘩𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑐𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑑 , or , perhaps choso just never cared enough to pay attention to the things that seemed just within the realm of mundane . shoko tells her story , and he nods again in understanding , AS IF HE COULD . but he ' s learning & * that 's the important part isnt it ? ❛ i see ❜ and he pauses , fiddling with his sleeves . ❛ do you think it ' s worth it ? love .. or whatever ? ❜ a hand flippantly gestures in front of them. you can remember watching ( LOVE ) fall apart right in front of your eyes , the actions that people claim are from good intentions / also nicknamed ' love ' but choso himself , well he ' s not too sure about the concept . like handing your heart over to somebody without knowing if theyre a cannibal [ ... ]

[brawlqueen]

on horadori institute / take-aways and a.ini divergent .

i think my next big post for mi.zuki will be going more in detail about horadori institute and the things i took from it and what i didn't . like i said, i think the way uchi.koshi treated miz.uki in a.ini was absolutely horrible and this is a running trend with his sequels, that isn't to say i don't enjoy his games, but talk about getting a constant short end of the stick. i addressed that salt here and am going to mostly have it involve s.hoko , three years 'visiting' horadori and never going to aioen , bi.bi makes no sense so she isn't in my canon - and the experiments did happen , but mi.zuki, due to the massive trauma on her psyche from it, and she literally was three when it was over, so three years of 'doctor visits' (via shoko wanting to make mi.zuki 'normal' and not 'abnormal' as she tells d.ate) , blocked it all out via repression and as of now has no memory until i involve her investigating it .

not sure if i want mi.zuki to remember that or not just yet , it'll just be like my years writing her , something that evolves . the biggest factor is she isn't immortal, has minor regenerative abilities, her gunshot wound is a trauma wound so that won't heal but not MUCH regeneration, and a lot of her supernatural / overpowered combat ability / athleticism is due to horadori as much as it is mi.zuki training at a young age since d.ate recognized her inhuman / godlike strength.

for sure, i'll keep that each year mi.zuki , as the 'reports' from chikara said , will grow stronger each year. which is a nightmare if she wasn't on the side of good, albeit chaotic good . for now that will be a major point in my verse for her that deviates from ai.ni save for a.iba as her partner, and with dread and uh, hope somehow this is fixed ( ??? can it ??? ) eventually having her own , but unpopular opinion i like mi.zuki and a.iba as much as i do d.ate and a.iba. they're just different dynamics but all three are family.

anyway . . . i have nothing against u.chikoshi save how he treats his female characters, or divides them into like...three archetypes , or completely destroys their foundations in sequels, which i've noticed in both his major series . he builds a good base for some of them , but seems to prefer his twists, which can be quite good, or quite, quite bad, and intentionally or not i just got the vibe that he really could not stand mi.zuki not even enough to make her the lead in her own game .

and this is with all the love for ryu.ki but this has happened in z.ero escape, and it's repeating in a.itsf / a.ini. mi.zuki deserves better, and ki.zuna and a.mame and ir.is, hi.tomi, etc -- i really hope this changes at some point , but i don't want to be bitter about games that i still very much enjoy especially OG AI1, and turn that frustration and disappointment into my own sandbox.

so yeah next topic will be how i probably handle horadori institute , as i'm already deviating from ai.ni entirely save for a few elements !