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avo-kat · 2 years

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every day.

every single time i leave my apartment im worried i forgot my keys. every time i return home im worried i lost my keys. i check and double check and still doubt myself.

its a horrible daily ritual of anxiousness.

and yet.

i forgot my backpack on the bus. my whole-ass backpack. fortunately i had my keys and phone in my jacket otherwise id be fucked. but inside my backpack is my wallet with my id and health insurance card and, AND: my workphone. a new iphone. i dont even know the number because i fucking hate apple products. but i know it was expensive. very fucking expensive.

im so fucking mad at myself. and im so fucking tired of it. every single fucking day i fear this scenario and i do everything to prevent it and it still fucking happens.

(yes i realize that everybody makes mistakes but i just wanna scream)

im so exhausted. i spend so much mental energy on this fucking bullshit and it still happens.

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#dont wanna say it dont wanna think it #its fine im fine if im lucky somebody will turn it in to the bus driver and i will be able to get it back through the lost and found #just like two years ago when i forgot my phone on the bus #its no guarantee though #i hope somebody turns it in #or maybe opens it up and sees a pee stained cat house and open cans of cat food and goes like #ahh better be kind #im begging u #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #had a cry

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