#or maybe it's all the growth i've gone through and it finally feels ok to be a hockey fan again like it doesn't hurt anymore lol
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happy hockey dayyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🏒⛸🥅🚨❄️
#is it obvious i'm excited ?????? it's very subtle i know#totally did not drive home listening to those 2021 versions of the songs and almost cried !! =D#dude like i'm so excited i can't even#again - i have not been this hyped up since 2021#idk man i just have a good feeling about this season. it's gonna be a special season#also - why did they update the songs on spotify 🥲#why didn't they just release new versions while keeping the older ones 🥲#i wanted to hear both the suzuki/cole & the patch/subby versions 😭😭#those songs get me in my feels like ughhh the nostalgia#can't believe 2021 is ancient history now like i haven't moved bro. i'm still there#maybe this is the season that starts it all up again 😭#idk maybe it's the fact we have a documentary or maybe it's the fact laine is finallyyyy here#or maybe it's all the growth i've gone through and it finally feels ok to be a hockey fan again like it doesn't hurt anymore lol#it's so good life is so good i am sooooo excited for this season#LFGGGGG#habs lb
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Confessions
Pairings : Reader x Bakugou
Writing Style : 1st Person and 3rd Person
Warning : A Lot of Swearing
Word Count : 3639
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Y/n's POV
" I Just don't Know what To do Izuku! You're Telling Me He Likes me but he barely even takes a glance at me! The bad thing is that whenever I try approaching him... Or even expressing my Love for him... He screams bloody murder and roasts me like there's no tomorrow! " I complained as I buried my face within my palms .
I was on the verge of tears simply because of a shitty crush. I felt Izuku's Hand caress my head as He stared down at me with a sympathetic gaze.
" There, There y/n. Let it all out " He muttered making me want to cry even more but I wasn't done venting.
" I've been chasing him ever since we were in middle school! Ironic how I give nothing but love but receive pain instead... I think... I should finally Give up" I whispered the last part and Izuku's movements were put in a halt.
" Really? After everything you've been doing for him? You'll just give up?! That's not you y/n! You're the type of person who fights with everything you've got without losing hope! And that's pretty admirable! I may not be as close with Kaachan as I was before but I know for a fact that he likes you too and is just too... Errr... Umm... How do I say this? Uhh He just has a really big Ego to admit it " He tried lifting my spirit up but I was tired. My heart was tired and I just wanted to... Give up or maybe Just Rest for a couple of weeks.
" Yeah? Well you think pretty Highly of Me Izuku.... But I'm weak too you know and there are battles I must quit.... I'll just try to recollect myself and rest for a few weeks Or so, I'll have to set my Priorities straight too... Ya know... If you get what I mean and all " I chuckled trying to mask the pain and it was futile. Izuku can read me like an open book.
He gave me a solemn look before nodding. This little cinnamon roll is just too kind and understanding, he even accompanied me to this very cafe we were in when he saw me looking down coming out of the Dorms.
" I get it, People need to cool off from time to time " He gave me a small smile and I returned it with a grin.
" Hey! You know there's this Carnival That was set up last week and it's their last day today! I had two tickets and tried inviting Katsuki.... I mean Bakugou Yesterday and he almost blew these tickets away.... It would be a waste if we don't use it so why don't we start my Personal Growth and healing by having Fun!? " I exclaimed and Izuku looked genuinely as excited as me.
" Really!? Sure! I'd like to go! It's been awhile since I actually had fun because of all the Pressure and Stress! " He smiled and I grabbed his hand immediately and dragged him out of the cafe and Off to The carnival we Go!.
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" Man! And Don't even get me started on the Food there! Although the Almight Mascot looked Really Weird it was still fun! " I Beamed as Izuku opened the front door.
" Yeah! And the Fireworks were awesome Too! I'm really glad we hung out today! " He bashfully stated as we simultaneously stepped inside .
" And Where have you two gone to? Maybe you shouldn't have came back if you'd show up in the middle of the damn night " Aizawa sensei suddenly appeared out of nowhere making me and Izuku flinch in shock.
" W-why... Hello there sensei " Midoriya stuttered fear ridden as he glanced down at me.
' Shit we're screwed '
" Guys! I believe it was extremely irresponsible to be gone without a word and come back at an unearthly hour! You could have atleast sent one of us a message or even answered Our calls! So we wouldn't be this anxious of your arrival! " Iida Sped walked towards me and Izuku and that's when we noticed that everyone was still up and gathered in the common room.
" We were so worried about you guys! We thought a villain took you or something! "
" Not cool dude, Aizawa Sensei almost flipped and called out a search team to look for you guys "
" You could have told us before you left "
Came the concerned comments of our classmates. It made my heart swell up with Joy and at the same time Guilt.
" We're so Sorry! " Me and Izuku yelled in Sync bowing our heads.
" It was my fault! I forgot my phone in my room! And Izuku was just accompanying me to a small cafe in town... And I invited him to go have fun at the carnival... To Distress.... I didn't think you guys would be this worried but thank you for worrying about us! " I yelled an apology and Izuku was fast to take the blame.
" No it's my fault! I turned off my phone and left without informing anyone and without thinking of the consequences! Neither me and y/n were aware of the time. We won't do it again! We're sorry guys" Izuku frowned as I placed my hand on his shoulder.
With a sigh Aizawa gave us a stern look scratching the back of his head before speaking.
" Look, this better not happen again or else you two will be in serious trouble. You're lucky tomorrow's a Sunday so No school . Just make sure to say something next time and not disappear without a trace "
" Yes sensei! " Izuku answered while I nodded my head vigorously.
As Aizawa continued his Lecture my eyes drifted towards the crowd of my classmates and what surprised me was that Bakugou was Present. He was awake. Did he actually give a fuck?... No he's probably dragged into this by Kaminari or Kirishima.
After a long 30 minutes of sermon Aizawa sensei finally let us go.
In the end everyone returned to their rooms and Before I went to mine I gave Izuku a Hug as a ' Thank you for being there for me ' and I was unaware of a pair of crimson red eyes staring at us.
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The Next Day
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I heard knocking on my door which forced me to wake up and open the door and to my surprise it was Izuku and Uraraka.
" Morning Guys.... What brings you here? " I yawned blinking my eyes as the two chuckled at my messy appearance.
Bed hair, oversized t shirt and drool on the corner of my lips.
" We came here to invite you for breakfast! Everyone is gathered in the common room! You're a pretty heavy sleeper! Jirou and Momo tried waking you up earlier and there was no answer " Uraraka explained but still, sleep was very much alive in my system and I just gave a lazy nod before hanging again.
" Looks like she's still Tired Uraraka, you go on ahead we'll catch up with you" Izuku offered and Uraraka was fast to jolt away a from us.
" Ok! But you better not let her go back to sleep Deku! Everyone's counting on you to wake her up! " Uraraka yelled as she headed downstairs.
I was swaying back and forth with my eyes half lidded and I had a sudden urge to sleep on the floor.
" Still sleepy? " Izuku asked and fortunately I was still awake enough to give him a nod.
" Wanna get on my back? I'll carry you down stairs so you'll have time to rest " He offered while turning his back against me and bending down.
Without hesitation I fell on his back and subconsciously wrapped my arms around his neck and my head resting on his back.
I felt his scarred hand grip my thighs and he lifted me off the ground and started walking.
Honestly I didn't know how long it took him to get to the common room but I was happy I had a really nice friend to carry me like this.
" Wow, Midoriya when we told you to get Y/n we didn't know you'd actually ' Get ' Her " The familiar Voice of Kaminari commented and I was thankfully awake or more like I forced myself to be awake.
I peeked my eyes at him and stuck my tongue out.
" Yeah you're just jealous cause Izuku is Carrying me " I retorted and Izuku's chest vibrated in a small chuckle.
" You two a Thing Now or something? " Mina grinned pointing at us with her chopsticks.
" No Mina we're not a Thing. We're People " I countered and she gave a light laugh.
" Smart move y/n. Smart move "
" Do you want me to put you down now? " Izuku asked as he looked back at me and I shook my head.
" No, I like being carried by you. You're really warm " I smirked and the poor boy's face overheated with embarrassment.
" Oo~ are you sure you two aren't a Thing? " Uraraka Teased giving me and Izuku a suggestive wink.
" So you're dumping Bakugou for Midoriya or something? " Kaminari crackled with laughter and the whole room fell into a cold silence.
As if everyone knew something I should be aware of.
" Me and Bakugou aren't Dating in the first place, I don't think we'll ever be together too " I confidently stated and I could hear gasps and the shock faces of my classmates didn't go unnoticed.
" S-She called him Bakugou and Not Katsuki! " Mineta Yelled in panic as he stared at me with wide eyes.
Suddenly a loud bang was heard from one of the tables. Specifically the Table Bakugou was on.
He had slammed his hand on the table along with his chopsticks and he was seething with so much anger and... Are my eyes lying? Is that jealousy!?.
" I ain't fucking hungry! " He yelled and stood up violently that the chair fell off.
He started stomping his way towards us. I was never afraid of Him.... Well not until Now atleast.
" Deku " He growled lowly and I could feel Izuku tremble.
Immediately, I got down from his back and when Katsuki was close enough I stepped infront of Izuku.
" Stay Back Bitch! " He hissed and I stood my ground.
" No you Stay back Asshole! What is your problem!? Why don't you mind your own fucking Business! " I snapped harshly poked his Chest with each word I uttered.
He glared at me tiny sparks popping on his palms.
What he said next was something I have never expected him to say.
" You are My goddamn Business You Little Shit! Hanging around with Deku the whole Night making me worry about your shitty ass! And now you're clinging onto him like a stupid fucking Koala! Can't you see how jealous I am!? Can't you drill it in your pretty little head that you're Fucking Mine! " His voice rang through every corner of the common room.
Everyone was silent for a few seconds. My eyes were wide and full of disbelief.
" Finally, Took Him a long time to actually confess... It was kinda getting painful to watch " Kaminari mumbled but it was loud enough for me to hear.
" Dude, it was so manly confessing to her infront of everyone. Bakugou is a true man " Came another comment from one of my classmates, Kirishima.
Katsuki was glaring at me his Chest rising and falling at a visible way clearly indicating how aggravated he was.
His crimson eyes held a lot of swirling emotions, Jealousy, Anger, Betrayal and Possessiveness.
" ..... Excuse you!? " I managed to voice out and he tried grabbing me but I was quick to evade his hand.
" No! And Just when I finally decided to give up on you. You decide to throw all this bullshit infront of me Bakugou Fucking Katsuki! No you listen here you Egotistical Haughty Son of a Bitch! I suffered through every shitty insult and pain you threw my way because I loved you and when I'm at my limit and ready to go you give me this!? all you gave me was pain and honestly I'm not a masochistic bitch to accept it with open arms how but my middle finger huh?!. Damn you and your very confusing and petty way of claiming me! That is not happening! You hear me!? So suck it up Bakuhoe and Go Fuck yourself " I actually felt proud of myself but that was the first time I actually raised my voice or even cursed infront of everyone in the first place so their dumbfounded expression didn't really surprised me.
" Wow.... Your girl's as good at Cursing as you are Bakugou " Sero was the first to comment and that pissed me off.
" I'm not his 'Girl' " I emphasized the girl part with a hint of mockery.
" Yet " Bakugou added making me glare at him.
" Fuck you " I grumbled turning around to walk away in victory thinking I had won the fight.
But before I could even take one step forward I was slung over Bakugou's Shoulder hanging upside down.
" Put me down you Fucking Asshole! " I yelled as he carried me away from the common room.
" Hey! " I grab hold of his blonde hair which was surprisingly soft and gave it a harsh tug which earned me a groan from him.
" Bitch! " He yelled slapping my butt making me gasp.
" I should get you mad more often, That was hot " He commented as if he hadn't just slapped my butt.
The nerve of this fucker.
" Put me down!" I growled as he proceeded to carry me upstairs.
" Now don't think I'm done with you just yet. I have to get my sweet revenge because you hung out with Fucking Deku and let him touch you! " He barked as I felt him tighten his hold on my fleshy thigh.
I tried everything I could, from squirming to kicking to punching his back but the guy is a Fucking wall and didn't even budge.
" Stop it Bitch! Save your energy for later. You're gonna need it " He muttered making me react violently. Until he had enough of it and slammed my back to the nearest wall with his strong muscular arms trapping me I'm between with his body a bit too close to mine.
His face was inches away and I visibly gulped turning my face to the side as his breathe fanned my cheek.
" Bakugou I'm warning you. I'm gonna do something YOU'RE gonna regret if you don't let me go " I had managed to say without stuttering and I mentally Pat myself on the back for my strong tone.
" Fuck it y/n. You really think I'd let you get away after Saying all that shit and defending Deku!? After you hopped onto his back like you're HIS!? Well you're Fucking Mine! You got that!? " He yelled making me groan. His voice was too loud and I think my ears are gonna bleed.
" You asked for it! " I yelled back as I prepared to kick him where the sun don't shine but I didn't even get to raise my leg halfway when he pulled me down by my leg and pressed his body against mine even more.
Right now I had no way of moving with my leg trapped against his thighs holding me in place.
" Oh? Was that your Great Fucking Move? Well it's pretty pathetic so kick and scream all you want. I'm claiming you right now " Using his hand he raked my locks down and gripped onto my hair roughly forcing me to face him and his lips had already connected with mine.
His kiss was rough, dominating with a tinge of passion and jealousy. Moving his lips at a better angle his other hand trailed down to squeeze my hips.
I ressisted. I really did but after awhile of him kissing me I melted. My hands wrapping themselves around his neck my chest squeezed with his toned chest. Both of his hands resting on my waist as I stood on my tippy toes kissing him back with the same intensity.
Opening my mouth to give him access he didn't waste a second to slip his tongue inside my claiming his new domain. His tongue wrestled with my own and soon gaining dominance as he continued the rough kiss.
It was a very angry kiss with lots of jealousy coming from him.
When we finally pulled away breathless and panting his intense crimson orbs pierced mine a smug smirk slowly rigging on the corners of his mouth.
" Still refusing me after that? After you willingly kissed me back? After clinging onto me for dear life? " He was either mocking me or teasing me but either way it pissed me off.
" Katsuki I'm gonna rip your throat off if you keep that up " I glared at him but I guess actions spoke louder than words because my neck was still wrapped around his neck and my body still pressed against his.
" Yeah right and a moment ago you called me Bakugou now look who's calling me Katsuki again " He sneered and I tried retreating my hand away from his neck to push him away but he beat me to it; grabbing my arms and using it as leverage to pull me closer towards him.
" I know I did some pretty fucked up shit. I'm not the best person at expressing these shitty feelings I have for you but I will make it up to you, I'm s-soow.... S-sooo.... Rrr... Eeyyyy " The way he forced out a ' I'm sorry ' got me laughing so hard .
He didn't appreciate that because his cheeks were tinted red form embarrassment and anger.
" You Fucking bitch! Don't laugh at me! I'm trying! " He yelled as I continued laughing.
Yeah, seeing him like that was new and hilarious.
My laughter was cut off when I felt his warm lips press a kiss on my cheek.
He looked to his side his eyes avoiding mine.
" Don't Fucking laugh cause I mean it though.... I'll make it up to you.... " He muttered the faint red color of his cheeks still present.
A smile formed on my lips as I stared at him fondly. A small pinkish tint coating my own cheeks but me being me I ruined the moment with a bitchy remark.
" Yeah why don't you practice saying Sorry first while not sounding like you were about to take the biggest shit of your life " I retorted and because of that I began laughing once again and he was raging. Screaming at me to stop laughing but I couldn't help it. He did deserve it after all.
I'm pretty sure I'll get more of my little revenge in the future....
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Bonus :
" Deku.... I know you care about those two and You're a hardcore shipper but... What you did though... Was it on purpose? " Uraraka asked taking another bite of her pancakes as they listened to the two bicker.
" Who knows " Izuku answered with a contented smile on his face.
" Huh... You're a bit suicidal for doing that but I respect you man. Bakugou finally confessed it was getting pretty sad to watch him act all tough and pretending he doesn't like her " Sero chuckled.
" Hopefully those two will stay strong from now on... " Momo took a sip of her tea and everyone silently agreed with her.
" So.... Do you think they're Fucking? " Mineta suddenly brought up the topic which caused Tsu to slap him with her Tongue.
" Mineta-kun you're being a pervert again" Tsu muttered staring at the purple headed boy.
" Hahahahha! " Denki and Mina suddenly came down stairs holding a camera.
" You guys wanna see what they were doing upstairs? " Denki asked while laughing.
" Dude, invading other people's privacy is Not manly " Kirishima stated bit he couldn't help but be curious.
" .... What happened though? " Kirishima asked taking a peek at the camera.
" Oh you know, They kissed and Bakugou tried saying sorry but it was an epic fail! " Mina laughed and on cue Y/n came running down with an in raged Bakugou trailing hot on her tail.
" Come Back here! " Bakugou barked trying to grab hold of the girl.
" I was being honest when I said you need practice in saying sorry! You look like you're about to shit Bricks! " She yelled merely avoiding the hand of Bakugou that was centimeters away from holding her.
" Drama and Breakfast in the morning sure is pretty Good. But Drama, Breakfast and Comedy in the Morning is The best! " Denki chuckled watching the two interact.
" Oh boy... I have a feeling everything is going to be a lot more louder here than usual " Izuku sighed .
#bnha x reader#bnha imagine#Bakugou x Reader#Katsuki Bakugou#Katsuki Bakugou x Reader#Jealousy#Romance#Bnha#Slight Midoriya x Reader#Boku no Hero Academia#My Hero Academia#Oneshot#BNHA Oneshot
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FRUITS BASKET S3 EPISODE 8 RECAP AKA THE KYORU CHRONICLES PART 2 (plus a quick recap of eps 3-7)
aaaaaaAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! I gotta get it out of me otherwise I won't be able to concentrate on work and I will be scrolling through the tag till the day I die. Everything from episode 3 of Season 3 literally hit me like an avalanche - literally cos I marathoned 3-7 over the weekend which I wouldn't advise unless you want an accelerated heartbeat - and I'm starting to realise... maybe I just wasn't ready for season 3. Despite asking for it, haha. Not gonna put as many screencaps for this one cos tumblr editing bay be trippin and I just don't have time nor emotional energy to be fighting with the picture uploads, sorry lol
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Episodes 3 - 7
I spoke before about how (despite my feelings about the characters) the English dub VAs for Akito and Shigure pair up really well audibly. And I think I feel the same way about both Yuki and Machi's English VAs! They both have the same soft spoken yet scratchy element to their voices almost like they are holding slightly back. Although, I'd argue that Yuki has been losing the element of slightly holding back as the anime has gone on which I wonder if the same would be included for Machi's performance?
I really like the presentation of Machi's trauma through her family's expectations to be perfect and how physical it is? How Yuki kind of encourages her to let it out in a healthy way? (Btw the whole chalk breaking scene in the meeting was SO FUCKING SMOOTH. YUKI IS A NERD BUT HE IS SO EFFORTLESSLY COOL A LOT OF THE TIME)
The age gap between Isuzu and Haru for sure isn't the worst age gap in this anime/manga but it's still a bit... hmm...
Episode 4:
In all seriousness, I know Akito deserves some sympathy but it doesn't change the fact that I still see her as a villain. Hurt people hurt people but it doesn't mean they should get away with it, I was honestly pleased Haru got that big confrontation with Akito to tell her WHAT'S WHAT but it was also somewhat... merciful?
Hiro's growth has been so beautiful to see, him realising there are bigger things than him from the event with Rin to his relationship with Kisa to then the birth of his little sister.
Kureno choosing to get his hands a little dirtier and paying the ultimate price for it (as far as we know so far in the anime lol) was great, he is the moon side of Tohru's sunshine.
Shigure... I still don't really get him and Akito's relationship. It's clear he's waiting for Akito to grow the fuck up but at the same time he's not creating an environment for her to grow and develop. He's decided to go with the 'tough love' route which I'm still deciding whether I like it or not tbh. Sometimes it feels necessary, at other times it feels shitty. I respect that he knows he's a scumbag and I don't deny that there are people out there who take revelry in the fact that they are awful but at the same time, him remaining unchanging despite everything feels... unrealistic. But considering throughout this story he doesn't seem affected by trauma, it's understandable, I guess?
Also... that scene where Shigure ponders about whether he should've been with Tohru is THE creepiest creeper shit he's EVER done in this series. No. 🙅🏾♀️
Momiji is best bunny boi regardless of how tall and 'manly' he becomes. 🐰His scene with Akito was so authentically him and he really did that shit. We love him. <3
I love the way that the curse breaking should (on surface) be a happy event considering all the trauma the zodiac went through because of it but it's presented mostly as loss as well as happiness. It's the realness of getting out of a bad relationship
Shigure basically laying it out to Tohru how Kyo means nothing in a very taunting way was an excellently painful scene and I choose violence. It was heartbreaking seeing how worthless they all saw Kyo compared to how Tohru saw him but... by this point I was just living in the pain so 🤷🏾♀️
The story visually showing how Isuzu is more willing to be soft after her whole ordeal through her fashion choices (e.g. the pastels, the cardigans) was really nice. And Haru being happy about Isuzu making friends with Tohru was cute!
It was nice we saw that Kazuma was still wary about whether Tohru loved Kyo for the right reasons, you'd assume after everything Kazuma would love Tohru as a match for Kyo but he's so emotionally intelligent and also just a protective Dad! Yay, good parenting!
Tohru's confession to loving Kyo was amazing however I still adore Kyo's confession a little bit more. Just a bit. Lol. However, if you add the moment later in episode 8 it trumps it completely. Ethereal goddess.
Kyo and Tohru's grandfather having a scene together was great and nice
Now that I think about it, I wish there was more a visual link in the story between Tohru adapting her speech to imitate her Dad and Momiji adopting his Mum's German accent. Albeit for slightly different reasons, it just adds to the unique connection Tohru and Momiji have. In short, I'm seeing this ship with my third eye now. I get it lol
I don't wanna screencap the scene where Kyo is haunted by both his deceased mother and deceased Kyoko and potentially deceased Tohru because it's the stuff of nightmares. But, it was a wonderfully done scene. You definitely understand fully and clearly why Kyo buried all of that trauma under his hatred for Yuki (I CAN'T WAIT FOR EPISODE 9, YOU GUISE!)
If Akito is a villain, Ren is the final boss. Although, with her type of villainy... I feel like I can kind of enjoy a bit more. She reminds me of a Greek God in the ways she master manipulates people and her desperation for control and power (I just read 'Mythos' by Stephen Fry, it's a great read lol)
It lowkey feels like every female character who's comfortable in expressing their sexuality in this story is punished in some way for it... this is an incomplete thought
Shigure as a child feeling like they should all be pitied is so... mature... I feel like I need more of an explanation for why Shigure is the way he is
Akito's ego death with Kureno? Amazing. I loved that she was at least aware enough to realise how Kureno had been coddling her all this time but again... doesn't excuse her crimes
But anyways...
EPISODE 8
Honestly? I really don't have much to say about this episode besides 3-5 points I wanna get out of my head. It's not a bad thing at all, it's just that there's still a lot left to play out from this 'arc' and this season in general that I wanna complete my thoughts on.
But I'll start with this:
Lol, isn't it funny?! Isn't it heart-wrenchingly funny how the relationship between Kyo and Tohru has kinda reverted back to how they were at the start of the series? The coldness of Kyo at the beginning of this episode (and throughout) was a bit of a gut punch considering all the light and fluffy moments that we've gotten between the two since the True Form arc.
Talking about the True Form arc, I feel like this episode is somewhat a repeat of the same emotions, same trials of the True Form arc. Kyo still 'runs away like he always has' but this time we get him being the most honest and confrontational with his own emotions and trauma than he ever has been during the course of this whole story. While trusting someone (Tohru specifically) for the first time with the whole truth of his story! He always seems to move one step forward and then three steps backwards and while it's a tad bit frustrating, it feels very... real. I'll probably complete my feelings how this arc reflects the True Form arc when we finish this section of the story in future episode(s).
Considering the fact that 80% of this episode is Jerry Jewell monologuing as Kyo and I never got bored really just sells his performance. Kyo was being incredibly cold this episode and yet the range of emotions through his performance made it feel understandable enough for you to empathise with it.
BrattyKid!Kyo to lighten the mood 😹I still wish he and Hiro had more of a relationship, I feel like they could have taught each other a lot. Well... mostly Kyo teaching Hiro tbh
Kyo rejecting Kyoka for her honesty and kindness and then later rejecting Tohru? Oh... kid...
Wow, I felt so good about that whole episode of Kid!Yuki helping Kid!Tohru get home and then it's slightly soured knowing KID!KYO was running about the streets alllll night into the morning?!?! I really did feel Kyo's frustration at not getting that win to actually do something right. And the irony of that being linked to him being unable to save Kyoka from the oncoming car?
Honestly, I don't know what my feelings are on Kyo being unable to save Kyoka. I don't even know what my feelings are on Tohru pretty much pushing that aside in favour of her feelings for Kyo. It's... complicated and I've been mulling it over in my head for the last 10+ years hahah However, if I was in Tohru's position I think I'd eventually come to a point where it feels like it's too late to really do anything about how bad I'd feel about it. Kyo's intentions weren't horrid, if anything he was just being a scared kid and he's allowed to be that. I just wish Tohru had a bit more time to evaluate it but considering she knew her mother well and assumes that wouldn't have been the full scope of what she had said, I don't have much of a problem with it in general
Lol, I love when Tohru gets a 'FUCK YOU, I LOVE YOU' moment with Kyo. 😂Another reflected scene from the True Form arc... only thing is that this time... it doesn't quite work. 😕
(Again, I love how all of these reflections are resolved in later occurences in response to the duality but I'll get to it next week when it shows hopefully)
Laura Bailey only had a few sentences in this episode but she killed it as always. Comparing her performance in 2001 to now is just... growth!
Ok, so Yuki automatically gets Best Boi in this episode for meddling and chasing after KYO of all people. Showing how he's personally done with hating Kyo. Realising Kyo is pretty much the only person who'll make his mother happy. I think he also lowkey wants to understand Kyo? But, we'll get to that next week.
....Oh yeah, Akito is there.
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In total, I liked this episode even though it has me anxious for the next one. We finally get the full picture of why Kyo is the way he is! Ahhhh - a weight off all our chests, I'm sure. I kinda don't like that they put the ending theme at the end of these episodes - the joyfulness doesn't really match up with the intense theme? But, that's just a minor gripe. And hey, maybe they just want the audience to know... it's all gonna be okay :)
See you next week!!!
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Multiple times I've seen an opinion that in Ragnarok Thor is the main one to get credited for Loki doing the right thing because "he finally get through to him" and that Loki would never do good on his own or he only helped out of selfish reasons therefore his redemption and character growth is irrelevant/didn't really happen.
Thanks for the ask! Proof that you really can curate your tumblr experience, I guess! I’ve never seen this opinion. Let’s break it down because this is two separate issues:
1. “Thor is responsible for Loki’s redemption arc because he’s the one that convinces Loki to do the right thing.”
Like...I can see how you might come to this stance. Yes, a major part of Loki’s decision in Ragnarok to return to Asgard is driven by what Thor says to him. But by saying Thor’s responsible for it, you strip Loki of his agency in that decision. Loki didn’t have to steal The Statesman and go back to Asgard. We already know he thinks they can’t defeat Hela and they’re going to die.
Maybe the problem is that you have to assume so much of Loki’s character development (a problem of having him appear in TDW in 2013 and then not again until Ragnarok, 4 years later). Clearly, he’s changed in those intervening years. You can see it right away in Ragnarok when Thor exposes him. Loki’s not keen to hang onto the throne, he goes to Earth (pretty) willingly to retrieve Odin. I’ve written before (here) about how Loki doesn’t want to fight with Thor and seems to want his brother back. Once they get to Sakaar, I really do think Loki’s first instinct is to help Thor, but he’s going to do it in his own way, hence the shushing and ‘I’ve never met this man in my life.’ He’s wrong-footed by Thor’s appearance and he’s trying to do damage control. You know, now that I’m thinking about it, ‘I’ve never met this man in my life,’ is actually probably Loki’s first attempt to get Thor out of the stupid chair, but of course Thor doesn’t play along. Oh...now I’m thinking about that, ok, I won’t go on!
Anyway, the conversation in the gladiator cell, Loki’s reactions to Thor fighting the Hulk, Loki being pissed at Val for helping Thor...basically every time Loki appears on screen in Ragnarok, you can see him being torn in two (or more) different directions. This whole movie is about him deciding to be ‘more than the God of Mischief,’ and Thor, in the elevator and obedience disc scene, is just the final push.
2. I don’t even know what the selfish reasons would be honestly? So he would get to look like a hero? I for sure think he wanted to look like a hero, I mean my god Loki, “Your savior is here!” That’s extra even for you. But no, I don’t think that would have really factored into his reasons for returning to Asgard. He didn’t think Thor and he could defeat Hela. Or is it because he’d fallen out of favor with the Grandmaster? I feel like he could have got back into the GM’s good graces.
As for the idea that doing something for a selfish reason negates his character growth/redemption arc...hoo boy. This feels like some purity culture stuff right here. If you do the right thing, is it not still the right thing, regardless of the reasons you did it? Entire belief systems have been built around this question, so, you know, I guess there’s not a right answer. But in my mind, even if Loki was motivated only by selfish reasons to return to Asgard, save what remained of his people, and help Thor, he still did all those things. If his motivations truly were selfish, I would say there was room for more character growth, but it certainly wouldn’t negate that there was character growth. This was a guy who, a few years ago, was screaming at people to kneel after probably blinding a guy (seriously, could they not have got their hands on a less gruesome retina scanner?). He’s come a long way. I tend to be of the opinion that it doesn’t matter what’s in your heart or your head, that you should be judged on your actions. We all do the right thing sometimes for the ‘wrong reasons,’ because no one is good and pure and morally upright all the time. The point is that we try...and that’s what Loki does. That’s what makes him such a compelling character to me. He tries to be better. It doesn’t mean he never slips up, it doesn’t mean it’s always forward progress.
And I’ve gone on enough now, probably! Thanks again for the ask!
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Diaries of an Unknown Rockstar.
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Pt.1
It is funny the way we dream. One day is ecstasy, the other frustration, or just working your ass off to get there. I guess maybe those are the three moods of a dreamer. Now, at 24 years old, I look back to the younger me and understand the feeling of not fitting in the models of society in a certain way.
You grow up listening, "you need to study to get in a good college, and after that, you'll have at least half of the way guaranteed. A great job, you will probably get to buy a house, build a new family." I quite never understood this model.
To begin with, I have never appropriately studied, and I still don't get how the teachers let me pass all those years. Maybe I was funny, and my friends said I was dedicated when the rope was tight in my neck.
When I got to college, I thought that all of my school's frustrations would be gone because I was coursing something I felt I wanted since I was seven, and life would get way better. I won't lie, It was terrific. I evolved a lot as a human being, but comparison and the feeling of never doing something extraordinary or good enough haunted me all of those four years.
During college, I started working, and my first real job was as an intern in a small female fashion brand. The job was being The Owner's right arm and helping her with everything possible. It was a massive growth in adult life and a considerable experience understanding the fashion industry and what happens behind product development. But guess what? Two months later, I got fired because I said I did the work, but in fact, I didn't. I didn't because I have slept, and she caught my foolish and childish lie. Yes, sleeping and lying about it got me fired.
Going home knowing that the reason why I got fired was 100% my fault was painful and worse of all, I mistreated myself a lot because I had sleeping problems, which soon I found out that this was self-defense that my body and mind created for me to deal (in a way) with my emotions.
Anyway, I kept going. I was far away from the best student in class, but I was good, creative, and still wanted to be a big employee, work in a big company, grow in the company, and be the most significant model I could ever be. I manage to achieve some parts of this sequence.
In my last year of college (2018), I got into an internship program in one of the biggest Fashion Companies in the country. I was thrilled. I managed to be the chosen one among thousands of applicants. That was Christmas for my ego! And I will never forget the day of the final interview. I fell in love with the company and came home saying, "Oh, I want to work here so bad!"
So I did, and I have learned a lot. I managed to work in the most prominent teams of the company, know outstanding professionals and people that I will forever carry. I became an assistant. Then I just noticed that I hated what I did.
I was a robot. I did the same things every day (very dull things, if you don't know what a tech pack or licensing submissions are, consider yourself lucky), those things were things that I knew I would have to do for a long time if I wanted to keep on in the company and grow. But voices in my head were always screaming: "Is this worth it?" "Is this what you want?" and the answer was always " I don't know."
I didn't know much about myself, but I knew that I loved to draw, create, start new ideas and projects that mattered. Still, most of all, I loved coming home and playing my guitar and write about feelings, and I noticed that this part of me was fading away as I was getting lost in myself and my unknown purpose.
So one day, I woke up and started looking for music production courses. I sent a message to an old Singing Teacher of mine where he said he had a friend who had a studio and wanted to start giving music production classes, so he passed me the contact. So I talked with the guy, which name was Gustavo.
Gustavo answered me quickly and graciously and invited me to come to the studio, which I thought was a garage with few things. But as I got there and sat in the controlling room where he edited and produced music, I fell in love, not the same feeling from the time I got into the company. I felt something beyond it, something that I never felt before. I felt connected. I kept asking myself mentally: "WTF are you doing that you are not here?!"
As I talked to Gustavo and said, "Hey man, I want to know how to produce!!!!!" and he looked at me in an icy and severe way, asking: "ok, what do you know about music?". Have you ever had that moment when you think you know a lot, but you don't? That was the moment for me. I play the guitar since I was 11. I knew theories like the Pentatonic and Diatonic scale and major and minor chord progressions, which I thought was enough. How naive was I? A lot.
As I enrolled in a short Ableton live program, I could understand a little bit of electronic music production and that good music production required time, practice, and many studies. Which at that moment, I was not that committed to doing so.
2020 came out, and I was still working like a robot, but at least I had amazing people by my side and was sometimes making music. Also, I was planning to go to England by the beginning of September to course a Master in Illustration at Camberwell College of arts. I had applied and passed my IELTS tests. Everything was going ok, until the one and only: Corona Virus.
What I (and everybody) thought was going to be 15 days is still lasting. One year and a half, I passed through the most significant change in my life (not just me, I believe). When it all started, I was just comfortable with everything, my job, my life, where I was going when everything pass, but it came to a point where I couldn't stand looking at my computer.
Every move, word, e-mail was torture. I was working thousands of hours, and most of the time, I procrastinated because I didn't want to do it. The worst of all was that my work wasn't good, and I knew it. I knew that I was delivering wasn't my best because I wasn't willing to do my best anymore. I lost the energy or the meaning behind that job.
During this turbulent relationship between me and my job, I watched videos on youtube, and one specific video calls out to me. It was an effortless and small live performance of MGK in February 2016 at a CD Store. It is a video where you have just Colson (MGK) and three guys from his crew playing for some people, but the way he was committed to his music and expressing himself lighted up my mind, making me think: I want to do this.
So I made up the decision, I want to be an artist, I want to make music this is my dream, but at the same time all the bad voices in my head were like: " You won't make it, it is impossible to live with that, what will your parents say? They can't afford to pay for your failures anymore. They won't help you." So I planned until I was brave enough to do so.
August 21st, 2020 I've quit my job, sold my car - which was the only thing I had in my name - and put the plan in action. The plan was to save the money to move to England by March 2021 and pursue my music career. Guess what happened? No, it didn't go like planned, I am not in England or very close to going, and yes, I went out of money, but I have started my career on the right foot in a very odd way.
So summing up, I was not a good student, but I manage to pass one of the most significant Art Colleges in my country. I worked in one of the biggest companies, but I was following a pattern that I never understood in the end.
The fact is: I am still figuring out life, and what I see is that there is no formula and the only thing guaranteed is the air you breathe to live. In 2020 I dug up my biggest dream, and I am not giving up. The main goal: Create music/art and Be a Rockstar.
People say we should write our own stories, so I'll be here writing mine.
This is the Diaries of an Unknown Rockstar, so press play.
Thank you for being here.
Ella YLW
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