#or maybe it doesn't matter to him regardless ? he still cares? ITS KILLING ME !!!! IM ILL !!!!!

[frogatz]

smth abt fark waiting for spark every time . explaining it all however many thousands of times they met like that

[ghosttalksalot]

if you know me you know i LOVE a real spidery peter. natural web production and all. ESPECIALLY when wade loves it.

starting this post off with a real quick spider lesson. you can skip to the next paragraph, but it explains the way i write peter here a bit. most spiders have what are called 'slit sense organs.' these are on their legs and bodies, and they allow them to detect what's on their web without seeing with their eyes. so they can detect the difference between prey getting caught, a leaf falling into the web, and a breeze. anyway~

peter might have some kind of an anxious habit, maybe he tries not to, its a little embarrassing. well, maybe not embarassing... but he definitely doesn't want people to know because they definitely would not get it. but after a real hard day when hes still feeling a little jumpy, he will weave a web. nothing CRAZY... just a little something over his bed and connected to the door and the close walls so he knows whats going on. its not CRAZY... its just different. there's a reason he's not open about it.

regardless, if he doesn't make it big enough to lay on that day he'll have his hand resting against it, just so he knows if anything happens in his room. he jumps a little less hearing ac turn on if he feels the breeze through the web as well, can't convince himself its something else. after all, it won't be there forever, it's just to reassure him for now. sometimes after a whole lot of people try to kill you, you want some reassurance.

so now he's getting closer with wade. he trusts him enough to have had him over, but he's not yet shared his name or face. he knows deadpool could have long since found him if he wanted to, so he figures going a little out of order doesn't matter. wade clearly intends on letting peter share as he's ready, which is a slightly unexpected but nonetheless appreciated kindness.

before patrol happened, wade told him he would bring pizza over that night. sounded great at the time, free food was always great, but with everything that happened that night he'd quickly forgotten. he's "relaxing" - he could hardly be more tense, doesn't quite seem right to call it relaxing - in his anxiously woven web, and three things go through his mind when he hears the window unlatch.

first, he's excited to get semi-unexpected pizza. second, he hopes wade didn't get mushrooms AGAIN. third, oh my god oh my fuck he's unmasked in a giant embarrassing web. that's one too many things to fix and far too little time to do so. his instincts take over and before the window is open, he leaps to his feet and pulls his mask over his face. guess deadpool gets to see him in a shirt and basketball shorts tonight, but it surely won't be the first thing he notices.

wade drops in through the window with five pizza boxes. the pizza smells amazing but peter is definitely not thinking about that. deadpool is frozen still, and for maybe the first time its almost seems that he's thinking before he speaks.

"i can... i can definitely explain this"

"webs... this is...."

"yeah, i know, it's weird, it's just been a long day, and i can-"

"i told you i was bringing pizza, what are you trying to catch bugs for?" the grin is now evident in wade's voice. peter groans.

"that's not what im doing, wade."

"really? because this is some excellent craftsmanship. if i were a bug i would definitely wander my way into this to get eaten by the big scary spider." wade plucks a strand of the webbing experimentally before semi-carefully placing down the pizza boxes and throwing his arms up in celebration. "and look! your hunt is successful! i didn't think to put bugs on the pizza but-"

"no, no. that's good. no bugs on pizza" peter's head is in his hands. "just sit down wade."

"on the web?"

"just sit."

"on the web it is!" wade plops down and peter flinches slightly at the movement in the web.

"be careful, will you? i can feel the vibrations in the web." wade slowly turns to him, wide eyes and excitement evident. peter takes the opportunity to take two of the pizza boxes. luckily, both of the ones on top just have pepperoni, and not whatever hellish combination wade asked the poor pizza man for today.

"am i allowed to ask?"

"you get two questions only. i won't answer more." wade thinks for a moment before settling on his first.

"why the web if not for bugs? because it really would be great for bugs, you drew me right in the window and im not even a-"

"so i know what comes into my room. i only do it after a bad night. next."

"...am i prey now, because im in the spider-man-web?"

"no, wade."

"will you still eat me if i ask nicely?"

"no, wade."

"HA! that was three answers." wade chuckles, proud of himself, and peter rolls his eyes under the mask.

"you're not... bothered by all this? i mean. it's a giant.... spider.. man.. web."

"nah. ...it's cool. i dig the weird spidery shit. web me up, spidey, if you catch my drift." wade waggles his eyebrows under the mask. peter groans grabs the nearest soft object to hurl it at him as wade laughs loudly.

although, peter supposes, if anyone were to find him in his...spider-man-web.... he'd rather it be wade. something about the merc's ability to never be truly shocked by his "spidery shit" came across as sincerely nonjudgemental. in that way, he felt comfortable with wade in a way he didn't with anyone else. he could relax and be himself, even the parts that were weird.

"what are you smiling for, spides?" wade puffed up his chest. "finally appreciating my excellent attempts at spider-seduction?"

"nah, it's just good pizza." peter took another bite and rolled his eyes at wade for the millionth time, this time because of his dramatic pouting. although he was sure he'd regret admitting it, he didn't mind having deadpool around. if anything, he enjoyed wade's company more than that of most people. he definitely could not admit that one. not now, at least. maybe, in the future, though. when wade can see his smile as he says it, and when wade can call him peter in his response. maybe then. for now though, he's just happy to eat pizza with him and not feel judged. this is good.

[ghost : im not happy with this one tbh... i love the idea but not the execution. ill revisit it in the future. here's this for now]

[swatato]

I just realized that Blake running away from her team is the dumbest writing decision of the show so far. Here's why: Adam said he destroy everyone she loves so running away won't protect them. Blake doesn't tell her team about Adam. Blake wants to lay low from the WF but is surprised they are operating in Menagerie homeland of the faunus? Then she blows her cover by confronting them and they tell Adam where she is. Then she places her parents in danger. Also she never disguised her name before.

UTHSIDKOSKDLSD I MEAN-

Yeah blake and adam are both just confusing and inconsistent as hell anon

The plot of Blake running away due to being overidden with fear and guilt and just needing to get away from her past catching up to her was something I really liked. Her being a person who runs away from things when they become too much was set up well enough, in my opinion, and characters need to have flaws. Its just everything else thats tied up with blakes plot that makes the whole thing so confusing and weird. Blake dipping from beacon wouldn’t have kept Adam from killing her loved ones, or anyone else for that matter, as you said. Actually it should have been easier for him to “Destroy everything she loves” now that wasn’t there to oppose him. He wouldnt just say “Oh she left? Nvm then 🤷🏽‍♀️” and screw off. Hes till an anti human maniac who would keep doing horrible things regardless of whatever tf Blake is up to, so her idea of “Im staying away to protect them UwU bad things happen because of me UWUU” makes zero sense and makes her selfish, because now she’s not even back there to help. And even if she was banking on the fact that Adam would chase after her instead of going after ruby or weiss or jnpr, then why did she head to menagerie??? she was leading him straight to her parents. Actually, if adam’s plan was to destroy everything she loves, then wouldn’t he have gone to attack the belladonnas at some point anyway?? blake wasn’t acting rationally and her arc was about pulling her head out of her ass and realizing that running didnt solve shit.

I feel like the bigger issue is how they handled Adam with all that. He shouldn’t have cared about wasting time going after whoever blake loves. His priority was always the faunus, not hate-loving Blake to the point of emotionally torturing her for leaving him. We were shown him making a deal with cinder to help with the Fall of Beacon. He wasn’t there for Blake, he was there because his goal was to heck up humanity. Yet they still give blake this idea of “uwu this is my problem, i have to deal with the concequences cuz they are mine” Adam isnt only blakes personal enemy. If he wasn’t gonna one-shot yang in front blake, he was gonna run into her later on and do it then, and if weiss or ruby had been the one to run in to help blake he would have one-shot one of them instead (adam should have been involved with weiss not yang hHhwjksje)

A whole lot about Blake makes no sense dude even from the beginning. She says she’s a “criminal hiding in plain view, all with the help of a little black bow” but how does covering her ears mask her past as a WF member? She doesn’t cover her face or change her name or make any alterations to her appearance. As we see in some flashbacks and the black trailer, she wears the exact same outfitif, she wears her hair the same, and she never seemed to have worn the white fang mask while on the job with Adam, so its entirely possible someone on remnant could see her and recognize her from a WF raid or smth. That line should have been switched out for something like “ive had it pretty easy as far as oppression goes, all with the help of a little black bow” since thats the only actual benefit that bow gives.

But even thats funny to say since we baRELY ever get to see any actual faunus oppression in screen in this show. Its funny how they chose Blake as the one we get to see the story of the faunus from when shes suffered NOTHING compared to other faunus on this show. While we’re shown adam working in the dustmines and getting branded on the face, and ilia losing her parents to a dust mine collapse and people laughing about it, velvet getting harassed and made fun of by cardin and even sun getting a rock chucked at him by the police, we see Blake using her bow to protect herself from any racism and simply pass as human. All her friends and school headmaster know shes a faunus but love her anyway and nobody ever picks on her after the word of her being a faunus gets out. Her flashbacks of attending white fang protests as a child made it seem like she came from a poor/Not So Great home/family situation- if she even had one- only to reveal that shes actually the pRINCESS OF MENAGERIE whos family owns the biggest mansion on a comfy, PEACEFUL, tropical island, a mansion she could return to anytime she wanted where loving parents were waiting for her.

And tbh it would have all been fine if Blake ever acknowledged the privelege she has, yet wanting to make things better for her kind anyway, but she never does. She says ilia is the one who deserves recognition for doing so much despite the fact she could pass as human, but doesnt see herself similarly. She instead just comes off super preachy and victimizes herself to the gods.

And then v7 shows up to completely demolish any character we had set up for blake since all she did was stand around and not do anything about the faunus situation in mantle/atlas. This could have been a volume where she really shined and the opportunities were there. They were given time off, she could have easily attended the political rally with ruby. We could have gotten some desperately needed blake and ruby interactions, but that got traded out for bb dancing at a club and some renora drama that didnt amount to much. Maybe she was so meek this volume cuz shes still shook from killing adam, but idk if the writers were going for that since yang was all smiles and not bothered at all this volume with her ptsd magically gone, and blake seemed to be completely over her fear of adam when she bitchsmacked him on the head at haven and told him “honestly?? I got more important things to deal with uwu”

[sailorshadzter]

S8 GOT was a mess so it's not surprising everyone is trying to figure out why characters did what they did. I don't get the idea that Jon gave away his crown b/c he thought D was worthy of it. It still doesn't make him look good if that's what he thought since he didn't discuss it with Sansa or the NL's who made him king. And if he didn't want it Ned's trueborn heir was right there when he was crowned. What do u think? Its been months and i'm still upset about what they did to Jon's character.

i mean honestly...... I DONT KNOW ANON.

truly, i dont. 

none of season 8 made sense (and lets be real, the last few episodes of season 7 didn’t, either.)

if you’re looking at it without the idea of the “political jon” theory, it makes no sense. none at all. but, if you believe in political jon, as i do, you can piece things together. it’s not perfect and it wasn’t well done, but its the only way you can look at things and say “okay MAYBE this is what was happening” or “maybe this is why jon did this” honestly, thank god for fanfiction, it gives us everything the show didn’t. 

i think in the end, d&d just didnt give a fuck. it didnt matter to them because the show was almost over, it was going to get millions of views no matter what, and in the end... they still got paid.

in the end, they left us with more questions than answers & thats was so infuriating. why was the build up to the night king 7 seasons long, only to solve it in one episode? and no, im not mad that arya got the kill instead. im mad that this thing we heard about for the better part of 7 seasons was over in a single episode (that was dark as fuck & no one could see what was happening anyways) what was the point of R+L=J? why did brienne go to king’s landing in the end? why the fuck was BRAN king? why was jon punished for killing the tyrant queen that nobody wanted around, anyway? & dont even get me started on the fuck ups in the show like left behind coffee cups & water bottles. or gendry not knowing his own name???? what???

yeah, nothing really made sense in season 8. but when it comes right down to it, all i can say is d&d just didnt care anymore. why care when regardless of how fans reacted, they made bank? who cares how we, the audience, take it, when in the end they make millions and we’re left with the pieces of a show most of us have devoted 10+ years to. 

[vantaert]

Let go

- Are you afraid of falling in love

-No I'm afraid of letting go

Another unknown season has passed by my locked doors . The four of them ran out of magic trying to sneak some glitter into my black and white life . Yet I block them out . What's the best of the winter if he's not my umbrella under the rainstorms . What's the purpose of the fallen if he's gone like a golden Leaf dancing within the fierce wind .

The fate made us make blank vows . Vows were meant to tear us apart , to split our souls and to break our hearts .He promised he would never throw one last glance at our story . He confessed if he did he would jump over the high tide to hold me and never let go .I promised I would never hold him back .Yet my selfishness got the best of me . Thus I turned around just to meet your back walking away . Leaving the utopia .Then you disappeared just like snowflakes within the rain .

After you've gone the fog spread all over the corners. The emptiness found it's way to rut inside my broken soul . My heart is barely beating. As its lost as well . As its roots are being shattered by the sudden change of weather. Yesterday it was sunny and warm . Today it's gloomy and cold . Tomorrow will be dark and freezing . The sharp pain is wandering inside my chest burning every single bone against my ribcage.

We both flashed the thunderstorm over our story . We both created this tragic disaster. Yet I was the victim . I thought I could be able to turn the page for the next chapter.  I thought I could be able to wander the next story .I thought I could be able to watch you shine like a silver star in the sky without me drowning into an endless waterfalls till no tears left to cry . I thought I could be able to give up on you and dress my naked soul another season free of pain and wounds . But no matter how deep the wound is I couldn't love you less . I couldn't care about the countless non healed scars you've scratched because at the end still they remind me of you . I do want to remember you even it means opening the old wounds by a sharp blade bleeding memories, moments, promises, we've shared upon once a time.

It's been

days

Weeks

Months

Years

Inking thousand lines

Between every word I ink  I would shed burning tears . Every time I blink trying to cage them back I fail . Each droplet leaves my soul it cracks a piece of my heart . Regardless it cracks million times per day yet ridiculously can't seem to forget about you . How comes not only my soul have fallen for you but also the brain which is supposed to be the rationale alarm and my fragile body . Successfully you've possessed me .

Those inked letters hold the past ,the present outing the future . I have no future to look for while you've gone . Future is so unclear since you've vanished . It's like I'm staring at the fascinating moon yet I'm too far to define its breathtakingly beauty because you're not here to admire it with me . Remember how fond I was with the sunset until I've watched the sunrise with you . You made it possible also to erase my desire for the rain until I've witnessed the first snow with you . My life was simply impossible until you've stepped in sprinkling only few glimpses of your charms to make it perfectly possible. Sadly now how badly I pray for the impossible to storm again . I'm tired of everything. I want to let go .

This is going to be the last words you're going to hear from me . I'm not sure if you've read my previous chapters though my guts are ringing a bell you did . Maybe you miss me the way I miss you . Maybe you want me as much as I want you . Maybe you cry as hard as I do . Nevertheless it kills us alive causing only forgotten corpses yet we live in a world where miracles never born and destinies never play fairly.

We chose different paths . You picked a shining star . I picked a stigma .

Our paths would never cross just like the day and the night . You'll be the sun I'll be the moon . You live under the spotlight .I hide beneath the moonlight.

This is the second hardest thing I've ever done in my entire existence. The first was letting go of your hand . This doesn't mean I'm letting go of this love either. I'm just gonna ink the ending . One of us had to . Since you hadn't enough courage to cut the rose . I'll sacrifice like I've always did . I'm going to cut it . I'm well aware of the consequences which it's going to bleed to death . The garden will hold a funeral but the owner of the rose wouldn't be there for its fairway. He would be crying alone in his castle calling its name more than once hoping for its shadow to appear but it won't come . It won't be part of this universe by that time .

I had you once to love you for a lifetime . Promise me this time you won't get trapped by the same mistake I've done . Free yourself of this broken love . Find yourself a new euphoria . Create yourself a utopia . Don't blame yourself . I chose to engulf this broken love as a utopian euphoria . I know we've held Blank vows . They were like empty cups . Thus at least this time make a valid promise by closing the book and throw it somewhere in the deep ocean . I'll find it and hide it where you'll never reach .

It's time I think . This is the end . Im giving up on you . But love is not over . Love is a maze where we sin . Where we wound and we heal . Where we break and we cure . Where we cry and we laugh . Where everything is against sealing a happy ending. 

Next time don't break down singing . The untold truth is that I don't want you anymore. Don't let old emotions blind you from seeing the truth . Because no matter how much you still want me . The fate won't light on us .

Gift yourself the happiness I couldn't write neither for you nor for myself.