#or getting ur daily warning abt how u can TRUST NO ONE and ALL YOUR FAMILY IS FULL OF LYING CUNTS et cetera

[3amwaterglass]

its just really been a miserable one and a half year.....things have not been right since first year of uni man what happened. now i feel like im back in middle school levels of miserable.

im so tired of feeling like i dont belong anywhere it sucks having no community whatsoever. "it gets better!!!!! dont worry!!!!!" like no it doesnt 😂😂😂 stupid bitch 🤣🤣🤣🫵🫵🫵. i feel like im doomed to feel alienated and alone from everyone all the time. most of my interactions with people are so superficial it just feels draining, i feel like i share nothing in common with straight women and i dont relate to the whole "uwu small bean potato" type of gay people that i mainly encounter irl. i hate being religious but i also hate being nonreligious. literally both make me so miseable. my immediate family's been estranged from my extended family since i was a child so that's out too. i enjoy talking to guys slightly more but most of them catch feelings so thats a no for me too. and recently ive been flunking academically which was like the last thing im good at so 😂🔫. and on the rare occassions i DO find someone i acc click with something unpreventable always gets in the way its like god hates me. ive been flunking at all the things i used to be good at like FUCK the rot is consuming me. im so sad and unenergized all the time i just feel like it will never get better AND I KEEP SABOTAGING MYSELF AND MAKING IT WORSE