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sickgraymeat · 1 year ago

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Why do I have like I feel like I have rapid cycling cyclothymia but it’s REALLY rapid and my lows are too severe? Or like bipolar ii breaking out of its lithium shell but REALLY REALLY REALLY rapid cycling like too rapid??? Tag consensus (me talking to myself) it’s probably the (C & regular) PTSD lol

#it’s like espeically recently so it’s probably bc I started doing more trauma work or smth #or bc of anxiety or my routine beinf weird idk there’s so much #that’s the only physical explanation I can think of #it’s so annoying like caffeine or no caffeine doesn’t seem to have much effect #I thought it might be a blood sugar thinf (bc I also have nerve issues) but that’s level #I have had isolated incidents of blood sugar spikes bc of [toxins] and I think it feels familiar but like I can’t remember #also would take way longer to progress to the point that it would cause the nerve stuff #*me describing a medical experience of my own with very little knowledge lol #plus that’s like 99.9% probably just from abusing my fucked up spine lately ahdbdnnsndm #I’m just bzzzzzzzzzzzzz aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #feels like when I’ve had hypomanic episodes b4 I started the med that helped w that but it’s so fast like multiple shifts/swings per day #and like I said the depression is more severe #so maybe it’s like cyclothymia but I just also have depression obvs but it came back particularly bc of triggers maybe idk #I’m also like mildly dissociative most of the time sometimes more so so idk it’s so hard to keep track #I fucking left my door unlocked yesterday bc I was so unfocused I’m so mad at myself #sorry this is so annoying I’m just trying to work it out and y’all have to bear witness ahdhsdnndndndkdjdm #I’m like no filter I’m too bzzzzzzz lol #personal /#jus talkin #probs yeah probs just my sympathetic nervous system constantly running until it crashes and then running again and cycle

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