#or as my sister has started calling a bday sandwich lol

[foxgloveinspace]

Birthday. Actual birthday, ‘done’ lol.

I made a cake and watched a movie and a half, and I carved pumpkins and we went for a drive where we saw really pretty trees and I shot two rolls of film and then we had spinach puffs for dinner, and ate the cake. Been a good day!

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #423

“i won’t think about you when i’m older  /  ‘cuz we never really had our closure”

Are you better at cooking dinners or making cakes/biscuits/sweets? Neither. Have you ever cut someone else’s hair? No. Who was the last guest in your house and what were they staying for? My late grandmother's husband stayed overnight when he was driving from New York to Florida or the other way around, idr. How many long term relationships have you been in? Two. Do you sleep with all the lights out, or do you leave a lamp or even the television on? My snake's heat lamp stays on. Who is one person you have forgiven, but still have not “forgotten” what they have done? My dad. Are you a fan of Lana Del Rey? I don't think I've even heard one of her songs. Do you know your blood type? A-. Do you know your mother’s birthday? Yes. Have you got your period at the moment? I haven't had my period since I started TMS. It's honestly so fucking frustrating that it obviously had an effect on my body, but not my depression. I've officially finished TMS as of a few days ago and now I just feel so void of hope. Have you ever been pregnant? No. How old were you when you first went on a plane? Idr, I was a little kid. Have you ever had to take out a loan for anything? Not me personally, but my parents have for my education that I threw away. Are both of your blood parents still in your life? Yes. I don't see my dad a lot, but he's still in my life regardless. When was the last time you went apple picking? I’ve never been. Someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say? Happiness. Have you ever been drunk at school or work? I have not. How many bedrooms are in your house? Three. Are you smart about computers? Not really, no. Have you ever played Just Dance for Wii? Yes. My sister loved them, so we have a few. Do you own a Xbox 360? No. I'm a PlayStation girl. Would you ever do a sex tape for a million dollars? No. I'd be mortified. So, do you need a nap? I really should take one. I slept like... maybe three hours last night. I was up most of the night having a fucking life crisis. What would you rather be doing? Something fun. What sport are you the best at? I haven't touched any sort of sport since I was a teenager. Do you have a little sister? What’s her name? Yeah, Nicole. Do you complain a lot? Kind of, but I generally try to keep it in surveys nowadays. I'm just tired of shit. Would you rather go to an authentic haunted house or an ancient temple? Ohhh, tough pick, but I've gotta say the ancient temple. Do you like fruity or minty gum? Both, really. Are you looking forward to any day of this month? Well July is practically over, so I'll answer for August. I'm looking forward to my nephew's birthday. Have you ever gotten detention? A few times for getting too many morning tardies in high school. Is there a traumatic event that you’ve experienced that’s changed your life? Definitely. Do you buy a majority of your clothes from a certain store, or do you just pick out items of clothing you could see yourself wearing, not caring about the store it came from? The latter. Have any of the artists you’re fond of released new albums recently? Powerwolf did recently. Would you ever keep your favorite animal as a pet? I could write a college-length essay on why meerkats do not make good pets whatsoever. Do fucking not get one. I can barely fathom how it's legal in some countries. Ever cried so much you threw up? No, but I've gagged. Who is your best guy friend? Girt. What do you two do when you hang out? Mostly just watch TV and play board games. What is a movie that you thought you would hate but you ended up loving? I dunno, really. Do you even like horror movies? I love horror movies. Do you live in the country? I wish I still did. :/ Me and Mom hate hate hate living in these suburbs. What is your favorite accent? British. Have you ever had a boyfriend your parents didn’t like? No. Do you drink Pepsi or Coke? Coke. Pepsi is gross. What do you plan to do on your 21st birthday? I was literally in the psych hospital for my 21st birthday lmao. It's kind of a painful memory, but I also won't forget the love and kindness people showed me. I especially remember the friend I made there getting the lunch lady to literally go and buy me a slice of cake. Everyone also sang happy birthday to me and gaaaah I'm getting emotional. Do you have any person in your family with an addiction to beer? That was my dad's drink of choice when he drank. Do you take a lot of pictures? Unless I have my camera and am somewhere pretty, no. What kind of face wash do you use? Water, lol. Does drama always seem to follow you? Nah. Does anybody in your family race? No. Are you closer to your mom or dad? My mom. How much money did you used to get from the ”tooth fairy?” Uhhh... I want to say $2 or something? I might be way off, idr. How long do you want to live with your parents? I WISH I could have moved out with an s/o already, but that's just not how life's worked out. Do you have a laptop or desktop? I have a laptop. Do you like your parents? I love them. Do you secretly like someone? It's not a secret, no. Would you ever date your best male friend? Tried that once and it didn't work out. I liked him more as like a brother. What are you currently listening to? "Better Than Me" by Hinder. I really need to turn it off, but I can't make myself. Do you want to be single? I really wish I had a partner to love and motivate me to strive to do better, but I know it's better I'm single right now. I'd just relive the Jason situation, I'm sure. I'd just drag the person down and lose them. Did you go out or stay in last night? I'm almost always at my fucking house not doing shit, so. Have you pretended to like someone? No, that sounds pretty stupid... How is your heart lately? Hurting. A lot. Are you wearing socks? I hate wearing socks and I'm in bed anyway, so no. What do people call you? Britt, mostly. Do you get stressed out easily? VERY. Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? No. What is wrong with you right now? Where the hell to begin. Do you own something from Hot Topic? A lot. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? With someone, so long as the bed is big enough to comfortably fit two of us. Do you still talk to the person you last made out with? No. I'm certain he wants nothing to do with me. Have you ever seen your best friend cry? Sadly. Did you get any compliments today? Definitely not. I look and feel like a wreck right about now. There's nothing to praise me about. Have you ever gone to a beach? Many times. What would you say if someone asked you to get high right now? Unless it was an edible, no. I'd do almost anything to try and make me feel better right now, even if just for a little while, but I'm unwilling to smoke anything. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? HELL no. Have you ever done volunteer work just because you wanted to? Honestly, no. Do you have long nails? No; I never do because I have an awful habit of picking at them. Do you like the gender you are? I don't like or dislike it, honestly. I'm just neutral. Do you generally look nice in photos? HA. Have you ever had a stick insect as a pet? No. What colour are your father’s eyes? They're dark brown. If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer? Ozzy, duh. Name three facts about your family? We're very, very spread out geographically, some of us (in other words, me) are emotionally distant, and uh... idk. Would you ever get into a long distance relationship? Only if it was a certain person, our lives were more on track, and we were making plans for either of us to move soon. What’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever received? Probably this really long letter my mom wrote for me on my bday a couple years ago. What’s your favorite hot beverage? Hot chocolate. Did you ever play an instrument? If so what? I played the flute for many years, all through middle school and through much of high school. Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents? Carve pumpkins, for sure. Do you think you’re important? I don't fucking know. Probably not. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? Idk. Have you been diagnosed with any mental disorders? *hands over thick book* Have you ever moved to another state or country? If so, how did it feel to be new? No. Do you know how to properly eat food with chopsticks? No. My hands are way, way too shaky to ever accomplish that. Are you more of a leader or a follower? Definitely a follower, but I can step up in certain situations. What was the first thing you ate today? Well, I was seriously depression-eating last night, way past midnight, and had a peanut butter sandwich. If you could spend the day, doing absolutely anything, with anyone, anywhere, what would it be like? LET'S NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT RIGHT NOW. If I were to ask you how you are doing, and you were only able to answer completely honestly, what would come out? "Falling apart." I've lost direction, motivation, strength, hope, just everything. What is the one thing that you have been avoiding that you should do? I need a fucking shower so bad that it's embarrassing. I just can't move. I have no energy, emotionally or physically. I just can't make myself do it. Is there anything that you wish you could take back? So, so badly. What, in your mind, could make you truly happy? Actually reaching goals. Losing weight. Healing my legs. Knowing with certainty that I wasn't emotionally abusive to Jason. Moving out of this town and back into the country. Financial stability. A job I thoroughly enjoy. I could go on, but let's not. If you could change one conversation in your life, what would you say differently? Would it have REALLY made any difference? God, let me take back shit I said in that fucking letter to you-know-who. It's so hard to believe I once thought it perfectly justified and realistic. When is the next time you’ll change your hairstyle? Will you color it? I don't have any plans of changing the style in the foreseeable future. I want to color it BADLY. To just SOMETHING. Do people normally say you’re a fast typist, or are you rather slow? I'm like, a lightning-fast typist. Have you ever been considered the ‘smartest person in school?’ No; my best friend in HS was, though. Her GPA was fucking insane. I was in the top percentile, though, so I was up there. What the hell happened to that girl. How many drugs are in your system? If we're including prescriptions, a whole hell of a lot. What’s on your schedule for tomorrow? Jack shit. Like usual. Do you currently have any bite marks/hickeys on your body? No. Do you call anyone baby? Excluding my pets, no. What’s your current mood? lol if you've gotten this far reading, you can make an educated guess. Do you think you are a good person? Bro I just don't know. What were you doing before filling out this survey? I was playing WoW. How late did you stay up last night? Like, 4:30 or so. When was the last time you cried really hard? I wanna say like a week ago? Is your hair longer than your shoulders? No. It still badly needs a trim, though.

[neverforgetyourdreams442]

1. What’s your favorite way to spend a day off? Chilling, watching Netflix, playing my guitar and singing.

2. What type of music are you into? Classic rock, funk, gospel, jazz, bossa-nova, blues etc

3. What was the best vacation you ever took and why? Florida. It was the nicest place I’ve been to so far.

4. Where’s the next place on your travel bucket list and why? I want to go to Greece. It looks so dreamy.

5, .What are your hobbies, and how did you get into them? Playing the guitar, singing, drawing etc I loved doing them ever since I was little.

6. What was your favorite age growing up? I think 12-13

7. Was the last thing you read? I don’t remember the last time I read a whole book.

8. Would you say you’re more of an extrovert or an introvert? Introvert

9. What's your favorite ice cream topping? Cut up fruits

10. What was the last TV show you binge-watched? Ginny and Georgia

11. Are you into podcasts or do you only listen to music? Music

12. Do you have a favorite holiday? Why or why not? Yes, christmas. I love being with my family and having fun and playing games and doing secret Santa.

13. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? Burger

14. Do you like going to the movies or prefer watching at home? Going to the movies

15. What’s your favorite sleeping position? Belly down

16. What’s your go-to guilty pleasure? Chocolate

17. In the summer, would you rather go to the beach or go camping? Camping

18. What’s your favorite quote from a TV show/movie/book? “That’s what she said” - Michael Scott, The Office

19. How old were you when you had your first celebrity crush, and who was it? I was probably like 13 and it was Zayn Malik

20. What's one thing that can instantly make your day better? Laughing with family and friends

21. Do you have any pet peeves? Yes, when people come too close to me

22. Which meal is your favorite: breakfast, lunch, or dinner? Lunch

23. What song always gets you out on the dance floor? Chá chá slide

24. When you were a kid, did you eat the crusts on your sandwich or not? Yes

25. What activity instantly calms you? Singing

26. Ideally, how would you spend your birthday? Going somewhere to eat with my family and friends

27. What do you do on your commute to/from work? I talk to my mom and text my bf

28. Do you have a favorite type of exercise? Yes, I like weights and doing leg

29. What's your favorite season and why? Spring. It’s not that hot and it’s not cold either

30. What's the best joke you've ever heard? I don’t remember any lol

31. What's the phone app you use most? Instagram

32. Would you rather cook or order in? Cook

33. Have your ever disliked something and then changed your mind? Yes lol

34. What's your favorite board game? Monopoly

35. How do you take your coffee? Black with 3 sugar or with milk and 2 sugar

36 What's your most prized possession and why? My family. They are my everything.

37. Is there any product that you couldn't live without? Makeup

38. Do you sleep with a top sheet? Why or why not? Yes I do. It’s more comfortable

39. If you could have any exotic animal as a pet, which would it be? A tiger

40. What would be the first thing you'd do if you won the lottery? I would buy my parents a house

41. What’s your favorite thing about your current job? The friendship I have with my coworkers and my boss

42. What annoys you most? People coming too close to me, or calling me all the time.

43. What’s the career highlight you’re most proud of? Growing into my position in my company

44. Do you think you’ll stay in your current gig awhile? Why or why not? Yes. Because I love my coworkers and boss

45. What type of role do you want to take on after this one? I would like to be a wife and a mother

46. Are you more of a "work to live" or a "live to work" type of person? Work to live

47. Does your job make you feel happy and fulfilled? Why or why not? Yes most of the time.

48. How would your 10-year-old self react to what you do now? Probably think it’s disgusting 😂

49. What do you remember most about your first job? I used to do a lot of physical work and my back would hurt lol

50. How old were you when you started working? I started babysitting and teaching h.w to kids when I was like 15 and my first job in a place was when I was 20 I believe.

51. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? My old job because I would have to be standing the whole day

52. What originally got you interested in your current field of work? The salary

53. Have you ever had a side hustle or considered having one? No I never did. Yes, I have.

54. What’s your favorite part of the workday? The morning time when I am here in peace and quiet and I can organize the office.

55. What’s the best career decision you’ve ever made? To quit my old job and come to the one I am currently in.

56. What’s the worst career decision you’ve ever made? I don’t think I ever made a bad decision. It was what I needed in that moment.

61. When will you know you've "made it"? When I have a husband, a baby and a house of my own and my parents have a house of their own and they can rest

62. Are you looking forward to retiring, or do you plan to work as long as possible? I plan to work as long as possible but I would like to retire when I get to a certain age.

63. Have you ever had "imposter syndrome"? No

64. What do you think about workaholics? I don’t think about tem lol

65. What qualities do you look for in a boss? Someone that will be beside you and a friend, someone that is kind and understanding.

66. Do you have a professional mentor? If not, do you want one? No I don’t have one and never thought about it.

67. Do you have a work best friend? Yes I do

68. Are you into after-work happy hours? No

69. How do you motivate yourself in your career? I just think of the money I will get

70. What's the best career advice you've ever heard? Be a good worker but never break your back giving more than you are valued for.

71. What's the worst career advice you've ever received? Never did

72. When you started your current job, what most surprised you? That I barely had to do an interview to get in.

73. How do you pick yourself back up after making a mistake at work? I just fix it as soon as I can and I apologize if I have to

74. How do you deal with work stress? I listen to music, talk to my coworker and I breathe and I pray

75. What energizes you about your career? Being able to buy things I couldn’t before.

76. What's one work-related thing you want to accomplish in the next year? I want to be more organized with some paperwork I need to do

77. Who has had the biggest impact on your career choice? My ex

78. What does your family think of your career? They think it’s a good job

79. What's the best thing you've learned in your current position? Communication

80. If you could do it all over again, would you pursue the same career? Why or why not? Yes I would. It’s a good career

81. How much time do you spend with your family? Not as much as I’d like to but as much as I can.

82. Who do you most like spending time with and why? My family and friends because I love them

83. Were you close with your family growing up? Yes

84. How do you define your family now? Amazing

85. What traits are most important to you in your family members? They are funnt, kind and smart

86. Who are you the closest to and why? My mother and sister. Not sure why lol I just am..

87. Do you want a family of your own? Yes

88. What’s your favorite family tradition? Waiting for the clock to be midnight when it’s someone’s bday and we will go to the person and give them a group hug singing happy bday

89. If you could change your relationship with a family member, would you? If so, with whom? No. I have a great relationship with them all

90. What was it like growing up as the youngest/oldest/middle/only child? It was a little hard because my parents were just recently became Christians so everything to them was wrong and I would get in trouble for stupid things. They didn’t know better

91. Does your family ever take trips together? Yes

92. What’s your favorite family memory? Going to florida def and camping

93. What TV family most reminds you of your own? A show in Brazil called a grande familia

94. Do you ever wish you were raised differently? No

95. What’s the best piece of advice a family member has given you? Stop letting people treat me less than what I deserve

96. Do you wish you had more siblings? If so, why? No. I have plenty lol

97. Did you ever hide anything from or lie to your parents? Yes

98. If you had a family business, what would it be? A movie place or gaming place

99. Do you and your family have any nicknames for each other? Yes

100. What's your favorite way to spend time with your family? Watching movies and eating

101. How do you show your family you love them? I do things for tem, I make them laugh and I hug them

102. Have you ever been to a family reunion? Yes

103. What's the most important holiday you spend with your family and why? Christmas. I love being with them and having fun

104. Who in your family would you describe as a "character"? My sister

105. How do you feel about family events? I love them

106. What's something your family would be surprised to learn about you? That I have sex with my bf

107. Which family member do you confide in most? My sister

108. How do you deal with arguments between family members? We just cool off and then say sorry

109. If you have children, how do you want to raise them? Like my parents raised me

110. What's more important: family or friends? Family

111. Do you have any friends you would consider family? Yes

112. Has your family ever pressured you to act a certain way? Yes

113. Did you ever get to meet your great-grandparents? Yes

114. What personality traits do you share with your relatives? I could be very impatient sometimes, very playful and I am kind

115. What physical traits do you share with your relatives? Big thighs, butt, fair skin

116. What stories did your family members tell you growing up? Many lol

117. How did your parents (and/or grandparents) meet? My mom was friends with my dads sister in school.

118. What makes you proud of your family? The way we are United

119. Who's the newest member of your family? My little sister

120. What can always bring your family together? A movie and food

121. What’s a relationship deal breaker for you? Cheating

122. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you want? Sight

123. What is your definition of success? Being happy with a healthy family traveling

124. What makes you feel at peace? Music

125. What are you most proud of in the last year? Deciding to leave my last relationship

126. What makes you feel most accomplished? My way of thinking

127. Who do you admire most in the world? Compassion

128. Would you rather make more money doing a job you hate or less doing one you love? More money doing a job I hate

129. Which of your personality traits are you most proud of? My sense of humor

130. What’s the first thing you look for in a partner and/or friend? Sense of humor

131. How has your perspective on the world changed over time? It’s crazy how people are “cancelling” people and people get so butt hurt about everything

132. Do you live by any piece of advice or motto? No

133. How can someone earn your trust? By their actions