#or Niall could get behind me 😉

[heartpascal]

helloo :DD i am here to check up on you and not release depressing ideas this time (yet) i will be sharing a bunch of songs that remind me of "if the door wasn't shut" series <3 but anyway, how are you?? i hope you're doing well <33

it's literally almost 3 am and i'm doing my research paper right now that is due on monday 😔 other than that i also have other stuff to do that is on monday so that's that (´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ)

don't forget to take care of yourself and get that daily intake of water 😌🤎

• leaves - ben&ben

• ride home - ben&ben

• end credits - eden, leah kelly

• just a man - jorge rivera-herrans, epic ensemble

• flicker - niall horan

• falling - harry styles

(this could pertain to the series itself or the "bonus" idea part, up to you to interpret it😉)

(feels like my signing has become suggesting songs and pedro pascal gifs 😭😭)

(din djarin this time because he's the loml <3)

HOWL!!! hello!!! apologies for the late response!! i have been cramming in my homework which is also due for monday 😭 what a pair we are. but i also had a nice day !!! went to the zoo which was fun !!! how are you doing??? how have the research paper / other upcoming things been going???? also what’s the research paper on :0 ???

also howl pls get some sleep omg

I LOVE YOUR SONG RECS SM!!! i hope you know i have a playlist exclusively for howl song recs :’) and your pedro gifts r so lovely HAHAH its become your signature thing on my blog i think LMFAOOO i love when other people give song recs and start by mentioning you i think it’s so cute

anyway tlou part 2 scenario mention below so just to be safe xoxo

leaves ??? THIS WAS A NEW ONE TO ME!!!! but “oh you never really love someone until you learn to forgive” HOWL THE ABSOLUTE CHEEK OF IT!!!! it will always astound me how you have so many songs that fit so well. THE GOOD RECS ARE NEVERENDING LIKE HOW????

anf ride home too??? “we just gotta let it go / so im coming home to you” HELLO???? i have no words for this i genuinely don’t understand HOW you do this every damn time

end credits ?? this is also a new one for me but im in LURV. i really like it. im gonna cry. and these songs rlly could relate to either that pt 2 scenario or the series itself like “but this is how it goes / the end credits, they roll” u can’t tell me that doesn’t immediately make u think of tje tlou 2 scenario. right. ??? im not losing it.BUT THEN YOUVE GOT “all i ever wanted was sunlight and honesty” and adn “cause all i need is time and now / and i could leave this past behind me” SCREAMINGGGGGGG. i also just really like this song in itself so thank u for these wonderful suggestions

just a man , initial thoughts r joel coded. im writing this as i listen so you’re getting my live reactions. it could also be like. tommy and maria coded but we know i lvoe joel. “will these actions haunt my days / every man i’ve slain? / is the price i pay endless pain?” HELLO. this is so tlou 2 scenario 4 joel idc. “WHEN DOES A MAN BECOME A MONSTERRRRR?” howl you knew what you were doing with this one. don’t think i don’t see you. HM and upon my second listen “close your eyes and spare yourself the view / how could i hurt you?” im basically quoting the whole song atp BUT IDC ITS TOO PERFECT.

i heart niall horan ok but i don’t listen to much of him (im sorry OK IM SORRY!!!) but i……… again live reactions. “still a flicker of hope that you first gave to me / that i wanna keep / please don’t leave / please don’t leave” I AM SEEING YOU HOWL I AM PERCEIVING YOU. this is again tlou 2 scenario coded AND IM SAD. Y ARE YOU MAIKING ME SAD!!!

falling .. this one i know. i too had a harry styles phase ok. (again sorry to niall horan). you didn t ask for this but be prepared for unnecessary relating it to parts of the series. “forget what i said / its not what i meant” joel when he said me and ellie not you. you see where im going ?!?! “what if im someone you wont talk about? / i’m falling again” joel when he knows how much he f ed up. r hates him. SHE HATES. “and the coffee’s out” joel when that bag of coffee beans runs out and he has none left. heheheh. “what am i now? / what if im someone i don’t want around?” joel. joel at all points ever. joel when he sees r again after the first part. joel when ellie finds out you know what. joel when he. “and i get the feeling that you’ll never need me again” lets not go into a deep dive about the character of joel and how he has ALWAYS had somebody relying on him, somebody needing him. but i would. i want to. i must calm.

again you didnt ask for this but i love song recs and going into way too much detail about how well they fit even when i am not asked to. alas.

HOWL I LOVE YOU I HOPE YOU’RE DOING WELL <333

[jarofstyles]

Sugar, Sugar 4

Hello! Long awaited Sugar, Sugar 4.

Part 5 won’t be too long now 👀

Warnings: none

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H: So… did some digging.

Sugar: this ought to be interesting…

H: so rose quartz.

Sugar: a favorite of mine, yes.

H: so they say… and by they I mean google… they said that it’s a love stone. Relationships and friendships and all that

Sugar: I believe I told you this too but yes haha

H: interesting.

H: I’ve noticed that it seems to be doing its job

Sugar: what do you mean?

H: I literally can not stop thinking about you.

H: that, or a spell or something? Is that something you do? I looked it up and some people said it’s unethical

Sugar: well, it depends on who you ask and what type of practice they do. Some people don’t care

Sugar: but for me, no. I’d like someone to want me for me

H: hm.

H: interesting.

H: i just can’t get you off my mind

Sugar: I’m blushing, I hope you know. You’re too sweet.

H: that is my job, Sugar. 😉

Sugar: lord, not the emojis, H!

H: rude. But I miss you. Xxx

Sugar: hm. Maybe I miss you too. I’ll see you tomorrow though. :)

H: literally counting the hours.

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Harry was a little worried. Well- very worried, because he was pretty sure he was coming on too strong.

It wasn’t on purpose. If anything he had been trying to reign in the feelings he’s been having because he knows, he knows he’s someone that falls fast and hard but it’s never been quite like this. He truly had been wracking his mind on how he could tone it down more, but Niall had told him to just let it go. Let it flow. She had confirmed there was no love spell placed and he believed her!

He had spent their day apart researching about things she had talked about. They were really in passing, but Harry was someone who truly did remember little details. It could freak people out at times but he was attentive and liked to learn people inside out. So he had spent some time finding the nearest sunflower field after she had talked about how much she loved them.

It was about 45 minutes away on a farm. There was peach picking available as well, and a small petting zoo. A nice little farm that he thinks Y/N will love. Or… at least he hopes so. He wants to woo her. Make her feel special and happy and get those beautiful smiles he had managed to steal from her face and melted him. Their whole date it had been hard to keep his hands off of her and he knew he was going to continue to struggle with that.

Sugar just had this magnetic quality about her. His hands were in hers or on her waist or tucking hair behind her ear. Making excuses to touch or brush off a leaf or right a necklace that had been fine to begin with. It didn’t seem like she minded either, considering she leaned into him and gave little smiles each time. Harry never felt so needy in his life for someone’s attention but she came right in and plucked it from him every single time.

When his mind went back to the teasing incident, it heated the coil in his stomachs. The boldness he had felt taking her fingers into his mouth and sucking them clean had come out of nowhere and had been risky, but to see her eyes widen and keep contact with his as he did so was worth it all. It had aroused her, placed that seeding in her pocket and now he just had to let it grow. His mind didn’t leave her for very long.

Sugar was growing increasingly close to his heart. Harry’s was soft and mushy and layered like a croissant, and she was cutting through the layers to the chocolate insides. All access pass to his emotions. She didn’t realize the true power she had over him at all, and he feared the day she realized.

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There was a spring in his step as he finished laying out the sweets in the display case. Racks were lined up in the kitchen, some still baking and the smell of sugary cinnamon buns was the most prominent today. He’d made a schedule of which day had which main attraction and posted it on their social media. It kept people checking it and their lines moving out the door.

He had worked the dough and given himself a workout already. There wasn’t much of an ache in his arms like there used to be when he first started baking. Mixing and kneading and piping all came second nature by now, like it was icing sugar in his blood.

He arranged the cookies in rainbow order in the other case, the sugary crystals looking like glitter in the newest ones he had done. Baking wasn’t only for the taste, but the creativity. He was able to express it through decor and flavors of cakes and cookies and other pastries, do his own twists. Things that no one else could replicate exactly. Like his buttermilk pancake cookies, the strawberry shortcake ones, the cotton candy pop rocks cupcakes. All of them his own little twists.

Thankfully his arms got a break for now, heading into the back office as the doors opened to check on the paperwork. Their numbers were pretty good for a first year in operation, especially first few months, but he had to make sure he kept this hype up.

He made himself a quick coffee in the back, sighing in relief when it hit his tongue. This was his dream and it was coming true. His own bakery, loving what he did every day… and very real interest in the girl across the way.

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Harry decided that today he would ask Y/N to go to the sunflower fields this weekend but keep it a surprise. They’d been texting back and forth all morning but he wanted to ask her in person.

Their last date had gone incredibly. There hadn’t been a true kiss, which was the only thing he thinks he would change but he didn’t find the right moment to do so. Cheek pecks had been dished out a few times and he had been thankful for those more than she would know. When he got home he had found out that the gloss did in fact had sparkles, since it littered his cheeks.

He never loved glitter more.

His heart quickened as he heard her voice giving a soft ‘thank you’ to whoever must have let her into the back room, a grin growing on his face as he grabbed the iced tea he had made her. Today was strawberry rose.

“Hello, gorgeous.” His greeting and grin had her stomach erupting in those damn flutters. Stupid little dimples and green eyes and attentive gaze that had her brain cells depleting as she approached him. Harry was so good looking it almost seemed fake.

“Hi.” She peeped, fixing the bandana around her head before walking into his waiting arms for a hug. Strong, long arms wrapping around her shoulder and waist, pulling her in tightly. Letting her smell the sweetness of the baked goods on him and the spice of his cologne, her face pressed into his neck as she allowed a longer hug than was probably normal or appropriate.

“Missed you, Sugar.” His rumbled words were felt against her cheek making her giggle, arms squeezing him back in return. His chin rested on top of her head, keeping this position as long as she would allow. He wouldn’t be the first to pull back.

“Missed you too.” Harry felt the words from her lips that brushed his skin and had to hold back a shudder. They were definitely in the odd stage in between dating, not sure what was okay and what wasn’t. Handing out affections was something experimental. If he wasn’t such a sucker for making memories, he would almost wish for them to already be at a point where he could cup here cheeks and kiss her pretty little mouth stupid and leave them both breathless.

Patience, patience.

“I would hope so. Or I’d feel rather silly admitting that.” He joked, swaying them back and forth a bit. There was no rush. No awkwardness. That’s part of the reason he liked their dynamic so fucking much. No weird awkward silences. They felt good, normal. She seemed to enjoy their embrace just as much as him, and didn’t let go just yet.

“Made you a tea. It’s strawberry rose. Strawberry popping pearls too.” He informed her, pressing the cold tea against her back and making her yelp. She went to jump back but he didn’t let her, giving a mischievous smirk down at her. “No, don’t leave. M’sorry.” He cooed, though he wasn’t sorry at all. Her eyes could tell that.

“And to think I was going to kiss your cheek….” She said in faux disappointment. “You had to go and press icy cups to the back of my thin tank top.” A click of her tongue had him grumbling, placing it down on the counter behind him while keeping a one armed grip.

“Hm… I think you can forgive my transgressions. Especially because I also saved you the strawberry shortcake cookie.”

Damn. He did get her with that. Her weakness for strawberries shouldn’t have been revealed so soon, now that he had ammunition. A baker with that information was a danger to her!

“Damn you.” Her tease was ended with a peck on both cheeks, leaning back in his arms. It still felt a bit… odd. Letting someone touch her waist and stomach area so openly. Having to stop herself from flinching some of the times, knowing his hand moved over a roll of skin. Things she used to work so hard to hide.

Harry didn’t even flinch or make any weird comments. He would pull he closer and touch her openly like he had at the market and enjoyed it- so she told herself she would do the exact damn same.

“May I have two more, please?”

The beautiful man gave her a slight pout. A grown man pouting for fucking cheek kisses, all the whole looking like a model. It wasn’t fair that he was so stunning. It would be dangerous for her, wrapped up in his charm from the moment she met him.

“Fine.” A dramatic huff left her nose before gripping his chin, moving his face and pressing a longer kiss to each side of his face. Slight stubble tickled her lips, his skin warm and slightly flushed under them. It left very faint marks of her chapstick but she figured he could deal with that later.

“Happy?”

“Very.” The prideful grin was back on his face as he returned the gesture, though a bit slower. Catching her off guard. Holding the back of her neck, he pressed three kisses on each cheek, letting his nose rub against hers slightly before switching sides. So close to her actual lips, she felt she may faint. It was dramatic, but her heart was pounding from the intimacy of it all, the sweetness. He ended with a kiss delicately placed in the middle of her forehead.

The actions had made her mouth dry slightly, swallowing thickly as she tried to rid herself of it. Damn it all to hell, it was unfair that he had such an effect on her. He was so… firm but gentle. She was unsure how he managed to have such an effect on her but she didn’t want him to stop. Perhaps it was soon to be so… touchy. But it felt natural. Amazing.

The moment was broken when she felt a text buzz in her pocket. Unlooping an arm from around his waist, she grabbed her phone and took a look at the message.

“Oh, god.” She muttered, shoving it back into her pocket. “Come sit with me while I eat my snack.” She stepped out of his embrace which felt like a mourning occasion, taking his hand as he took her drink and bag with cookie in his own.

“What was that look for, if you don’t mind me asking?” Harry was nosy in general, but when it came to his girl? He was more than so. Seeing the irritation cross her face had peaked his interest and the protective flare up in his heart. Of course he didn’t want to overstep, but he was hoping she would share.

“Oh.” She sighed. Sitting closer to him than before, she craved a bit of comfort as she sipped on the tea. It was very good. Not too sweet, but not sour at all. “Well… lately I’ve had a person from my past keep trying to reach out to me. The cards told me he would, but I didn’t want to believe it.” She muttered. “It’s not a big deal. Just… someone I used to see. He does it sometimes when he’s between relationships. Doesn’t get my lack of reply or dry replies in the past as a ‘fuck off�� as I’ve intended it to be.”

Harry didn’t like that he felt jealous, but he did. It wasn’t rational and he knew that, but knowing that guys from her past were reaching out again, especially as they begin their relationship, made him antsy. It wasn’t that she even showed any interest. That had soothed him. But knowing someone bugged her and made the irritation pass her face? It annoyed the shit out of him. Especially if it was someone that knew her in the intimate sense.

“M’sorry, Sugar.” One tattooed arm wrapped around her shoulder on the couch, brushing his fingers against the back of her neck. He was trying to find a way to comfort her and control the discomfort of his jealousy, knowing someone else was at least consistently trying to win back his girl. She was his, wasn’t she?

Despite his nosiness, he didn’t want to pry too much and make her feel uncomfortable. Especially not during these fragile stages. It was just… he cared. A lot. He hadn’t ever seen the look of discomfort like that on her face and he wanted to know what it was so he could alleviate the issue. “We don’t have t’talk about it if you’d prefer not to. I just thought I’d ask. Is there anything I can do?” His fingers were lightly tickling her which made her shiver a little bit, but she shook her head.

“Thank you.” The relief was visible on her face which made him happy he didn’t push too hard. “No, there isn’t much you can do. I block him and he continues… but it’s alright. He’ll get the message eventually.”

He wouldn’t though. It had been 3 years since they’d broken up, more so she had gotten the courage to leave him and made the best decision of her life, and he was still trying to weasel his way back into her life. Regardless of the number changes and the blocking. Pleading for her to hear him out, slewing abuse, apologies, even bribes. But she was much stronger than that now to ever go back. Not to someone who hurt her that badly she almost lost who she was.

The slightly haunted look on her eyes made him frown, leaning over to peck her cheek again. He wouldn’t ask more but he could comfort the best he could. He had a few sisters, after all. He knew that men could be the most vile creatures in the world that needed a good knock upside the head, and that was coming from a man who’s motto was all peace and love, choosing his battles. He would curb his protective nosiness… for now. “Alright then. Can I move on to asking you when you’re free next?”

A change in subject was what was necessary. She swallowed the bite of delicious cookie he had whipped up with her in mind before turning to look at him with excitement sparkling in her eyes. He wanted to hang out again, and was planning on something? “Erm… Wednesday I’m free all day. I have someone to cover the shop. And Saturday. Why? What did you have in mind?” She tried not to look too eager but it was her voice that gave her away.

“It’s a longer thing. All day. So Wednesday can work.” The bright smile on his face made her giddy. He was that excited to hang out with her? That he could manage a smile that brilliant at the idea of her and his plans. “It’s a surprise. All I can say is if you’ve got a camera, I’d bring it. I’d tell you to dress pretty, but you always seem to.” His flirtation went straight to her cheeks, burning her up. It was never going to get old.

“Oi, flirt.” She jokingly pushed into him with her shoulder. “Okay… anything else? Whatever it is I’m excited to find out.” His eyes never seemed to leave her face. As intimidating as it was, it also made her feel incredible. Desired. Harry was attentive and kind and she was incredibly lucky to have his attention that way.

“Nope. You let me take care of that.”