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[megs-1800]

hi i love your fics and may i request something angst about mason's family don't like his relationship with y/n and they also dislike y/n because they think she's not good for mason (she's not an influencer, just a private girl and not from a wealthy family). i wanna know how mason react to that, will he decide to break up or keep their relationship

thanks in advance and you don't have to reply to this x 🤍

Getting Them To Like Me

Note: Please keep sending in your requests and hope you like it!

Summary: Mason's family are not your biggest fans. When you go on a family holiday with the, Mason's Ex girlfriend shows up, who Mason's family love. How will Mason react to all the drama? Will this make or break your relationship?

Pairing: Mason Mount x Reader

Word Count: 5.5k

Warnings: Suggestive Themes, Angst, Fluff

“What happens if they don’t like me?” I turn to Mason as he has his eyes on the road. I let myself admire him for a couple of seconds longer then I should. He is just perfect in everyway. He drifts his eyes from the road and meets mine “babe they are going to love you, what isn’t there to love about you?” he gives me a reassuring smile. I can still feel the anxiety overwhelming me. Mason and I have been dating for 6 months, its completely new and being with Mason has turned my whole life upside down. It was a life that I never knew. I just work my boring admin 9-5pm job and had my side hustle as a hair dresser. Me and Mason met in a café opposite my office, he had a hoodie on with his hood up and was one in front of me. He went to pay for his coffee but realised he left his wallet in the car, I have had a bad morning and not in the mood to wait so I just agreed I would pay for it so I could get the line moving. Turned out he was having a meeting using one of the office room downstairs so we got chatting in the hallway, one thing lead to another and here we are. I wasn’t ready to meet Mason’s family yet, he had met mine and of course they loved him but meeting his was a whole other level. It is his sister Jaz’s birthday next week so Mason insisted I attend with him to his parents to have dinner to celebrate. I have never been more nervous.

We pulled up outside their house and I can feel my heart beating in my chest I just want to be sick. Mason can sense my nerves as he rubs his hand into mine as we stand outside trying to calm my nerves. Mason’s mum Debbie opens the door and quickly embracing Mason in a hug “Oh I didn’t realise you were bringing company. Whose this?”  Mason moves out the way to let me inside, Mason rolls his eyes. “I did tell you I will be bringing y/n. I told you about her months ago. But Mum meet y/n. Y/N meet my mum Debbie” he gestures. Debbie remains still and just gives me a smile. “Oh yeah I remember now. Nice to meet you Y/N” it sounded like she didn’t really mean it but I am just putting it down to nerves.

Mason leads me into the living room where Jaz, Mila, Summer, Lewis and his dad Tony are all sitting. They all quickly get up and hug Mason and look awkwardly at me. Mason gestures for me to sit down as all of them sit down and introduces them all to me. Mila and Summer are climbing all over Mason “uncle Masey who is this?” as they point at me. Mason gives them a big grin and says “this is my new girlfriend y/n” it gives me butterflies when he calls me that, we have only just started calling eachother boyfriend/girlfriend. It sounds childish but I love when he calls me his girlfriend. “Hey Y/N!” both Mila and Summer say in unity and wave.

I allow all of them to chat and I am just sat there smiling and engaging in conversation the best I can, I feel invisible though. It feels like I am not even there. Debbie calls to say lunch is ready and we all go sit and begin to eat. I feel extremely uncomfortable as I am picking up the vibe in the room, Mason places his hand on my thigh to try and reassure me, he must sense the vibe too. Tony turns to me “So tell us y/n what do you do?” all eyes are suddenly on me and I can feel myself going red. “I am a manager just for a little admin company in the city. I also have my own little hair dressing business on the side.” They all nod confirming they are listening to what I am saying. Debbie speaks up “so have you had more clients now they know you are dating Mason” I am a bit taken back by the comment and I can see Mason shoot daggers at her which I am quickly to reply for my defence, “Actually Mason and I are keeping our relationship under the radar at the moment so only family and close friends are aware”. Debbie gave me a small scoff in response and we all continued eating.

I whispered to Mason that I needed the loo and he told me where it was, as I escort myself I stand at the entrance and listen to what they have to say. “Why are you all being so rude!” I hear Mason shout but I can tell he is still trying to keep his voice low so I don’t hear. “I don’t know what you are talking Mason. We are just asking her questions to show our involvement?”  Debbie tried to act innocent. That’s when I hear Jaz but in “we are just trying to look at for our baby brother Mase. Come on she is not famous, she doesn’t have a high end job. She is nothing really special Mase are you really trying to tell me she is with you just for love? Like your job and lifestyle had no factor in her getting with you. Come on Mase, you are blind when it comes to love, you cannot generally believe she loves you for you, come on look at this from our side”. Mason doesn’t reply and that’s my queue to come back inside. Its awkward for the rest of the dinner, and not much more is said.

On the way home me and Mason are sat in silence and all that could be heard is the small sound of the radio playing. I look over at Mason “they hate me don’t they?”

“They don’t hate you they just haven’t been given the chance to know you. They are just protective of me that’s all”.

I look at Mason as I know he is just truing to play devils advocate but still “Mason I heard what they said. They don’t want us together.” With this Mason pulled over at the side of the road and took his hand in mine. “Well I want us together and that’s all that matters” and he places a small loving kiss to my lips. I can feel myself smiling into this kiss, I love how he is protecting me.

A couple of weeks have passed since that lunch, Mason has been a little distant but I put it down to us both being busy. Its date night and Mason arranged for me to come round and agreed he would make dinner. I put some flared trousers on and tucked in a nice top so I was casual but still nice enough for the date. As I walk through the door Mason greets me “that smells amazing” I say as he gives me a kiss. “well I got a surprise for you. I wanted to wait until after dinner but I just couldn’t wait” .

I smile at him and bring him closer “oi oi” I wink provocatively. Mason pulls away and giggles “no not like that. That’s for after dinner” he raises his eyebrows teasing. I follow him into the kitchen and perch on one of the stools at his breakfast bar whilst he stands the other side. “Sooo how do you feel about going to Mykonos?” I look at him in disbelief. I jump across the counter and wrap my arms around him “yes yes yes! I would love to go”. Mason leans down and places his lips onto mine. I have never been so excited, going to Mykonos with the love of my life. Life couldn’t get better.

I was on cloud 9 for weeks after that, starting holiday prepping and I was on good vibes. That’s when Mason had to break to me that it wasn’t just us 2 going away and that his whole family would be going away with us. I was now dreading it, I know they don’t like me so its going to be completely awkward. I agreed to meet Mason at the airport as I didn’t want to do the silent car ride with his family. As I arrived I see Mason wave over to me, as I make my over he wraps his arms around me “hey baby” he whispers into my ear. “Hey y/n how you doing?” his mum questions and gives me a small hug. “I am good thank you Mrs Mount how are you? I am excited to go away with you all.” I say nervously. She pulls away “oh please call me Debbie we are all excited to get to know you better”. She winks as she walks away, I look at Mason with a confused look he leans down to my ear as he wraps his arms round my side “I told them to go easy on you”. I gave Mason a massive smile knowing I can try and enjoy the holiday.

The first couple of the days are bliss, Mason’s family are making a complete effort and trying to get to know me. I am having a much needed shower before getting ready for dinner, Mason walks into the bathroom “damn you are beautiful” in which he makes me blush “I might have to join you” which he winks and starts to undress. I quickly turn the shower off and get out “Uh uh we got dinner we haven’t got time for this”. Which I feel Mason pout into the kiss. I decide to wear a long white Maxi Co-Ord which the skirt has a slit up the side showing leg. I look in the mirror and make the final touches to my hair. I feel Mason wrap his arms around my waist “you are the most beautiful girl in the world” I watch in the mirror as he places small open kiss to my neck, I feel myself relax into him as I left out a small moan in response to the kisses. “I’m the luckiest girl in the world” I rely turning around and continue to kiss Mason’s lips. I pull away a let out a small giggle as my lipstick is now smudged over his lips, I use my thumb to wipe it off. “I love you, you know that” I respond. Mason then kisses me again “I love you more”.

We start to walk down the street towards the restaurant for dinner, Mason and I are walking in front of everyone hand in hand. I hear a snap and then Lewis shouts over “you two are so cute!” I can feel myself blush as he shows me the picture he took. “That’s so cute, send that to me!” which Lewis nods in agreement.

We sit down for dinner which overlooks the sea, it looks incredible and looking over at other tables the food looks like its to die for. We are all chatting away when a women walks over to our table, she is wear a tiny mini dress and looks drop dead gorgeous. She looks incredible, she looks like a Victoria secret model, I feel like I have seen her before but I cannot place it.

Tony stands straight up and brings her into a tight hug “Rebecca darling how are you doing?!” I watch as her face lights up as they engage in small conversation and Debbie hugs her and goes to get another chair. I look at Mason and his face drops “who is that?” I ask but he doesn’t respond. The girl now speaks “I am so sorry I am late guys its been one hell of a travel over here, one of my shoots overran so I missed the flight with you guys, then my next flight was cancelled, then they thought I lost my luggage it was such a hell of a ride but I am glad I am here now”. I watch as Debbie reaches over and rubs her wrist. Who is this woman?

Debbie is next to speak “So Becks where are you staying?” I watch as the woman takes a sip of her drink she ordered moments ago. “Oh Debs don’t even get me started! When I arrived at my hotel they said they don’t even have my booking. I guess I wasn’t the best at arranging these, I use to leave that all upto him”. Which they all laugh at, well apart from Mason. I am still looking around confused. “Well we have a spare room in the villa you are more then welcome to stay. I am sure everyone won’t mind one more” Debbie says and looks around for conformation. Jaz then speaks up “it would be amazing for you to stay. We have so much to catch up on”. I look over at Mason who is shooting looks at Lewis which Lewis shrugs in response. I look over at Mason and ask again “Mase who is that?” but again I am met with no response.

Mason is totally quiet over dinner and chit chat is all turned towards that Rebecca, I quickly escort myself to the toilet and once there I google her name which the first news article that came up “Rebecca Green spotted first time since break up with Man United’s Mason Mount” I feel my heart drop. I knew I saw her sometime. She is Mason’s ex. Why is she here? I feel a lump in my throat rising I need to speak to Mason.

Once dinner is finished we all take a walk back to the villa, its not as loving as it was when we were walking to dinner. Everytime I tried to link hands with Mason he would pull away but then give me a loving smile at the same time so my heads is confused. When we arrived everyone agreed that it was late and everyone was going to their respective room. Mason turned to me “I will be up soon I need to have a quick conversation.” I go to kiss him but he turns his head so I only get his cheek, I nod in agreement and then make my way upto our room, I thought I would have a quick bath and by the time I am out Mason should be out, he will probably just ask his parents what they are playing at inviting Rebecca, I have nothing to worry about I keep trying to tell myself. Once I am out the bath Mason is still not up, I look at the time and its been a couple of hours, I didn’t even realise the time as I was engrossed in the book I was reading. I wrap a towel around me, I go to look on the balcony and the side makes me feel sick. Its Mason and Rebecca sat on the table by the fire laughing away. I try to think nothing of it and get into bed hoping Mason will be back soon.

I am woken by the sound of Mason stumbling into the room, he quickly strips and throws himself into bed. “What time is it?” I ask Mason rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. Mason turns his body to me “1ish I think sorry we just got into catching up and didn’t realise the time” Mason pouts and gives me puppy eyes. “don’t be angry at me babyyyyy” he wines. “how can I stay mad at you” I respond giving Mason a little kiss but at the same time my heart still hurting.

I am debating to have the conversation now or in the morning but then I just blurt out “What is she doing her Mase?” I ask sheepishly hoping not to cause an argument. Mason wraps me up “Sorry I really didn’t know she was coming” I nod, it sounds like there is a little bit of a lie in that but right now I am not here to fight. “Don’t you think it will be a little awkward with your ex and your current girlfriend being on the same holiday with you?”

“Only if we make it awkward” in which Mason is quick to reply. I start to kiss Mason as I push my body into his. I pull away and look into his eyes “I was hoping to finish off what we couldn’t earlier in the shower” which I shoot him a wink as I start to kiss his neck. Mason pushes me away “I am knackered baby, its been a long day and I have had a lot to drink. But if you are lucky maybe you will wake up to something jabbing your bum in the morning” which he shoots me a wink. I roll my eyes at his response “how romantic” I giggle and then Mason turns me around as he spoons me and sleeps overwhelms us both.

As I open my eyes I suddenly feel the lack of presence of Masons strong arms around me, I quickly stretch then realise he is not next to me in bed. He cannot have one day off from the gym I thought. I got up and put a bikini on and throw on a dress to cover up as I make my way downstairs. Its quiet and only Lewis is sitting by the pool, I sit next to him. “Where is everyone?” I ask. “Mason and Rebecca are at the gym and the others are by the beach. I told Mason sod the gym in this heat” which we both giggle. “You know that he must be a mad man” I quickly respond trying to hide the twinge of guilt I have.

I didn’t see Mason for the rest of the day, his family are basically acting like I am not there and the only one who is acknowledging me is Lewis. I feel like shit and I just want to go home. I quickly ring my friend Hannah as I sat on the bed. “Hey girlllll! Hows the holiday with lover boy? I am totally jealous and totally hate you right now!” she basically squeals. “Its going alright” I reply looking down trying to hold the tears in. I can see her looking at me trying to figure out whats happened. “Y/N you are literally in Mykonos with The Mason Mount and you are not happy right now whats happened?” as I am explaining everything to her and I can feel the tears running down my face as she tries to reassure me that Mason loves me. I can hear Mason coming back into the villa so I explain to Hannah I gotta go which she understands and we both say our goodbye. I wipe my tears away waiting for Mason to come into the bedroom but nothing is happening. I start scrolling on my phone and I see Mason is tagged on a post:

Rebecca_Green Posted:

The Best Days With You ❤️

I feel myself wanting to be sick as the lump in my throat is formed. At this point Mason now decides to walk into the bedroom. He quickly sees my upset demeanour and runs straight over to me “baby whats wrong?” he asks as he wipes my tears away with his thumb. I show Mason the insta post “you literally went on a date with your ex girlfriend whilst I have been stuck here all day with your family who hate me and haven’t even spoken a word to me! Come on Mason she is wearing your shirt for fucks sake!” I am shouting now as I point at the picture, Mason steps back as he hasn’t been prepared for this argument. “I told her not to post anything!” I get up looking at Mason. “That’s you reply! That you told her not to post anything! So you are not denying you went on a date with her!” I can see Mason started to get fired up and I know he really doesn’t want to right now. “It wasn’t a date, okay, we had a lot to talk about so we did that, I am allowed to have a conversation with her. Also if you want my family to speak to you why not try and put more of an effort into it and they might actually start talking to you” he fired back. I can feel the tears rolling down my face as I leave the bedroom not wanting to ignite the fire more.

As I make my way downstairs the villa is empty and its just Rebecca sitting on her own on the decking. I build up the bravery and I go and sit opposite her. “hey we haven’t had a chance to introduce myself I am y/n” she looks up at me and smiles. “hey y/n! I am Rebecca. So how do you know the Mounts? Are you friend of Lewis’s or Jaz’s?” I look at her confused. Mason didn’t tell her who I am. “I am Mason’s girlfriend” I blurt out with authority. She looks at me with wide eyes like she is shocked at my reply. “I am sorry I didn’t realise Mase had a girlfriend I am so sorry for hogging him since we have been here. We have had so much to speak about” .

“Yeah he said” I scoffed as I replied. She continues to look at me. “I am sorry I am just so shocked that Mase has a girlfriend. He brought me the ticket for this holiday ages ago but then obviously we hadn’t spoken after the breakup, and then Debbie messaged me saying to still come. I wouldn’t think she would do that if you guys were in a relationship and then Mason had to buy another ticket for you”.

I can feel my heart breaking at every word said “I paid for myself I didn’t want anyone thinking I was here for Mason’s money, but also his family are not my biggest fan so that’s probably why they invited you”.

She gives me a smile that I can tell from her eyes is totally fake “sorry I cannot relate on that one! His family have always loved me!” she giggles. I feel the hatred towards her already, and I don’t know why I thought coming down here would make me feel better, if anything it has made me feel worse. I escort myself back to our bedroom which Mason has already disappeared from. I collapse against the door and let my tears fall.

Mason’s POV

I spot Lewis from across the villa “Lew where is she?” Lewis looks at me confused which right now I am not in the mood for this conversation. “Where is who?”  I can tell he generally doesn’t have a clue who I am talking about. “Y/n.. we had a kinda fight last night and I left her to cool down but when I came back this morning she was gone all of her stuff is gone and she won’t answer the phone. I am worried about her Lew whats happened?”

Lewis let out a big sigh “I don’t know where she went mate. We had a chat last night as she was pretty upset and you weren’t around”. I am shocked at this, why would you speak to Lewis and not me. “What was said?”

“She was upset about the post that Rebecca put up and I don’t blame her bro it didn’t look good”

“It was nothing like you think Lew. I promise look the one where I was asleep on the beach she said she was going to take a walk and then I fell asleep on the beach I didn’t even know she was next to me. The one she took in the shadow I didn’t even know she was taking the photo I was looking down at my phone. And then one with her on the beach, she asked me to take for her insta.”

“She has your shirt on tho, it does look bad Mason?”

“She didn’t have anything to cover up with, she said she was getting burnt what was I supposed to say no and let her burn?”

“I think y/n’s reply to that would be yes” in which Lewis laugh “she then said she spoke to Rebecca, apparently Rebecca was saying about how you never mentioned that y/n was your girlfriend and how mum invited Rebecca on the holiday as you had already paid for the ticket”. I cannot keep my expression straight, I am now fuming.

“That’s bullshit Lewis! Come on you know that is! You had to of told her that!”

“I didn’t say anything Mase, I don’t know the truth I don’t even know why Rebecca is here so I just listened to her have her rant. Kind of like what I am doing for you now”.

“I told Rebecca that y/n is my girlfriend. That was the first thing she asked me when she arrived was who she was and I told her straight away I was taken. I went to the gym yesterday morning and she just invited herself, and she did the same on the beach. I wanted to speak to her and ask her why she was here. Mum never invited her, she just had the ticket and thought ‘fuck it’ and thought she could come out and I don’t know, rekindle the relationship or something. She is possessive that’s the whole reason we broke up in the first place. Mum just asked her to stay to be polite as she had no where to stay. You know mum always liked her so I think she was just trying to be nice.”

“Oh right, yeah that came up too. Rebecca said about how our family loved her and then y/n said about how much we hated her apparently. I told her we don’t hate her, its just that we are protective of you as you are the baby of the family that’s all. But I know I have got to know her a lot more during the holiday and she is actually a lovely girl and I am sure the rest of the family agree.”

“I told her that!” Then I realise what I actually said “Well actually I snapped at her, and told her if she makes more of an effort then maybe you guys would like her”.

Lewis rolls his eyes and scoffs “Wow that’s nice!” he said sarcastically.

“I didn’t mean it, I let Rebecca get into my head. We always used to argue as she always thought I was cheating and that argument with y/n brought back memories and I just snapped. I didn’t mean anything I said to her I just got angry. I wanted to explain everything this morning but when I got into our bedroom she was gone. Do you think she has gone home?”

“Maybe.. if I were her Mase, I would already be on the next flight home so she is probably doing the same.”

I feel my chest drop as deep down I know Lewis was right. I didn’t want to leave my family as it’s the first time in ages that I have seen them. I spend the next couple of days fighting with my head and heart. I kept trying to call and text you but you continue to read everything that I write and just not reply.

We are sat over dinner with everyone, I told Rebecca to go home after everything I couldn’t cope with her being here, she caused all of this. As soon as she realised it would never be me and her again she couldn’t wait to leave. I told my family everything yesterday as I was moping around and they couldn’t stand my attitude apparently. My dad turned to me as we were eating “why are you still here? The longer you leave it the longer she has to think about all your flaws” that makes everyone giggle.

“You guys didn’t like her anyway” I was quick to respond. Mum give me a sympathetic look, “Mase its our duty to protect you. No girl will ever be good enough for you. Yes I agree we probably didn’t give her the nicest start and we apologise for that. But with your job and fame there are going to be girls who just use you to be apart of that, its our job to filter them out. From this holiday we can tell that she loves you for you Mason and that’s all we want so she has our approval.” My heart melts at hearing that all I wanted was for my family to like you, as I generally think I am proper falling for you. My mum continues “also Rebecca told me when she was leaving, that y/n told her that she paid for her part of the holiday, so you paid for everyone apart from that poor poor girl and she only stayed for half the holiday. I suggest when you get home you give her a one hell of a sorry”.

“In my defence I did offer to pay, she insisted on paying as she didn’t want you guys to think she was using my money.”

“Well then I suggest you go home and make it right Mase. You can see us anytime go home to her”. I have heard all I need to.

I got on the next flight home, it was the longest hours of my life. All I can think about is you, what are you going to think? Are you going to take me back?

Readers POV

Its been a long couple of days, I have unpacked all my holiday stuff, half of it unworn which brings tears to my eyes. It was childish that I left without a trace but I couldn’t be there, its clear that Mason wants Rebecca, why wouldn’t he, she is stunning and I am just little old me.

I am just starting to cook dinner whilst I have my tunes in the background. I am dancing around when I hear a knock at my door. I quickly open it and I am shocked to see Mason standing there, suitcase and all in trail. I am speechless, out of anyone who could be at my door I did not expect him. “W-What are you doing here?”

Mason looks tired from all the travelling “I have a lot of explaining to do. Please 5 mins that’s all I am asking for”. I nod and let him inside, he came back from the holiday early and clearly come straight from the airport the least I can do is let him explain.

 “I-If I knew you were coming I would of changed?” I quickly look down at my stained PJs, messy bun and glasses. Mason shakes his head as he takes a seat in my living room “I think you still look unreal” I blush at the compliment. “So explain” I say joining him on the sofa.

“It isn’t what you think okay, Rebecca twisted it all. Let me start from the beginning, so firstly-“

“I know Lewis told me”

“He did”

“Yeah yesterday. He said you had a conversation with him and cleared it all out. He said he wanted me know now as he didn’t want me waiting days and hating you more and more each day. He said that he liked me, and he said that he could see that I meant a lot to you so wanted to make things right.”

“Well he kind of ruined my whole speech that I wrote on the plane” he giggles “but I am glad he told you. I couldn’t stand the thought of you hating me.”

“I could never hate you Mase. I love you. I love you more then I have ever loved someone before. But at the same time you hurt me. Especially when you said ‘if I wanted your parents to like me then I need to make more of an effort’ because I spend all that time on holiday trying to get them to like me and that didn’t work.”

“It did, why do you think I am here. They told me to go fight for you because they can tell you are a lovely girl and wanted to see where this relationship could go. I am sorry for how I acted, but I promise you y/n even if my family didn’t approve I don’t care. I want you and only you. Nothing will ever change my mind”.

My heart melts and I jump across the sofa and wrap my arms around Mason. The kiss was passionate and needy. I straddle his hips as we deepen the kiss. “you have a lot of making up to do.” Mason gives me a suggestive smile. “Don’t worry I kinda thought so. Tomorrow we have date night but tonight I will make it up to you in another way”. Mason picks me up as my legs wrap around his waist as we continue the kiss as we make our way to the bedroom. I am in for a night of apologises and I have absolutely no objections.

[wolftarotcrafts]

What is coming towards you in love? Let's find out! Soon I will post another tarot reading on how your relationship may deepen for those in relationships already.

I also just want to say thank you for the support on my other tarot readings I have posted on here. It means a lot to see that my readings have resonated with people. And if you missed those readings and want to check them out, you can go to my page, and I will link them at the end.

I also have started setting up my Ko-Fi, so I will make a separate post on that if anyone is curious about personal readings. Please enjoy the readings.

Pile One:

Oooooooh, pile one. You have got some good things coming in. In terms of what you can expect, I see you meeting the one who you will get married to and start a life with. This is the person who is going to commit to you. I see you guys have kissed frogs and have been patiently waiting for your person. I see that the patience is finally going to pay off because on the horizon I see them arriving. I see you have been focused on yourself and really taking time for you. You are ready to receive what you want. I see it's just within reach. I see some of you are powerful manifesters and may have manifested your person with a spell or vision board. I say refresh the manifestation and make another little list of the qualities and traits you want your person to have and be specific. Use your power pile one and get ready because they are coming. 

Signs: Colored hair, Pink, Red, Purple, Black hair, Straight hair, Ocean, boats, Port, Fall, Seattle, Movie-10 Things I Hate About You, Seattle, Sunrise, Tomorrow-Annie, sunshine, light-hearted, Manifestation, Vision board, Songs, Winter, Dec, 18, In a few months, In a few days, Cancer, Virgo, Sagittarius, 1212, Leap of faith, Jack, Fernanda, Ashly, Laura.

Pile Two:

Hey pile two. I feel you guys are kind of in your own world. Many of you are young, like in high school, or just really carefree and youthful. I see you guys are just having fun and living the best life you can. I see there are two possible situations. I see that some people may have a crush on you, and you don't even know it. I see them admiring from afar. I see them finally gaining the courage to talk to you and ask you out. I also see another situation where some of you like someone, and you are observing them, and they are mirroring you and doing the same with another person. I then see you guys somehow come together and start liking each other. 

Signs: 6, 12, 19, 22, 26, 29, Aries, Aquarius, Brown hair, Orange, Tattoos, Smart, May, Asia, "Hi," Isaac, Swimming, Messages, hanging out with friends, Daylight Harry Styles, Hold On, We're Going Home- Drake,

Pile Three:

Hey pile three. I am sending you good vibes and all the love. Pile three I am not going to lie. There are some bad vibes here. Make sure you are careful with who you surround yourself with and who you tell your secrets to. I see there are some snakes around you. I see there is going to be some conflict, and you might get heartbroken, and there might be some deception going on. Some of you might know who I am talking about and just ignore the red flags, but listen, it's only going to hurt you in the end. Do not ignore the red flags. Pay attention to your surroundings and who you are with. Not everyone has your best interest at heart. Just guard yourself a little pile three. I know this was supposed to be about love, so one of your friends may take your crush or something like that to hurt you, but again be on the lookout. I'm sending you hugs, pile three.🫂❤️‍🩹

Signs: 18, C, A, I Sneaky, Secrets, Drama, Backstabber, Gossip, Gemini, Sagittarius, "Friends," Alex, Alexander, Adam, Andrea, Cassandra, Cassie, July, Sad songs Wildflower-Billie Eilish

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[emometalhead]

It's time for my annual New Year's post!! I hope everyone finds peace and fun as we enter 2025. Sending good vibes all around 🩷✨️.

As per tradition, I want to express my gratitude for my lovely friends here. (In alphabetical order by url.)

@awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands - Alessia!! You are such a sweetheart. You are such a caring, kind person, and you're so beautiful inside and out. I am extremely lucky to have you in my life. You are a wonderful cheerleader for my successes, and I can only hope I provide the same enthusiasm for your life. I'm so proud of you for completing your schooling earlier this year, and I'm even prouder that you were able to dedicate your time to subjects that interest you so greatly. Your talent, creativity, and determination are inspiring. You are going to do amazing things, and I hope this coming year brings lots of joy and success. Love you 🩷🩷

@born-to-lose - Hiiii Mel 😘. Here's to many more concerts, musical discoveries, and fun flirtatious moments in 2025. You deserve all of the best and most enjoyable experiences in life. You're so smart, so talented, and so dedicated to your passions. I am in awe of you, always. It's actually so rude that you're so lovely and incredible. Also you're hot. Like girl, what can't you do? Love you forever 💍. I'm excited to see what this year will bring for you. I hope it's lots of joy and success in your endeavors. You're creative, talented, have great taste, and you're such a likeable person. I know you'll amount to great things, and it is so cool to have a glimpse into your life.

@day-trippin-dreamer - Tina!!!!!! I tell you all the time how much I love you and how amazing I think you are. It still bears repeating. You are one of my favorite people, and your friendship means more to me than you'll ever know. I am giving you the biggest virtual hug. Thank you for being there for me for so many years now. I know I can always count on you when I'm down, and I can always count on you to be just as excited as me when good things happen. Also you have such good taste, and it will always be an honor to be your friend and mutual. Here's to another great year of friendship, and hopefully lots of lovely lovely things in your future. ILY ✨️🩷

@doctorqueensanatomy - Hello my dearest, Sheamus! We've been friends for a few years now, but the way in which our friendship has blossomed this year has been so beautiful to me. I live for our life updates and spirited conversations about media, the effects of Capitalism, our regional quirks, and literally anything and everything else. I'm eternally grateful for you. I so badly wish I could snap my fingers and transport across the world to hang out with you. I'm always impressed by your thoughtfulness and ability to talk through situations. You are so smart, brilliant, and fun. I hope you know how much I love you. May this coming year bring us even closer. 🥰🥰

@duffmckagans - Hi Kelsey!! 😁 I'm so glad you're back on here!! Your presence brings a calm and bright energy into my life. We have had such a good few years of friendship despite the chaos surrounding both of our lives. After a bit of separation this year due to the aforementioned chaos, I hope 2025 will bring us closer than ever. I love how easily you understand my insane ramblings and the one million connections I make between media I love. You are so incredibly smart, insightful, and creative. I'll never stop being in awe of you. I also appreciate your willingness to be petty and dramatic with me. Multifaceted queen lol. Seriously though, I love you a ton, and I'm so happy you're in my life. I hope 2025 brings you stability and success. I'm always rooting for you.

@idontwanttospoiltheparty - Hi Fiona! I know we don't talk a ton, but your presence on my dash is always greatly appreciated. I love your takes, informed nuance, and analysis. It is clear how much thought you put into everything you care about, and that is admirable. I hope you know I genuinely take time to read and process everything you post, because it is always interesting. I hope this coming year is a positive one for you. I can't wait to see what you do or create next, and I'm sending good vibes your way. 🥰

@inquisitiveheretic - Hi Lee!! You've been around less this year, so I have really had to pay attention and appreciate when you're on my dash. Idk if you'll even see this, but I hope you do. I am wishing the best for you! I hope you're thriving irl. You will always be a person I hold a lot of respect for. It's been a long while, and I miss our chats. Just know even if we don't speak at all, I am always rooting for you. I hope lots of great media and interesting analysis comes your way in 2025. ♡♡♡

@losers-yurio - RYLIE!! I have no clue if you'll see this lol. I'm including you anyway. I will always always always be so grateful that we met. You will always be my first true Internet friend, and I'll never be able to explain the impact you've had on my life. I'm so grateful for you. It seems like you're absolutely killing it in college, and I'm so proud of you. You're such a kind, funny, and beautiful person. What an honor it is to even peripherally be in your life. I'm sending hugs and good vibes forever and ever. Here's to a wonderful new year ✨️✨️✨️

@nocturnal-light - Lynne, you impress me every single day. You're a great artist. Your drawings and crafts are always so cool, and it is an awesome thing to see. Your skating is so gorgeous. I'm so proud of you for everything you have accomplished with your skating career, and I'm so happy for you to have opportunities to do what you love. You are a ray a light, and I hope you know how much I adore you even though we don't talk too often. I hope you have a great 2025 full of music and fun. 🩷🩷

@no-fxn-club - Frankie!! Frankie!! Frankie!! You have no clue how often I think of you. Everytime I see cows, I think "Frankie would love them". Everytime I see a post where someone refers to a soda as a coke, I think of you. Everytime I listen to The Used or Set It Off or hear a southern twang, I think of you. You mean so much to me, and it is such an honor to know you. You have the best sense of humor, great taste in music, such a streak of creativeness, and it all cumulates in you being one of the best people I know. I am wishing you (and all your pets!!) a lovely, lovely 2025. 🖤🖤🖤

@only-a-heartbeat-away Hi Harlow! I think a lot of our interests have diverged, but I still have so much joy about us being mutuals. You're a really great person, and I love that we can still connect despite being in so many different fandoms. I love your passion about the bands you love, and I hope you discover even more cool music in the new year. I'm sending good vibes your way!! 🩷

@rebelrollerqueen - Hey Ren!! You haven't been around as much lately, so I hope you see this. I'm so proud of you. You are so intelligent, determined, and expressive. Your hair, makeup, and fashion are always above and beyond. Your taste in music is so good. Plus, you're a genuine, kind, and loving person. I don't care how old you become. I'll always be happy to be your Internet Mom. Seeing you grow over the last few years has been a beautiful thing, and I can't wait to continue seeing you move forward and succeed in life. Love you so much!! ♥️

@sohardlovingyou Hi Jori!!! You're my pop girlie icon forever. I love how tuned in you are to all the celebrity gossip and internet drama, and I love how happily you cheer on the people you're a fan of. Your blog is always a source of joy for me. It is so fun seeing your takes, and it's even more fun with how often our opinions overlap. You're such a fun person, and you're also gorgeous!! The whole package!! I hope you're winning in life, and I'm sending all the best vibes. May 2025 help us live out our poppiest fantasies. 💅🩷

@therockywhorerpictureshow - Hey Ella! 🥰 You're such a lovely presence on my dash!! I love getting little glimpses into your life. You have such adorable dogs. You are a baking icon. Seriously I want to eat everything you post 😭. If I ever find myself out East, I will seek you out for hugs and baked goods lol. You're so damn pretty it's actually crazy, and you're so sweet too. Just a lovely person overall. I'm so glad we're friends, and I hope 2025 brings you lots of good things. I'm so proud of you for going to school this year. It is an impressive and scary thing. You're pushing through and doing great. I hope you know I'm rooting for your success in all avenues. Love you!!

@xx-key-xx - Key, you're such a legend. You are the 2000s it girl of my dreams. You're so damn cool, and I love how much you're absolutely killing it. Your fashion, hair, and makeup are inspiring. I'm always happy to hype you up, and I can't wait to see what 2025 brings you for. I'm sending all the good vibes and energy your way. Let's party like it's 2005. 😎 Love you, icon!!

[perfectlyoongi]

REQUESTS ARE CLOSED 𓏲 ִֶָ ๋ ᡣ𐭩

⠀⠀✷ before we get into the rules and all, i would like to say a few words.

⠀⠀✷ i decided to officially open my requests for a limited time as a thank you for all of your support and feedback. i hope i can provide you some smiles (or tears, no judging here) and that you can feel loved and warm inside because i always write with your soul in mind. my works are more than just words, and i hope you feel that way - i am hugging you with every word.

⠀⠀✷ now please read my rules and limits before requesting, thank you.

BEFORE REQUESTING 𓏲 ִֶָ ๋ ᡣ𐭩

໒ ࣪˖˚ WHEN ⠀⠀⪩ requests will be open from oct.18 to oct.31. ⠀⠀⪩ i will let you know when the requests are open/closed. ⠀⠀⪩ once they're closed, please don't send any, thank you. ⠀⠀⪩ if you want to share a thought or a little scenario or so, you can always come to my inbox and have fun! i'm here to listen to you.

໒ ࣪˖˚ WHO ⠀⠀⪩ gn!reader always (except for nsfw - afab!reader). ⠀⠀⪩ bts, obviously, duh. ⠀⠀⪩ yoongi and jungkook are the ones i'm most comfortable with. ⠀⠀⪩ i will write for the other 5 !! it might take a little longer, that's all.

໒ ࣪˖˚ WHAT ⠀⠀⠀⪩ headcanons - 3 members, tops! (i will eventually write the same hdc for all). ⠀⠀⠀⪩ scenarios - only 1 member. ⠀⠀⠀⪩ if i think a request can become a multi-chapter, i will ask if i could do it as such. (you can ask anonymously, i will just reply to your ask). ໒ ࣪˖˚ CONTENT ⠀⠀⠀⪩ fluff & angst (we all know i'm the devil of angst). ⠀⠀⠀⪩ suggestive - mdni!! (i am still working on perfecting my smut). ⠀⠀⠀⪩ member x reader only (romantic or platonic). ⠀⠀⠀⪩ au's are more than welcomed!

໒ ࣪˖˚ WON'T ⠀⠀⪩ poly relationships, member x member. ⠀⠀⪩ explicit smut, (mentions of) rape, explicite sexual violence. ⠀⠀⪩ explicite mental health issues. ⠀⠀⪩ pedophilia, incest, age regression, you get the idea. ⠀⠀⪩ a/b/o or hybrid stuff. ⠀⠀⪩ any -dere (ex. yandere, tsundere). ⠀⠀⪩ very detailed requests (if you want me to write about you and the boys, you have to commission me. i work for the fandom and i want to reach out to as many people as i can).

REMEMBER 𓏲 ִֶָ ๋ ᡣ𐭩

⠀⠀✷ i have the right to refuse any request and it may take me some time for me to write the others (remember that i am an adult with 2 jobs. i am not a machine).

⠀⠀✷ i will post updates on the requests and works on my main (@perfectlyoongi-main) as a way to have this blog organized. if you want to know if your request went through or if i started writing or how it's coming along, feel free to ask on that blog! i only accept requests through asks.

⠀⠀✷ i'm not going to write by order of requesting. i am a mood writer, so when i vibe with the request is when i will write it (and remember i have my own wips to work on).

⠀⠀✷ you can ask (almost) freely! ⠀⠀⠀⠀✷ you can request normally (member name, genre, idea, etc.) and you can also ask for a scenario based on one of my headcanons if you like (!BTS series - just specify which bullet point you would like to see as a scenario). ⠀⠀⠀⠀✷ if all you have is a pic, or a song, or anything else, just send it to me with the name of the member and i will do my best! (less is best in some cases!).

⠀⠀✷ any questions, you can ask away! my inbox is always open for you ♡

[the-tarot-witch22]

First of all a big thankyou to you for always cheering me up and making me feel confident within my work, I'm so happy to know that you liked them. And yes it is actually funny because I do get some vibes of you two having same religion/culture yet I was also receiving something about European country/london especially so I was like is it a foreigner? But same culture hmm. But anything is possible so whatever that is you deserve the best and I'm sure you'll receive it. Also your fs definitely wants the best for you and love yourself, i also feel your higher-self would love herself too and as she should!!

Here's a feedback; OMG! Just few seconds in the reading and I'm already tearing up, because please the reading if just so beautiful :)) Okay so hearing about healing and self-love and all I'm just so happy because I've been doing a lot of shadow work and self-love is something very important to me now so knowing that my higher would reach that point of life where she's receiving the fruits of her hardwork I am very emotional, "Go for it" how do I explain i words what it meant to me because I was just thinking about things in life and all, especially about my career and then I hear this. Definitely I'm someone who's still learning to trust herself and all it was a huge sign for me especially for the steps I've been wanting to take/taking. Hearing about friends made me so greatful because I've been kind of unlucky when it comes to friendships especially offline (ik it also had a reason) so that is just so beautiful. Also about luxuries and money, and my higher-self??? She's exactly what i want to be or imagine her to me omg. Yeah like f*ck it, wait last life connection came here too?? And my fs popping up in ng reading again okay this reading is all I needed I am gonna give myself a good cry. And also that's so true I'm definitely the type of even now who looks at past just to remind myself how far I've came and what they've taught me and feel greatful even for those tough moments. "I also feel pink, green (pastel) or dark shades have importance in your life" wow please i should kiss your hands rn because it resonates even with colours, like i really love pastel shades and dark shades, and i would say they do play a role since when i wear dark clothes i feel much more confident and tune within mymasculine energy and with light colours with my feminine energy and I'm sure that maybe these colours play another roles too. "felt you standing in front of mirror and admiring it" *cries again* because I do have struggled with my body since my childhood and very insecure of it because of how skinny I look, and seeing her admiring her parts made me realise a lot. And yes I am a forgiving person and I've already forgiven everyone woah please you picked on the present too!?? Also about job, and career with growth...(Just so very greatful) Literally so very greatful because that's what I've wanting to give myself and even the higher position/business definitely aligns with my goals. And coming to my intuition and the Messages just blessed!! I am definitely gonna start hearing it more and also about the mysteries it makes sense and resonates (I'm surprised) because it's just a huge confirmation to me. Also coming to education, honey it resonates again because that's one of my biggest goals. Also "thankyou for meeting me baby" my pookie baby i already love you so much you popping up in the reading again!!!? Or atleast knowing something about you, it's okay love ik we'll meet when the timing is right. 🤍🫂 Also the moodboard?? Bro it's just so beautiful energetically and the fact I do see so many angel numbers, 444 too. Okay everything literally everything RESONATES!!

How do I explain in words how greatful i feel. Love you so very much honey, i really appreciate each and every moment, really greatful that I met you. Everything has a reason and I'm it had too. Sending my warmest hugs to my sweetheart, you are amazing don't question yourself. You are moving forward and making progress and that's a really huge thing, things take time but ik we'll be okay!!

Proud of you bub. Have an amazing day ahead. Sending lots of love and blessings 🫶🏻🤍✨🧿

You sweetheart!! I love you so so much 😭🌼 you deserve the compliments and your readings work is literally so gooood!? How can I not like it! You are so sweet for giving me both readings and moodboard and they resonated so much with me, it made me so emotional and happy thank you sm, I appreciate you so much that I can't describe in words, my love yes exactly!! Its funny maybe that country has important value in both of our lives I am just so excited to meet him! I love him already! Yess, we will have everything we deserve and I am sure the universe is working our favour!! Amen 🙏

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The detailed feedback?? I am so in love with it , you are so so sweet 😭 the messages I kept picking on it was like everything your higherself wants you to hear and lessen your worries and doubts, your future spouse/soulmate he really wants to give you love and confirmation that he is out there, the way lovers card flew and pop up and I was like he is too excited to show himself to you lol, and it was cute, I am happy for him and for you 😭 I am so glad you liked the moodboard I kept feeling drawn to those pictures and I know they all had something for you, to feel and hear, I am literally smiling and feeling just so emotional?? Like I am so glad for the feedback and they way our energy aligns it just made me so so happy! I am so glad your higher self has everything , she literally is the sweetest, thank you so much for letting me read for you, ilysm!

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Love you more! And I am definitely sure it had a meaning and I am glad we met, thank you so much, sending love and hugs to you as well!! Yess! We both are and I know things will look up for us, I just know it. Yess everything will be~!

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Thank you so much for this and I am proud of you too! Have an amazing day too!! Sending love and positive vibes to you tooo ! 🧿✨️🌼🎀

[sdmnpact]

˗ˏˋHow Harry met Y/N ˎˊ˗

Part 4

Harry: [12:37] Well next time, I'll be there and win because I'm the biggest brain in the lobby!"

Y/N: [12:38] clearly not but sure I believe in you 💀

Harry and I have been texting and calling eachother for the last couple of days since we last saw each other. He's been busy so we haven't had another chance to meet up but he made up for it by constantly texting me about literally everything. I think he just finds the opportunity to text me whatever is on his mind at any point of the day. I'm not complaining though, he is super funny and always brings interesting topics. Currently he is taking about the latest Sidemen Amongus video that he wasn't in. He thinks that he's the best player after Simon said he was better than Josh. I've been watching their Amongus videos because he told me to and I say he's a hit or miss but he's alright.

He actually asked me if I wanted to join a lobby in the future. I don't really post gaming to my channel but it could be nice to do something different. Usually I post makeup tutorials, mini vlogs, trying clothes from different websites- that sort of stuff. I actually do like playing video games but I never have people to play with since Jules isn't into them and Tom is always busy.

Anyways, I'm about to head out on a little shopping date with Jules since I want to buy some stuff for a video and we decided to make it a whole girls day. I haven't texted Jules much because every free chance I get, I am texting Harry. It's like we're two preteens that can't be apart for more than 2 seconds but sometimes the conversation is just that good.

Like he's been sending me memes and videos of his friends and telling me about them. He told me he wants me to come around to a sidemen shoot so I can meet the other boys. Do I have the will to meet more people? Not really but maybe it will be fun.

~~~

Once Jules arrived, I said my goodbye to Leroy as he was playing on his cat house with his favorite toy. We made our way out to Jules' car and began our trip to the shopping centre.

"So, anything new happen in the world of Harry and y/n!?" She asked looking at the road but giving me a little smirk. "Nothing so far, I mean we've barely been out once. He did invite me to hang out with him and his mates but I dont know. I don't want to hang out with a bunch of guys." I said looking out the window. It's a very cloudy day but this type of weather is so comforting.

"Well maybe their girlfriends will be there. You said most of them have girls."

"Yeah but now I have to meet a bunch of new people and.." I trailed off. I'm not exactly a people person. Like it's fine when it's a small group but a whole team in one afternoon is crazy. Not just that but they've been friends for a while and their girlfriends are all friends so they already have that sort of bond going. I feel I'll just ruin the vibe. "Exactly! Meet new people!! You can't stay in your little bubble forever!" She's right, she's always right. That is why I love her. She is always there for me and helps me get out of my slum all the time. I think I would be a recluse if it wasn't for Jules.

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We did some shopping at the mall, going to various stores. I bought a couple of clothes all in orange. I'm planning on making another rainbow outfit. I have a series going on right now where I create five outfits each with the colors of the rainbow. This week, is orange so I have to plan five outfits that look semi decent. We were on our way to get smoothies when I got a phone call.

It was Harry. "Whats up?" I asked once I answered. "Look behind you." What? I turned around and saw him and two other guys. I hung up as we made our way towards them. He had this adorable smile on his face and his eyes were lit up. I hugged him and waved at his friends. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Jules looking at me with content. I don't know why but I'll make sure to ask later.

"What are you doing here!?" I asked. "Just getting some stuff that I needed. Oh uh, y/n this is George and Chris." He said gesturing towards the two guys. "And boys this is Y/N and Jules" Harry said introducing us. "Nice to meet you- wait is this the George who left you at the party that night?" Jules said pointing at George.

Harry chuckled and nodded. "Okay, in my defense, it looked like Harry was having a good time. I was gonna wake him up but you two seemed to be having a little moment going, I had to let it go on. You should be thanking me actually-"

"-OKAY GEORGE, we get it" Harry said getting red in the cheeks. "Actually I am very appreciative of that so thank you George." I told him as I looked over at Harry smiling. "Ooo" "stop it" Harry said quickly as the boys began teasing him. "So, do you want to join us, we're about to grab some food-" Harry began but was cut off by Chris. "Actually, we've got to go now, I think we're pretty much finished here, I've got a meeting and I'm sure George has something. Right George!?" Chris said nudging George. "Oh yeah, business and all that." George said.

"And I've got to go as well! I have to meet Tom at ...Tescos... so we can... buy groceries.." Jules said sounding unsure in her words. "Isn't Tom at the-" I began, getting cut off. "No no, I have to go now!" She said as she took my bags and began walking away. "I'll drop these off at your flat tomorrow!" She said as George and Chris waved bye and left behind her.

Now it was just the two of us. "Well that was weird" Harry laughed. "I'm pretty sure they just wanted us to be alone. Pretty good friends if you ask me." I said with a chuckle.

We made our ways towards the food court, and he asked what I wanted then went to get our food. I watched as he stood in line, talked to the cashier and recieved the food. He is so pretty, I don't know why I feel so much affection towards him, I just adore him. Maybe I've been out of the game so long that I wanna hook up with the first guy that gives me their attention. I think this is more than a hookup, though. I want to start something with this man.

"Here you go." He said setting down the trays of food. "Thanks" I said as we began eating. "You have something on your face." I said gesturing to the spot. He tried wiping but kept missing. "Here, let me." I grabbed a napkin and wiped. It became a moment where we just stared into each other's eyes. He leaned forward and kissed me. I kissed back but pulled away after a while since we were in public. I looked at him and we both laughed. "Well that was unexpected." He chuckled.

"It was nice."

[fallingintolife]

Mother Knows Best

Request: hi, i'm the anon that requested the sam winchester shopping fic ft dean! i hope you don't mind me requesting another sam one lol ( i don't see a lot of sam ones tbh so when i saw that you write for sam too i got excited :'D ) could the reader be a hunter that ran away from home because they have a narcissistic / manipulative mother ( kind of like mother gothel from tangled ) and started traveling with sam and dean because they felt safe with them , as well as dating sam ? one day while being out it turns out the reader's mother was in the same town , looking for them to try and bring them back home , and reader gets all scared because they don't want to go back which sam and dean notice just some good old fashion angst and hurt / comfort :)

Pairing: Sam Winchester x Reader

Warnings: Abusive mother, panic attack description

Summary: Dean said it best, "Monsters I get. People are crazy!"

Word Count: 1,875

A/N: Let me start off by saying I am so so so so so sorry this took as long as it did for me to post! I really have enjoyed writing on this prompt unfortunately life just got in the way but I hope that you do end up seeing this and reading it. I do hope that it was worth the wait...

Sending love 💕, hugs 🥰, and positive vibes ✨

When it came to being a hunter, there were a few unspoken rules. One of them being that no one asked anyone about their past; such as: how they got into hunting or any personal questions period. So when Sam met you while doing research in a public library for a hunt, which you helped solve, none of those questions were asked. Of course they made sure to test you to make sure you weren't a werewolf or demon or any other monster but after all the tests were negative you came along with them on hunts. At first you stayed in the motel room next door, but after a couple months you stayed with the boys in their room.

You'd been with the boys for eight months now, dating Sam for four of them. Even though Sam and Dean didn't ask you about your past they both had noticed different little habits that you did that showed them that your life wasn't all rainbows and sunshine. Sam noticed that you hated giving your opinion or making any decisions. Dean noticed that any time he would yell or even just raise his voice in the slightest you would go into a complete panic. Noises in general seemed to send you into high alert. You were also very timid, not just in public but even still with them to an extent. And touching. You didn't like to be touched. Dean had gone to ruffle your hair once but after he saw you flinch and even braced for, what he assumed was for him to hit you…they avoided touching you. After that Sam let you initiate any kind of touch or affection that you wanted. He had gathered that you must have been in an abusive relationship at some point in your life and that maybe you were running away from them when they found you.

You were starting to open up some though. Sam was really happy to see you for you. He got to see what movies you liked and what kind of books you liked to read, and also just hear you talk about anything and everything.

You loved being with the boys. Even though the hunting itself was scary, living the hunter lifestyle was somehow better than your life before. You didn't remember a lot from when you were young growing up. (probably because your mind thought it was too much and too traumatic…) It had always just been you and your mom. She always hated you. You didn't know why, she simply just did. That was how it had always been. She knew how to cut you down in a second, how to quickly make you doubt yourself, and shit was she a master at guilting you! She knew you; all of your weaknesses and she used them against you anyway and any time she wanted.

The day you had run away was when you realized she had taken all the money you had hidden away and she had found it and spent it; all of it. She has ransacked your room looking for money and when you confronted her about it she didn't apologize, (which part of you knew she wouldn't, she never had before) she actually turned the tables on you, gaslighting you up, and playing the victim. For whatever reason that was when you had clarity: she was a narcissist and no matter what you did it would never be enough. So you ran. Now, eight months later you were traveling with the Winchester's helping on hunts.

You hadn't even been hunting, or rather researching, for long but when they saw you as an asset they let you come along with them. (After some begging and pleading and then the promise of taking them to the best diner in the city…) Sam intimidated you at first but then you realize that he was just a sweet/awkward/loveable goofball. Dean was also very caring towards you. They both made you feel safe, but Sam was your safe place.

Sam had always been so patient and understanding since you both had first met. Sam didn't ask questions or say that you were overreacting or being a drama queen when you would start to panic about something, he would just calmly apologize (which in itself was always quite startling since your mom had never done that once in her life…) and help you calm down. Sam never made you feel like you were a burden or too much, he and Dean on many occasions, would remind you that you were none of those things and they were happy that you decided to travel with them.

You and the boys were on your way back to Bobby's after a hunt when Dean stopped at a diner for lunch.

"Dean, you realize every diner is going to advertise they have the best pie." Sam stated as he rolled his eyes. You tried to hide your laughter, as you hid your face in his jacket.

"Yes and as a pie expert Sammy it's my job to find the best one." Grinning back at Sam, Dean went to the hostess so they could be seated. Just as you were about to joke with Sam was when you saw her. You froze. How did she know you were here? Had she been following you? No no no. This couldn't be happening…

Sam immediately felt you tense. He looked down at you puzzled, when he saw the look in your eyes. Terror and fear. Was there a monster in here? Or…was the person that caused you so much trauma here?

"Y/N?" He felt you tremble against him when you spoke his name but your eyes remained locked on whatever was the cause of your current state. "It's okay baby I've got you. I'm right here. You're safe." Speaking softly to you, he gently wrapped his arms around your back hugging you to him. Your entire body was quaking underneath him. He needed to get you out of here; now.

"Hey love birds, come on table's re-" Dean stopped sentence when he saw you both. His hunter instincts kicked in immediately. He followed your locked gaze to see a woman staring back at you. Dean walked back over to the two of you while looking at Sam.

"I don't know, I just want to get her back to the car." Dean nodded as they all got back in the Impala, this time Sam with you in the backseat.

You knew the boys were talking about you, about wherever had just happened and what to do next but it sounded like they were underwater. Your chest felt like it was being crushed by an anvil and your vision was really fuzzy…

"Y/N!" You tried to focus as you looked up at Sam. He was talking to you, or at least you thought he was because you could see his lips moving. You squinted trying to read his lips, "Breathe. I need you to breathe baby." Oh. You were having a panic attack. You put your head against his chest as you tried to breathe in sync with him. After what felt like hours you began to crash from your adrenaline rush wearing off.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry Sammy. I don't- I don't know how she found me. My fault…it's my fault." You mumbled, eyes closing before you could hear Sam ask what you were talking about.

Sam had just gotten you into the motel room that Dean had found just two minutes down the road. You had been in a full panic in the car, having one of the worst panic attacks he had seen you have in a long time. When Sam noticed you were about to pass out was when Dean made the decision to drive to the motel. Just as Sam tucked you in was when Dean walked in.

"She okay?" Shaking his head as he recklessly ran his fingers through his hair, Sam began to pace.

"I don't know. I've never seen her react like that Dean, never. And she, she was apologizing about someone finding her?" Dean walked over and led Sam back to the bed.

"We'll figure this out, okay? She's gonna be okay Sammy." Sam nodded, laying down next to you and hoping Dean was right.

After a couple hours you woke up with a start, sitting straight up.

"Whoa, whoa! It's just me Y/N! It's Sammy." When you heard Sam's voice you immediately leaned into him for comfort as you took in your surroundings. "We're at a motel." You nodded, relaxing a bit. Dean was sitting on the bed watching a western, after twenty minutes went by when you finally spoke.

"My mom. My mom was who…who I saw in the diner." You admitted quietly, playing with your fingers you were more starting down at. Dean raised an eyebrow.

"Your mom was who scared you?" You nodded, still staring at your fingers. Sam gently rubbed circles on your back as he softly whispered, "It's okay. You're safe. You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." A few minutes of silence went by when you gathered up the courage to speak.

"When I met Sam in the library, I was doing research about demons. Not because I was a hunter but because I thought, well…kind of…God this sounds awful." A bitter laugh left your lips as you shook your head, tears steadily fell down your cheeks. "I had run into hunters before, heard my share of stories about demons and so I was hoping there was something I missed, something that I didn't test on her right because there was no way she wasn't a demon. I mean who could just treat their child so, so awful unless they were a demon?"

Shit. Sam and Dean had both had it all wrong. You weren't running from an abusive boyfriend. You were running from your abusive mom. Sam pulled you into his chest holding you tightly against him as he tried to calm you.

"I'm so sorry Y/N. I'm so sorry." He whispered.

Dean just shook his head in disgust.

"I've said it once and I'll say it again: demons, hell even monsters I get! But people," He shook his head as he laughed bitterly. "People are crazy."

An hour went by before everyone seemed to settle when you sat up and began to speak.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you guys from the beginning about what was going on…"

"Hey, there is nothing to apologize for. You didn't have to tell us anything." Shushing you, Sam pulled you back into his lap, gently placing your hair behind your ear.

"Sam's right. Look, whatever happened is in the past. You've got us now." You looked from Dean to Sam confused.

"You mean…you want me to stay?" Sam looked at you befuddled before his face softened.

"Of course, but only if you want to." A smile slowly grew on your face.

"Yes. I most definitely want to." You wrapped your arms around him. Like Bobby had always said, "Family don't end in blood." And these boys, they were your family.

[back2bluesidex]

Hiii Nika! 🫂

Oh my gosh, I haven’t checked in forever, and I’m so, so sorry!!! 😭 Life got away from me, but I’m here now with the BIGGEST, squishiest virtual hug for you! 🫂💜

I heard you haven’t been feeling great lately, and honestly, same—so I just wanted to send a little love your way. I even wrote this teeny, tiny poem for you! (No pressure to love it—it’s okay if you think it’s total cheese).

Dear Nika,Life, at times, feels like a heavy stone— a weight pressed firmly on your back, unyielding, unkind, and so hard to bear. But please, never forget: you are strong. Stronger than you know. Though the burden may feel endless now, there is always light waiting at the horizon, a softer breeze, a clearer sky— and with them, the stone will grow lighter. And if it ever feels too much to carry, please, let me stand beside you. We’ll lift the weight together, share the strain, and ease the ache. For when two hands hold the same stone, it shrinks, turns into a pebble, and the path ahead feels gentler.

So… that’s my tiny poem! 🥹 I’m not sure if it speaks to you, but it’s what came from my heart—and it’s exactly the kind of thing I’d tell myself when things feel heavy.

I hope this brings even the smallest bit of brightness to your day, or at least lets you know you’re not alone. You’re always welcome to talk to me and share the burden! Sending you all the love, warmest hugs, and the softest vibes from me! 🫂✨

LISSAAAAAA!!!!!!! oh my god! Lissaaaa!!!

I am crying!!!! This is so so so sweet... I mean- I don't even have proper words to explain or to offer you. I don't even know if I deserve your kindness, your love and your time. First you took your time to write me an og poem and then you talked to me, had me opening up to you about my troubles and turmoil? all while not feeling too good yourself?

Do you know how much that means to me???? I know you don't and I can't put it all on words.

I am a closed off person in nature, I don't share a lot, don't talk a lot but you made me feel so comfortable, so welcomed and it just warms my heart so so so so much, Lissa.

Again, my words can hardly convey what I actually wanna say, or what I feel.

All I wish that you get all the happiness of the world. You are one of the kindest souls I have found in my entire 25 years of life (not at all exaggerating). More power and love to you!!!!!!!!

Thanks thanks thanks thanks a ton, even though I wish I could hug you in real instead of typing out these words. that would probably be the best.

Love you. a ton. ❤

[fanaticsnail]

Hi! hows the coolest snail in the world? I hope everything is going well!

sorry if is a invasive question or is not in your beliefs but i would like to know when chef husband will get his surgery so i can pray for him, you and your cute family in that stressful time, if its uncomfortable for you its fine i will continue to send good vibes to all of you

The biggest of hugs and lots of love!😺❤️✨

Hey gorgeous! I am feeling very jazzed up and peppy by your asks, @mfreedomstuff 🥹👌. Always a highlight, honey!

I have some news!

First, the bad: there was a secondary fracture in the socket of chef-husband's shoulder that they only just mentioned when he started physio on Monday. He's still in pain, and only now he feels it's justified 💀.

Second, the good: NO NEED FOR SURGERY!!! The physio has decided it's healing perfectly well on its own, and the latest x-rays and ultrasounds suggest that the debris in his shoulder has shifted and been absorbed by his body. He's getting better!!! WOOOOOOO!!!

Third, the semi-okay: it's another 6-8 weeks off he requires until the physio believes he will be ready to get back to work with semi-good mobility. Can't very well go back to work training up apprentices when you can't open a jar of pickles, tie an apron, or use a knife.

Fourth, the best: Since he's at home, we were able to celebrate our daughter's birthday together on Monday (after physio) - he would normally be working. Bean adored having her dad with her at home, being the centre of attention. Young-sir also gave her a present (a frog stuffed toy) and she loved it.

I don't normally discuss my personal faith or beliefs online; but know that all thoughts, prayers and vibes are welcome here 🖤

I hope you have an exceptional day, sweetheart. So much love from my side of the world to yours 🖤🖤🖤🖤

[shit-begone]

WISHES (Part 7)

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STORY LINE:

*Lee Chan/Dino as your best friend that suddenly confessed his feelings for you.

*Choi Seungcheol/Cheol as the annoying mutual friend who wants to be a part of your life.

The confusion began when you realized that your best friend may have offered you the world while your annoying friend that resembles a lot like your college heartbreaker, Seok-jin, wanted to be part of yours.

It was an easy-peasy thing for you, not until you had to join Chan and Cheol in a five-day vacation with the boys.

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PART 7                       WISHES: Everything After the Bliss

WORD COUNT        5,148

CATEGORY              Fluff, Smut and Angst

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SC - Don't you miss me?

YN - I do miss the smell of your hair.

SC - I miss your hugs the most.

Due to tiredness, you weren't able to text him back anymore.

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SUNDAY

"Good morning, Seungkwan!" Cheol greeted him as he entered the cafe. He was holding some flowers for you.

"Oh, Cheol! Didn't she tell you?" Seungkwan asked.

"Tell me what?"

"She will be spending this weekend with her parents."

"Oh, is that far away from here?"

"You'll only drive for two hours. I'll send you the address."

Seungcheol's phone chimed, "Thanks, Seungkwan!"

"Bring with you this drink, on the house." Seungkwan smiled.

"Thanks!" Seungcheol grabbed the drink and rushed through the door.

"Take care!"

Seungcheol drove off and stopped by the market to buy something for your parents. He learned from Dino that your parents love cooking so he looked for fresh potted herbs and bought a nice bouquet for your mom.

Seungcheol was ready to meet your parents unplanned. That's how confident and determined he is to win your heart. He also thought not to let you know that he will be coming over so you will be pissed and surprised as hell.

After two hours of driving through winding roads and tree tunnels, Seungcheol finally arrived in the small town where you lived.

Is this the correct address?

Seungcheol double-checked the online address that was given to him by Seungkwan. It matched the house number mounted on the gate so he prepared himself for the "grand meet-up" with your parents.

Give it your best shot, Choi Seungcheol. Don't embarass the Choi bloodline now!

"Hello?" Seungcheol knocked lightly on the wooden gate of your house, "Anyone home?"

"Who is it?" Your mom went out of the house.

"Good morning, Mrs. Y/LN!" He smiled.

"Just who is this young man?" Your mom said in awe.

"I brought this for you, Mrs. Y/LN." He said slightly raising the flowers.

"No, no. Come in." Your mom opened the gate and let him enter your house. Your home was neat and cozy; it really gave Seungcheol the peaceful vibes of childhood towns.

"Dear, we have a visitor."

"Good day, Mr. Y/LN. I brought you fresh cilantro and oregano."

"Well, I'm surprised, it's our favorite herb. Do we know you? Or did we just forget you by any chance?"

Seungcheol breathed heavily and said, "Mr. and Mrs. Y/LN, I am Choi Seungcheol. I was the one who asked you over the phone through the help of Dino if I could be a suitor to your daughter. Now, I'm here to formally ask the same, Mr. and Mrs. Y/LN."

"I like you, young man. Please take a seat." Your dad said.

"Let's go to the living room." Your mom said.

"No, the kitchen is fine. I can help with the breakfast preparations so there wouldn't be any delays in your routine." Seungcheol offered.

"This is a smart move, Seungcheol. How did you know so much about us?" Your dad asked.

"I learned a lot about you from Lee Chan." Seungcheol said.

"That boy, he never changed. Still the same Lee Chan that we all knew." Your dad smiled.

"So you met our daughter through Chan?" Your mom confirmed.

"Yes, Mrs. Y/LN, I have been friends with him for five years. Two years ago, Dino brought us to the cafe that Y/N owned in the city then he introduced Y/N to the group and we learned that they're best friends since college."

"Yes, that boy is so polite. Just like you. Knowing that you are also friends with Chan, we're convinced that you're a good man."

"Actually, I was so nervous before coming here. I actually went to the cafe and Seungkwan was alone in the store, he told me that Y/N went to her hometown. Everything was totally unplanned and I thought this was a good time to meet Y/N's parents."

*****

You woke up to the sound of chatter outside your room. It was a good night sleep and a refreshing morning to start the day in your childhood home. You checked your phone first and found a good morning text from your suitor with matching heart and sun emojis. He could be really cheesy sometimes. You didn't bother to reply and went immediately in the shower for your morning routine.

As you were bathing, you suddenly felt the need of the smell of Seungcheol's hair and his cologne, the sound of his voice and the feeling of his lips on yours.

You knew it's wrong to have felt that way, but you suddenly wanted to see Seungcheol. You just missed all of him and everything he has done to your body. Seungcheol worshipped your body the way it should be treated and it felt right.

What do I do?

You gathered your senses and felt a little juiced down there but you shrugged off the feeling and rinsed. You changed to your comfiest clothes and grabbed your phone.

As you were about to step outside of your room, you heard a familiar voice talking.

"So what do you do?" You overheard your dad ask.

"I am a Senior Software Developer, I work for two companies. The first one, my permanent job, is where I train software developers. The other company where I spend most of my time is Square Enix." Seungcheol said.

"Wait, Square Enix? You mean Final Fantasy from the 1980s?" Your dad asked.

"Yes Mr. Y/LN."

"Oh God, Seungcheol, when I married him, that's when he stopped collecting Final Fantasy video games." Your mom said.

"Well I guess, the boys never stop playing, Mrs. Y/LN. Their toys only get bigger and more expensive." Seungcheol said.

You peeked out from your bedroom door and saw your dad put a “pat of approval” on Seungcheol’s shoulder. You walked slowly out of your bedroom and went near them.

"Good morning." You smiled.

"Good morning, angel. How's work in the city?" Your parents stood up gave you the warmest hug.

"It's nice, mom. Just the usual."

"You didn't tell us that your suitor looks this good." Your mom said as she looked at Seungcheol.

"Can I hug your angel, too?" Seungcheol asked.

"I'm watching, boy. You got me at Final Fantasy, but she's still my daughter." Your dad chuckled.

"Worry less, Mr. Y/LN."

Seungcheol went near you handing you the flowers he brought, "Good morning, Y/N," he smiled and gave you a hug.

"How did you---"

"Seungkwan. He gave me your address."

"That Seungkwan." You sighed.

"Forget about Seungkwan. I think your parents like me." He whispered.

"Come, let's gather for breakfast." Your mom said.

"We're really relieved that Y/N finally decided to let someone enter her life." Your dad said, "What a hard-headed gangster, always exasperated with the world."

"Dad!" You objected.

"Y/N is indeed irritated with everything Mr. and Mrs. Y/LN. She's always annoyed with me, always telling me to leave her alone." Seungcheol sulked.

"Ya! I'm not like that." You said.

"That's too much coffee, sweetie. Embrace a little sweetness in your life. We can see that Seungcheol is a good man." Your mom suggested.

Seungcheol just smiled as you shyly looked at him.

You had a great talk with Seungcheol and your parents over breakfast. It was evident that your parents are approved of Seungcheol, especially your dad whom is a big fan of Final Fantasy.

You mentioned how Dino was doing great and how he's busy with a potential client next week; you also can't forget about Seungkwan who will be expanding the business in another town.

For the whole morning, you have witnessed the side of Seungcheol that is very family-oriented and polite. He was a completely different persona from the Seungcheol you have known: annoying and pointless. As the days progressed of you knowing the hidden parts of him, you thought that maybe, just maybe, you could give it a try.

You checked your phone to see if Seungkwan is doing well in his shift.

YN - How are you?

SK - I'm good. Why do you ask? Did you meet Cheol already?

YN - Yes, he's here. I was surprised.

SK - I'm sorry I have to give him your address without consent. I just can't help it hehe.

YN - Don't worry. I think my parents like your guy.

SK - That's good news. But do you like our guy already?

YN - Stop it, Seungkwan. How are the operations?

SK - Busier than usual. A group came with Stella.

YN - Ohhh? The girl Dino? Haha. Tell me about it.

SK - She came with five or six people, I guess? It's her birthday today. I gave a solo choco mousse for the lady. They ordered half the menu. Good thing we restocked for the weekend. She gave me a feedback before they left that the cafe was cozy. Especially the spot where Dino sits every visit.

YN - Maybe she's a twin hahahaha.

SK - Dino will be pissed if he learned that someone is already enjoying his spot hahaha.

YN - You bet. Call me if you need anything. Thank you for the save.

SK - I got you :)

"Sweetie, why don't you take Seungcheol somewhere around town?"

"I brought the car. Take me somewhere you're nostalgic about."

"Okay, mom," You moved the direction of your body facing him, "Do you walk?" You asked Seungcheol with a very sharp look.

"I'll drive."

"After you, pretty lady." He said as he handed you the keys to his car.

"Mom, we're going!" You exclaimed.

"Be home before dinner."

He opened the door for you.

"What a gentleman, Seungcheol."

"This comes with compensation, miss." He whispered.

"You'll be well compensated if you won't be annoying."

"Is that for real?" He smiled.

"For real."

"Pinky promise?" He put out his pinky finger.

"Pinky promise." You hooked your pinky to his and smiled at him before you enter the car.

It was nice to drive around town again. Some of the establishments were renovated already since you became busy with the cafe. You were going home once or twice a month but you weren't able to stroll around for nearly a year now.

First stop was in the market square.

"You should try their soft tacos here!" You said in excitement, "I'll look for some other snacks. Wait for the tacos to finish. Okay?" You added.

As you went from food cart to food cart, Seungcheol followed you by sight.

"Of course, I would also tell my son to look after Y/N very well if he would have a girlfriend like her." The vendor said as she looked at Y/N from afar.

"I'm sorry?" Seungcheol clarified.

"Y/N is indeed pretty, young man. Intelligent and independent. You're lucky you won her heart."

"You know Y/N?" Seungcheol asked.

"Son, this town is small. We all know that you are new here." She smiled.

"Is that so?" He smiled shyly as he scratched his head, "Well actually, I'm still a suitor. It's the first time that I met her parents earlier."

"Still a lucky guy. It's the first time we saw someone with Y/N ever since she became an adolescent. That girl is such a perfectionist."

"Really?" He giggled, "Then I must be very lucky indeed."

As the tacos were handed to Seungcheol, you returned with two strawberry milkshakes and a potato jacket.

"Follow me." You said.

Seungcheol smiled at the vendor and followed you to the cocktail tables designated for food market use.

"Hurry, I want to see your reaction. Have a bite."

As he took a bite from the taco, his eyes widened a little bit, "This is insane!"

"I told you!" You giggled, "This is my favorite."

"Well, make it OUR favorite."

"Have a bite of this potato jacket. I requested additional beans and cheese." You said as you blew onto the food, "Open." You handed over a spoonful of potatoes to Seungcheol.

"Hmmmm. I still prefer the soft tacos."

"Try this milkshake."

"You're cute when you do things like this. Your turn." He said as he fed you the soft tacos.

"We can always do this if you want." You suggested.

"I want to do everything with you."

"You're being cheesy."

"I'm not. Look who's been feeding me like a baby!" He said.

"I'm just excited." You giggled.

"Has anyone given you the same excitement before?" He asked.

"I've never had a boyfriend."

He was shocked, "Why?"

"Most guys are jerks."

"Not me. I won't waste your time."

"Let's see about that."

After you ate, you stopped by the park and let the cool wind accompany you as you walk through the playground.

"Maybe I could get real drunk the next time we're together." Seungcheol said.

"Huh?" You asked in confusion.

"You drive well."

"They say that if you dream about going to big cities or different places, it's important to have nice pair of shoes and a driving skill that's gonna take you there," You said as you sat on the swing, "And no, I won't drive for you if you're dead drunk."

"Why?"

"Just don't drink too much; it's not good for your health."

"I like that you care about me sometimes." Seungcheol pushed the swing you're sitting on.

"I like the flowers that you brought. They're my favorite."

"Had a lot to learn from Dino."

You smiled with the thought of Dino helping out Seungcheol to win your heart, but you were also thinking if he's genuinely okay with it, or was he doing that so he could get rid of you immediately.

"How are you and Chan?" You asked.

"Is this about you?"

"I guess. Tell me."

"We're fine. You know, boys. Boys hate drama. Besides, you're the best friend. You could tell just by his eyes if he's happy. Right?"

"Yes, of course. I see no problem with Chan."

"You already have the answer, honey. You just have to believe in it." Seungcheol gave you a gentle grip by your shoulders.

"Maybe I'm just a little too worried." You chuckled.

"Don't be." Seungcheol walked upfront and leaned in nearer your face. In split seconds, you gave him a kiss. A little longer than what you have given him the other day.

"Does that mean anything, honey? Your kiss?" He smiled.

"I don't know. Maybe?"

"Be certain. I want more kisses."

"You can't have that easily." You hopped out of the swing and ran away from Seungcheol.

"You think you could beat me?" He ran after you and chased you around the park.

It wasn't that far when he caught you. He pulled you to the back of the gazebo near the park; it was a public comfort room but hidden behind topiaries.

"Cheol! Why are we here?"

"We won't get caught right?" He chuckled.

You already know what he meant, so you smiled at him and closed the door of the comfort room. "We won't. I'm a local here. They start to patrol the area after the sun has set."

"Are you okay with this?" He smiled.

"Yes." You whispered as you teased him.

"Why do you like these kinds of things all of a sudden? Did you miss me?"

"I can't tell." You smiled.

He cupped your face and kissed you hard that you weren't able to breathe properly. He forcefully sucked on your bottom lips as he lifted you to the granite sink. He grabbed your hand and put in on top of his cock.

"Do you feel that, Y/N?" He asked as he kissed your neck.

"I want you." You whispered.

You were shocked of his response, it was just supposed to be a kissing game but he aggressively turned your body, you're now faced to the mirror and you saw Seungcheol smiled in mischief as he kissed your neck.

"Don't close your eyes. I want you to see everything that I will do to your body." He hummed against the skin of your neck.

His neck kisses gave you chills as he lifted your blouse up to your chest; he unhooked your bra from behind and smiled with the view of your breasts' reflection on the mirror.

He caressed your nipples as he continued to suck on the skin of your neck. It was a familiar feeling from the vacation. The body knew what it wanted so you moved your hips in a circular motion teasing his cock inside his pants.

"Hmmm? You want that cock so badly now, Y/N?"

"Uhhhh, I think so, hun." You mumbled.

"I'll give you what want, but not exactly what you need." Seungcheol pulled a chair for you, "Kneel on the chair and close your thighs as tight as you can."

You heard Seungcheol unzip his pants; you were surprised when he pulled your panties down. You gasped as you felt his hard dick push against the skin of your butt.

"You want this?" Seungcheol said brushing the tip of his cock on the surface of your wet cunt.

"Y-yyes honey, fuck me. I don't care if it hurts." You said.

"Not yet. I will fuck you dumb in your bedroom tonight. You don't want to make a mess here."

He pushed his dick in between your thighs and thrusted slowly. You can see in the mirror the tip of his cock peek outside your thighs, in and out of it. You moaned to the feeling of this dick rubbing your clit and it was heavenly. What more if it was Cheol's dick pounding in and out of your pussy?

Your wetness allowed Seungcheol to glide in and out easier brushing your clit.

"Oh fuck Y/N, I wish I was fucking your pussy right now."

"Go faster honey, just like that."

"Do you like what you see in the mirror huh? Do you like it when I make you feel this way?"

You started to moan louder and longer. He's so good at this, it's like all his movements were coordinated from the way he play with your breasts to the way that he made love with your clit and thighs.

Your reflections said it all, you were a little flustered, you could see trickles of sweat on his forehead and his grips became a little forceful as his fingers clench on your breast while the other was placed on your hips.

"I think I'm gonna cum, keep on brushing it against my clit, hun." You said as your breathing became heavier.

"I bet your fucking cunt will grip my dick better than your thigh does. Let's go together."

A few more thrusts and your moans met as you reached climax. You were astonished of your view in front of the mirror. Seungcheol cupped your breasts as he planted small kisses on your neck. His load started dripping down your thighs as he pulled out his dick.

He grabbed a handful of napkin and wiped the mess the both of you made in between your thighs.

"You're driving me crazy, Y/N." He said as he helped you get dressed.

"Why?"

"One minute you're an angel, and in another you're a temptress."

You just gave him a doe-eyed smile, "I don't know."

"Now you're hitting me with that innocent strategy of yours," He took his phone and gestured you to face the mirror once again, "Let's take our first picture together." It was a mirror shot of the both of you looking cute... and innocent.

"Let's go, they're probably looking for us already." Seungcheol said as he held your hand.

"It was only supposed to be a kiss." You pouted.

"Oh, with the way you looked at me, it was all just for a kiss? You can't tell me what to do, hun." He smiled.

"Let's pass by the river before we head home. We won't be long. I'm just going to check if anything changed."

It was a five minute drive away from the park, the road was not too wide and there were houses along the way. You rolled down the window, heard the birds chirp and the wind whistle.

"I want to know you better, Cheol." You said.

"What do you mean?"

"What made you the Seungcheol I am talking to today?"

"That's an easy one."

"Tell me." You stopped the car by the river bank, "See that bridge there? I used to scream my lungs out right in the middle of the bridge whenever I'm disappointed, then I leave it to the water current to calm me down. How about you?"

"I'm a calm person but very fun to be with. I am always reliable. But despite all those, four years ago, someone named Camille fucked my life; said I was not good enough for her."

"So you strived to be better after that disappointment?" You cleared.

"No. After she broke up with me, the same week, I had a big break as a project based game developer. Until the company absorbed me two weeks into the project. I was already there, I was supposed to be better for her but she was just impatient."

"So did you try to get back with her?

"I did. I learned that there was someone new." Cheol said.

"How did you respond to it?"

He laughed, "I was so lost. But I can't let my career flunk. I did improve myself for two good years."

"That's good."

"Then came the day Dino brought us to your cafe. Since then, I had a crush on you. Just because you were so dedicated and passionate in what you do."

"Then why the long wait?" You asked as you started the engine and drove back home.

There was a long silence. The sun has started to set and the silhouette of birds are now evident against the beautiful golden hour as you drove. You glanced at Seungcheol and saw him staring at the road.

"You were so mean. You always give me a sharp look, and I was so scared that I might ruin the friendship between me and Dino, I also want to be certain that I have completely let go of the pain. I don't want to be unfair with you."

"I was mean because you were annoying." You said as you parked the car in front of your house.

"That was the goal. I was trying to get your attention and now we're here. If I weren't annoying, maybe until now I wouldn't know the feeling of having to sleep by your side." He smiled.

You went inside your house and saw your mom packing food boxes in the living room.

"Just in time. Dinner is almost ready. I baked some banana oatmeal cookies for you, Dino, Seungkwan and an additional box for Seungcheol."

"Thank you, Mrs Y/LN. I bet these are real good."

"Oh, it's better than Y/N's recipe."

"Mom!" You sulked.

"What? It's true!" Your mom boasted.

Dinner time came and you got to spend a good talk with your parents. It was also nice that you were really getting to know Seungcheol a lot more, like literally more things than breakfast earlier that day. You were amazed of the things you have learned about him and kind of ashamed of the things and secrets your parents were telling him about you.

*****

Nighttime came and it's time to go back to the city. You packed all your things and prepared for departure.

"Seungcheol, please take care of our daughter." Your dad said.

"Dad, he's not my boyfriend." You pouted.

"Not yet. But he will be. I can also read your body language, you're attracted to Seungcheol." Your dad added.

"Dad!!!!" You exclaimed.

"I welcome you to our family in advance, son. Please don't take long in winning this gangster's heart." Your dad gave Seungcheol a pat.

"Don't worry, Mr. and Mrs. Y/LN. I'll take good care of her. I promise." Seungcheol smiled and opened the car door for you.

You hugged your parents and went inside Cheol's car. You bid goodbye and let him drive back to town.

With regards to the "compensation", you agreed to call it a day and just realize such things some other time. After a few hours of driving, you finally arrived at your doorstep and greeted Seungcheol with a goodnight kiss before he left.

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The next few weeks were full of bliss. It was almost every day that you receive flowers from Seungcheol. He also fetches you from work and takes you out on a date on weekends. You also started to enjoy the company of snuggling and watching movies until the midnight or having a late night stroll to the city. You started singing each other's favorite songs, playing your childhood games, trying new places for food, visiting museums and game conventions he had to attend; it was nice to learn more about his job.

As per Seungkwan, he already signed the construction papers of his cafe branch and you started hiring trainees for both cafes. You and Seungkwan also ventured on party deals as part of your business expansion.

Dino on the other hand was selected to be the architect of his then potential client and was at the same time busy with Seungkwan's cafe project.

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BUSY BARISTA WEDDING PROJECT

Ring... Ring... Ring...

"Hello? Hi! Yes, good morning! We're already here at the venue, where can I confirm our booth location?" You asked.

"The other coordinator is there. Please stand by, assistance will be there shortly."

The phone call ended.

"So??" Seungcheol asked.

"We will be assisted shortly." You smiled at him.

It was Saturday; you were booked for a wedding and were asked to cater 200 cups. You brought one trainee with you and Seungcheol on the other hand offered to accompany you to your very first coffee booth event.

"Hi, good morning. Are you the owner of Busy Barista?" The coordinator asked.

"Yes, good morning!" You offered a handshake.

The coordinator responded to your handshake and gestured to the other direction, "This way please."

As you reached your booth location, the three of you started set up for a lunch reception. You were so excited, so stressed and so nervous at the same time. Who wouldn't? It was your very first event booking. Seungkwan offered to supervise the cafe and the other trainees in operation.

You finished the set up just in time before the visitors and newlyweds came. It was a very busy event of almost 200 visitors. Are you up for the challenge?

As the day progressed, your trainee kind of grasped the whole process of the coffee booth, so you took a rest in making coffee. Instead, you decided to interact with the visitors who were stopping by to try a cup. Seungcheol also took the initiative to take pictures of the visitors having fun by your booth.

"Please don't forget to tag us in Instagram and Facebook!" Seungcheol smiled.

"Sir, can I take a picture with you?" A young lady asked as she giggled alongside of her friends.

"I think you need to ask my girlfriend about that. She might beat me to death after this event if we take a photo without her approval." He said as he pointed at you.

"Uhhhhh? You're taken?" The young lady frowned.

"I can still take a picture of you. Don't believe in anything the he says, he's not my boyfriend." You said.

"OMG! Thank you!" The young lady said.

The young ladies were so happy of the photo just like how they were happy with the taste of your coffee.

Your social media pages became flooded of hearts, likes and shares. You were so happy reading compliments on your first event. It was a nice start for your business expansion.

"Too bad Seungkwan wasn't here, huh?" Seungcheol said.

"He would be very happy for this expansion." You smiled.

"I think he would always say 'awwww' every time he hears that your coffee tasted good."

The coordinator went near you and gave you an update of the event.

"30 minutes and the event will be finished already. How many cups are we in?"

"Five cups before 200, Sir." The trainee answered.

"Can you prepare the five already? After that, you can leave it all to us. So you could rest early." The coordinator suggested.

"Are you sure?" You confirmed.

"Yes. Besides, the payment was already settled to your account by the couple earlier today. I'll send the transaction copy to your business e-mail. It was a pleasure having you here, Ms. Y/LN! I'm actually planning to include you in my team of suppliers. Despite the low cost of your package, the taste was never compromised." The coordinator complimented.

"Thank you, Sir! Anything for coffee!" You said as you handed over your business card, "Call us, Sir! We'd be very happy to discuss business with you." You added.

The wedding coordinator gestured a hand shake and left you after a few more engagements.

"I'm so proud of you, honey. Look at you." Seungcheol said as he held your hand and twirled you around.

"Thanks, hun."

The trainee prepared the remaining coffee cups as you and Seungcheol started to pack up. Just as you were about to finish, a visitor from the wedding seemed to be looking at your direction. It didn't take long when she approached your booth location.

"Cheol?"

Seungcheol looked up in surprise as he was keeping the coffee supplies, "Camille?"

"Seungcheol!! I knew it was you!" Camille hugged Seungcheol very tight, "At first I was unsure if I would approach you. Because it's a very big coincidence, right? Until I confirmed through social media pages that it was really you!" As she went in for another hug, Seungcheol slightly stopped her arms from doing so.

"Yes, it's been so long. Right?" He said uncomfortably.

"Don't you want my hugs anymore?" She pouted. "When did you get interested in events or coffee business? Your whole crew is hard working." Camille said as she looked at you and the trainee.

"She's the owner." Seungcheol said as she looked at you.

"Ohhh, I'm sorry about that." She smiled at you.

"I am a senior software developer and I work as a game developer, too. I'm here to help my girlfriend." He said.

"You didn't stop dealing with games, huh? Is it even worthy?"

Their conversation became clouded in your mind the moment you realized that she was the Camille who dumped Seungcheol years ago. As you watched them talk, Camille was getting touchy with Seungcheol, paving his hair out of his face, gripping his arms, constantly brushing her fingers on to his, and literally taking up too much of his personal space as they talked.

What you were seeing at that moment hurt your feelings and your stomach. So you grabbed his car keys from your bag and instructed the trainee to go with you and help you load the things used for the booth. You made yourself look busy with a heavy heart and a hurting gut.

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[equizona]

Welcome back friend! I really missed your stories, recently (yesterday) it was my birthday I wanted to make a request if you don't mind, about some headcanons of muichiro, tengen, genya and giyuu with a reader with a sweet but shy personality who was kidnapped before meeting them and who has scars on certain parts of his body (wrists, back and legs) and when the reader is asked how got the scars, suffers a kind of panic attack and at night ends up having a nightmare about the kidnapping suffered in the past and they comfort the poor reader, I hope it's not too dark for your liking and you don't have to if you don't want to.

I send you love and good vibes 💞💞💞

𝐏𝐎𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐘 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐌𝐒

DEMON SLAYER: comforting their s/o after a panic attack about their scars

feat. tokitou muichirou, uzui tengen, tomioka giyuu, shinazugawa genya

note. I am so sorry for how late this is; between school, tumblr being wonky, and writer's block, it's been a lil' hard, haha. But happy, really late birthday! Hope you're doing well <3

warnings. implied kidnapping, torture and such

> UZUI TENGEN

He isn't exactly a stranger to darker pasts. When he notices that you're panicking, he is quick to assure you that it's okay not to tell him, and that he wouldn't think any less of you regardless of what you did say should you wish to.

He feels terrible when you wake from a nightmare that same night. He has excellent hearing, so he might have been clued into some of it if you mumble in your sleep. He'll stay awake with you and try to give you what you need to make you feel better, whether that is a blanket, a hug, or someone to talk to.

> TOMIOKA GIYUU

Giyuu probably blurts the question out. With no sign he was even wondering about it. He feels terrible when he sees how the question affects you. He immediately tries to backtrack and take the question back, saying he doesn't need to know.

He kind of leaves it there. He makes you a cup of tea, or whatever warm drink you prefer, and sits with you. He's unsure of what to do to make you feel better, but tell him, and he'll happily provide. If he notices you have struggles with breathing, he'll try to repeat some of the breathing exercises that his former mentor taught him to help you. Overall, years of self-social isolation has made him a bit awkward and unsure, but he's trying his best.

> TOKITOU MUICHIROU

Muichirou is probably even worse than Giyuu on how he brings the question up. His memory is poor, even after Tanjirou helps him regain his key memories. The second it comes to mind, he will blurt it out, hoping he won't forget it. Even if it is in the worst location possible. Hashira meeting? Middle of the market? Matters not to him.

He's much quicker in noticing when the question upsets you, quickly trying to assure you that you don't have to tell him if you're not ready. He'll take your hands into his own and try to ground you by trying to make you note your surroundings, the same way Kochou and Ubuyashiki has done for him.

> SHINAZUGAWA GENYA

He definitely makes a big deal before even asking the question. He doesn't like talking much about his own scars, so he doubts you'd like to talk about your own. Still, he feels he has to try for at least. He makes sure you're somewhere comfortable, though, and brings you your favorite thing to eat before asking. Heavy questions often make his apatite disappear so he tries to repeat what makes you feel better for you.

He's just more curious when you grow upset; and he definitely wishes that you didn't have something that was hard to talk about. Still, he does his best to make you feel more comfortable and give you what you need, especially if it's time that you need. A sweetheart, no doubt.

[the-fairy-moodboards]

Welcome to my account !!

ran by @writeenbyoliviarodrigo

"Order up, I'm hot to go!"

✧ i always liked to do moodboards so i decided to make an acc here just focused on it. i was inspired specially by @moodmoodthecrabking, go follow her if u want :)

✧ you can call me mari, nina or even fairy!! whatever you feel more comfortable using <33

✧ i'm a cis girl who goes by she/her (as u can read in my bio) and am biromantic

✧ i'm a minor

✧ i'm native from brazil, though i can speak english quite well :)

✧ here's my fandom list:

✦ the amazing digital circus

✦ helluva boss

✦ hazbin hotel

✦ the babyssiters club

✦ no good nick

✦ anne of green gables

✦ euphoria

✦ harry potter

✦ the black phone

✦ ride the cyclone

✦ legoland

✦ wicked

✦ heathers

✦ hamilton

✦ marvel

✦ young royals

✦ disney

✦ the owl house

✦ gravity falls

✦ mean girls

✦ clueless

✦ pop fandom (olivia rodrigo, sabrina carpenter, taylor swift, chappell roan, etc...)

✦ don't hug me, i'm scared ✦ epic: the musical

(more can be added...)

✧ i want you guys to be aware that i also have a life, so i won't be able to be constantly and always posting in here, but i will do my best to do most of ur requests

✧ DNI list:

✦ proshipper and darkshippers

✦ misogynists, racists, pedophilies, homophobics, transphobics, xenophobics, classists, pro-zoophilia ppl, necrophilies, fatphobics, etc...

✦ anyone who supports any form of hate speech

✦ 30+ (i don't feel comfy to talk with adults older than twenty-nine yo)

✧ to request, you can simply tap the button next to "follow" and send the ship/character/vibe you want me to make a moodboard of with the theme (if applicable) you want it to be. for example: "hi! may i request a ragatha moodboard from tadc with a ballerina theme??"

remember to always be polite in your request!! and also, if you will be requesting a ship, specify which characters are in the ship 'cuz i always could end up forgetting

✧ what i won't be doing:

✦ anything that isn't lawful (pedophilia, incest, etc...)

✦ anything that disrespects the character's cannon sexualities (verosika x stolas, for example)

✦ abuser x victim (in the sense of, A sa'd B)

✦ anything that may offend a group of ppl (racism, xenophobia, religious intolerance, etc...)

✦ your request if you're rude

✦ more can be added!!

Thanks for the attention!!

[saintkaylaa]

Hi Kayla I just wanted to drop in and say something tiny rq

I feel really really comfortable with the idea of interacting with you, like sending asks, or commenting, which I don't feel with most creators (nothing against creators, I just have a very severe everybody-hates-me complex)

But I love your vibe so much I've never had second thoughts about interacting with you and to me that's so so precious I just had to let you know

🦴

This melted my heart, bless you genuinely🤍 I can’t begin to describe how much this feels like a gentle hug. I am proud to have fostered a welcoming space for you on my blog and I hope I continue to provide that to the best of my abilities! Thank you, from the warmest most genuine parts of my heart🤍🫂

I could never hate anyone. I’m someone that believes hating someone else gives them that power over me and that’s the last thing I want. I am kind as I am powerful, just like you!!

also, is this you saying you want to be the 🦴 anon? you totally can!! just wanna put you on my list!

[casdeans-pie]

Hey Pie! Really sorry as I always am to read all your Pumpkin woes. Poor little guy, he's really going through it. Hugs for you both 🫂 🫂

Fwiw I wanted to share my experience last month of gabapentin for my greyhound Kiki. She had some sudden severe pain in her back-end (very scary - could hardly move). They thought she had probably pulled or twinged a muscle/nerve. Gave her a two week course of gabapentin. I'd given her some normal dog paracetamol the first day before making it to the vet, but that didn't help at all and it was awful, she was in so much pain. But from the first tablet the gabapentin made a visible difference, and with some good rest whatever it was that had happened had a chance to heal. She is absolutely fine now and back to her normal happy silly self.

Obviously this is is entirely different situation, poor Pumpkin has a totally different kind of pain and stress caused by his surgery, and cats and dogs are so different in how they react to drugs. So I'm not saying it's definitely going to be a miracle cure! But I thought it might be a little reassuring to hear a positive story about it at least, help you feel like you're doing the right thing for him. It's so hard when you're on your own, I also google A LOT. So I get how isolated you can feel! Sometimes I find when I search online it's actually worse, because what I find are all kinds of horror stories and worst case scenarios that don't actually help!

Watching your best friend hurt is the absolute worst thing, especially when they can't explain what's wrong or if they're better or worse from day to day. I wish so much I could get a daily report from her. "On a scale of one to ten my pain is two. I want to walk to the lake today. You don't think it's going to rain but I can smell it so put my coat on!" How much easier would that be?!

Anyway sorry this got really long and rambling, it's early in the morning and I'm trying to get it written before we go out for a walk). I wish you both the absolute best and I am keeping everything crossed that this is the start of things getting better. I'll be keeping an eye out for your updates and I'm sending Pumpkin my best healing vibes ♥️♥️♥️

Thank you so so so much !!! ❤️❤️❤️

I am just taking it day by day with him now, and trying to stay more positive.

Oh thank you for sharing your experiences!! Honestly googling it was such a bad idea on my end - I should know that it never leads to anything good, but I still do it. The stories on there put the fear of god into me about this drug asdfhjkljgdkl. I'm so happy to hear it worked for Kiki !! Its such a comfort to hear a positive story. Pumpkin is on a really small dose at the moment, even though it's twice a day. So I'm wondering if they'll increase it?...

Ahh right?? I wish I could just be like, Where does it hurt?? How does it hurt?? How can I help you??

Its tough seeing them in pain and discomfort and just, not really being able to do much.

Honestly I really super appreciate the support - it's tough doing all this alone and messages like this make me feel less lonely ❤️ thank you!!

[polyamorouspunk]

So I (24, nonbinary) have been casually seeing this guy (38) that I've know for quite some time; I lost my virginity to him and it was fun and easy and honestly things had been great.

And then I was a little bit too high and confessed that I love him and he was super sweet in the moment and just held me and told me he's not comfortable saying the same because he's not sure

That was a couple weeks ago, the last time I spent the weekend. A few days ago I asked if he wanted to hang out again soon, but he didn't respond until today. He had a lot going on and also had to put his thoughts in coherent order, which I can respect. But reading his texts this morning has fucked up my whole day.

He's been really gentle in trying to let me down easy, I know he's still fucked up over his last relationship, and he's got two kids (both under 16) to think about; not to mention that I know he's worried about the age gap (he mentioned that I have so many possibilities ahead of me and I wanted to throw my phone).

I've got issues so I'm taking it really hard. Like this is definitely something I expected and yet I'm still super hurt. I don't really have anyone I'm comfortable talking about this with, and I'm sorry for dumping it all on you but I saw your little sleepover post and I could honestly use a hug and some positive vibes right now.

Okay okay okay so I know you know this is a LOT to unpack.

Mkay so I am 24 also (hi) some form of not cis (hi) and do have a crush on someone a fair bit older than me (33, not 38 though).

I love the idea of being with older men. The last guy I was seeing was 2 years older than me so like 26 now. Loved it. Love when older guys are interested in me. He was also going through a divorce and his son had just been born. It was a lot. I liveblogged the whole thing on here.

Dating older men comes with issues like that. And I have bpd so as soon as I FP someone yeah I’m instantly in love with them.

Dating older men can be hard when they say things about your future and shit like that- and I GET it, like it IS good advice even if you don’t want to hear it. I mean, when WE were under 16 how many people gave US good advice we didn’t want to hear at the time.

It sucks when you fuck up a good thing you had by confessing that you’re in love with someone who is not mutually in love with you. It reeeeally fucking sucks. Because either you hold that inside of you and you push it down and push it down and push it down, or you finally release it, let it go, and it fucks everything up.

There is no reason for you not to be hurt/upset about it even if you did expect it. Grieve. Let yourself grieve. Come into my inbox and dump all of this on me. Let people around you help you heal. Let me send you some love. I am holding your hand. I am telling you to some degree I have been there. To some degree I am there. And I know it gets better. Some day you’ll be like me, and you’ll be driving to work, and you’ll put on a new Fall Out Boy album that just came out, and you’ll cry, and you’ll realize through all the bad things, through all the shit and the hurt, this is why you stayed alive. You lived to be 23 so that you can hear Fall Out Boy put out new music.

And then you’ll be 24 and you’ll meet someone and they’ll change your world. And you think about how amazing it is that someone like this touched your life in some way, and that you can touch yours back. And you’ll meet up with old friends and make new ones.

And we’re so young, we’re SO young. It’s fucking wild to imagine this year (or next year) we’ll be half way to 50. That’s batshit insane. But like oh my god. The healing process that I’m going through is beautiful. Sure, there is a lot of stress. I’m failing the last class I need to graduate. My job stress is through the roof. I’m chronically ill. But outside of that I truly am continuing to live my best life every day.

I don’t know if you plan to try and keep on seeing him casually or if this really is the end for you. Either way this is just a bump in the road. 38 is so young too. We’re going to be okay. It’s a bad day. It’s gonna be a bad week. It might even be a bad month. Hell it might even be a bad year. But goddamn it if they don’t mean it when they say it’s not a bad life. It’s supposed to be almost 70 later today. I’m going to go work outside in the sun. My heartbreaks can’t stop me from creating art that I love. I saw a butterfly yesterday. Life is beautiful. Love is beautiful. Emotions are messy. They are disgusting. I hate them. But they’re poetic too.

Hell maybe this is all some Kumbaya bullshit I’m spouting. Idk. But I believe it. I really do. It takes work to believe in this shit. But it feels so much better when you do. Probably why cults work so well. Anyway!

It’s amazing that you got a chance to be with someone who is 38! I hope you look back on it fondly in a few years. And if you don’t then you’ll look back on yourself with kind eyes and think that at least in that moment you were happy and felt like it was what was best for you.