#opor_rambleonsomthing

[oporayamm]

Me two months ago thinking:

Man I don't think anyone would read or understand my rambling about my oc and silco, probs it's gonna be like the rest of my fic anyway, I'm still gonna write anyway-

The comments I got recently:

Me:

Askamskakakkaaaaaaa--

[oporayamm]

A close friend of mine was asking stuff about arcane and i laughed hard at this question.

I have not spoil her about arcane and will leave her questioning more :)

[oporayamm]

I want to write this so I don't forgot the memory, I have a poor memory- me and my rambling

Last year I almost got to a car accident with my dorm friends when we go out for dinner and it caused me to have an anxiety/panick attack (? I don't know what its called much I pretty much become nonverbal) because I had been in a car accident before. My dorm friends are...not that great with helping out a mentally distressed person (me in this scenario) usually, they make fun of a person in distress (in the friend group),

Now, me having a severe anxiety especially when after almost in an accident- something clouded my mind and during our night out I didn't interact with them, I was aware of my sorroundings but couldn't interact with my friends, my heart was beating too fast, the people talking were too loud, my brain felt shaking and everything else was just too much for me.

Most of them ignored me, but not completely, my best friend were on my side and stayed and inform people I'm just shaken up or i need a time of my own.

An hour or two in the food place, everyone had finished their meal while i didn't since my friend can't force me to eat,

I was still trying to cool myself down before trying to suck it up and go back to the dorm with an empty stomach only for one of my guy friend to twerk Infront of me, making me confused and then laughed and forgot that I was supposed to be shaken up by something, after that they then try to find me some food atleast to fill my stomach and so that I can continue fasting (it was the month of Ramadhan) and yeah it was a wholesome memory to think.

I miss them, they haven't spoke to me in awhile... Life sure drove people apart.

[oporayamm]

Welcome to ✨randomness✨

I post anything and everything that I want, mostly me rambling about my past, my fanfiction, and sometimes my art if I have the mood to do so,

Since social media it taking a toll on me I hid and ducked here so I can say and do whatever I want, I don't have to worry about algorithms here or hate comments here so this is my save space,

Old list of fanfiction here

New list of fanfiction here [in the making]

Lists of arts here

Rambles here [if anyone wants to read some sappy shit-]

I mostly write now though, you can find me in Archive of our own there and I was thinking on writing somewhere else but I dunno where yet, anyone for suggestions?

For the mean time thank you for reading this and now off to rambling and writing some more!

my tags:

#opor_fanfictions #opor_artsndoodles #opor_rambleonsomthing