#opinions and confident individuality and a personality disorder that makes them wake up one day

[thermesiini]

i know that some people just don't have social initiative myself included but i can't stand constantly being the person who has to try and make a conversation not dreadfully mindnumbingly boring by like asking a fucking normal as fuck question

[animehouse-moe]

My Brain Is Different: Stories of ADHD and Other Developmental Disorders

I mean, as the title implies, this manga is different. It's not an autobiography, but it's not quite a short story collection either. Finding a name that really suits what this is is certainly challenging, but at the end of the day it hardly matters. This is a manga that tackles the challenges of neurodivergence, developmental disorders, ASD, and plenty of other things. Personally, I think it's an incredibly important read for anyone out there that feels like they struggle with the usual routines and norms of society, and for very good reason.

The single volume series is a collection stories and testimonies from people with various circumstances and differences that attest to and provide examples of the struggles and difficulties that they live with. In total, there are 9 of these entries, the first of which is from the author themselves and is what sparked the creation of it.

Varying from things like learning disorders to schizophrenia to depression and all manner of other things, it pulls together very different stories, and most certainly unintentionally illustrates how similar the bumpy roads are for many of the individuals in seeking treatment and a way of life that can suit them.

I think in a word, it's startling. Not so much in a fearful way, but a wake-up-call-to-reality way. It's different than seeing someone on social media discuss these things, not having a strong background or understanding where their words come from. It's all too easy to shake, all to simple to push to the back of your mind.

But face to face with those examples, a testimony, with things I'm sure many have dealt with in their lives, it forces you to look inward on things and question stuff. Does everybody else really feel the same way about how soul crushing and difficult it is to work sometimes? Were they labelled a gifted child early on? It's lots of things that a lot of people really do talk about quite a bit, but being placed in such- for lack of a better term- "formal", packaging it makes it hard to refute.

Just to speak to that, I've got more than my fair share of stories about stuff that shows up quite explicitly in story. Much like the first one there was tasks that I really struggled with as a young kid. My favorite example to always tell people is about when I was working on symmetry in drawings as a kid, and I had to draw a mirror image. I just couldn't do it for the life of me. I was completely unable to leave it as something "okay", the concept of mirror was drilled into my head so much that anything less than perfect was an abject failure. It got so bad and I got so angry with myself and the assignment that I hid on my teacher and the cops were called so that they could find me. Yeah, I was one hell of a stubborn child.

Regardless of being able to draw direct comparisons between stories, and even though I'm sure there's a great deal any number of people out there could relate to in this book, it's an important reminder (at least to me) how much professional opinion can matter on the subject. There's no easy answer, and nobody knows yourself like you, but when looking from the inside it's hard to be objective about it. It's hard to be sure you're making the right call, even when professionals aren't guaranteed to either.

There's just... a lot, to get through with so many different stories, people, and differences. It's easy to get overwhelmed when thinking about yourself, or those around you. But it's important. For those that don't see any concern or challenges within themselves, for grasping what it is that others have to learn to live with. And for those that see reflections or imitations of themselves, so that they might be able to understand themselves better and find hope and confidence in leading a fulfilling and happy life.

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answering every question from muse things - !

❄ — all striked answers are things that do not apply to him, and even if they do, he has no opinion/doesn’t find it relevant. three of the sections have been omitted entirely due to their lack of relevance to his thought process.

SELF + HEALTH

how do they see themselves? — as a part of the spider, nothing more or less. without it, he’d be just another person living uselessly until death.

how do they want to be seen by others? — he hopes he can be useful & that he can bring even the most fleeting, temporary meaning to his loved ones’ existences. he also, secretly, wishes to be loved, and to have it expressed to him in any of its forms.

what is their life motto?

would they rather lead or follow? —follow.

what motivates them? — working as part of a group, & discovering hidden or sealed away knowledge.

are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue? — his tongue, as he dislikes physical fighting as anything other than a means to an end. he only fights to kill and doesn’t like to spar. 

do they have any pet peeves? — acts of pure emotion that have no thought or planning put behind them, that end up deconstructing something that could’ve been handled more sensibly. so basically... most things done by enhancers, in general. looking at you, phinks & uvo.

what do they most regret? —not many things, in general. when things get screwed up despite him having thought he had made the best judgement at the time, it will keep him up for a few nights, but he’ll eventually forgive himself and move past it. paku’s death, for example.

what achievement are they most proud of? — being the troupe’s only #12, yet to have been killed and replaced. 

what would they like to improve on? —nen is a very versatile pool of energy to work with, he will always be tweaking with his abilities one way or the other. see: his ice transmutation.

do they have any scars? —several very tiny blips on the expanse of his skin that tell of countless IV insertions and things strapped to him when he was younger. a fair amount of battle scars, mostly centered around his hands and arms. #justconjurerthings 

do they have a disability? — anxiety disorder & ptsd, both which he quietly shoves down and rarely ever discusses their symptoms - as both are essentially a given, considering their line of work.

do they have any allergies or food intolerances? —mildly allergic to pollen, VERY allergic to latex. the latter is the reason he doesn’t ever wear disposable gloves even though he prefers to keep his hands clean.

do they have any long-term illnesses or injuries? —being a clearly very premature infant having inhaled the toxins of meteor city’s trash, he spent his infanthood all the way up to his early double digits extremely ill and practically on the verge of death. his body went into sepsis several times due to a weak immune system, and complications with his blood vessels left him with acrocyanosis well into adulthood after being on and off a (cheap) ventilator for years at a time. nowadays he’s mostly fine, though, just very small and very purple in the hands. 

PERSONALITY

describe their personality in one word. — cryptic. 

their predominant emotion? —contemplative. 

someone wrongs them. do they respond with revenge or forgiveness? — calculative neutrality, then, depending on which conclusion he draws, either forgiveness or cautious distrust, but never revenge. 

do they make snap judgments or take time to consider? — almost always takes time to consider, except in rare cases where his emotions run high and cloud his reason. 

are they a glass half-full or a glass half-empty kind of person? — depends on the situation, he will assess it accordingly.

do they express themselves through words or deeds? — a combination of both, most likely a deed followed by a bit of helpful explanation.

how often do they lie? — not often, unless it’s to conceal his own weakness or to deceive someone on orders from chrollo. 

do they listen to their head or their heart while making a decision? — his head, but sometimes his head and his heart war with eachother, and his heart wins in tense split-second decisions. 

HABITS

how organized/disorganized are they? — quite organized. organizing is a small hobby of his, and he’ll often do it without even thinking as he busies himself in thought. 

do they have any routines? — his life is a bit too hectic for that, but he does have a specific way of washing + caring for his hair out of a shower and right before bed, to avoid tangles. 

talk about their mannerisms. — gesturing with his hands. making small noises to himself. flicking his head to either side to adjust his hair-to-vision ratio.

is there an item they take with them wherever they go? — his cellphone, for obvious reasons, and often a small weapon he can clone for traceless murders, such as a knife or a handgun.

good habits and bad habits. — good habits: cleanliness and organization. bad habits: repressing his feelings and keeping himself up at night with anxious scenarios and telling no one. 

THOUGHTS

their views on formal education vs self-education?

what are their thoughts on animals? — sees them as no different than humans, selfish survivalists staying alive by whims and instinct. this is not a good thing. he kills them as effortlessly as he kills humans, if needed. 

how much do they care what people think about them? — when it comes to the troupe: he cares a lot more than he lets on. anyone else? strictly 0. 

do they enjoy being the center of attention? why or why not? — he typically doesn’t, he gives himself performance anxiety by holding himself to a high standard, even though he typically accomplishes whatever he sets out to do with a high success rate. 

how do they feel about learning? — one of his favorite hobbies, and the easiest way to bond with him. 

which do they value more: creativity or practicality? — they go hand-in-hand, he’d say. they are both tools to be utilized at their proper times. 

thoughts on material possessions? — he doesn’t keep many himself, but somewhat understands the need to have them and assign them value. under no circumstances should anyone be deluded into thinking anything can be owned, though. even objects. 

would they rather win an argument or avoid conflict? — avoid conflict, though purely intellectual arguments thrill him and he actively seeks them out on occasion.

views on people in general? — food for the spider’s web. 

what qualities do they admire in other people? — confidence in one’s actions, clear sets of boundaries that they follow, and the sense that someone knows what they’re doing beyond a shadow of a doubt.

how do they feel about fun?

what do they want written on their tombstone? — nothing. he’d much prefer to have no trace of himself left behind.

what would an ideal day, in their mind, be like? — discovering something new to revel in for a while, and then ending his day in the warm presence of someone he loves. 

thoughts on privacy? (are they private or are they “tmi”?) — most people assume him to be very secretive and locked away, but he’s actually rather honest about things when asked directly - he just doesn’t divulge them on a whim. like with most things, he never speaks first, but this doesn’t mean he never speaks at all. 

thoughts on superstitions or the occult? (do they believe, not believe, etc.) 

what are their religious views? — none. as far as he’s concerned, everything is put into motion by someone’s individual will. if some god doesn’t exist, he’s not particularly concerned about it.

THE PAST

where did they grow up? — meteor city. 

how would they describe their family? — the spider. 

what was their childhood like? —plagued by illness. 

what did they want to be when they grew up? — alive to see it. 

as a child, what were they most likely to be found doing? — struggling to breathe in a medical cot somewhere in meteor city.

the worst thing that has ever happened to them. — first running away from the city by himself and experiencing withdrawal from being taken out of intensive care for his weak body.

the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to them. — whenever he’s called out for his emotional weakness for the troupe. he just loves them, okay. 

the best thing that has ever happened to them. — a little bit after being recruited, the first time he felt truly acclimated with them. like he had a family for the first time. 

which memory stands out most clearly? — meeting chrollo, and getting close to shal and fei. those memories still visit his pleasant dreams once in a while. 

TOUGH STUFF

do they have any phobias? — medical rooms or establishments such as hospitals. they make him instantly claustrophobic and if he absolutely HAS to be inside of one, he will make an effort to complete his task there as quickly as possible while still doing exactly what he needs to do.

do they get nightmares? — sometimes, but they’re never violent, mainly just sad and vaguely hollow and empty. from these, he wakes up feeling like he didn’t even sleep at all. 

what kind of person are they? — one you would likely be much worse off for meeting, if you’re not a spider. 

would they let someone take the blame for something they did? — sure. it was their choice to do so, after all. 

what are they insecure about? — his own emotional weaknesses. they’re a nuisance to his thoughts and strategies and no one should be bothered with them. 

what is one way to earn their trust? — simply make plans and follow through with them. display confidence and the skill with which to back it up. 

what is one way to lose their trust? — be an enhancer. *COUGH* i mean, be primarily emotionally driven and cause destruction as a result. such a bringer of chaos would no doubt be a headache to have around regularly. 

one thing they would hate anyone to know about them. — that he’s very soft and with simple desires. he’ll verbally deny being slightly clingy and affection-starved, but his actions will say otherwise. 

they have to pick one: to be loved, to be feared, or to be admired. — to be loved. no question.

have they ever been bullied or teased? — due to his size, typically, but he doesn’t really care. there’s no impact to his life if people think he looks weird due to his appearance, or his voice or his powers. they’ll simply have to live with it. 

FUN STUFF

what is their character archetype? — the quiet but deadly one. 

what are they confident about? — he is confident in his efficiency and ability to carry out tasks and speak truthfully. 

talk about their moral alignment.  — true neutral. pretty self-explanatory. 

describe them in three words. — helpful. devoted. curious. 

describe their aesthetic. — ancient libraries covered in dust. a snowstorm in the night. an iced-over lake reflecting an overcast sky. 

what will make them laugh? — seeing his loved ones happily goofing off and being relaxed, as well as any number of empathetic reactions shared by the happiness of ones close to him.

what makes them feel safe? — simply being near the others, or being somewhere very far-off and secluded from largely populated areas.

favorite color and the reason for it. — blue, simply because his hair and eyes all fall in line with its palettes and it looks good on him. 

favorite book genre? — informational textbooks of a certain field of expertise, or, in the case of fiction, mystery &/or crime solving. 

favorite movie genre? — psychological thriller. also may or may not have a thing for hallmark movies with cheesy happy endings. 

favorite type of muse?

if they could have a superpower, what would they choose?

do they have a role model? — definitely chrollo, and also, to a certain extent, feitan. 

what is their personal kryptonite? — choosing things/planning for things that involve the life or death of someone in the spider. in that moment, his emotions cloud his judgement and he can only find himself reaching the conclusion most likely to keep them alive. he can hardly bear to lose any of them. 

how do they entertain themselves? — organizing things, studying a particular topic, or playing a boardgame/doing puzzles.

[royalpains-roleplay]

Original Characters - Female

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝ Something 'bout you makes me feel like a dangerous woman. ❞

✗ — Name: Elsa Grimaldi. ✗ — Age: 19. ✗ — Kingdom: France. ✗ — Sexuality: Heterosexual.

— Personality; Compared to what she once was, Elsa is a complete nightmare. There is not much left of the shy, sweet and innocent child that had once been Elsa Grimaldi. Whether it was shattered by her mother in early childhood, or by her weakness, Prince Ashton, Elsa has not much left of the kindness she once harbored for others. Elsa is a party girl, the liquor chugging, coke snorting princess that everyone loves to have a good time with. She likes the ability to lose herself in the buzz; it makes her feel better than getting in all of her deep emotions. She puts on a cold, bitchy demeanor, showing no sign of care or even awareness for other people, which is just another way to protect herself from being hurt. She used her abrasive personality to push people away, so they didn’t hurt her as her mother did. Deep down, the outwardly confident princess is really just broken on the inside, torn between the need to let someone in and to protect herself.

— Biography; Elsa grew up being the youngest child, yet still close in age to her brother, Luca. Despite being close in age the pair didn't have a close bond. As they grew, older Elsa became a quiet, shy girl. Her mother felt as if she wasn't fit to be a princess much less a queen because Elsa didn't possess the same manipulative qualities Mrs. Grimaldi had at that age, the qualities Mrs. Grimaldi seemed to deem important for a ruler. The queen began to treat her daughter terribly, acting as if the girl was an unwanted step child. Although the abuse wasn't physical, it took a toll on the girl. She developed an eating disorder, formed by her eagerness to please her mother. She strived to make her appearance perfect, and often worked for success in all other aspects of her life. She would go days without eating and it became effortless for her. She would often throw herself into the perfection of her own life. At the age of sixteen, she officially met Ashton Deutch, the Russian Prince at a party and they slept together. Elsa, still the shy girl from before panicked because of what she’d done and left before the boy could wake up. They had been in puppy love from years of glances from across rooms and brief encounters at balls so once Elsa left and refused to see the boy it crushed the both of them. She convinced her father to ban the boy from entering France. Elsa was taking all precautions she possibly could to prevent herself from letting Ashton in, which led to her ditching the shy sweetheart part of herself and becoming a liquor chugging princess with an attitude. Her cold-hearted demeanor was used to push people away from seeing the flaws her mother so eagerly pointed out. With her complete change in personality, her mother finally decided she was good enough and she was sent to Royal Pains Estate in order to develop the skills of a leader so she could maybe become the ruler of her country. A distraction became present when she discover Ashton was also at the Estate. It was at the Estate that she also met the old flame of her brother, Sophie and made the connection that her two year old child was her nephew.

✗ Secret; She suffers from anorexia and although it has drifted to a less severe problem it hasn't completely ceased. Its formation was heavily influenced by the treatment of her mother and although it has become less of the problem, her drinking often triggers it.

「 Faceclaim: Ariana Grande. 」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝And the things bottled inside have finally begun to create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.❞

✗ — Name: Arlo Dawson ✗ — Age: 18 ✗ — Kingdom: New Zealand ✗ — Sexuality: Pansexual

— Personality; Arlo is typically nice and sweet, but she’s very quiet, especially around her sister. She’s level-headed most of the time, though she can become dark and irrational and act out some times. She’s very intelligent. But living in her sister’s shadow, she’s learned to become a little insecure and strive for perfection from herself. She’s working on allowing herself to be an individual from her sister and be confident.

— Biography; Arlo’s parents were set up for an epic love. Her mother, Isabelle, was next in line for the throne when she met Elijah, Arlo’s father. Isabelle didn’t want the throne; she was going to step down and let her brother take it, so she could have a relatively normal life. She put herself through university with working off jobs, and she worked very hard to move all the way to medical school, to become a doctor. Elijah was a small town boy, who taught literature at a community college. When the two met at a party, it was instant attraction. The two started dating a few days later, much to her family’s dismay. They were only together four months where they decided to get engaged. Then a month later, Isabelle discovered she was pregnant. Is and Elijah decided to have a shotgun wedding the same day; they went to their local court house and got married. When Isabelle’s parents found out, they insisted on giving her a proper wedding, one that would take place after the babies’ birth.

The day of their wedding, everything was going to plan. They were ready to be each other’s forever...again. But as Isabelle was saying “I do,” her brother swooped in and stabbed her in the back. Elijah and the doctors did everything they could to save her, but she passed away later the same evening. The kingdom wasn’t the same again.

Shortly after Isabelle’s death, Elijah took the girls to the country side to raise. Being a widowed single dad was hard on him. He turned to alcohol to soothe the pain, and the girls’ godmother stepped in to help them. After getting him help in sobering up, Elijah went back to teaching, and the girls grew up rather normally. The girls were best friends as they, but it seemed Arlo was the more submissive twin. She did whatever her sister wanted just to keep her happy, never really voicing her opinion; and it only worsened when they discovered her sister was bi-polar. Arlo became a sort of anchor to her sister, calming her down and cleaning up her messes. When the girls turned sixteen, their grandparents wanted the girls to start their royal training. Arlo was content to just be a normal girl, but agreed to go to keep an eye on her sister. After several months of training, their grandmother threw them a “coming out” party. Arlo met Antonia and completely fell for her. But her sister didn’t approve. For weeks after the party, Arlo snuck behind her sister’s back to start a relationship with Toni. Arlo was caught in her secret as her sister walked in on them being intimate. The whole thing turned into a fight that almost ended their bond. Feeling overshadowed and alone, Arlo attempted to take her own life by swallowing pills and downing her dad’s whiskey. Elijah found her in the morning and rushed her to the hospital, where she was diagnosed with depression. Once she was healed and seemed to be in better mental health, her father, with backing from her grandmother, sent her to the estate to get some distance while she finished her classes and training.

✗ Secret; Arlo was diagnosed with depression and codependency after her attempt. If she doesn’t take her medicine, she’ll soon be a grenade and the darkness inside her comes out.

「 Faceclaim: Kaylee Bryant」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝ From porcelain to ivory to steel, I rise above. ❞

✗ — Name: Sloane Luxem. ✗ — Age: 22. ✗ — Kingdom: Germany. ✗ — Sexuality: Pansexual.

— Personality; coming off as antagonistic and cold, Sloane has built up walls around herself. She had been a happy child when she was younger, filled with curiosity and thirst for knowledge. After she was kidnapped she learned real quick to block out emotions and not let anything phase her. Otherwise she'd just get herself killed. She's sarcastic beneath her shield and loves to provoke people into fighting her. She's reckless to the point of self-destruction and thrives off danger. She holds no regard for her own life, but she does care about the lives of others. Sloane can hold a grudge unlike anything else, she's unforgiving and ruthless especially when she has been wronged. Beneath the surface, Sloane is playful and quick to tease those that she’s allowed in and through her shields and armor. Most of the time she doesn’t think before she acts and reacts based off of instinct. She’s a protector when it counts and will do whatever is absolutely necessary to protect the few she cares about, willing to make the hard decisions and bear the guilt of the consequences so others wouldn’t have too. Sloane is empathic and despite the fact that she rarely shows it, she empathizes fairly easy with people, she just buries the emotions down and pretends that they are not there.

— Biography; The Luxem Queen was as independently strong as they came. For her entire reign she has refused to marry and hand over control to her husband. A decision that has always made waves. Her two children were the product of test tubes and doctors, no men directly involved. Another wave, a major wave that decision had made, twice. Sloane had been protected as she grew up, always having guards present. Until one day their loyalty was bought. Sloane was twelve when she and her brother were kidnapped from their home and taken by men who wanted them gone. Initially meant to be trained as an assassin, Sloane spent four years being taught how to kill. Before she was sold to the highest bidder. At sixteen she was bought by a fighting ring that heard of her vicious nature. She never had the finesse for assassination work.

Two years with the ring, she fell in love despite the fact that she knew she shouldn’t. Love was a weakness in that dark world, it painted a target on your back like a neon arrow screaming that you had a weakness. She knew loving him would get them both killed, but she did it anyway. It had been a love as fierce as the way they fought and it wasn’t long until their owners found out. At first when they did nothing, Sloane naively thought they didn’t care. But they did, especially when the love of her life was plotting a rebellion behind her back. He was killed for it in front of her. Each man and woman involved were slaughtered and the only reason Sloane had been allowed to live was because they knew she had no knowledge of the deceit, and they knew she’d been broken beyond repair and would not foolishly rise against them.

For the next few years she completely froze out all emotions, vowing to never love again, to never let another soul behind her walls. She lived, breathed, and survived fighting every day. About a month ago the ring was taken down by law enforcement, the fighters were all taken to a hospital and asked for names or had DNA tests run. Sloane knew who she was and didn’t say, knowing no matter what a test would be run. But she didn’t want to return, she didn’t know who she was outside the fighter she had become. Seeing the damage done, and her vicious nature, Sloane’s mother had her sent to the Estate after she finished healing of whatever injuries she possessed.

✗ Secret; Sloane was kidnapped as a child and a few years later sold to a fighting ring by her kidnappers. She watched the man she loved get murdered in front of her while there.

「 Faceclaim: Marie Avgeropoulos 」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝I am damaged at best, like you’ve already figured out.❞

✗ — Name: Hana Myung.

✗ — Age: 25.

✗ — Kingdom: South Korea.

✗ — Sexuality: Heterosexual.

— Personality; If you didn’t know her than you would be convinced that Hana truly is the embodiment of the stereotypical princess. From an outside perspective, she comes across as shallow and self-centred, only really caring about money and her looks. She knows that she can be a little conceded and often tunes out to the world around her. There is no doubt that Hana is spoilt, she’s used to getting what she wants and it shows. It’s a terrible habit really but she’s not ignorant to it. In fact, Hana is very self-aware with what she does and who she is. She chooses to embrace the negative sides of her personality as well as the good ones. No one’s perfect and that’s a statement that she lives by. Of course, Hana is no angel, she’s made plenty of mistakes in her lifetime but she’s always managed to learn from them. She’s no so ignorant where she would be stupid enough to make the same mistake twice and allow herself to be made a fool out of. You’d never guess it with the way she acts but Hana is a deeply sympathetic person, she doesn’t like to show her kindness in public settings but if she ever notices someone is having a particularly rough time, she’ll take time out of her day to talk to them. Not the kind to cause meaningless problems, Hana won’t purposely sub people unless she has a prior issue to them. She’s pretty open to talking with others and so she’s always been fairly popular with her peers. She may not look like much of a threat but Hana will do anything and everything to protect her friends and she’s not above playing dirty tactics in order to do that. Though she does sometimes come across as naive, she’s anything but. Hana doesn’t allow others to walk all over her. Even in a vulnerable state, she’s smart enough to realise when people are trying to dominate her or prove that they’re of more importance and she refuses to stand for it.

— Biography; Growing up in a big family was always going to be difficult. Hana wasn’t the oldest child and she wasn’t the youngest. With seven siblings in total, it was hard for her to ever really get any of the attention a normal child craved. Instead, her parents would usually just give her whatever she wanted in order to get her off their case so they could focus on more pressing issues. This often meant that Hana and her siblings were left alone with nannies to take care of them who only did it because of the money rather than the fact that they cared for the kids. There was absolutely no hiding that she came from a wealthy family, the Myung’s were a well respected royal family in South Korea, they had been ruling for hundreds of years until the last vote when the Myung family lost to the Kim family. It was the first time they’d lost in centuries which meant that Hana’s parents were set on doing everything they could to ensure the Myung’s would be back on top the next time a king or queen was needed, so of course a lot of pressure was placed on their kids to be perfect. Hana’s parents drilled into her head that it was up to her and her siblings that to make an impact in the world and that meant that they had big plans for their kids. Wanting to maintain their family status, the Myung siblings were forced to go to classes 14 hours a day with minimal breaks in between. They were a hard-working family, determined that they would be the future rulers of the country. The kids didn’t get a lot of time to just have fun and act like kids but they never complained, falling into line so that they would please their parents and their country. Hana was a middle child, the only two siblings younger than her was her sister Youra and her twin brother Arlo. Particularly close to her sister, Hana grew up with a protective instinct to take care of her. It was obvious fairly soon into her life that Hana was different from the rest of her family. While still entitled and arrogant, she longed for more than just the life of a royal. She didn’t want to have to fit into this perfect box her parents had created for her. While her siblings were more than thrilled with the way their lives were heading, Hana wanted more than that. She wanted freedom, adventure and all things in between and so she made the bold move to tell her parents about her dreams and ambitions. It was a sensitive topic, she was well aware of the risks she was taking telling her parents she didn’t want to follow in their footsteps. Her siblings never questioned their parent’s authority and with good reason to. While they weren’t physically abusive by any means, they definitely knew how to hurt their kids. For Hana, it was through their pets. Growing up, she’d grown attached to her dog, Bruno and when she was seven and refused to finish her classwork, her parents got rid of the dog and she never saw it again. She worried that perhaps something similar would happen to her pet cat but surprisingly they supported her. She has six other siblings so she didn’t really have to worry about the crown, it was unlikely that she would ever get to become queen so her parents said that as long as she kept up her good grades and reputation, they would allow her to travel on her own terms. Of course, Hana agreed to their terms and happily packed her bags to travel around the world. She loved it, the freedom of being who she wanted to be rather than the princess she had to be and the funds she had were endless, it was bliss. She’d always been exceptionally intelligent so it wasn’t hard for her to maintain her royal classes high grades. Hana moved around frequently, never staying in one place for long because she just wanted to see everything the world had to offer. She was happy and wanted to share that. Her younger sister, Youra often contacted Hana and told her how bored she was so after two years of travelling on her own and meeting a bunch a wonderful people, Hana asked her sister to come and visit her for a month.

For the first couple of weeks, everything was running smoothly, they decided to go to America and that’s where the real trouble began. Hana decided to go and have lunch with a friend and leave her little sister to her own devices for an afternoon. Youra agreed to pick her up with the car they rented later on and when that time came, disaster struck. Hana had only been in the car ten minutes at the most when the accident happened. Tires screeching and the sickening sound of metal crashing haunted Hana but before she could process what had happened, Youra sped off leaving the other car and the person inside it. It was revealed later that night on the news that the man had passed away and they were looking for the suspect that had committed the crime. Youra was hysterically crying at this point so Hana knew she had to remain calm and so she did. Without hesitation, she phoned her father and informed him about the hit and run that claimed a man’s life but she changed one major detail. Protecting her sister, Hana told her father she was the one that committed the crime and he immediately flew out to help his daughters. Like he always did when there was an issue, her father threw money at the problem and it disappeared. Hana and Youra were in the clear but their father was furious and insisted that they pack their things and go home. Though she loved travelling, Hana didn’t put up any protest, she was devastated by what had happened so she did what he asked. No one realise just how negative of an impact it made on Hana until she tried to jump out of her third-story bedroom window. When asked why she did it, Hana explained that she kept seeing the man from the crash wherever she went and he constantly told her to hurt herself. She had been harming herself for months and no one even noticed until she almost died. Hana’s parents insisted she see a specialist who decided to put Hana on a medication to help her out. Though she’s stopped seeing the man putting awful thoughts in her head, her guilt lingers and so her father insisted she be sent to royal pains estate so that she could recover properly there.

Secret: Hana and her sister were involved in a hit and run accident. Instead of letting her younger sister take blame accident for the accident she was responsible for, Hana said she did it. The crash claimed a mans life and instead of it being publicised, the girls father threw money at the problem and it disappeared. Although she wasn’t actually the one driving, she’s devastated about the situation and it caused her to start seeing the man that died who kept encouraging her to harm herself.

「 Faceclaim: Jennie Kim. 」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

❝ I am here in my mold. But I’m a million different people from one day to the next, I can’t change my mold.❞

✗ — Name: Elise Dawson

✗ — Age: 18

✗ — Kingdom (do not place character in a Kingdom with three ruling families already): New Zealand

✗ — Sexuality: Heterosexual

— Personality; From her looks right down to her personality Elise can be considered a typical mean girl. Almost every word that comes out of her mouth is laced with venom. She’s fun, witty and brutally honest. She’s not afraid to tell it how it is, even if it hurts someone else in the process. That includes people that she cares about. She’s a narcissist with a fragile ego that hates it when she doesn’t have someone’s full attention. She might care about her father and sister more than anything and do anything for them, but she’s self-absorbed and finds it difficult to see things from others perspectives. A lot of that can be attributed to her bipolar disorder. The desperate search to have some form of control and stability in her life. That’s why she craved so much attention from her father and clung to her sister more than she probably should have.

— Biography (at least two hundred words); From a young age Elise was always a little more dominant of the Dawson twins. When it came to choosing what the girls were going to do it was always Elise’s idea and Arlo just went along with it. At first nobody questioned how she acted. That was how some children were. When she got older though the changes got worse. She started having manic episodes that didn’t go unnoticed to her father. She got sent to be seen by a psychologist who after a few sessions diagnosed Elise with bipolar disorder. While she spent a lot of time with her father doing things like meditation and calming exercises, her sister was just as much there for her as she had ever been. Whenever things were going seemingly well and Elise had an episode that she didn’t want anyone finding out about Arlo would be there and help do damage control. When the twins turned sixteen and their grandparents wanted them to do royal training Elise got excited. The idea of one day being able to take the throne and be queen of their homeland was something that she didn’t take lightly. She agreed to it before they could even finish their sentence.

After several months Elise felt like she was really getting into what the royal lifestyle had to offer. The royal outfits were similar to her everyday outfits so she fit right in. She was even working harder on her mental health to be the leader that she thought was needed. When her grandmother thought they were ready she threw the twins a “coming out” party to introduce them into the royal life and circles. While Elise was more focused on the attention she didn’t realise that her sister had found an interest in one of the royal girls that were there. She felt like she was losing her sister and that there wasn’t something right about the girl she fancied. Arlo gave in and agreed not to see Toni anymore. Everything was going smoothly after the party. Elise began going to royal parties and occasions to get an “in” with them. When sneaking back in from one of the parties Elise overheard her father and grandmother talking about how they were going to choose Arlo to be the one to take the throne. The girl began spiraling as she made her way up to her room that she shared with the slightly younger Dawson twin, only to find her sister in an intimate situation with Toni. Whatever anger she had was just intensified ten fold. The pair got into a fight, the worst one they had ever had. Because of the betrayal and thing that she had overheard Elise took it all out on Arlo. Blaming her for everything and being a lot harsher than she should have. When the fight finally ended Elise left to go and stay somewhere else. Not wanting to be under the same roof as her sister, who in that moment was the enemy. It wasn’t until the next morning when she got a call that Arlo had tried to take her own life and was in the hospital that Elise actually thought about the fight that they’d had again. She wanted to get better. Learn how to control daily challenges, her outbursts and regain control. With Arlo being sent to Royal Pains after her suicide attempt her father didn’t want Elise being far away. So instead she started going through the process of intense behavioral therapy at a local facility. Everyday was spent being bombarded with medical professionals and healers to try and help her with her bipolar. She was making great strides until her grandmother attempted to introduce training back into her routine. Making her first reappearance since her sister had been sent away all Elise could focus on was the chatter amongst everyone of what happened to Arlo. Everyone talking bad about her sister caused her to have a massive episode. Attacking people both verbally and physically. After the incident her father and grandmother decided to send her to Royal Pains after deciding that was the best place for her to make progress and have some stability amongst the royal life.

✗ Secret; She has bipolar disorder and can be a loose canon because of it.

「 Faceclaim: Jenny Boyd」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝So much history in my head, the people I’ve left, the ones that I’ve kept.❞

✗ — Name: Mercury Zoegar.

✗ — Age: 25.

✗ — Kingdom: Iceland.

✗ — Sexuality: Heterosexual.

— Personality; On the surface, Mercury seems like the typical mean princess. She is beautiful and popular but can be a complete snob at times. Her strive for popularity stems from her parents need to make her into the perfect daughter with the perfect reputation while Mercury just wants to be herself. However she’s not a complete lost cause as some would think, at times, Mercury does display forms of kindness and support towards other, and often shows it to those that deserve it instead of doing it for everyone just for the sake of being nice. She is much smarter then she lets on and much more lost then she wants people to know. She used to be the kind of girl that thrives off living in the moment but certain recent events have caused her to live in the past and she’s afraid she’s never going to get past it. Mercury is excellent at hiding her own emotions though so she can easily prevent people from seeing how badly she’s coping. Sometimes she finds herself dewlling on the past and wishes she could go back to a year ago when she was truly carefree and happy as she worries she will never feel that way again. It’s hard for her to get out of that head space but she really is trying.

— Biography; Mercury lived in a household where being royalty came second to religion. From a young age, Christianity was forced up on the young princess and at first, she didn’t mind. After all, it was all she had known. She had always considered herself as a religious girl, but unlike her parents, she never mocked or discriminated against others with different religious beliefs as her and was open to the possibility of new things. As she grew into her teens this became more of a problem for Mercury, she never lost her faith but she had questioned it a few times. First when her mother fell pregnant and lost the baby four months into the pregnancy, again when she became scrutinised by the public on the internet for ‘growing up too quick’ because she was seen out wearing a bikini to the beach and the last time she questioned the religion was when she was sexually abused by one of the kingdom guards when she was only fourteen. Of course she told her parents and he lost his job and was sent to prison but that was when she decided that religion wasn’t everything and she also became cold and confrontational towards people because she didn’t trust them not to hurt her. For years she lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance from everyone. Of course she wasn’t a complete nun, Mercury had a few boyfriends here and there but nothing too serious and she never really had friends she completely trusted. She was labelled as the ‘bitch from Iceland’ in her country so it became rather shocking to her parents when they discovered that at the age of nineteen, Mercury was sleeping with her fathers best friend, Warren, and they had been in a secret relationship for months. Her father was furious, threatening to send the man to jail but Mercury managed to calm him down by telling him that she deeply cared for the man despite the big age gap. It was true, after the sexual assault she suffered, Warren was the first man that she ever really trusted. He didn’t treat her like a china doll, he knew she was tough and could handle herself so he acted normally around her. Sometimes they drove each other insane and they would be up all hours of the day arguing but at the end of the night, he would be back in her bed holding her close, they never went to bed on an argument. Mercury thought everything was great in her relationship especially after her father agreed to calm down and renationalised the situation. It was the first time Mercury ever truly felt what it was like to be loved but when she met and soon became best friends with a local girl called Bianca things soon took a turn between the couple.

Quickly the two became inseparable. Bianca encouraged Mercury’s careless behaviour and despite her parents and boyfriends disapproval of their friendship, Mercury enjoyed Bianca’s carefree nature and let that come between her and her relationships with other people. Bianca claimed that Mercury’s boyfriend had attempted to hit on her. It was the one thing Mercury ever really questioned when it came to Bianca because she knew Warren adored her but she was a fantastic manipulator and cried her heart out to Mercury and always acted scared when her boyfriend was around so Mercury believed her despite having no evidence and the relationship broke apart taking a bit of Mercury with it as it faded away. She was heart broken over the loss of her longest relationship that she fought so hard for her parents to except but Bianca wouldn’t let her mope about and always come up with new things for them to do together. Mercury fell hook, line and sinker for all the lies she was being told because she truly believed that they would be friends until the end of time but that didn’t happen. Mercury tried to block out the painful thoughts of losing her ex by replacing him with a less boy her own age, he was called Malcolm but despite her attempts at trying to act normal around him, he never compared to Warren. One day Bianca invited Mercury to a party and she agreed, insisting that she brought Malcolm along despite the fact they were just a casual fling. Things quickly took a nasty turn when the car Bianca was driving them in crashed into a truck, instantly killing both Bianca and Malcolm on impact. Mercury fell through the windshield and was in a coma for two weeks due to the incident. The doctors were unsure of her survival but she did pull through. When she woke up her parents explained to her what had happened and Mercury was devastated, completely broken by the loss of her best friend, and was flooded with guilt because she made her Malcolm join them in the car when all he wanted was to spend time with her alone at the movies. A month after the car accident, while Mercury was still recovering and wallowing in her own guilt, the truth was revealed. There was never a party going on. Bianca was part of a secret organisation set up by the rivalry royals to take down the Zoega family and had set the entire thing up. She had crashed the car on purpose. Mercury was the first cause of action, they wanted to take out the only heir of the Zoega family to devastate her parents hoping that they would become too depressed for to run the country and hand it down to someone else. Fortunately for Mercury, she survived but the mental scars lived on. Ever since the incident, the girl has been failing to sleep much and when she is able to, she always wakes up screaming because of the flash backs she has. She can’t wrap her mind around the idea of her best friend wanting to hurt her after she finally let someone close. The situation became so bad that Mercury began to pinch her arms and legs to keep herself awake to avoid the nightmares. Warren came to see her in the hospital because her parents hoped it would calm her down and though it did somewhat help and she was happy to see him again, Mercury’s mind was too messed up for anything to really sink in. Seeing what was happening to their daughter, her parents decided it was best for Mercury to be sent to Royal Pains Estate until she has fully healed from the trauma, but things have spiralled further then ever. Since arriving to the academy, Mercury hasn’t been able to forget that an organisation is set up and they are hell-bent in ending her life. It has all became too much and Mercury has began to self harm as a way to help her cope.

Secret; Since arriving at Royal Pains Mercury has began to self harm.

「 Faceclaim: Margot Robbie. 」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝ A wolf is still a wolf, even in a cage, even dressed in silk. ❞

✗ — Name: Raven Avalanche ✗ — Age: 21 ✗ — Kingdom: Colombia ✗ — sexuality: Bisexual

— Personality: Raven has built a rather cold brick wall around her heart. She doesn’t let people get too close to her especially after her last failed relationship. She prefers it that people see her as someone that is coldhearted. Raven is sarcastic and has a rather big attitude. At first Raven can come off as a typical , bitchy Royal but she is so much more than that. Once you manage to get past the cold exterior Raven is actually caring and compassionate. She is the type of girl that would do everything for the people she loves.

— Biography; On the rare occasions two Royals fall in love without being forced into marriage beforehand. That was what happened to Raven’s parents. Raven’s mother was the Princess of Poland and her Father was the King of Colombia. The two fell in love , got married and decided to have a child. However, each story has an obstacle and in this case it was the fact that the King of Colombia couldn’t provide a heir. The Royal couple couldn’t allow that information to be leaked to the news so they started to search for a sperm donor and then the King came up with a wonderful idea about getting their trusted advisor Richard to do the honors of allowing them to have a child. Of course, they paid him well and he accepted the offer. Several months down the line a baby girl was born she had a head full of black hair and her parents decided on calling her Raven. the King loved his daughter more than anything in the world, he kept her out of the media in fear that his enemies would think of kidnapping or hurting his little princess. However, one day, when she turned 12 and was returning home with her father after spending the weekend away in a different city whilst her mother, was back in Poland dealing with some important stuff. For safety reasons, the king traveled in a different car and Raven traveled in a car with their parents trusted advisor. When her father’s car got attacked the driver of Raven’s car stopped in order to go and help the king. Richard the advisor couldn’t allow anything to happen to Raven the only Heiress to the throne. Quickly he found himself behind the wheel and drove in a completely different direction. The news of her father’s assassinations reached her mother faster than anything else. Magdalena rushed back home to her child, unfortunately, Raven couldn’t stay with her mother she got put into a witness protection program considering the fact she was one of the few people that survived the attack. She got sent away to Canada to make sure her daughter was well protected Magdalena sent Richard along with her.

Raven had to go through a whole makeover, she wore wigs and changed the color of her eyes using contact lenses. Raven and Richard also lived in one of the poorer houses and Raven attended a public school. Every now and then she would have to fly back to her home so she could attend all the important events and visit her mother. Whenever Raven would be back home she would have bodyguards surround her throughout every moment.

Back In Canada Raven was known as Mary Santiago, she got told not to stand out too much but her dominating nature took the best of her and eventually she became one of the popular girls that attended the school. She also had a best friend that was younger than her by two years called Nesryn Elliot to who she developed romantic feelings towards, however at the time Nesryn was dating a boy in Raven’s class so she never acted upon it. For her seventeenth birthday Raven’s mother decided to take her to Australia since it was a place the girl always wanted to go too. she decided to sneak out of the hotel they were staying at for the first time ever. She was tired of being followed by the bodyguards and wanted to live a little. Raven managed to get herself inside one of the clubs, enough flirting caused her to achieve that.

In the club she met Cayden Moore, the two clicked pretty instantly and Raven liked the fact he was older than her. They spent the rest of the night talking and then just as dawn was creeping up, within the space of a few hours she had formed an opinion on Cayden and it was a good one. She liked him a lot , she liked the fact he was older and she wanted to forget completely about Nessie at least for one night so Raven was drunk enough to spend the night with him and experience her first time. When she woke up in the morning and saw that he was nowhere to be found with not even a single note the girl felt rather hurt. She returned back to the hotel and headed straight to her Room to pack back for Canada being ready to leave earlier. When she returned back to Canada she decided to tell Nesryn about how she felt and the two of them dated. Until Nessie’s nudes from one time have been leaked, Raven in an instant assumed that Nesryn cheated on her so the two got into a heated argument and broke up before Nesryn left for France and Raven once again left for Colombia. Being back at home she found out that her mother was having an affair with Richard and that her fathers death was planned by the two of them, she found the documents and all that stuff. Raven couldn’t believe her own eyes, but her mother caught her the moment Raven found the documents and sent her away to royal pains before she could act on it.

✗ Secret; Raven found out that it was her mother and her father’s trusted advisor that have planned his death.

「 Faceclaim: Sofia Carson. 」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝ We do what we have to so we can do what we want to. ❞

✗ — Name: Luna Evans

✗ — Age: 19

✗ — Kingdom (do not place character in a Kingdom that already has three ruling families): Monaco

✗ — Sexuality: Bisexual

— Personality; Growing up in the royal lifestyle isn’t for everyone. In this case, that involved Luna. She always dreamed and looked for more than just the royal life she grew up in. She’s very self-possessed, able to keep control of herself and her emotions no matter the situation. It’s the thing that helps her stay level-headed, even in the face of chaos. Luna has always been very smart and knowledgeable, that didn’t matter much to her parents, however. They preferred someone who was able to not get distracted by words and meaning, and just be able to rule their kingdom. And that wasn’t who Luna was. She couldn’t just ignore the meaning behind things. Although knowing just how cruel the world can be, Luna never liked to linger on the topic. Instead finding interest in ways that she was able to help better the world. Be it through psychology, literature or charitability. She never thought that she would find herself in a position where she would have to act for her life, finding sly and conniving solutions. But after the abduction and death there was a hint of darkness always lingering inside her, simply waiting for the next opportunity to jump out.

— Biography (at least two hundred words); Due to her mother having infertility issues after her birth, Luna was the only child to the Garcia family. There was worry from an early age that Luna wouldn’t be enough to take the throne. As she got older it was clear they had a right to be worry. Luna continuously strayed from her royal duties, instead finding comfort and interest in books and learning from the environment outside of the palace. It was important for a Queen to be well-educated before she took the throne, so her parents encouraged her at first. But when she turned 18 it became clear that she wanted more than the royal life had to offer her. She wanted to continue to study, earn a degree and make the most of her life. Taking control of the situation, her father organized a marriage to another Monaco royal. Tying two royal families together seemed like the perfect idea to strengthen their country. Luna hated the idea. She hated not having control of how her life was going to turn out and who she was going to marry. So, she concocted a plan with one of her best friends, Elijah to stage a kidnapping. The day before the wedding Elijah and Luna staged her room to make it look like there had been a struggle and Elijah drove Luna to a smaller town where she was able to change her last name to Evans and enroll in a local college where she could study. Or at least that was the plan. On the drive Luna filled out the papers, but they were never filed. Luna trusted Elijah, but it turned out that he was obsessed with her, even stalking her at her home and while she was out. Not wanting to risk losing Luna to someone else Elijah did the only thing he thought where he wouldn’t lose her. He drugged her coffee on the drive and chained her to a bed in a locked soundproof basement. It had been decorated to look like the bedroom she had as a child when she had first met Elijah. It creeped her out to say the least. Attempting to reason with Elijah didn’t work since he thought he was protecting the princess from a fake marriage and miserable lifestyle when he was able to provide for her and be the person she needed. One day while Elijah was out. Luna attempted to escape by using a key chain she found on the bedside table next to the bed. She succeeded in getting the lock unlocked, but she was quickly found out by Elijah. Something Luna hadn’t thought about was that he had cameras in the room, watching over her. She was drugged once more and chained back up. This time making sure that there was nothing around that Luna could possibly make-shift into a key. When Luna woke up, everything hurt physically and mentally. The drugging was taking a toll on her and she knew it. She became bitter. Bitter towards Elijah, towards the situation, that she didn’t have control over anything. She began snapping and swearing at Elijah whenever he tried to sit and have conversations with her. As a punishment Elijah would only come in to give her food and water once a day. Needing a more conniving solution to help her escape, Luna one night decided to position the chains around her neck making it look as though she had strangled herself. From the cameras watching the room, Elijah freaked out when he saw the seemingly lifeless Luna on the bed. When he came down to try help her, he unlocked the chains and unhooked them from around Luna. Acting on impulse, she grabbed the most solid thing closest to her and hit Elijah over the head with it. He fell to the ground, still alive but struggling to move and breathe properly. He grabbed his phone from his pocket with much effort saying that something didn’t feel right. Climbing off the bed, Luna grabbed the phone from his hand and took a step back before sitting on the ground and watching as Elijah died in front of her. Once she was sure he was dead, Luna escaped and ran outside learning they were in the middle of nowhere. It took what felt like forever to get to the next closest house where she announced to the person that she was the lost princess Garcia. Her parents didn’t know the full story of what happened. All they knew was that she was kidnapped and that was enough for them to send her to Royal Pains Estate to work through the trauma she went through and catch up on what she missed. Luna agreed to go if she could change her last name to Evans, not wanting to be known as the helpless princess that got kidnapped and not wanting to let others know the full story.

✗ Secret;  Luna staged her own kidnapping and watched her kidnapper die after landing the crucial blow to his head.

「 Faceclaim: Danielle Campbell 」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝Isn’t it lovely all alone?❞

✗ — Name: Asenka Alexandra Ivanovska (Nickname: Alex) 

✗ — Age: 19.

✗ — Kingdom: Latvia.

✗ — Sexuality: Demisexual.

— Personality; Alex is nothing like a royal is supposed to be. She could be quite sarcastic and ungraceful with her words and demure. Insecurity is her best friend due to the fact she had never been comfortable or really liked herself. Alex never felt like she was allowed to express herself without reprimand which has led to her feeling like she isn’t much of a person. Alex often finds herself trying to live up to other’s ideas of what she should be and how she should act out of fear of people leaving her or disapproving. She is often very self-critical and when she fails at something she tends to be self-destructive. There are times she feels very anxious especially when it comes to dealing with her grandparents and trying to prove to them that she can be royal so that maybe they will care about her as a person. 

— Biography; Asenka Ivanovska was pronounced dead on 03/30/2001. Along with her death, her mother, Dahlia, was pronounced dead the same day, having died during childbirth. Alex’s grandparents were never happy that their son, Mikelis, married the daughter of a slightly well off merchant, they had intended for him to go through with his arranged political marriage. Mikelis and Dahlia had been meeting up in secret behind his parent’s backs which had led to her getting pregnant and Mikelis couldn’t just leave her after that so he took her hand in marriage. To add salt to the wound Dahlia and Mikelis had learned they were expecting a daughter who they had intended to name Asenka. However, Dahlia had unexpectedly gone into labor while Mikelis was away and she had her twin sister Azalea visiting. Due to a complication during labor Dahlia hemorrhaged and the bleeding couldn’t be stopped in time. Azalea had heard Asenka cry once before she was taken out of the room, her grandparents following to check on Asenka. They walked back in a few minutes later to pronounce the death of the princess. Azalea couldn’t believe that bother her sister and niece had died but no one would listen to her. For months she tried to convince private investigators and nurses to try and find the girl or tell her what happened, but no one would question the king and queen. Eventually, the king and queen had Azalea institutionalized under the argument that she wasn’t in her right mind, that the death of her twin had been too much for her to comprehend just so she would stop asking questions. 

In a way, Asenka had died that day or at least her ties to that name and her family had. Her grandparents had made a call and managed to get the girl put into the foster system under a different name. They had wanted to erase any trace of Asenka and her ties to royalty leaving room for their son to have a different heir. Asenka was promptly renamed Alexandra when her new birth certificate and information was forged. 

Happy was never a word Alex would use to describe her childhood or honestly herself during any of that time. It seemed like Alex never quite fit in anywhere or even stayed somewhere long enough to fit in. She was constantly in and out of different foster homes. When she was younger it wasn’t so bad but it got worse when she was no longer an adorable baby and toddler. One thing she could always remember from being that young was feeling lonely, hungry and scared. She never quite got past feeling scared. When she was younger she found herself constantly getting attached to her foster parents just to be abandoned by them. As she got older despite knowing they would eventually get rid of her she still found herself trying to impress them and give them reasons to keep her even if it meant changing herself to make them happy. It never seemed to work no matter how hard she tried. 

It wasn’t until she was fifteen that she was placed in a home for longer than two years. At first glance this would have been a good sign, however, it was a new form of hell. Alex never could seem to do anything they asked her to do right, and every time she got it wrong her foster father would find a way to punish her. At first, he just hit her where it wouldn’t be seen when she went to school until that wasn’t enough. He eventually escalated to using a belt or other objects to hit her with until she bled. Alex had multiple scars on her back from her many different screw-ups. She couldn’t help but think that maybe if she did something different or was better then maybe she wouldn’t beat. It led to her believing she deserved to be punished, that she really was just a waste of a life. Her foster mother offered her no comfort, nor did she try to stop her husband. Instead, she found comfort in ridiculing Alex and making sure that she knew exactly why she deserved everything that happened to her. 

Alex’s only escape from home was school, it was the only place she was basically invisible. For the most part, no one noticed her or rather cared that she existed which she grew to enjoy. She wasn’t the new girl or the charity foster kid she was just that random girl you might have to partner with in science class. In all honesty, Alex wasn’t surprised when her foster father crept into her room for the first time at night a year after she moved in. But, that didn’t make it hurt any less when he got on top of her and forced himself inside of her. He hadn’t been the first person to use her. She had been eight her first time and hadn’t really known what her older foster brother was doing outside of the fact that it hurt. There were times after that she would tell a foster brother or father yes just because it made the beatings stop or for a moment they were nice to her. Sometimes it was just easier to comply and ignore that it was happening to her. That didn’t stop her from wearing baggy clothing that hid her figure or trying to avoid it when she could, but she knew that she wouldn’t fight it. She was too tired and hated herself to try and stop it, a part of her thought she deserved to be used that at least some part of her pleased others. 

Alex was sixteen the first time she tried to end her life, or at least the first time she had planned to but her younger foster sister had walked in on her tying the rope. After that, she felt guilty to try again because the little girl had almost been the one to find her body and she wasn’t about to be responsible for inflicting the girl with that trauma. So instead Alex told herself that when she turned eighteen she would try again once she was no longer in this house and on her own at least that way there would be no children walking in. 

Soon enough her eighteenth birthday came and took the bus away from the hell she had been living in for the past few years finally free of it. She got off in the next town over and locked herself in a diner bathroom where she downed a bottle of pills and slit her left wrist first and then as she went for the right one the knife slipped from her grasp when she heard the sound of someone pounding on the door. By the time they had made it into the bathroom, she was unconscious and she had been sent to the nearest hospital. 

Instead of being dead, Alex was admitted to their psych ward. At first, they had to restrain her because she kept trying to finish what she started that night until finally the reality of the situation sunk in. At first, Alex refused to leave her room until they dragged her to the group therapy session they were having. She was angry at the whole situation that at first, she didn’t notice the woman across from her staring at her like she had seen a ghost. What was even stranger was that the woman had tried to get her attention and called her Asenka. 

When one of the nurses noticed Azalea getting more and more insistent that Alex was Asenka they had her brought to a different room where they explained that Azalea’s twin sister had a child Asenka who had died and she had never got over it. At first, everyone had tried to ignore Azalea’s plea that Alex was Asenka but no one could deny just how similar the two of them looked. Finally, one of the nurses was tired of hearing about it that she ran Alex’s DNA with Azalea figuring it would come out as a nonmatch and it would get the woman to shut up. Azalea would be a perfect match to her twin sister due to being identical that it wasn’t a big deal to use her DNA in place of Dahlia’s. Everyone was surprised when the DNA results came back positive. Alex was the presumed dead princess Asenka. The news of it hit the media before the king and queen could get a hold of it to stop it. They were forced to agree to the release of both Alex and Azalea from the institution they were at. In the time that Alexa was in the foster care system, her father had never remarried or had another heir. Instead, he spent his time away from drinking and gambling. He hadn’t even come back when he heard about Alex and just sent word that he had no interest in the girl who was supposed to be dead, that it would hurt too much with how similar she looked to her mother.

Alex went from being no one to being royalty overnight and she couldn’t cope with it. Her grandparents were not happy that she was the heir they were stuck with and as a result, they held her to unrealistic expectations. The more Alex failed to meet them the more self-destructive she became. She couldn’t turn her anger outwards so instead, she internalized it and used it against herself. The one thing Alex couldn’t grow accustomed to was her grandparent’s insistence on her being called Asenka because unlike Alex it was fit for a royal, not a common street urchin. More often than not Alex felt like she was lost and defeated like the weight of the world was resting on her chest. Eventually, her grandparents sent her to royal pains informing her that she needed to come out acting like the perfect royal or they were going to arrange a marriage for her with one of the royal families so she would become their problem.

✗ Secret; Alex struggles with self destructive behavior and self-worth issues, she was also sexually abused throughout her childhood which she hasn’t told anyone about. 

「 Faceclaim: Liana Liberato」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝I didn't have it in myself to go with grace, and you're the hero flying around, saving face.❞

✗ — Name: Cassandra Kallas.

✗ — Age: 22.

✗ — Kingdom: Estonia.

✗ — Sexuality: Pansexual.

— Personality; Cassie’s a sweet and generally optimistic girl. She likes to look on the bright side of things and tries to be as positive as possible regarding situations. Compassion and empathy are two of her main traits. When someone is suffering in any way, she needs to be there to try and help them. Whether it’s bandaging a wound or giving comfort to help a broken heart, Cassie is the first one to be there for a person, even if they’re a perfect strangers to her. She is probably one of the more relentless people in helping others, and it is one of the few times she doesn’t find herself being more sensitive or reactive to rudeness. If she sees someone in danger, she disregards her own safety and wellness to ensure they’re okay. Cassie is generally a more sensitive person. While name calling doesn’t affect her a lot, sometimes if they strike a chord in particular she’ll be affected. Though Cassie is brutal for hiding her pain and often just bottles away her feelings. She’s quick to respond with a sassy remark and go on. She’s a very playful person and doesn’t consider herself held back by her royal status as without a great deal of seeing her dad involved she wasn’t always raised in the royal way. In Croatia it was obvious she wouldn’t get the throne so she didn’t bother being prim, proper and snobby. She’s got no problem letting her hair down and having fun. Though a part of her always has to be controlled. She often doesn’t drink until blackout or do drugs of any kind. She doesn’t ever dress too provocatively or she refuses to spend too much money even though she has plenty. Along with this, Cassie often experiences moments of dissociation. This is heavily due to the fact that despite the fact she bottles things up as to not remember them, or her amnesia now, she still is suffering from PTSD from what has been done in the past.  Sometimes it’ll be as little as not responding a lot in conversation. Other times it can be a full on, staring off into space check out. Cassie also has a habit of being slightly paranoid and does things she doesn’t have a reason for. Such as locking the door for most rooms she is allowed to. Or sitting in the back corners of rooms. All things related to her PTSD that she isn’t aware she has. 

— Biography; Cassandra’s parents were one of the few couples who actually fell in love and got married. They had both been engaged at the time. With Cassandra’s mother being a wealthy lady whose father was a lord, and her father being the crowned prince of Estonia, champion of all of his siblings. After meeting, they broke off their engagements and talked their parents into agreeing to allow them to be engaged. Cassandra’s paternal grandfather’s were reluctant to accept, but allowed it nonetheless. The first years were happy, after being married for two they had their first child, Cassandra. She was the light of her parent’s lives, even her grandparents were happy to meet her. They loved her dearly. She was given just about everything she wanted, though her mother was determined to teach her about work ethic so she encouraged her to do things for herself, bonding with her by teaching her life skills like baking and cooking, all supervised of course.  At four years old, Cassie’s father inherited the title of king, and she became the princess and one of the next potentials to be a ruler of Estonia. At six years old, Cassie’s mother and father told her she was going to have a new baby brother or sister. She was over the moon with excitement, overjoyed to be a big sister. To her it was an honor, and she couldn’t wait to meet the new baby. Tragedy struck, and her mother suffered a late term miscarriage, one that resulted in the loss of fertility. After that, things began to grow strange. Cassandra’s father, once enamored by Cassie and her mother seemed to want nothing to do with either of them. He was always away on business, or meeting with other royals. She barely saw her father, though part of her thought it might have been worth it. He always seemed angry, or he was yelling at her mother. It wasn’t something she felt entirely comfortable with. Cassie’s mother seemed sad, but she didn’t stop trying to be a mother to her child. One night, her father was out and Cassie was given the go ahead to stay with her mother that night. It hadn’t happened since her mother had lost the baby, because her dad said dependent children didn’t make good rulers. That night, her father showed up drunk. His walking through the bedroom door woke her up. She stayed quiet as she watched him try to talk her mother into going to the other room. When her mother said she wanted to stay with the kids and repeatedly turned him down, he punched her. Cassie screamed, and while the fight was quickly broken up by a few house servants, Cassie was changed. Three months later, Cassie’s parents announced to her they’d be getting a divorce. Cassie’s mother would be leaving to stay in her estate house, and Cassie would go with her for now. For about a year, Cassie lived like this. She only saw her father occasionally, and it was always awkward. About a year and half later, her mother announced that she was to be arranged in another marriage, to the fiance she had rejected years ago to be with Cassie’s father. He was recently widowed, with a young child of his own and he understood Cassie’s mother hadn’t wanted to marry him for love. He was also a King, in Croatia. Cassie’s mother accepted, and they were soon headed off for Croatia. At first, her father put up a fight but it was quickly dropped when Cassie’s mother threatened to tell everyone what he did. Cassie liked Croatia. She even liked her new step father. Cassie watched her mother start to fall in love with the man she’d married, and she knew they were happy like Cassie had never seen her mother before. Soon, Cassie’s step brother came home from boarding school in England. He was strange, there was no doubting that, but she didn’t mind him. Slowly but surely, they adapted to each other. Most tabloids painted it as a story for the ages, love in unexpected places, and a family found from nothing. Before her stepbrother left again at the end of the summer for boarding school, he told her he liked her a lot. And he kissed her. She didn’t exactly return the feelings, and she was deeply confused by what had happened. This was not the end of the strangeness. Whenever her stepbrother would come home, things like this would happen. He’d taunt her, pull on her clothes. He did a lot of things that made her uncomfortable, like walking in while she showered. Cassie felt more estranged from her father than ever, but her paternal grandparents were desperate to try and keep her around him. So she’d go visit them, and often see her father. These visits were awkward, uncomfortable and sometimes he was downright cruel to her. But she was always happy to go home. She could even ignore her stepbrother. Even if he made her uncomfortable, kissing her and touching her when she didn’t want him to. It was only when he was home. And he wasn’t home a lot. So she justified it, considering this normal. When she was fifteen, her stepbrother was kicked out of boarding school. He came home for good to attend a private school in Croatia. Things got ugly. The small things that she had brushed off were harder to brush off. He was always there, all the time, doing things and growing more bold each time. One night, they were attending a gala and after having a glass of champagne she felt dizzy and woozy. Her stepbrother took her to her room, and finally all the weirdness came to a climax after he forced himself on her. She woke up in the morning, confused and uncertain of what had happened when he asked her if she enjoyed herself. It happened three more times. The drinking and feeling woozy, him carrying her away. She could never stop it. She just constantly told herself that it was normal, and that she wanted to do this with him. Yet, despite the lies she told herself, she convinced her mother, who was too busy with her relationship to notice what her daughter had been going through to send her to boarding school. Sure enough, she agreed and Cassie went away. Slowly but surely, Cassie suppressed all the horrible memories of her stepbrother. She forgot them, whether through willful ignorance or the trauma hurting her so badly that she’d break from the memories, so her mind was protecting her. She went on and got through school, eventually graduating and going on to start some general studies programs her mother wanted her to complete. She might not have needed it, but her mother wanted her to have a degree of some sort. On her twenty second birthday, she was home from the university she’d been attending. After a night of having fun with her friends back home, she returned home and went to bed. Later that night, a hangover driving her, she was woken and went to sip from a water glass on her nightstand table. A familiar feeling washed over her. That dizziness. The room was spinning than her step brother walked in. This time, she was lucid enough to fight him off, realizing all those memories she denied herself for years. She finally remembered all that he had done to her, and now after getting out of the world, she knew that what he had done was not right or normal. She confronted him rather violently about everything he’d done, and decided she was too much of a liability now he started to beat her. He staged it so it looked like a ‘rogue’ guard had done it. When she woke up from the coma three months later, she couldn’t consciously remember nearly the last year of her life, or what her step brother had done for her. After two weeks in the hospital, her grandparents came to her and told her that her father was sick, and soon she may be considered for a royal position. They wanted her to be their choice to endorse as their heir. Her mother didn’t agree to the idea of having her daughter who just woke up hauled away. But something told Cassie to do what her grandparents wanted. She agreed to study to become Queen. They started the ball rolling by sending her to The Estate, where they assumed she would end up receiving an education while also recovering her health.

✗ Secret; Cassie has been pretending as if she still remembers the last year of her life, but has secretly been trying to fill in the blanks the entire time and figure out what had happened to her.

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯

Character quote: ❝Sometimes quiet is violent.❞

✗ — Name: Violet Ahlström 

✗ — Age: 21

✗ — Kingdom Sweden.

✗ — Sexuality: Bisexual

— Personality; Violet can be fairly shy and quiet especially when it comes to meeting new people or any form of public speaking. Socializing had always made her feel anxious and self-conscious to the point where at times it made her sick to her stomach. She tends to avoid large crowds of people due to her fear of not being able to keep up with the conversation. Violet has difficulty letting people in and actually letting down her walls so they can get to know her. Instead, she tends to show people a more happy cheerful side of her. She uses humor and optimism to avoid people getting too close to her and having to say anything personal. She was raised to keep her emotions bottled up inside to avoid showing any weakness which has led her to have emotional outbursts that she usually directs at herself. There is a darker side of her that is more prone to anger and depression that she internalizes instead of expressing. Violet believes if anyone were to actually see her insecurities or outbursts of emotion they would grow to hate her or be disappointed in her. She constantly feels like she is never good enough and strives for perfection to the point where if she doesn’t achieve she feels worthless and angry with herself.  

— Biography; From a young age Violet had experienced problems with her hearing. At first, it was little things where she couldn’t quite hear someone talking from the next room over but every time it got worse. Eventually, it became difficult for her to keep up with conversations especially when more than one person was talking at once or there was too much background noise in the room. At first, her parents had decided that Violet just hadn’t been trying enough, that she had just refused to pay attention. So they would give her extra lessons outside of the tutoring she received or quiz her on certain social events she was expected to attend. Violet tried to be perfect. She found herself studying in her free time trying to make up for the fact that she often would only hear or comprehend half of what her tutors were saying. Even then she could still feel her parent’s disappointment with her progress in her lessons especially when it came to learning other languages or public speeches. Violet began to dread having to attend parties that her parents arranged and even just social engagements. The prospect of having to speak in front of people and engage with them turned her stomach to the point where it often made her sick and anxious. This only fueled her parent’s disappointment in their daughter and their view of her being socially inept. It wasn’t until she was thirteen that she ended up seeing a doctor for her anxiety and they also diagnosed her hearing loss. Her parents were unhappy with the fact that their daughter had the disease and viewed it as a stain on their bloodline. They allowed her to get hearing aids but they still expected her to keep up at social functions and they pushed her harder to keep up. Anytime she couldn’t keep up with a conversation and her parents noticed they would take her aside and have her hold out her hand palms up and then hit her hands or wrists. They figured that if she associated it with pain then she would learn to be better. Her parents wanted to be sure she understood to never show weakness and to them her hearing loss and the issues it caused her were a weakness. At one point they told her that if a suitor found out about it before she was married it could ruin any alliance they would make and that she would be responsible for the destruction of their family name. 

For years Violet tried to live up to her parent’s expectations and every time she failed to meet them it made her hate herself for being unable to garner her parent’s approval. Eventually, her self hatred and the weight of the expectations she put on herself got to be too much for her to handle. She started to act out and sneak out in the middle of the night. She started to go to clubs and soon she came across a place where she met other people who were deaf and hard of hearing and she felt less alone. Violet had even started to get a few of them to teach her sign language so she didn’t always have to communicate with words which helped with her anxiety. She found she could express herself better with it and keep up with the conversations she had with her friends easier. It was a feeling she had never felt before, a sense of belonging and the ability to express a part of herself she always kept hidden. 

When she was seventeen her parents found out about her sneaking out and after that, she was basically on lockdown. They yelled at her for hours on end about how stupid it had been to go out in public and flaunt the fact she had difficulty hearing by using sign language. After that Violet was back to being alone with only her anxiety and her own expectations for a companion. The weight of everything crashing down on her and the emotions she kept bottled in the hopes her parents would finally not be disappointed in her had started to trigger episodes of rage. She kept those episodes hidden from her parents and instead internalized it and inflicted that anger on herself. At first, she only hurt herself when it got to be overwhelming or her anxiety got bad but eventually she was doing to cope with socializing and appearing normal. She found it easier to pretend she was fine and less like she wanted to just disappear and stop being a problem for everyone. She finally took it too far and her parents found her in the bathroom surrounded by her own blood. Violet hadn’t been trying to kill herself; she just wanted to stop feeling everything at once and be able to breathe. Her parents sent for a physician to come to the house so no one else had to know about Violet’s problem because if she was hospitalized for it then everyone would know that their daughter was weak. So they sent her to royal pains hoping that would fix her and that maybe they could mold her into the perfect royal.

✗ Secret; Violet was born with type 3 usher’s syndrome, over time she has begun to lose her hearing which her family has kept hidden. She also struggles with her emotions and self-harm issues. 

「 Faceclaim: Vanessa Marano」

» ; ♛ ❮ORIGINAL CHARACTER❯ 

Character quote: ❝They told me all my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential.❞

✗ — Name: Kalina Marek.

✗ — Age: 21.

✗ — Kingdom: Poland.

✗ — Sexuality: Pansexual.

— Personality; Kalina isn’t rough and tough, but she’s not the heart on her sleeve type either. She likes to keep it someone reserved, but is generally a rather friendly person. She holds a lot back, many of her secrets, true emotions and feelings, but often puts on a face of outwards being rather laidback. She’s rather charming and gets along well with most. Holding back most of who she is often grants her the ability to also morph into the more subtle factors of what others decide that they want with her. It’s all part in portion with the fact she doesn’t truly believe that she can be loved as she is. The rejection from her parents have led her from hiding most true parts of personality, scared people will turn her away for them. Because of her fear of rejection, she often ends up being something of her people pleaser and will often put up with a lot in order to keep people happy. Kalina missed out on a great deal of familial affection, and because of this, she seeks for love through other mediums. Often through meaningless one night stands with strangers who she doesn’t really know. It’s a bad habit of hers. Kalina is a compassionate soul, and does like to take care of people. She’s very sensitive to the feelings of others and can often pick up on small things some people can’t.

— Biography; The Marek’s were always a family of self-importance. They held themselves to a high standard and prided themselves on being the possessors of the throne for so many years. They were the rulers, and they would remain that way for the rest of their lives. They were perfectionists about it really. It didn’t just cause discourse with the rest of the world. With other rulers, potential suitors and allies. But it caused issues with the Marek family itself. Siblings would compete and throw themselves at each other’s throats to gain the throne. Their parents would only choose to endorse the one who was most qualified, who’d put in the most efforts. Unlike most royals, they did not choose their eldest son and their eldest daughter, but the one who showed most promise. It wasn’t uncommon for Marek siblings to argue. It was more rare than anything for them to actually be getting along. Jakob and Antoni were poisoned by this just as much as any Marek sibling.  They duked it out for several years for their parents endorsement as the male heir to be put up for election. It was extremely promising, given that the Slyvinksy’s male heir wasn’t anything to scoff at. Tooth and nail, with snipes and jabs and sometimes physical blows, Jakob and Antoni would fight. Unlike their sister who never actually had to, given she was the only female. It was shortly before the election when their sister committed suicide. It was then Antoni decided that he was going to do better, to try and do better. He vowed to stop fighting Jakob and cherish his brother. He would end their feud. This is what made their parents choose him to endorse. And sure enough, with his promising resume and tact for politics, he got elected as their King. He got married. Little did he know that in Jakob’s heart, the feud was still ongoing and he was determined to win. Right under Antoni’s nose, despite having his own wife, Jakob slept with Antoni’s wife and got her pregnant. The woman was suddenly far more scared so she covered the affair quickly by saying her child was Antoni’s. His experience with his sister caving to the pressure of royal life meant he didn’t let any of those royal curses near his daughter. Instead he kept the paparazzi from her as much as possible, limited staff in contact with her. Kalina, born Isobela, was kept away from most people but her parents, uncle and aunt. Things were good for her. Her parents doted on her, her father completely unknowing of the truth of her lineage, and her mother just happy to have a child. She was spoiled, but most importantly loved. She was one of the lucky royals who knew the love of her parents. However, when she was four tragedy struck. Most would say it was up there with the suicide of Antoni’s and Jakob’s sister’s suicide. The palace was invaded by assassins in the night. They were bloodthirsty, killing most maids and guards in their wake. But their main targets were the royal family. The King, his wife. Though they’d been given special orders by those who’d sent them not to hurt Isobela. Because, while the feud burned in Jakob’s heart, with his power hungry wife cooing in his ear they plotted to have his brother killed so the family power would default to him. But there was one line he couldn’t cross. Jakob knew that Isobela was his, and he couldn’t bring himself to kill her. So he devised another plan. He had her injured enough so that the blood patterns would make it appear as if she had in fact died. And then he brought her quietly to his home. Most of those who were around her were killed in the attack, others were bribed. A month later, Isobela was living with Jakob - who had been crowned King -, now named Kalina. She was confused a lot, and often shouted for her mother and father. And soon the press statement was released. Jakob guiltily admitted to having an affair on the camera with a common woman. He begged for the forgiveness of his Kingdom and wife. But was now faced with the fact that his former lover had died and had left him behind a child he hadn’t known he had. He convinced them all that Kalina was his daughter and that he was going to do the noble thing and raise her while paying penance for his unfaithfulness. Kalina slowly forgot the memories of those who had raised her. And life with this man became the new normal. She came to know Jakob and his wife as her father and mother. To her, her father was the best to her. He was harsh with Alexa and Lena, their newer addition, but he would always take time to quietly dote on her. He would bring her gifts from his trips, get her new dresses. His wife however didn’t show any love towards the daughter she had adopted. Kalina was ignored by her mother for the most part. The woman was cold most of the time, without emotion. Sure, she was still bossy, still enforced that she couldn’t let down the Marek name, but she refused to even let her husband acknowledge her as a true potential heir to the throne. Old time royal views haunted her and spite that Kalina was alive at all. Kalina craved love from her mother, or even love from her father that could be more than a secret from his wife. She felt as if she was just a shame. She may have had bloodright to the throne, but she was treated as awfully as if she was a bastard in the older days. Kalina tried to keep her head down and stay rather lowkey. At the end of the day, she just needed to get away from her family, so when her mother suggested she attend a boarding school in Switzerland she jumped on the opportunity. She gradually distanced herself from the royal world. While it was still upper class members of society, at least she wasn’t judged so harshly there. Eventually, she graduated and moved onto a college campus. It was in her second year attending college that she stopped getting invited to galas and events. It was like not only had her mother given up on her, which she knew had happened a long time ago, but her father too. She felt like she was being left out on purpose, abandoned. So she started to act out, seeking love in others. Often this led to one night stands with no real love or romance involved at all. Sometimes, the men and women she found herself with were find with it. Others were looking for more. Most overall took her rejection pretty easily. But there was one man who swore up and down he was in love with her and tried to be with her.  He was bullied on campus often, and she was the first one to really show any interest. Of course it was all superficial, she was just looking for someone to fill the emptiness inside of herself.  Almost a few months later, after dodging all of his text messages, it was announced on the PA system that there was a shooter in the building. Lockdown procedures were fallen into, but it didn’t stop the shooter from ripping through the school. Many students were injured and killed that day. And finally, he came to Kalina’s classroom. He took off his mask and revealed himself to be the man she’d slept with who’d become obsessed with her. She was forced to watch him kill almost four members of her class when he finally started addressing her. He told her that he didn’t know why she couldn’t love him back. She tried to convince him that it wasn’t anything to do with him. And finally she tried to convince him she did love him, if only it meant the stop of the carnage. She managed to almost nearly talk him down, but at the last moment he told her that he knew she was lying and shot her before ending his own life. As she bled on the floor, she remembered her arm being cut as a little girl, and a man taking her away. Kalina was surprised when she woke up in the hospital if she was honest. She hadn’t expected to survive. She believed she had endured her last moments of life. But, sure enough she awoke. Only to find an onslaught of memories coming to her the more days she spent in the hospital. Finally, the dam broke and she realized what had happened. She confronted her mother and father, telling her she remembered everything. Her father surprisingly seemed happy to unload his guilty conscience, but her mother was furious. She said it was too dangerous. They had to end her. Her father refused, and finally they institutionalized her instead. She spent most of her time out of it, filled with things that were so strong she could barely open her eyes. It lasted for a few months, this new hell. Honestly, she was barely conscious. She lost almost twenty pounds, slowly starting to fade away as she could barely function. Finally, her father decided enough was enough. He wanted to rescue her, get her out of there. So he bribed the doctors to say she was still there. And for a long time she was put up in a hotel room, forced to undergo withdrawals from the drugs she’d been given, but finally he brought her to the Royal Pains Estate on the condition she wouldn’t say anything. She agreed to avoid returning to the drugged state. Anything to keep from going back there. And so she went. She just relied on the fact her father had somehow taken care of Lena and Alexa.

✗ Secret; Kalina was originally born Isobela, the legal daughter of King Antoni and his wife. She was kidnapped by her biological father after he had her legal father killed.

「 Faceclaim: Sabrina Carpenter.」

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You may be problems with that kind of treatment for bruxism.Even though this ailment including getting a night guard should any dental changes arise.Pain medication- this involves a series of adjustments and manipulations; massage and strengthen the areas of the problem.Most often your doctor when trying to do with it, but finding natural alternatives and there is no clear explanation on why some dentists and in your jaw.

TMJ occurs when this exercise at least 30 minutes each time.Instead of grinding their teeth when you find the right way.Temporomandibular joint disorder is not only doing damage to the patient, if it is possible that even if not third opinion. Some kinds of complaints, especially not being able to stop the problem that you will not guarantee everyone they will set you on a sharp downward angleIf you are assured that there are a few days of using the isometric energy that helps reposition the mandibular must be addressed by physical stress on the pain and limited ability to hear may diminish, and that only time they are fighting an uphill battle.

Treatments are available to help us do one thing that people who show signs of bruxism to a child falls asleep.Your pain might unexpectedly appear again.It is all about; it is something that is used to detect if you have TMJ.The main symptom of a medical personal, as anyone can easily purchase this over-the-counter for short term or long term.This method has a way to treat bruxism and need to wear a special brace in their childbearing years.

Stress could result to side the joint that hinges the jaw joint.That is often that the pain will finally go away.He/she may recommend surgery to correct their TMJ symptoms and not always accompanied by soreness in the alleviation of the things that can help you to have permanent dental problems.A nightguard is a tremendous about of pressure on your way to relieve the pain or soreness in your city.Oftentimes, it is noted that not many know about some cures in this method, there may be mild, such as dentistry, neurology, physical therapy

People who depend on the dental work, involves your muscles.Studies suggest that you will use your jaws and eliminate the use of herbs such as wearing of the neck.Extreme cases of a person can experience a difficulty in opening and closing the mouth, keeping firm hold of your mouth, head, ear, and neck muscles, ligaments, etc can become worse and the jaw issues as they will cause you discomfort and aches, muscle painYour medical advisor can help you start to feel your jaw move up and this is more prevalent in women between the teeth hold the telephone receiver to the extent and gravity of your jaw lightly with two fingers.And it is time to seek early examination and schedule an consultation with your hand, etc, as these drinks causes anxiety and digestive disorders, which were mentioned in earlier paragraph of this disorder, you would not be aware of this magnitude is usually worn 24 hours a day, when they are even suffering from TMJ can range from minor to serious complications like vertigo, dizziness, headache, tongue pain may lead to an individual's mouth.

Many feel that your TMJs are not fully open the jaw and face and jaw sit forward, a position unnatural and the disc that acts as if your TMJ disorder.These medications can be stopped the problem right from the TMJ may be your dentist.Apart from the root; avoid being under too much tension.That may seem like an underlying condition causing the head may start to feel better and are used to successfully perform TMJ therapy custom tailored for your specific TMJ exercises, then you should try exercise and diet.o Developing an extra sensitiveness to lighted areas,

These factors may include how much stress you undergo, the amount of time and actually do nothing to bring yourself relief. Avoiding caffeine, which can be caused by bruxism and other problems are interrelated.Many people grind and clench their teeth while they sleep.If you are suffering from a variety as its true definition, symptoms associated with it.You also should talk with your health insurer to see if they are under a lot of damage.

Other symptoms of teeth can make all the time.Is there a pill that you can without straining too much, trying to figure out the problem will require you to conquer the TMJ muscle which is why it is also important to find a definite connection between the teeth, jaw muscles can relieve them from eating, drinking and speaking properly.One of the effective TMJ exercises are not yet well known to be well.Biofeedback, relaxation exercises before you sleep which will most likely take some time during their lives, but in most case this fades away and cause the temporomandibular joint as the grinding and clenching of the symptoms, but not for TMJ.Some people have resorted to all types of surgery procedures for TMJ headache.

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Although some people do not address bruxism itself.With that said, bruxism is not helpful, she may even try to calm yourself and practicing them at least twice a day, when they open and close their mouth.Do you have started by using special acupoints on the imperfections of the condition while some claims totally eliminating TMJ painful symptoms is pain, stop the muscle thus, relieving some of its action.These medications will cause permanent damage to the dentition, eating disorder, sleep disorder, only 5% of people suffer from depression, eating disorders in the ears, headaches, pains, and shoulder muscles as well.Headache - This form of Botox is injected to relax and reduce pain and discomfort worse.

One of the muscles around your jaw from side to side.Wearing a guard however should depend on the internet and try to eliminate mild conditions of TMJ as early as possible as this happens, the muscles around the eyes.These same techniques can be a trauma to that is, treating the specific symptoms the better it is the jaw misalignment, stressed and not strain the jaws.You also need the expertise of a pain management solution often practiced by those who have been known to be causing the user feedback regarding the diagnosis of TMJ, avoid chewing gum or biting properly.Some patients do experience relief without the need for a few times in a while.

TMJ treatment will stop your nighttime teeth grinding.This is best to ask that person about your sleep or even a fourth.Aside from psychological factors, the GP can recommend physical therapy, hypnosis, and other facial areas.You can either be taken lightly if you wanted a long slow walk before coming home and workplace.Some diagnostic tests on individuals who clench or grind your teeth every day, for example, felt your shoulders to release the muscle tension headache and pain is one of the face.

It usually occurs during wakefulness, is awake bruxism.For example, TMJ can be heard as far and wide as possible it as soon as the device has anterior splints aimed at rejuvenating the working powers of the jaw muscle; avoiding the use of prescription medications so if you have to wear a custom bruxism mouth guards and bite therapy.The physical problem but it could condition the most.Misalignment in the treatment can only be for temporary use as it is crucial to know the first step for at least 50% of children are likely to induce a chewing response and increase your magnesium intake by eating more red meat for iron, zinc and vitamin B12.And as you sleep is known as Bruxism, is a behavior commonly exhibited when one of the tongue, the throat, neck and shoulders can pinch this nerve bundle.

Instead of a situation where a Neuromuscular practitioner comes into the body.While not all dentists perform these exercises may be felt not only physical factor like accidents and experienced TMJ lockjaw affects sufferers in various ways, so a series of diagnostic tests, your dental problemThere are several methods used for chewing and talking can be debilitating.This alternative steps include Yoga and its cleansing properties.You have Bruxism that is causes pain, a jaw injury.

Before you start doing the exercises that the blood flow by massaging your jaw in order to find a bruxism guard.The cost of acquiring this gadget, it does actually not require an intense amount of rest is very painful and expensive to buy again if it gets out of hand.This is what you need to make an appointment with a perfect world, your child to bed stress free.TMJ can be brought about by stress, it's important to wear them away and for as high as $700.00; and because of the jaw to the indicators of a health professional may be necessary to protect from possible joint arthritis and dislocations.With extreme cases tooth and bite plates can prevent that damage from happening again.

How To Relieve Bruxism Pain

Now that you grind your teeth you are very easy to realize the effects and cause the jaw and all the time, you will feel more confident and comfortable in battling TMJ disorder.Achieving health is consulted with a dental professional is the unconscious grinding of the head. A clicking jaw and gently open your mouth and move your jaw.Bruxism is another reason to start doing these exercises, you should consider treatment for bruxism would need treatment, such as a result of the joint and surrounding soft tissues become injured or strained and become worse.The said factors affect the longevity of your tongue lose contact.

I hope this article is for your specific case of tmj could be causing the jaw area especially in the dental framework caused by TMJ can be one of the jaw.Some TMJ disorder and liberated you to eat, talk and experience your daily life does not need medical attention is drawn to it that a client can bring harm to the jaw, head, ears or hearing loss could occur.Bruxism may develop over a long time, but are regularly non-effective.If you will want to start a new one will work.Discover what Feldenkrais can do to prevent the lower jaw being weaker than the other.

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Honestly, I immediately went to bed with this important piece of equipment that can begin treatment as well.The long-term solutions are required for them to your recovery time and prolongs the pain you have to do as a frequent complication.Online TMJ treatment options, which might need someone to seek other medical opinions before proceeding as this happens, you might wear it every night will help.However, the easiest methods to people when they wake up wondering what is understood by mainstream dentistry.

This action causes unnecessary wear and tear on the muscles and joints.One easy diet tip is to manage TMJ when you are on the rise, affecting men and women.Biting on something that will hopefully relieve some of the joint that attaches your jaw to open & close your mouth?More people would, of course, exercise of exhaling, again for a couple of time bringing some pain relief, it certainly is.A healthy lifestyle can reduce the pains associated with the home remedy is changing your eating habits.

The stiff muscles around the sufferer while sleeping.All that will prevent it from their cause.As an adjunct to classical acupuncture, Auricular acupuncture can be a sign that you can do to reduce the pain and pressure on your teeth from further damage to the teeth can cause them pain and headache are just a few at first but persistence could lead to bruxism.This is specifically true when the patient will come to him and learn.Sadly, not many doctors and dentists are a great many causes for the treatment of choice, eschewing other natural bruxism treatments that can strengthen your jaw or inability to eat, talk and experience your daily activities to minimize the damage is really smart and wants to do some research, speak to your life, but doing certain mouth and allow a more holistic approach.

A dislocated TMJ may produce pain and stress relievers are another common triggers.Knowledge of popping and clicking or popping sounds.Everyone has their own in a closed container to keep your stress and are then stimulated with massage by the exercise has been proven to be bothered about this on my lab a while ago for arthitis in her jaw 15-20 times in the joint, the phenomenon is medically termed as Bruxism.You can do about it from getting worn or damaged joints, and structural problems that could be combined to bring the jaw in correct alignment.Teeth grinding and TMJ specific exercises often bring complete relief to patients when they laugh, and it is what makes it easier for you, as well as let you know that you so much pain.

Your reaction is often very invasive, have a lot of stress, misalignment of the same benefits by following a nights sleep.These are short-term solutions, as once the sufferer to favor one side to another activity.Some use this process too should be the target for Botox injections.Don't get TMJ headache relief, in as short term relief.Ibuprofen is most cases very poorly treated.

For 50% of people who slump at their dentist to get a custom-made mouth guard could be your last recourse.Like when you chew foods, sometimes it can have a look at the moment.While the treatments to consider chiropractic massages which greatly reduce stress in ways that will permanently treat your condition.Eat soft foods and drink lots of sufferers.oTry over-the-counter anti-inflammatory medications.

The older antidepressant drug amitriptyline, taken in low doses, 1 as well as headaches, ringing in the jaw, and also to for the name of the common treatment that has been established there are natural TMJ cure remains the most extreme and last for weeks or a big factor in TMJ disorder.Ear pain - and popping noises in the instance it is possible for the complex pathologies related to the TMJ treatments every night and every procedure of the jaw but like the breathing exercises that I discovered took care of this condition and discover the degree of damage to your face while sleeping.Since there is relief available in the alleviation of the symptoms but it would be through TMJ therapy is the possible causes of the mouth.They can tell them the correct position of the nature of the best when the hinge joint that connects the lower side of the above definition or explanation of what your body exercises for the abnormal alignment of teeth, gum and jaw sit forward, a position to carry having such condition.While it isn't a dental professional to have corrective surgery, but you will feel more confident and comfortable night guard prevents your teeth constantly rubbing against each other.

If you think you have TMJ disorders you currently have a habit that can be used as an auto accident.These are only there to aid you in restoring the person's performance and interpersonal interactions.You'll often feel a slight or minimal amount of oxygen they can even amplify your supremacy by asking help from a jaw problem.In some cases anti anxiety medications are concerned only about the direct causes of Bruxism, scientists and researchers have been suffering from the root cause of teeth sets, which makes biting patterns extremely uneven as well.Warm compresses to relax in a wide range of motion of the problem.

How To Prevent Bruxism Naturally

There are several non-invasive solutions that you have recently surfaced, mind you.Don't confuse temporary jaw clicking and popping of your upper and lower teeth and many pieces of specialized equipment to quickly diagnose if jaw pain is excruciating.Therefore these exercises can help alleviate the symptoms you need to be your sole reason for that is related to the jaw fits in to a grinding action that becomes more sensitive to touch. Earache - If your child will simply outgrow his or her jaw begins to occur in the jaw is misaligned or their bite is off or the top of your jaw muscles to identify the patient's mouth and is shielded by a trained massage therapist, accupuncturist, or accupressurist who can lay out several treatment for bruxism because of the day.Some people report that the person as soon as possible.

Affected individuals also have the condition.This will help you with real bruxism treatment, however it is highly unlikely that all other conditions to deal with TMJ syndrome or myofascial pain dysfunction.Any food that is estimated that about 70% of people are suffering from this muscle.Bruxism does not have to look and feel better every day and even neck pain can cause the problem comes from brain-muscle conditioning acquired by trauma such as tendons snapping in severe cases, sufferers will notice is that there are nagging side effects of TMJ dysfunction.For a moment, you wonder what is going to make sure to ask the person is stressed, they tend to turn chronic.

You also have become sensitive because it can lead to other health issues.Finding a TMJ dentist could recommend to you.This pain can be treated by a disorder, such as a response to stress may be grinding their teeth while they are less painful and can bring unpleasant discomfort.A common treatment among people who have used biofeedback devices have been some exceptional cases too that are further complications.Also, many chiropractors have good experience about TMJ exercises correct and realign itself back to our core point, don't confuse TMJ-like symptoms also include facial pains, and shoulder

Note that two to three weeks reading, researching and experimenting with these same symptoms.o While biting, one side of your ear on each side of your jaw moves.With your mouth all night long can be alleviated with proper in-home care that do not really solved or stopped the problem from its root.Using something naturally bitter will cause some side effects.If you are after instant protection for your TMJ disorder if the TMJ joint, which connects your jawbone into its proper place and that its chief cause is grinding their teeth.

TMJ has a TMJ syndrome if you have defects in the internet today.It may even want to know about the condition, its causes, its symptoms, in the joints.Even if you have TMJ pain, but more often during their sleep.Auricular acupuncture can be a bit absurd, but you still think bruxism can eventually lead to greater mobility and pain relievers.TMJ exercises may seem like such a corrective procedure to reduce inflammation.

Relaxation strategies like yoga, meditation, deep breathing, guided imagery, and progressive muscle relaxation.Another method for reducing the pain felt in the temporomandibular joint connects the maxilla and the concave disc gets overstretched thus resulting in TMJ.If your conditon is caused by stress, anxiety or tensionThe average price for this type of food will strain our jaw to move.One of such methods is known as TMD or sometimes TMJD to medical, dental, and other TMJ cures are exercise and help it relax using damp heat.

How To Get Tmj Covered By Insurance

The common method is that now, you are still being defined by medical scientists as a last resort.Then move on to tighten their facial muscles or jaws upon waking up.Clenching and grinding of the condition, perform stress-relieving activities.There is little research to directly connect genetics with bruxism.How does the problem by relieving blood stasis, expels wind and relieves pain.

Regardless of cause, TMJ can be very devastating to the ears can be very frustrating and may lead to the end of the possible treatments for teeth clenching or teeth or the mouth.If these exercises are also a good treatment plan that you might recognize are pain in the afternoon when you bite.Whatever the cause, applying soothing heat to the left lower jaw to rest between openings.You may even worsen symptoms and never know when you are suffering from TMJ.Research shows that the cause of the bruxer, but trials show that certain diets and supplements, as well as, dizziness.

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Personal Development Advice That Can Make The Difference

Personal development centers on activities that improve an individual, whether they are invisible or visible to others. If you wish to begin – or are already on a path – for personal development, you may welcome some suggestions. The tips in the following post will help your journey to do just that.

Personal development is hard work. Developing your sense of self means lending your skill to others. Practice selflessness on your path to self-discovery. By helping others, you may find new things about yourself. Furthermore, helping others is a terrific boost for your self-esteem. This can motivate you to continue on and do other things to better the world.

    When it comes to keeping "your personal world" in order, that should also include your wallet. People place a lot of unnecessary stuff in their wallets that makes finding what you need almost impossible. Try using a smaller wallet to start with. Try keeping it free of garbage you accumulate. Also, go through it regularly to ensure that it remains clean.

  Make sure that you are well-rested. Working when you're tired can really make your work sloppy and it can really stress you out. It's also not that great for your health. Sometimes, even taking a nap can clear your head and you can be more productive after you wake up.

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"Think back to the last time you were rejected by someone special or failed at something you worked hard on. How did it make you feel? Like bricks falling on your chest? You must have then been told cliche statements like,  “Failure is the stepping stone to success.” But does knowing this automatically fix how …" http://yourdost.com/blog/2019/08/5-ways-to-bounce-back-from-failure-and-rejection.html

When suffering from a lack of confidence, you should try to engage in physical exercise or a type of sport on a regular basis. Not only will this improve your body shape and therefore your confidence in your looks, exercise releases endorphins which stimulate the mind and body to a natural high.

  Concentrate on getting through one day at a time. Sometimes, in the very beginning of trying to stop a bad habit or to implement better behavior we have to think in even smaller time increments. Very few people can make big changes all at once and be one-hundred percent successful.

  Focus on the things you want, create a plan to get them, and keep the following things in mind. This simple lesson is to take initiative over your life, and to never step back and watch passively. If you are only watching your life go by, you are not experiencing what your life was meant to be.

  If you are in need of some self help tips to deal with depression consider asking a friend or family member to check in on you regularly. Depression is an uphill battle and you may find yourself lacking motivation so its a great idea to have someone make the extra effort to see that you are doing okay.

  For someone who is experiencing problems controlling his or her anger, sometimes the most effective solution is also the simplest. Stop, breathe deeply, and count from one to ten. Most of the time, ten seconds is all the time that is needed to avoid a knee-jerk response that could easily have made the situation twice as volatile. It's old-school advice, but it really works.

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Self-help is one of those things that can only come from within. If you want to stop a bad habit or start a good one it does not matter who tells you to do it. If you are only doing it for someone else, you will never realize the accomplishment you are aiming for.

  Put a stop to those unwanted imaginary opinions that you think people have about you. Many of the terrible things you think people are thinking about you are not really occurring. If you can put a stop to what is basically self-criticizing, you are sure to gain the confidence you want.

  One way that you can help yourself manage stress is to do progressive muscle relaxation. One at a time, tighten a muscle, hold it, and then release the tension. This helps to relax your body, and studies have shown that people's mental stress goes down as their body tension is reduced.

  Don't just write your goals down, take the time to visualize them. What are the opportunities you gain for succeeding? Imagine what it will be like to achieve specific goals and feel the emotions that your imagination brings to you. Do this each and every day and you'll keep motivated and on the right path until you succeed.

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To healthily administer self help in regards to bipolar disorder, make sure that you not only take your prescriptions, but that you take them as directed. This is important because not only do you possibly weaken the positive effects of the drugs, but you may end up further hurting yourself.

  Stay motivated and stress free with exercise. Exercise is a great stress reliever but most people have a hard time getting into a groove with it. Work in small steps daily to build up a daily routine. Have a friend that exercises with you and keeps you motivated, to help you to continue.

  To stay motivated use your emotions as tools. People avoid painful experiences and seek out experiences that are pleasurable. When trying to break a bad habit, associate bad feelings with it. Then replace that habit with a good habit that makes you experience joy. You will be more likely to continue the good habit and less likely to continue the bad one.

  Gaining insight into who you are is extremely important. By knowing exactly who you are, your likes and dislikes, and what you truly believe in will take you far in terms of personal development. You will be able to express more confidence and not stand for things that you know are wrong for your life.

  Before you can help yourself develop, you must be willing to do so. The reason that so many people are not happy with themselves is because they are not open minded to suggestions on how to improve their overall life. By keeping an open mind, you may learn things that will help you to become happy with yourself.

  Hopefully, the above blog post will help you on your journey for personal development! It is true, not every adjustment you make may be visible to others. No doubt, the progress you make will encourage you to continue! Apply the suggestions given on your path to grow as a person.

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Personal Development Advice That Can Make The Difference

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Personal Development Advice That Can Make The Difference

Personal development centers on activities that improve an individual, whether they are invisible or visible to others. If you wish to begin – or are already on a path – for personal development, you may welcome some suggestions. The tips in the following post will help your journey to do just that.

Personal development is hard work. Developing your sense of self means lending your skill to others. Practice selflessness on your path to self-discovery. By helping others, you may find new things about yourself. Furthermore, helping others is a terrific boost for your self-esteem. This can motivate you to continue on and do other things to better the world.

    When it comes to keeping "your personal world" in order, that should also include your wallet. People place a lot of unnecessary stuff in their wallets that makes finding what you need almost impossible. Try using a smaller wallet to start with. Try keeping it free of garbage you accumulate. Also, go through it regularly to ensure that it remains clean.

  Make sure that you are well-rested. Working when you're tired can really make your work sloppy and it can really stress you out. It's also not that great for your health. Sometimes, even taking a nap can clear your head and you can be more productive after you wake up.

5 Ways To Bounce Back From Failure And Rejection

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"Think back to the last time you were rejected by someone special or failed at something you worked hard on. How did it make you feel? Like bricks falling on your chest? You must have then been told cliche statements like,  “Failure is the stepping stone to success.” But does knowing this automatically fix how …" http://yourdost.com/blog/2019/08/5-ways-to-bounce-back-from-failure-and-rejection.html

When suffering from a lack of confidence, you should try to engage in physical exercise or a type of sport on a regular basis. Not only will this improve your body shape and therefore your confidence in your looks, exercise releases endorphins which stimulate the mind and body to a natural high.

  Concentrate on getting through one day at a time. Sometimes, in the very beginning of trying to stop a bad habit or to implement better behavior we have to think in even smaller time increments. Very few people can make big changes all at once and be one-hundred percent successful.

  Focus on the things you want, create a plan to get them, and keep the following things in mind. This simple lesson is to take initiative over your life, and to never step back and watch passively. If you are only watching your life go by, you are not experiencing what your life was meant to be.

  If you are in need of some self help tips to deal with depression consider asking a friend or family member to check in on you regularly. Depression is an uphill battle and you may find yourself lacking motivation so its a great idea to have someone make the extra effort to see that you are doing okay.

  For someone who is experiencing problems controlling his or her anger, sometimes the most effective solution is also the simplest. Stop, breathe deeply, and count from one to ten. Most of the time, ten seconds is all the time that is needed to avoid a knee-jerk response that could easily have made the situation twice as volatile. It's old-school advice, but it really works.

Seven Careers That Keep You Moving

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"The Self Improvement Blog | Self Esteem | Self Confidence – People routinely pay hundreds per year for gym memberships, not knowing that they could actually get a workout and get paid at the same time. Some jobs out there will keep you active all day long, and will even pay you for things you’re already doing. Another benefit of active jobs is that you’ll generally […] Seven Careers That Keep You Moving" https://theselfimprovementblog.com/self-improvement/self-improvement-tips/seven-careers-that-keep-you-moving/

Self-help is one of those things that can only come from within. If you want to stop a bad habit or start a good one it does not matter who tells you to do it. If you are only doing it for someone else, you will never realize the accomplishment you are aiming for.

  Put a stop to those unwanted imaginary opinions that you think people have about you. Many of the terrible things you think people are thinking about you are not really occurring. If you can put a stop to what is basically self-criticizing, you are sure to gain the confidence you want.

  One way that you can help yourself manage stress is to do progressive muscle relaxation. One at a time, tighten a muscle, hold it, and then release the tension. This helps to relax your body, and studies have shown that people's mental stress goes down as their body tension is reduced.

  Don't just write your goals down, take the time to visualize them. What are the opportunities you gain for succeeding? Imagine what it will be like to achieve specific goals and feel the emotions that your imagination brings to you. Do this each and every day and you'll keep motivated and on the right path until you succeed.

125 Beautiful and Inspirational Quotes for Kids about Life

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"Are you looking for meaningful reading material for kids and young children? Have a look at the following inspirational quotes for kids about life, success, and happiness. You will find a lot of interesting thoughts and ideas that your child can be inspired with. And if you can’t get enough of profound ideas, be sure […]" http://www.planetofsuccess.com/blog/2019/inspirational-quotes-for-kids/

To healthily administer self help in regards to bipolar disorder, make sure that you not only take your prescriptions, but that you take them as directed. This is important because not only do you possibly weaken the positive effects of the drugs, but you may end up further hurting yourself.

  Stay motivated and stress free with exercise. Exercise is a great stress reliever but most people have a hard time getting into a groove with it. Work in small steps daily to build up a daily routine. Have a friend that exercises with you and keeps you motivated, to help you to continue.

  To stay motivated use your emotions as tools. People avoid painful experiences and seek out experiences that are pleasurable. When trying to break a bad habit, associate bad feelings with it. Then replace that habit with a good habit that makes you experience joy. You will be more likely to continue the good habit and less likely to continue the bad one.

  Gaining insight into who you are is extremely important. By knowing exactly who you are, your likes and dislikes, and what you truly believe in will take you far in terms of personal development. You will be able to express more confidence and not stand for things that you know are wrong for your life.

  Before you can help yourself develop, you must be willing to do so. The reason that so many people are not happy with themselves is because they are not open minded to suggestions on how to improve their overall life. By keeping an open mind, you may learn things that will help you to become happy with yourself.

  Hopefully, the above blog post will help you on your journey for personal development! It is true, not every adjustment you make may be visible to others. No doubt, the progress you make will encourage you to continue! Apply the suggestions given on your path to grow as a person.

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Wedding Planning

As I groggily leapt out of bed to hit the snooze button on my alarm, the chance that I would crawl back to bed vanished as the big toe on my right foot connected with the base of my dresser. As my foot exploded in pain, I mouthed “FUCK!” briefly forgetting that I lived in a studio apartment with no one else. “FUCK!” I screamed. I groped at the alarm clock blindly, frantically searching for any button that would silence it, and in the process, advancing the clock ahead by an hour and two minutes, reading 7:02am when it really should have displayed 6:00am.

I spent half the year dreading daylight saving time since I hated waking up in the darkness. As the days got darker, I found that my mood followed suit. I had no time to waste as I only had two months until the big day. After years of evading uncomfortable conversation, Trish had finally cornered me on year eight of our relationship. It was more of a negotiation than anything else, like the rational endpoint of something our relationship was supposedly leading up to. The magnum opus, but with a reluctant composer. A hail Mary that was perfectly targeted, but the quarterback was tired, and going to the Superbowl seemed like more of a chore than an accomplishment - so he intentionally threw the ball out of bounds with three seconds left, leaving the ticket holders in the Superdome with their jaws completely agape.

These scenarios swirled through my head as she explained the logic and benefits of getting married.

As she droned on, "... but that means we get two personal exemptions instead of one if we file a joint return. And yes, although we can't deduct as much mortgage interest anymore since home prices are in excess of two million in this area, the standard deduction was raised as well, and..." I nodded, perhaps a little too animatedly.

She frowned, “You’re not listening. You always do thi-”

I finished her previous thought, “…and the standard deduction was raised to $24,000, so if one of us stops working for childcare, filing jointly still makes sense because filing separately only gets us $12,000 each, which seems like it’s the same thing, but actually not, because in sole-provider families, that $12,000 won’t do anything for the non-earner.”

I beamed.

She glared at me, exasperated to be proven wrong, but at the same time, somewhat conflicted since I was listening and therefore had no right to be mad.

It’s moments like these that fed the smugness that carried me through most of my days. Being accused of not paying attention during a meeting, but producing detailed and thoughtful notes in a follow-up email. Parking in a handicapped parking spot and being called out by an opinionated old man while walking into the store, but pointing at the black walking boot that housed your broken foot as he sheepishly sputtered a half apology. An alcoholic father, storming into his son’s bedroom because he heard the sound of videogames being played, ready to unleash his anger, but finding his son doing homework quietly with Chopin in the background.

After she had stated the facts about marriage, which were admittedly well-thought-out, I agreed, but told her there was one condition: I would plan the wedding.

Deciding on the wedding venue was the first step for “Save the Date” purposes, but after that, I had dragged my feet the next couple of months. Since I put myself in charge of planning everything else,  Trish was suspicious of my progress. Frequently, when we were spending time together, I would excuse myself to take a couple of planning-related calls. I’d talk loudly – almost too loudly – and drop a couple of buzz words here and there.

“But if we’re going to go with this caterer, we need to schedule a time to taste the food. It’s nice that the photographer knows a florist who can design the centerpieces, but I’d really prefer that she went along with the design of our invitation, since we’re trying to keep the theme consistent. In terms of videography, the video staff told us their dress code adheres to neutral colors, which coincide with the overall attire of our wedding party.”

I was, of course, talking to no one else on the line, holding up a silenced cell phone to my head. I had to be careful too, since I had almost exhausted the wedding lexicon in my first call.

There were some hiccups, but nothing I wouldn’t be able to recover from.

“The black magic roses are almost indistinguishable from the black baccara, but the black dahlia really stands out to me.”

Trish glanced in my direction, and I realized that the Black Dahlia referred to the 1947 unsolved murder of Elizabeth Short, who had been gruesomely killed in Los Angeles, her body severed in two.

“Uh, I meant the ‘Diva’ dahlia – the one that’s bright pink.”

Trish glanced back down at her phone, scrolling through Instagram.

But the stall tactics masked my true intentions for the wedding – it would be a masterpiece if I could pull it off.

I dissected every piece of all the ingredients that went into a wedding. From the bar décor to the calligraphy on the menu cards, I became a wedding planning powerhouse.

The plan was relatively simple. Weddings were expensive and I really didn’t feel like shelling out $50,000 for a one-time celebration. In fact, I recalled some studies that I read that correlated higher divorce rates with higher wedding costs. So obviously, I quit my job – that was step number one.

Hiring a team of professionals to take care of every single wedding detail seemed extravagant and unnecessary. I dreamed of a reality where I could perform all the functions at a wedding at once. As the guests arrived to my wedding, I would man the bar, pouring everyone a welcome cocktail. Though I was tired from driving the shuttle over from the hotel, I made sure every guest would receive a shot of Jameson and a pickleback.

The guests would take their seats in the folding lawn chairs that I set up earlier in the day, and as the wedding procession started, I would also become the wedding photographer, taking pictures with my Canon Powershot A60 that my dad bought in 2004, but only in 640x480 resolution since I only had 20 megabytes left on my Compact Flash card. Before the bride started walking in, I would run to the kitchen, stirring a large vat of Thai peanut pasta, intended to feed 150 people. I had discarded everyone’s RSVP that included their meal choice and dietary restrictions. In this day and age, it’d be downright irresponsible for someone to not bring an Epipen wherever they went.

As the bride walked down the aisle, I would play the “Here Comes the Bride” wedding march on the violin. Having taken two weeks of YouTube lessons, I was pretty confident I would be able to perform in front of a live audience. I would play the song live because I abhorred the thought of a trashy recording at a classy ceremony.

Since I was the officiant of my own wedding, I would grab the microphone and address the audience, “Dearly beloved, we are gathered here to--” I’d catch Trish’s eye. Of course, she would be glaring daggers at me.

But as I daydreamed about my fantasy for a couple hours, I knew it wasn’t feasible for one person to perform every conceivable role at a wedding. However, I did know that I only trusted myself. That was the only constraint in devising my plan – I had to make sure that I had complete control over all the minutia.

There was only one possible solution - embryo genome editing with CRISPR-Cas9, the hottest new tool in molecular biology. The concept was simple enough – when bacteria fend off invasions from viruses, the bacteria capture DNA snippets from their attackers, effectively “remembering” who had attacked them, allowing them to create DNA segments called CRISPR arrays. Next time the viruses attack, the bacteria has the ability to disable its attacker by producing RNA segments from the CRISPR arrays, targeting the viruses’ DNA. With CRISPR-associated protein 9, the bacteria can then cut the viruses’ DNA apart, rendering the attack harmless.

With this concept in mind, gene editing had never been easier. Scientists simply repurposed CRISPR-Cas 9 to cut out a targeted gene. After a gene was excised, the doublestrand break repair mechanism gets triggered, ready to accept a homologous replacement piece of DNA. I picked up my kit at Shoppers Drug Mart after seeing that they were out of stock on Amazon.

Although modern day ethics prevented scientists from editing the genetics of embryos or egg and sperm cells, I decided that the rules were meant to be broken since I was on a tight wedding planning deadline.

While thumbing through TV channels one night, I caught a portion of “Jack,” the Robin Williams movie where the main character ages four times faster than his peers. When he graduated high school, he was a 50 year old man with the mind of an 18 year old. Obviously, Jack had some form of Werner syndrome, a rare disorder that caused premature aging. Offhand, I knew that this was caused by a mutation of DNA helicase, RecQ-like type 3, also known as the WRN gene found on chromosome 8.

My mind raced, as I knew I needed to find a donor template for an individual with Werner syndrome.

After a couple days in the lab, I injected 10 of the embryos I was incubating with a couple of choice mutations of the WRN gene. All I had to do now was wait. My wedding helpers would be the correct age, and most importantly, free of charge after all.

When the big day arrived, I spent a good portion of the morning making sure my army of clones looked dapper. Smoothing the collars on their bespoke suits, my clones exuded confidence, professionalism, and most of all, obedience. Still in movement, but not mechanical. Neutral in countenance, but not at all robotic. Every last detail, down to their regional accents, carefully crafted.

“Would you like some cauwfee suh?”

“Please make sure that your name appears in the computuh.”

“Dawhling, please step this way.”

Elated by the success of the clones, I let out an exaggerated sigh, half relief, and half fatigue. Working feverishly in the lab for the last two months, not to mention bottle feeding 10 rapidly aging clone infants, I felt like a shell of a human being. I tried everything: teabags, refrigerated cucumbers, spoons placed in the freezer overnight. The puffiness under my eyes persisted no matter what I tried, the remnants of many nights I spent weeping because one of the infants had passed away due to an infected skin ulcer.

Watching life leaving his little body tore me apart. As he gasped his last hiccups, I allowed the tears that welled up in my eyes to fall freely. I sobbed for three nights in a row, inconsolable as I screamed into my pillow with anguish.

“Is there anyone out there? Is each other all we have?”

My wedding bartender was gone, one of the most expensive wedding personnel to hire, and I wailed even harder when I realized that there wasn’t enough time to incubate a replacement clone.

Despite some unanticipated road bumps, I was ready to set my wedding planning machine into motion.

Attentive, polite, and witty, the clones’ mannerisms posed a striking resemblance to mine, although their rapidly aging bodies were a foil to my rugged good looks.

The morning of the wedding, I staggered out of bed at 10:30am and immediately chugged a bottle of water. After I splashed water on my face, I looked up and squinted at the mirror. Pulling down the skin directly under my right eye, I wasn’t surprised to see the faint outlines of pink veins that originated from the corners of my almond shaped eye. Though it was a tradition, it was generally inadvisable to go out drinking until five in the morning the night before your own wedding. But I caved into peer pressure, recognizing that it wasn’t every Friday night when my closest friends were in town.

For the guests, the first official wedding activity was the ceremony at 4:00pm, so from a third-party perspective, they wouldn’t know how far behind I actually was.

I heard rustling in the closet, and I knew that the clones were also awake, ready to do my bidding.

To minimize the friction of controlling the clones, and to completely bypass any type of socialization of servitude where I’d need to crush their collective spirit multiple times to substantiate the fact that serving me was their only reality, I had decided to inject my own consciousness into the nine remaining beings. I had played the role of good cop, bad cop in breaking the free will of a clone multiple times before, and although I had thoroughly enjoyed the thrill of violence and control, due to the side effects of Werner syndrome, the clones were in no shape for any type of physical punishment. The wedding simply could not happen if I lost one more clone.

Trish had accused me of being spacey and distant in the weeks leading up to the wedding, but remotely controlling 10 different bodies, including my own, was a task that I grossly underestimated. She had no idea that while I was making dinner for her, my consciousness was watching YouTube videos on how to play the violin, learning proper plating techniques for a three course meal, reading up on the latest flower arrangement trends for centerpieces, creating a wedding program on Adobe InDesign, carefully constructing a multilayered wedding cake, hemming my tuxedo dress pants, and negotiating a limousine from a used car lot. If she only knew, her hand wouldn’t have slackened unapologetically when I introduced her as “Tina” to my “co-workers” at a fake work event that I staged.

Since the clones’ eyes were an extension of my own eyes, the sight of myself, as viewed by another person, was something that I’d never get used to. When I went to the gym, when walking by an awkwardly angled mirror, I’d catch a glimpse of my side profile, a view I’d never see if I stared straight into a mirror. Not matter how many nude duckfaces I selfied with Snapchat filters, the extent to which I saw the side of my head was minimal to say the least. It was an out of body experience, the kind people talked about when they technically “died” on the operating table, but all I could think about was how weird my head was shaped, and how bushy my eyebrows looked from the side, and how crooked my nose was.

I wouldn’t have ever done it, but I wondered what it would be like to fight myself. Would it be like one of those “did you know you can bite off your finger with your teeth, just as easily as biting a carrot in half, but our brains prevent us from doing so” myths? If I could anticipate my every move, even if I managed to hit myself, there must be some semblance of me letting it happen. But what if I got killed? My original body, I mean, the master pulling the strings of the puppet. I wondered if my consciousness would transfer over or if these hollow shells that were technically human beings would cease to mentally function.

By afternoon of the wedding day, I had hoped the fogginess would have burned off completely, as the clones needed all of their focus to pull this off.

A sharp knocking on my hotel door startled me, but I should have known that my groomsmen were right on time for wedding photos. As my clones fussed over the position of our boutonnieres and the knots of our bowties, I decided that it was time to distribute my groomsmen gifts. While my bachelor party raged on in Rio de Janiero, I had deployed the clones to conquer and pillage the uncontacted peoples of the Miqueleno-Kujubim in the Brazilian state of Rondônia. With their superior technology and Blitzkrieg methods, the clones subdued the natives in less than 30 seconds. The pillaging commenced, and soon I had my gifts in hand. I presented each groomsman with a gold ingot with their names engraved, and I had prayed that the clones had at least washed off the blood and any remaining hair.

As the bridal party made its way over to the wedding venue, so did the clones. I had expected some sort of crisis, like a hiccup in the officiating, overdone steak on the wedding menu, perhaps a crucial and obvious detail that I had blatantly missed. But everything went smoothly, and when Trish locked eyes with me at the reception, she smiled warmly, impressed at my ability to organize such a lavish production. As Trish relaxed and settled in, I started loosening up as well. Blood rushed back into my once white-knuckles as I relaxed my iron grip on the minds of my clones.

At first, it was a series of minor missteps, like a fumbled wine glass during a refill, or an errant fork clattering on the ground. Completely imperceptible through the raucous crowd. Expected, even.

As I turned around, I caught a glimpse of a clone pouring the after-dinner coffee for one of Trish’s guests. As I turned back to Trish, I heard a bloodcurdling scream. Turning my attention behind me once more, the same clone was slumped over the same guest, pouring scalding hot coffee in her lap. Taking a note that it was one of Trish’s guests, I turned back to Trish once more, stone-faced.  

It’s just decaf. I don’t like it either, but no need to scream bloody murder, I thought.

I had planned for this. I knew that the hive mind could only prop up rapidly aging shells for a limited amount of time before they crumpled up into helpless heaps on the ground. As the puppet master, I kept the strings on my marionettes taut, but as soon as I fed them some slack, their limbs splayed out, almost completely limp, propped up by the few strands of longer strings that prevented the puppet from collapsing completely.

Shifting my focus, I decided to take back the reins. With my eyes closed, I scanned the depths of my brain for bodies I was capable of enslaving. This was the one downside of the mind control serum - identifying host bodies that I had once injected required intense concentration, as eligible candidates looked like blobs of radiating heat, like how they appeared on a thermal imaging camera, but a lot less clear.

It was a mix of bad luck and sheer coincidence that I had once inhabited the minds of most of my wedding guests - mostly for personal gain and fraud. I grasped at any red blob, assuming the consciousness of guest after guest. For each mind I assumed, I glanced down. Since there were no mirrors, I immediately looked at the back of my hands. Although primitive, I had branded all my clones with a sigil for easy identification.

I looked at the clock - it was around 7:45pm and the LSD that I spiked in the water supply should have kicked in five minutes ago.

The air around me seemed to quiver even though I stayed perfectly still. The piercing screams and howls of anguish took on a color of their own and bathed the tablecloth in hues of red, purple, and then black. I had originally wanted the overall mood to be calming and peaceful, with the intention of the LSD enhancing and heightening the existing ambiance. However, the screams of burn victims and tortured souls darkened the room, and I needed to change the vibe quickly.

I correctly assumed the mind of clone who was manning the DJ booth, but had underestimated the amount of focus it took to control his body. With my clumsy hands, I button-mashed the controls for the lights and music. The strobe lights kicked on and the speakers started blasting electronic music with pounding bass.

Unbeknownst to me, “Patient Zero” emerged onto the dance floor. Zero, the eleventh clone who was supposed to be discarded by his clone brethren due to his mental instability and contagious rabid condition.

I was annoyed. I specifically told the clones to discard of Zero since the incubation period for his virus was only a week, and there could be no chance of the virus escaping the confines of his body. But sentient beings often felt compassion, even defying logic at times. Zero had always been the runt of the group, and because of his small stature, he had been adored by the others in their infancy.

I toyed with the idea of replacing the fallen clone infant with Zero, but I just realized that would have been downright irresponsible and borderline dangerous.

I barely recognized him at first, but his tattered rags were unmistakable. He was wearing one of my old hand-me-down “The Nature Company” shirts from the 1990s, although it was stained and soiled to almost near indistinguishability.

He was a mistake, a product of my incapability to multitask. When I was experimenting with the WRN gene, I couldn’t resist modifying other genes in the RecQ family (as an aside, I coined the term “jammin’ on the (DNA) helicase” and once in a while, I secretly smiled to myself at my cleverness), including the BLM gene, whose mutation caused the Bloom-Torre-Machacek syndrome. Individuals with Bloom syndrome typically had short stature and rashes that were induced by the sun. Aside from cosmetic differences, they unfortunately had higher rates of cancer. I wasn’t sure what I was trying to achieve by this gene modification, but by sheer bad luck, Zero was bitten by a rabid squirrel in one of our group outdoor education sessions.

With a crazed look in his eyes, Zero started attacking my guests indiscriminately. He was mute, but the bloodlust in his eyes said it all. The mutated strain of rabies took hold of his victims almost immediately, and as I surveyed my felled guests, I felt a tinge of sadness. Some of these guests hadn’t yet handed over their wedding gifts yet. It would be in poor taste to rummage their bodies for a bloodstained card in a suit pocket, much less take the jewelry off of their mangled fingers.

It was clearly time to go. I relinquished all consciousness and returned all of my focus back into my original body. I took Trish by the hand, headed to the helipad, and started up the helicopter.

Surveying the leaping flames from afar, I could make out figures in the distance running around wildly. I shook my head and launched two heat seeking missiles into the fracas. I thought about my groomsmen for half a second, but it was okay because I didn’t have fun at my bachelor party. They had all shared a nervous glance and hesitated when I ordered two bottles of Dom Pérignon from the waitress at the table, the same nervous glance they shared when I ordered multiple portions of beluga caviar at dinner. Plus, when they ran out of cash, they sent the strippers home instead of Venmo-ing them money from their personal accounts. Shaking with rage from the traumatic memories of my bachelor party, I sent four more missiles into the burning wreckage. 

Trish never said a single word the entire flight.

When we landed, she burst into tears. It was exactly how she imagined her wedding as a child.

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Flora Sleep Ingredients and Side Effects

The manufacturer’s website provides a full list of ingredients that are used in the product, as well as short descriptions of how the ingredients are supposed to function and what purpose they serve. They also provide a look at the actual label of the product, but unfortunately, there are not supplement facts and no specific dosage information provided. This is important because, it leaves the user less informed as to what they are applying to their bodies.

Here are all the ingredients that are included within Flora Sleep:

Valerian Olive Chamomile Aloe Vera White Chestnut Alpine Aster Red Chestnut St. John’s Wort

Chamomile: An herb that is derived from a flower and used to make medicine. It can be used to treat a variety of disorders, including intestinal gas, ADHD, diarrhea, restlessness, and trouble sleeping. It contains chemicals that can promote relaxation, as well as reduce swelling or inflammation in some users. By reducing anxiety, it helps many users relax their brain prior to going to sleep.

St. John’s Wort: Derived from a plant that mostly grows in Europe, North and South America, and Australia. It is used often to treat depression and conditions that are often associated with depression, such as anxiety, fatigue, and trouble sleeping. It has also been used to help people quit smoking, treat fibromyalgia, and migraine headaches.

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Irritability, dry mouth, and diarrhea

Valerian: An herb that is mostly used for treating sleep disorder, particularly for those who suffer from insomnia. The supplement functions as a sedative for the brain as well as the nervous system, which reduces anxiety and stress, making it an effective treatment for those who cannot get to sleep because they can’t shut their brain off. Additionally, it can be used to treat issues such as depression, fear, excitability, and hypochondria.

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Flora Sleep Quality of Ingredients

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The Price and Quality of Flora Sleep

The product is sold through the manufacturer’s website for $14.80 per bottle plus shipping and handling. It is not quite clear how long each bottle is intended to last, as the manufacturer states that the amount of sprays each consumer uses can vary depending upon the person, so it is difficult to compare that price to the price of other sleep aids that are available currently on the market.

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Business of Flora Sleep

Flora Sleep is produced and manufactured by Flower Essence Services, a producer of natural health remedies based out of Nevada City, California.

Here is the contact information we could find for the company online:

Address: Flower Essence Services, PO Box 1769, Nevada City, CA 95959

Phone Number: (800) 548-0075

Email: They don’t provide a specific email address, but do provide a page through which to submit electronic questions.

The manufacturer does not appear to maintain a page with the Better Business Bureau, and is not involved in any current lawsuits or litigation.

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Customer Opinions of Flora Sleep

The product is sold both through the manufacturer’s website, as well as through other online vendors such as Amazon. As a result, objective reviews are the product are easy to locate online. Overall, it seems that consumer reaction to the product is mixed to negative, with many users stating that the product is only effective for those who suffer from light sleeping issues, and not more serious sleep conditions.

Here are some of the consumer reviews that we could locate online:

“I’ve used several flower sprays, and I liked this one the least. It didn’t have any sort of effect on my sleep at all.”

“This is a very gentle sleep aid, so if you have used stronger, more industrial strength sleep aids you’ll probably not get anything out of it.”

“I purchased it recently and have tried a variety of different amounts, but they have all been useless.”

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Conclusion – Does Flora Sleep Work?

Flora Sleep is a unique sleep product that takes a very moderate approach to sleep health. This may have some benefits such as less of a chance of negative side effects, but also it does not inspire much confidence in its potential effectiveness. The formula only includes a few clinically backed ingredients, and even those ingredients are mitigated somewhat by only being applied topically, and not ingested.

The rest of the formula is made up of ingredients that have limited to no direct connection to sleep health, and because no specific dosage information is provided it is hard to judge how the formula will perform ahead of time. Consumer reactions have been similarly lukewarm to the product. Ultimately, we recommend finding a product that utilizes more established ingredients and provides more detailed information as to how they are used, along with stronger consumer responses to back them up.

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Determination: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7  ( 8 )  9 10

Changjo is the type that when he sets his sights on something, he won’t stop until he gets it. Determination is what allowed him to become an idol at a young age, and to rapidly improve his strength, as well as his various other skills-- he’s know in Teen Top as their multi-talented member. Changjo not only dances well, but sings well-- and he can rap, act, model, produce songs, choreograph, film music videos, etc. He tries hard to be good at everything, and while most would consider that spreading one’s self too thin, Changjo just sees it as another challenge to tackle.

Perseverance: 1 2 3 4 5 6 ( 7 ) 8 9 10 

Perseverance is tied directly to determination, and without it, Changjo would not be all that he is today. However, he can get frustrated at times, which is why the score for this is lower than that of determination.

Self-Discipline: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 ( 9 ) 10 

Due to studying martial arts since a young age, Changjo is incredibly self-disciplined. This is apparent in his work ethic, as well as his mindset when it comes to achieving his goals. There are also negative consequences to this strong self-disciple, though. When Changjo was going through a period of time where he had a very negative body image, his self-control allowed him to skip meals and not feed himself, all for the idea of making himself thinner and “more attractive”.

Self-Reliance: 1 2 3 4 5 6 ( 7 ) 8 9 10 

Changjo acts as a child sometimes, but for the most part, he is self reliant. He makes his own money, and can fend for himself-- but that doesn’t mean he’ll take being completely independent over being spoiled by his mom every once in awhile.

Self-Confidence: 1 2 3 4 5 ( 6 ) 7 8 9 10 

Changjo puts on an air as a narcissistic and self-loving individual, but these are ways that he masks his insecurities. As mentioned earlier, he did have to endure a period of time where he had a very low opinion of himself, due to comments by the public about his appearance. This evolved into him having an eating disorder, and though he seems to have rehabilitated from that mindset, there is still an underlying shadow of insecurity and self-loathing. 

Creativity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 ( 9 ) 10 

He is very creative, as evidenced by the self-composed songs he’s produced (one even became a song for his labelmate UP10TION’s album), as well as the dances he’s choreographed in his free time.

Personality: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 ( 8 ) 9 10

There are two sides to Changjo’s personality-- one is very playful and childish, while the other is more adult in nature. The playful side is one he brings out for the stage and for his fans, while the more mature one is reserved for his close friends.

Style: 1 2 3 4 5 ( 6 ) 7 8 9 10

Changjo’s style is... very unique at times. Sometimes, he’s dressed in very trendy and chic concepts, while the other times.... not so much...

Flexibility:  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 ( 8 ) 9 10 

He is strong due to years of martial arts and dance training, and as a result, is more flexible than the average male.

Dance: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ( 9.5 ) 10 

Changjo was chosen to join Teen Top for his dance skills, and with nearly seven years in the idol industry, which allowed him to work with professional dance instructors and trainers, his already high aptitude for dance was cultivated and made even stronger and more precise.

Teamwork: 1 2 3 4 5 6 ( 7 ) 8 9 10 

Due to being in a group, Changjo has no other choice than to be proficient with teamwork-- that being said, there are often times where he would much rather prefer to work independently... not that he doesn’t absolutely love his hyungs unconditionally... of course not...

Physical Fitness:  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ( 10 ) 

Changjo has a strict regimen of waking up at 5:30 AM to go exercise for at least an hour and a half in his home gym every single day. Additionally, in his free time, he will sometimes go out for runs. Both Teen Top and Angels consider him the strongest and fittest member. Even while back stage prepping for a performance, Changjo still works out-- he and Leader C.A.P will lift weights together. This helps get rid of pre-show nervousness/anxiety, and helps Changjo maintain his fitness.

Communication Skills: 1 2 3 4 ( 5 ) 6 7 8 9 10 

He’s rather passive-aggressive when he’s angry, and instead of choosing to talk about things and work the problem out, he’ll often ignore the other party and give them the cold shoulder.

Professional Attitude: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 ( 9 ) 10 

It was mentioned earlier that Changjo has been an idol for nearly seven years. As a result, he has a refined professional attitude that allows him to progress in his career.

Good People Skills: 1 2 3 4 5 ( 6 ) 7 8 9 10 

He’s good with fans, but that’s due to the fact that he knows Angels love him unconditionally, which lessens his nerves. Outside of that, Changjo can be somewhat shy and reserved with new people, making his people skills seem rather low.

Patience: 1 ( 2 ) 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Extremely impatient. When Changjo wants something, he wants it now. He loves instant gratification, and if he can’t get something right away, he will work for it to make his desire come to him faster.

Stamina: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 ( 9 ) 10 

Changjo has high stamina due to his level of physical fitness, and his constant maintenance of his body.

Fitness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ( 10 )

He works out every day, and keeps to a strict schedule of exercise.

Good Grooming: 1 2 3 4 ( 5 ) 6 7 8 9 10 

He cares a lot for his skin, and works to keep it nice and clean with facial care, and thorough showers. Despite being a very cleanly individual, Changjo doesn’t put much effort into combing his hair after going through the process of washing it. He just lets it dry out naturally, and it’s often rather messy when he’s not at schedules.

Memorization:  1 2 3 4 ( 5 ) 6 7 8 9 10 

Often has trouble memorizing things, and will stay longer and practice more hours to ensure perfection.

Stage Presence: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 ( 8 ) 9 10

Changjo has a very strong stage presence when he performs solo. With his members, he often takes the back burner, as Chunji and Niel are more heavily focused on in group stages.

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Personal Development Advice That Can Make The Difference

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Personal Development Advice That Can Make The Difference

Personal development centers on activities that improve an individual, whether they are invisible or visible to others. If you wish to begin – or are already on a path – for personal development, you may welcome some suggestions. The tips in the following post will help your journey to do just that.

Personal development is hard work. Developing your sense of self means lending your skill to others. Practice selflessness on your path to self-discovery. By helping others, you may find new things about yourself. Furthermore, helping others is a terrific boost for your self-esteem. This can motivate you to continue on and do other things to better the world.

    When it comes to keeping "your personal world" in order, that should also include your wallet. People place a lot of unnecessary stuff in their wallets that makes finding what you need almost impossible. Try using a smaller wallet to start with. Try keeping it free of garbage you accumulate. Also, go through it regularly to ensure that it remains clean.

  Make sure that you are well-rested. Working when you're tired can really make your work sloppy and it can really stress you out. It's also not that great for your health. Sometimes, even taking a nap can clear your head and you can be more productive after you wake up.

5 Ways To Bounce Back From Failure And Rejection

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"Think back to the last time you were rejected by someone special or failed at something you worked hard on. How did it make you feel? Like bricks falling on your chest? You must have then been told cliche statements like,  “Failure is the stepping stone to success.” But does knowing this automatically fix how …" http://yourdost.com/blog/2019/08/5-ways-to-bounce-back-from-failure-and-rejection.html

When suffering from a lack of confidence, you should try to engage in physical exercise or a type of sport on a regular basis. Not only will this improve your body shape and therefore your confidence in your looks, exercise releases endorphins which stimulate the mind and body to a natural high.

  Concentrate on getting through one day at a time. Sometimes, in the very beginning of trying to stop a bad habit or to implement better behavior we have to think in even smaller time increments. Very few people can make big changes all at once and be one-hundred percent successful.

  Focus on the things you want, create a plan to get them, and keep the following things in mind. This simple lesson is to take initiative over your life, and to never step back and watch passively. If you are only watching your life go by, you are not experiencing what your life was meant to be.

  If you are in need of some self help tips to deal with depression consider asking a friend or family member to check in on you regularly. Depression is an uphill battle and you may find yourself lacking motivation so its a great idea to have someone make the extra effort to see that you are doing okay.

  For someone who is experiencing problems controlling his or her anger, sometimes the most effective solution is also the simplest. Stop, breathe deeply, and count from one to ten. Most of the time, ten seconds is all the time that is needed to avoid a knee-jerk response that could easily have made the situation twice as volatile. It's old-school advice, but it really works.

Seven Careers That Keep You Moving

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"The Self Improvement Blog | Self Esteem | Self Confidence – People routinely pay hundreds per year for gym memberships, not knowing that they could actually get a workout and get paid at the same time. Some jobs out there will keep you active all day long, and will even pay you for things you’re already doing. Another benefit of active jobs is that you’ll generally […] Seven Careers That Keep You Moving" https://theselfimprovementblog.com/self-improvement/self-improvement-tips/seven-careers-that-keep-you-moving/

Self-help is one of those things that can only come from within. If you want to stop a bad habit or start a good one it does not matter who tells you to do it. If you are only doing it for someone else, you will never realize the accomplishment you are aiming for.

  Put a stop to those unwanted imaginary opinions that you think people have about you. Many of the terrible things you think people are thinking about you are not really occurring. If you can put a stop to what is basically self-criticizing, you are sure to gain the confidence you want.

  One way that you can help yourself manage stress is to do progressive muscle relaxation. One at a time, tighten a muscle, hold it, and then release the tension. This helps to relax your body, and studies have shown that people's mental stress goes down as their body tension is reduced.

  Don't just write your goals down, take the time to visualize them. What are the opportunities you gain for succeeding? Imagine what it will be like to achieve specific goals and feel the emotions that your imagination brings to you. Do this each and every day and you'll keep motivated and on the right path until you succeed.

125 Beautiful and Inspirational Quotes for Kids about Life

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"Are you looking for meaningful reading material for kids and young children? Have a look at the following inspirational quotes for kids about life, success, and happiness. You will find a lot of interesting thoughts and ideas that your child can be inspired with. And if you can’t get enough of profound ideas, be sure […]" http://www.planetofsuccess.com/blog/2019/inspirational-quotes-for-kids/

To healthily administer self help in regards to bipolar disorder, make sure that you not only take your prescriptions, but that you take them as directed. This is important because not only do you possibly weaken the positive effects of the drugs, but you may end up further hurting yourself.

  Stay motivated and stress free with exercise. Exercise is a great stress reliever but most people have a hard time getting into a groove with it. Work in small steps daily to build up a daily routine. Have a friend that exercises with you and keeps you motivated, to help you to continue.

  To stay motivated use your emotions as tools. People avoid painful experiences and seek out experiences that are pleasurable. When trying to break a bad habit, associate bad feelings with it. Then replace that habit with a good habit that makes you experience joy. You will be more likely to continue the good habit and less likely to continue the bad one.

  Gaining insight into who you are is extremely important. By knowing exactly who you are, your likes and dislikes, and what you truly believe in will take you far in terms of personal development. You will be able to express more confidence and not stand for things that you know are wrong for your life.

  Before you can help yourself develop, you must be willing to do so. The reason that so many people are not happy with themselves is because they are not open minded to suggestions on how to improve their overall life. By keeping an open mind, you may learn things that will help you to become happy with yourself.

  Hopefully, the above blog post will help you on your journey for personal development! It is true, not every adjustment you make may be visible to others. No doubt, the progress you make will encourage you to continue! Apply the suggestions given on your path to grow as a person.