#ooc: he does in fact write in red pen for the sillies. i got bored this morning dont mind me....

[a-mind-for-discovery]

Entry #1 

Date : *****

I have sorta convinced myself to start writing all the down now after the events recently. Collecting my thoughts onto things and also talking about my day. 

I am not sure how to feel at the moment. I didn't think I'd learn so much about what happens to me in the future. I have been trying to talk to Jayce about it. He doesn't seem to be really paying attention when I bring any of this up, and when I do, he assumes I'm joking or he says im being ' delusional ' . The man is a fool sometimes. 

On a poor positive note for the past couple of days, I think I made a friend? It feels that way, and if I'm reading the room wrong, well, it wouldn't be the first time for such a mistake. His name is Echo???? Ekko. Something like that anyway. He mentioned something about how we can bond over versions of ourselves not being too great. Which I'm going to take seriously unless he corrects me. He asked me about stars tonight. Which very well reminded me you can not see them from Zaun. I should go back and visit sometimes. I need a break from Piltover, if I'm honest. I really wanna avoid getting in trouble for hitting someone over the head with my cane. I already had a bad run-in with an enforcer; I don't need anything else going wrong. The fact I'm here and learning here is a miracle in itself. I can not lose that. Knowing I'm going to get kicked out because of a report a friend of mine will make on me about an idea I suggested has me on edge.

I'm going to be honsted, I do not think I have ever been so scared about things in my life. I'm used to enforcers being genuinely assholes about things. But today was a lot; getting arrested is not a thing I would have expected. Which is a surprise considering a lot. I can't freak out like that again, though. If I don't have someone to help me like this time, I could get into so much trouble, and I can't have that. I don't know why I got like that. I don't know why I hit them. I wasn't thinking right 

My leg hasn't stopped hurting. I don't know if I'm gonna be able to get out of bed tomorrow. It's very annoying. I should try talking to Jayce to see if he can bring me stuff. I'm still not speaking terms with him, I think so, nevermind. Why does he have to be so annoying and childish sometimes? Is frustrating. I don't know what to do, though. He's the only person I have here and whenever anything, literally anything is an inconvenience to him he throws a fucking hissy fit? I'm basically babysitting him at this point. 

I shouldn't be writing like that. Okay, that was a bit harsh. But still. I think I made friends with another version of him, at least? He's pretty sweet; offered me some help, which I appreciate. All of this is weird, if I'm honest. I didn't expect anything like this, and I have a feeling it's all gonna get more weird. At least  I have people now. Even if it is only a couple.

I should rest now. If my leg isn't feeling any better tomorrow, then staying in bed it is. 

- VIKTOR 

Forgot to write theese down somewhere else, so here is probably fine.

List of things older me has mentioned I should look into : 

- Learn how to take out my own appendix (???? I am worried about this one, but okay ) 

- Be aware of the symptoms of sepsis 

- Work on a taser cane (???)