#only to remember hes not 5 years old and doenst have to eorry about cookies being bake anymore

[strangeweirdgirl]

Thinking about how pb&j sandwich and koolaid aren't even Luke's favourite. It's just what's easier to make and less dangerous. He does not want his unstable mom in the kitchen making full course meals with knifes and oven and fire. She can turn anytime and he's terrified of her hurting him or hurting herself.

And cookies. May made them once when she was in a somewhat better condition (they were still kinda burned) but Luke loved them but oh does he regret showing that. Now all May wants to do is bake him cookies. She wants to make the dough from scratch, go out to buy the ingredients and worse cookies means working with the oven. Cookies mean a potential to burn herself or something down. Especially since it seems to be registered in May's mind that Luke likes burnt cookies and so she's cooking them overtime. And Luke's terrified of it. He's terrified his mom might burn herself turning on the oven. He's terrified his mom will forget them in the oven and a fire would start. Along with her unstableness, the smoke, the weird voice telling him his horrible future, now he has to worry about her accidently hurting them making him cookies. And he hates it. He tries to reverse his reaction, to say to her he hates them, to do anything to make her forget he likes them. But all May remembers how happy her son looked when he saw the plate of cookies on the table. And that's enough for her to cook them again and again. Nothing he say register in her, all she remembers is baby Luke's huge smile and how fast he finished the plate and so she convinced herself it's his favourite and she will make it again and again.