#only the highest quality adhd ramblings

[kanvasal]

exploiting ADHD like a buggy feature in a game

I've realized some things about adhd, specifically how I can exploit certain things like impulsivity and hyperactivity to benefit me in specific ways.

All of my (2) posts? Purely driven by the insane amounts of manic energy I get at 1am after my meds have worn off. Also posting is scary, but the second point makes it possible to post

The way that I can stop over thinking and actually enjoy conversation? Telling my brain "fucking stop" and it being like "no, actually, sure, you're probably right"

and this morning, I have something even better

I've been trying to fix my sleep schedule, and my chosen method is to bully my body into being tired earlier by waking up on as much sleep was given to me (waking up to an alarm at 7am and dealing with the consequences of staying up till 4am). Normally an impossible task, something only possible if one is a deity of some kind

but not today, no, today I could do it. My proof?

boom, undeniable proof (just noticed how fucking long my ramble is, and I haven't gotten to the point I wanted to share lol)

The way that I did it was that, as soon as I woke up, I realized that the song I had in my head was perfect for waking up. The song was C:\AM#N_C0RE, and the only way I can describe it is manic adhd energy but in music form. My brain, with less than 3 hours of sleep was like "Fuck this is such a banger that I gotta listen to it" and so I was up at 7:04 head banging as my mind tried to keep up with the drums, flailing my hands around as my flesh prison tried to keep up with the energy of the song and soul, you know what I'm talking about?

The other part that adhd plays in me being able to do superhuman feats of waking up and functioning is that I have stimulant meds, that means that I do not feel tired during the day when I pull shit like this

Also for all of those people that are going "Well, I can also run perfectly off 3 hours of sleep, and I don't have adhd", quiet. Please let me be proud of waking up using my chaos disorder