#only teia calls him bambi

[sternentreue]

Character sheet for Enzo!

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[lagingersnapz]

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. I definitely understand that feeling. I've been sitting in something similar for quite a while myself. If it helps, I can babble a little about my Rook. Large amounts of aimless chatter and a few pictures under the cut.

This is my main Rook, Bea de Riva. If I ever manage to write a DA fic, she will most likely be the Rook who features in it. Bea is short for Bambi, which evolved from the word "bambina," which means "little girl" in Italian, so kinda Antivan, maybe? When she was first taken in by the Crows, she refused to speak to even give them her name, so they just started calling her Bambina, which evolved into Bambi. She hated that enough to eventually try and correct them, but the damage was done, and the most she could do was convince them to call her "Bea" instead. Teia still calls her Bambi, but Teia is the ONLY one allowed to call her that.

The circumstances around Bea joining the Crows weren't ideal, and she actually has something of a grudge against the First Talon, Caterina, as she was more or less responsible for the death of Bea's family. Bea would probably be dead, too, but Viago took pity on her. She wants to have a grudge against Lucanis and Illario as well by extension, though they were not involved in the death of her family since they were too young at the time. Lucanis is a cinnamon roll, though, so she isn't able to stay mad at him. Especially since logically, she knows he wasn't involved in killing her family. Illario is on thin ice, though, because she finds his reputation as a flirt a little annoying. 😆

Bea's magic didn't manifest until she had already been training with the Crows for awhile, but she is very proud of it, even if it seems to stress Viago out. And maybe ESPECIALLY because it seems to stress Viago out. Despite the rocky start with the Crows and her hesitation towards the Dellamorte's, Bea loves Viago and considers him her family now. And Teia, of course. Everyone loves Teia.

Bea is fascinated by Spite and doesn't think of him as a demon, as her parents taught her that spirits are reflections of people's perceptions of them. She thinks it is stupid that nobody wants to try talking to Spite, and that they are creating more problems by insisting Spite doesn't want to talk and calling him a problem. She thinks of that as a self-fulfilling prophecy. As soon as she learns that Emmrich can hear Spite whenever he is around Lucanis she begs Emmrich to teach her how to be more in tune with spirits so that she can also hear Spite whenever she is around Lucanis.

Aaaaaaaand that's probably enough babbling. 😅

Every now and again I get kinda ... overwhelmed by things. At the moment I'm struggling to write my fics, to reply to reviews and even to edit. I'm frozen.

It's like I'm in the ocean and i can see a wave coming and instead of doing something about it I'm treading water and waiting for it to smash down on me - even though i know waiting will only make it bigger.

If anyone wants to share pictures of their Rooks or tell me about them, please do! I could use the distraction until this feeling passes.