#only half joking about the con art btw I looooooove seeing that stuff

[caliconimbus]

Just remembered MFF is coming up and it’s got me a lil down. I really wanna go to MFF and IFC and GenCon and such! But it’s been ages since I had con funds and I’m very much not prepped with a costume and it’s just a reminder that the *reason* I don’t have cash for fun stuff is that I’m too disabled to make a proper income. And then there I go back into my stupid little spiral bc that just trips my mental health hang-ups

Ugh. Being a furry is supposed to be fun! But I can’t even participate in con culture and that just gets me jealous and angry. I wanna run around in cosplay and meet folks from the local community and maybe get a bit frisky in somebody’s hotel room!

Guess I’ll just think about how I’d definitely catch con flu if not Covid bc my immune system is trash these days and tell myself the fun isn’t worth the pain. It’s better than dwelling on everything I’m missing. Y’all will just have to hoe it up for me extra, and commission art of your fun so I can live vicariously through your twink wolves getting plowed by thick gators <3